#questioning my sexuality bc idk

[ralvezfanatic]

being queer + aroace is so fun !! like yayyy im questioning my sexuality everytime i have/don't have some type of attraction >_<

#i always doubt my sexuality bc of the attraction i have/don't have #like I've mentioned before #I haven't had a crush in ages #like a genuine irl crush yk #sooooo #idk being aroaceflux is annoying for me #cuz im always questioning my sexuality #😭😭 #𖤐 rambles #aroaceflux #aroflux #aceflux #aromantic #asexual #aroace spectrum #aromantic spectrum #asexual spectrum #bisexual

[8rujaa]

lesbians dont marry or fuck men thats like the whole point of lesbianism lmao

yes yes i agree i don’t think i said otherwise

#i was just thinking like i’m general if i spent the rest of my life with a man i’d feel unfulfilled whereas if i ended up marrying a woman #i don’t think i’d have that feeling of ‘something’s missing’ #i was wondering if other bisexual ppl felt that way and wanted to know how lesbians came to the conclusion of being a lesbian #the asks i’ve been getting kinda make it seem like if you’re not a gold star lesbian then you’re not a Real Lesbian #which like i understand if someone’s dating men and women like you’re obviously not a lesbian #but for me i still call myself bi i was just wondering if i don’t want to be with men or date men and im sure i only want to be with women #and ever since i realized that I haven’t been with men… and don’t want to be ever again… #like would that still make me bi? #idk i feel like y’all are gonna cancel me for questioning my sexuality 😭 i’m not saying i’m lesbian but like where Am I in the spectrum ??? #i’m just trying to figure out if my ‘attraction’ to men is genuine attraction or just like… societal pressure to be with a man #or daddy issues cuz all the men i’ve been with are always like older my last boyfriend was 10 years older than me and Idk #or if my repulsion is actually repulsion bc i don’t Like them or trauma?? #im sorry if i offended anyone i’m not trying to invalidate anyone’s sexuality just trying to figure mine out 🥲 #inbox

[airenyah]

ok so today i had my first thai class after a really long christmas break and somehow andreas gabalier (an austrian folk singer) and his music came up. and i don't remember what exactly my teacher said but he made a comment along the lines of "andreas gabalier is considered a standard good looking dude here in austria, right?" (my teacher is from thailand, so he wasn't sure about austrian people's preferences)

and his question was met with complete silence, because the thing is... our class consists of 3 middle aged guys plus one more guy in his early 30s. and then there's me. the only girl

and since no one answered the question about andreas gabalier's looks, our teacher then addressed me directly and following conversation ensued:

teacher: "[airenyah]?" me: (feeling slightly shy and embarrassed) ".....i don't know what andreas gabalier looks like 🙈" everyone: (breaks out in laughter) middle-aged classmate: (highly amused) "i suspect he's not your type..." (me: "oh 🙈") "you're not missing out on anything :D"

i really like my teacher but god, let me live. don't put me on the spot like that 😩😩😩

#i hate when people ask me my opinion on somebody's looks #esp if that somebody in question is an older dude (as in significantly older than me. doesn't have to be ''old'' in reality) #idk!!! the person looks normal to me!!! person-shaped!!! idk‚ what do you want from me!!! i'm too asexual for this conversation!!! #we're not super close in this class (it's online which doesn't help with that either) so no one actually knows shit about my sexuality #and idk if my teacher put me on the spot for heteronormative reasons bc i'm the only girl in class #or bc he trusts my opinion (technically i could be considered an expert in austrian culture‚ i have a BA for that now lol) #but somehow my classmate's comment felt really reassuring to me somehow #i have no idea what made him think that that singer wouldn't be my type (maybe the age difference??) but like #so true man. so true. you don't even know #what even IS my type #airenyah plappert #stories from my thai class #also yeah everyone was laughing but it wasn't mean-spirited like. they weren't laughing AT me #i think my comment was just funny to them bc they probably weren't expecting it and so maybe they were surprised #or maybe bc i'm also the youngest in the group so maybe in their heads they were going ''aw she's too young to know andreas gabalier'' #(i mean i WAS very much aware of him‚ i just never cared about him and his music and so i didn't care to know about his appearance) #the guys were laughing very amusedly while i was just sitting there like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ lmao (i too was amused when they laughed tho) #anyway i have since looked up andreas gabalier's face and he is literally just some dude to me #i do hate his hairstyle tho. it looks greasy with gel ewww #but yeah apart from that my opinion on his looks is that he looks like an ordinary human being idk #nothing good and nothing bad about it #(except yeah. the hair gel maybe. maybe that IS bad actually)

[blu-wingz]

#agender #asexual #aromantic #lgbtq+ #asexuality #idk man im still rocking as queer #gender has taken too long to figure out #gender #sexuality #questioning #yes i made this #its got my watermark bc im proud of this #and i havent seen anyone else do it #all As #ace #aroace #no gender pls #just me

[jvzebel-x]

it's a mixed up, muddled up, messed up world

(i don't wanna be a boy, i don't wanna be a girl)

let's cast spells-- let's chant rhymes

(let's be gay-- let's do crimes)

#happy pride month ect ect #here is my yearly bisexy love post ♡ #lazy makeup for the bi flag+an incredibly dope song lmao. #a fun fact about me is that being anything other than sexually straight was prob the 1 thing about myself that i never had to get used to; #i was really fortunate in that i just... never questioned the fact lmao&there were so many other reasons why i was going to hell #that no one really ever bothered to crack down on that particular trait lol. #something something im still having issues w disassociation so pic things are my next idea to tackle 2 v real issues that im dealing w lol: #remembering im a real person&not an amalgamation of obsessions so i have real person needs lmao&the intense almost crippling fear #of the meds destroying my creativity bc i cant be an artist if im not fucking insane lmao (esp since its clear the dosage is getting upped #at the end of this initial adjustment period lmao) so maybe ill do more picture things idk i also like forgetting im a person lmao. #♡ #yas #Youtube #🎶

[panlyv]

the mysterious crush 👀 please, feel free to talk about them!!

lucaaa 😭😭😭 gsjdhajd thank u for indulging me! i feel soooo stupid about this crush but. i have this internship in a rehabilitation base for marine animals and things there were a bit wonky because of internal issues. i work with this girl who used to be an intern too (we go to the same uni, same major) but now she's a full time employee. i was always VERY intimidated by her bc she's sooo fucking beautiful. and cool. and i feel like a potato around her so i never really talked to her much bc i thought she hated me 😭😭 but then, a few weeks ago when the issues started, she never outright said anything to me but she went to management and defended me and helped me a lot and im v thankful to her and our other coworker for helping me. and since ive always had this little crush on her, now that this happened im just. falling like a dumbass. and we've started talking a lot more too!!!! which i feel is only fair like i have to at least be civil w her after what she did for me 😭 but she's v nice and now i know how to work around her personality which was what made me a little terrified of her before. but i know nothing will ever happen bc we work together and i dont ever think she could reciprocate the feelings so i feel like a huge huge clown 😭😭😭 im a weak lesbian she's pretty and was nice to me and im already on one knee like come onnnn

#like it's so silly!!!!!!! #but we really barely talked at all before all this happened #so when i heard she was actively vouching for me and defending me bc our managers were being incompetent i was so ??? like why #bc i deadass thought she didnt like me at all so WHY WOULD SHE HELP ME STAYYYY #idk. spiraling. #she has this something to her that even my straight friend who also interns there told me she made her question her sexuality lmaooooo #but yeah and now whenever we talk i want to twirl and kick my feet and giggle and be like HAHAHA SO FUNNY i feel ridiculous 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #dawn.odt #luca #ill prob delete this later this is saur mortifying

[princemick]

the way that I'm coming closer and closer to the possible realisation/acceptation that I might b demisexual is truly fascinating

#it would like...explain a lot #kyle.txt #but also I've never really questioned my sexuality bc I've always known I was attracted to men and women and when I discovered there was #more then just the binary I was like 'eh idk' like I always knew I'd found everyone attractive #so thinking abt my sexuality again is weirdddd