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hismissharley13 · 5 years

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Fallout

The morning after the night before.

I had woken early, nestled in Tig’s arms. One of his hands was cradling my head, the other I was half using as a pillow, half draped down my back. I jumped in panic before the events flooded back. My face burned with shame as I realised what I’d done was no better than Jax. My stirring had disturbed Tig, his arms drawing me close to him as he nuzzled into me, breathing in deeply as he did so. His lips found mine and I couldn’t help but reciprocate. To hell with Jackson Teller. Tig’s morning wood pressed into my hip as his mouth explored my jaw and neck. I hummed as he licked a wet stripe up my neck, re-igniting the fire in my belly and pushing all thoughts but one from my mind.

I’d gotten showered and accepted one of Tig’s t-shirts gratefully, knotting the long hem at my waist and slipping my skirt and panties back on. I had spare clothes in Jax’s room but was I hell going in there. Tig had crashed out on the bed again after our morning tryst and I needed coffee.

Jax shuffled into the kitchen a short while after me, rubbing sleep from his eyes, “Hey princess”

“Hmm?” I grunted, non-committal.

“Who’s shirt are you wearing,” he demanded, suddenly more awake.

“What’s it to you?” I refused to turn around and look at him. He made me sick.

“What’s it to me? You’re my Old Lady, and here you are in someone else’s clothes?”

I let out a hollow laugh, Old Lady indeed. Sure didn’t mean that much to him when he was screwing that skank. He grabbed my arm and spun me to face him, the coffee cup in my hand flying to the floor,

“Well, shit,”

“You haven’t answered my question,”

“So what, Jax? I’m not going to either. You know, I don’t think I ever hated anyone before I met you,“

“Where the fuck were you all damn night?”

“Why do you even care?”

“Goddamnit Kat! Tell me!” He threw his hands up in the air in exasperation.

“Goddamnit Jax! Go to Hell!” I mocked his voice. Childish maybe, but he gave up and stalked back to his room.

I flew back to Tig’s room on tiptoe, swift and silent so as to not be noticed. Tig was sat up, hair sticking out at all angles and the sheets pooled at his waist “Morning doll,” he mumbled sleepily, running a hand through his wild curls

“Hey Tiggy,” I rasped, the crying had left my throat pretty damn raw. I wriggled out of his arms and scrambled for my clothes. Tig looked up, curious to see what I was doing,

“You ok cupcake? Kat...Kat!” the forceful tone made me bot upright, dashing the wet tracks from my cheeks. Tig sat up fully and tugged me back onto the bed. I wilted into his waiting arms, folding my own consciously over my body. I felt the heat radiating from his chest as he placed his arms over mine, “C’mon sweetheart, talk to me,”

“I-uh...shit, Tig, what the hell did we do last night? What was I playing at-I’m sorry,” I dropped my head into my hands, despairing at my crappy judgement.

“Hey, you were upset, pissed off, hurting. The last thing you need to do is apologise baby. If you wanna forget about it, it’s your call. I ain’t gonna think any less of you for it,”

“I’m not just some sweetbutt, moving on from one reaper to another like it’s nothing,” I glanced up at him, terrified of what was going to happen now. Tig’s lip curled,

“Baby, you’re the furthest thing from a crow-eater!” he assured me, a hint of amusement on his face as he tipped my head towards him with a gentle hand, “I’ve never hit twice on the run with a crow,” sincerity evident in his gaze.

A small giggle bubbled up in my chest at his confession. The slight smile on his lips widened into a toothy grin,

“That’s a great sound,” he twisted a damp strand of my hair between his finger and thumb, tucking it behind my ear, “granted, not as good as hearing your moans last night and this morning,” I gasped and smacked my hand against his chest. Tig just wiggled an eyebrow at me as I laughed again.

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Jax cornered me in the office later that afternoon,

“Hows about you gimme some answers Kat?”

“Hows about I keep who I’m screwing to myself just like you did?”

“You’re being ridiculous“

”Yeah, well, Tig didn’t seem to think so...” Silence fell, my eyes widened as I realised what I’d just done. Jax straightened up and ran his tongue over his teeth, nodding slightly to himself as he started to turn for the door.

“Jax I-” my outstretched hand fell as his pale blue eyes burned a hole straight through me. He spun on his heel and slammed the door behind him with enough force that the window rattled in it’s frame. I dashed over to the window overlooking the garage where Tig was working on his Dyna, my stomach twisting horribly. I couldn’t hear Jax’s low words at first, their discussion increased in volume by the time I had pulled the door open.

“Seriously brother? My own Old Lady! I can’t believe you betrayed me like that,”

“I betrayed YOU? I’m not the one who was too busy riding some 2 dollar hooker before coming to see his own fuckin’ girl, Jackson! C’mon! What was I supposed to do huh? Leave her cryin’ in the damn gutter?”

“You were supposed to stay the fuck outta my business!” Jax roared and swung a fist towards Tig’s head. I cried out, hoping Tig would dodge but he didn’t. He stood there and let Jax hit him, holding a hand up before he could take another swing,

“That one you get for free, Jax. You’re my VP, my brother and I love you, but what you did last night? That was wrong and you know it,”

“Did you fuck her?” he spat,

“Excuse me?” Tig’s eyebrows shot up,

“I asked you if you screwed my Old Lady,”

Tig’s mouth curled into a sneer, he stepped towards Jax until they were nose to nose and cocked his head to the side,

“Why, scared she’d like me better?” Jax twitched almost imperceptibly and I took my cue. I threw myself at them both, shoving with all my might to separate them. I think it was more suprise than anything else that moved them back. Insering myself between them both, I held my arms out to distance the pair,

“Stop it, just fucking stop it now,” I shrieked, their eyes locked like dogs in a ring. Jax made to swipe me aside, Tig practically growled and tried to pull me behind him. I screeched in frustration, grabbing fistfuls of Tig’s work shirt and Jax’s cut.

“I swear to God I am not a fucking toy for you both to fight over!” My eyes were wild as I whipped my gaze from one man to another. I felt Jax wrench from my grip as he was pulled away by Opie. My knees turned to jelly as the adrenaline coursing through me subsided. Tig dropped next to me and embraced my trembling form,

“Kat, I’m sorry baby, I got you,” he kissed the top of my head softly,

“Tiggy, what the fuck is goin’ on eh?” Chibs crouched down next to our bundle on the floor. Tig rose to his feet and dragged me up to mine. I nodded that I was in control again and ducked my head, walking back to the office. Last thing I wanted was a reminder of my own infidelity, never mind Jax’s.

“So Kat stayed with me last night after walking in on Jax and Ima,”

“Ah shite, ye’ve gotta be kiddin’ me,”

“Yeah, I wish, brother,”

The door clicked shut behind me and I rested my head back against it. I needed a damn drink. I exited the office through the other door and headed over to the club house. Bobby was at the bar going over some paperwork. He looked up at me with a smile,

“Bobby, if anyone asks, you aint seen me or this bottle of ‘quila.” I told him, dragging the bottle from the shelf and walking over to the corridor. Iuncorked the bottle with my teeth and spat it on the floor. I stared and pointed at JT’s bike accusingly,

“Have a fucking word with your son, JT. He’s a damn asshole,”

I climbed the ladder to the roof and tucked myself away in a corner to drown my sorrows. About halfway down the bottle the world was getting fuzzy round the edges. A couple more slugs and my eyes closed.

***

I was shaken roughly, roused rudely from my slumber. As I opened one eye (two was way too painful), a sharp sting burned my cheek. I gasped, noting somewhere in the back of my still fuzzy mind that the sky was dark

“Kat! Kat! Thank fuck, I’ve been searching all over for you,” relief flooded Jax’s voice. Jax...I didn’t like Jax...why didn’t I li-ohhhhh, of course!

“You, you bastard! You dont like me,” I slurred, “No, no tha’s not right, I, me, I don’t like you. You’re a shit, a cheating piece of shit,”

“Kat, are you...fuck’s sake, how much did you drink?”

“Not enough,” I swayed dangerously and he grabbed hold of my arms, “Ic’n still ‘member what happened,” I swallowed thickly, “but s’ok, cus, cus I-ah shit, Jax, I slept with Tig,” I wailed, “I’m so sorry Jax, I never wanted-I cheated on you,” I sobbed into his chest,

“Shhh, shhh, it’s ok, I know, it’s alright,” he mumbled, his voice low and soothing, “Baby I’m never letting you go again. I’m so sorry for what I’ve done,”

“Jax, I don’t feel so great,”

“Can you climb down you think?”

I shook my head, my mouth watering profusely in the unmistakeable warning of impending vomit. Jax pulled my hair up out of the way and leaned me over the wall of the roof as I hurled. Once my belly was empty, I gingerly straightened up. Truth be told, I felt a little better for it. I hugged myself against the chill I felt, looking up at Jax sheepishly. He smiled kindly at me and motioned back with his head,

“C’mon babe, let’s get you cleaned up, hey?”

I nodded and allowed him to steer me back down into the club and straight to his room. I noticed the bed had been changed. Jax herded me into the shower and stood me in the enclosure, clothes and all. He started the water and handed me a toothbrush loaded with toothpaste and a meaningful look. I accepted and started to clean my teeth. Jax busied himself with undressing me, pulling my boots off and tossing them across the bathroom and peeling my skirt down my legs. I steadied myself as I stepped out of it with a hand on his broad shoulder,

“Your clothes are getting wet,” I observed, having rinsed my mouth and thrown the toothbrush haphazardly at the sink. By some fluke it had landed in the intended target.

“So are yours,” he pointed out. Smart ass. He pulled the hem of the shirt up and I lifted my arms to help. Jax stood me directly under the stream of water and grabbed the shampoo, massaging my scalp as he washed my hair. At some point he had dispensed with his clothes. I was too busy enjoying the warm water on my skin to notice, until he turned me gently around to face him. He breathed a deep sigh as he ran his hands up and down my arms. I looked up into his eyes and saw the remorse eating at him. We both had blame to carry. I uttered his name, barely a whisper. It was enough to invite him back to me. He brushed my hair from my face with both hands, cupping my cheeks and tilting my face to him. His eyes darted from my mouth to my eyes, seeking my permission to continue,

“Oh Jax,” I moaned softly. It was all he needed. His mouth crashed onto mine, needing, hungry. I couldn’t get enough of him. My hands clawed at his back, his arms, his neck, dragging him closer. I was buzzed from the tequila but I knew what I wanted. I wanted Jax. We had a lot to fix, but eight years was going to take more than one stupid mistake from each of us to destroy, Jax and I were determined to prove that to eachother.

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riverdaleroundup · 6 years

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Riverdale Roundup: 2x05 “ When A Stranger Calls”

Alright here I am once again, watching this damn show almost a week late. I honest to god don’t really remember what happened last time.

Oh right the Black Hood gave Betty a call and was like “ Hey girl, it’s me. Ya boy”. And he’s all like your sisters Uterus is FULL of sin so like if you don’t behave i’m going to kill that bish.” Alice comes in and assumes Betty is on the phone with her boyfriend like a normal girl instead of a mystery psycho killer and is like okay “ I pretended to like your boyfriend for like 3 minutes but honestly you should dump him. “

The writers remember that Betty and Archie are supposed to be freinds and they walk to school together and Betty is like I have tea to spill. Archie is like “you gotta go to the police” and Betty is like” nah i’m good. I’m fifteen and a grown up so like I can handle a literal murderer.”

So the Lodge family is gathered in Daddy's study and plotting about getting some other richie rich family to give them money for their SoDale(?) project and i’m like I STILL don’t know what the fuck that is.

Jughead meets up with the cast off B league teenage string of the South Side Serpents and it’s confirmed to me that Dilton confirmed did stab himself like a little attention seeking whore. I was unsure about that. So the Serpents think that the next reasonable step after the rumble at midnight with the Riverdale high school Bulldogs is to blow up a LITERAL building. That makes good sense. The slithery little snakey snakes are all like “ we aren’t the bad guys and to prove it to you we’re going to blow up the local newspaper with a pipe bomb our bros cousin made in his garage.”

Veronica starts going off about her old life with this Nicky bish back in nam where they went on crazy adventures and stayed up all night and i’m like oh last year? When you were 14?

Jughead rolls up to the South side Serpent bar and is like ‘okay i’m in put me in the gang’, and they’re like “ okay but first we’re going to haze you like you’re a pledge at Alpha Sigma Phi at Centeral Florida State University. “

The black hood is all like “Betty publish this story about your mother and her past on the south side” but like he literally sends her a newspaper clipping from back in the day. So don’t people already know about this? Why is it a big deal? Riverdale is small and gossipy as we’ve already seen so like did no one read the newspaper that day or did Alice gather them all up and burn them before anyone got their morning paper from their doorstep?

The Sinclairs roll up and “ Nicholas” as Veronica calls him at least 11 times in the span of this 45 second scene is like “ this hotel sucks” and Veronica is like “ The five seasons is lovely.” So this is supposed to be a play on the four seasons which are VERY fancy hotels. In what world would a town like Riverdale have anything close a four seasons or anything close to the kind of apartment that the Lodges live in? Nicholas should be complaining about having to stay at a Best Western or as this show would probably call it a Best Eastern or some bs like that, because that is far more plausible and riverdale is nothing if not completely plausible. So where do I know this Nicholas guy from? Okay so I JUST discovered that his name is St. Clair and not Sinclar. Fucking sue me. I’m not going back to change it. that’s just too much work and I literally could not care less. He was that kid DJ in XOXO and in Staten Island summer. Oh shut the fuck up he was in 13! The musical. That’s fucking hilarious. Mirder me.

So Alice (whose bangs are once again different and I can’t handle it omg pick a style and stick to it) is all like Betty did you write this letter yourself for attention you sneaky little bish. Honestly it’s not going to shock me if the person who is calling Betty isn’t the real black hood and just someone fucking with her. How iconic would it be if it was Cheryl being like “ you threatened me in the bathroom so now i’m going to ruin your whole fucking life”. That would honestly make sense. So either Alice or Betty are getting Black Hood notes from a copy cat. OR there are two blackhoods. Who the hell knows?

Archie is in his bedroom pumping iron because you know he’s a man.

Jughead is trying to learn the serpent pledge and honestly shouldn’t it just be like “ I promise to share and be a friend” ala the girl guides. That’s so much simpler. So Jughead has to take care of hot dog and get spat on while what’s his face screams in his face and to top that all off he has to put his hand in the Rattle snake enclosure and i’m like okay i’m out. No gang for me. Toni calls Jughead Juggie and honestly i’m cringing.

Betty keeps coming for her mother and i’m like chill bish.

Veronica, Nick, and Archie are hanging out in her bedroom and it’s the strangest trio ever. Veronica turns down a line of coke because she’s too full from eating copious amounts of pasta at dinner i’m sure.

If Betty could change her ring tone I would be like SUPER grateful. Okay thanks. She finds out she would recognize the face under the hood and i’m like no shit don’t like 11 people live in this town? The black hood is like “ I’m your only friend so cut Veronica loose” and not going to lie that’s totally something I would do.

Jughead and Betty greet each other like they’re coming back from war in the middle of Pops dinner and they both just sit across the table from one another and feed each other lies. So healthy. So not annoying.

Nick is throwing a party and Cheryl is like fuck you all i’m coming to this thing. She’s Riverdale’s “ Resident IT girl” and she wants EVERYONE to know it.

It’s like three minutes into the party and Nick is like “ you’re friends are boring let’s all get high” and Veronica is like let’s pretend to be normal and i’m like is it normal that 15 year olds get high in hotel suite off pixie stick esque mystery drugs?

Betty tears Veronica a new asshole and is honestly SUPER harsh but honestly pretty honest and i’m like Betty did you have to be so brutal? But whatever. Into it.

Toni rolls up to warn Jughead about joining the gang but all I could focus on was the dog in the background.

Nick is coming on to Veronica and she’s like lol we’re friends, no bro. Then he’s like “listen up bitch. If you don’t blow me i’m going to tell my daddy to tell your daddy to go fuck himself.” So like yikes.

The black hood is like defs not #Teambughead and is like okay Betty dump him. She’s like shit, and basically begs Archie to break up with Jughead for her and I would be judgy but I once made my sister quit my job for me so like bitches in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.

So Alice rolls up to this gala in a very TS style fashion owning the snake label in a romper that basically goes down to her belly button. She promptly tells her good for nothing husband to shut up and continues to act as if she owns the place. I love it.

Nick is like “ omg so sorry for trying to blackmail you into sleeping with me V. I’ve been to rehab btw” and Veronica is like “ Okay we can be BFFs again. Let’s drink some ginger ale.”

Archie breaks up with Jughead for Betty in front of his whole new posey and it’s ice cold. The Serpent's proceed to beat the living shit out of Jughead and i’m like cute. Best way to gain loyalty from your new member.

Nick and Cheryl are chatting and it’s going well until he’s like “ hmmm she seems into me. Guess I’ll roofie her.” Like what the actual fuck you monster?

Josie and the Pussycats + Veronica decide to pull out a cover of a song from Rent and i’m like i’m not mad but why? It just seems like such a random choice. They note Nick taking a clearly fucked up Cheryl “ out for some air” and i’m like are you not in a literal tent?

They run through the halls of the 5 seasons and discover a master set of keys because all hotels just leave those hanging around. They rescue Cheryl and beat the living shit out of Nick which like good on you but that’s like super illegal and he’s so the type to lawyer up with Daddys money.

Black Hood tells Betty to go to this abandoned house to find out who he is and i’m like bitch this is SUCH a bad idea. Obviously he was never going to tell her who he is. Like what did she expect she’d put the mask on turn around and be like “ OLD MAN SMITHERS!” like this is some Scooby Doo type shit? Clearly not you silly bish.

Okay so we all gather around Cheryls bedside and Archie is ready to go FULL red circle on Nick and honestly betty is almost just sitting there like “ why am I here?”

Toni and Jughead admire his new tattoo while he ices his now fucked up face and then suddenly they're making out and i’m like okay murder me i’m not here for this.

Black Hood is like “ Betty what the fuck you’ve been telling Archie we’ve been wheeling! That’s so rude. I’m going to murder your whole family if you don’t give me the name of someone to murder” and she’s like “ Nick the would be rapist” and black hood is like “ yas good one. We are totes twins.”

Boom. Episode over. There’s a new episode in like two days so like a bitch will be back.

#riverdale #riverdale roundup #Bughead #jughead jones #betty cooper #archie andrews #veronica lodge #the cw #the cw riverdale

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