#people seeing my shit is scary

[an-idiot-has-appeared]

oh shit its been so long that i forgot about the follow up to twitter posting anxiety- the “not looking at twitter now because i fear knowing what happened”

its schrodingers twitter post, if i dont look at it, then it mightve been seen by nobody, or it mightve been seen by like 3 people total. 

either way. 

i am afraid. 

#i know its irrational but man im getting chills about checking twitter #like the person i was drawing fanart for liked it the last time around so i feel like thats giving me expectations #that are really only setting me up for disappointment #like i know its very unlikely that itll happen again but even without #people seeing my shit is scary #but also no one seeing it is scary #everythings scary and i simply wish to fly away like a tiny puff of a bird #twitter

[meatcatt]

@skyistheground had an idea for an isa loop au and this is how I interpreted it

#my art #in stars and time #isat #isat isabeau #isabeau #isa loop au #hollow don't look #tw gun #i imagine this happens at the end of act three after the king scene with bonnie #i know that sky meant 'seeing isa beat the shit out of people would be scary after he's just support guy' #but i think he deserves a gun #as a treat #isat spoilers

[godbirdart]

literally why would i want to poison my brain immersing myself in petty internet drama all day when i can go outside see the sun and seek out the positive activities that are actually beneficial for my mental health

#people that feel compelled to argue with strangers you'll never meet irl: why would you do that to yourself #some of my mutuals are Really far gone down the virtue-signal internet drama [xyz is Gross i would never do xyz] rabbit hole #and it's kinda scary to see tbh #i've caught MYSELF suddenly getting a little combative and immediately i shut that shit down #twitter has changed people for the worse in the sense that they're more hostile than they used to be #i'm referring to petty shit that could've been solved through DMs or through a simple block and walk away #not like #actual warranted warnings and shit #gotta specify yknow

[tariah23]

This is such a harmful sentiment to push considering that you don’t necessarily have to be “attractive,” (beauty is subjective, yada yada) in order for men to want to harm you in the slightest… like man, what…

#the lady talks about being followed and harassed and so on as if every woman and girl in the world regardless of their age and #‘good looks’ #hasn’t experienced this and will continue to #I hate when these girls especially ones who are conveniently attractive talk about stuff like this under the guise of speaking for all #women while x-ing out most women #this easily leads into the realm of ‘you’re too ugly/fat to be assaulted ANYWAY-‘ #talk that I see spread by misogynists and bird brained women like it’s such a natural thing to even say it’s actually rly scary #especially when it comes to the assault shit which is usually about power and control anyway #they don’t care what you look like #you could be covered up head to toe and someone would try to hurt you just because #I hate when women like this go online thinking that they said something open their mouths I really do #rambling #tw assault #got dudes in the comments going ‘she’s not even pretty anyway she’s like a 4 out of 10’ #completely missing the message (as if they care) and see #these are the kinds of people that stuff like this attracts #stuff like this coming out of a woman’s mouth especially is so dangerous #I don’t think I’m the most good looking person in the world and I’ve been followed sm times I had to run away from a guy once and luckily #my bus was right fucking there!!! #then the guy who was harassing me years ago at a bus stop and forced me to hug him and touched my butt and no one else was around to help #me… #and he kept on trying to get me to go back to his apartment around the corner like that was so #the man who followed me into the store as I was shopping and I noticed that he kept on staring at me #then tried to holla and he looked way older than me and I think he was a pastor or something too he had a nice car and tried to get me to #come with him #sm more incidents over the years like this is crazy pls don’t say stuff like this and act like it’s normal #someone in the comments said that people like the woman in the video think that being pretty will free them from the patriarchy and like… #YEAH 😭 #it’s so obvious too lmfao #these be the same women calling themselves ‘girls girls’’

[ask-the-rag-dolly]

// okay but actually knowing that the ending isn't totally tragic makes it way less scary to get involved. Certain "bad ends" can be terrible for people with past experience, so knowing that eventually it will get better is relieving to say the least.

yeah i do actually have phase 2's ending planned out and i'll say that it's a lot more positive and hopeful . i mean it's not a happily ever after or something but we'll see some character development

i guess i'm throwing out all of these reassurances because - i think it's apparent already but phase 2 will have considerably darker topics ( trauma , identity crises and whatever 00 has going on to be specific ) , and i fully believe that the message i'm going for will be shattered if it ends badly . she'll be alright /genuine .

#[ ooc ] #these are not my first time touching on those topics so the scary part for me honestly is just #seeing people get hopeless over it ?? like i guess it just feels like it's expected of me to pull out the worst shit possible when i'm #just a type of writer that enjoys kicking down their faves and dismantling their walls so they'll be forced to face the root of their issue #i always found more enjoyment in characters becoming vulnerable in the lowest point of their life and being pulled out of it . #sorry for the ramble in the tags lol i just really want to put this out there

[crabussy]

I think mmmmaybe. less than 5000 followers might be better for my scared mammal mind

#I LOVE YOU GUYS AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT WHEN I POST SILLY SHIT !!!!!!!! I APPRECIATE ALL OF YOU #BUT UM????? SCARY TO ME. AND VERY STRANGE #THANK YOU NEVERTHELESS #listen to my gibberish boy #I neeeed to get better at. thinking about how many people see what I post. because my god I love being cringe #BUT WHEN THAT MANY PEOPLE SSSSEEEEEE MY CRINGE???? IT TAKES A POWERFUL HEART AND SOUL TO POST IT. #its okay. my whimsy unbeatable

[pansyfemme]

yeah i am straight up not having a good time lately

#im so fucking lonely #and its easier to just yell into the void here than talk to anyone else #because i just feel so pathetic and i fucking hate when people get worried about me because im so past that but im so sick and tired of #being alone as the default. im getting better socially but im still such a coward #and i hate being home because when im not doing well my parents go into panic mode and start babying me because they dont want me to relaps #or anything like that but it just makes me feel so stupid for even being depressed by #like i fucking hate this and i hate anyone worrying about me at all #and im tired of seeing people who knew me when i was younger saying how miraculous my recovert was and my parents telling me that they didnt #expect me to be able to go to college and knowing they were looking into long term facilities for me because i hate everything i was and i #genuinly belive i have not gotten better at all ive just stopped telling the professionals the scary shit #im so tired and so lonely and so stressed

[peppermintpegis]

netflix one piece live action feels a little like fanfic in that it makes sure it hits all the important notes but doesnt do all the work to make them hit which works in fic where the reader is supposed to bring all the emotional story investment from the original but doesnt work in a multi million adaptation that is supposed to be able to stand on its own or even serve as an intro to the series. it even does this in service to have more koby and helmeppo gay moments in this essay i w

#one piece #opla #the fleshing out of koby and helmeppo is like honestly good its a beacon of light its truly really fun #and all the actors are great it is just what they are given . #they didnt let nami do any real betraying. they didnt even have her steal the merry!! she just stole the map that they added in!!!! #ddont get me started on the gutting of sanjis intro. i dont give a shit about if don krieg appears or not i need to see this guy fuckin #feed the hand thats about to kill him im going to start shaking like a dog. #im almost madder krieg appeared for just a little id rather have that time be used for. anything else really. #like have one of arlongs guys starved half to death when they get to arlong park!or idk anything! no gin appears look its gin! you know him #sanji doesnt even get to beat the shit out of a shitty guest. like i guess he does a little but it feels so blink and you miss it #+the first like two eps were good!! buggys great hes scary and weird and fun. i dont mind that he sticks around longer in theory #but the way he is comedic relief instead of basically every character having funny bits is like. ahghhhgggg. its a symptom of this really #mean and edgy feeling the whole thing has. like the removal of people missing usopps pirate calling :( and how cocoyashi didnt know #nami was working to help them. like p. please. can we have caring and bonds in this world?? trust and love??? #anyway. sorry for having expectations of a netflix show im so close to putting this into a more proper form rather than tags. just to get i #all out of my system cause fuck man. #anyway solid 7/10 not as bad as it couldve been

[danielverstappen]

I totally get people not liking drivers or not liking them as much as they used to for whatever reason, but if that reason is that he’s too old to act the way he does or if his age is a general reason for whatever opinion you might have..that just makes me sad. I thought the whole point of life was to grow up and keep enjoying life. Do we sign our own obituaries at 30?

#yes this is about daniel #it just makes me so sad to see people not liking him for reasons that are human #he’s too much #he acts like a kid #he smiles too much #wtf? #if you ask me he’s literally the most human out of all the drivers and has been through some real shit #and now he’s being made fun of for putting in the work? and trying to achieve his goals? and ENJOYING LIFE? #i really don’t mean to call anyone out i’m just in my feelings and growing up is scary #daniel ricciardo #formula 1

[gaylittleguys]

I hate it when people make posts or whatever like ‘ugh 🙄 I can’t believe I’m a MAN 🤢🤮 I grew up thinking I was woman and women are so great and pretty and I’m just a gross stinky man ew’ like ok. speak for yourself I love being a man it fucking rules. trans masculinity is awesome. you sound like you need to sort those feelings out for yourself dude.

#I feel like this was really pervasive when I was early in figuring out my gender #and sucks to see it’s still around lol #hey guys you don’t have to berate yourself for being a man to try and seem ‘no threatening’ or ‘not like those scary cis men’ it’s ok #same when people are like UGH I HATE being attracted to men smh 😔 sexuality isn’t a choice bc why would I have chosen being attracted to men #alright. #I love being attracted to men and I love being a guy #skill issue I guess #.doc #delete later #sorry I’m just annoyed #also this shit sucked to hear when I was figuring things out #same rhetoric that scares people off from taking testosterone #‘aaa you don’t want to take t it’ll make you scary and masculine :((((‘ #I don’t give a shit about not being a ‘pretty girl’ anymore I’m MUCH happier being a weird hairy guy #trans queer masculinity rules actually idk what to tell you #love you trans men love you gay/bi/queer men #and folks who are kind of men too

[front-facing-pokemon]

#manectric #i woke up at like noon today y'all i'm queuing this after work. i forgot about it all day and i was about to hop on totk #but i got the reminder to do it. so here i am. with manectric #el woowoo‚ if you will #a lot happened. yesterday. it was not a very good day. which is why i woke up so late. it was a little bit rough. but i guess it's a new day #so. it'll get better. planning on Not Doing Shit today or tomorrow to compensate for all the Bullshit that happened yesterday #hoping you all are doing well. one week from today (friday june sixteenth) i'll be hopping on a flight for the first time in 10 years #looks like according to the queue this will actually go up the day before we leave. so‚ to you guys‚ i'll be heading out tomorrow #which is scary a little bit. last time i flew i had no idea i was autistic‚ but now that i've come up with a lot of better accommodations #for myself and i understand myself a lot better and my needs‚ i'm realizing a lot of my accommodations just aren't gonna make it through TSA #plus it's a lot of unfamilarity with unfamiliar people and an unfamiliar environment which i feel like is gonna lend itself to sensory #overload like Immediately and i'm probably gonna get a headache bc that's how it manifests for me #so when we get there i'm probably gonna have to run to the nearest pharmacy. and grab some shit. which is annoying! so. i'm a little #worried. about the trip. NONE OF HTIS IS ABOUT MANECTRIC SORRY #this is a pokémon i have a hard time caring about outside of its involvement as the leader of the electrike in amp plains #that's about it #any tips from frequent flyers who are autistic would be greatly appreciated. not even just about flying but about like. going to unfamiliar #places on the other end of the country and stuff. i feel like that's what i'm most worried about even though i'm worried abt all of it #also hi i'm writing these tags from day-of. like the actual day this is going to post. me from a week ago sure did know what she was talking #about! anyway. i'm. gonna like. take my meds now goodBye see you all when this Posts in a few hours

[spoonietimelordy]

I've talked about it many times, but every time I see someone intrumentalising the holocaust to defend the actions of Israel, I get sick. I literally feel like I'm gonna throw up every time I fall on someone doing that.

#charlie is rambling #seeing people use a genocide to excuse another is so scary #i have had stories from ww2 told to me since I was a child #my grandpa was 3yo he is now in his 80's with a brain cancer and he still remembers everything that happened #he remembers nazis coming to his home and forcing him to taste their food to see if it wasn't poisoned #I have so many stories of the torture used by nazis #my grandma's parents both died during that war #and then I'm seeing people instrumentalise that suffering and trauma to excuse enacting the exact same shit to another people #you absolut piece of shit #you do not care about the suffering of your ancestors #if you did you would not defend Israel #stopping antisemitism and the palestinian genocide are one and the same combat

[8cfc00]

something so deeply terrifying to me about productivity youtube...

#i watch a productivity yt video and instantly feel like dying #makes me feel like im not doing smth right despite my current organisational system working for me #people out here have their entire lives planned and analysed on an APP what the HELL #“daily reflections” dawg i cant even look at my physical reflection #idk it just feels a little scary #where is the space for randomness or rainy days or fucking around #you gotta fuck around to find out man.... i cant do this shit seeing it all laid out is super anxiety inducing #but whatever good for them. they r a different breed though i dont have it in me to “notion” or “obsidian”

[starredforlife]

sorry I’m just actually sick to death of being told I’m intimidating . I know it’s scary when a woman talks without apologizing for herself constantly but maybe uhhhhh grow up!!!

#I’m not Scary on purpose literally I don’t fucking. growl at people #I don’t glare at them or be mean #can I be condescending? sure. it’s something I’m working on. #but how is it that I get demonized for this and straight men get way with it fucking constantly. and it’s an accepted and sometimes beloved #part of them #if one more fucking person tells me I’m intimidating bc I speak clearly and ask questions I’m going to lose my fucking mind #star’s thoughts #sorry this is a culmination of a bunch of shit lol #just bc I’m not scared of you doesn’t mean you need to be scared of me 😭😭😭😭😭 pleaseeee #part of me is thinking I’ve just been experiencing like intense lesbophobia or smthn at this point bc what the fuck #do I do that offends people off the bat. #but then I remember how I Am and rumors are true I border on the line of arrogance I dance on the showboat I flirt harshly with confidence #I think I have an issue where people have to earn my respect in conversation #and that is rightfully intimidating. probably some kind of protective tactic #I command it but also I demand you Show Up upfront and I can see how that’s like. anxiety inducing #I’m shifting to try and offer that respect upfront instead and hopefully that’ll make people feel less on edge #this has been like. a mini diary. sorry lol

[pettyprocrastination]

thinking about a super hero who was once praised by all and treated like an absolute rock star: constant groupies, interviews, sponserships, endless fans every where that is now a washed-up “has been” despite the fact he can still punch through reinforced steel and rip aliens apart with his bare hands. He has a regular human assistant who puts him in his place and is absolutely detrimental to his mental health (he is so fucked up in the head <3)

#very 'the boys' esque but i was never that into homelander #also i can't find anthony starr attractive so. im making my own thats NOT a rapist #tj talks #anyways #in the age of super heroes and brand deals #his baby brother is actually the one that 'replaces' him #he's younger and leaner and 'prettier' by demographic standards: more down-to-earth and approachable but actually a HORRIBLE human being! #but our hero just. lounges around all day while annoying his assistant as she sits in his million dollar house and does menial paperwork #he's unassumingly threatening because he's been 'dormant' for so long people don't really see him as scary #but then one day he gets back into the field for a reason and people are like oh. oh my fucking god he's terrifying #probably has a police scanner he listens to when he's having a bad night so he can find somebody bad he can beat the shit out of #without feeling like he's doing something morally incorrect/still being a hero. he fucked up!

[bogunicorn]

reading the news is so exhausting bc at this point it's just wall-to-wall opinion pieces of z*onists saying the dumbest shit possible with their entire chests and then crying about how the entire world is against them because they invented a new definition for the word "genocide" and nobody with a partially working brain wants to adopt it

#bog post #politics #'you can't say that jewish people are capable of genocide!' #fun fact: yeah you totally can #bc 'genocide' is a definition for a set of behaviors #not predicated on faith #i don't see 'except when jewish people do it' scribbled under it #it's fucking embarrassing #this is not an invitation to shit on jewish people or judaism in my mentions btw #the existence of evil evangelicals isn't permission to decide every christian is a sociopath #ISIS is not permission to be islamophobic to random muslims #don't be a fucking shithead #stay salty #and frankly the non-zionist jews in your life could use some sympathy if you have it to spare #bc they're catching more hands than usual from people who were just looking for an excuse #also not for nothing but THIS is why Identity Politics Bad #bc people are so convinced that being CALLED bigoted is worse then BEING bigoted #that they'll breathlessly defend literal actual internationally recognized genocide #because that's less scary than the possibility of pro-genocide zionists calling them anti-semitic