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oldmanffucker · 1 month
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Anybody have tips for trying to find blog posts or essays or dissertations written by anyone in the last 2 decades about House MD and its explorations of Grief? I have to go to sleep rn but tomorrow I wanna search for that and so far a cursory yahoo and google searches aren’t looking too good, but I also know I’m not much of a researcher. Any tips (where to look, key words to use etc) would be greatly appreciated !
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dangaer · 2 years
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me whenever something irl inconveniences me: ok time to change up everything online. 
anyway making another long post because i’ve realised it’s coming up to 2023 and even though im a month early, im still plagued by the idea that a lot of my mutuals and i have been sitting just staring at each other across the dash like the li who’s route your on and the otome protag when you’re in the early stages without saying so much of a word to each other.
1.) ive been ... lowkey worried that the muse list i have is extremely long and therefore has made it difficult for people to reach out or simply pick the muses they want to write for the common fear that grips people when it comes down to it: picking a muse that they worry the multi didnt want to write with them. truthfully, know that whatever muse you’d pick, you’d never upset me. its the main reason why i have never, ever really picked any ‘primary’ / ‘main’ muses for this blog. however, in hopes that it does encourage people to pick the muses they want, or more importantly, don’t want to interact with at this moment in time. i’ve come up with a list of two muses who i will now try my best to default to if my mutuals pick to a fandom level, in hopes that if there is another(!) muse a mutual are far more interested in, they may feel more confident to pick so! these are as follows:
amnesia: shin & ikki. 
the arcana: asra & muriel
collar x malice: aiji & shiraishi
diabolik lovers: ayato & shu
obey me!: barbatos & lucifer
piofiore: nicola & dante. 
2.) i really need to be more open to giving out more in general. it’s probably my biggest flaw when it comes to rp, but i get caught up in my own fear of picking the wrong muse, thinking that i’m replying too late to people or simply just burying myself in drafts without thinking that people would like to plot / discuss / develop things out of whatever we’ve written together. to try my best(!) to conquer that, i’m implementing the way i’ve gone about things with my other blog. where if i do see a meme i think is suitable, i’ll send one in from a muse or two. no qualms if you’re not feeling up to replying about it or just don’t want to write with that particular muse. i’ll try sending one or two, but if recieving no reply will stop until because i don’t want to bombard anyone at all. i’m also going to take my time to reply to a lot of outstanding messages i have, unless the blogs archived / inactive. i’ve left a lot of people on read for a long time, so if you’re not feeling up to replying or continuing either, don’t feel pressured to. this includes discord, which means if you do wish to add me and continue something there, you can add me under: jupiter!#5567
3.) which ... the last point leads me into the big hole i find myself stuck in the most with this blog. this year i told myself would be the year i would be more proactive with confirming / asking if people wanted to pursue a ship ... but i def feel i have a couple of dynamics ive left in the entire will they / wont they bucket. and they’re ships i think i could definitely settle for as per my rules. if you do want to ship something, dont be afraid to let me know because i think, looking at it clearly, i probably ship it too ... otherwise, i am going to try my best to handle that fear of overstepping my boundaries where questioning where appropriate. the not knowing is fun but i am also so nervous in it if my muses become too flirtatious / interested in the process.
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dekuscrybaby · 4 years
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dancing bachata with him
pairing(s): iwaizumi x reader, nishinoya x reader, bokuto x reader, yamaguchi x reader, tendou x reader, oikawa x reader (all separate)
requested: no; just self-indulgent writing and i wanted a reason to listen to bachata
word count: 2.6k+ words
warnings: slight manga spoiler (timeskip)!! wrote this as gn as i could, but thought of a f!reader when i wrote it, sorry if i offend anyone. dancing gets steamy and suggestive. mentions and implications of sex, not proofread at all
a/n: i added some songs that i felt vibed with the character so feel free to listen to them if you want. gets repetitive at one point. this is also my second time trying to post this so uhhhhh apologies 
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iwaizumi:
the birthday boy!!
so this man, i just know he knows how to dance bachata
i mean he went to uni in california, there’s a ton of hispanics and latinos there bro
i know for a fact he befriended one of them and by default, he was dragged to a party at one point
which is exactly where you are right now
you and iwa were invited to a mutual friend’s little sisters quince
so, you’re both sitting at a table as the music is roaring through the sound system
the moment iwa hears romeo santo’s voice begin to ring through the room, he’s instantly standing up, stretching his hand to you
propuesta indecente or odio vibe mega hard with this man
“let’s go”
“go where?” you asked, not really expecting iwaizumi to be into dancing
“dance, of course. unless you don’t want to?” a nervous expression was on his face now.
“you know how to dance to this type of music?”
“of course i do, i’m what you call cultured”
so you take his hand and walk onto the dance floor with him
you kinda know the basics of the dance style so you’re not too nervous when you get into your own space of the dance floor 
he put his hands in front of his body, a hint for you take them as he slowly began to lead you in the dance
you both kept your distance at first and you couldn’t help but admire the sensual way his body was moving 
you both moved in accordance to the songs beat before he pulled a quick on you
he intertwined your fingers on one hand and allowed his other hand to travel down your waist
feeling extra confident in himself, he pulled you into his body and slotted one of his thighs between your own
not stopping your movements whatsoever
“wasn’t that awfully smooth of you, mr. iwaizumi?”
“you already know it. gotta keep you on your toes, no?” 
to which you laugh at bc being with him is already a treat in itself 
definitely has you wrap both your arms around his neck so you can be closer
he has one arm hanging lowly your waist while the other sneakily settles onto your upper thigh
very smooth and touchy man
iwa makes sure to hold you so incredibly close while smoothly maneuvers you both across your little spot on the floor
he definitely spins you when he finds it necessary
would for sure end up kissing you during a song
maybe a cheesy ass dip at the end, even if doesn’t seem to fit the song
all in all, 1000000/10 dance partner
would let him maneuver me any way he wants 
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nishinoya:
this is gonna be so self-indulgent so apologizes beforehand
so, in my head, noya travels the world a lot
and he’s a latin/hispanic king in the eyes of many so yes he’s visited various of these countries. you go along with him too ofc
and yes, he can dance bachata and various other dance styles 
unlike iwa, he’s a lot intimate about this bc he’s the ultimate simp
he’d do anything to have your body pressed tightly against his own
especially if you’re wearing something irresistible 
also unlike iwa, he vibes best with prince royce bc in my head they’re both like more upbeat and wholesome? idk if that makes sense but it does in my head
def incondicional or darte un beso vibes
BUT if he’s feeling frisky that night, definitely see te robaré
mans would not ask you if you want to dance
he’d DRAG you out to dance
strong believer that it’d be a good first for your relationship bucket list
“yuu, where are we going?”
“to dance, duh.”
“you didn’t even ask me though…”
“don’t have to! i know you’ll love it.”
“love what?”
“this.” he instantly pulls you into his body, wide smirk on his face 
there’s virtually no space between you two
can’t even slip a piece of paper between you two
your breath hitches at the close proximity, you can feel his breath against the shell of your ear
who knew noya could be this smooth?
your mind is definitely thinking of other activities but you come back to earth when he begins to dance to the beat
one, two, three, (four)
one, two, three, (four)
he makes sure to keep you in beat
while also making sure he can feel every ridge of your body on his own
your arms are wrapped loosely around his neck
has his around your waist
he likes sneaking playful gropes in your ass or even waist if he wants to be more innocent 
mans is touchy touchy, that’s the way to describe him easily
LOVES to spin you and also loves to be spun 
your full body is in motion with this man and you’re not going in just one direction, you’re moving every which way (very organized tho)
sneaks in kisses between spins
also an amazing partner and bc i am an extra simp for this libero i rate him a 10000000/10
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bokuto:
also an honorary member of the hispanic/latino community
very very cultured man
he plays pro volleyball so he’s bound to travel to other countries
honestly, he’s never practiced bachata with a partner 
he has seen people do it though so he has a very general idea of how to dance it
bokuto is currently on an away game on a different country and he flew you out 
simp, you know?
you guys went to a club, destress a little and just let loose 
definitely vibes with monchy & alexandria bc the vibes are immaculate, especially on hoje en blanco and dos locos
anything that’s fast-paced and all-around energetic is perfect for mr. bokuto
also does not ask you to dance
but instead of just dragging you, he pleads for you with his eyes
puppy dogs before glancing between you and the pile of bodies dancing
you HAVE to take the hint or else he’ll be really bummed out
bokuto: 🥺👀🥺
you: ???
bokuto, in bold: 🥺👀🥺
you sigh at this, “kou, would you like to go dance?”
”i thought you’d never ask, babe! c’mon let’s go!” he’s literally beaming
you’re dragged away right after that
similarly to noya, he loves having your body pressed to his
but bc he’s not as experienced, he keeps you at a safe distance so he doesn’t accidentally step on you or something
that changes once he gets more confident
or when he sees a couple do something he wants to try with you
also loves to spin you
loves pressing your back to his chest and dancing like that for a bit before spinning you back around so he can see your pretty face
holding onto your hips and helping guide them just the way he likes
loves pressing his thigh between your own, might make you come closer so he can feel you better
also likes groping you, with consent ofc
sometimes he gets too distracted with the way you’re moving that he loses count of the beat and ends up messing up
part of the distraction would come from him smooching you anytime he please which makes you guys stumble a few times 
that’s okay though
he makes up for his mistakes in energy and enthusiasm 
how would i rank this man? hmm
1000/10 very fun to be around so he’s a very fun dance partner 
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yamaguchi:
hate to say it but mans does not know how to dance bachata
sorry yamaguchi stans, just had to to say 
man works in electronics!!!
hardly goes out as it is
but you eventually get him to leave the house every once in a while
one of those times being rn, at a co-worker’s party 
you honestly can’t remember what it’s for but there’s loud music playing 
also gives me prince royce vibes but like,,, early prince royce, ya dig?
i’m talking corazón sin cara and even soy el mismo bc bro y’all are soft
you’d have to take the lead with him for the first few minutes of the song 
maybe seconds bc he’s a quick learner, especially if he’s observing 
this man is the only one who’d actually ask you to dance before even trying to drag you out of your seat
he looks at you with these cute eyes bc man is love in with you
“do you wanna go dance? this song looks like fun.”
“ashi, do you know how to dance this type of song?”
“well, no, but i want to try with you. do you want to?”
who are you to say no?
so unlike the other three, he’s a lot sweeter and maybe even shy while you’re dancing
idk if y’all know but he’s basically a little kid trying to dance with you
you guys keep like an arms distance and probably do not get much closer 
you guys do move your arms around and bring them a tad bit closer to spice things up
but otherwise, you guys won’t get too close, especially bc this is his first time dancing bro bachata
lots of soft gazes
he looks at you like you’re the only person in the world and that shit’s cute
loves complimenting you as you’re both dancing
all in all it’s just a pure moment, nothing too spicy for the first time around or second for that matter
10/10 dance partner, learns quickly but still not too confident in himself 
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tendou:
KING!! HE IS THE MAN IVE BEEN SIMPING OVER FOR A WHILE
cheeky mf would be so good at this
does he know how to dance it?
no
but he’s the fastest learner and also very very sensual with these sort of thing so he’s amazing
idk what he does as a profession but he’s still the same person from high school, just a tad more professional in the workplace
gives me the fattest aventura vibes (if you haven’t realized i don’t know much about bachata, murder me)
obsesión and el malo vibe or maybe even los infieles
very similar to iwaizumi and his way of dancing bachata 
but less smooth and more cheeky
very very cheeky
“baby, let’s go dance”
“yeah, give me a min-“
you do not get a minute, his big hand is already instantly wrapping around your arm to pull you up
“tori, do you even know how to dance to this?”
he laughs, “no, i’m smooth but not that smooth.”
you’re left a little confused but the moment he pulls you in tightly, your worries disappear
“just follow my lead,” he whispers in a seductive voice
he places on hand on your waist and the other holding yours just at your waist level
he instantly slots his thigh between your own and leads you guys through your spot on the floor
loves when you pop your hip to the beat
as every moment passes, he pulls you closer and closer
to the point where all you can breathe is his cologne and the alcohol in his breath
might lean down to press a few teasing kisses to your neck
mans might even grind his crotch down on your thigh
he wants to leave you as flustered as possible 
was this a plan for him to take you back home so he could ravage your body? maybe, but he won’t admit, that’s the fun in it
also loves to spin you but he does it outward so he can catch a full look of how you’re dressed
bites his lip when he sees you enjoying himself
ceo of dirty compliments in your ear as you’re both dancing
LOVES LOVES LOVES seeing your flustered face as you guys are so so so close
he’d for sure try and start a makeout session in the middle of the song
something about the passionate atmosphere between all the couples, really gets him going
also sneaks in gropes along with the grinding
once he realizes how much he loves dancing to this music, he wants to go out and do it more 
rate for this man? 
100000000000/10 broke the scale plenty of times 
i want to be his dance partner, please 😔😔
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oikawa:
HE LIVES IN ARGENTINA 
HE KNOWS ALL ABOUT ARGENTINIAN CULTURE AND AND OTHER HISPANIC/LATIN COUNTRIES
YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE
anyway, he takes you guys to a bar as well
you’re visiting him so he has to show you the best parts of the country and this is the end of your day
the spanish music blaring through the speakers gets him in such a great mood bc he wants to have his own little spanish opera moment with you
also gives me aventura vibes but the lighter more romantic music of it
very playful with it
def un beso and dile al amor or even ella y yo if he wants to get spicy with it (even if it’s like a mix of reggaetón and bachata, maybe pop, idk i’m whitewashed 😔)
“my love, do you want to go and dance with me? i love this song.”
“since when do you dance, tooru?” you tease him
“i’ve been a cultured man since i’ve landed in this beautiful country”
“really now?”
“yeah, would you like a demonstration, y/n/n?”
YOU CANNOT SAY NO TO HIM
especially not when he’s looking down at you with this smug grin on his face
does things to you, ngl 
he pulls you up and instantly wraps an arm around your waist as he leads you towards the dance floor
he knows how to dance so he instantly rests his hand on your lower back 
takes the lead without telling you, you have to have faith him and his skills
sways you both PERFECTLY in beat
his other hand is at his side but he is not stuff at all
his body is loose with it, just the way it should be
asks you to wrap your arms around his neck maybe even asks you to hold onto his cheek and give him a smooch
has you giggling the entire time bc he’s such a dork but he’s your dork
 SPANISH SPANISH SPANISH
he sings the lyrics to you in such a quiet voice just for you two to hear
he has an accent when he’s singing bc it’s like his third language but it’s still the cutest thing ever 
also loves praising you in spanish or even giving you spanish nicknames
“te miras tan hermosa, bailando conmigo así, mi amor.” 
you either know what it means or you don’t 
if you do, you’ll blush and come up with an equally cute spanish compliment
“gracias, mi rey. te vas tan chulo debajo de esta luz.” (thank you, my king. you look so good/cool underneath this lighting)
or you don’t have a clue what he said but he said in such a low tone that you assume he said something nice
“i said that you look so gorgeous, dancing with me like this, my love.” he laughs at the lost expression on your face
his laugh is contagious so you end up laughing as well before leaning in to connect your lips, as the song begins to dwindle down 
also enjoys twirling you about when it’s appropriate, adds in to the giggly fun part of him as a dance partner
now, i’m not a simp for oikawa but i would simp for him over him if he offered to be my dance partner 
i rate him a 100000/10 for a dance partner
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vigornotvictor · 7 years
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Before I become a trentagenarian, I will…
Be a daredevil. Go skydiving. Go scuba-diving. period.
Drive a motorcycle. Goes along with being a daredevil. I have driven and received my Commercial Drivers License (CDL) while I was in Boulder to drive campus buses, but not something as small and nimble as a motorbike. Not sure if I want to own one, but would love to learn to drive one.
Study Chinese. This is a huge goal.. that may not be completed until after 30. I want to learn to read most traditional Chinese characters; be adept at writing. Most importantly, I want to be able to read Chinese newspapers and understand Cantonese news/radio. Def life goals for an American-born Chinese.
Read more. Spend an afternoon / day reading. Read 30 books before I’m 30. I simply do not read. I didn’t in grade school, high school, college, or even graduate school really. I read the minimum amount and did not read for leisure. There are plllllllenty of books on my shelf that have not had their spine cracked.
Write a book. This one is a big goal as well. I haven’t thought about what kind of book to write yet, but it would be monumental to do so.
Document my dad’s cooking. Talk to father about his life before I knew him. This is such a personal goal because I love his cooking. I want to preserve his recipes and flair in some type of journal or recipe photo book. I am also ever curious about how the youngest son of seven managed to make it to New York through all the years in China.
Get to know family hxstory (create some collateral; photos, film). Relating to above, I have not really tried in earnest to trace my ancestry back after even my grandparents. I know which region of China they are from, but who were their parents? What did they do?
Apply for a dream “impossible-to-get” job. As I am gaining more experiences in the “real world,” I find this item even more relevant to my passions, goals, and optimism.
Learn to really play guitar. I pick up the guitar once a month (maybe?) and quickly put it back down due to not improving. It is obvious that my lack of skill is due to lack of practice!
Improve wine knowledge. Not understanding wine is quite difficult when I attend events or even a night out. It would be not only helpful for nights out, but overall knowledge of the trade and industry to have.
Go to bartending school. Going along with wine, mixing drinks is such an art. When I see bartenders mix, I want to understand how they mix it and if the combinations of hard liquors, juices, etc. actually go well together (and why).
Take a class that’s totally out of my element, like improv, golf, or pottery-making. Getting Groupon emails aren’t enough! I want to take a class in something that will make me uncomfortable; at least I will be able to say I tried it once.
Master a skill with nondominant hand. I thought this was a good one. As a snowboarder, I ride as a “goofy,” and tried to learn switch riding this past trip. Going along that, I simply think it would be badass to be able to chop (or do something) with my nondominant hand.
Learn to ballroom dance. As a hopeless romantic, it would behoove me to learn this skill… especially if I need to sweep someone off their feet in marriage!
Get in the best shape of my life. I have been somewhat consistently going to the gym lately. As I see a nutritionist and physiologist, I see how my body changes what I eat and how I train it. Let’s get me to the best shape before my body really begins deteriorating.
Run a full marathon. I ran track in high school, but abhorred long distances. As I get in better shape with gym sessions, including swimming, I want to see what the limits of my body are. This is also simply a life bucket list.
Find a passionate cause and throw a fundraiser. How have I used my network for a great cause? That’s where this task/project comes in. Let’s get it done!
Co/Found a non-profit organization and/or LLC. Seeing the bigger picture, how can I enact social change across communities? This goal has been in my mind since undergraduate but I haven’t pursued it to reality. I will utilize social capital for social entrepreneurship.
Revamp my personal style & brand. Along with that, get a tattoo and my ears pierced.
Own a shoe shine kit and know how to use it. I became a shoe snob as soon as I started working at Nordstrom back in my early 20s. I still enjoy great shoes and I know a great skill to have is how to maintain the quality and shine of your shoes.
Invest in / mentor three people younger than me. This may be occurring already, but I want to be able to truly invest in these people and pour myself into a labor of love and mentoring.
Own a dog. Have wanted a dog since childhood. This is a must must! Would like one as I settle down from traveling and anchor myself to a city. Husky if the climate is cold, otherwise a corgi?
Own at least one piece of furniture that’s not from IKEA. This is definitely a funny one. As much as I love IKEA, some of my furniture needs to go and rid itself of bachelority.
Go skinny dipping. I found this a bit strange at first, but realized I have never done it before! This is also merely for the hilarity factor. 
Have a skin care regimen. Even though I have many years of Asian youth, I know this will be an important one. In terms of hygiene, it’s critical to get this on track. 
Know how to budget and start saving money. Open a retirement account. I’m terrible with finances and numbers. This means and equals disaster for my bank accounts and credit at times. Need to step this up, Vigor! (2/23/2017) source: http://veegorous.tumblr.com/post/157632299135/retirement-savings
Go on annual vacation with a few close friends (no SOs allowed). I am really enthused about this one; because in all my travel, I have flown/driven to see people, but not traveled as a close pack (well there was the SF/LA and Seattle trip years ago, but it wasn’t annual). This needs to happen!
Indulge in luxurious bedding. I don’t understand thread count yet, but I’m sure it makes an actual difference. Is it time to throw away those Target sheets? I want to Invest in a set of sheets and pillows that are truly heavenly. As I am getting up there in age, I need more beauty sleep. So why not make it comfortable? Make it luxurious?  I’m worth it.
Join a community sports team. According to a website I pulled this idea from, the experiences from playing team sports will transcend into other parts of life making a better person. The sport I choose could end up being one of my lifelong passions. I have always considered joining one but haven’t yet.
Throw yourself a huge birthday party. This one is self-explanatory. Another reason that this is relevant is that my birthday traditionally falls during exam, test, and all the not-so-fun things month of May. Since all my friends and community were studious, they usually were too busy to celebrate!
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