#plus I’d be doing it Alone

[blissfullydead]

Some more club nights are getting closer and I’m worried I might chicken out because I’ll have to somehow get home alone

#like yea I could get taxis or whatever #but what if I stay out too late and I can’t get one or it costs a fortune #plus I’d be doing it Alone #also someone in the scene here got spiked the other day at a random gig and it’s like hmm #if that happens to me and I’m alone I’m kind of fucked #I just want to go out and dance man 😭 #talking #delete later #I can’t make the kind of friends who Like clubbing unless I fuckin go outside in the first place

[ch3rie-pop]

You ever get so sad your fingers start tingling?

#it’s happened to me more than once #tw vent #Looking at how parents should care for their autistic kids always makes me sad because I know mine would never do that for me #man. #I’ve been thinking about regression too and how I probably can’t get away with that like ever #meh. #I’d feel too guilty #Plus I’m never really alone nowadays #or everything feels overwhelming for some reason #f in the chat #I’ll be okay #hopefully

[monster42069]

If my father hadn’t of crushed my dreams of being an author apart like he crushed my laptop full of years of work on my vampires in half over his knee, maybe…..just maybe I would have reached John Greene’s potential.

#… #this is in really bad taste and faith(kind of like his work) I will admit it (unlike him) #I would know I was on tumblr back then. i have been here since we had those mail letters instead of asks/DMs #I know I was under 13 because I felt rebellious about it and haha sneaky >:3c have to figure out my sisters login info because she doesn’t #log out and it’s suspicious if she comes back to the laptop and notices she’s suddenly logged out now when I use it !!! #because she fr did think that way and she was right about it I was a bastard younger kid so ‘sorry I closed it’ wouldn’t work on her lololol #so I serioisly (out of concern that she would change her info and I’d not notice) wrote down her tumblr act info and info we had on shared #accounts and what I knew she often used in video games and hacked some other accounts and wrote it down and her fav numbers and colors….. #then I made my tumblr account and used it and checked the history then logged back into her account and opened a separate google tab #of a website she knew I used and i did all of that I went thru all of that to use tumblr before I was 13 y’all jsyk respect 4 ur elders #yea I mostly wrote about bisexual vampire dramas leave me alone ok I was a child #I literally know my older sisters bank info. I know her card number because I technically came up with it when we were tweens. same for her #phone plan LMAO I know all of it because it’s numbers that we used together as kids which is kind of sweet and heartwarming but heartbreakin #because she has amnesia of most of our childhood and doesn’t show affection ever. she distances and is very very defensive at all times. #plus I’m her fucked up junkie loser younger bro that she knew at least was expected to outperform her so she just doesn’t like me hahah #but she still chooses inside jokes that I do remember sitting in the garage on neopets laughing about for passwords. and I often find myself #doing the same thing about inside jokes and creations we haven’t mentioned in almost 20 years now. it’s wild how siblings are. there’s rlly #idk something special

[happypeachsludgeflower]

@staff i suggest that year in review should include a personal analysis section in our settings.

Like how many people unfollowed me? How many times was I blocked? I need to know how many people I successfully pissed off without trying, okay??

this is vital information.

#tumblr review #year in review #tumblr suggestion #like sure I can keep general track of how many people unfollow me -ish #I know I regularly get unfollowed #but I also amass back that number plus some so my follower count looks like it’s growing #like this week alone I think 30 people unfolled me maybe but also I gained 37 followers so it looks like I just gained 7 #it’s the murther post I made I think #why do my merthur posts always do well?? the og content ended over a decade ago #I suppose I can’t be talking tho since here I am a clown also making merthur content #I don’t normally get that many people following me at once #I want a chart graphing the line of posts that were popular vs posts I lost followers over #I’m just curious okay #I’d make the chart myself but I don’t think I can download the raw data to do it #would I change my posts to reflect the data?? nope #the analysis would have no value besides amusement #my blog is for just posting stuff that pops in mind not being popular #that I even have a following still surprises me actually #but I STILL NEED TO KNOW OKAY?? #okay so knowing which posts did well would actually be useful information but really I just want to know what I lost the most people over #seriously tho #I don’t actually try to annoy people #it just happens anyway ig

[fingertipsmp3]

Bro why are legal websites in the UK so badly designed and clunky and why do they say they’re going to send you a verification email and then they don’t and why is there no button to say “hey I didn’t get my verification email, can you send it again?”

#i’m JUST trying to find out if my friend’s stupid ex got sentenced for burglary yet and if so; what he got #i don’t even know if they sentenced him on the spot because i didn’t get to attend the trial #i went in thinking that i was going to sit in the gallery of the court but i ran into my friend (who was the witness) and we were like ‘hey! #and the usher was like ‘oh she’s your friend? you can keep her with you as your support person if you want’ and my friend said she wanted #to do that. so i obviously wasn’t going to let her sit in a featureless room drinking watery tea alone #anyway her ex pleaded guilty because he knew her evidence would’ve got him sent the fuck down anyway lol #so we went and got thai food #neither of us ever saw any of the trial like i said. which is fine because i honestly didn’t want to look at that man #not that i’m intimidated by him or anything. he’s just ugly #but now I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED #googling his name brings up nothing which is no surprise as he’s a petty criminal. in every sense of both of those words #the magistrates court in our town is seemingly too small to warrant a proper website. plus none of the legal websites are cooperating #with me. i joined one only to find out that all i’d be able to see is the court schedule for that day #which would literally only be useful if i was a lawyer; magistrate; aspiring to be one of those; or was going to be in court that day #also it only shows THAT DAY. i can’t even look at last week when all this happens #the website that i THINK will actually show me such cases is the one that’s not sending me a verification email #i’m losing my mind here. the kicker is i know neither of us will ever find out what he got unless I; ME; do all this research #she doesn’t even know what to google or how to spell it. like she would fall at the first hurdle #the only other thing i can think to do is get her to call the courthouse and see if they’ll tell her since she was the witness #but they might not have had the sentencing yet #next thing is i’ll get into this website finally and it’ll just show a guilty verdict and no sentence. and i’ll be like I KNOW #the prosecutor told us personally. i KNOW he pleaded guilty because if he hadn’t; we probably wouldn’t have been able to get thai food #in a timely manner because my friend would’ve been getting asked about the world’s most ill advised phone call #well maybe not the most but. you get what i mean. who calls up their ex; who hates them; while they’re committing a crime. bizarre #personal #rant

[snixx]

ugh ashlyn stfu I’m sorry but you don’t deserve gina 1.0 or otherwise

#hsmtmts #just shut up shut up shut up #look I love doing things with my friends more than anyone I’m actually like ash in the sense that I’d rather have fun with my friends in #the ensemble than go for the lead alone #but she’s being so self centred ugh #gina was ROBBED both times #plus she can have her own ambitions without making her a bad friend for suppressing herself so you feel secure in your friendship #gina deserved the lead it’s about damn time like ash was sweet as belle but it’s not cute if you can’t handle no #gina porter #anti ashlyn caswell

[apricotluvr]

Listen

#on Wednesday I have a really busy work day and a friends wedding. the whole morning I’ll be at a seminar / training (on location… kinda #miss COVID times when we could just do those on teams) and then I have to rush to the office bc I have office hours until 5 pm #so like I said I have a wedding but like… I don’t know what time or which location (or even city)… my friend let me know about the wedding #like 2 weeks ago so by then I couldn’t ask for a day off from work. then she asked for my address to send me the wedding invitation but i #haven’t received it. we messaged and she asked if I had gotten it in the mail but I said no and asked her to send me a pic of the #invitation and she hasn’t responded :/ I even let her know I have appointments until 5 and said I wanna see if a coworker can maybe do my #last few appointments so like… #I know she’s busy and having ur wedding in a few days must be stressful but if ur gonna invite a friend and she asks for information about #the party. u should send it to her… these days I’m sure anyone who’s throwing any kind of party has the invitation / information on their #phone anyway so idk she could just send it to me quickly right…? #idk man cuz if I’m done at 5 pm (and that’s only if I’m lucky and my appointments are finished on time) . I would still need to get ready #dress scarf make up . and since I don’t even know the location. who knows how long I’d have to drive there . plus I don’t actually wanna go #alone. I wanna take my mum w me so I was actually hoping I would be able to drive back home (25 min) and then go #ugh I’m just frustrated

[biderboy]

i’m moving AGAIN gross ew

#with people again not even alone i’m so sad #i wanna be alone so bad i don’t even . talk to the people i’m moving with #maybe i should…live with my dad #ew no why is that even a thought #why can’t i stay HERE #i don’t wanna but i’d rather do that then this #plus it’s the end of the year and i need a JOB and i can’t get one when we move cause . weird town #crazy town actually very racist fear my well being sometimes #anyways i’m just upset UPSET ! #☾ that’s so rin!

[insanechayne]

~ ~ ~

#I love my bestie and trust that he’s telling me the truth about a family emergency being the reason he’s cancelling our concert plans #but he flakes on me every single time we make plans together to do anything so it’s hard to be as understanding when there’s a pattern here #and after all the shit he’s told me his brother has done to him why are you still helping him?? I can’t relate to this whole idea of do #anything for family even if your family is trash and would never do the same for you #probably because I have family who is trash and would never do anything for me and I cut them off real quick when I was able #I do not believe in letting people stick around who do nothing but use you and hurt you #so I want to be sympathetic and understanding but couldn’t be me and can’t relate so I’m struggling #plus the constant flaking on me makes me less compassionate as well #I bought these concert tickets months in advance and he was supposed to pay for the hotel room for us to stay out after the show #and yeah he’ll pay me back which is nice but doesn’t really change the fact that I’m currently out that money and everything else #and if my partner or stepdad can’t come with me last minute like this then I’ll have to just sell the tickets back to Ticketmaster #because I really don’t want to go by myself since it’s my first concert and I’d feel awkward and uncomfortable being alone there #was already having trouble sleeping and now I got this fucking nonsense to deal with #guess it’s my own fault for making plans with someone I know never keeps them #personal

[deityofhearts]

rn I’m getting through life by romanticizing the idea of me living in a bigger city (not like. new york sized but like just one of our bigger neighboring cities) and working as a librarian or library assistant there or something and having a quiet simply life and a regular routine that I go about

#deity dialogue #or like working at a book store #idk in my head it’s a simply cozy life it’s nothing big or special but it’s nice and comforting to me #I wear silly little outfits I go to nice shops in my spare time then I return home to sit in my room with fluffy and draw #that’s my dream #and I have enough money to live comfortably god #idk I fluctuate on things like #I do not wanna live where I live now like the white county I don’t wanna be here #but idk where else I’d go in the world like idk where to travel or where else to live #so I’d probably still be in the south and still close to where I live now but about an hour or so out of the way which isn’t too far #there’s more to do where I wanna live there’s more places to work more places to go for funsies more places to live etc #where I live at is just. I’m sorry it’s shit the whole area sucks as do the surrounding areas there’s nothinggggg #I don’t want to live here all my life I’m already miserable enough I don’t wanna be even more miserable by never leaving #and yeah the other place isn’t that far away but maybe I’d be happier there? in a place with more to do more people to meet etc etc #idk #I also am aware it would cost more but everything is already expensive may as well try somehow #if I can manage to save money and get a job in that city somehow then I could start saving more and then my roommates and I could move there #idk just agh. ideally I’d live somewhere even farther even more interesting and lively but again idk where I’d even go and I know my #roommates wouldn’t wanna go much farther than where we already have talked about for their own reasons #but I’m not someone who can live alone just too much fear and paranoia. my ideal living situation is to live with other people and we’re all #in equal standing and like have equal responsibilities and pay and manage everything equally which is what my roommates and I plan #those two would be able to live on their own fine and I envy that I’m just too anxious to be alone plus just. I can’t conceive being alone #I would be too lonely and depressed lmao I like having another persons presence ya know? #anyways idk why I’m talking so much in the tags but like I always do #I just want to live somewhere where I’ll be happy with people I like and working a job that doesn’t make me wanna kms and have enough money #to where I’m not constantly stressed about everything and can maybe even afford nice little things #it jsut feels like asking for any of that much less all of it is asking too much :( #I’m hashtag depressed about being alive

[justaplacetotalk]

I don’t wanna go home.

#granted I don’t know where I do wanna go #just not here #I can’t really afford to go anywhere of course #maybe my uncles. but then I’d have to explain why I don’t wanna be home #and I don’t need him asking questions I don’t have an answer to #he gets annoyed by that #I just feel… off. idk. #I know the depression is kicking my ass right now. so I have no doubt that’s part of it #I’m tired of being alone. I know that’s another part of it. #I dunno. #I want to call one of my friends but none of them are available right now #plus I don’t even know what I’d say #this is exhausting man

[the-travelling-witch]

COOL BLOG IDEA! UR OCS INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE! Or just posting as if they were running that blog

i already don’t write enough for my ocs as is, i literally cannot sustain a blog on that alone, especially given that there’s like maybe three people who care about them

also it doesn’t fit the url :]

#┊✩彡 divine correspondence ♡ #┊✩彡 unsigned letter ♡ #if anything i’d have to do sth like that here #except for like the running the blog thing #obviously can’t do that here #┊om! ocs ೃ༄ #i‘d have to make a new blog for that #and then again #can‘t run a blog on that alone (especially since we know my tendencies of hyperfixating then discarding) #plus i can‘t run that many blogs i‘m afraid (one is enough ㅠㅠ) #(i already don’t post or answer asks here)

[redhotarsenic]

Love sleeping right after having a quite frankly unnecessary argument btw it’s like my body’s resetting itself <3

#now that I’m mildly more equipped to talk about it at all #I suggested that we defrosted the meat by putting the pack in some water #and she continued yelling at me about not wanting water to get into the meat (there could be a hole in the pack!) #which. #???? #the water’s gonna cook off anyway #plus it’s FROZEN #we could also. you know. if that’s not what she wants? fine! cool! #defrost that shit in the microwave! #but I’m sure if I tried to bring that up she would’ve just verbally bulldozed right over me #you know that every time I say I honestly forgot to do something and she’s angry at me about it she almost always says #‘oh but you don’t forget to EAT do you huh?’ <- in a very nasty assholeish way #she always manages to bring up my weight in some way when she’s pissed enough #but then she turns around and says ‘oh you’re beautiful just the way you are!’ any other fuckin time. #I was going somewhere with this but I zoned out and I forgot what I was gonna say. #sigh. #maybe I’m crazy. #like. I get it I get it I’m the problem now leave me alone #fuckin wish I’d stop forgetting to do shit that people ask me to do so I’d stop getting yelled at #I’m not trying to piss her off on purpose #I just. agh. whatever. #personal

[fingertipsmp3]

I can’t explain it but I do feel like there’s ghosts and supernatural stuff going on. Obviously I have no proof but I 100% believe it

#i have never myself seen a ghost but my friend saw the ghost of my dad and described him to me 100% (she’d never met him when he was alive) #and told me he said my name and then this other name that at the time meant nothing to me. but two years later i befriended someone with #that name and she’s now my best friend #i also once went to lay flowers at the tree where i scattered my dad’s ashes and when i turned around the field was absolutely COVERED #in white feathers. i swear to you they were Not there when i was walking up. my mom (biggest skeptic in the world) was there too and she #also has no explanation for this. nothing happened that could’ve caused thousands of white feathers to suddenly appear across a quarter mile #radius. also. i used to smell my dad’s cigar smoke for about 3-4 years after he died. it wasn’t constant. just every so often #i used to hear his footsteps on the stairs every so often for about 5 years after he died and once while i was crying i swear i felt him sit #on my bed. and sometimes i’d be home alone and hear him typing in the office and then remember no one was there and the typing would stop #it all stopped when i was probably 16-17 so i think that’s when he decided i was fine and passed over #i think it takes time for a spirit to ‘pass’ fully. some might do it at the same time their physical body died but i think others #hang around. i think my dad wanted to see me grow up so badly that he did stick around but wasn’t able to interact properly #because i couldn’t see him or even hear him unless he interacted with the environment #i wonder sometimes if he left so that kim wouldn’t be alone on the other side #i also know that my friend’s house is haunted. i’ve heard banging in the walls and she’s sent me a video of a deflated balloon moving around #by itself in a way that’s really unnatural. like how does a balloon with no helium in it turn multiple corners and go upstairs #that video might honestly be the most compelling piece of evidence for paranormal activity in the world lmao #plus the whole place just has the worst possible vibe. an actual murderer lived there about a decade before my friend’s family moved in #which honestly brings me onto my next point which is that some places are absolutely haunted and some will never be #i lived in this house a couple years ago that was a 1930s terrace and honestly looked so stereotypically haunted #but it was actually completely sterile. not one single ghost. one of my flatmates was worried about staying there alone and i was like #‘literally don’t even. you could draw a pentagram on this floor and sleep in the centre of it and nothing would happen’ #some people are more likely to be haunted as well. i think i’m on a wavelength that i can’t actually see apparitions but i can know they’re #there; based on if they interact with the environment. some people will actually see apparitions #and some people will not see smell or hear a damn thing #it’s like a radio frequency except you can’t choose to tune in or out of it #thank you for coming to my ted talk #personal

[scuffedcd]

sometimes I get artistic inspiration or I see someone who has really put a lot of time into perfecting their craft and a part of me longs for a reality where I didn’t feel intimidated at pursuing an artistic career or artistic studies

#like yea I’m still young and if I rlly committed I could probably find an art related career… #it would definitely take a bit tho #even just polishing off my skills alone would take a while as I’m no where near where I wish I was in a lot of areas #character design color backgrounds etc etc #plus idk what career id want? #maybe I’d just do commissions on the side idk? #idk man I just love and miss the arts #personal

[kissitbttr]

miguel putting up with his girl’s princess attitude

-

“miguel!” you call out from the bathroom as your fingers delicately fix the straps of your bodycon dress. “can you come here for a minute?”

miguel sighs, this is the third time you keep calling him knowing how busy he is at the moment. work has gotten the best of him, and if reinventing new techs back to back isn’t enough to drain him, he has to keep up with your needs daily.

does he has the courage to say no to you, though? nope. as much as he hates to admit it because it’s embarrassing, he’s scared of you. if the spider society think that Miguel is too frightening then they have not seen you get mad or being a brat.

“coming, baby!” he walks out of his office while taking off his glasses, rolling the sleeves of his henley shirt to his elbows.

the bathroom door is left wide open, immediately seeing you standing before the mirror in a long and tight fitting grey dress that falls just around your ankles. and just like that, his annoyance completely washed off,

he takes a good look at you. eyes slowly observing every single detail of your face and down to your body. the way that dress hugs your curves and accentuate your best assets should be a crime,

God, you’re such a perfection.

“shut your mouth before you catch flies, babe” you jokingly say as your fiancee stares at you with his jaw slightly agape. “mind helping me?”

Miguel clears his throat after, slightly smirking as he shrug his shoulders. he leans against the door way with his arms crossed, eyes never leaving yours.

“you look absolutely divine, mi amor.” he comments, taking his lower lip between his teeth. “is that new?” he points at the dress,

rolling your eyes playfully, you try to keep your composure still. even after three years of dating—now engaged— he still manages to make your heart skips and create butterflies in the pit of your stomach,

“I know” you reply in confidence, winking at him which he chuckles in return. “and yes it is! it’s SKIMS! got it yesterday, does it look good on me?”

he frowns, tilting his head to the side. “baby, you already know the answer to that come on now… you make anything look sexy.” he strides closer to you as he stands from behind you, “now, què necesitas?” he questions, resting his hands on his hips

you find it attractive how he towers over you, and it’s one thing that you love about him. it’s not that you’re petite or anything. but compared to how tall and big he is, you’re definitely tiny.

“straighten my hair for me please? I can’t reach it” you pout at him through the mirror, “just this part right here” fingers move to the back to touch part of your hair,

“ay dios mio, woman… you’re lucky i love you” he teases before grabbing the iron from the sink. “going out with the girls, mami? i assume lunch?” he asks as he starts parting your hair with one hand,

your head shakes, straightening the dress. “no, I’m doing cake testing today and wedding dresses … Darla is bringing three more flavors.”

he stops what he’s doing, giving you a confused look. “alone? cariño why didn’t you tell me? you know I’d come with you” he feels a bit disappointed and now guilty that he’s busying himself with work and instead you’re left dealing with your wedding, alone.

his hand rests on your shoulder and you move yours on top of him. “hey, it’s okay, Miggy… you’ve been so stressed lately i do not want to put more pressure… it was last minute anyway, she texted me this morning.”

“you’re my girl, i would never be too busy for you.” he says almost too fast,

giving him a sincere smile, you nod your head. “yes… i know, baby. trust me it’s okay…plus it’s bad luck for the groom to see his bride in a wedding dress” you giggle a bit. “we can go over the seating arrangements again together, yeah? i promise” you plant a soft kiss on his finger,

Miguel exhales a sigh, still feeling tiny bit upset that he won’t be there to keep you company. “okay, fine… tell Darla that keep vegan options open for the cakes.”

“noted, honey.” you tell him as he continues to straighten your hair, “is everything okay with work?”

he nods, eyes too fixated on your long hair, not wanting to mess up a single strand. “just running over a few reports and fixing few minor defects on the techs and my suit…the last guy did quite a number on me.”

“hmm i love it when you speak science to me” you comment, watching him laugh a bit at your flirty remark. “but you still need to be careful. i do not want to see my future husband all bruised up when i walk down that aisle or else I’ll leave your ass.” your tone comes off demanding and firm, but it’s only because you care.

“yes ma’am” he replies, setting down the hot object down on the sink before slowly running his fingers through your hair. “there you go, baby” he moves your hair to the front, kissing your cheek and seeing you smile just makes him happy. knowing he’s done a great job.

turning around to face him, you stand on your toes to kiss his lips. “thank you, miggy… I’ll see you later, okay? we can go grab dinner outside and then movie night at 9?”

his heart warms at that and lips stretches into a large grin. “sounds like a plan.” then he lightly slaps your ass as you walk out of the door,

“let me know if there’s going to be bunch of assholes staring at you today, I’ll hunt them down and fucking kill them on the spot.” he mentions as if it’s nothing

and they say romance is dead.

-

cake testing with miggy!

#miguel o’hara blurbs #miguel o’hara fluff #miguel o’hara x reader #miguel o'hara