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#really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we..
trashbaget · 2 years
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#wrote a fucking poem#because a bitch is fucking feeling things#cue venting in the tags because this is where i'm feeling comfortable to do it right now#a while back i caught the love bug for a friend and tbFCKNh it was the very second time i'd ever actually fallen In Love with someone and..#the first time it didn't end well. long story short: i asked him out and he turned me down but we stayed friends and it actually made us..#grow closer regardless. a little while later i'd realized my feelings were Different and it just came out one night when we were having a..#really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we..#stayed really good fucking friends. now i didn't get to see him for a summer and i definitely don't have feelings for him anymore and i'm..#sincerely happy for him and his now partner. i consider him (and always have) my best friend. (among others but he's definitely Up There..#like no. 2 probably) but way too soon after Talking was summer and we were both farthest from everybody and are both the kind of ppl who..#pretty much don't text anyone except like 2 ppl and we are not one of each's 2. today i got to see him and a bunch of our friends for the..#first time since fucking april and god have i missed them all. but seeing him again kinda fucked me up a second. threw me for a massive loop#i got Weird (neg) and i was NERVOUS as HELL at the start and for a few minutes i couldn't figure out what it even WAS because i hadn't felt.#that way in a long time. and i am not about to catch those feelings for him again because No. i chilled out after like 3 minutes bc i got..#reacclimated to being around ppl My Damn Age again and things weren't Weird (neg) anymore. we talked we joked we sincerely said our I Miss..#Yous and we hung out. with everyone and alone for a bit because ppl had gone out and come back and it was FINE it was NORMAL () and we..#were GOOD. we ARE good. and i don't love him in that way anymore. i love him as a friend. and that love is definitely more intense than with#other friends because we have a deeper bond and yes because i Loved him. but the fact is i don't and it's ANNOYING to react like i still do.#and getting nervous like i still do. and i kept worrying that something i'd do might make it seem like i do and i don't and just UGH having.#feelings is annoying. i've never been able to stay friends with someone after having feelings for them at all let alone INTENSE IN LOVE FEEL#INGS!! like wtf!!! and this is sincerely one of the best friendships i've ever had and i don't want to and Won't. lose him especially for..#this but god DAMN am i not having it right now. and my head's been spinning like a fucking tornado in the 5min ride home and i accidentally.#wrote it out in a poem because the words wouldn't go anywhere when i just tried to brain dump about it because Of Course They Did. because i#can't think about this man in anyway except poetically and i can't write a poem unless it's about love in some degree and just UGH love is#and i'm gonna leave it there because i'm running risk of repeatin myself.#if you read all this i positively adore you and also you need to touch some grass bc reading the vents of internet dwellers is for suckers#i am just kidding i really do sincerely appreciate you and love you very very much thank you for caring#please ignore the following organizational tags:#writing#poetry
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ivy-plays · 7 months
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Hello!
Since you write for Helluva Boss, I thought I could request something for it! It's just that this one is pretty specific so you don't have to write if you don't want to! It was just a fun little idea I had while I was watching a movie.
I was wondering if I could request for 'Blitzø x Jessica Rabbit like S/O' romantic headcanons?
Hi!!! I'm so glad you sent In a request. I immediately got ideas as soon as I read your request! I hope you like it and have a good rest of your day/ night!.
Warnings: none really. If I missed any let me know
Paring: Blitzø x Jessica Rabbit! Reader.
Relationship: romantic
Okay so starting off with how the two of you would have met.
You would honestly probably work out of the lust ring mostly because they just seem to have a higher quantity of singers and performers that fit the vibe.
Anyway
The two of you meet during the events of the episode where moxie takes Millie to Ozzy's.
You were performing that night and Blitzø couldn't help but not look away from you as the stage lights hit your red sequence dress just right creating an effect that made it seem you were glowing. That coupled with your sultry singing voice the man was hooked deep.
Blitzø had caught your eye while you were on stage as you noticed a goitcia prince sitting across from him.
That peaked your Interest. And throughout the rest of your set you observed the imp rather closely,and you would be a liar if you were to say he wasn't good looking.
After you are done with your set and made your way off stage and towards the bar Blitzø had managed to slip away from Stolas and made his way over to the bar and over to you.
When he introduced himself you turned your head ever so slightly to look at him and a soft smile graced your ruby red lips.
The two of you talked for a while until your stage manager came over and called you back stage to prepare for your next set.
You wave off your Manager with a promise to follow behind shortly.
Turning back to Blitzø you gently cupped the side of his face and leaned in promising to see him again while secretly slipping a slip of paper with your number on it into his jacket pocket.
It would be a few weeks later that the two of you would meet in person again. The two of you had been talking over the phone during that time just getting to know each other,but tonight the both of you were free so you were taking the opportunity to meet up.
The two of you would meet at a nice ( but not fancy. Just not dirty and has a good health score) restaurant.
The night went well and the both of you had lots of fun and that would end up being how the two of you got together.
Now for the actual relationship
Blitzø would be very protective of you.
Not because he didn't think you were weak by any means, but just because you were pretty famous across hell .
Whenever you weren't busy with practices or performances you would spend your time at I.M.P. .
You got on pretty well with Millie the two of you finding plenty of things to talk about. Moxie didn't mind you either and actually would be extremely reluctant to believe that Blitzø had managed to get such a famous and beautiful person to date him.
And as for you and Loona we'll. Loona took a bit to warm up to you but after you actually got her to have a conversation with you she realized you weren't as bad as she thought. Epically after you told the young hellhound that if she wanted she could get her into most parties/ higher class places without a reservation.
Blitzø didn't initially tell Stolaz about your relationship ( though he did tell you about the arrangement he had with the prince and was surprised that you didn't really mind).
And with how attached Stolaz is to Blitzø sometimes it wasn't long before he found out that the two of you were together.
He was upset at first but ultimately just wanted Blitzø to be happy. Stolaz of course knew who you were and had seen a few of your performances before.
(it's up to you to decide whether or not y'all become a thruple. But since it's not in the request I won't specify.)
Over all your relationship would be pretty solid. You would shower him in love and affection and he did the same to you.
And you already know the bedroom life is 🤌(y'all probably had a threesome with Stolaz a few times. 👀 )
You would use your connections to help I.M.P if they ever needed Intel,and you would spread the word about their business around which brought in a lot of New clients.
With how often you performed at Ozzy's you had formed a close friendship with the king of lust and his jester boyfriend.
So when the giant blue chicken burst into Ozzy's with a worried expression on his face you quickly grew confused.
Ozzy went on to pick you up and rushed back out the doors and back to his palace, and while on the way he explained to you that Vizz and Blitzø had been kidnapped by Crimson and Striker.
(everything that happened in the episode happens and after Vizz returned to Ozzy, you and Stolaz left the palace and you ,as fast as you could, made your way back to your shared apartment.
When you saw Blitzø you immediately brought him into your arms and buried your face in his neck as a few stray tears slid down your face from the relief of him being safe and back home.
After Blitzø recovered from momentary shock he firmly wrapped his own arms around you , resting his head atop your head.
The two of you spent the rest of the night cuddled together.
I hoped you liked it! It got a little longer and a little more rambling than I meant it to lol. But it's my first time writing In a few months. So the word vomit is real .
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hbyrde36 · 11 months
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Steddie Week Day 7 (final part)
Posting early because I have a busy day tomorrow. This was so fun and i'm so glad I decided to participate!!
Enjoy a little over a thousand words of pure fluff, as a treat.
Read Part 1 here / Part 2 here / Part 3 here / Part 4 here
Part 5 here / Part 6 here
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Thank god we didn't peak in High School - Part 7 (final part)
Eddie will forever be grateful to Steve’s parents. To be clear, Mr. and Mrs. Harrington are horrible people and he’s glad they sold the house when they did and fucked off for good. He appreciates them for exactly two reasons. First and most importantly, they gave birth to the most beautiful boy alive, the love of his life, Steve Harrington. Secondly, in an effort to assuage their guilt over being TheWorstParentsEver™ they gave their son a large cut of the profits made from the sale of his childhood home. 
Steve was reluctant to take the money at first, on principle, but after talking it over with Wayne he realized it would be dumb to pass up the chance to give him and Eddie a leg up in life. It wasn’t millions, but it was more than enough to put a hefty down payment on a newly vacated trailer only two houses down from Uncle Wayne, with enough left over to cover the rent for a little store front downtown. 
It had taken a few months to get things going but once it opened, Hellfire Records quickly became a success. The idea to open a vintage record shop was entirely Eddie’s but he would have been lost without Steve’s eye for detail and organization skills. The store had only been open for about 5 years but it regularly appeared on top ten lists for the best record shops in america. 
They had three full time employees, not including themselves. Robin, her girlfriend Chrissy, and surprisingly, Jonathan Byers. The guy knew his music and was weirdly talented at fixing up old radios and turntables. He and Steve had gotten over their differences long ago and considering that he and Nancy were as happy together as Eddie and Steve, well, things had clearly worked out for the best all around.
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Eddie never thought he would be here, standing in the old Hawkins High gymnasium, attending his ten year reunion. It was a wonder he had graduated at all and back then he was sure that Hawkins would be well in his rear view mirror by now. It’s funny how life never turns out the way you expect. 
He hadn’t wanted to come tonight, the only classmates they were really friends with were the people they saw everyday anyway so it seemed a little pointless, but Steve was so excited to go and Eddie didn’t have the heart to tell him no. 
They shared a table with Nancy, Jonathan, Robin, and Chrissy. There was food and free drinks so all in all it wasn’t a bad time. 
Eddie was deep in conversation with an amused Nancy about how heavy metal music has influenced society and culture over the years, when a broad hand dropped onto his shoulder.
“Nance, do you mind if I steal my date back for a minute?” Steve asked, leaning over to address her.
“He’s all yours” Nancy said with a smile and, was that a wink?
Eddie looked up at his boyfriend with a smile. “What are you up to Stevie?”
“Oh nothing, just wondering what I have to do to get you to dance with me?”
Eddie sucked in a breath while clutching a hand to his chest “Oh. My. God. Is King Steve actually asking Eddie ‘the freak’ Munson to dance? I think I might faint.”
“Yeah, Yeah, laugh it up asshole. You coming or what?” Despite the words, Steve’s tone was light and amused. He offered a hand and of course Eddie took it. 
“I would love to dance with you, baby.” He told Steve, kissing his cheek.
They held each other while swaying to the music and Eddie couldn’t help wondering how he got so lucky. He leaned forward pressing his lips to Steve’s in a tender kiss. 
Steve let out a contented sigh, resting his forehead against Eddie’s as he spoke. “You know, this life we've built here together is not something I ever could have imagined. I didn’t know this kind of happiness was even possible before you came into my life.” He cleared his throat and took a step back from Eddie, who looked on in confusion as Steve dropped to one knee right there in the middle of the dance floor.  
He pulled a small velvet box out of his front pocket and held it out before continuing.
“Eddie, Sweetheart, I love you with everything I have. Will you marry me?”
The room fell away as Eddie looked down into the face of the man he loved more than anything. He fell to the floor and threw his arms around Steve, tears stinging the corner of his eyes. Steve held him back just fiercely. 
“Is that a yes?” Steve asked with a chuckle.
Eddie pulled back, looking deep into Steve’s eyes. “Are you sure?”
Steve grinned at the reminder of their rocky beginning. “I’ve never been more sure about anything.”
“I guess you’re stuck with me then Harrington, it’s a yes.”
The crowd that had formed broke into thunderous applause, startling them both. Eddie rose, offering Steve a hand up, which he took, but not before slipping the ring on his finger. It was a silver band with a small cluster of black diamonds. Eddie loved it.
It was an effort to keep things P.G. after that but they managed, if only to make sure their night wasn’t ruined by getting kicked out of the party. They were approached many times that night by old classmates and teachers offering congratulations. Eddie was surprised to find that people seemed genuinely happy for them.  It was poetic in a way to have this happen here, in a place where he never really felt accepted as a kid. 
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They barely made it in the door before falling on each other like wild animals. Eddie had Steve’s shirt off and was making quick work of his own, when a loud throat clearing sound came from the direction of the darkened living room. Steve switched on the light to reveal Wayne sitting on their couch with a hand over his face.
“I take it the proposal went well then, boys?” Wayne asked, still shielding his eyes.
Eddie shrugs his dress shirt back on, foregoing the buttons. “You can look now old man, we’re decent.” 
“Sorry to interrupt, I was just anxious to offer my congratulations is all.”
“It’s alright Wayne” Steve said, plopping down next to him on the couch. “He said yes, can you believe it?!”
“Course he did, son, you’re a catch.”
“What about me?!” Eddie shouted, indignant.
“You’re very pretty sweetheart.” Steve crooned.
Eddie rolled his eyes but crossed the room to drop himself into his fiance’s lap. 
“Well, I'll leave you boys to celebrate but I expect you both over for dinner tomorrow night. No excuses.”
“We’ll be there, Uncle Wayne” Steve assured him.
@steddie-week
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smartycvnt · 1 year
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Just Say It
Pairing: Adam Page x Reader Prompt: "I'm pregnant."
This had gotten out of hand. You had one of your first doctor's appointments coming up, which you knew Adam would want to go to, but you hadn't let him know that you were even pregnant yet. You meant to tell him nearly a month ago when you found out, but then he had gotten concussed and been so focused on getting better and back in the ring. Your pregnancy seemed like something that would distract him, and so you used that as an excuse to not talk to him. Now though, he was back and decided that to celebrate, he was taking you out for a nice dinner.
It was a shame how difficult of a time you were having relaxing and enjoying yourself at dinner. Adam had been repeating himself several times throughout the meal because you just couldn't keep any concentration. Your mind kept drifting back to whether or not he would be happy about this or not. His career hadn't come up as a conversation topic, but it had been agreed upon early on that he would step back to help raise any children the two of you had, whether you ever decided to get married or not. You didn't want to have to ask him to step back or make him think that he had to, so telling him had become quite the daunting task for you.
"So, what's been on your mind all night?" Adam asked as the two of you walked along the driveway back to his house. You had yet to officially move in, but it was feeling more like home than your own place that was maybe 35 minutes away. "And don't try telling me that it's nothing because I know better than that."
"There's been a lot on my mind, both personal and not I guess. I'm really glad that you're better now though," you told him. Adam nodded, despite the slightly confused look on his face. The two of you kept walking in silence for a couple more moments before Adam stopped you.
"I know it's scary to think that I could get hurt again," Adam said. You hadn't thought about him getting hurt again. You had only been afraid of telling him about your pregnancy. You didn't know whether or not you'd be able to handle taking care of both Adam and a baby. Your face paled and Adam quickly realized that he had made a mistake. "It's just a possibility, not a guarantee. Everybody's good and careful. I've told Tony I don't want to work with anyone reckless, that I just won't."
"That's not it. Well, that wasn't it, but now it might be. Honestly, I should just come out and say it, like I should have like a month ago, but sometimes saying things is hard. Well, saying the important things are hard." You took a deep breath and continued, "I'm pregnant."
"W-what?" Adam stammered. You could see the information immediately registering and the reaction of shock written all over his face. He took a step back and sat down, running his hands over his face and through his hair. You stood there across from him, terrified that he would tell you he was leaving you. That fear only intensified whenever you heard Adam crying quietly into his hands.
"Adam?" you asked. He tried to calm himself down, but there were still tears in his eyes when he looked up at you. "This isn't the end of the world."
"Of course it's not. This is great. I didn't know when to bring it up before, but I've been thinking a lot about the things that are important to me. I can't tell you how happy this makes me, that we're already starting on our family together. There's nobody else in the world I could think to do this with except for you," Adam told you. He stood up and pulled you into a hug, quietly muttering apologies for scaring you. You began to relax a lot more about this, knowing that Adam would be a great father and potential husband one day.
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dovahkinniez · 1 year
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You are a god in this fandom oh my god your writing is absolutely chef kiss
Would I be able to please request nsfw alphabet for LucienFlavius? I wanna smooch that boy so bad 😞
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` 𖤓 . . . NSFW ALPHABET: LUCIEN FLAVIUS.
PLS. THATS SUCH A COMPLIMENT. I'm glad people enjoy my writing. I don't see many other elder scrolls writers anymore so I'm happy to be the one people can come to.
I love my boy lucien, let's get into it.
Remember, most likely not proofread, if any mistakes please tell me so I can change it!
18+ only! Sexual content ahead, minors dni!!
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A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)
Our lil prince is so giving and so kind. He loves deep conversations as you both pamper each other before you go sleep. He likes to have his hair played as he traces the curves on your skin as you both relax. He's loves the Intimacy of aftercare where you both take care of each other gently.
B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
His: his lips. He likes his lips because he loves kissing you all over. He loves feeling you against his mouth.
You: everything. But your eyes and chest area (female bodied), and thighs. Likes to lock eyes with you, use his mouth on your chest and thighs, hold and play with.
C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)
I'd say he's pretty shy about it :( he's a sweet baby and doesn't want to make a mess and if you like it messy he loves it when you tease him to the point he can't help himself. So you'll have to be the one to tell him you like it a certain way.
With time he realises he loves to cum in you and on your chest and mouth area, has a thing where he'll use his fingers to swipe it off your lips and into your mouth, he likes it when you suck it off his fingers. He could go again just by the feeling of your mouth alone.
D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He likes it when you boss him around. When you're teaching him something, training him or whatever he loves it when you order him around so when you use that energy in the bedroom he's so eager it's cute, but he's never said that every time you're like it in a non sexual way he has to hide how painfully hard gets.
E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)
None until he met you. He never told you though. First time you even fool around without actual sex he has to calm himself down because he doesn't want to cum too fast and embarrass himself.
But he is a fast learner. He picks up on ques, asks you what you like and really let's you take the lead as he studies what both he and you like. He pretty much becomes the perfect partner for you specifically because everything he learnt is based off watching and following you.
F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying)
Any where you're on top. Likes to watch you bounce on his cock, grind on it. Whatever. Likes to watch you pretty much use him, especially when he feels the weight of you on top of him, he loves it so bad.
G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)
He's more clumsily Goofy. Makes the odd mistake here and there which you two find highly hilarious. A few times you've had to stop because you both laughed so hard.
H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)
I don't think he's the type to grow much body hair. It's there but it's not a mass of it. He has very fair hair so he body hair is minimal. He does have a happy trail but he always shaved it off, if you like it he'll keep it though. But I don't think he'd shave anything else, he doesn't feel the need too.
He wouldn't care if you shaved or not either. He loves your body as it is. And he's one of those smarty pants so he'd probably prefer you more natural for health reasons, bc it's there to protect your privates innit. But yeah, your body, your choice.
I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)
Our boy can be a bit cheesy at times but it's his charm but in the bedroom he's shy. He doesn't really voice things out much Intimacy wise because he might say the wrong thing. But he loves the physical aspect of it. A lot of touching, hand holding, deep kisses, hands all each other.
J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)
He didn't very much until you. You basically became his sexusl awakening tbh and made him realise how good it actually feels. He likes to do it with you too, you don't need to escalate it, you both sometimes just masturbate together.
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
Mutual masturbation: as stated above, he just likes it. Likes to chill and watch you play with yourself as he rubs his palm up and down his dick. He loves your body, he loves to watch you so it's a win win.
Body worship: he will literally get on his knees and worship you from head to toe. His hands and lips everywhere as he murmurs how perfect and sweet you are. He loves it so much.
Face riding: ride his face. Do it. No holding back either. Loves it when you rock your hips, against his tongue and he'll touch himself while you do it because he can't stop himself. It feels too good.
L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)
He's traditional so bedroom mainly. But he found out he likes it in his study. Riding him at his desk after writing for hours, or even sucking him off when he works. He loves it.
M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)
Lol. You. Just you. Even a wink could make him pass out from the blood rushing down.
N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
Degradation, especially towards you. He's a sweetheart.
O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)
Guide him the first few times and boom he's good to go. Again, as I said. Loves it when you ride his face. He loves to go down on you, more so than the other way around. He loves pleasing you.
But when you do go down on him, he loves it too. I think he prefers giving because he doesn't last long when you go down on him, he's sensitive and the visuals make it worse because you look so pretty :(
P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)
Fast but sensual. He's needy and his actions show it, erratic and excited even as he gets lost in the feeling but he's very attentive and loves to play with your body at the same time for added stimulation.
Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)
He doesn't mind them, especially if it's just oral because it's not like he lasts very long anyway and when he goes down on you he's like a hungry man if he's ready enough for a quickie so you don't last too young either.
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)
In public. He doesn't seem the type but as you tease him under the table at an Inn he can't stop you when you undo his trousers to play with him, so he wants to escalate it like a game until you're sat on his cock.
S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)
He cums faster than most others, he makes up for it in rounds. He gets excited fast and he's just ready for more. He wants more. Not saying he'll cum in 5 mins though, just don't expect hours.
T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
You'll have to teach him that stuff. He's shocked when you bring up using toys but once he gets the hang of it, he loves using them!
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He prefers it when you tease him. He loves it when you're being unfair with him, even if he acts like he doesn't like it.
V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)
Hes a vocal man. Not afraid to moan. He's a whiner and whimpers. They're cute and needy and often followed by a string of praise or begs.
W = Wild Card
(If you are female bodied) would let you peg him.
X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants)
He's around 5.5 inches. He's not as big as the others. It's got one distinct vein and it's pretty thick, but not like ... girthyyyy. Ya get me lol. I gotta say, he's got a pretty one. It's pretty. Tell him it's pretty, he'll moan. 😭
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
He more you do things the higher his sex drive will become. He becomes addicted to you.
Z = ZZZ (How quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
He sleeps after you've fallen asleep. Sometimes he'll read to you as you both cuddle and then will join you when he knows you're fast asleep.
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naesarangyunho · 2 years
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Can you blame me?- Jeong Yunho
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[I do not own these images all credit to the original owners]
SFW
A/N: I've been struggling to find Yunho fluff so I just wrote one myself. If anyone would like to, I'd love some Yunho fluff recommendations.
Synopsis: Y/n has been in love with her best friend for years and in a spur-of-the-moment decision confesses to him. Contents: Pretty much just a soft best friends to lovers because I'm sappy like that.
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"You know, I'm actually glad you called me," Yunho admitted as he walked at a leisurely pace next to her.
She turned her head to look at him as she walked, "What do you mean?"
He sighed, "I really needed a break from life. Work is getting busy and some fresh air is bound to be good for me."
She watched as his eyes fell shut for a moment as he took a deep breath of the cool, evening air. He did seem a little tired, perhaps not to the untrained eye but after years of knowing him she could tell otherwise.
The sun had begun to set over the Han River and the street lamps along the path they walked had begun to flicker to life.
She smiled at him, "I'm glad I called too. It's good to see you and I think I just needed this break too-- My family is driving me up the wall."
Her friend gave her a slightly concerned glance, "Are they still trying to convince you not to pursue a career in photography?"
She gave him an exaggeratedly drained look and nodded gravely in response. He huffed out a laugh that most definitely didn't make her heart stutter, wrapped an arm around her and tugged her into his side in a quick hug.
"They'll come around eventually. You're a really great artist and photographer. Don't stress your pretty head about it too much."
She tried to ignore the way her heart clenched at his words and actions. She shot him a quick smile in thanks as he squeezed her tight once more before releasing her.
"I hope you're right."
"I'm always right," Yunho responded rather confidently. She rolled her eyes and snorted in amusement.
"What? You don't believe me?" He gasped in feigned disbelief and clutched his heart in a very dramatic fashion. Jeong Yunho, the class clown even years after graduating.
She shook her head with an affectionate laugh.
"I'm just saying that statement is a little debatable, Yun."
Yunho bumped his shoulder amicably into hers with a slight pout, "We've been best friends for nearly ten years now, when have I ever steered you wrong?"
She raised her eyebrows at him, "Do you need a list?"
"It would be void of evidence."
She scoffed, "Are you sure? Remember that time you were convinced the girl at the bookstore liked girls and told me to get her number? Remember how she had a boyfriend?"
Yunho scratched the back of his neck with a sheepish grin, "Okay, I'll admit to that one but besides then? I've never steered you wrong since that uh… hiccup."
She huffed out another laugh, "Yeah? Right after that you were convinced that Yeosang liked me and that I should ask him out."
"Okay but remember how I eventually said you shouldn't?" Yunho interjected defensively.
She shoved him lightly, "Only because you found out he already had a girlfriend!"
Yunho's mouth opened and closed a few times as if he was searching for an excuse but he suddenly walked faster, "I don't want to partake in this conversation any longer."
She laughed again-- She always laughed so much when she was with him-- She couldn't help it. She scrambled to catch up with his long strides and hooked her arm around his once she did.
"You're so dumb," She teased affectionately.
Yunho slowed his pace again and looked down at her with a cheeky grin, "You love me though."
She felt her ears heat up just the slightest at his words and hoped he didn't notice as she responded with a soft "Unfortunately."
He chuckled deeply and ruffled her hair. She glared at him and slapped his hand away before fixing her hair with a disgruntled glare that the taller man found all too amusing. He loved riling his best friend up and lived for her reactions. He always had and even years later she still fell into his traps.
They came to a standstill at the end of the path that they had been following where there was a bench and a quiet little lookout point where they could gaze out at the sunset over the Han River. Yunho flopped down onto the wooden bench with a content sigh and tugged her down next to him. She yelped as she landed next to him. She shifted and got comfortable, leaning into his side. They sat in pleasant silence for a while, their conversation dying down as they watched the sunset paint the sky heavenly pink and orange.
Yunho took a deep lungful of air, a smile of pure satisfaction gracing his features as he closed his eyes to enjoy the feeling of the cool breeze and fading sun on his face. His schedules had been jam-packed lately and he hadn't had much time to relax, let alone outside in the fresh air.
She couldn't help but watch him surreptitiously. He had always been breathtakingly beautiful, inside and out, and she could never help the way her eyes would stray to his face or the way her heart would race as she looked at him. It's been years of silently pining after her best friend now.
She wasn't even sure when it had all begun but it must have started around the time she met Yunho way back when she had still been a trainee under KQ Entertainment. He had been an absolute godsend, entering her life just when she needed him most. She had entered the company about six months after him and they had just clicked the moment they had met.
Yunho had been there for her when things were good and when they were bad and she had returned the favour gladly. He had held her when she cried. He had helped her tape up aching muscles and joints and massaged knots out of her shoulders after hours and hours of gruelling dance practice. He had snuck her food when the company had put the girls on diets.
He had been there to support her when her fellow trainees of the girl group she nearly debuted in turned nasty. She had been pretty talented and they had been jealous of not only that but her close friendship with Yunho. Many of the female trainees at the company had crushes on him but he had only ever had eyes for her. He only paid attention to his best friend and it didn't go unnoticed by them.
He had just always been a constant in her life, her rock and safe place, even after he debuted in his boy group and left her behind to train on her own. Even then, he still tried to make time for her between hectic schedules.
When she eventually decided that the life of a kpop idol wasn't what she wanted anymore and left the company to pursue her passion in the Arts, Yunho supported her even when her family didn't. He even sat down with her when he had the chance to help her research universities she was interested in.
When everyone else had left her behind, Yunho had stayed. He never forgot about her even when he became a very successful idol and his group was making headlines. She had begun to love him unconditionally along the way, in more than one way and, honestly, could you blame her?
Yunho must have felt her eyes on him because he turned to look at her with a warm, curious smile, "What's up?"
Stupidly, before she could even think it through, she had leaned in and pressed a lingering kiss to a very surprised Yunho's lips.
He froze and panic had shot through her- quick and sharp.
She had pulled away so quickly one would think she had been burnt, "I'm so sorry, I don't know what's come over me I just-"
She was cut off by Yunho gently cupping her face and pulling her in for another kiss. Her eyes fell shut and she placed a hand on his waist as she kissed him back. He kissed her slowly, gently, thought put into every movement of his lips against hers and she couldn't help but melt into the kiss.
The kiss was over all too soon and Yunho pressed one last kiss to her lips and then her cheek before pulling away.
Her eyes remained shut for a moment longer as she tried to calm her racing pulse. When she did finally open them she saw Yunho gazing tenderly at her.
Her cheeks flushed instantly and she buried her face in his neck with a groan. He chuckled and wrapped his arms around her in a warm hug.
"I've been wanting to do that for a while," She finally admitted bashfully, speaking into his neck.
Yunho stroked her back and kissed her hair, "I had a feeling."
She pulled her face from his neck, "What do you mean?"
He smiled and brushed her hair from her face, his touch featherlight.
"I have had a suspicion that you liked me for the longest time now," He admitted.
Her eyes widened, "Then why didn't you say anything?!"
"Because I wasn't sure. I've loved you since we were trainees and I didn't want to get my hopes up in case I was wrong," Yunho confessed and she looked at him in absolute disbelief.
"You mean to tell me that for most of our friendship, I've been stupidly pining after you when you actually felt the same way?"
Yunho gave a soft, happy giggle, "Yes, it seems so."
She was at a complete loss for words and could only look at him in stunned silence, her heart still thumping away in her chest.
He grinned that perfect smile she'd always found disarming and kissed her once more, smiling against her lips still.
He cupped her face in one of his large hands again, "One of the perks of ATEEZ is that we don't have a dating ban so…"
She watched him patiently, the slight flush to his ears amusing.
He cleared his throat, "So, once this week's filming of Wanteez wraps up, would you like to get dinner?"
She felt like she was dreaming and was tempted to pinch herself.
"Like, a date?" She wanted to clarify.
He nodded, "Yeah, like a date."
A bright grin slowly spread over her face as his words fully registered. A date. Yunho wanted to take her on a date.
"Yes. I'd love that."
Yunho grinned, a sparkle in his brown eyes that had her tummy erupting into butterflies. He wrapped her up in a tight hug.
He nuzzled his face into her hair for a moment before standing and tugging her up after him.
"Let's get out of here and pray that those weasels at Dispatch didn't manage to see us."
"Shit. I didn't think of that!" She exclaimed and he just shrugged.
"It was a joke. I don't think they have that much of an interest in me."
He reached for her hand, "We'll have to let people know eventually though, right?"
There was a teeny spark of fear in his eyes, like he thought she would suddenly reject him now that that had been mentioned.
She got why he'd panic a little. Dating an idol wasn't going to be a walk in the park and she had heard some of those horror stories but it was Jeong Yunho. She'd never leave his side, especially now that she knew he loved her too-- and, really, could you blame her?
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HHHHHHH THIS IS AN INTERESTING ONE TO ME. i'm really curious about what's her verdict gonna be this time, because i feel like her behavior is kind of.. like, it's not suspicious, but it surely makes you think, and also there were some implications in akio's birthday tl conversation.
Warnings for Aimi's VD: Akio's injury is mentioned again and there's a description of his suicide attempt.
Warnings for Aimi's MV: Her MV shows Aimi being bullied again and there are also mentions of blood.
(the door opens)
Aimi: ...
Miki: H-hello, Hanasaki-san.
Aimi: ...
Miki: Um.. 
Miki: Aimi-chan?
Aimi: Ah, hello, Guard 002-san! I'm so happy to see you!
Aimi: .. You too, Guard 001-san.
Eiji: "She surely has her favorites."
Aimi: So.. Are you going to interrogate us in person today?
Eiji: Of course we are. What kind of question is that?
Aimi: But didn't you-
Aimi: .. Sorry, that's probably just me being silly, haha.
Miki: "Didn't Miyagawa-san ask us something about this interrogation too?"
Aimi: You probably still have a lot of questions about.. uh..
Aimi: Well.. my crime.
Eiji: *sits down* We sure do.
Aimi: Well, ask me anything you want then! I promise to cooperate.
Miki: *sits down too* B-but can I ask you about how's your life in Milgram been going first?
Aimi: *nods* Sure! 
Aimi: Um, what exactly do you want to know?
Miki: How are you feeling? Is everything okay?
Eiji: "She was voted innocent, of course, everything is okay for her."
Aimi: .. I think that depends on what exactly we're talking about, haha.
Aimi: Like, I really like my new hairstyle and I'm glad that I'm doing overall better now.
Aimi: Look at this! No bandaids or bandages at all, hehe~
Eiji: ".. I feel like she's trying to make me angry on purpose."
Aimi: But also.. 
Aimi: .. The guilty prisoners.
Miki: Y-yeah..
Aimi: Let me guess, you want to know more about my relationship with Akio-kun? 
Miki: H-how did you-
Aimi: Well, everyone finds it kinda weird. Sure, you could often see us together before, but..
Aimi: .. I knew that Akio-kun actually doesn't enjoy my company that much.
Aimi: He agreed to hang out with me only when I told him that Riku-kun will be there too. 
Aimi: But now.. Akio-kun can't do anything without me.
Miki: .. You're the only person in this prison who actually feels sorry for him and tries to help him. Of course, he likes you a lot now.
Aimi: *laughs* You're right, you're right.
Eiji: .. Hey.
Eiji: Why are you helping him anyway?
Aimi: Hm? But isn't that.. a good thing?
Aimi: I couldn't just let him die, you know?
Aimi: When I heard what Riku-kun had said to him.. I knew that if I won't interfere, it's gonna be the end for Akio-kun.
Aimi: Akio-kun tries really hard to make everyone believe that he's so cool and strong, but deep inside he's actually a huge softie, you know?
Aimi: A-and I don't mean it in a bad way! I'm not exactly the strongest person either.
Aimi: .. I'm the weakest person in this prison, honestly.
Aimi: So.. I knew that Akio-kun likes Riku-kun a lot. I can't imagine how painful it was for him to hear those words from someone he liked so much..
Aimi: So when everyone had left, I went to check up on Akio-kun and..
Aimi: There he was. Beating his head against the wall. Crying and repeating something over and over.
Aimi: There already was some blood on the wall too. 
Aimi: The cell door wasn't closed for some reason, so I instantly ran there and stopped him before it was too late.
Aimi: Maybe one of you forgot to close it?.. I-I'm not blaming you or anything! I mean, if it wasn't for that door, I wouldn't have been able to stop him.
Eiji: .. Hey, Guard 002, wasn't it your turn to check if everyone's cells are closed that night?
Miki: N-not now, Eiji-san.
Aimi: And he just.. I don't know, after that night, he quickly became attached to me.
Aimi: We get along so well now! I help him when he needs to walk somewhere, I make sure he doesn't forget to eat, I read his books out loud to him too. 
Aimi: .. He's going to be forgiven this time, right?
Eiji: Huh?
Aimi: I mean.. If you vote him guilty for the second time, you're also going to punish him again, right?
Eiji: Of course, that's what I do to all the guilty prisoners-
Aimi: Guard 001-san, just so you know, I respect you a lot, but also..
Aimi: This guy is going to die if you even try to do something to him again.
Aimi: And I won't be there to save him. 
Aimi: .. Or is that exactly what you want to do? Do you want to kill him before the third trial even starts?
Eiji: .. Y-you're sure more confident now, aren't you?
Aimi: This isn't about confidence, Guard 001-san. I'm just stating the obvious.
Eiji: Are you implying that I'm dumb-
Miki: She's right, Eiji-san. If you try to punish Miyagawa-san again, he will die. 
Miki: Or.. he's going to do something bad to himself again.
Eiji: .. It's not my problem if he dies.
Aimi: Really? I think it will be your problem if he dies.
Aimi: He will die from your own hands then. You will become a murderer. You will become the kind of person you hate so much, isn't that terrifying?
Aimi: *laughs* To be honest, when I saw what you did to the guilty prisoners, I thought that you're way too experienced for something like that.
Aimi: .. It's like you really had murdered someone in the past.
Eiji: !
Eiji: *gets up*
Eiji: What did you say?..
Miki: Eiji-san, sit down.
Aimi: Guard 001-san, aren't you tired of getting angry so easily all the time?
Aimi: Don't you think that's kind of.. unprofessional?
Eiji: .. What is wrong with you?
Eiji: What, you think you can act like that just because you've finally made one friend in this place?
Eiji: Akio hated you before all of this, you know? You're just using him to feel better about yourself, aren't you?
Miki: I SAID SIT DOWN!
Eiji: ...
Eiji: B-but, Guard 002-
Miki: Now.
Eiji: ... *sits down*
Aimi: Thank you, Guard 002-san.
Miki: (to Eiji) *whispering* Why are you acting like this, Eiji-san?
Eiji: *whispering* I.. She's acting way too-
Miki: *whispering* I'm sorry, Eiji-san, but I think you've crossed the line this time.
Eiji: W-what?
Aimi: Now, about me being friends with Akio-kun.
Aimi: I'm just helping him because I don't want to see him in pain.
Aimi: I'm doing this because this is what I wanted someone to do back when I was.. 
Aimi: .. Bullied.
Miki: .. S-so you're admitting that your classmates never were your friends after all?
Aimi: *nods*
Aimi: I really didn't want to believe it, even though that's exactly the reason why I.. agreed to that, but after I was done with my murder, something in my brain just couldn't let me fully accept it. 
Aimi: I still wanted to believe that they were my friends. I still wanted to believe that they actually liked me.
Eiji: .. "Agreed to that"?
Miki: That is so understandable. I'm glad that you've finally realized that you deserve to be treated better.
Aimi: Hehe, thank you.. I like you a lot, Guard 002-san.
Miki: I-I have one more question, if that's okay.
Miki: .. I don't know if it's just me, but I've noticed that you don't really talk to anyone except Miyagawa-san anymore. Is there any particular reason for that?
Aimi: .. Ah, about that. 
Eiji: Actually, yeah, I want to know about that too.
Eiji: ".. That's interesting. Maybe she really is using Akio because he's so vulnerable right now, but I've never seen her try and talk to Yurika or Kei."
Eiji: "At the same time that's understandable, but still.. Why isn't she trying to help them too if they're also in pain?"
Aimi: .. I love everyone here. I really do.
Aimi: Even you, Guard 001-san, haha.
Aimi: I knew from the start that every single prisoner here is a murderer. Of course I knew that.
Aimi: But I still wanted all of them to be forgiven. I believed that all of them deserve to be voted innocent. I didn't know much about their crimes, but something was telling me that they deserve to be saved.
Aimi: But now.. I'm not so sure anymore.
Aimi: The way everyone is acting now scares me. I don't think I can trust them.
Aimi: Yes, some of them had acted like that even before their verdicts were announced, but it felt different. 
Aimi: The way Shun-san and Eiko-san treat Kei-san now is terrible. Naomi-san helps me with taking care of Akio-kun, but I still think she's suspicious. Asahi-kun is acting even worse than before and there's nothing cute about his behavior. And do I even have to explain why I don't talk to Riku-kun anymore?
Aimi: Reina-san is fine, but I still prefer to avoid her.
Aimi: And I feel sorry for Kei-san and Yurika-san, but also..
Eiji: .. You think they deserved to be punished?
Aimi: What? N-no!
Aimi: It's just.. Sometimes I look at them and go: "I can see why you were voted guilty".
Eiji: Do you think they should be voted guilty this time too?
Aimi: .. Isn't that for you to decide?
Eiji: Didn't you want us to forgive Akio though?
Aimi: And it's still for you to decide. I just said that if you punish him again, he'll die. The choice is still yours, isn't it?
Eiji: So.. You don't talk to them anymore because they aren't as "good" as you imagined them to be?
Eiji: .. *laughs*
Eiji: Wow, that's messed up.
Miki: I-if she thinks they're too dangerous, then it's okay-
Aimi: Hey, Guard 001-san.
Aimi: .. If I was voted guilty, don't you think that at least one of those prisoners would treat me differently?
Aimi: And yes, I know that Akio-kun could bully me too if he was voted innocent. But I expected that from him, I knew that he doesn't like me anyway.
Aimi: .. I feel like most of these prisoners have only pretended to like me. And they still do.
Aimi: It's only natural for me to avoid them, right?
Eiji: Still, don't you think that's kind of-
Aimi: (in a deeper voice) Guard 001-san, are you saying that I should be friends with people who would have killed me if given the chance? Thanks, but I don't want to go through all that shit again.
Eiji: ...
Eiji: ".. What was that just now?"
Aimi: (back to her normal voice) Anyway, so, now we have to talk about my crime, right? I don't think we have much time left too..
Miki: Right.. So, about your crime..
Eiji: What did you agree to, Aimi? 
Eiji: You had an accomplice, didn't you?
Aimi: ...
Eiji: "I was told that it would be nice if all of them just died". Who told you that?
Aimi: .. Haha.. 
Aimi: I guess it's okay for me to say that I did have an accomplice.
Aimi: Actually, I'm not sure which crime of mine we're talking about.
Eiji and Miki: Huh??
Aimi: I-It's just that I'm not sure if that crime can be considered.. something that I did. 
Aimi: So.. I'm just going to talk about what I consider my crime.
Aimi: If we're talking about my crime, then no, I did everything without anyone's help. If we're talking about what happened before, it was mostly my accomplice's doing.
Eiji: "I'm starting to see why Aimi and Akio get along so well."
Miki: T-this is getting confusing..
Miki: O-okay, let's go back to the topic of your crime. 
Miki: I just found something very weird.. So, you know we have to extract your video again after this, right?
Aimi: Yes, I do. I wonder what you will see this time..
Miki: The thing is.. We saw something very weird in your first video.
Miki: We saw this.. place.. It looked very familiar to me, but also it looked much more scary than I remember it being..
Aimi: !
Aimi: Ahaha.. I think I know what you're talking about..
Aimi: .. Do you think you saw an amusement park?
Miki: I think so?..
Miki: But why-
Aimi: .. Both crimes took place there.
Miki: .. What?
Eiji: Oh, we're finally getting somewhere.
Eiji: Why an amusement park though?
Aimi: W-well-
Eiji: Wait, it makes sense.
Eiji: You see, I just couldn't understand how and where your crime happened. Like, if your classmates were your victims.. 
Eiji: Did you blow up the whole school or something? But that would kill other people too..
Eiji: But how else could you make all of them gather up in one place?
Eiji: .. Maybe during a class trip?
Aimi: ...
Eiji: Answer. Now.
Aimi: .. M-my family owns it.
Aimi: I mean.. That park.
Miki: .. W-what??
(bell rings, machinery sounds)
Miki: .. Oh no.
Aimi: Hehe, we really didn't have much time left, did we?..
Eiji: *gets up* Tell us about your accomplice right now.
Eiji: Who did you ask to help you?
Eiji: You didn't have any friends, right? So who could you-
Eiji: No friends.. 
Eiji: And your family owned that park..
Eiji: .. Your parents? No, you had only one accomplice, right?
Eiji: Was it your father? Your mother?
Eiji: Your grandmother? Your grandfather? Your older brother?
Eiji: JUST ANSWER ALREADY!
Miki: Aimi-chan, please!
Aimi: ...
Eiji: Whatever, we're just gonna see everything with our own eyes.
Eiji: Prisoner 002, Aimi, sing your sins!
Aimi: Oh well, he's dead anyway. 
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[ MV Description ]
The video would have very pretty, soft and pastel colors, but more and more red and purple would appear closer to the end. 
The video takes place in an amusement park. 
Aimi's MV starts with Aimi's classmates running around, having fun and doing whatever they want meanwhile the girl herself just watches them. 
"It's okay, I just like seeing you so happy
It feels nice because you all are happy because of me and only me"
She also keeps looking somewhere, almost like she's waiting for someone to appear or she's looking for someone. 
She sees one of her classmates drop their ice cream on the ground and then they just walk over it. She comes closer and one of her classmates pushes her and she ends up falling and getting that ice cream on her face. While she's lying on the ground, another classmate "accidentally" spills their drink on Aimi and just walks past her. But the music is still fun and the colors are still cute.
"It's okay, it's okay, I keep repeating
I can take more, this is all just to make you happy"
However, Aimi's face expression changes and her eyes look more empty and she isn't smiling anymore. She clenches her fist, finally gets up and the chorus starts playing. She imagines everything being even more fun and bright and she imagines her classmates turning back and smiling, waiting for her to join them. She smiles back and runs to them, but when she's finally there, they're already gone and the colors start getting darker meanwhile the music becomes slower.
"No, something about this is wrong
Why am I the only one who's still not smiling?
What's the purpose, what's the meaning
Why should I be trying to make you happy while I'm the only one who's suffering?"
Her classmates go to check out the attractions and she still stands there, watching them. She can see some of them looking at her and talking to each other while laughing, obviously making fun of her. Her eyes become empty again and she reaches for something in her pocket. 
Suddenly one girl walks up to her and points to one of the rides. She asks Aimi something and takes her hand. Aimi gets very happy, she nods and goes to follow her, but then she stops, almost like she's just remembered something. Aimi lets her hand go and shakes her head. 
"Please don't say I'm bad for saying no to you
There's a reason why I don't trust anyone anymore"
The girl stands there for a second, but then gives Aimi a smile and leaves. Aimi continues to watch others having fun and now there's a drop of sweat running down her cheek. 
"It's okay, it's okay, I keep repeating
Even though everything is going to end soon
I promise you will remember this day as the most fun day of your life"
She shakes her head again and she looks around, like she's looking for someone again. She catches a glimpse of someone wearing the same mask from her T1 MV and calms down. The chorus plays again and we go back to soft and pastel colors and we can see Aimi's classmates getting on the ferris wheel, rollercoaster and other rides. All of them are smiling and laughing.
The chorus ends and the music becomes slower again. The sky's color suddenly turns red and the colors start becoming darker in general. Aimi looks nervous again, but she tries to stay positive and she sees a cute light blue balloon appearing out of nowhere. 
"Everything is going according to plan, there's no reason for me to worry
I trust you completely, I know you would never betray me"
She smiles and tries to touch it, but right as she does so, it pops and Aimi now has blood on her face and hands. She gets scared and turns around and sees that there are balloons everywhere. She is even more scared now and she tries to run away, but the balloons start popping for no reason at all and now everything around Aimi starts getting covered in blood. 
"I still trust you, I promise I won't lose faith
Everything is going according to plan, right?
What you had said to me wasn't a lie, please tell me it wasn't"
Now there's more blood on her as well. She trips and falls as another balloon pops right in front of her and when she looks down, she sees that she's lying on something. Or someone. She looks closer and it's very blurry, but you can clearly see that this person has the same hairstyle as the girl who wanted to spend time with Aimi earlier. But there's also too much blood. Aimi gets shocked and she covers her mouth. 
"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry
I don't think this was a good idea"
She can't get up because of how scared she is and then suddenly, a mysterious figure appears in front of her.
That figure is wearing the mask from her T1 MV. It's hard to say anything about their appearance because of them wearing a dark cape that covers their whole body, but they're definitely taller and older than Aimi. They help her get up. Aimi carefully takes their hand and even though it looks like she knows this person and trusts them, she's still scared and she has no idea what's going on. Aimi asks them something and that figure just starts laughing and makes Aimi look at everything that's happening around her once again. Aimi sees that there are no balloons left and the whole park is ruined and it looks just like that scary place from her first MV. Aimi realizes something and it looks like she deeply regrets everything and she's about to cry. 
"Oh, I see, so it really was a lie
There's blood on my hands, there's blood on your hands
Both of us are sinners, both of us have "Guilty" written on our faces"
The figure takes her hand again and tries to calm her down. Aimi takes a deep breath and it looks like she's back to normal. She turns back to the figure and gives them a hug, which surprises them, but they hug her back too. 
"Well, maybe it's okay, maybe it's okay for me to repeat those words again
Maybe it's okay for us to be like this
I'm so sorry, I will never doubt you again
I promise, I will never say no to you" 
Now, the figure lets Aimi go for a second and it looks like they're about to take their mask off, but before they manage to do that, Aimi suddenly reveals that she had a pocket knife in her hand. 
"There's a reason why I don't trust anyone anymore
Yes, even you"
We can see from the figure's POV that Aimi is getting closer and closer to them (and us) and it looks like she has not the best intentions, but right after that we go back to Aimi's POV and.. It turns out that she still sees a balloon right in front of her. 
"Don't fool me with that mask of kindness ever again
If they won't send you to Hell, I will"
Aimi smiles and uses the knife on it and the video ends with a loud sound of the balloon popping and more blood getting on Aimi's face.
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Request - Your story for sinking Billy Hargrove  is amazing do you mind like doing a one shot of Billy finding out that y/n is prego [Billy, Billy like mean Billy finds out]
You’re shitting me!
Billy Hargrove x y/n
'Friday night!' You thought to yourself, which meant one thing, party at the lake, hook up with Billy Hargrove and getting absolutely wasted. You and Billy had been hooking up for a few months now, not too serious, well not at school anyway, he would come around your house some nights, pick you up to go for a drive when his dad had been an ass hole.
At school was a different story, he would wink at you and because the two of you hung out in the same crowd you were always together but nobody would know that the two of you were sleeping together, except Lisa, your best friend.
It kind of hurt you because you loved Billy more than you would tell him and way more than he knew, deep down you hoped he cared more but the doubt always stopped you asking.
You looked forward to the lake parties the second you heard someone mention it, you had been feeling run down lately with all the studying, late nights with Billy and cheer practice, so you thought a party was just what the doctor ordered.
As you was getting ready for the party a sudden wave of nausea came over you, you had to bolt from your vanity to the bathroom where you threw up all your stomach contents, "damn cafeteria food!" You told yourself before returning to the vanity still unable to shake off the sick feeling.
Finally once your make up and hair had been done you chose your favourite dress, a tight fitting hot pink body con dress with your black kitten heals, you really had to squeeze yourself into the dress, fitting extra tight on the stomach and breast area, thinking nothing of it you adjusted the girls in your bra and headed downstairs as Billy would be picking up in 10 mins.
Once you see Billy's Camaro pull up outside you head out of the door shouting goodnight to your parents. You step inside the Camaro and see Billy with his signature look, hair curled to perfection, shirt open just the right amount and his jeans tight enough to stop his balls working.
"You look good y/n", he told you very monotone, he was never one to give compliments or be soppy but this was him trying, "aww thanks Billy, you look hot yourself, I wish I felt as good as I look, I threw up when I was getting ready, that shitty food at school I'm not eating it again" you moan to him, "y/n you better not throw up, I'm not kidding I will let you walk home" again very monotone, he was not kidding.
The two of you made conversation on the drive to the lake, as soon as you arrived Billy started taking beer out of the trunk of his Camaro, you headed off to find Lisa.
Not long after setting off you found her on a bench with a few people, "y/n! Hey girl, I'm glad you made it, you aren't looking too fresh though are you ok?" She asked you, "yeah I'm fine I think I ate something bad at school, Billy has driven me here so don't think his driving helped" she laughed at your reply.
Your girl group met up with Billy and the boys as the night went on, you had stopped drinking around an hour ago  as you felt sick again and right now you had your head on Billy's shoulder while he laughed and joked with the group, all of a sudden you shot up and ran behind a tree to again throw up.
Billy looked at you a little worried from the park bench he was on, Lisa ran over to you to help out.
After you had finished the two of you walked over to your crowd of friends, "can anyone give y/n a lift home I think she is really sick", they remained silent for a minute before Billy put his drink down and said "fine Il take her home but y/n I mean if you throw up in my car and your walking the rest of the way sick or not", you couldn't be bothered entertaining his need for drama so you just replied "ok Billy".
He managed to get you home without been sick, you quickly left the car but not before Billy said "il see you at school".
The morning rolled around and you felt no better so you stayed in bed, you did this for a few days.
Finally Lisa showed up at your house wondering where you were, you let her in and the two of you sat on the couch watching tv, you began filling her in on your bug, "ugh Lisa is has been horrible, constantly being sick, I haven't eaten anything even the thought of food makes me want to throw up, actually are you wearing a new perfume because I'm sorry but it's making me feel the same way", Lisa looked at you shocked by your harsh comment, "ok I'm going to let that slide, don't panic ok but you know my brothers girlfriend just had her baby like 3 months ago" you just nodded in response, "well remember when they were living at my house and I would tell you what she was like at the start", your eyes shot open wide, you knew what she was getting at, she just nodded at you, "what if you aren't sick y/n, what if this is morning sickness".
You began pacing around the room, "I can't be, no, no way, I'm going to college next year!, I'm not, obviously I'm not pregnant!.... Am I? Oh god, what if I am, Billy will kill me, my mom and dad will disown me!", Lisa ran up to you and pulled you into a hug, "nothing is going to happen like that ok, just breathe, I'm going to the store and getting a test, I will be back in 10 minutes ok, let's not panic until we know huh", before you knew it she had left.
The two of you paced your bedroom floor, you with a test in your hand waiting the 10 intense minutes it stated on the box.
Finally the colour appeared, "what does 2 lines mean Lisa?", your friend looked at the instructions in her hand and Simply said, "I'm sorry Y/N".
Your first reaction was to run, so you did, "I have to go", and with that you ran, you didn't know where you was headed until you arrived at 4819 cherry lane, you looked up at the house in shock that you managed to get here, Billy's car was on the drive but his dads wasn't.
You walked up the rickety old steps, once you reached the door you gave a timid knock before Max answered, "hey Max, Billy home?" She just moved aside and said "bedroom, left at the bottom", you simply gave her a nod, you had been here many times before unbeknown to her.
You gave a quiet knock on the door only to hear Billy shout back "go away Maxine!", "uh it's me Billy, y/n".
Billy soon came to answer the door, "what are you doing here? Where have you been I haven't  seen you all week, your not still sick are you" he asked, unsure of how to answer all the questions thrown at you, you decided to try explain, "kind of but that's why I'm here Billy I need to speak to you", he went back in the bedroom and sat on the bed, "ok so first of all I want to apologise, I am so so sorry Billy, I didn't want this to be the case and I don't like it as much as you won't", Billy looked at you exremely confused, you decided to just start.
"Ok Billy yeah iv been sick, well not so much sick, I'm ..... fuck, ..... Billy I... we are...., ugh....." you broke down crying, "y/n tell me" he said abruptly, you felt like the Penny had dropped, he just needed you to say it.
"I'm pregnant Billy", it was out. He just got up and walked over to his mirror with his head down for what felt like an eternity, you decided to go up behind him, you looked at his face in the mirror, the vein on his head was out indicating he was angry, "Billy talk to me, please.", you didn't get a response from him although he did look up and look you in the eyes through the mirror.
"This was an accident Billy, we aren't ready for this.... But we can do this".
He flipped, shooting around to look directly at you, "are you fucking kidding me y/n, 'we can do this' what sort of bull shit answer is that!, how can we do this!, you're going to college in a few months, I'm living here with this duche bag!, we're not even dating!, some causal hook up this turned out to he huh", Billy really hurt you with what he was saying but you had known him long enough to know he didn't mean a lot of what he said in anger, "yeah you're right this will change plans for me, and no we're not dating because some ass hole hasn't asked me out, he just wants to keep hooking up with anyone he feels like", you stood with your hands on your hips waiting for a response but he just stood there mouth open at your reaction, nobody spoke back to him like that, "oh you lost for words Billy? Well I have some for you, we can do this, you know why I believe we can, because I love you Billy Hargrove, I don't expect you to love me back I'm not stupid but I WILL be doing this with or without you, I'm going to leave now because I have given you your choices, you can either decide what we are and what you want to do about the child you have created with me or you can live your life in this shit hole with your father, hating every minute of your time here, you know as much as I do that you are only comfortable when you are with me, il be at home. Hopefuly il see you soon Billy....."
With that you left the Hargrove house.
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dribs-and-drabbles · 1 year
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#BADBUDDYREWATCH
Ep 11
Okay, first, I can't believe Pat and Pran went down from the rooftop and left their dorms to go to the bus without stopping off to pack a bag 😄
But all jokes aside, I love love love that we got confirmation straight away that Pat had told Pran about what his dad did. Not only that but he obviously had apologised/fretted over how Pran would feel about it again and again because Pran tells him 'enough'. And that Pran is still there with Pat despite everything with their parents shows the strength of their convictions with each other.
"We can't change what happened. We can just live with it." I just realised that this ep is bookended with more than just the same clothes - what Pran is saying here is echoed at the end with Tong's 'One man can't change the world, but the world can't change me either'. The nuance from Tong, though, is instead of just 'living with it', Tong chooses to actively do what he wants despite it not having an impact on others, and that's what Pat and Pran learn by the end. But it's so interesting that Pran basically has the same perspective in the beginning.
Pat pulling Pran onto his shoulder so that he won't see Pat crying. 😭 I think Pat already knows here that running away isn't the answer - him saying 'I can't live with it so I'm going to run away with you to a place where people will accept us together' is just putting on a front. He might want that, but the tear shows he knows deep down it's not a permanent solution.
"Being with you already feels like freedom" 😭😭😭
Pat's question about Junior, "So he's sulking because he wants to stay longer?" is actually a premonition of how Pat will act later.
Pat's SO CHEESY! 😄 but Pran loves it so much!
Elephant shirt my beloved!
I just adore that they bicker and fight over every little thing. It's their language. Or it's Pran scolding Pat and Pat teasing Pran and their ensuing bickering because of it. And it happens in this whole ep and I think which is why I love it so much. Because we really see them at their most domestic - this is their dynamic, just them, no pretences, and they don't feel pushed away or less loved from the treatment they get from each other, they do it all the while knowing how much they love and have chosen each other.
Junior "You don't have to pound it so hard"...not understanding he made the most incredible innuendo comment.
Sneaky fucking Pran rises again. Pat asks if it's spicy. Instead of being honest and saying it is, or lying and saying it isn't, Pran simply states "I know you don't like spicy food". And then feeds the spicy sauce to Pat. Peak gremlin 😄
I have very mixed feelings about the talk on the beach between Pran and Junior's mum...but that's for personal reasons I guess.
And then we get that bar scene which contains so much it gives me whiplash. First I swear Ohm and Nanon show through when they're drinking the beer and burping afterwards. Then the English song feels like an odd choice and which kind of pulls me out of the scene a bit - I don't see why they didn't use an acoustic version of a Thai song. And then we get That Look™ from Pat to Pran as Pran is looking wistfully to the musician. And finally, Pran's wistful look takes me back to the conversation on the beach with Junior's mum and I just feel irked at all these parents who crush their children's dreams because they think it's not right for them or not profitable or not whatever else. (and I know that's not the main point of the conversation but it hits close to my heart, so I pick up on it more). And I'm just so glad that later Pran includes wanting to be a musician in his answer to what he wants to do after he's graduated.
Sulking Pat!
Look, I know I keep harping on about it, but this is how you incorporate product placement into the story. Those seaweed snacks helped that scene - it's a prop that would have worked even if it had been an unbranded snack. Pran used it as an olive branch but it had the added bonus of connecting Pat and Pran (and us) back to the very beginning of their relationship - with the beginning of the bet - giving them (and us) a way to reflect back on where they started and how far they've come.
I love watching all these Thai and other Asian dramas but I am sad sometimes that I miss some nuance in the language translation. I wish I could have a Thai speaker sit down with me and talk me through that kiss scene because I'm sure there's more in there that we're missing.
When I first watched the kiss, though, I thought the pause that Pran made after pulling Pat to him was a bit odd...but just now it made me think of Pran talking about the 'hesitation' before a confession and I think this moment gives the same excited anticipation energy that he talks about there, and which is why he chooses to pause before the kiss.
I don't think we as a collective fandom talk enough about the noise Pat makes at 14:40 in part 3.
Pran Parakul '10/10' Siridichawat. He's so fucking smug.
How on Earth did we get our collective knickers in a twist about the possibility of Pat and Pran breaking up?! I mean, Pat says it himself - "You never leave me. You always fight alongside me." They were basically telling us not to worry, that even when they go back and confront the fallout of their parents finding out, they'll stand by each other, fight alongside each other. 🤦🏽‍♀️
THE FUCKING SONG! (I can't believe I didn't notice straight away first time round that it was the theme song - I was so engrossed in watching the flashbacks 😭).
Ahhhhhhh this ep!!!
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Day 2: Wonder
Conversation prompt: "It's so white." "It's snow." "I live in Hollywood. I don't know what weather is, let alone snow."
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"This seems unnecessary."
Holly wiped the condensation from the passenger side window to attempt to see where they were going.
She pushed her glasses up to peer out at nothing but mountains and trees.
"I disagree." Ryan replied as he drove along a winding road. "You need a break."
"No, I don't."
"Yes, you do."
Holly huffed while reaching over to turn on her seat warmer.
"I still don't see why I couldn't take a break at my home." She shivered. "In warm and pleasant Los Angeles."
"Because, Ms. Chang," Ryan turned on the radio, "you would have kept working while insisting you were relaxing."
She snorted, refusing to admit out loud that he was right.
"After the nightmare you endured on Hunt's latest film," he grinned when he found a station playing Christmas music, "I decided to save you from feeling the need to help him edit it."
"I wasn't going to do that." She grumbled. "I was going to get started on another screenplay."
Ryan merely hummed along to Holly Jolly Christmas.
Holly rolled her eyes, focusing once more on the scenery.
The higher up they went, the more snow they encountered.
"It's so white." Holly muttered.
"It's snow." Ryan retorted in a playful, mocking tone.
She folded her arms. "I live in Hollywood. I don't know what weather is, let alone snow."
"Everyone experiences snow." He quipped.
"Believe it or not, I'm a Malibu girl." She quipped back. "Born and raised. If it isn't pieces of paper, cotton, or that stuff from a can; then I'm unfamiliar with it."
"Surely you've traveled before to a snowy place."
"Nope." Holly reached behind her for his coat. "I only travel when places are experiencing the warm temps."
She used his coat as a blanket of sorts.
"So you've never been snow skiing?" He asked. "You never went along to any of those that Addison insists on taking us all too?"
"No and no."
"Never went on location to a wintery atmosphere."
"I've run out of ways to say, no."
Ryan shook his head. "I can't believe this is your first time."
"I can't believe this is your big surprise." She waved her hand toward the window. "You're really going all out to make my escape impossible."
Ryan's smug smile returned.
"I didn't think about you being unable to drive on icy roads."
"I'm trapped." She grumbled.
"Cheer up." He winked at her. "You're trapped with me."
"Yes, but where are we going?"
"Right..." He turned into a drive. "Here."
"A cabin." Her eyebrows raised. "I can't believe it."
"Can't believe what?"
Holly scrambled out of the car, staring in wide eyed wonder up at the luxurious log cabin with snow flakes gently falling around it.
As Ryan came around the car to join her, she launched herself at him, engulfing him in a tight hug.
"Hello there." He smiled down at her. "I take it you like this."
"Thank you!" She raised up on her tiptoes to kiss him. "Thank you, thank you, thank you!"
"I'm glad to see you finally appreciating our getaway." He held her close.
"If you'd told me we were coming to a cabin, I'd have been excited the whole way here!"
"Really?" He kissed her cheek before she wiggled out of his arms. "I didn't know you loved cabins."
"I've never been in one." She went to retrieve her bags. "But this is exactly what I needed!"
Ryan stopped her. Something about her response made him a little suspicious.
"Why do you need this?"
"You must be a mind reader." She beamed at him. "I had an idea the other day for a psychological thriller set in a cabin deep in the woods!" She took her bags and scampered through the snow towards the front door.
Ryan's head dropped back. He couldn't believe what he'd done.
"You coming or what?" She yelled out. "This inspiration for a screenplay won't write itself!"
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Sadly baby mouse died overnight. I am not shocked after how quickly he deteriorated yesterday. I just hope he was comfortable in the end. I feel really bad. But I tried my best. I really did. I would bury him with his brother in the clover pot.
I felt sad this morning because of that. I hadn't slept bad. And let myself sleep until 9. When I woke up I had a sore throat. It's like deep in the base of my skull. Which might be be allergies but it for sure not comfy.
I got dressed. And tried to feel fine. I cleaned up all the mouse stuff. Said goodbye. Tried to feel normal.
I had a little breakfast. And I worked on the sweater project. I decided that it's not the right shape. Which is alright. It was a fun try and I will move on to the next project now. I am not sure what that will look like but I'm looking forward to trying to make something else
My hands need a little break I think though and I might do some sewing to get ready for the Christmas market. Or draw some new bears. We will see.
I would chill on the couch after I vacuumed up the yarn fluff I got all over the living room. I thought about cleaning but then I was just a bit paralyzed. I was tired and couldn't do anything. So I didn't. I had a deviled egg. I ran downstairs to get a package for a neighbor when the doorbell rang. I laid in bed for a little while.
I got up at 12 and finished getting ready. I put my shoes on. And I was off. I said hello to my neighbor outside. And drove to awah.
I put on music to hype myself up. And got there early. I was most of the way set up when Zoe got there.
It was a fun day. I was really pleased to see the sisters back from the spring who I really like. I also just really liked the project. We were talking about geometric shapes and colors and patterns. And everyone seemed really into it. Which I always love. I just want everyone to have fun. And this was a good one.
Me and Naomi also made some art to encourage the teens. One of the sister, Tiffany, loved the black outlines on my art and asked if she could do it too. Of course!! She seemed so excited, it was so sweet. Her sister, Sierra, held my hand and told me she was afraid of bees. She also was very concerned with the dates of the class which I think is very sweet. She just wants to know what's up, which I can absolutely relate too.
We had a lull between groups and were able to reset. I had a nice conversation with Mary Ellen about what puhtok does and the group I work with on Tuesdays with profoundly disabled students. She got a little misty! I was surprised but I also got it.
The adult class was fun. I had a nice conversation with Andrew and his dad about how Andrew has such a beautiful eye for color and his work reminds me of Hilma af Klint. Which I think made Andrew flattered.
I also just had some nice interactions with Richard and his aid. About pop art and painting. It was a fun class.
Me and Naomi would chat about her trip next weekend and how we have no class. It'll be nice to have a free Sunday. And we were pretty good at reminding people about it. Hate to mess up any of their routines, I know how important that is for them, but everyone seems mostly chill about it.
It would take a little bit to get all of the materials out away. Andrew and Brian had helped us bring things to the table and I got everything put away. Chatted with Andrew's dad. But soon it was time to go.
I remembered to alarm the building. And then walked to my car. Which was surprisingly warm. I took my sweater and socks off. And wrote my notes for the class while the ac cooled down the car.
I I went to target. I was originally going to go this morning but I am glad I waited. It was fun. But it was also incredibly busy. Target was having some kind of sale if you used the app. Which finally pushed me to download the app.
And I saved so much??? I had $18 in Cashback on my account I didn't know about and a $5 gift card, plus 30% off half my items. I ended up getting a $95 order for $58! That's crazy!
I did really good sticking to my list. But I also treated myself to a beautiful green fleece jacket that I love. Its so soft. And if we use girl math, with my discounts today I got it for free.
Of course it's way to warm to wear it. But in the coming weeks I am sure it's going to be great.
I paid after waiting on a very long line. Almost left the store without getting the security tag taken off the fleece but after the door beeped at me twice I went back and got it fixed. Oops.
I dropped off my purchases in the car and walked to five below. Which was also to busy but it was fine. I did not have luck finding what I was looking for. The final items on my list. Pimple patches and brown sugar chapstick. I still had fun looking around.
I remembered I had a $10 gift card for Ulta so I walked next door and had great luck. I found a new brand of patches that weren't expensive and the brown sugar chapstick! Which had a redesigned package so I'm glad I was able to find it even if it didn't look like I expected from the old packaging.
The girl at the counter was excited for me that my total was $4 after my gift card. Excellent. Love a deal. She also helped me fix my Ulta account that wasn't set up correctly. Why it had my Minnesota address and my brother's name I will never know. Weird weird weird.
I walked to the Michaels next. No luck on the strap material but I found a few other little things I was excited about. Some ribbon and super glue. A cup and a wall hook shaped like a heart. I had a coupon for there too. I was doing really good today.
I got a piece of candy while I was there and ate that while I walked back to the car. And then home.
It was a nice drive back. And I was really happy to be back. I was tired.
James was playing DND with their friends. I put things away and laid on the couch with sweetp. James said they would play for another hour. And once that hour was up I requested they get off and have dinner with me. So they did.
They would run to the store to get dressing. And then we had a salad, fries, and grilled cheeses for dinner. James just made one dinner that we shared and it was very sweet. I love my husband.
I have been hanging out all evening. Texting Celia about how whimsy is the best prevention for COVID. Sweetp was being a little cutie cuddling me. I got a shower. James and me are in bed now. I am very much ready for sleep.
James told me that they are very sorry that baby mouse died. But they feel like taking care of him healed something in them for the mouse tests they had to do in highschool. I am glad that we tried. I am sad but I know we showed kindness and that is important to me.
Tomorrow we are taking Sweetp to the vet for a check up. He is to fat so I am expecting them to tell us that. But besides that I think we are just having a chill day. I hope it is restful.
Sleep well everyone. Wash your hands and take care of eachother.
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And we're back!! Absolutely adore the little photo at the beginning that you chose for this fic. Very nice.
As soon as you mentioned the bucket with the tools I just thought "Oh my god he's gonna do the repairs for the Reader." And I started sobbing internally. This next part is gonna sound so odd, but thanks for using the word petulant?? It's one of my favorite sounding words (just the way it sounds when it's spoken), but I never see it in writing much anymore.
Anyway the scene you've set up right now is very...not stiff. But a little tense. Because Marc is doing something that his father doesn't know about, but he has tools. And based on when he asked about why he needs the hammer, it's obvious that Marc is assuming that his father is assuming something bad. It's sad, quite honestly. Especially when you write about the in-between time, before the grief became a replacement for the son that was lost, and the birdhouse Elias and Marc built together.
The communication between them is realistic, in my opinion. And I really, truly, love how you've written their relationship so far. I just....words cannot express how deep my appreciation for this type of writing goes.
(Side note: Oh my god he was gonna do the repairs earlier but it was raining. Oh my god. He wanted to surprise the reader 😭)
Anyway, I'm honestly surprised Elias learned that Marc is going to Tales Untold in this chapter. I thought it would've happened later, but the way you've set this up is so wonderful. Yay to communication, because now they're talking. We learn why Elias told the Reader about Marc when he donated the piano. I think if anything, this is a reminder that we can never really know other people's mind, despite the relationship we have with them.
This moment between them is so good. The reader (not the fic one) can see the yearning that's there to have these lines open, how raw this whole thing is, but it's still hard. Change can't happen over night, especially to something that's been (seemingly) set in stone for years on end. And I love that you show that. Some people would skip it, because that's a topic that can be hard to tackle, especially depending on what's changing. But I'm glad we get the full view of it.
Anyway this is now me just. Fufhdhdhhdhd at the interaction between the Reader and Marc. The not-so-secret smile the Reader has when they're told what he's doing, him asking "Who says I want anything?" when they say about not having anything to exchange for this, the almost subtle fact that he says that they've done alot for him.....I wish I could just type "wah" and say that's it but I hold myself to somewhat of a standard. And dammit, you will be getting more than a "wah".
My favorite detail might just be the fact that the Reader notices Marc's accent, seemingly because he's in Chicago more.
I enjoyed reading about the little afternoons they spend together, in the company of themselves and the piano.
When I read this little paragraph, "It doesn’t help that Marc doesn’t seem to know how attractive he is, that he’s like something someone painted and brought to life completely by accident.", I literally rolled onto my bedroom floor. Worth it, in my opinion.
I love this. I love the thoughts we get to see from both sides, like how the fact that they're thinking about one another is mutual.
Props to Marc, by the way, for dealing with the door. Door replacement, especially an exterior door, is no joke. I hate it, 100% don't recommend. (Though I did my replacement on a windy day so you can imagine the annoyance I felt.)
I'm so interested in this little street you've set up, and the shops you've mentioned. I like how we see what Marc remembers from before.
Originally, I just typed "stop" with alot of p's in all caps when I read the conversation the Reader has with the music box customer. What is up with the Reader knowing these details??
Again, I want to type "stop" with all the p's and it in all caps. He's gonna build her some flower boxes, hdhdhdydhdhdbdbfbf. Djfhfurudh is literally all my thoughts. I wish I could properly tell you how much I love this specific interaction of theirs.
:O new street?? Oh hardware store right. Everything is just so...I love picturing this as I read, I love getting to see this unfold as I read each word. I love how we learn the Reader is unsure of if they can bring up what's going on with Marc and his father, in between details of the hardware store visit.
Rip to Marc getting caught by a chatty salesperson. And you never know how to just leave either, which is so awful because you don't want to be rude.
😳 sorry but this was me during the part where the Reader went over to politely get rid of the salesperson. (Marc 🤝 me : feeling like we're rude if we say we don't need help from sales associates) This whole little hardware store adventure is great, I love it. (I know I say that alot with these ramblings, but I do. I always mean it.) It's not mundane, it's intricately interesting. I mean, take the whole paint choosing thing. The Reader knew how Marc would react, but when he does give his opinion, you can almost tell how they're going to react. And I love that.
As soon as I read "The sales guy is flirting with you." I blinked and stared at the statement blankly. He can't even take a hint. Why does that feel realistic? Anyway, Marc thinking how he gets to drive the Reader home and the sales guy has to stay at the store is hilarious. This was a fun little adventure for them.
The colors you mention, that were picked for the paint, are a really nice combo.
OH MY GOD, MARC SAID THE PAINT REMINDED HIM OF THE READER?? HELLO??
Not sure I like the insistence he has about how he'll drop the Reader off, take the supplies home, and then drop the truck off. I don't know why. But it just...doesn't sit well. It's nothing probably; maybe.
Oh. I get it now. All I will say, is thanks to the Reader for not asking questions, and agreeing. That's nice.
When I read that Elias waved and came down the steps, across the street to talk to the Reader I just sort of softly went "Oh no" a few times, because there are various ways this could play out. And I'm not sure which option you chose. But I'll find out in a minute.
The conversation reads like that gut feeling I had before. It's civil and all, but it....I don't know. And it gets worse when Elias asks if the Reader wants to stay for dinner, despite the Reader not feeling the same way. Anddddd Marc appeared. Oh boy. The big question now is how much did he hear?
The way the Reader goes through this conversation afterwards is good. Not in the usual way, but good in a "knowing when to let the other person have their space" kind of good. It's good that the Reader knows that something is obviously going on, but won't push for him to go further because he isn't really in a state to do so. Sure, the rest of their day may be a bit different than usual, but that doesn't really matter.
At least not until it's 2:39 in the morning and there's knocking on the door. Now the Reader is meeting Steven. Absolutely the worst (and best, if you get what I mean) way to end this chapter. Holy shit. Wow.
One last thing before I get into my usual little compliments. But this line you wrote, "The memories aren’t all bad, but they hurt all the same." I think that'll stick with me forever.
This chapter was absolutely wild. It built up some good things, and that ending is just...woo boy. You're amazing. I'll probably end up saying it every time I send these asks to you, but I'm so happy I get to read your writing. I love this series, which is funny because I wasn't sure if I would. (I promise, I don't mean that in a rude way.) Usually, my reading is done after seeing either book cover or the description (usually, I can tell by how it's worded or by what's given away in the description, if I'll buy or read the story). But even still, that wasn't what did it for me. The idea you proposed intrigued me. And it still does. You keep me guessing. I like that. Thank you, again, for writing.
"As soon as you mentioned the bucket with the tools I just thought "Oh my god he's gonna do the repairs for the Reader."" Marc's love language is definitely acts of service, so of course he was gonna do repairs for the reader. And, typical Marc, he wasn't going to tell anyone about doing it either.
"Change can't happen over night, especially to something that's been (seemingly) set in stone for years on end. And I love that you show that." It was really important to me to show how difficult it is to communicate, especially about something like this, even if they really want to talk about it.
"Rip to Marc getting caught by a chatty salesperson. And you never know how to just leave either, which is so awful because you don't want to be rude." The only thing I could think about while writing this was that meme that's like Marc's greatest challenge - talking to people and smiling. And that's just so him.
"When I read that Elias waved and came down the steps, across the street to talk to the Reader I just sort of softly went "Oh no" a few times" This was me writing this scene.
"But this line you wrote, "The memories aren’t all bad, but they hurt all the same." I think that'll stick with me forever." Stop. I will actually cry. There's just something about the achy, stickiness of good or bad memories that really gets to me personally.
As always, thank you so so so so much for your comments and analysis. I love getting to read them, they always make me so happy and excited to write more. 🥰 I'm glad you decided to give the series a try 💞
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PoLeit week day 1!! Here we go!
I'm not sure how you should write the opening for these but-- Prompt: Sea (I used the prompt so loosely haha)
tw: death mention
Tolys stared out at the baltic from his seat on the beach. He took a deep breath letting the cold air fill his lungs, he probably should have brought a heavier coat. This is where he came whenever the world felt like too much; and recently it had felt like far too much. So he came here, the beach had changed a hundred times over moved by storms and just the simple waves hitting the beach. But he liked to think that if he squinted enough it looked exactly as it did when he was small playing on the beach with his mother and younger brothers.
Tolys kept glancing down the beach to make sure his dog hadn't run too far off, only to be reminded he left Virgil at home. He wanted to be alone, alone. The wind picked up and he shivered again, his shoes started to get wet as the waves got higher and lapped closer to where he was sitting. He didn't move though, wet socks had never killed anyone. He leaned back on the sand and closed his eyes, just a moment, he thought to himself. Just a moment to pretend everything was as it had been hundreds of years ago...
"Tolys!" A voice called for him but he ignored it, in his state of pretending thinking it was his mind making up one of his brothers calling for him as they played. "Tolys! Like what are you doing??" That wasn't Vakaris or Raivis though, he opened his eyes seeing Feliks lean over him. "Are you okay?"
Nodding he mumbled back, "I'm fine, what are you doing here?" 
"Well," The polish man sat down next to him, his nose wrinkling at sand getting on his clothing. "I showed up at your house, cause you're like basically always home" 
"I'm not always home"
"You're always home, but I went inside and Virgil was still there, but you weren't, and you don't go anywhere without Virgil" Feliks gave him a look over that. Virgil was Tolys' service dog trained specifically to help with his ptsd and anxiety. It was Feliks who had taken months to talk Tolys into getting him when they found out he was eligible. 
"I wanted to be alone," Tolys sat up leaning his head against his friend's shoulder. "Plus it's just the beach, it's not like I was going to be around other people" 
"Tak, tak, tak, sure whatever, but you don't know someone could show up, and they could like...look a little too much like him" Neither had to say a name to know exactly who they were talking about, and in honesty Tolys wished Feliks hadn't brought Him up. 
Feliks went into rattling on about whatever he had come to see Tolys about in the first place, Tolys wasn't really listening, instead letting his mind wander as he sat between mourning his solitude and being glad Feliks showed up before he let himself get too sad. 
He moved a bit to be able to see his friend's face more clearly, the thought showed up as it had a million times before, Feliks was quite attractive wasn't he? Tolys liked to convince himself that he was just jealous of the confidence he had. But his mind always took him back to when they were children: before even the Northern Crusades. They had met on a beach like this, on a day where the weather wasn't much unlike it was today. Feliks was the quiet one back then, not yet living by his motto I'm alive because the universe doesn't want me to be. Tolys wasn't loud, but he wasn't so scared of the consequences of every word that came out of his mouth, he wasn't so scared of people listening. They weren't friends. But Tolys could swear that at eleven years old on that beach he got his first crush. 
It would be centuries before they truly spent time together, but when they ran into each other it was always by the sea. A conversation here and there over decades can build quite an acquaintanceship when you're immortal. Feliks was always there though... he was the first person he told about his brother's disappearance, and his mother's reaction afterwards. Feliks was there when Tolys first saw Gilbert across the battlefield, 
"it's Vakaris, it's my dead brother, he's alive" Tolys knew he had to have repeated it a hundred times, but Feliks just listened to him ramble on. Talking about how it must be, but can't be, Tolys never had time to mourn Vakaris between taking care of himself, Raivis, and their mother; it never happened. But Feliks was there when Prussia was dissolved, when Gilbert was buried with a name that Tolys would cry about not belonging to his brother. Feliks would be there for the months of mixed emotions, tears for what could have been if the Northern Crusades had never happened, anger over how everything had happened; some of that anger even directed towards Feliks. 
All of that made Tolys wonder, what if their marriage had gone differently? It was proven that they could put up with each other at the very least. At the most they, well, Tolys didn't know what they were at most. The marriage was political, they had never let it go farther than that. Tolys sometimes thought Feliks wanted it to be more than that, why was he still coming around if he never did? But during their marriage and even now he shook his head at the idea, all these thousands of years, something would have been said. 
But now Tolys was just happy to have Feliks as a friend, sometimes he wanted a title more than that, and maybe one day he would pluck up the courage to admit it and get that title. But for now, he was just happy to have a friend to sit next to the sea with.
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Part one- Made for You ( Sequel to Beauty and the Freak)
🛑 Mature 18+ Minors DNI!🛑
Move in day
Veronica
" I think that is everything." I closed the door to the van and sighed. This was it, move in day. My stomach was a wreck, I was an emotional mess and my anxiety was through the roof. I knew that I should be excited, my first apartment, living on my own like an actual adult, starting a new chapter of my life, starting at a new school. But I had never been alone before, I knew that it was just a temporary thing and I also knew that I needed to learn to be self sufficient and independent. I was terrified but I couldn't show it.
Eddie came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He put his chin on my shoulder. " I can't believe this is it."
" I feel like I could burst into tears at any moment."
"Baby it is going to be alright."
I looked around at the gang, who had come over to help me load up the vans." I'm really going to miss them. "
Steve, Robin, Dustin and Mike stood in my driveway ready to say goodbye.
Eddie unwrapped his arms from my waist and rubbed my shoulders. " It's almost time to go Sweetheart."
" Alright," I sighed. " Thank you guys so much for your help packing up the vans. I can't believe this is it."  I gave Mike a hug first," I'm glad I got to meet you, good luck your sophomore year of school. Tell Nance when you see her again that I said hey!" Nancy had left the previous week for orientation.
" I will pass that long." Mike smiled.
Then there was Dustin. My absolute favorite out of the kids. I wrapped him up in a tight hug then whispered." I think I'll miss you most of all." I pulled away and saw him smile." I don't really have any words of wisdom for you Dustybun because your already a freaking genius. Take care, and at some point when you guys have a long weekend or something maybe you could come visit?"
" That would be awesome." He smiled again.
I looked up at Robin instant tears in my eyes. I pulled her in for a tight hug. " Thank you for taking me under your wing and sharing your friends with me. You were one of the first people to talk to me. We have had some fun times this year, some wild times. I am going to miss you so much."
" Don't cry bitch! You'll get me started!" She laughed and squeezed me tight."Thanks for keeping me entertained in band, and outside of band and getting drunk with me at parties. It really was a wild year. You'll be home for holidays, Steve and I will come visit you when we can, I promise."
" You better!" I backed away and smiled, then turned to Harrington.
He pulled me in for a tight hug." What am I going to do without you around to have deep meaningful conversation with?"
"There is always Dustin."
" Yeah but I don't like his tone, and he talks to me like I am an idiot."
I looked up at him." You are an idiot." I smiled.
" Hey, hey, hey, I took a punch in the face for you, trying to defend your honor." He smirked.
" And I threw a punch trying to defend yours."
" I guess we are even then. I can never show my face again at the hideout, not after that. Steve Harrington had to get saved by a girl? "
" I don't think it's quite your scene anyway."
" No." Steve squeezed me tight." I'm really am going to miss having you around Montgomery."
I don't know what it was about him saying that, but instantly the flood gates opened. Maybe it was because I had been holding it in all day, maybe it was because I knew he was being sincere and I am just a hot mess. I buried my face in his chest and cried.
" I thought I told you not to cry!" Robin Sniffled. She and Eddie came over and joined in on the hug.
" I am going to miss my little dysfunctional family. You're the best Friends I have ever had. I went the past two years being a loner because it was just easier that way , then I moved here and you guys took me in." I sniffed and wiped at my eyes.
" It's not like it's a forever thing. We will still see you, we will call you. I mean you will have your own place, your only 3 hours away, we can make a long weekend trip, you can show us around the exciting world of Illinois. Life won't be as exciting without us around though, I mean you'll essentially be hanging around with a bunch of band geeks." Steve smirked.
" Who says band geeks aren't fun and exciting." Robin punched him in the arm." We are usually the life of the party!"
I backed away and wiped my eyes with my sleeve, Eddie came over and rubbed my back.
" Will you guys need any help unloading things when you get there? I mean I can follow you guys there and help." Steve offered.
" Thanks Steve, but I think we should be all set. If I had more furniture maybe but it should be pretty easy to unload. You can make the trek when we can actually go out and have a good time."
"Alright." He put his hands in his pockets. " I guess this is goodbye then, for now. If you need anything ,just call, ok? Seriously. Promise."
" I promise, if I need anything I will call you guys." I smiled at him then Robin. "You guys need to call me if you need anything too, ok? Promise?"
" Promise."
" Ok."
" We should get going before she cries again. Hey! Shrimps! Time to go!" Steve shouted and Dustin and Mike came back over. They quickly piled into Steve's car and waved before they pulled away.
Eddie pulled me into another hug. " You ready to go? I'll go get Lucy and Bill. " I nodded then climbed into the front seat of Eddie's van.
Eddie walked out wearing a tee shirt with my college emblem on it, mom and Bill right behind him both wearing one as well. My mom had a big smile on her face.
I Laughed." You guys are dorks!"
" I picked them up for us when we checked out the apartment , I thought it would be nice if we matched, showed our support!" Mom beamed.
" They are awesome Mom!"
Eddie opened up the door to the van then hollered over to Bill that we would follow them. He hopped in and buckled up." Ready for our road trip Darlin?"
" I guess so."
We took off down the road after Bill. Eddie thought of everything, snacks, drinks, my favorite mix tapes a map just in case we got separated. He kept the mood light chatting and singing, keeping me distracted knowing that I would most likely start crying again if I wasn't.
" Can't wait to see the apartment, you can walk right to classes from there right? It is close to Campus?"
" Yeah, that's what mom said. She also said that there is a cute little coffee shop right down the road too. "
" Maybe we can do some exploring together tomorrow? See what's close by. I want to see if there is someplace I can get a job."
" Sounds good."
" Your mom was saying that the rest of the apartments in the building are also being rented out by students. Maybe you guys will be in the same classes, can study together."
" Yeah, that would be awesome. But I'll have my favorite study buddy soon." I squeezed his leg. " You'll help me right?"
" Absolutely baby."
" Can't wait to decorate our apartment. Can you imagine our room? My pink comforter and curtains and your Iron Maiden and Metallica tapestries?"
" We will interweave our styles. I'm so excited. I can't wait to live a domesticated life with you. "
" It sounds so lame, but I can't wait to cook dinner for you in our own little kitchen."
" It's not lame. I will totally help you, I need to learn how to cook, like real food not frozen or canned shit."
" We'll eat dinner then cuddle and watch TV, it going to be so amazing. I'll be able to warm my cold icy  feet on your hot little body every night. "
" I won't have to crawl out of bed in the middle of the night and leave so your mom doesn't catch me."
" I'm getting butterflies just thinking about it. You and me baby, starting a life together on our own. I'm so fucking excited!"
Eddie rubbed  my thigh." Me too Sweetheart."
The next couple hours flew by as we talked out our life together, my school schedule and classes. We followed Bill as he pulled into a parking lot of a small brick  apartment building. We bolted from the van and ran up to the building, my mom handed me the key and smiled.
" Here you go my sweet college girl."
I put the key in the door knob and unlocked the door. The apartment was small but clean and super cute. I loved the tiny little kitchen with the island that looked out into the cozy living space. There was a window over the sink in the kitchen and a big window in the living room that let in a lot of natural light. I walked into the bare living room then down a short hallway where I found a small bathroom with a shower and then directly across from that was the bedroom. It was about the same size as my bedroom at home was and that was a huge surprise. The closet door was in the back corner of the room. The room would be plenty big enough for my bed, nightstand and dresser, Eddie could have the closet space if he needed it, I would only have a few performance dresses to hang up. I heard him walk into the room and I turned around to face him, the smile on his face matching mine. He picked me up and spun me around.
" It's perfect!"
My mom and Bill walked in smiling. "It's a little on the small side-"
" It's perfect Mom, I love it! Way better than staying in the dorms. It is going to be so cozy! "
" Come on Eddie, let's go out and see what we should unpack first." Bill pat Eddie on the back and the two took off.
I looked at my Mom and she started to cry." No Mom you can't."
" Can't help it! My baby girl has grown up and is going to college and has her own place! I'm not going to see your smiling face every morning before school! I can't say goodnight to you before bed-"
" You can call me every night mom if you want! "
" I know!" She hugged me." I am so proud of you, who you have become. I know I don't have to worry because you are smart and capable and responsible. And soon Eddie will be here with you, and I know he will take care of you." She pulled away." It's hard as a mother when your kiddo leaves the nest, and not to toot my own horn, but I know I did a good job raising you. "
" The best job Mom." I hugged her again.
" Let's go out and see what the boys are doing, I need some fresh air anyway."
We started unloading Eddies van first, that had mostly boxes of clothes, kitchen items , the smaller  things that were perfectly labeled so we would know exactly where they would go. Once the boxes were in there designated room we tackled the furniture. My bedroom furniture went in first, then the random pieces of living room furniture that my mom had picked up at lawn sales and that my Grandparents didn't want in their basement anymore. Nothing matched but it gave the place character. Once everything was in it was a matter of just putting things away. I tackled the kitchen and put away  my modge podge of random plates, bowls and silverware and my mom put away the linens and towels  in the bathroom closet ,then hung the shower curtain and the guys arranged the furniture in each room and started hanging curtains.The apartment was really starting to look like a cozy little home. There were a few things that we would need, like a small kitchen table and maybe some lamps but other than that it was perfect. When we finally stopped Bill looked at his watch and we were shocked when we realized that it was 7:00. He decided that we had all worked hard and we should celebrate with some pizza. My mom made up a list of groceries that we would need sooner than later like coffee and drinks and decided that they would make a trip to the market before hitting up the pizza joint. Eddie offered up his van so that they wouldn't have to drive the moving truck around. Bill accepted with a smile and they took off. 
I pushed Eddie down onto the couch and straddled his lap. " What do you think of our place baby?"
" It's Awesome." He smiled." I can't believe it's ours." He grabbed my ass and pulled me closer to his body. " I can't wait to fuck you in every room of this apartment."
I leaned in and pressed my breast into him." I'm looking forward to it. Are you going to start on here on the couch?"
" As much as I would love to take you right here and now, I feel weird knowing that Lucy and Bill could be back any minute. "
I threw my head back and sighed."Your right. It's just, it's going to be a whole month Eddie. That's a long time"
" It's a good thing I have stack of sexy pictures of you by my bed." He smirked.
" I have a feeling that there are going to be a lot of late night phone calls." I smiled. " I will have to practice my sexy phone voice. "
Eddie laughed."You don't have to practice anything, I love your voice, I love hearing dirty words coming out of that pretty mouth of yours." He nipped at my lips."And you could be walking around in a holy T-shirt and baggy sweatpants and you would still be the sexiest woman alive."
" Awww Eds, I'm going to miss you so much."
" Please don't cry babe. Come on, let's go finish unpacking your room-"
" Our room-"
He smiled. " Your right, our room."
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" Well Honey, today has been a long day, between driving and lugging boxes around and unpacking I am completely exhausted. I am ready to hit the hay." My mom yawned
"You guys can take my bed, I can crash out here on the floor."'
" You will do no such thing. Bill and I booked a room at a cute little bed and breakfast about 10 minutes from here. We stayed there when we came to check out the apartment. It was lovely.We all deserve to sleep in a nice comfy bed after the work that we put in today. I know I am looking forward with soaking in a nice hot bath. We'll meet back up at the coffee shop around the corner say 9:00? Then we can show Eddie around campus, check out what's close by?"
I blinked a couple of times." Sure, that sounds great." I was totally shocked but wanted to play it cool.
" Great! " My Mom pat Bill on the leg, "Ready to get going honey?"
Bill got to his feet." We better before I fall asleep in this chair." Eddie and I walked them to the door. I gave them both a huge hug.
" Don't forget to lock the doors when we leave and double check the windows, Ok Sweetie?"
" I promise."
" Alright guys get some rest, we will see you in the morning. Love you guys!" My mom smiled at us then they left, waiting just a couple seconds until she heard the door lock behind her.
I turned and looked Eddie, a look of disbelief on his face.
" We have the place to ourselves tonight? I was fully expecting to be crashing on the floor tonight next to your parents."
" So was I. I'm quite shocked actually. I mean I guess they figured now or a month from now your going to be here. It's kind of weird though, I mean they have to know that we are going to have sex tonight right? Doesn't that make tomorrow morning awkward?"
" Maybe they got a room because they wanted to have sex."
" Eww Eddie!"
" Well, it's possible." Eddie came forward and wrapped his arms around my waist. " I think that we should take advantage of our current situation, not worry about tomorrow and break in every god damn room in this apartment." A sexy smile crossed his lips as his hands squeezed my ass "Where do you want to start?"
I bit my lip and pulled his shirt up over his head then threw it to the floor.           " Right here." I ran my hands down his sexy chest and didn't stop until I got to his belt buckle. I took it off as fast as I could and unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans. I could feel his hard length underneath the fabric  as I slid his pants down. I rubbed my hand along the front of his boxers and he groaned. I slid them down and exposed his raging erection. I closed my hand around it and stroked.
" That feels so good Princess."
" I want you to feel good baby." I kneeled down in front of him not wasting any time licking his tip before I took him into my mouth , moving my head slowly forward and back.
He groaned again." Jesus Christ," he ran his hand gently through my hair. "Baby can we slow down just a minute-"
I looked up and saw him biting his lip, I twirled my tongue around the tip and felt him shudder.Just a little tease before I pulled away. " You need me to slow down baby?"
" I need to get you out of those goddamn clothes, it's my turn now."he helped me up to my feet and started tearing off my clothes. I was so turned on. Once I was sufficiently undressed he picked me up and put me on the edge of the counter. He kissed my lips, my neck, I moaned as he took one of my breast into his mouth. I felt his hand slide between my legs and spread them apart. My pulse quickened as he trailed kisses down my body, his head now between my legs. He kissed the soft skin on the inside my thighs, raking his teeth lightly over it . It made me shiver. I watched a smile spread across his face,then ran his tongue along my slit. I gasped as he licked and flicked at the most sensitive area of my body with his tongue , than continued his fingers sending me close to the edge.
" Eddie," I breathed." Eddie, I need you inside me."
He stood up and picked me up off the counter and I wrapped my arms and legs around him. He sat back on the couch and I lowered myself down onto him. We both groaned. He felt so good inside me, I rocked my hips and he buried his head into my neck. He grabbed my hips and moved them back and forth at a faster pace. I wasn't going to last much longer.
" I'm so worked up, I'm so close baby," I whispered in his ear.
He raised his hips and dove deeper inside me. I cried out his name in release, feeling the wave of pleasure wash over me, I could feel Eddie's body tremble under me as he climaxed as well. We held each other a moment both breathing heavily, then Eddie leaned against the back of the couch. I brushed the sweaty hair back from his face and placed a soft kiss on his lips. He smiled at me then kissed the tip of my nose.
" Does that count as kitchen and living room?" I asked, running a finger down his chest.
" Check and check. Wow baby, it was-so fucking good." He took my face in his hands and kissed me."Our first time in our new place.  It is a good thing that we closed the curtains earlier or we would have given the neighbors a show."
" Oh shit, I didn't even think of that!" I got off his lap and found his shirt on the floor and slipped it over my head. I picked up his boxers and threw them over to him, then slid on my panties .
" We have upstairs neighbors too. Some of them could be classmates. "
" Fuck that's right. Guess we had better keep it down. Wouldn't want them to get jealous." He smirked.
I went into the bathroom and when I came back out he had slid on his boxers and grabbed the comforter off of my bed." Time for cuddles."
I smiled and snuggled up next to him."I can't believe I had sex on my Nana's couch."
" It's very comfortable. We'll have to thank Nana." He put his arm around me and covered me up. Within a matter of minutes we both passed out on the couch.
I woke up the next morning in my bed, Eddie spooning me, hand on my boob. I smiled to myself and wiggled up against him. He stirred and pulled me closer.
" Good morning Angel." He kissed my shoulder. " How did you sleep?"
"I must have slept hard because I don't even remember coming in here."
" I woke up at 3:00 this morning an you were completely zonked. I didn't want to wake you up so I carried you in."
" You carried me in? Baby, that is so sweet! I really must have been tired."
" You were snoring."
" I was? Oh my god!"
" No." He laughed.
I spun around to face him." Shithead."
He smiled and kissed me." I think the key to good nights sleep is lots of sex. It tires you out and you sleep like a baby."
" Is that it?"
" Yes, and guess the best way to wake up?-"
" Shower?"
" Sex in the shower, you get the added benefit of both."
" Oh I see. Well I guess we had better go wake up in the shower then."
We were showered and out the door by 8:30 walking hand in hand to the coffee shop to meet Mom and Bill . We arrived a couple minutes early so I ordered everyone coffee, except Eddie, I got him a hot chocolate and some pastries for everyone. We sat at a little table in the front of the café and watched everyone walk by. We waved at Mom and Bill as they walked through the door and they joined us at our table.
Mom smiled when she saw the coffee and treats at the table. " So how was your first night at the apartment? You guys sleep alright in a strange place?"
" Yeah it was nice and quiet, No creepy noises. We fell asleep on the couch watching TV. We were beat."
" I woke up at 3:00 in the morning because she was sawing logs." Eddie smirked.
" I was not you dork!" I playfully slapped his arm.
" She didn't drool on you like she did when she was sick, did she?" My mom smiled at Eddie.
" No I didn't!" I took a sip of my coffee.
" Actually Princess you did."
I looked from Eddie to my Mom." For real?"
" Yes Honey you did, I had to give him a different shirt to wear."
" Well that's embarrassing." I could feel my cheeks get hot.
Bill just sat back taking it all in with a smile on his face and  eating a danish.
" Babe it wasn't a big deal, you were sick, I was just glad you got some rest. I fell asleep too so I didn't see you in action."
My mom laughed. " That's probably when you picked up her cooties."
" I went over and took care of him when he was sick!"
" You did an excellent job nursing me back to help. Lucy, I think your soup helped too."
" The cure all."
We finished up our coffee and danishes and decided to walk around. It was a cute city, there were a lot of shops and restaurants and parks, definitely more going on here than Hawkins. Eddie found a music shop and a record store that he could potentially work in and he seemed to really dig the atmosphere. There were lots of lounges with open mic nights and lots of live music. Seeing the excitement on his face took away some of the anxiety that I was feeling about him relocating. I just wanted to be sure it was something that he actually wanted and not something that he felt obligated to do.
We walked around campus for a little while and I still felt slightly overwhelmed, there were so many buildings. It would be fine, I kept telling myself. We stopped at the university store and I bought Eddie a cheesy bumper sticker that said 'Someone I love attends Northwestern University.'
He said he would be proud to put it on his van.
My mom and I found a store that sold practically everything and we picked up a few extra things for the apartment, pillows for the couch, a throw blanket and some potholders. We also went and picked up more groceries.My Mom fully in mom mode stocked my cupboards and fridge. 
" There I feel better knowing you've got everything you need." She wrapped me up in a tight hug . " We have to get going. I am going to miss you so much! You are going to do great, I know it."
" I will call you every night, I promise."
" You better!"
Bill and Eddie walked in from the living room, " Well Lucy I think it's time."  Bill gave me a big hug. " Love ya kiddo. Good luck."
" Thanks for everything Bill." I smiled at him, when I looked back at my mom I saw tears in her eyes. I started to cry. "I'm only 3 hours away. You can come see me anytime!"
" I know, I just worry. I know you get anxious and that you have trouble sleeping ."
" I will probably be so busy I will fall right to sleep, any anxiety I have will go away as I get used to being here. I am a creature of habit, once I get into a routine I will be fine."
My mom went over and hugged Eddie. "I feel much better knowing that you will be here with her. Take good care of my girl."
" You got it Lucy. I will be here full time before she knows it."
" I love you kids."  She pulled both of us into a hug.
I cried into her shoulder." I love you Mom." 
She pulled away. " Ok, no more tears! If I don't leave now I never will. Let's go Bill."
We walked them to the door and gave them each one last hug. I watched them get in the moving van and I waved as they drove away. Eddie wrapped me in his arms and rubbed my back as I tried to stop crying. I was really going to miss them.
The next day Eddie and I lazed around trying to enjoy every possible moment of our last day together. I tried not to dwell on the fact that I was going to be an absolute mess later on when he left and just live in the moment. We cooked breakfast together, laid on the couch and watched movies together and just cuddled the entire day.
When 4:00 rolled around I knew it was time for Eddie to go, he had a long drive ahead of him.
" I don't want you to go." I buried my face in his chest.
" I don't want to go either baby." He kissed the top of my head. " Your going to be fine sweetheart. Once school starts you'll be so busy the time will fly. I just want to make sure that Wayne is going to be alright without me. I practically run the house because he is never home."
" I know, and I totally understand."
" Maybe I will surprise you and come sooner."
" Don't tease me. The countdown clock starts ticking the minute you walk out that door. Are you sure your going to be alright driving home? You won't get lost?"
" I have the highlighted map, it was pretty straightforward to get here."
" You'll call me when you get home?"
" I promise."
I looked up into his beautiful eyes and he smiled down at me.
" This weekend was such an awesome preview of what our future is going to be. I am so fucking excited."
" Me too. Now I just have to make it through this month. I'm going to miss you so goddamn much. I'm going to miss your hugs, your incredible kisses, your scent- "
" My dick-"
" Your charming personality and quick wit."
He laughed. " My scent? What do I smell like?"
" Like soap, cologne and leather. Super manly. I love it."
" I love how you smell too, shampoo and flowers. I am not sure what type of flowers but you always smell so good."
" Lily of the valley, or sometimes lilacs. My Nana gets me perfume every year for my birthday, always something light and floral."
" I'll have to thank Nana not only for the couch but the perfume as well."
I could feel tears starting to sting my eyes." I love you so much."
" I love you more."
" Kiss me and show me how much you love me."
He took my face in his hands and looked deep into my eyes, then his lips crushed mine. He kissed me so deeply, so thoroughly, so intensely it left me completely breathless. It was the most amazing kiss of my life. I leaned forward for one more and he delivered again.
When he pulled away he ran his thumbs over my lips and wiped the tears from my cheeks.
" You really are a kissing wizard. How are you so fucking good?"
He smiled." It's because I love you."
"When you come back we are going to spend the whole day just kissing like that."
" Sounds perfect ." he pulled me closer and squeezed my ass. " I've got to go."
My heart sank. " I know."
" I will call you every day."
" I will miss you every day."
" Baby," he squeezed me." I love you so fucking much. "
I squeezed him back." I love you more than everything. "
He leaned down and kissed me. " Promise me you will call me if you need anything."
" I promise." I reached up and took my guitar pick necklace off . " I know that technically this is already yours, but it is something that I absolutely treasure, I never take it off. I want you to have it back, wear it while we are apart." I clasped it behind his neck.
He smiled." It looks better on you."
" Your only saying that because it gets stuck in my cleavage all the time." I laughed.
He kissed my forehead, then pulled away. He took off his leather jacket and put it around my shoulders." I want you to have this. Make sure to wear this and tell everyone it's your boyfriend's so everyone knows your already taken."
I smiled." It smells like you."
Eddie took my hand and brought it up to his mouth, kissed my promise ring. " Will you walk me out?"
" Of course."
He held my hand as we walked out to the van. " Next time I'm here I'll be home for good."
" You'll be home." I wrapped my arms around his neck. " One more kiss before you go?"
" Oh course Sweetheart." He smiled and lifted me up for another amazing kiss.
I told myself I wouldn't cry again, I knew it would only make him feel bad.
" Don't forget to call me when you get home so I know you are safe."
" I will." He put me down then climbed into the van. " I love you baby."
" Love you! See you soon Pookie."
Eddie smiled. " See you soon Kitten."
I backed away and  watched as he backed out of his spot , then waved as he drove away.
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m-talks-shit · 1 year
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02/11/22
Today was a good day. Well, it was a pretty average day, but compared to how I've felt the past few days, it was good. After I woke up I immediately had to get ready to go shopping with my dad. My dad is... a complex person. He's not abusive or mean, but he's very emotionally unavailable and distant. He had an extremely horrific childhood so I can't blame him for the way he is. Sometimes when he gets drunk he tells me stories from when he was younger and I can't help but cry for him. He's so incredibly strong and I'm so proud of how well he has kept his sanity.
Despite my deep admiration for him, I hate being alone with him. There has never been a time where it hasn't been unbearably awkward. I'd consider myself an extroverted person, but due to my social anxiety I struggle to start and keep conversations, I need someone else to take the lead. My dad is an introvert, he never takes the lead. The tension that hangs in the air as we drive to the supermarket is so obvious. I want to break the silence and I can tell he does too but we just don't know how. When we went to the second shop he didn't even go in with me, he waited in the car. It's a bit of a shame because I would've liked him to see me speak Polish with perfect confidence. Fake confidence, but alas, confidence. You see my family is Polish but I was the only one born in England. I can speak, write and read Polish from talking to and texting my family but I never went to a Polish school so my pronunciation can be off sometimes and I tend to get nervous when I know I've said something wrong. My mum always points out when I make a mistake, I know she's trying to help but she doesn't understand how much of a failure that makes me feel like.
After we came home my dad and my brother went off to work so I was home alone. I sat playing the Sims and listening to music. I decided I would do an at-home workout too, considering I had just eaten a whole bag of crisps and watered it down with pepsi. It was painful as my body got used to my muscles actually working but at the end I felt great and powerful as hell.
After a while of sitting on my bed and staring at the wall blankly I thought about my sister and the fact that we had plans that she had to cancel. I decided to reach out to her and ask if I could stay over at her house for a few days, a change of pace might be good for me and encourage me to do more with myself. She immediately asked me if I was okay.
My relationship with my oldest sister is complicated. For context I have 3 siblings, my brother who is 2 years older than me, my sister who is 7 years older than me and then there's my half sister who is 12 years older than me. There's multiple reasons why I never really considered her my sister for the longest time. It wasn't that she was my half sister, I actually didn't even know that until I was about 13/14. I think the fact that there's a generational gap definitely affected how much I was able to relate to her. She always felt more like a mother to me, which is why I never really told her anything and we didn't hang out much. When we did it was awkward because I didn't really know what to talk about with her. I'm really glad that we've started to get closer recently. We hang out more, we talk more and she gives me incredible advice. Whilst I still look at her as a motherly figure, it's now less reflective of my relationship with my actual mother, but more so of the relationship I wish I had with my mother. I feel so comfortable and vulnerable whenever we talk. For some reason I can never have a conversation with her now without immediately wanting to cry, even if it's a perfectly normal conversation.
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punkpsychologist · 2 years
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I was awake for 36 hours.
After my classes, a rally, a club meeting, and dinner- I finally returned to my dorm to collapse and fall deeply into sleep. I was falling asleep while trying to get ready for bed, apparently I had severely underestimated how tired I was. Maybe it was the happiness? The last thing I remember is B texting me in all caps asking me if I had slept yet. A quick and funny reminder, after leaving my room he went back to his dorm and slept until the late afternoon while I just never went to sleep that night.
I slept through my first class of the day and he attended his first class of the week. We really have a way to burning time and not realizing it. I'm so glad we're mostly passed that really awkward "look at everything else but each other" phase that we were stuck in for a couple of weeks.
We burned through another night yesterday. We just chilled out on the phone together for hours. He has a habit of not speaking about deep or really heavy topics to not make people uncomfortable and those topics are my habit. I tend to mention my ptsd and things rather often without filter to try and make sure my friends understand what I'm thinking and that they aren't doing anything bad or wrong if I seem off. I had mentioned to him and a few other what happened to me a few years ago, but it was in a fast paced conversation and I'm not sure if anyone really heard me.
So we're on the phone, right? And we were talking about our dreams and I mentioned that Tuesday night was really nice because I had experienced the first ptsd nightmare since arriving at uni and seeing someone made me feel a lot better. I didn't tell him this but in all honesty, seeing someone, not to mention him spending the entire night with me being chill, really helped to keep my brain in check. No spirals of paranoia and fear, just regrets about the past and hope and motivation for the future.
He has this very soft and somewhat cautious way of speaking all the time, and unless he is near completely relaxed you can hear something akin to guilt in his voice. I mention that I had like five different dreams and the last one I had really shook me. In response he softly asked me about what the ptsd was about and then very quickly said that I don't have to tell. I really like him, and if anyone in my life should know about what happened I would want it to be him. So I told him about the first assault in a very brief manner. I kind of wish I mentioned the second one just to get it out of the way but I didn't. He goes completely quiet, which isn't abnormal for us, but its like I can feel welling emotions from the other end of the phone.
He was working on homework at the time and after a couple of minutes I tried to kind of perk him up and get talking a little more and apparently he had just been staring at a lamp. I feel like I know what he was thinking. If I remember correctly he said he was glad that I felt safe enough to tell him.
This pretty much triggered a whole night of us both retelling our perspectives of things we experienced in the classes in high school that we had together. It felt nice. I liked being able to clear the air about a lot of the things that he wasn't able to know about.
Our meeting was really a big thing of chance. We lived on opposite sides of town and went to different high schools but there was another school where we both took a language credit. I saw him in the hallway before the first day of class and I thought he was cute so I remembered him and was thusly surprised when he was in my class, we we're fifteen at the time and now we're both nineteen.
I'm still not entirely, completely sure, if we're an actual thing or not. I'm hoping that might clear up tonight, he's coming over again. And my roommates are out!! Which means we can stay up as late as we want and laugh as loud as we'd like without worrying about waking anybody. Its so funny to me that I'm excited that my roommates are gone and he's coming over and it's not even for steamy reasons its literally so we can talk and be loud and annoying without bothering anyone. This my friends is the college experience. Oh, also, I'd like to mention, that we really haven't seen each other since Tuesday night so I've really been trying to read how he felt about everything. And I think he really liked it.
I've been paranoid and a bit jumpy since discussing the ptsd thing because it just kind of made everything more real. This basically means that it is now extremely hard for me to tell if he thinks positively of me or not, but I throw him every chance for revoking consent for literally anything and he never pulls back. I think he might have some of the same insecurity issues as me with not knowing. He talked about his family a lot last night. Told me about his childhood and sent funny pictures of his dad. That has to be a good thing right?
EITHER WAY! I don't know when he's coming over but I should probably work on some assignments. I have a feeling it's going to be another night overtaken by us. We'll see if there's a morning update.
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