#or function outside of the house

[galaxythreads]

me in the past, a fool: wow, selective mutism is sooooo easy to write about. weird, considering i usually need to do more research on a disorder like this when i don't have it

me, now: oh

#me as person #anyway so the criteria is different than just “child/person never speaks period” hence /selective/ mutism #which i do have problems with #the not talking ever #but like uh #apparently being so anxious to talk that you avoid social situation to the point it impairs you is a massively common symptom of this #like you avoid it /solely/ so you don't have to talk to anyone #i'm doing amazing actually #no issues here #the social anxiety has not at all effected my ability to communicate or form meaningful connections #or function outside of the house #or take care of myself

[psychological-alchemist]

Hohenheim: you know, I raised two fully functional children

Ed: are the two fully functional children in the room with us?

#this is basically what happened #both the “raised” and “functional” are wrong #that burn rivals their old house going up in flames #ed has a reputation to uphold I see #we're gonna ignore the fact they were outside #the room was the tension this relationship had before the near-perishment of van hoe man #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fullmetal alchemist #fma #fmab #fma brotherhood

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ohhhhmygod im gonna be sick. actually nauseous and i did it to myself - there was a spider on the countertop and i Panicked, grabbing the first distance-killer i could grab. it was a grease cleaner spray. i buried it in the stuff, walked away to recover mentally, came back

it fucking fell apart and dissolved into the cleaner. i both feel horrible and im disgusted beyond words. how the fuck do i get rid of it

#slamming my face into a wall repeatedly #i cant leave it there to deal with after Sleep #bc my cats like to go onto the countertops when no one is looking #and i dont want either of them to get poisoned #but i cant rinse it into the sink with the faucet hose bc there's stuff in the sink #but idk if i can bring myself to do dishes with That next to me #and my fear of spiders is so intense that i Cannot get close enough to take care of it with a towel or somethin #im very good at fucking myself over in various ways! #if i had an appetite id lose it. permanently #what if! instead of dealing with it! i curl up in a corner and cry #except im not gonna do that ive filled my tears quota for the year & doing nothing wont help anything #sorry for venting again i just. ohhhhh this is horrible this is Terrible #if i still had my whacking stick id tape a big wad of paper towels to the end and clean the mess up that way #from a Distance! #absolutely unprompted #i wish i wasnt so terrified of spiders #they scare me So much.... #the point of feeling physically ill! and like sobbing! or panicking! and this spider was Big! #i wish they'd stop coming into the house.... i hate killing them but i cant function knowing theyre there #but i can't force myself close enough to put them in a cup and bring them outside #so now i have THAT on my counter. disintegrated spider. #life is too fucking much lately... jesus.... i should really just bite the bullet and get this shit over with #no use waiting a month in perpetual terror unease and guilt. do it scared yk yk #im tired of my chest hurting and not being able to eat! i dont like it! i need change! terrifying horrible change!

[larkspurglove]

Maybe if I cope hard enough song 21 or 22 is Man of the House-

#epic the musical #odysseus #queue’d #there’s a 50% chance it’s bc it sounds Hamilton-y but I love Man of the House #it’s such a bop #ik it’s scrapped but like IF I COPE- #anyway my reasoning as to why it could be song 21 or 22 is bc epic the musical as a standalone adaptation #is REALLY missing some Odysseus backstory content #bc if you went into the musical without knowing anything about the odyssey or Greek mythology here’s what you’d know #1. he’s been at war for 10 years and really misses his family #2. he really really loves and misses his wife #3. he’s the king of Ithaca #4. when he was younger Athena saw him kill a boar and was like ‘yo this kid’s cool I’m gonna mentor him’ #< also I’m not even sure if point 4 is accurate to the actual Greek myths but regardless #outside of Warrior of the Mind there’s not a lot of Odysseus backstory #like you can function on these points alone but I think it would be fun to get more ody backstory #also imagine act 2 opening with Man of the House #it’s a hopeful pick-me-up from Monster and the Underworld Saga in general #and not to mention illustrates what’s at stake plus starts to introduce the ‘we’ve been on this voyage for a bit too long man’ element #plus it would introduce the ‘where is he’ motif and the ‘time is ticking it’s running out time to be the man of the house’ motif earlier #and I could write a whole ‘nother wall of tags about how those motifs would affect the story in this scenario #I mean Jay’s probably gonna introduce those motifs somewhere else outside of The Challenge and Odysseus/King so yeah #Man of the House you’re not a cut song to me <3 #epic the thunder saga #lark rambles

[tracfone]

AU where after the events of portal 2 chell becomes a homeowner but she comes back and moves glados in with her so she won't have to suffer alone at the facility. Except like, she doesn't transfer her to a smaller body, she just hangs the entire chassis from the ceiling (glados insists on never being out of her body again). The upside to having a live-in supercomputer plugged into her house is that she manages the building's power and appliances (like a souped up Alexa but like....NOT a cop), and keeps a damn good house, but the downside is the power company keeps asking her why she's the only house on the block consuming like 10x the electricity of all the others and she keeps having to give them excuses so they don't come investigate

#portal #chelldos #glados #chell #personality cores remain functional on as low of power as 1.1 volts i know #...but i assume that's the base core not the 25-30ft chassis body #i assume chell also has a cushy enough job or otherwise the means to cover the power bill idk #i don't know what money looks like post-invasion so i don't know what people use to exchange for goods and services #it would be funny if the hoa got involved but that would mean society reinvented the hoa by coincidence (ough) #pray to god they only care about the outside of her house and never go inside. she does not have guests #glados also would want to keep doing science so chell gives her the whole basement to work with #she whines about how small it is but prefers to have chells company so she deals with it

[spellmage]

first day at work. bad. hated it. it’s not that bad though.

#had a cry when i got home (autism) #starting to think i may not be cut out for the working world (autism) #i’m still going to do it though because i’m nothing if not stubborn (autism) #i am expecting to become less coherent the longer i work there (autism) #it’s not hard work at all it’s literally fine i’m just too autistic to function outside of my house #i’m going to eat pizza and ibuprofen now 👍

[oceandiagonale]

I love team skull. they have a fire extinguisher in the kitchen. like we’ll wreck the rest of the shady house but let’s keep fire safety a priority, you know, for the kids. anyways I made the world’s worst layout of the shady house lol

total beds (excl. guz and plumie’s): 8, queen-sized

2 couches

a lot of chairs and tables

side note: HW WHY ARE THERE SO MANY TRUCKS

LIKE SERIOUSLY THERE “S   THERE”S NO CONNECTION TO THE REST OF ULA’ULA ISLAND. NOT AT ALL. THE STONE PATHWAY IS BARELY A ROAD BUT EVEN IF YOU COUNT IT AND YOU COUNT THE DIRT PATHWAY THAT IT DISAPPEARS INTO THERE IS NO WAY TO CONNECT TO THE REST OF THE ISLAND!!! THE DIRT PATHWAY TURNS INTO A WOODEN BRIDGE FOR PEDESTRIANS ONLY. WHY ARE THERE TRUCKS WHY ARE THERE. TRUCKS.

#oceandi speaks #po town #shady house #team skull #I was going to try to make this in acnh but I really don't think it's possible #even with partitions.... there's too much stuff #also I had forgotten how totally messed up po town was in my head it's been cleaned to the point of functioning for years #obviously they kept the painted artwork but the shelves and beds and boxes got all organized and they got the power back and groudon just #lives there. in the backyard. so it's not raining constantly but sometimes #no broken glass all the doors and windows fixed but roof access much easier without all the holes in it lol #the bones of the house were fine it just needed to get to the point of functioning again. like when you get depression meds lol #the cracks on the outside were just stucco needing to be patched #oh and they sold all the fancy vases just lying around the house. they weren't worth millions but they helped get things started

[phoenix-drop-villager]

Went down to the beach after hearing the lord built a boat and it is, I cannot stress this enough, fucking awful.

#minecraft diaries #aphmau #aphmau mcd #aphblr #outsider pov #the arranged marriage spree has stopped (for now) #might claim one of the vacant houses and become a functioning member of society

[falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand]

my entire family goes to bed at 9:30 because i live with fucking old people (im joking. somewhat.) and from then on i have to move around the house quietly. this wouldn't be a problem except that my door is incredibly and uniquely fucked up and nigh impossible to open even remotely quietly

#and it can't be left open because the cat will beeline into my room and make my life hell #every door in my house is absolutely fucking horrible in its own way but my room is really bad #the doorknob is like. dislocated. or just made for a much thicker door because the middle part of it is like 3 cm too long #and i either have to align it carefully or pull on it (makes a very loud sound) and then using a very specific amount of pressure turning #while continuing to pull on it so it won't pop #oh and i can technically open it turning both directions but going right makes it pop so fucking loud it's actually ridiculous #the very unpleasant sound of painted metal on painted metal #kiwifae says shit #my partner of two years is just getting the hang of my bedroom door #my friend came over and literally got stuck in the bathroom cuz she couldn't make the door open again #she literally tried for a few seconds and then just yelled for me 😭 #that door also pops open randomly sometimes. i do not know why. it didn't use to. #back when the front door was still semi functional i had to fish the literal latch out of the cavity in the lock with a screwdriver cuz my #mom kept slamming the door and misaligning it even though we told her that's what fucks it up #we can only deadbolt that door now. it literally won't close otherwise. (that's how we lost the cat for five days!) #(back when it still semi worked i was the only one who knew how to close it at just the right strength so it would stick but not fall out) #((why isn't there an eye twitch emoji)) #but our other outside door exclusively has a deadbolt. that's the only mechanism. #i'm the fucking door wizard in my house and i cannot WAIT to move somewhere where i have functional semi modern door handles #gawd bless i want to kill my fucking landlady

[blackpearlblast]

For the past several weeks, i have been allergic to my own house. we don't know why. I do better next to air purifiers and wearing masks so it's something in the air. it doesn't seem to be in the ac or the ducts. It's not mold. Fucking help

#we're seriously wondering if we have to move if we can't figure it out because i can't be in the house without brain fog headache slurred #speech dis coordinated movements higher pain in general and more in probably forgetting. #We had to get our roof fixed earlier this year because parts of it were literally falling off and the problems seem like they started after #that so we're trying to figure out if that could've been it instead #i'm so tired of trying to fix things and then not working and having to go to a hotel because i'm too sick and in pain to stay and then #coming back home after trying to do something else and it's so expensive and i'm doing so Good outside of the house and can barely function #in it or get good rest or anything my head hurts i'm exhausted

[bitegore]

yeah okay it looks like the steps to me getting work done are:

walk for at least ten minutes but preferably more than half an hour (this time was almost a perfect 45 minutes! i stopped at a grocery store for some amount of time but i left exactly 48 minutes before i arrived at my destination)

to go to a third place (coffee shop)

and have at least one nice exchange with a person

and then sit down to work

#i really think that there's like mold in my house that makes it hard for me to function though #like- the difference in my ability to write from before i cleaned my vents in my room out to after is UNREAL #its like i cleared cobwebs out of my head #but they're still there in some degree #thhis is probably why last summer i felt so good specifically when i spent 95% of my waking hours outside #red rambles #i should try this with a library sometime but the closest library is very big and very busy and i hate their lighting bc they trigger my #migraines so i dont like to go there often

[bitchdafuqyousay]

having a phobia is so stupid like sorry I cant leave the house there's a slug on the stoop n it has single handedly rendered me unable to function. yeah sorry no I cant make it I've gotta hyperventilate on the couch n cry in terror cause there was mollusk outside :/

#had to sprint to essentially the opposite side of the house cause there was a slug outside n on the other side of the door #outside whereas I am inside. gotta shake uncontrollably about that now #gotta cry out for my sister or mother to get rid of it so I can function again #look at my posts boy

[pepprs]

also the favoritism thing is still making me so fucking mad and insane btw. im not jealous / resentful of my brother bc he deserves her love and is also burdened in his own ways by it and bc i think my drama w my mom has shaped my life in profound ways and given me friends i cherish and i would never trade any of that for the world but jesus fucking christ. why do i have to beg you to interact with me like a mother. why do i have to talk to me at all beyond asking me to do you 847439473 favors a day. why do i have to beg you to take an interest in my life and apologize when you hurt me and be nurturing and perceptive for once in your fucking life. like it hurts to hear her asking him about his classes and whatever bc she didn’t think i was stressed out w school but i had to talk to a ****** hotline last decemver when i couldn’t take it anymore and my mental health was crashing and burning and it doesn’t even fucking matter to her at all and she’s going to get him the nice gifts and throw him the nice parties and whatever because she hates me and my sister for… and let me get this straight… being complicated and anxious and depressed and also girls. lol!

#purrs #delete later #sorry i knowive been insane about momposting but this shit has me screeching like an ape. the way when my brother was born she decided me #and my sister would be okay with each other bc we were twins and meanwhile she was leaving my sister to have anxiety attacks and me to take #care of her and all of this happening at like 7 years old and she would come into my brothers room every single night and kiss him goodnight #and talk to him for a long time and she wouldn’t even come in and say goodnight to us. LOL. ok. like our room being a depression nest is not #an excuse. us not helping out much in the kitchen or around the house (which is bad but also we have reasons for it that i think are valid #and i only do it here and not elsewhere btw.) is not a good excuse. you can’t decide you love your one kid more because he helps out and #keeps his room clean and whatever. maybe he is normal because you made it very clear from the time that he was born that he was your top #priority and you gave him your attention and didn’t take it away meanwhile my sister and i have always had to share bc we’re twins and she #cast us aside when he was born and has fucking tormented both of us for years over who we like what we want where we go all of that shit and #then has the AUDACITY to call herself a good mother. being a good mother is more than feeding your kid and projecting your childhood trauma #onto them by preventing them from ever developing cancer to the point where they’re afraid fo like. go outside. you have to be patient and #nurturing and kind and like.. motherly. ans i know no one can be a perfect mother and she has been hurt so badly and she is dealing with a l #lot right now but COME ON. for gods SAKE. i am right fucking here. why don’t you care about me? why do you make it clearer every day? #ask to tag #like the way she would say when my sister and i were growing up and going through it that she wished she could book a hotel and live there f #far away from us and miss out on us growing up so she wouldn’t have to deal with us being anxious and hormonal because we were teenage girls #LOL. totally did not impact me at all. totally is not a wound that informs every breath i take and every thought i have. not at all #* like maybe he is normal because you uh… idk. just a guess here. actually gave him the motherlove people need to be functioning healthy #human beings? idk. just a silly thought. haha

[coloursofaparadox]

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#uggghhhhhhhhhhhh #this is the first time i think in my whole life that ive lived alone #had a job that didnt make me wear out my social battery #or compromise my physical health #and have been financially stable enough to afford necessities without worrying #which is all amazing #and means that ive actually had the opportunity to decide hey #im fucking dying #everything has been insane and shitty and traumatic for months #so im going to just. do nothing. until i can stand to even think about interacting with people or doing basic household tasks without #curling into a ball #and it took a lot longer than i thought it would #its been i think....5 weeks? #of leaving the house only when i have to for groceries and only doing the absolute bare minimum to keep my living area functional #going back to coping with headphones on when i go outside like i used to and kind of forget why i stopped doing it #and in general just. spending my time rewatching my old favourite series and shows and manga and books #i can count on one hand the number of times ive socialized with a friend outside my house #and holy fuck i needed this #i needed this years ago i think #it took 5 weeks before i could even think about willingly being out in public with strangers and not doing everything i can to avoid it #my house is a mess and i havent unpacked and my yard is overgrown #but im finally starting to look at tasks around the house without a crippling sense of dread anymore #and can sometimes just. do em. without having to suppress massive anxiety and exhaustion and stress and burnout to get through it #i was kinda relying on blind faith that i was doing the right thing in giving myself permission to just not keep up on my life #and that it wouldnt just spiral into depression lol #and its actually paying off #thank fuck #its probably 'recovering from years of burnout' in technical terms but yknow what #i can now make myself food without waiting till im literally having hunger pangs or until i nearly lose my balance walking the dog #and cleaned up a bit! and hung up some of my wall shelves!

[cantankerouscatfish]

while house shopping, there was one house I looked at really close by that had a completely updated kitchen! new tile! new countertops! stainless steel everything!

and no basement! rotting crawlspace! the single bathroom was Rotting Into The Earth and the sink might have been the only usable thing in there bc the entire room was on a funhouse slant.

I think it sold for $140k.

#it was listed at like 110 which is. bonkers. there's NO FUNCTIONING TOILET #now the only thing you can get for less than 120k outside the city are empty grass lots #and the ones in the city are either 1) OCCUPIED. landlords apparently trade houses like playing cards. or 2) basically condemned #my little pile of rot is at least close enough to my dad's workshop of tools that I can walk over and borrow a saw or whatever

[morganaux]

🍎 & 🍏 (for morgy and oliv? 👀 if that’s ok)

🍎 How do they flirt with the same sex?

Morganaux:

He... Kind of doesn't flirt, haha. He's the type to suppress his romantic feelings rather than acting on them, so instead, he just tries his best to act normal around them while acting the exact opposite of normal. He fumbles his words, seems distracted, and may even appear ill, and he will keep this up for months, even years, and it's often painfully obvious. He is terribly insecure about making his friendships awkward if his love is unrequited, or he might second-guess himself if he's truly attracted to someone or just having another short-lived crush.

For him to actually flirt with someone, he's first going to talk it over with a few trusted friends first. Or, rather, he's going to talk it over with them many times. If he's feeling particularly brave, he might consult an Ishgardian etiquette book on how to properly court someone, but since he typically doesn't fall for people who would understand the subtle art of High House flirting, it doesn't work.

He'll then spend a few weeks, or a few months, or however long trying to figure out an appropriate way to romance them, like making them a fitting gift or just outright confessing his love, or both. Then, he'll delay putting that plan into action for another few weeks, likely while his friends are threatening to tell his crush how he feels if he doesn't go and do it himself already.

But by the point he actually gets that far, it's more likely that his crush will either catch on and call him on it, forcing him to talk about it, or many, many years will pass and his crush will turn into a primal and die. He's very good at romance, as you can see.

He may also "flirt" subconsciously by being extra helpful toward his crush, or taking extra care when it comes to doing things for them. But in his mind, he insists it's just him being a good friend, because good friends deserve the extra effort, and not because feelings are involved!

Olivine:

Unlike her son, Olivine doesn't shy away from her feelings and will make them known. Flower language is her love language of choice, and she'll make certain that the object of her affection knows the meaning behind each flower she gives them. When courting her wife, she would often steal the prettiest flowers she found in other nobles' gardens, giving them to her because they made her think of her.

She'll make her presence known, spending a lot of time around the one she's fallen for, helping them out whenever she can and finding plenty of opportunities for their hands to "accidentally" touch, or for their gazes to "accidentally" meet. Sometimes, she'll accidentally leave behind a precious belonging for the other woman to find, like a ring or an embroidered handkerchief so she'll have an excuse to come retrieve it, or better yet, she might receive a visit from them.

🍏 How do they react to flirting from the same sex?

Morganaux:

Most of the time, it goes over his head entirely. He thinks they're just being nice to him and won't think anything of it. But if it's extremely obvious, he'll blush and his ears will start to wiggle. Sometimes, he might find a polite reason to excuse himself if he's particularly flustered, even if he wants that sort of attention.

It's a different story entirely if that flirting comes from an Ishgardian gentleman. He's all too familiar with it as the resident celebrity of the Holy See post-Heavensward, and his brain is in a completely different mode when he's back home. Plus, the romantic etiquette in his homeland is unique and something he actually understands, so he's more likely to notice when someone's into him and won't be caught off-guard by it. He'll be polite and go along with it in most cases, even if he's not interested because it's the polite and proper thing to do. But in the rare instance he finds an Ishgardian man to be interesting and open-minded enough to be worthy of his time, he might start getting a little flustered, but he'll be brave enough to at least try to reciprocate. (key word is try.)

Olivine:

Most of the time, she'll enthusiastically flirt right back unless she's not interested, and in that case, she'll very politely make that known without having to dance around the subject.

#morganaux.txt #morganaux answers #morgy lore #olivine lore #((ty for the ask!! :D)) #((tbh morgy is like an entirely different person back at home and all the social competence disappears when he leaves)) #((it took almost a decade of him studying and practicing to survive the cutthroat realm of high house society)) #((but the outside world is so different to him and he just. ceases to function. especially with romance.)) #((meanwhile olivine does not care about any of that. she will be herself and that's all that matters. also women. women matter.)) #((women and being herself are her top priorities. her priorities are the only thing straight about her.))