#point your light at the bed

[pixlokita]

Part 12 =w= man door hand hook car door

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[okkennymay]

Speaking of said dad, he went on a lil mini 10 day holiday across the country to Perth to sight see nature and go on a boat ride to see some Orcas (he's retired, it's his way of getting out the house and not turning into an old man potato, and comes back with hundreds of photos of landscapes, plants and flowers and points of historical interests to show my Mum and I, with cool facts and stories in a slideshow~)

Unfortunately i was still sick at the time and didn't get the chance to join my mum in dropping him off at the airport, let alone the chance to give him a big 'ol hug before he left- so I drew him this 💖

You can't escape the 'Ken hugs.

#fun fact I actually have mild OCD when it comes to hugs especially with family members #sometimes they have to deal with me hugging them many times over until its right #and if I don't hug them before they leave I get anxious as hell #it used to be to the point of panic attacks- my brain would tell me because I didn't hug them they will die before I see them again #and they would never know how much I love them #Family gatherings are a hug fest- my family and their partners know the moment I bust through the door I must run the circuit #everyone gets hugged and neither of us have a choice in the matter #at least it's hugs and not something else like turning on and off the lights a number or times or closing and opening doors or some such #sure hug OCD sounds nice but when it's been like 5 minutes and 15 hugs it's not fun for either party-it's better these days but it took wor #or running out the door to your sisters car because the hug wasn't right and they're about to drive off and if I don't catch them in time- #-I'd cry for hours feeling dread and anxiety down to my bones until i end up sick and in bed- that's not so nice #the brains a bitch

[icewindandboringhorror]

... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#why the next poll adventure and everything else has taken so long lol.. I straight up have just not done anything #the past few days... staring down my todo list and sweating hopelessly #AT LEAST it;s relatively low humidity. the highest it's been up to is maybe 65%. but is usually around 50 or 40ish #There is one small window air conditioner in a roomate's room that can KIND OF be shared by nailing a sheet up to block off the hallway #with the rooms in it so the cool air goes into the other bedrooms but doesnt flow out into the kitchen or etc but #wjhen it's the time of day that the sun is directly hitting the window & it's like 102F outside even that doesnt help much. to cool 3 rooms #and I always feel like we're going to explode the air conditioner or something running it too much with direct heat on it. sometimes it #smells like hot plastic or whatever ghj.. so it's mostly just.. block off all windows with 5 layers of blankets and cardboard #starting at 10am (meaning.. no indoor light for days basically.. no natural lighting.. time passes weird. hard to determine time of day). #throw water on the bed every night so you sleep in wet sheets and keep your clothes and hair wet at all times. ice. cold drinks. keep a #little fan running pointed directly at you nearly 24/7 even when sleeping with a fan blowing air on you makes your eyes and throat painfull #dry. etc. etc.. and i KNOW people have it worse in plenty of places blah blah. i am just complaining on my little blog that is about me lol #I think the biggest thing about lack of adequate/central air conditioning for me is just the LACK of productivity!!! I am working on games! #and novels!! and so many other crafts. costumes! sculptures!!! things I want to do!!! we all have a limited amount of time on this planet a #nd I have so many goals!! To lose basically 4-5 days straight or producivity - when if I had been able to temperature #control my environment better I could have easily gotten more done because I wouldn't be laying around nuseous and too hot #and sick to do anything all day etc. -- is like.... GRRRRRR... it just feels so senseless.. i could have USEd that time... #Every CEO who has contributed to global warming owes me 1million doallrs to fund my art projects and make up for all the time #I've lost on them due to their stupid bullshit.. also they should be stoned to death in a public square. but redistribute the money FIRST #to everyone on the planet. but especially people who have been affected by floods. fires. etc. etc. #poor people who have limited choice in housing and access to air conditioning. homeless people in cooling centers. people with disabillitie #and health issues that are worse in the heat so the entire future just seems increasingly terrifying for them. etc. etc. #ANYWAY.... eughhhgh.... It can cool down SLIGHTLY at night but the past few nights I have been sleeping in an 81 degree room and I wake up #and first thing in the morning its like 82 by then and I'm so nauseous and nasty feeling... just so so tired of it.. I NEED SNOW #literally not even joking.. snow would heal me. .. oughffff... #AND i got the new nasty stinky poo poo pee pee tumblr dashboard update lol.. e v i l

[celestial-toys]

been laying here listening to Lucky by Dermot Kennedy on loop for half an hour while thinking about Everything Stays and crying

#it’s good crying dw i am just. i have so many feelings about this story #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #Everything Stays #writing stuff #i may be stuck in bed struggling to type due to personal reasons but that will Not stop me from cooking up ideas for this fic #there is gonna be so much fucking angst and it’s gonna hurt soooooo good #the more i listen to it the more the possibilities expand #i can easily see Moon and Reader going back and forth between verses vulnerably arguing over Sun #but i can also see it being Sun and Moon getting real and discussingcougharguingover Reader #can’t decide which i like more #god i wish y’all could see this story the way it plays out in my head #next best thing would be to keep writing and sharing the story instead of vagueposting abt future plot points tho wouldn’t it lmao #and GOD don’t even get me fucking STARTED on Two Hearts… #Dermot Kennedy’s music is responsible for yet Another plot point for this story and i can’t even be mad about it. his fucking lyricsss dude #‘and so we jump to the THEATER??? in that SAME OLD TOWN???’ DO WE? FUCK I GUESS WE DO NOW!!! #picture me listening to that song and inspiration hitting me like a truck. diligently taking notes like the lyrics r instructions from God #‘she sees his face?? and HE sees HER as the LIGHTS GO DOWN???’ write that down write that down #‘the life that they should’ve had sat between them that night??’ FUCK Man yeah it sure did!!! #anyways it’s chill i’m chill. i’m very normal about my little stories and their musical inspirations! #and i’ve listened to these songs a very normal amount (translation: they will likely be in my top ten for the 2024 wrapped) #(cut to the scenes playing vividly in my head) ‘Well‚ at least I can always say that I /told/ her!’ #‘I can’t relate to having a heart like that‚ Sun! With all of your wonder and your trust intact…’ #like no i wouldn’t lift the lyrics directly for the song to use as dialogue but FUCk does it work well.. Lucky is such a good script for- #like- a heated conversation between my Relentlessly Positive Sun and my Apathetic Jaded Moon #‘How could our farewell mean as much as our time? Honey‚ I’ll be gone. It’s better if I’m something that you leave behind.’ #‘I used to paint these trees‚ now I just scream at the sky. Honey I was wrong. Guess there’s certain things you never leave behind.’ #*sobbing shaking throwing up clawing at the walls* I Am Normal About These Characters #anyways uh. on an unrelated note how many song lyrics do ya think i can cram into ES before it’s Too Many #gonna have to start getting creative with how i can incorporate more songs in a way that feels natural and not forced #even tho i am forcing it. i am forcing it very much bc i have songs with applicable lyrics and y’all Will read them one way or another

[kookslastbutton]

My second therapy session is in 5 days and though I'm looking forward to it, my insurance sadly doesnt cover the entire expense 😬💛

#i really should have started in college but well....i was stubborn and negligent #this year im really going to try taking care of myself better #btw i think everyone should have a counselor at some point in thier life #it can light such a weight off your shoulders to be able to process your life with an unbiased professional #like i used to think the idea of self care and love yourself was so cliche but there is honestly some truth in them...💛 #alright now i need to get to bed since i still have 1 day of work left til my weekend haha #kookslastbutton rambles

[coquelicoq]

my two favorite subjects for a painting:

light reflecting off water

a woman sleeping soooo comfy cozy in bed

#pre-rafaelites painting women sleeping on stone walls and so forth need not apply #get outta here with that shit. give my girl some CUSHIONS #art #my posts #f #light #light reflecting off water though. that is the pinnacle. it's the meaning of life #it's the entire point. what are we doing here? i'll tell you. we're here to paint light reflecting off water and look at paintings of light #reflecting off water #no but seriously visual art depicting that specific subject is so meta it makes me feel sososo sooooo good #it's the point! IT'S THE POINT! WHAT IS VISUAL ART BUT A REFLECTION OF LIGHT!!! #WHAT IS PAINT BUT WATER? WHAT ARE WE BUT WATER? ELECTRIC CONSCIOUS BAGS OF WATER #WITH CELLS THAT REACT TO THE PRESENCE OF LIGHT BY CREATING REPRESENTATIVE IMAGES IN OUR BRAINS!!!! #WHAT IS CONSCIOUSNESS BUT REFLECTION! PERCEPTION AND TRANSMUTATION! CHANGING AND BEING CHANGED!! #light reflecting off water is just like...okay. light is there and we have nothing to do with it. water likewise. but in this one moment #the light and the water that we did not create are interacting with each other with no stimulus or interference from us #and we're observing that happen #we're becoming part of that interaction now by witnessing it #the painter who saw it is a witness and then we the viewers of the painting are witnessing the reflection the painter created #paintings of light reflecting off water say: you are here. you are here. you are here. this representation you're seeing in your brain #only exists because you are here. which is true of every painting but that is the SUBJECT of light reflecting off water paintings #unspoken and perhaps unintended but it is there waiting for you to perceive it #and! it's also saying! guess what! you're not necessary! this light would have still reflected off this water if no one had witnessed it! #someday you will die and the light will go on reflecting off the water all the same! and isn't that beautiful!!! #now women sleeping soooo comfy cozy in bed? that is the other meaning of life. sleeping comfy cozy in bed is the highest form of being #those paintings are also about consciousness. about how special it is to turn it off sometimes and just be warm under the covers <3 #i've never taken an art history class in my life but this is what i imagine they are about. nobody disabuse me of this notion

[peapod20001]

I like to think that if my tumblr pals came to my house, they’d have a good time

#random post #I don’t mean that as in ‘yea woo let’s party and get fucked up’ like no lol #I just mean. our house is a place where people get along #there’s no expectations here. wanna sit and talk? we can hang out and talk about whatever #wanna play a game? chances are a few other people do to #need to get away for a bit and maybe take a nap? we’ve got plenty of beds take your pick. we’ll make sure no one bothers you #hungry or thirsty? help yourself don’t be shy. we can always get more #like we had ppl over on Saturday and it was so FUN like ppl would talk all together and then different conversations would split off of that #we would go outside then back in. we had food and some ppl had alcohol #we were laughing SO hard about funny shit (like discovering that my sisters bf worked on the gas meter at grandpas but didn’t SAY ANYTHING #ABOUT IT LMFAO) my cousin brought his gf to meet everyone and she just fit in perfectly and so obviously had an obsession for animals #her and my sister were like sudden bffs it was hilarious. my brother and younger cousin ate at 2:40 and slept upstairs till 6:00 #and all we did was turn of the light and put on a fan for em lol. crack up at how comfortable they were #me and my lil sister were walking up and down the driveway talking and looking at the stars. the nap duo were pointing out constellations #when most everyone left it was my household and my sister and her bf. she played uno flip and incoherent with me (usually no one does lol) #and we laughed very hard at all of the adult cards. one of the hints she gave for sidechicks was ‘sad used to have a lot of these’ and #I immediately got it. it was fun. we blasted music from the 2000’s and ate bread #I slept for 11 hours that night lmao and I was tired the next day but I wouldn’t have changed it. I like them lots #it’s days like that that make me think I’m more extroverted than introverted. just because I don’t always know what to say doesn’t mean #I don’t like to talk yn? anyways I’m writing a novel in the tags but I don’t care <3 I just love us and I wish #other people were able to have love and fun times often #I hope this doesn’t sound like me bragging about my home life. trust me I know it’s not some shining light in the darkness or whatever #but it’s something. and I don’t mind sharing my love with other people

[caffeiiine]

do you ever not dream for extended amounts of time then the one time you do dream it’s really fucking vivid

#bc i barely dream but i just had the most fucking vivid dream of my life dude #so i was in this old woman i don’t knows house and it was modernly decorated she had carpet beige walls etc #she also had white and pink tulle hang drying from her ceiling like halfway down on the whole second floor #i couldn’t get to her top floor either i was literally restricted to the first and second floor #anyways so i go really slowly to her room since i couldn’t move fast and her room is normal it has a bed; typical grandmother stuff #i go to leave and i notice she has this closet where it’s like a reading nook? #it’s insanely dark inside the closet; you could tell it was shallow but no light was getting in at all. in front of the entrance there was #a curtain of green plush bats hung upside down instead of a door; in the style of those baby plushes. in front of them also was a sign that #read “your child is reading upside down!” at taht point i could make out small details and a lot of things like a wood chair were hung upsi #upside down. #she was also communicating with me through tumblr but not directly to me; vaguely about me with her two teenage daughters #it was odd and really vivid and the second dream i’ve had like that except last time there was no pink and white tulle drying everywhere #sodaramblestoomuch #if you read all that thank you i feel sorry for you

[agenderarkham]

What if I exploded rn. I think it’d be good for me personally

#I left work earlier than I needed to today (didn’t get overtime that I want and enjoy) bc I had a doctors appointment today but then I show #up to the office and oops !! I guess someone forgot to schedule it tee hee you wanna sit there for an hour so we can squeeze you in no well #you’ll have to reschedule then what’s your availability oh you get off work anywhere from 1230 to 230? how about an appointment at 1 o’clock #LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME STOP TALKING TO ME LIKE YOU THINK THIS IS MY FAULT EHATS THE POINT OF YOU SITTING THERE IF YOU CANT EVEN #SCHEDULE A FUCKING APPOINTMENT ??!!??? AND they’re making ME call my insurance to make sure it covers the orthodics I’m trying to get #so like. if you can schedule an appointment properly. and you’re making me call the insurance company to make sure they’re gonna cover the #shit that your doctor decided was best for me. what the fuck are you doing all day #also I cut my finger on something I literally don’t know what bc I’m so fucking about to explode frustrated and angry I’m having to lay on #my bed with the lights off and my sunglasses on so. fun #ALSO I go to leave after angry crying in my car for a few minutes and my key is stuck and wouldn’t start for a few minutes. what a wonderful #day that I’m having huh. can’t wait for my birthday on Saturday where I’m just gonna be sad because all my friends are moving away and a #bunch of people I know have died. what a week huh !! and here I thought I could start to treat myself a little better and start going to the #gym and get some good news at work but NOPE I GUESS ILL GO FUCK MYSELF #sorry. I’m feeling bad lately 👍 #vent #Arkham rambles #arkhamrambles

[gessshoku]

I spent half the day at a sweet 16 party, it was going amazing, food was finger licking good, social battery was full, phone was at 100%. Until..

- The lights started flashing which gave me a headache

- Music was so loud I couldn’t even hear the words (brain and ears exploded a bit)

- Too many people, felt too crowded (overstimulated)

- Cramps (the sharp ones)

- sweaty (ew)

- I was full and couldn’t finish my plate of delicious food ;( (My taquitos..)

- My ex was at the party too. (Oh no bro)

AhahaahahahhaAAAAAAAA WHAT DO YOU DO IN TJIS SITUATION

I mean yes I knew what to do.. I just didn’t look at them- until my mom said I needed to say hi to his mom so I did (she’s as nice as I remembered her to be <3) but I didn’t even approach the guy. He’s nice he’s cool just, he did things I now realize weren’t okay and don’t feel comfy going to talk to him (ig not yet?)

But the food made everything worth it, plus in the morning we eating at a restaurant for breakfast!!!! YO BOY ABOUT TO INHALE PANCAKES KORBY STYLE

#korby style ftw #I’m so eepy sleepy rn #y’all don’t understand #shout out to all people who have attended a Hispanic party #plus points if you’re Hispanic #and plus more points if you were the kids who fell asleep using the chairs as a bed #or begged your mom to go home #or poked holes in the plastic cloth #or were forced to dance with your mom- #anyways- ima mimi now. everyhting went okay thankfully #we were at the party for like 5 hours #only reason I looked forward to this party all week was cause of the food and breakfast #if I EVER. say I’m excited to go to a party #know that I am and was delusional and that excitement will vanish within the first 3 seconds of blastocisto music and flashing lights #gess be ranting #vent?? i guess

[racewinner]

i think you should legally be allowed to kill annoying roommates

#girl how are you going to walk in a room full of people that are trying to sleep and behave like that #pointing your phone's flashlight to the WHITE ceiling effectively making it even more annoying that if you bust had turned on the light #open all the windows when it's 1) not even that hot 2) incredibly noisy outside #3) not locking the fucking door which of course means it opened further after a bit letting the light and noise from the corridor inside #4) pull up the power strip on your fucking bed???? #girl i will literally kill you what the hell #only had good experience in hostels so far but that one woman is Testing Me

[scoreplings]

beep boop

#i have been thinking abt self harm a LOT lately because ive been wanting to do it #but i am happy because now i am at the point where the thoughts are less #‘oh my god i need to hurt i need to hurt i need to hurt wheres my lighter wheres my knife im clawing all my skin off help’ #and more ‘… why do i want to do that? because it would make me less stressed? so does a coloring page sheeeesh let me get my markers’ #this specific weekend has been rough because there are sooo many people around and i have little access to my better coping strategies #and peeling your skin off is surprisingly easy to do in front of people without them noticing #but ive just been telling myself to wait until lights out then played minecraft and listened to a podcast instead lol #coping is sooo fun #also we did a journaling exercise and in part of it we had to basically say nice things about ourselves that are true #not just ‘i am good i am pretty’ #but un-opinionated (as much as possible) stuff #and that made me feel nice. i think i will make a habit of it #anyway im five minutes late to breakfast right now i just had to sit down and chill for awhile because i have had pretty much 0 time alone #in the past three days #seven people in a tiny room with child sized bunk beds is Rough #but i am oki now. #mwah goodbye i love you im gonna go try and snag some hot chocolate yayy

[stargazypie]

the replies to that sleeping poll are wild and crazy. this is one of these things that just didn't enter my radar as something a person had to worry about before the last few years. granted I don't have insomnia or have trouble sleeping, but in my universe you just. go to your bed, and then fall asleep

#at one point our neighbours had an annoying outside light that shone right in my window so I got blackout curtains #but all this music + low light + ambient temperature + humidity + 17 pillows + eyemask.... #how are you people living #you just go to your bed and lie down its like the thing you need to micromanage least in life #when Ive been very stressed I listen to sleepcasts or things like that but not like changing the ambient light and conditions of the space?

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

the fact that my actual mattress bed makes my back feel like shit whereas the collection of blankets in my closet that barely passes as a sleeping area doesn’t is a mystery for the goddamn ages

#its to the point where my parents are like ‘you need to buy a bed for your apartment’ and im like #what if i didn’t do that. actually #the only reason im here sometimes is bc the light wakes me up faster #but like. holy shit it’s a wild difference #mossy speaks #personal #im Exhausted but i have to make a phone call tomorrow so im delaying sleep hsgdjdnmc #also unrelated but i just found out you can retroactively make old posts unrebloggable #which AHAHAHA FUCK YES I FEEL SO POWERFUL HSGDJDNDJ #its MY blog and i get to nerf posts that people are being weird in the tags about >:3 #i love this feature im going to kiss staff on the lips

[yardsards]

why is making a nest of pillows and blankets on the floor such a top tier way of sleeping??? gorilla instincts???

#eliot posts #i miss having a full sized bed. back then i could be in nest AND in bed at the same time #tho the ideal location for nest is in corner. bonus points if there's furniture on one side so ur enclosed on 3 sides #ideal bed position is touching minimal walls #this is an anti corner bed account #unless it's to save space then it's okay #i might have my bed touching zero walls if it didn't look AWFUL from an interior design perspective #a nest being in a corner is like 10% about cozy and 90% about keeping your nesting materials Contained #but yeah ideal bed vs nest location cone into conflict #nests and couches both are nice to sleep on instead of beds sometimes because like #sometimes the prospect of making myself sleep a full night is DAUNTING and that ironically keeps me up #but when falling asleep in a nest or on the couch or somewhere like that #i can convince myself like okay this might just be a little catnap but that's okay. any sleep is good sleep. #most couches are uncomfortably thin #(cept the one in my 1st apartment that thing was as wide as a twin bed great for naps awkward for sitting at least when ur short like me) #((that whole apartment felt like it was made for tall people. one i'm in now feels made for short ppl. one im movin to feels average)) #((rip to the next tenant who signed a lease here he's like 6 feet tall. i WARNED HIM when he toured but he ignored it)) #((my tall friend once whacked his head on the ceiling light in the kitchen bc it's even lower in there than in the rest of the unit)) #ANYWAY yeah. couches ALSO have the drawback of enclosing you on one side bc back of couch #but nest can be as wide as you want it to be and you can also just sprawl partially onto the floor itself

[alittleemo]

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#genuinely not sure where to go . who to ask. do you just drive to cemeteries and ask for their directory. do they have those. #not at a point where i can ask my mother. have not heard his name from her mouth since july. not sure i could stomach hearing it now. #ive read the obituary again. all it says is the service address. private internment. the church is too small for him to be there. #reading a wikihow on how to find people graves. if it wasnt so sad it would almost be funny. he would probably laugh. #going home soon. the light is never on in his old room. the path between our houses is overgrown. #two winters ago i used the front sidewalk to shovel snow from the path. they had already moved. i didnt go inside. i remember it anyway. #hard to go through summer when i will hear his name for an entire month. funny that i was born that month but it was your name. #there isnt a guide on grieving for your childhood best friend but i wish i had gotten something. no one ever talks so why would it change. #so rare we were all at dinner that night. sister couldnt reschedule her sat. missed the funeral. no one told me until the night before #classmates from ccd. didnt expect it. so rare to see boys cry. my first funeral. i didnt bring any tissues. no one told me to. how would i. #wish i had been there again. sitting in your kitchen swinging outside and in the basement. making potions. camping in the drive. sledding. #drafted a tag about going on swings with you again someday. realized it read verbatim my memorial for you. you have to come down. #when i get home ill find your stone wherever it is. ill leave you some coke and mentos. save me a seat for now. #long post #going to bed now. good night. #lee's bullshit