#personal bullshit

[dearshelby]

*Serves the afternoon tea for the Shelby family in these*

#arthur and i fighting for the barely functional cup lol #my pinterest showed me this i immediately had to share #personal bullshit

[evanbi-ckley]

May 2023 treat you kindly

May you rest

May you feel joy

May you have fun

May you spend time in your hobbies

May you read and write and draw, paint, dance, sing

May you treat your body and mind with kindness

May you give yourself grace

May you find your People

May you eat well

May you live

May 2023 be the soft, peaceful year you've been craving

And may you find happiness in the smallest details

#personal bullshit #poetry #my poetry #2023 #for my pocket friends #may your year be exactly what you need #jo writes

[alectoperdita]

hi

#i logged back in to toggle settings cuz of the third-party stuff #i feel like a feral creature unfit to speak to other human beings much less socialization #isolation's a hell of a drug #kinda just afraid to look at anything or be anywhere or be perceived #the sad part is i kinda yearn to talk to people/do fandom again but i'm. utterly. terrified. #waiting for permission that will never come lol #yeah i'm still pathetic sorry #personal bullshit

[jinxedlucky]

The most heartbreaking and heartwarming thing I did at work today was walking my teenage coworker through Sugar Is Not Scary And You Are Not Going To Drop Dead From The Chemicals And Sugar In Coke. There Is Chlorine And Fluoride In Your Water And You Want That. TikTok Is Fearmongering And Lying To You. Also I'm So Proud Of You For Having A Healthy Relationship With Food To The Point You Don't Understand How Someone Could Ever Have An ED. And then of course. Explained why I had an ED. She asks me the most insanely out of left field shit and then we go on an Adventure of Knowledge and Learning.

#personal bullshit #work bullshit

[hibiscus-misery-pills]

Another thought…

What if… in the sagau/isekai, what if reader was an idiot and ended up pregnant from a one night stand and decided, “fuck it, we ball.” Type of mentality and decide to keep the baby. And reader is randomly isekai’d or sagau into another world, while pregnant…

Just imagine… so you’re still in your first trimester and you ended up in their world… short story of how it’ll go.

Twst wonderland- They freak out, the overseer pregnant when? And how? They’re all f-f-freaking out, (sorry not sorry for using that troll 3 reference). “Whos the baby daddy?” -Ace, prob. He prob got collared but it’s alright, it’s just Ace. All housewarden decides to step up and tries to steal the spotlight as the potential father figure for your child. To make matters worser, it’s just not the housewarden, it’s everyone fighting for that spot. The staff fighting for their spot as the grandpapi, and what not. Reader guaranteed banned Crowley lmao.

Roles they play while your prego :)

Designated cook for your cravings: Trey, Jamil, Azul, Jade, and Vil. Always know what to cook for you when cravings happens, even if it’s in the dead of the night. (Except Vil, he refuses cause it’ll “ruin his sleep schedule” until Trein threatens to have rook replace Vil lmao, W Trein)

Designated bodyguards >:)) : Jack, Deuce, Rook, Leona, Malleus, Floyd, Epel (Let him feel manly), Lilia (He tried to sneak into the kitchen), Silver, Sebek, and Ace. These people are essentially your bodyguards no matter how much you protest, much more of the teasers like Ace and Lilia, reader prob threaten to hang out with deuce over Ace, he became just a tad bit nicer.

Designated friends :3 : Kalim!, Ortho, Idia, riddle, Cater, Braincell duo, ruggie, and of course fae boi malleus. Your bestest friends! These people are the ones to walk with you, heck they even sometimes offer to carry you(which makes the others jealous despite the fact you decline their offers)

The staff?s? : These people are practically your family, they act like uncles and fathers to you. (Except Crowley) Crowley tried to be your “father” be claiming that he’s much more gracious than other staff members, (Idia turned him into a meme) with trein about to deck Crowley for trying to seem better when he’s not. (Yk, despite the fact the trein is old, the old man seems capable of decking people just because,) otherwise these mens are protective like a father would with his daughter. Sam being the only uncle.

The ghosts : Their your light house, they warn you when others are coming to ramshackle. They really do nothing but comfort and watch out for you. To them, your like an unintentional child tossed into their lives. They’re just the best really.

A small scenario of how things would go…

You’re hands shakey, holding the positive pregnancy test…shit, how did this even happen, you knew better than to fuck around, how would you tell your parents and friends, let alone notify the one night stand that he’s your baby daddy?

Taking a deep breath, you decide who cares, hopefully things ends up okay? Grabbing your phone, inhaling sharply, you call your friends, while they seemed concerned they congrats you and even asks who’ll be the godfather/godmother/godparent, where as your parents, not so happy, “you’re in college, how can you get pregnant?”, with your mental mindset already as a ‘fuck it we ball’ type shit, you decide you have your friends support, it’s enough to get you through this.

Soon, you’re three months pregnant…barely, at least you’re a few weeks closer to the second trimester…

You get up to use the bathroom, but when you swing your bathroom door open, and walk back into your room, it’s not your room anymore…. The room is dark, cold, the blinds barely hanging onto the window, curtains slightly rip but still usable, the windows seems frail, you look to your left and see a cold large bed the wall with two nightstands that are barely holding up.

You see what seems to be a Victorian like desk at the semi circle window area, the bed seems undone as well, almost like someone got out of it in a rush, but at least the lamps look good in shape, and the electricity seems to run pretty good too. Hopefully, you can find a heater to warm the house.

Confused as hell, you turned on the lamp on nightstand and take in your surroundings, ‘where the hell am I?’ You think to yourself, your brought out of your thoughts when you hear shuffling from the blankets, “Nya henchhuman! Whats taking you forever and why ya turn on the lamps!?” A black cat with blue flames pop from the blankets, you backed up surprised, and the cat does the same, except its mouth it hanging open.

“Nya! It’s the overseer/creator! You’ve finally arrived! Tha name iz Grim!”

You were quick to hush the cat named grim, to prevent alerting anything or anyone. After some interrogation, you quickly accept the fact you’re in your favorite game twisted wonderland to prevent stressing yourself. Who knows maybe you’ll wake up tomorrow and find yourself back in your original room.

But when you don’t you genuinely begin to stress, but the cat is quick to comfort.

“Nya! Don’t stress! Itz not healthy for mini you!!” Grim scold slightly, arms crossed…

…H-how… did the cat knew..?? You’re faced pale as you looked at the cat in horror, Grim seemed to notice and he points at his ears, “I can hear the heartbeats ya know, I was snuggling up to your stomach like always and heard the tiny heartbeats.” Grim gives an explanation, which made you relaxed, you almost forgot he was a cat.

You open what seems to be a broken yet still operating wardrobe and find a few outfits your size somehow, Grim explained their from your doll, which went into the bathroom and disappeared, he checked the house for the vessel, it seemed to vanish without a trace.

A familiar bag catches your eyes, it’s your school bag, except when you open it, it’s completely dark, almost an endless void, you shrugged and reached in and you pulled out… your phone!!! You can transfers things from your real world to this world!!! You decided to test your luck and have grim set it on fire, it’s invincible too!!!

You open your phone and the time and dates changed as well, but opening the calendar was your biggest regret, most holidays didn’t even exist, only Halloween and a few other you didn’t know.. guess you’ll reintroduce…

“Nya were late!! Professor crewel is gunna murder us!!!” Grim panicked not really a fan of detention apparently… your phone show that it was a Wednesday, going through the wardrobe of your ‘vessel’, you pull out what seems to be a black school outfit, putting it on, and slipping on the matching shoes, you grab your bag, and dip for class.

Not knowing this place, you dread, putting arms around your stomach just in case, grim goes onto the details for you, you’re in a all boy school, and you’re the only female in the school, and shows the way or points the direction of your classes, pulling up to this professor crewel class seems to take time, fearing on what the hell to do.

Opening his classroom door softly, all eyes fall on you, “Yuu! Your late-“ This professor stops midway, when he realizes, “You’re not yuu, you’re-“ He pulls you out of class, he’s shocked to find the actual ‘creator/overseer’ here, he don’t know how to introduce you, since everyone will immediately know you and instantly start bombarding you with questions, or others like malleus would instantly drop to his knees.

Professor crewel comes back into the classroom and seats you directly at his desk for temporary, trying to find a safe spot in the classroom to put you without you being overwhelmed or near the housewarden or vice housewardens as they can be a bit… obnoxious…

Azul ashengrotto being in the same class speaks out, “Professor Crewel, may I ask, why are you having Yuu sitting at your desk? Perhaps sudden favor?” Azul asks, hoping to try to rope his professor intoca contract soon but that idea crumbles when you swivel the comfy chair and Azul gets a glimpse of your face, all three hearts of his stops for a second, it can’t be? The creator/overseer is here?

With many insisting you sit with them, the poor professor opted to seat you at his desk…temporarily..

With that life in twisted wonderland started, other schools got word of you actually being here and not some vessel, now that the news of your presence announced and everyone going batshit insane for you, you decide to hide the pregnancy… will you be able to hide it for long though?

#twisted wonderland #sagau #reader insert #azul ashengrotto #twst grim #preggie #personal bullshit #twst #disney twst

[roguemetalmaster13]

My bf agreed to be Zagreus if I cosplay Thanatos at con

#it’s great for our personalities too #personal bullshit #thanzag

[heckylapologist]

TW: Shawn, Racism, Ableism, Manipulation

Hello everyone. I didn't want to make this post, but I feel like it's finally time i speak out about this horrible person. They go by @shawnthevampire on here. She is very popular within the Jacksepticeye community and she is a horrible person. She is Racist, Ableist, narcissistic and manipulative. This is gonna take a while..

Shawn is manipulative. She lies and gaslights people to get her own way. She once lied about one of my friends to try to convince me that he didn't care about me, saying things like "He's a rich shit" and "Why would a rich shit care about a couple of poor, mentally disabled biological females?" She did this a lot. She manipulates and lies, and then deletes all evidence of it every happening. Not to mention if your trauma is not the exact same as hers, she will invalidate it either to your face or behind your back. Personal experience: I was having a panic attack and she said it was amusing.

She silences anyone who disagrees with her. On Discord, if you say something she doesn't like? Timeout. Try to diffuse an argument? Timeout. I once got timed out for a week because I was defending my brother from her bullying. But she got rid of it a few hours later. You cannot say ANYTHING to her that she doesn't like, or.. doesn't have. If there is something she doesn't/can't have or something she just doesn't like, You can't talk about it. One time me and my friends were talking about "Amanda the Adventurer" and she banned us from talking about it all together because she didn't like it! She abused her power so much, and the changed the rules to her own server so it was convenient for her. For example, She could talk about politics but if you tried to it was against the rules and you weren't allowed.

She's abelist. Shawn will probably deny this as she is autistic, but being autistic does not give you an excuse to being abelist. I had one person tell me how she made fun of them for being hard of hearing. And there is a whole tumblr thread where she got involved in an argument over the Jacksepticeye ego character, Jameson Jackson. She says she hates her brother all because he's more autistic than her so he needs to be taken care of a little more. She went on a whole rant about how much she hates her brother and her parents, who bend over backwards to her will and anything she wants. She treats the people close to her like shit and with disrespect with no regard to the fact that they are human and have feelings too.

She is racist. Oh ho ho ho. Shawn is racist. Because why wouldn't she stop at being abelist? I have a couple of examples. On roblox she said to someone "Bro is black Irl" because they were apparently harassing her. Then she tried to defend it when called out by saying that "History is built up on racism" and that people should be used to racsim by now. The second example is she defends the infamous app "Temu" like she is the creator herself. After me and my friends sent her multiple piece of evidence that Temu still people's data, she just turns a blind eye and has blocked people over it. When defending the app she said, and I quote, "Also, if the USA truly cared about our Internet safety, they'd stop allowing apps from other countries to be approved onto the app store". And that this was all because Temu is a Chinese company, and that all the products are cheap and "suspicious" is because its a Chinese company.

Boundaries aren't a thing to her. If you are uncomfortable by a joke she's making and you tell her, she just thinks it's funny and does it more. These mainly include sexu@l jokes. And uh, here's a personal experience. I had a crush on a friend and I told her about it, she proceeded to give me a deadline to tell them my feelings and then decided to tell them behind my back anyway.

This is just on Discord and a couple things on Tumblr. She also caused things on Wattpad but I don't have the patience or energy to get into that.

Please do not go and bully Shawn or anyone involved in this situation. If people need proof, I'll post it on Twitter. Thank you everyone.

#shawnthevampire #blocked #personal bullshit

[saintends]

Well... over a decade of constant battle in and out of the hospital, diagnosis after heavy diagnosis and still somehow defying the odds- all over in an instant this morning. My dad is gone.

#personal bullshit #he was only 64 and that's a lot more than some get but it still sucks immensely to lose him this early. #he always tried to play it off like he was so tough he didn't feel pain but the past few months were absolute hell. #im still conflicted as i love him but he was a very difficult person... he often made me feel inadequate or useless. #for now im just trying to carry out his wishes and get him the service he wanted. i will keep my mom and sister as safe and sane as possible

[benrybenrybenry-chr]

dude EVERY Sherlock Holmes discord server is the most stressful environment for someone like me to be in I swear- I'm not used to big public servers where anyone can see your opinions and every channel HAS to be used in a specific way and if your conversation drifts you have to move like holy. shit

the chill autistic man's nightmare, additional anxiety about not being where you're meant to be in a DISCORD SERVER

#personal bullshit #like most people are really nice but mods freak me out #maybe thats cuz I have a fear of authority and my experience with discord mods is the opposite of pleasant #but jesus fuck #I dont like having to move channels every time a conversation naturally drifts #idk idk I only use personal servers so im not used to that kind of environment #I mean I totally get it #people want their servers properly organized so thate fair but just doesnt mix with me LMAO #anyways this is my complaining party over #might make a server of my own so that it can be a bit more chill

[dearshelby]

a horny observation I'm ashamed of making under the cut:

In EVERY SINGLE sex scene, Tommy has a hand in his partner's leg and he's pushing UP, it doesn't change regardless of how he feels about them, the man just likes to go deep ksksksksksks

#*looks at myself in the mirror* really? during easter lora? #yeah... 😔 #tommy shelby x reader #personal bullshit

[senselessalchemist]

finally have an actual job so maybe I can stop being a hermit and get officially divorced and feel sort of financially stable and possibly try dating again and get a cat ??? is that allowed? no I probably shouldn't unless I get a bigger place and can have two cats to be friends

downside is when the fuck am I supposed to draw dumb comics if I'm working for hours and hours a day? Hell and suffering on earth. maybe i should get an iPad or a whatthefuck ever and draw on the commute so I don't lose even more of my meager art skills

#personal bullshit #i have never had what is traditionally considered a Real Job #this is my first 8 to 4 type job #tbqh if i could have just done teaching assistant work without the whole grad student shit that would have been cool #but i just couldn't anymore #no one there helped me when i needed it #a super huge fuck you to all of the mandatory training i had to do re: intimate partner violence and abuse #well anyway it's fucking done and who cares if i wasted 8ish years of my only life (: #now i get to help people make babies #which is not at all what i thought i would do #but hey at least it feels meaningful #and i get to wear scrubs all the time which is nice because they're kind of shapeless and make me look slightly more masc esp with binding #wonder if i could donate oocytes #im sure as fuck not gonna use them #might be too old tho #give bad eggs #also might have too much testosterone in my system now #0 idea how that works except at some point they expect me to stop menstruating #but my dumb reproductive parts are too strong too powerful will not be stopped by some pitiful exogenous T #anyway i really need to try to sleep #and stfu #but yeah maybe i can think about moving and getting 2 cats

[alectoperdita]

yesterday morning there was only one meeting on my calendar for today (or maybe that was wishful thinking). but now there are four today. ;;;;w;;;;;

#personal bullshit #kiiiiiiiiiiiill meeeeeeeeee!

[neighborhoodghoul]

You've all inspired me to think about my own characters and stories again. Working on my art has been so healing.

#personal bullshit

[aces-to-apples]

so my phone is completely fucked, if anyone tries to message me here or on discord in the next couple weeks. well. i won't see it until my late evenings.

#by apples #personal bullshit

[styxnbones]

i am once more beset by Agonies (realizing that the fun and funky character trait i gave an oc and congratulated myself for being so creative with was actually just projection again)

#damn those attachments can issue #personal bullshit

[shelbydelrey]

i know i don't own this to anyone but i'm struggling a little bit at the moment mentally, as i'm sure some of you are too, and because of that i'm not being able to catch up with your stories/fics. they are piling up but i don't want to rush anything and not give my full attention to something you guys spent time to craft.

know that i love this fandom and everyone that's part of it and i want to thank you for for dedicating time and love to create something beautiful and inspiring 🤗 you guys are simply the best 😘

#personal bullshit