#pillcase

[kirk-goes-to-gallifrey]

today is a feeling really bad for no reason kinda day apparently

#everything SUCKS #I have a pit in my stomach (anxiety??) #self-loathing levels are pretty high too #and strangely enough I'm not about to have my period (checked my pillcase and it's not even close to that time of the month) #maybe the omelette I cooked for lunch was too oily? and now I feel slightly nauseous #also had a not-so-comfortable exchange at a group chat #but I'm probably overreacting #it's probably fine but I feel sooooooooo bad #goddamn it #I need to concentrate at my fucking report #but I can't #I want to be unconscious #and I need to learn how to SHUT UP

[jennhoney]

PUNK AS FUCK

#show us your pillcase! #throws beads #jennhoney personal log

[ineffectualdemon]

I would appreciate it if the headmate who is hiding my shit would fucking STOP

#mondays pillcase has gone and my loops have magically disappeared from their carry case #i suspect one of the kids is to blame but i dont know which one #system talk #did/osdd

[zisurru-main]

not taking my hormone meds has definitely made me dumber. holy shit i can barely read a single sentence without losing focus

i didn’t understand what “brain fog” was until now this shit sucks

#don’t @ me i know. i’m a terrible patient #i’m filling my pillcase as we speak #i do need a new health insurance plan though #textpost

[angelicguy]

god i wish i was some kind of railroad tycoon in my 90s living on nothing but chicken fried steak and grits dabbing my head with a hankerchief going I will not let him PROSTITUTE myh,, I will not let him WHORE out my rails, by the gurhace of god, damn him, asunder, fuck *takes a drink of water and 4 white pills from an incredibly intricate silver pillcase*

[lafemmemacabre]

I've commented before the HUGE whiplash of having grown up in the 90s and 00s and now seeing younger people talking about subcultures that, despite having a fashion element, aren't fashion subcultures, only being about fashion.

The thing about how Back In My Day *knee joint noises and ibuprofen pills clacking inside my pillcase* no one would DARE say within anyone else's earshot that this or that non-fashion-based subculture was "just about fashion/looks/aesthetic" because, even if someone genuinely thought that, they'd be decimated to death even by normies. Like, even your conservative granny would berate you and tell you something along the lines of "Then why are you into something so shallow?"

Even when people were wrong about what was part of this or that subculture (which they often were), they were at least aware that the had some sort of substance somewhere; ideological, artistic, literary, spiritual, communal, political, or hell, at least at hobby level.

And to me the answer is simply that, while the mainstream has always tried to commodify alternative subcultures (and has many times succeeded at it), it wasn't really until the 2010s when this culture of embracing being all "head empty, no thoughts 🤪" and nothing being "that deep" as a form of the most useless and least threatening rebellion possible was solidified as a standard position to showcase one's cool detachment, which coincidentally only goes SO well with late stage capitalism and today's culture of instant gratification.

It's not "cool" to care about things having any substance anymore. It's actually very fucking cringe to care deeply about anything, as opposed to the 90s "be real" culture that came along the grunge and gangsta Rap explosions and continued to a lesser degree with 00s once Indie Rock becoming more and more mainstream.

Now, you're cool, detached and enlightened if you go "Who cares, dude? It's just a costume I put on for fun, why do you care?"

It's all about the instant brr of an outfit you can upload to get likes for or of a TikTok filter that will give you the look of a 90s goth queen in pixel form. And these are the new kids who get REALLY mad that someone actually loves the life that the glorified carcass they're parading around used to hold.

[calvin-arium]

Crip Recs !

May I introduce you to the lifehack that freed half of my brain this year ?

A whiteboard next to my meds supply, where I write the hour I took my last painkillers !! I always know when I can have the next dose. I used to memorize the hour and do maths in my head all the time, not very clever of me.

This is the DIY version of a classic : the electronic pillcase that tells you when it was last opened.

I take most of my painkillers by injection so it was not appropriate for me to have a smart pillcase, otherwise I would have considered it.

If you have your smartphone always always on you, there are many apps remiding you of your regular meds or letting you note when you took painkillers. I used Medisafe for a while, I liked it because you can register the shape and color of your meds to help you !

#Crip Recs #cripple punk #chronic illness

[jerseyclown]

save me pillcase edible

[vorpalswxrd]

what’s in riddle’s bag?

(inspired by the activity in the discord) 

THE BAG; a black backpack with a red rose damask pattern on the frontmost, small pocket. has one side pocket (for a water bottle) and boasts padded shoulder straps for better ergonomics. the main body is real leather. his mother bought it for him after he got into nru. 

WHAT’S IN IT; a white enamel water bottle with riddle’s name embossed along the bottom in gold cursive (small, so as not to be gaudy). three a5 spiral notebooks in cream, black, and red. (these are rotated out depending on what subjects riddle has that day) a small, leather pen wrap. rolls out flat - has space for up to twelve (12!) pens/pencils. a small weekly pillcase, religiously refilled. a small novel (enrichment reading is important!). a plastic baggie of hedgehog treats. (name brand) a red, hard glasses case, with riddle’s reading glasses inside. (wire framed). a small pouch filled with various bits and bobs. (chargers, bandaids, etc) 

#meta post

[flipchild]

ok dosing plan to have one little edible at night for sleep is better but still my immoderation does not play nice with it. strike it from the board maybe or use my spare pillcase to keep track if nothing else

[yami-mazda]

[Id 1: a picture of a My Melody pillcase shaped like a suitcase with My Melody dressed like a nurse and taking care of two stuffed animals on the front.

Id 2: the pillbox is open, showing jewelry with various yamikawaii/menhera themes in each of the compartments. The jewelry includes syringe earings, a coffin earring, a Hello Kitty angel necklace, heart shaped locket, a razor necklace, and a pink kandi bracelet that reads quote "self care bear" endquote. End ids.]

Oooh, the My Melody nurse pillcase? For your pills?

WRONG. Emergency menhera kit.

#additional context: i usually bring kits with makeup or accessories with me to doll up after my drs appointments #i cant wear jewelry makeup or nice clothes to my appointments for various reasons #so its nice to reclaim my humanity a little after i leave #plus you never know when any alter will front post appointment and want some of their comfort objects lol #my medical #ish #my posts

[jinxedlucky]

Update everyone we are going back to literally sleeping with my pillcase in bed next to my pillow so that I am Sure to take my meds

#personal bullshit #medical bullshit #really should be using that tag more #anyways i feel like death and havent had a good night's sleep since i left my moms

[cesium-sheep]

I have been completely nonfunctional today, above and beyond my normal level of severe disability and not in a manner indicative of an acute/short term flare. like, barely able to move at all. so I ran it past arin and I will probably start taking my prednisone stash tomorrow. I have 33 10mg pills, every other day is a safer bet for long term effects than just further lowering the dose so I don't have to halve them I just have to set my pillcase properly, and I'm just looking for a tiny shred of basic functionality not rocket fuel anyway, so that's 66 days. I will be back in washington in 50 days and can schedule an appointment for shortly after with an actual primary care provider who probably won't know shit but at least will have access to my records and be able to prescribe me shit.

I should retake the sf-36 now before I start taking the prednisone. cuz I bet it's real bad. it's been single digits for months anyway.

[consistently-unimpressed]

shit I'm currently annoyed about:

having to fill in "why are you the person to tell this story?" while doing a novel query like...because I wrote it???? how is this a question just read my synopsis like a normal person

my ability to remember to bring my pillcase but not REFILL IT BEFORE LEAVING?!

turf war between dogs and cat that requires a DMZ hallway

#me #midtwenties life

[ittakesrain]

Thanksgiving was nice ⭐️ we have dinner with our friends tonight still, and I need to make a few side dishes, but other than that the chaos is done

I’m excited for ✨the new week✨ to start bc I was super motivated last week and I wanna make sure I’m utilizing that spurt of energy to its fullest

Sunday: I get my wedding gown with my mom!, laundry, refill pillcase, clean and organize for the week

Monday: therapy <3, call psychiatrist about adderall, call rheumatologist for referral, Substack writing, stretch and exercise

Tuesday: physical therapy, Substack writing, order Christmas gifts, vacuum floors, email someone at MHAW about app

… and so on

#new week #almost a new month #almost a new year #feeling motivated #let’s gooo

[campfire-collective]

recently moved from a weekly pillcase to one with removable daily containers and i'm really enjoying it

#mine #mod hearth #at first i was upset about it #but the daily ones are so much smaller and easier to carry #and it's nice to have things sorted into morning/evening