#relevant for both in this case

[grimalkinmessor]

The way that I—

#hori won't give me their hopes and fears so i shall MAKE THEM UP MYSELF #YOICHI MY DUDE WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS WHO ARE YOU WHEN I'M NOT ORCHESTRATING YOUR INNER MONOLOGUE #horikoshi give us more yoichi content #he heeded my baby for one demands perhaps he'll see this one HORI PLZ #YOICHI DEATH SCEEENEEEE #AFO FINDING OUT SCEEENEEE #i have to do EVERYTHING myself #(im actually very pleased with the new chapters i am just impatient :'3) #all for one #shigaraki yoichi #bnha #boku no hero academia #first one for all holder #gimme afo's name before the one i made up sticks in my head 🔫 #afofa #shigaraki brothers #relevant for both in this case #WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER DON'T LIE

[penny-anna]

sharing this info in case it's of use to anyone else: i had a root canal recently & due to chronic issues w nasal congestion had an absolutely Hellish experience w the dental dam due to it covering my nostrils.

anyway i'm now in the process of having a 2nd root canal treatment and figured it was worth asking if there was anything they could do to help and it turns out YES they can cut back the dental dam so your nose isn't obstructed & they treated this like a perfectly normal request.

#this information will not be relevant to many people's lives but just in case #im so relieved i was dreading having to do it again :( #both times i've had to do this its taken SO long to get the dental dam fitted and once it's in place you can't talk so uh #bad time all around

[neversetyoufree]

Wait hold on I just noticed something really funny.

I'm sure we all remember the incredibly gay moment of Domi quoting her father at Jeanne to talk about "enjoying her beauty:"

But! I just realized that this line was changed a bit from the real de Sade quote. The real life version that's usually quoted is this: "Sexual pleasure is, I agree, a passion to which all others are subordinate but in which they all unite." To be really reductive, it's essentially saying "everything is about sex."

Which like. This line as written was already a lot. But so long as there was no translation weirdness, we can assume that Mochijun picked this line out for this scene based on the "sexual pleasure" version. Hello lesbians.

#I took a look at the japanese version of this scene #and as far as I can tell 'acts of pleasure' is the accurate translation of the vnc version #so I assume this was a deliberate censorship choice on mochijun's part. which. fair #can't just come out and say the word in your shonen series #also now that I'm really looking at it. I can feel an essay brewing about this quote in the context of vnc #there's some v v interesting thematic relevance going on there #both with the original and the altered version #vnc #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #english major hours #domijeanne #domijeanne tag

[leupagus]

So I'm sure there's different versions of this

But the one my cantor* told us when we were in Sunday School was this one:

Two rich men go to a cloth merchant's shop. This merchant is known for having beautiful silks, even though he has but a small humble store in the outskirts of town — so small that his infant son is sleeping on one of the chests!

These rich men want to buy these silks, so they demand to see them at once.

The merchant says, "I am sorry, they are not for sale today. Come back tomorrow and I would be happy to show them to you."

The rich men, knowing that this merchant is a Jew, think "ah-hah, he wants more money!" So they offer him a tremendous sum.

"I am sorry, they are not for sale today. Come back tomorrow, good sirs."

The rich men are puzzled, but they double their price. Quadruple it. Anything this merchant wants, they can give him.

"I am sorry, they are not for sale today. Come back tomorrow, if you please."

So, the rich men leave, annoyed, but they present themselves the very next day and sure enough, the merchant goes to a chest and pulls out the most beautiful silks that these rich men have ever seen. And when they offer to pay, he will only accept the price that he himself has deemed fair — many times less than even the first offer these rich men made.

"But why would you not give us these silks yesterday?" they ask, happy but baffled as they (or more probably their servants, but the cantor didn't get into that) pack up the silks to leave.

Just then, the merchant's wife comes in from the back, carrying their infant son. The merchant smiles and says, "Because my child was sleeping on that chest, and I did not wish to disturb his slumber. His peace is more precious to me than all the money you, good sirs, could ever provide."

#I am tagging this as #ted lasso #because I've been thinking about this parable in the context of Ted and Henry and Rebecca's offer #and I'll admit that this is an incredibly Watsonian interpretation of the text — treating Ted as a person rather than a character — #but I do think that it's relevant to how Ted thinks of Henry #as needing peace and rest and above all HIS FATHER #and how Ted coaching at Richmond would still be Ted very much absent from Henry's life #even if Henry and Michelle did move to London! #like yeah football coaches are usually dads and probably some of them are good dads! #but I don't think Ted thought he had it in him to do both #and I think the show REALLY fell down in not making that more clear #that he was choosing because there HAD TO BE a choice #I loved season 3 but I loved my interpretation of it — and the show did not do enough groundwork for pretty much anyone's interpretation #and that's a failure of the show's creators #(the people who claim that Flying dutchman was a rapist are a notable exception — in that case they are the ones at fault because WHAT THE #anyway #believe mothereffers #* to explain: my childhood temple was very #very #VERY poor #and could not afford a rabbi #and in the end we couldn't even afford a cantor #but man those songs were great

[sage-nebula]

I've decided to make my own post because I am not an idiot, but full disclosure that this post is 50% based on thoughts I was having while I was driving home from the auto repair shop yesterday and 50% a response to a post I saw just now that conflated "redemption arcs" (things fictional characters go through in fictional stories) with "community support" (things real life people offer to other real life people in real life) and how this relates to "fixing people" (making someone who mistreats or abuses themself or others not mistreat or abuse themself or others anymore).

Read my words very carefully.

In fiction, it is more than okay to like whatever type of toxic or fantastical relationship you want. If you like to read stories about toxic, codependent people who are absolutely horrible to one another and will never, ever change, you read those stories. If you like to read stories about a tortured man who just needs The Right Person to teach him to be better, and then he is, sometimes exclusively only to them though, then you read those stories. Sometimes you want to read stories where the main character says "I can fix him" and fails spectacularly, and sometimes you want to read stories where the main character says "I can fix him" and succeeds spectacularly, and either way, you read whatever stories you want, whatever makes you happy, I'm sure it's somewhere in this vast Archive that we call Our Own.

However, in real life?

First of all, "arcs" aren't things real life people have. An arc is something that has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Real life people don't have those, because our stories don't end until we die. Unlike a character, whose life presumably continues even after their story ends (except in circumstances where they die at the end but you know what I mean), we have to keep living day by day, with all the rises and falls that come with it. Now, this does not mean that a person cannot change, or that a person can't get better and learn from their mistakes; but it DOES mean that we can't have a "redemption arc" where we complete a checklist of story beats and then suddenly we're a better person who has experienced the necessary growth to be forgiven. First off, no amount of growth or change ever requires any victims to forgive. And second, that's just not how life works. That's not how change works. Change and growth are baby steps taken each day, and sometimes you go backwards, and you get angry with yourself, but then you pick yourself up and you try again the next day, and the next, and the next. It's an ongoing journey that does not end until you die. That's life.

But second and more importantly, the real idea that I think the original post was trying to get at, but missing the mark on was . . . okay.

So, the original OP of the post (and the person who replied to OP) got angry at the idea that the strawman they had invented (the person who had theoretically said "you can't fix him!") would deny support to someone who needs that help to grow and change as a person. The person who had replied in support of OP added that the strawman clearly believed in punitive justice over rehabilitative justice as well. On the surface, I can see where they are coming from. After all, on the whole humans are a social species and do need support networks in order to not only thrive, but survive. People such as drug addicts need support and assistance in order to get into better places in their lives, and the prison system has been proven to be far less effective at preventing repeated offenses than rehabilitative programs. This is all true.

However.

The reason why "you can't fix them" is still true, and needs to be said and understood particularly by those who are susceptible to falling into abusive relationships (e.g. people who have been abused before, particularly in childhood or adolescence) is because of free will. Specifically, the free will that each of us has, but specifically the other person. Person A can want so, so, so badly to "fix" Person B so that they stop being an abusive alcoholic 75% of the time. But if Person B doesn't actually want to stop being an abusive alcoholic (even if they say they do during the 25% of the time they aren't smacking Person A around), and refuses to put in the work that it takes to become sober and be a better person, then guess what? Nothing Person A does will ever make them be a sober, non-abusive partner. They will be unable to fix Person B. It doesn't matter how much time, energy, money, or commitment they pour into that person. It doesn't matter how much they genuinely, honestly, earnestly love them. Because unless Person B wants to change, and will put the work into doing so, then they will not change, and Person A, for their own health, safety, and sanity, needs to exit that relationship.

Now, does that mean that if, ten years down the line, Person B decides they are ready to put in the work to get their alcoholism under control, no one should help them? Of course not! They should absolutely be put in touch with sober counselors, support groups, medical professionals, friends and family who can help them. Person A could potentially forgive them, if Person A chooses. But that willingness to change and put in the work has to come from within Person B first.

I've been in the position where I've seen people in awful situations just tanking their lives, people I loved and cared about, people I begged to just listen to me and get help, only for them to not . . . and ultimately I had to accept that I couldn't fix them. I could be there to offer support when they were ready to fix themselves, but the core work that needed to be done had to come from within themselves. I couldn't provide that. Not because I was inadequate, not because I didn't love them, but because I couldn't force them to do anything they didn't want, or weren't ready, to do.

So at the end of the day, "you can't fix them" isn't about not giving support. It's about recognizing your limitations as a human being. It's about knowing that:

You cannot force someone to do something they do not want to do.

You cannot force someone to do something they are not ready to do.

Not being able to help or save someone is not a moral failing of yours.

Not being able to help or save someone does not mean you do not love or care about them.

Providing support should never come at risk of your own health and safety, physical or otherwise.

When you love someone, it can be really hard to accept this. You think, "I know I can make them want to try. I know I can inspire them to want to change. I know they love me, so if I just love them a little harder, they will want to change." Nine times out of ten, though, that is just not true. And if someone is abusing you, it is not worth the literal risk to your life to keep trying. You are worth more than that. You are more than just someone else's band-aid.

Keep yourselves safe in 2024.

#not an abuse scenario but: my mom died of covid-19 #it's relevant to this discussion bc she was a trump-supporting republican who refused to get vaccinated #bc the far-right propaganda shows she watched told her the vaccine ''wasn't a real vaccine'' #and i know this bc when i literally BEGGED MY PARENTS to get the vaccine my mother LAUGHED IN MY FACE and TOLD ME ''it's not a real vaccine #so anyway both my parents got it. my father almost died from it #my mom seemed like she was doing much better . . . except she CONTINUED to smoke heavily while both having covid #and recovering from covid #and once again i said hey don't you think you should not smoke cigarettes while recovering from a serious respiratory disease #and once again she laughed at me #anyway 2 months later her heart gave out in her sleep and she died #bc her body couldn't handle the stress of the cigarettes + alcohol (she was also an alcoholic) after covid had done its thing to her #she was only 56yo #so this was a case where i wanted to fix my mother. i tried so hard. and i've similarly tried to fix my father (who is still alive) #but i can't! my dad almost died and my mom DID die and my dad STILL won't get the vaccine #I HAVE BEGGED THIS MAN. WHO IS NOW 73. TO GET VACCINATED. AND HE STILL WILL NOT. #you can't fix people!!! you can't!!! you can offer them support if they want to fix themselves #you can help them fix themselves but you can't fix them. you just can't. no matter how much you love them #and in abuse cases it can be really fucking dangerous to keep trying. #anyway. that's my TED talk. thanks for attending or w/e it is they say

[ojirocardigansniper]

ouguhhh just read the summary and article from this post about alexandre baril's work on suicidism (oppression of the suicidal) and the opening paragraph of the conclusion in the full article. thoughts. rotating

i was thinking about the. thick white gloves. while reading. remembered that one post about how csa being horrifically taboo to talk about compounds survivors' trauma and shame and went Maybe something similar re: suicidality and suicide... the suffering multiplied by the silence, the risk of dismissal or instant change in perception in anyone you tell... and even in 'mental health' spaces the perception that suicide as a topic is dangerous to talk about- that it could be triggering instantly and automatically- is like. i think there's some paternalism there and there's some shamefear and there's some oversimplification and there's the fact that it plays well into the existing well-taught impulse to avoid the discomforting. but like. this post also about how getting through suicidality is maybe only possible by considering the option thoroughly. i am just thinking. idk. yall know me yall know i think about this topic a lot

#chat #as someone who HAS mostly recovered from passive suicidality- mostly recognizes its suicidal intrusive thoughts as demands for life change- #im def one of the people who can be susceptible to recovery-only mindsets when like assisting or relating to suicidal people. so i need thi #me and one of our stranger sysmates (maze-body) were reading the article together and it kept standing against my reflexive questions + #discomforts because it understands suicidality as both an experiencer (in a weird way) and an already-dead thing; it could confidently- #dismiss my concerns as both fixable and less relevant than the experience and autonomy of the suicidal party. #its whole thing is being- not anti-recovery but like. unrecovered and incurable. which is a perspective we need to remember and have spoken #no matter how much harm reduction + barrier lowering + healing we go through. it as a frank eternality will still remain+need recognition. #its a weirdass way of coping with the inevitability of pain and suffering while not giving up on our locus of control but we're doing it ig #and i think theres a lot there you can relate 2 chronic/passive suicidality- just a companion no matter how much you make life worth living #whatever. anyway #suicide / #in case anyone has. tag blocking but not content blocking fsr

[mikodrawnnarratives]

Probably unpopular opinion:

I would have preferred Narcissa to get the "some people were always meant to be villains" plot line and Magpie to get the actual plot relevance ngl

#i say unpopular bc i know there are a LOT of narcissa fans and of course im biased to my girl maggie #tho it came out if nowhere to me when narcissa became plot relevant when i first read the books #dont know if anyone else had the same experience but i won't tag the narcissa tag just in case #i dont DISLIKE the idea of narcissa having plot relevance and i like where they were going with her! #kinda wish the trilogy had four books to flesh out more characters and expand on more things #renegades trilogy #perfect scenerio would be both of them get plot relevance #renegades salt #just in case #renegades #renegades marissa meyer #evie artino #margaret white #maggie white

[londonhalcyon]

Sometimes in a fit of madness impatience I’ll write a scene from way later on in one of my fics—sometimes close to the end—and it’s always like:

This is a masterpiece. One of the best things I’ve ever written. A perfect culmination of everything I want to achieve and…aaannd it’s filled with spoilers. I can’t share this with anybody. It will never see the light of day for years. Fuck.

Anyway, I’m not quietly going insane tonight at all, why do you ask?

#the longfic writer’s curse #at least it’ll save me the trouble when i finally reach that point #unless i decide to change tack in which case rip me #it’s the whole reason some of the deleted chapters in the mad witch bonus content don’t quite match their final versions #so it’s also not all that bad #this is relevant to both my longfics #the mad witch #rosemary reaper

[longagoitwastuesday]

Hi, can i ask you why in your opinion some people consider the moors a proper character in wuthering heights? Do you think the story would have been so different if it had been set in a different location?

I've wanted to sit on this for a bit to see if I changed my opinion/reaction, because I thought of an answer instantly. I'm going to be sincere, what I thought was "because people have not read enough (good) books".

I'm not entirely sure why people consider the moors a proper character because I don't think it works as one at all. I imagine a big part of the reason why is the appeal of the aesthetic and how powerful an impact it has had culturally and even in general in the collective imaginary, but I don't think that's exclusively due to Wuthering Heights. Trying to dig more, I'd say it's because of the importance it has for the characters, emotionally, narratively and symbolically. And, digging even more, I imagine it's due to the metaphysical bond and even ontological identification between moors and characters some people read into it.

Most if not all of these characteristics are typical of significant settings in books, though. They don't necessarily confer the settings the title of "character". And, as much abstract personality as they may have, in my opinion the moors are lacking something to be comfortable calling them so. In Wuthering Heights I'd say the house itself, Wuthering Heights, feels more like a character to me than the moors. Still, I'd say even then there's a certain something missing.

As much character or importance in ambience setting Bly Manor has in The turn of the screw, I don't think one could freely say it's a character on itself; that's sort of the situation with the moors in Wuthering Heights, I think. In comparison, Comala in Pedro Páramo, Hill House in The haunting of Hill House, Macondo in One hundred years of solitude or Vetusta in La Regenta, to name a few, feel a lot more like characters. They are books in which the settings themselves feel fleshed out with care, thoroughly developed like a character, and they even read as having a certain will of their own, as actively participating in the narrative at times. The moors in Wuthering Heights don't work that way. And it's not a bad thing. They don't have to, that's not their role.

Now, on the question about whether I think the story would be so different if set in some other location... I think the answer is both yes and no? Of course the book would never have been exactly the same had it taken place somewhere else, and the heather and in general the description of wildlife and vegetation are symbolically meaningful. But also, I didn't have a clear image of what the moors were when I first read the book. I imagined something infertile, isolated and cold, but that's it, and it worked. I didn't know how the English moors were at all.

I do think the isolation aspect is necessary to make Wuthering Heights, and I'd say perhaps even the cold and generally bad weather, but it's also true in a similarish way Pedro Páramo works with a place that is very hot. Ultimately it's up to the writer, and it will work if it's well written and well waved alongside the other parts forming the book. Wuthering Heights was waved with the moors in mind specifically, and it works. Would the story in abstract be much different if set somewhere else? Not necessarily, probably not, but it wouldn't be exactly Wuthering Heights, just as it wouldn't be if one were to change any other of its characteristics.

#The stormy windy weather works very well with Cathy's moods specifically for example but I don't think we see her be influenced or changed #by the weather the way Ana's mood is influenced by the rain in La Regenta for example. Which doesn't make the moody weather less important #It has symbolic and aesthetic aspect and in art that's very important on its own #Is the weather/wildlife/vegetation/setting important in Wuthering Heights? Yes of course #Could one set a similar story somewhere else and still be able to convey a similar effect and mood? Also yes. There are examples #I think I've talked about this before with both @faintingheroine and @13eyond13. About the importance of the setting in Wuthering Heights #and how other similar stories could be set in some other very different places. Or how despite the setting being very particular #in Wuthering Heights the story works and is very popular in other very different and at times faraway countries (such as Japan for example) #because more than the specificity of the moors the setting depends on the infertility perhaps‚ the mood it sets #and how it works with the narrative and characters‚ and mainly the isolation #One can easily translate that into something relevant to their own place and culture so to speak #I didn't want to include this (and some other things haha) in my reply to avoid making it longer still‚ but here it is just in case #Also there's an idealisation of Wuthering Heights in certain particular aspects‚which is something I talk about often with @faintingheroine #I think that too plays a role in making people consider the moors a proper character on its own #The topic is very interesting and this was fun to think about. Thanks for the question! #I hope my reply was articulated enough. I've been awake for thirty hours. I'll try to remember to come back later and give a look though #I talk too much #Wuthering Heights

[zorilleerrant]

Jason, who has auditory processing issues, being introduced to Grace by Donna: Oh, is she your sister?

Donna, thoroughly confused: Uh, I guess technically all Amazons are related to some degree? But you could say that about everyone, really. She's my sister in arms...?

Grace, not sure whether he's having her on: Choi. She said Choi.

Jason, squinting like he's being tricked: I'm missing something.

#look i said something #shitpost #jason todd #donna troy #grace choi #Donna and Grace are best friends in this scenario. why? I like them both a lot so they should like each other a lot #please also be aware that Donna has a strong New York accent in my headcanon in case that's relevant

[melonnade]

guess who this is (hard mode)

#hint: it’s not kdj 😔 #but I did draw kdj in the exact same pose like two or three years ago #also not an OC but lowkey he does look a lot like how modern au!Qiu Chi would look. not intentional. #in both fanarts the blood has plot relevance I didn’t just add it to make them hotter #although it does have that secondary effect #uhh in this particular case he has been drinking it. hint 2: he is not edward cullen. hint 3: he is not Shen Qingqiu. #my art #wip #fanart

[quietwingsinthesky]

i have many many thoughts about rose & tentoo and how their relationship would evolve in this verse. about how you can't just take the love you have for one person and put it on someone else. not even a clone, a regeneration, a metacrisis. about how that doesn't mean you can't love them, or that you can't fall in love with them the same way, but that love has to be for them.

#it is relevant it just isn't relevant. right now. #but i do think about them a lot. #i think about them still living their lives after even leaves. think about rose and donna bonding. think about rose working for torchwood #and seeing a new side to jack and new sides to herself as well because she has to be there for the whole CoE thing. #think about tentoo transitioning because she is trans have i mentioned she's trans yet. she is. even doesn't know that yet because they #weren't there but they will someday. #i think about them all being at donna's wedding. and about a rose noble who grows up knowing the woman she took her name from. #they're a fambly.......... #i think about rose actually not keeping the whole doctor/aliens/mind wipe for your own protection/etc thing from tentoo for very long #about how working through both that being kept from her but also how it was killing rose to do that. how rose had to tell her. #is a fundamental part of what they build everything on now. they grow together. #i think about donna missing someone who isn't there and how sometimes with tentoo she feels a little better but it isn't exactly right #and how as time goes on. that feeling goes away more and more. her grief over losing the doctor *increases* as tentoo grows into a differen #person. she is still. fundamentally. the doctor. but she is also johanna tyler. and donna loves her. and still misses the doctor. #and i think. a lot. about that empty space that even leaves behind. about how they aren't there for donna's wedding. #about how they aren't there when rose noble is growing up. about how they disappear one day and no one ever tells rose or donna #or johanna or *any of them* what happened. i think about how they put up missing posters. i think about how rose holds her breath #for a whole year because hell the doctor got it wrong once with her. maybe they're just late. maybe they'll be back in time for christmas. #but even doesn't come back. they keep a picture of even on the mantel. and they do set an extra plate at christmas. just in case. #a lot of times it stays empty but they sometimes have other impromptu guests. martha and mickey and jack. jack comes by a lot. #couldn't keep him away if they tried really. sarah jane comes sometimes too. (sky babysitting rose noble. ough.) #something about. the doctor does have a family out there. if he'd only come home to them. #so does even. they're both going to have to go back sometime. face the music. sit down for dinner. #there's still time. there's still time. #dw oc

[gay-victorian-astronomer]

Compression Fracture for the WIP Game if you're still accepting them?

I mean, I'm not going to turn down an excuse to write so...

here's a snippet:

MNEMOTECHNIQUE A6 — Most of it is case notes— interviews with witnesses, summarized autopsy reports, and the like. 

MACHINIST [Easy: Success] — It seems like you were tasked with taking on roughly one case a week— there are notes on eleven cases, including this one. Only two of them have been solved. 

RULEBOOK — That’s actually not unusual for a homicide detective in this city. At this rate you’d solve around 8 cases a year, which is pretty good. Ten cases a year is considered exceptional.

#wip wednesday #compression fracture #trying to figure out what a reasonable case load is was like doing calculus for real #I have it in my head that Harry's case load is about double Kim's- Jamrock cops are significantly busier & it's more populous than the GRIH #I also think that they both have stuff that isn't managing cases- managing their respective decomptages for instance #and also handling bodies that end up not being murders #anyways these are details that are relevant to approximately nobody but I had to spend a surprising amount of time on these two (2) lines

[soysaucevictim]

Me getting on a consequentialist high horse about that post supporting low/no empathy folks is just making me think of Janus-y trains of thought.

And frankly? I'm more than okay with that. :,D

#i mean shit - i do relate to the guy sooo #(him and virgil and logan) #(i think intent only becomes relevant in shit like the legal system and boundary establishment) #(both cases require evidence of actually fucking people over in one way or another)

[tiredwiredanduninspired]

There is something so special about someone enjoying your tangent paragraphs

I was talking to my friend last night about how I send big paragraphs when I’m on a tangent and they said they would love to read my paragraphs

So there is now an event in their calendar for my to send my tangent about the new dndads episode when it finishes

They do not listen to it, they just want to see what I have to say

I feel so fckin special

[DnDads rambles in the tags, I think I forgot what the post was about]

#*ramblings #I mean I feel like there’s gonna be a lot of rambling #bc h have a feeling about oakworthy #they’re either gonna kiss or fight (verbally lrts be realistic hermie) #and normal is gonna be into both #I think that scam might live too #Anthony’s too much of a coward to kill Hm a second time #(or fourth if you include well actually and scam actually) #I’ve seen someone say about teenie being the anchor #and I think that would be a really cool idea #But even if that’s not the case I think the suit is gonna be relevant #Just the vibes #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #dndads s2 #normal oak #dungeons and daddies season 2 #oakworthy #hermie the unworthy

[blaiddydbrokeit]

Appreciating the fact that these days I can actually wash my hair and actually scrub it all nice and satisfying and only two or three strands fall out as part of a normal shed. No more of the strands that get tangled all over my fingers at the slightest touch. No more loose strands all over my desk just because I ran my fingers through my hair.

My appetite is good these days. Maybe a bit more than good. Maybe average four meals and a snack each day type thing. I go out all the time and clock almost 5 miles of walking without issue. My clothes fit! Maybe a bit snug for some of the older clothing pieces but like. Can't expect a 21 year old to perfectly fit the clothes he wore when he was 17, right? I've gotten a bit taller too. I forgot how comfy my bed actually is and I rediscover it now that I'm not constantly bothered by the pressure of laying on bones. Sure, I'm softer in general now, but I think my shape is still kind of promising. Like it will tone up nicely with some work, but that I want to make sure there's enough that I can still maintain my quality of life.

#48 might be the one that mainly struggles with the erratic self-starving behaviours but #i think i have always been part of the issue in a mental health perspective #just general self perception and self worth #i know some of the others are also relevant but #as the host i felt like i was noticing all these things #clarity if you could call it that #on a technicality #both allan and dimitri are hosts of the system #so #in any case #positive #dima in the deep end