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Beware Covid Cops #covid_19 #wuhanvirus2020 #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus (at Oxnard, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CF0sd9dgDej/?igshid=1qgw62an9d3a8

#covid_19 #wuhanvirus2020 #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

I gave myself a sticker. I have #bpd or #eupd if you prefer. I've been a self employed writer (procrastinator) since 2010. I last earned any money on 7th May 2010 apart from last year when I earned £1,000 supported by handouts from family. I have no friends due to my mental illness and I don't find it easy to talk to actors and directors due to no self esteem or confidence. I know about 2 actresses. In 2016 I was told about Patreon, which is crowd funding for creatives. The level of anxiety I felt today when I knew I'd HAVE to put some of my writing on Patreon was intense but I did it.... I deserve my sticker cos I stepped right out of my comfort zone.... Wow. People with confidence and without a mental illness have no idea how much strength that took. #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #anxious #bpd #bpdawareness #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #eupd #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9uUzoAAssu/?igshid=wfdaftpxuop6

#bpd #eupd #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #anxious #bpdawareness #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Fuck, fuck, fuck stepping way outside my comfort zone...I fan feel the anxiety in my stomach and chest, breathing not helping, heart tight. I have to do Patreon as i am unable to find a 'proper' job, self employed failure for 10 years doesn't look great on a CV. Modern society tells me to Google, "how to use Patreon" but no one will take anytime to show me. I have no self confidence except in my ability to write comedy BT its one thing to write it and a total other to sell it. Fuck I'm tense, chest tight, foot tapping, anxious "what if's". Fuck, I hate my #bpd and total lack of confidence. Stomach joined in and getting louder, chest, why is there an elephant on my chest, where did that fucking elephant cone from. Its 3.00 pm and I've managed to procrastinate thus far today.....fuck, wish me luck and vibes and hugs and likes. Will someone please take this fucking elephant off me. I have a load of hash tags before I have to face patreon. #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #middlesbrough #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9uAKbBAMhP/?igshid=1az0zo551e6g8

#bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #middlesbrough #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Faced a fear today and may have won. Patreon is crowd funding for creative people that allows patrons to contribute on a monthly basis. I found out about this platform in 2016 and finally, 4 years later I built the courage to really go for it today. Not sure but think I had a good plan of what I was doing, spent 24 hours painstakingly planning and I think I've done well, pleased with myself. I will be adding script's over the next few weeks as I try to build myself up... Scared that due to my #eupd #bpd I get excited and high only to crash when nothing happens...like so many of my plans and schemes over the last 10 years since I last worked in employment. Adult humour as it makes me smile and I don't know any better #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #bpdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9r4R_DAhxu/?igshid=rpr07750c7zn

#eupd #bpd #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #bpdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Front row at Peter's Playhouse. Comedy a speciality... Organising not so.... If you can organise an evening feel free, I've got all the scripts you'd need. #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #eupd #bpd #bpdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #notacuntjusteupd #anxious #anxiety #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9rGbrHAawP/?igshid=1kngnn7vq15cb

#eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #eupd #bpd #bpdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #notacuntjusteupd #anxious #anxiety #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Yesterday was so so so baaaaaaaaaaad. In desperate need to earn money from my writing I am trying to set up a Patreon account, crowd funding for artists, anxiety through the roof, I can feel it now, no one I know will help cos "its easy", twats....then WiFi in my studio was a dick all day, a website crashed and I very nearly did...... So we go again today. #anxiety #anxious #depression #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #notacuntjusteupd #eupdrecovery #eupd #eupdawareness #bpdawareness #bpd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus Please send strength or an angel who knows how to Use Patreon. https://www.instagram.com/p/B9q1S8ogP5O/?igshid=1gfcdxdqptqy4

#anxiety #anxious #depression #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #notacuntjusteupd #eupdrecovery #eupd #eupdawareness #bpdawareness #bpd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

#anxious today...not fun, love writing but requires me to start Patreon or get a 'proper job', is this the lesser of the two evils? Fuck, what must it bevlike to have confidence? Need plenty of vibes as I take a huge step out of my comfort zone..... #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #eupd #eupdawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9qzP32ADdO/?igshid=2c2j1aeivbf6

#anxious #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #eupd #eupdawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Not making fun of corona virus, that's is serious shit, ...pun intended, I'm having a go at the panic buyers... So I revamped my studio space and I still have 2 sofas, 2 armchairs, basically enough seating to get 10-12 people in comfortably to watch a performance of one of my podcasts... However, I couldn't organise a party in a brewery so urgh, so I'm thinking how do I get people to visit my studio considering I'm #bpd #eupd and tend to spoil relationships? Answer, I have toilet roll. Any people who are panic buying toilet roll I have these rolls in my studio. #bpdawareness #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9g_6-QAhY8/?igshid=1u272x0l3kex2

#bpd #eupd #bpdawareness #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Sunday night and I'm ready to head home. Pretty pleased with today. Need lovely person who actually likes social media to send kind thoughts and vibes. I'm hoping by Wednesday to be writing but also setting up Patreon, Scary as I'm a Kineaesthetic learner, learn by doing while been shown but in the modern age everyone seems to be "oh its easy" - confidence thought familiarity, no confidence and no familiarity, or Google it, but need to he shown. But then anxious that I get too excited or pin too much emotional shit if it goes well, the pleasure of BPD Wish me luck for Wednesday #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #eupdrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9fBS6ugQL0/?igshid=azmoa9379wpq

#bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #eupdrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Happy Saturday and because I have to try to earn money, I usually fail, I don't deserve to relax or have weekends off so here I am. Hope to write later but... #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9bt1Kdg7Rf/?igshid=4hv7ln90vysq

#mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Aaarrrggghhhh I so nearly did some writing today for the first time in 6 weeks but then my brain got in the way...bastard. What should I do first, write or publish previous writing on Patron? Answers on a postcard to the usual address (oldies know what I mean) instead I did neither as my table for patreon was not quite right...wtf? Closer to 10th anniversary of my last job and so intense pressure...bugger I am not calmer but its nearly the end of the day.. #bpd #bpdawareness #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #eupd #notacuntjusteupd #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9Zk9Nhg_1Q/?igshid=jnsihq6iv1gc

#bpd #bpdawareness #eupdrecovery #eupdawareness #eupd #notacuntjusteupd #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

#bpd #bpdawareness #eupdawareness #eupd #eupdrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus https://www.instagram.com/p/B9UFu5gg--4/?igshid=17m54sonvwzrt

#bpd #bpdawareness #eupdawareness #eupd #eupdrecovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

Just a picture with hashtags #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus #depression #anxiety https://www.instagram.com/p/B9UFhoigtDM/?igshid=1enrxofhhhnwk

#bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus #depression #anxiety

[bpd-and-writing]

Confused????? My mood is picking up and I don't for the life of me know why? Didn't take one of my three blood pressure tablets which I felt might be counter acting my Duloxetine. First Tuesday without the psychodynamic therapy hangover ...did not like my therapist and therapy ended last week 24th February. Saw my doctor and she is referring me to another therapy service, she also agrees that I'm probably borderline personality disorder or Emotionally Unstable personality disorder #bpd #eupd. So why? I actually feel mildly okay and i don't know why? #bpdawareness #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus #notacuntjusteupd https://www.instagram.com/p/B9RXor5gvHx/?igshid=1i5epkx7kvqx3

#bpd #eupd #bpdawareness #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus #notacuntjusteupd

[bpd-and-writing]

For the past 4 weeks the shop steward for the Union of Lego Type Figures who live in my studio has been nagging, begging, pleading, encouraging, cajoling, discussing the possibility of me doing some writing l. Today he gave up and joined me watching YouTube. All this procrastination stems from a tiny little issue that didn't go my way but as I'm #eupd, #bpd I haven't worked in over a month. Maybe tomorrow #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #eupd #eupdawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #bpdwarrior #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus I wish I had human friends who would visit. Little things have huge impacts when you have #bpd #eupd https://www.instagram.com/p/B9PFmAug8Yh/?igshid=z92vvkiyxt7e

#eupd #bpd #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #eupdawareness #bpdawareness #bpdwarrior #depression #anxiety #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus

[bpd-and-writing]

So in the last 10 years I've lost my job 2010, failed to make any money whatsoever, relying on handouts from family, and every idea I have turns to shit that no one cares about, I write comedy that no one will help me perform despite lots of praise and everyone I know prefers to tell me what I should do instead of actually fucking helping me and finally, as I learnt yesterday, have now had cancer 4 times. If you'll excuse me but I'm really fucking struggling to look on the positive side of life because even if all the cancer has been cut from my face I still have BPD eupd and I have no idea as to earn any money as no one wants to stick around me long enough to help. I'm as bitter as fuck and just seem to be waiting to die. And my therapist discharged me last Monday admitting that she couldn't help me #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus But if you want to contact me to tell me I'm still alive and I'm white, male, middle class and should think myself lucky for my family, I've got a great big FUCK YOU just waiting for you. Bitter man https://www.instagram.com/p/B9KGHovgMlz/?igshid=1qcoztt9m0gub

#mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #notacuntjusteupd #politiciansdontgiveafuckaboutus