#or better yet: send me a message so i can ramble about it more

[sunshinelivesforever]

Getting severe Gigi x Slate brainrot recently so here we are

Gigi x Slate Headcanons

They are the literal embodiment of the grumpy x sunshine trope

It wasn't love at first sight for them, more like attraction at first sight

And then they slowly fell in love

Taking care of Gigi just kind of becomes second nature to Slate

Like, when he notices her shoelaces are untied, he ties them for her

When he notices that she's cold, he takes off his jacket and puts it on her

And he's really protective of her

He can listen to her ramble for hours but Gigi being Gigi, she often gets really curious about his past and asks too many questions

When that happens, he just kisses her to shut her up

Speaking of kissing, Slate is Gigi's first kiss

After he kisses her for the first time, she becomes unnaturally quiet and her face becomes red

Savannah asks her what's wrong and thinks she has a fever

And Gigi says that it's nothing and goes to her room but then a few minutes later she bursts out of her room screaming "MATTIAS SLATER KISSED ME" at the top of her lungs

Grayson nearly murders Slate when he finds out

Gigi is very physically affectionate and it takes Slate a while to get used to that

He's usually the one who's better at flirting verbally but the first time Gigi back-hugs him, he's so flustered he can barely form words

Gigi 100% steals his jackets, hoodies and sweaters

She sends cute cat videos to him all the time and he claims to never watch them but one day, she catches him watching one of the videos with a smile on his face

They talk together for hours, about anything and everything

As he works for Eve, Slate is always relaying Eve's messages and stuff so he doesn't really ever get to express his opinion on anything

But when he's talking with Gigi, he can do that

Their outdoor dates are like mini-adventures

Their indoor dates are comfortable yet fun

Gigi often falls asleep on top of Slate

Gigi makes really creative handmade gifts for him and he's so touched because no one's ever done that for him before

Slate loves kissing her

They usually hold hands when they walk around

In conclusion, Gigi x Slate is an adorable ship that I can't get out of my head and I request JLB to make them canon. Please.

#idk if these are good or bad #i wrote them at 1 am so please don't judge #the inheritance games #tig series #tbh #the brothers hawthorne #gigi grayson #slate #mattias slater #gigi x slate #the hawthorne legacy #the final gambit #the grandest game

[marblemoovt]

Not to put pressure on u or anything, but how's that brat taming yuushi fic going?

Take ur time ofc!! :)

It's going! I'm going to put everything below the cut in case I ramble.

Is this fandom still alive btw? Are there any other people out there drooling over this pathetic man and his hot wife? Or maybe you guys are like me and are patiently waiting for someone else to write a fic lmao.

I took a long break from writing for a while and have only recently gotten back into it. And I think that break did me some good! Writing doesn't feel as grueling as it used to so I'm making steady work on that fic. But you didn't hit read more to learn about my personal life. You wanted to hear how the fic is going.

And anon... 👀 I am at 5k words and we're not even at the brat taming yet 😩😩😩

But I am bringing the spice and I'm honestly quite happy with it so far. I struggle to capture this feeling of mundaneness (is that even a word?) in all my fics. Basically, I want them to feel realistic to me and not flat. I can already feel myself rambling so I'll stop myself.

I have no clue when the fic will be finished. I currently only write while I commute to school and back (rip anyone who glances at my phone).

Here's a chonker of a snippet to tide you over:

(Context: Reader doesn't keep their promise to return home on time. Currently they're in their car)

You decide to take a peek at your phone, unlocking the screen to be greeted with a wall of text. A grin sneaks onto your face, and you glance at your surroundings. Taking a risk, you shimmy your pants down past your knees. Turning on the camera, you snap a picture of your drooling cunt, framed perfectly by a pair of dark, lacy underwear. This specific one happened to be one of Yuushi’s favourites since it was crotchless. He liked fucking you senseless while still being able to admire the lingerie. 

You scroll up and skim over his messages. They all pretty much mean the same thing: you’re being severely punished when you arrive home. Maybe this is pouring gasoline on an open flame, but—you smirk and hit send—you think you’ll enjoy watching it all burn. 

You reluctantly slide your damp pants back on—it’s better than making a mess on the car seat. Those things can be a nightmare to clean. Not even a minute later you can see that he’s looked at your picture. Almost immediately after, the call screen appears with Yuushi’s caller ID. You turn the ringer off your phone and place it in the cup holder with the screen facing away. “Sorry, Yuushi. I shouldn’t call and drive at the same time,” you say in a singsong voice, knowing very well he can’t hear you. How pissed off is he now? You hum and turn the key, feeling the car roar to life. You glance over your shoulder at the bags behind you. At least you remembered to buy many, many, many condoms and another bottle of lube. Shifting gears, you pull out of the parking lot and drive to your doom.

#marbleasks #yuushi totsumoto x reader #lady k and the sick man x reader #lady k and the sick man

[oh-shtars]

Hi Flicker :D! I just finished watching a summary and analysis of the movie “Soul” and I have to share my existential crisis with you and how I think this could support Rani's character development :] (Warning: I'm going to ramble and a LOT).

So, I was watching the movie and I saw that 22's character is quite similar to Rani, not in personality but in what they mean, she is someone who believes she hasn't found her talent yet, what she wants to dedicate herself 100% to or as they say in the movie “her spark”, they feel lost and feel like they are letting someone down because of that, but they both deal with it in different ways, we also see Joel believing that “the spark” is the THING that defines you, your purpose, this maybe what Rani may think, but I imagine as she gets older she realizes that's not such a bad thing, in fact maybe it's a bit negative to get 100% rooted to your purpose, because some people think that with that their life will be better or something, when no, I think Rani will realize that the “purpose” or what she “wants to be totally dedicated to” is not really what she expects, it's more those moments where you just feel something that makes you grateful to be alive, like when she finished carving a wooden figure and liked the result, when she enjoyed doing an activity, or when she was just with friends or her family having a challenge. Because that's also what that “spark” is about, isn't it? They are activities that generate a feeling of happiness and are one more impulse that helps you to be grateful to be alive, it is not your life 100%, it is something that simply sweetens it a little more, but not having it does not mean that you are a nobody, but it means having more possibilities to enjoy different things in life. (Sorry if what I'm saying is obvious or doesn't make sense, I was looking for the message I wanted my wish Au to give and I ended up having an existential crisis, I hope you didn't get bored reading this).

AHHHHH THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU ALED!!! THAT’S WHAT I’M GOING FOR RANI ✨💖✨

You don’t need to find just one passion you need to be 100% dedicated to be happy and satisfied with life. These bursts of joy can all come from anything you enjoy doing such as hobbies or friends and family. Those are the little sparks scattered throughout your life!!

Rani just thinks that since his parents are these amazing figures he looks up to, that helped encourage people to have faith in pursuing their dreams, that he feels embarrassed of not having a definite one that he’s so sure of pursuing despite being their son. (Which is also why he doesn’t communicate this to them either.)

Please never apologise for sending me an ask. It always sends me over the moon to see y’all engaging with my story and AU. 🥺💖

In fact, you’re making me want to rewatch Soul again. Really good movie with a deep meaning, I like it ^^

#ask #reach for the stars au #rfts au #wish au #star x asha #asha x star #ashueño #rfts fankid #ashueño kid #kissing you on the forehead platonically Aled <33

[lilikags]

໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა just a little note...

! not in any particular order...

my beloved big sister @actuallylgp,

it's hard to envision a morning without seeing a "Gm Qian" from you; i look forward to it every day (i'm really being serious here). when i feel lost, i think about talking to you (about anything really, it helps my mind clear) and seeing you around just makes me really happy! i love you <3

my dearest ate @yumetokashite

you've been here with me for so long, and it's strange to think about just how much i've changed (for the better!) in the time that you've stuck with me. you cheer me up so well, I hope we stick together a long time

for my twinsie @runanadwiddles,

i've never seen anyone more "twinsie" than you. if there's a small group of people i can trust to show the parts of me i hide on instinct, you're part of it. it's always very 🤝 with you, and i hope we have so many more "brain connected" moments ♡

to teddy bear dearest @hasumilvr,

squishes yuo. thank you for being there for me all the time, thank you for reading my stories. just looking at our chats in the middle of class when i'm stressed out helps me calm down, i hope you know this cabby cares for you a lot

dear alkakurei's favorite @rinnelovebot ,

i find your dedication absolutely admirable. seeing you alive and kicking and being able to see you every day brings me so much; thank you for being there always

for my favorite penguin @sleepypengwin,

if there's someone to react to a message, it's you. thank you for supporting me (and of our) silly rambles, and thank you for sending all sorts of silly insta reels and liking my stories and talking to me on insta... you make me feel less lonely in the world

fucking clown pt 1 (ily) @baeshijima,

where would i be today without you... (dead, in the ditches) sharing devastating thoughts (fic ideas far too good) with you is something so special to me. i hope to bring you more devastating news going forward 🫶

fucking clown pt 2 (ily) @aimixx,

you too saved me from the ditches of hell; thank you for listening to my troubles and being with me through the worst times of my life thus far. when you're offline, I wish you were online so I could bother you, it brings me peace knowing you're online

for my big sis spirit @spiriteddreams,

there's no one else who has provided as much guidance to me as you have; thank you for being my most trustworthy opinion in the topics we talk about most. i'm incredibly grateful that we get to talk, i feel like you've helped me see a better side of reality

to the one who fuels my yume thoughts like no other @yumejo,

do you know how much i kick my feet like a maiden in love when I see your writing??? (i admit that is what i am for my yumes though) your writing makes my heart jump places and sends me to a magical land. thank you for listening to all of my yume rambles, silly thoughts and all of the strange things this girl (me) has to say

my dearest kuya @marifart,

once and forever my kuya ♡ you're so real and i always know i can be so real with you. you're so true, it's so easy to be comfortable around you.

to whom I have not divorced yet @neoxsanctuary ,

քʟֆɖօռȶɖɨʋօʀƈɛʍɛ it's hard for me to wrap around just how long we've known each other. we've been through the hell of a thousand fandoms and far too many situations. thank you for being there (insert the tomoya gif I always use)

for the best little sib ever reze @solaaresque

you make me insane (pos) i'm always proud of you, i think you're so cool and have so much ahead of you. i am and will always be happy to be your ate, thank you for your silliness

for the silly i talk to on the bird app every day @shirokururu,

who else would I talk to on that very blue app. thank you for listening to my rambles on countless manhwa you have never seen before and responding to the bazillion tweets i send... ♡

[this post is scheduled]

[cosmickaz]

Comfort Call

look at me and my emotional support alliterations.

one-shot (655 words)

Pairing: Cody, Reader nature of relationship unclear, Cody just cares about Reader’s wellbeing

Genre: Fluff, Comfort no Hurt. Reader is in a funk and Cody gets them out of it.

The black screen of his datapad felt like a punch in the gut as Cody took off his helmet. It has been entirely too long since his penpal had last responded to his messages, and he knew if they disappeared like this, things were starting to get worse again.

It took a little trial and error but you found a way to break the radio-silence without building pressure.

He checked the status icon next to your name. You were online.

A black screen took over his display once again, yet this one seemed infinitely more hopeful, as it was a sign that you had picked up his call.

“No headphones.” appeared in the little chat-box.

There was a very faint rustling coming from your end of the call and Cody smiled, knowing you’d kept your mic on for his sake.

Then, another message: “Wait,” followed by the sound of your footsteps leaving the room.

Where, at first, he’d been a little confused, even slightly offended by your tendency to just get up and leave after the start of your calls, the explanation you’d offered endeared him to your antics. Not to mention your efforts to prepare for his usual calls beforehand now, even making a little game out of it and sending him obscure ‘getting ready’ messages before pressing the button. ‘one moment, I’m building my house.’, ‘sorry, I’m catching some wifi.’ or ‘gimme a sec, my datapad exploded’.The deviation of your usual routine only emphasized how out of it you had to feel.

Sounds of your reentering the room and placing something on your desk disrupted Cody’s worrying.

“Had to get water,” came your explanation. “And a donut.”

Then, your cam turned on.

Upon seeing your slightly disheveled form, he had to resist the instinct of asking about what troubled you. He learned the hard way that calm nonchalance was the way to go in these situations, and interrogating you would only result in you shutting him out completely. His goal was to get you to stop thinking about Whatever It Is and disrupt your thought spiral, hence the unannounced video call.

“Have you been reading?” He typed back, purposely giving you a chance to fill him in on the details of your day  or ignore the elephant in the room and go on about your favourite hobby.

As usual, you chose the latter. “Yeah, I’m still trying to get through this book. I calculated how many pages I have to read every day so I can get through it before I have to return it.”

Of course you did.

“The collected stories one?”

“Mhm,” you nodded your head while typing, making Cody smile once again. “70 pages for 20 days.”

“And how many pages are you behind now?”

At least he was decent enough to hide his smile behind a hand as he asked this.

You glared at him anyhow.

His smile just got wider.

“~130.”

“That’s almost two days!”

“I AM AWARE!!!!!” You were tempted to turn off your camera so he wouldn’t see you pout. “I went to the garden center yesterday so I didn’t have time. And the first couple stories were suuuuuper boring.”

“But it got better?”

“It did. And it’s interesting because I can see where others have been influenced by these themes and stories so it’s cool to go backwards like this. Makes the other stories more interesting, too.”

As your rambling got more animated, your fingers soon weren’t able to keep up with your thoughts anymore, and the sounds of your frantic typing was replaced by your voice.

It would have been foolish to point it out, but Cody knew that this was the point where you’d successfully gotten out of whatever mood had had a hold on you earlier. And with the mood of the conversation between you entering all-too familiar territory again, he reveled in pride over your shared victory.

#this is very much a self comfort thing and that's okay #been having a ruff week #commander cody x reader #tcw x reader #tcw cody x reader

[mysticalsoot]

Everything you've said on this situation is something I 100% agree and stand with and honestly is such a breath of fresh air to see after spending so much time in the official Lovejoy discord.

People in there were at first being civil with their opinions despite the tense emotions, but it's quickly turning into a "Fuck Wilbur" train since many are straight up convinced he was the one Shelby was talking about, while those trying to stay neutral or are wishing Wilbur luck in changing for the better should it actually be him are being attacked. Mods have been trying to calm the attackers down but it hasn't worked too well from what I've seen. And it's only gotten worse since one of the Sr Sootmods came out and said how they're all leaving their mod positions since they're also convinced he's the abuser. What especially hurts is that one mod went into the chat and even said "Abusers will always be abusers" as if people can't genuinely change for the better.

Also, while we're all here speculating and all that, what happens if it's officially confirmed that it wasn't Wilbur and was instead one of the many other British musicians who had an ant infestation and mold problem (both of which are very common problems in the Uk from what I've heard)? This isn't something you can fix with an "Oops sorry for jumping ship without proper confirmation." It just feels like it's quickly gotten to a point where "Damned if something is said, damned if not."

Sorry for rambling/ranting, but that discord group really got me heated up. Keep your chin up, king. You deserve the crown on your head for sticking to your guns and dealing with the assholes coming to you.

Honestly the more messages I get agreeing with me, the more I'm shocked. When I first started questioning things, I felt if I even uttered them to my sister I'd be crucified. So many people agree and support me and it's insane. It outweighs the hate by millions. (i say that as if my chest wasn't so tight earlier today that I couldn't breathe!)

i checked the lvjy server and wil's server earlier today. lvjy I didn't read much on, and when I found that wil's was closed, I wasn't surprised. i was told by an anon ask that the mods know more, but if they did, I feel as though they all wouldn't have waited until the rest of the internet said it was wilbur.

people can change. hurt people who hurt people can change. abusers are a different level, and oftentimes are unwilling to change or are aware they can. sometimes they do! I've seen it, abusers can change but it's so so so very rare.

but jumping on the bandwagon based on rumor and speculation and then saying that shit is not cool.

something I've been trying to say is that those who've left and abandoned ship will most likely regret it when and if things come out in favor of wil (which my gut leans to yes, but we'll see), theyll have to deal with the consequences of being rash.

i understand not wanting to support a possible abuser, but Shelby didn't say a name. she didn't say one for a reason, whatever that reason is, I don't know. and I have my own feelings on that but I won't voice them yet.

don't apologize for rambling, I understand your frustrations and I see you. thank you for the kind words and the support, it means a lot and it's helping me keep going<3 I will continue to say my piece until I can no longer do so, for whatever reason.

anon asks are off, don't try sending hate to me or the asker

#connoranswers #yaz<3 #wilbur soot

[xeniray]

FOR HIS EYES ONLY !

synopsis - tr men reacting to you sendin’ them nudes

warnings - nsfw , nudes , fingering, moaning audios , mention of breeding, mention of bondage, toys ( dildo ) , mention or noncon recording, recording, use of ‘ baby & love ‘

☰ MIKEY

could give two fucks about you sending nudes.

when he do receive em’ usually don’t reply or anything ven open the message.

the days that he do reply just know one fucking thing, he’s needy and wants you as soon he lays his eyes on that video/ picture.

“ m-mikey! miss ya’! i miss ya” you moan as the pink silicone rub against your walls. it’s not the same. feeling the dildo inside you. your rather the real thing itself.

“ come home! come stuff me!” you whines. mikey’s eyes never left the screen. he’s glued to it. seeing the video of you stuffing you pussy with the toy, wishing it was him. it made his cock jump a bit.

but he can’t just leave everything to go fuck you— no no. he’s stuck in the boring ass meeting. he doesn’t even know what rindou and ran is rambling about. he doesn’t care what the next plan is. he wants you— he needs you. craves the feeling of you. wanna see his seed splurge out of your puffy pussy and you lay there fucked out, trying to regain your thoughts.

☰ RINDOU

absolutely loves it when you send him a video or audio.

if it’s just a plain picture he won’t give you what you want. will completely ignore you till he get something that has sound on.

audios > videos. i’m telling you he’s not all crazy for the visuals.

he keeps them in a file on his phone or computer. he listens to them to keep him motivated. kinda like a them motivational videos but instead of it being a long ass speech, it your moaning his name.

another boring day. hell the day ain’t even over yet. it’s barely start and rindou wants to be out of it. he wanna go home to you and cuddle up next to ya’. maybe eat you out once or twice just ‘cause.

now he’s missing you even more—fuck. not only he’s stuck in the rundown hell hole, not only he can’t see you— but the fucking reception is shit.

i know , i know, something that you’ll least expect for the rindou haitian to be worrying about. he’s scrambling around the place to simply get one damn bar. and when i tell you, the slightest sight if it he’s smiling so hard.

seeing not one, not two , but five messages from you. god he say just got so much better. after getting out of the most uncomfortable position, just get some damn service like jesus christ, he dashed back to his room grabbing his headphones. his day just got sm better.

☰ SHINICHIRO

you know when your ex be saying he still has that polaroid of your titties? that’s shin.

he’s a literally freak about your body so when he found out he could simply keep them in his phone he literally passed out.

lockscreen is a picture of your titties. ( waka and ben thinks it’s a random porn star. if then only knew…..)

videos ? doesn’t care for them. rather have a picture so his mind can wonder about that photo.

records yall everytime you’ll have sex. sometimes you don’t know and sometimes you do. shin is a huge pervert in disguise.

“ shin…. you don’t have to capture every moment you know “ you mumbled as you looked to the side in embarrassment. currently your boyfriend , soon to be ex at this point, is propping up his phone in just the right spot to record this special moment!

well special to him not you. it’s not like every time you have sex with shinichiro isnt special don’t get me wrong, it’s just of all times, you record it??

“ what’s wrong? cant i get just one video so i can watch when i miss you” he pouts. it’s hard to take him seriously, especially when both of you is butt ass naked.

“ i cant understand if it was just one video” you trialed as you wrapped the sheet around you, “ but it’s like every god damn time i ask you wanna record… it’s kinda concerning….”

he smacked his lips a bit as he sat beside you. grabbing the sheet and moving it to the side a bit he went goes in for a kiss. not matter how much you’re embarrassed by the fact he’s recording this, you give in. taking off the sheet you place your hand on his shoulder and locking lips with him.

you hand slowly trailed down his arm, then up all the way to his dark locks. guiding your down he left a trail of kiss from your lips, to your chin, to your necks sucking and leaving small nibbles on your neck you whimper a bit . you always loved the small things shinichiro did.

no matter what it was you loved it. it could be him pinching at your nipples or him licking the side of the face. whatever he did turned you on.

“ s-shin…” you whined a bit. gripping on the sheet a bit your looked down at him as she continued the trial of kisses.

“ so beautiful , my pretty baby…” he muttered before kissing your clit. “ gonna make ya’ feel so good baby”

☰ SANZU

loves them ALL. listen to me. ALL.

audios ? not on of his favorite but he’s not complaining. pictures ? god damn it make his eyes rolls. but videos…. videos have a special place in his hearts.

he literally shares all of them with his ‘friends’, by friends i mean all the bonten members.

needy. needy needy. you have to store videos for just in case he asking for more.

oh , and by the way, you don’t send them on your free will or when you feel like teasing him. no, no. sanzu ask for them. yep that right . well not ask…. more like demands — but says it’s him asking. 

it has to be nasty. i mean like nasty…. like “ bae tie me up and say your gonna kill me but don’t then fuck me with a gun to my head” nasty.

everything is annoying. the sound of the clock. koko rambling about how the money use between the members. the sound of rin tapping his stupid ass pen against the surface of the table to keep him occupied. everything in this room is fucking annoying.

sanzu is just so ready to walk out of this room. he need to go out and get some air. but he knows he can’t do that. not only he’s in the middle of a damn meeting but his face is everywhere. and you’ll think i’m lying but it’s everywhere. how so? well one to many drinks and a fight in a bar should say a lot.

listen— sanzu isnt one to slip up. especially when it came to hiding his identity. that’s when he’s sober. high or drunk? you need to put him on a damn leash. he’s like a little kid in a candy store— alway, and i literally can’t stretch this out enough, always in so type of trouble.

but you know what’ll cheer him up? you . just a few pictures, maybe a video or two. it’ll make him not wanna bash everyone head in at this moment.

looking over he slip his phone out of his pocket making sure mikey doesn’t see. his fingers went to work on the screen as he typed out the few messages.

haru <3 : missin ya sm love

haru <3 : :(

haru <3 : can i get some ass pics?

haru <3 : a few videos of you getting off too?

haru <3 : they’ll cheer me up baby :D

god you have a love and hate relationship with this man. with a small sigh your got out your bed. you was already nearly naked. you had one of his hoodies on. doing a quick pose in the mirror , click click , boom ass pictures for him.

my baby -3- : *3 attachments*

my bay -3- : hope your day gets better haru <3

#☰ xeniary. #☰ xen notes. #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers scenarios #tokyo rev #manjiro smut #manjiro sano #mikey smut #mikey tokrev #mikey scenarios #rindou haitani #rindou scenarios #tokrev rindou #rindou smut #shinichiro scenarios #tokrev shinichiro #shinichiro smut #shinichiro sano #sanzu scenarios #tokyo rev scenarios #sanzu haruchiyo #sanzu smut #tokrev sanzu #imagines #tokyo rev imagine #tokyo revengers imagines #short n’ sweet ! #scenarios

[kangel104]

INTRO!!!

This will hopefully be the first and last time I break character on either of my NSO blogs, but I felt it was necessary to post a real intro considering the things that will be posted on this account.

(TL;DR @ the bottom)

DISCLAIMER!!!

These blogs were created with the purpose of being a creative outlet for my trauma and mental illness. This means that some of the content on this page might be unpleasant for some people. If that's the case, don't view my blog.

To start things off...

16+ only, please. I want to create a safe space for as many people as I can, but I don't want to be responsible for influencing any kids into doing any of the things I speak about.

For anonymity, I'm not going to tell you my actual name, so please just call me Kangel or Ame, depending on the blog you are viewing.

I will do my best to always tag any possible triggers on my heavier posts, so please correct me if I miss a tag or incorrectly tag something.

TRIGGER WARNINGS!!

As I just mentioned, there will be a lot of triggering things posted on both of these blogs. Because of that, I'd like to compile what will be the most common trigger warnings to look out for on this page (will be updated as I post to remain accurate)

Mentions of grooming

Mentions of past trauma

Neglect

Fear of abandonment

Long rambles during panic attacks

Addiction

Abuse/toxic relationships

Intrusive thoughts

Self-harm

Mentions of suicidality

A Bit About Me

I like Jirai and the message it sends as it's something I heavily relate to. I don't have any jirai clothing yet, but I'm saving to buy my first item asap! I also really like vocaloid, visual kei, breakcore, and honestly most kinds of music haha.

If you couldn't guess, I really like NSO. The kind of person Ame-chan is really spoke to me. I've always wanted to take on a new persona online, and what better way than a Kangel blog! I'll speak a little more on the roles of each blog later, tho <3

I really like RPGs like Persona and Final Fantasy as I grew up playing both. They're both really comforting games for me.

I suspect I have Autism and either BPD or bipolar. I'm in the process of trying to find a psychologist to get an assessment and confirm my suspicions, but it's hard to find anyone where I live.

The Kangel blog!

This blog is where I'll post my lighter content. It's my distraction from my actual life and is only there for me to pretend I'm someone else. This means that while I'm on the Kangel blog, I'll do things like write in American-English as it's another layer of disconnect from my real life.

There will be much less triggering content on this blog, but there will be an occasional vent post, but that will likely be written in the style of the in-game vent streams and tweets. That means it will likely be a bit dramatised to sound entertaining. Those posts will still have tagged TWs regardless.

The Ame-Chan blog!

This blog is like the priv Twitter account that Ame has in-game. Darker posts will go here, and almost everything will be a vent of some kind. If I feel it's necessary, I will also add a 'check the tags' disclaimer at the beginning of the post so you can decide whether you're in the right headspace to read that post.

This blog is essentially a public diary, which means there will be a lot of in-depth description of my current state and any retelling of past trauma. "Traumadumping" about my childhood will be kept at a minimum though.

This also means that I will occasionally post about dreams I have. I rarely have good dreams, and they're almost always some kind of dream relating to trauma. These normally have a different list of TWs to look out for (including the original list).

I will list those below:

Kidnapping

SA (sometimes explicit, but I will likely never go into those details unless I found it particularly distressing. Those will always be under different tags, though)

Running away/homelessness

Survival game type story line

Physical abandonment

Murder

There will likely be more added as this account develops.

Both blogs, but primarily the Ame one, will occasionally mention a P-Chan. This refers to two different people, but I'll never disclose which is which. This is mostly for privacy.

P-Chan 1 refers to a real-life person I know and have a semi-toxic friendship with. If the bpd allegations turn out to be right, I'd assume they're my 'favourite person'.

P-Chan 2 is fake. They don't exist. They're a character in my head who is my ideal person. They exist so that I have someone to project my unhealthy obsession onto instead of the real P-Chan. This often also means posting the intrusive thoughts I have around P-Chan.

OUTRO!!!

I tried to keep this short while having as much info about this page as needed. I hope this can be a safe space for anyone who relates to me and wants to get to know me <33

TL;DR

Mentally ill girl creates blogs to ignore her problems and vent while staying as anonymous as she can. Triggering posts galore, but it will be tagged to the best of my ability

#ooc #introduction post #intro post #trigger warning list #menhera #jirai kei #needy streamer overload #pien kei #ぴえん系 #landmine girl #kangel104 #amechan26

[dmitriene]

welcome to my guidelines page where you can find a little information about me, what i write and the requests you can send, the boundaries of interacting with me and more.

REQUESTS AND ASKS PREVIEW: at the moment my requests are closed outside of requests, you can write in my inbox absolutely calmly, i'm glad to see your questions, words of support, ramblings and anything else, so don’t hesitate to leave me something in there. since this is all new to me, i don’t yet have firm ideas about what i’ll be comfortable working with and what i won’t ― but if your request doesn’t suit me, i’ll definitely let you know and we’ll sort it out, and for this, below i will clarify what is comfortable for me and what is not.

the only thing that is required from you is to describe your request in as much detail as possible so that i understand what exactly you want to see.

LITTLE BIT MORE ABOUT ME ―

as you already have seen, my name is july, i'm multifandom person and especially you can see me in the cod and re side of tumblr, my blog is dedicated to my writing and maybe some personal thoughs.

english is not my native language, i can speak and write on ukrainian, russian, hebrew, english, as well as read and understand, so there can be a bit of a mistakes, please, don't pay attention, or let me know politely how to write this better.

you can refer to me in pet names without any problems and just talk with me without being afraid that maybe it's «too friendly for now» or something like that, be bold, act like i'm your bestfriend, mom or girlfriend.

BLOG RULES AND BOUNDARIES ―

i do can seen interacting with minors, as well as they can interact with my writing, and rushing to say that i don't have any personal problems with them, as well as i don't responsible for what minors see and read there, it's only your choice, so if you want to interact with me even after seeing that my blog is sfw and nsfw ― do it.

also, you can see me interacting with dark content and also sometimes even writing it, so mind that i do read such things and if that's worries you ― don't interact with me.

i'm avoiding talking to bad people, including homophobics, transphobics, racists, basically people that hate someone for who they are, trolls, people that justify pedophilia and other disgusting things, people that send death wishes to someone and just stupid beings.

WRITING RULES AND BOUNDARIES ―

i don't get requests that often, so i haven't written about that many topics, which is why i don't have hard and fast rules about what i won't write about, including some kinks and other things, so you can try suggest something, but i'm not sure if i would able to do it or no, but would let you know immediately.

of course, you can base your requests on my works that you have read, if you are already familiar with me, to avoid any misunderstandings with what i write or not, if you are not familiar or want to know if i can write your idea — don't worry, i don't bite and will definitely answer you.

also, more about your requests — i don't answer in order, probably the first thing i'll write is what i think is easiest at the moment for me and towards which i'll be able to write the plot more freely, but don't worry, i'll answer everyone and do every request i can, just be patient with me, writers need to be sure they can build a plot to what you requested.

SIDE INFORMATION ABOUT MY WRITING ―

my asks always open, if you want to pop something in my inbox, to talk or share ― you are absolutely welcome, i would love to talk and even make new friends, i would answer as soon as i can.

i do not have a writing schedule, but most often i try to post on weekends or just my free days during week, the rest of the time i'm focusing more on my personal life than writing because doing both at a time would make it hard.

i do have a taglist, also, you can see it in the pinned message on my page and here, too, there is a couple of important questions you need to asnwer and then i would be able to add you.

CHARACTERS I CURRENTLY CAN WRITE ABOUT ―

characters from re fandom ― for the most part i can write about any of resident evil characters, if i'll have any problems with any of them i will let you know about it.

characters from cod fandom ― simon ghost riley, könig, john price, kyle garrick, johnny mactavish, phillip graves.

TOPICS ―

˖ִ ࣪ i can write on any topic including anything sensitive, i will write within the limits of your request and wishes, it can be pure porn, smut, pure fluff, comfort, hurt, gore, etc, if i suddenly can't do your request, i'll let you know.

GENDERS ―

˖ִ ࣪ fem reader, male reader, gn reader, i don't have problems with any other genders, but i do have problems to write about them because i can make mistakes, write it incorrect or something else, so i prefer not to get myself into it so as not to have problems.

TYPES OF WORKS ―

˖ִ ࣪ you can request fanfiction, drabble, headcanons and everything else, spill all the things that you have in your head and let me do my work for you, but please notice that the size of the fic may be not as big as you wish for, and i would always notice when i open my requests what you can request and what not, because sometimes i don't have strenght to write a fic or something else.

MY TAGS ―

they are simple, you can understand what either tag mean by just looking on them, the important ones are recommended anyways.

EMOJI ANONS ―

i noticed that many writers have them, so i'm adding this up, but i don't have any right now, so let me know if you want to become an emoji anon and just tell which one, i would add you.

LAST TOUCHES ―

spamming: you can spam like, i don't have any problems with that, it makes me happy to say the truth, so go on

mooties: to the moots, i'm reblogging from side blog, on my main i just prefer to comment or like silently, and also my reblogs on main can lead to minors appearing in someones accont so i don't want such things to happen, just letting know.

if you want to be my moot, you can ask (if that's for you), or just follow me as many, as i mentioned before, i'm open for meeting new people, and i'm really trying to be nice and talkative, leave something warm under your works, in your inboxes, so please, don't ghost me!

#.𐙚navigation #.𐙚dmitriene's quidelines

[personasintro]

hi mimi, omg i literally created an account to tell you that you’re an amazing writer. i’m not much of a reader but i was constantly seeing tiktoks talking about ‘mutual help jk’ and i just had to find out what everyone was talking about. i was hooked immediately, i think i read 20+ chapters in a couple hours because i couldn’t stop reading. you have a gift, your attention to detail and the way you’re able to captivate us with your words is incredible.

i’ve read mh 3 times already and the most recent chapter about 5 times, i think it’s one of my favorite so far. it made me feel every emotion possible. in chapter 53, you can tell how much more the dynamic of their friendship changed but as always, they’re in denial. at first, i had the exact reaction y/n had when jk mentioned inviting ester and the pettiness in me still agrees with her in a sense but i can see where jk is coming from. maybe he truly sees ester as just a friend and that’s why he’s having a hard time seeing why y/n is so angry but at the same time i get her anger. it would’ve been better if it was discussed with everyone before just inviting her. i also remember from a previous chapter where it was mentioned that ester was shy and doesn’t really put herself out there much so the fact that she agreed to the trip, not really being close with anyone other than jk, i commend her tbh because my socially anxious ass could never😩. i know she’s familiar with tae, jimin and y/n but it’s not the same😭

i think y/n’s jealousy stems from two places:

1. she has been the only girl in the group for so long and she’s the closest girl to jk so she feels threatened.

2. although she’s still in denial, her feelings for jk are coming out.

i honestly don’t think jk likes ester more than a friend though and he’s still dealing with the fallout from kiko, no matter how much he tries to mask it, so he won’t jump into something with someone new just yet. plus he’s SLOWLY coming to realize he might have feelings for y/n but that’s just what i think.

i’m curious to see how she’s going to bring up this camping trip to yoongi and invite him as well. i know a lot of people think he’ll just go but i think it’ll take A LOT of convincing to get him to go, he won’t just agree because he’s yoongi so he’s all for himself. maybe if she explains everything really well, he’ll go to see the drama unfold because he likes the entertainment and if yoongi actually goes on this trip, maybe jk’s jealousy will show even more.

who knows, maybe ester and yoongi hit it off on the camping trip💀

okay i’ll stop rambling now but keep up the great work mimi, your talent is wonderful. please don’t ever doubt your skills. if there’s ever a time you feel pressured and things start to feel overwhelming, take a break and focus on yourself.

i can’t wait to see how the next chapter unfolds. take all the time you need, you’re worth the wait💜

Oh my god, I appreciate you creating this account just so you could send me this message 🥹 that’s very sweet of you!

Yes, you’ve got a point and maybe that could be the reason why most readers are on her side — because they relate to that feeling, perhaps even more then she does haha! Everyone has so little faith in jk tho 🥲 like some ppl would be really thinking the worst of him and that is so sad 😖

Thank you again for this feedback! 🫶

#ask #ask: mutual help

[rianafying]

this is not necessarily a happy journal entry but

i’ve had a lot of happy moments lately. and relief. also chaos but that’s nothing unusual, the happiness is. noticed something that made me upset just now. also opened bumble god knows why. i know fully well i don’t want to date, and yet, i opened bumble. it’s not like i have time to kill. in fact, i have no time. there’s so much stuff i’m meant to be doing. i just added a whole bunch of stuff to my master to do list. here comes the hyperventilation. i prayed the other day. i felt so bad that i prayed. can yall imagine how much anxiety it takes to get to a point where i genuinely broke down enough to beg god for help? but it means something. it means i have hope. it means i want things to get better. it means i feel it’s worth it. this is a start contrast to my indifference and disinterest in living last year. things are different now. i am different. nothing changes. everything changes. it feels like a cycle but also there’s something new about it. everytime i regain my will to life. you can’t force these things. it has a mind of its own. also going back to bumble, it’s such a waste of time for me and also it makes me feel a few things: 1) like dating is so strange, i don’t have it in me to do the whole ritual, it’s not organic, it feels forced, and superficial, it’s not for me, not for who i am right now. 2) it makes me think about aspects of myself that i have struggled a lot to make peace with, such as my appearance, my personality etc through the lens of others, like why would i ever subject myself to such torment, when i know i hate being perceived 3) i am too impatient and disinterested to send the first message or to wait for a response and then to carry on a conversation. there’s more points but ill just keep rambling for eternity. why am i even saying all this, why am i thinking so much about it, clearly this has struck something in me, since i feel so strongly about it and am desperately trying to make sense of it. the thing is. i like who i am. i like how things are going. that is not something i can say like ever. but can now. and i’m doing fine. and i do have the time. to be silly. to waste some. i don’t actually have to do the things, i just want to do them. and a break is never long enough to do everything i ever wanted to do. instead i’ll focus on the progress i’ve made, which is anything but little. i should be and i am extremely proud of myself. oh funny thing happened the other day, i accidentally splashed boiling water onto my face and chest when trying to break a bone in my stockpot. and i gave myself a pretty nasty burn that covers more than half my face. the left side. my left. your right. the side with the mole. anyway, so i dealt with it, i’ve been told to avoid exposing my face to the sun or heat in general. so ive been eating a lot of cold foods. and coincidentally watching that episode on gilmore girls where the dragonfly inn catches fire, and sookie can’t use the stoves until the insurance company pays for the contractor to fix them and she lists cold foods, all types of salads and carpaccios. i don’t eat raw meat/fish and i’m over my salad craze. i’m craving a hot roast chicken sandwich with cold tomatoes and zesty mayo on toasted brioche buns. the way i make it. i’m rlly hungry. and there is this lingering melancholy that just grows if i don’t address it every now and then.

for someone who is absolutely terrible at writing, i sure do write a lot. and this is technically writing. right?

even though things are better, i’m not yet okay. my mind still spins too fast. nothing sticks. i’m in distress because my friends are distress. how can we actually be happy if the ones we love are not. so many people so many attachments. it’s been a while since i’ve even had the mental capacity to care for others. i’m hungry as fuck. something is off, something feels bad. is it my hunger. is it my messed up sleep schedule. is it my perpetually cluttered room. is it the pressure of expectations. is it my godawful health, mental or physical. is it eternal.

i can’t fix everything. i can’t fix anything really. i can’t fix things at a rate fast enough to keep up with the pace of destruction. in this life there is too much to fight against. but also too much to fight for. at least i can take solace in the fact that it ends. which is not so much a fact to me as it is a hope. god forbid the heavens exist. i couldn’t take another minute of being, after i have been so relentlessly my whole life. i’m hungry. i’m scared. i’m hopeful. i’m apprehensive. always anticipating danger but never quite ready for it. nothing is ever right enough. except when i find a bit of poetry that changes the fabric of my being. maybe i just need to be receptive in case some poetry finds its way to little old me.

#personal #journal entry

[minhru]

hi hi <3 my name's sun and not only am i super excited to be here, i'm also here to bring you min haru!! (slash the radio host at the sunset galleria slash perpetual daydreamer slash ex-actor-now-a-runaway slash ... u get the gist) but yeah under the cut i have some info abt him which ended up basc being me rambling far too much so pls bare with me whilst i try to rub two brain cells together to come up w a decent tldr @_@ nyways enough of me please like this post if youd like me to hit u up for plotting (i also have disc if thats better) or feel free to message first!! ♡

profile is linked here (x)

min haru, 27, full-time radio host and residential nap-taker

having two very famous actors as parents (think son yejin and hyun bin marriage news level) inevitably meant that he was not only born in seoul, but also under the glare of the much too bright spotlight

shoved into commercials and dramas as soon as he could walk thanks to the helping hand of nepotism and lots of media play

his parents loved each other a lot, both in front of and behind cameras, but for some reason that same affection never really extended to him

they saw him as a stain on their careers more than anything, considering he wasn't really the best actor despite his efforts and esp not compared to his parents

an article about his average performance in the new sbs drama on sundays, 9-10pm slot? netizens leaving negative comments? nothing he didn't hear from mom and dad first, and certainly not half as biting, even though it would be a lie to say they didn't have an impact on his already crumbling confidence

starred in dramas and films throughout his teens, though more often in supporting roles much to his parents' annoyance

rinse, repeat, rinse, repeat up until he hit 20, and his mom was hit with illness after illness and was forced to retire. years of stardom and unhealthy life habits eventually caught up to her and haru was left picking up the pieces, trying to take care of her whilst maintaining the rest of his packed life

haha-hehe-hoho-laugh-out-loud'd as much as he could until he eventually had a pretty public breakdown on the set of a drama (no amount of reporting could delete the behind the scenes video that was plastered over sns) one year later and was subsequently booted

and then, as most of the news outlets say, proceeded to "drop off the face of earth" aka delete all of his social media, move out from his family home and hide from the cameras. very few people know the reality, which is that his dad kicked haru out after he told him he no longer wanted to be in the industry

doesn't keep in contact with his dad anymore but still talks to his mom!! who sends him money etc, helped him for those few years after he disappeared when he shifted from tiny to tinier cities, working odd jobs here and there until the next big actor/actress appeared and the media eventually "forgot" about him considering it had been years

moved to daegu 3 years ago and working at sunset galleria ever since!! he's the v happy radio host @ the sunset radio kiosk, choosing the music that plays throughout the mall alongside reading out stories people send in, passing on comforting messages and reminding people to take care

also has two cats called mimi and momo that he adopted from a rescue :^) not the step dad but the #dad that stepped up

in terms of his personality: walls raised to the sky, quiet, very withdrawn. like very, very, very withdrawn. it's been over six years since he's been in the limelight and he still dislikes being in front of cameras, feeling like he's being perceived or watched, analysed etc etc

the irony of disliking attention yet being a radio host isn't lost on him but haru vc: at least people don't actually see my face at sunset unless they're nosy

perpetually nervous, fidgets a lot, a people-pleaser, very malleable. a genuine medical mystery because he has no back bone and there's very little in the world that can get him to express an emotion stronger than indifference

his tendency to be over-polite and inherently quiet nature means he can come across as rude even if that's the opposite of what he intends

always wearing headphones so he promises he isn't ignoring you, you just caught him at a really bad time

speaking of promising he isn't ignoring you -- he has a bad habit of not replying to texts for days or disappearing and taking a week off work whenever things get too hectic for him it's a habit he hasn't managed to shake off just yet

also embarrassingly clumsy. this might be the third time you've seen him walk straight into the glass doors

there's a difference between being lonely and being alone -- and he's both. paradoxically, he does want to make friends but just has no idea how to approach anyone and hopes that staring at you from a distance is a good first step

loves crocheting :^) like loooveess crocheting :^) just a 6'1" guy and his silly little crochet toys

plots -- i promise i'll scramble together a plots page soon but for now id love to brainstorm and fill in any open plots people want!! to throw out a few ideas

someone who knew him back in seoul; fellow child actor; someone who kept in contact with him after he disappeared; someone who thought he would keep in contact with them after he disappeared and he did not (sorry); childhood best friends; someone who swears they recognise him and he keeps telling you that recurrent delusions are something u need to get checked out; the classic ex-friends or exes; fwbs; avid listeners of sunset radio; you keep running into each other smoking under the "no-smoking" sign; one-sided crush from far away; fellow cat-owner; fellow music enthusiast; ex-fans who can't believe he's actually here; someone who recognises him from his meltdown video but pretends not to, etc etc

#sunsetintro #lets go!!!!!!

[seoafin]

Hii I know I just sent in a message but I didn’t realize u posted chapter 2 of dog days on ur Ao3. So I had to go read it and send u more praise and compliments （>∀<）

“I would find you,” Satoru says calmly, gaze burning. “In another life, I would still find you. The three of us would be together.”

^ this line right here literally made me squeal as I read it. I had to read it over and over to soak it all in.

It reminds me of this quote from Everything Everywhere At Once “In Another Life, I Think I Would Have Really Liked Just Doing Laundry and Taxes With You“.

The idea that Satoru would choose mc and suguru in every universe no matter the other possibilities is such a precious idea to me.

Also I just love how the mc has so much love for everyone in her life despite not being able to accept love easily. Which I strongly relate to😭.

Finally, I read about how you believe there’s no need to differentiate platonic and romantic love. I think the way u worded it was really beautiful. I definitely felt this a lot lately with my friends and I could never put it in the right words but u did it so well!!! The way you write about the idea of love (as well in your fanfics) are amazing and it goes beyond what I used to believe what love was. I’m not the best at explaining myself in words but I am really grateful I came across your writing. I don’t think I would ever find a writer who could convey how I feel almost everyday through their writing than you have. It’s quite funny when you think about how strong a fanfic could make someone feel and relate ｡ﾟ(TヮT)ﾟ｡

Enough of my rant, I hope you get everything you deserve in this lifetime and more! And I will continue to look forward to your writings (≧◡≦) ♡

im so happy you understood that little ramble on the nuances of love and it wasn't confusing! i find that one's standard of living can be dramatically boosted by embracing platonic love to have the same impact as romantic love in your life. or better yet, just not worrying about the distinctions!!!! love is love, just enjoy it!!!! also im sooooooo amazed that my modest little fic reminded you of the amazing eeaao!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!! thank u so so soo much for reading im so happy u enjoyed the chapter weird gojo n all <33333

#i remember i posted on this blog watching eeaao bc i got tickets on opening night and 3 ppl in my inbox were like wtf is that 😭😭 #im giving such a big kiss #i hope u have an amazing day/night #and to write me two long ass comments i adore you!!!! #ddao.fb

[kae-karo]

Now the revelations from the letters, what is your take on that night between Diluc and Kaeya? Did it change anything? Like it’s so good to me to see that they had letters this entire time and It’s fun to think of other interactions they had or etc! Especially with his eye and Diluc’s response to it

HEY HI HELLO ANON DEAR ahhhhhhhh what a GREAT question i feel like i haven't had the chance to ramble about the letters yet lmaoooo. adding a break cause DAMN this got long lmao

first and foremost, the biggest change for my perception of what happened that night is that diluc actually hit kaeya - to be totally honest, up til this point, i actually assumed diluc didn't hit kaeya? based on his vision story, he says "But as the two crossed blades, Kaeya was overcome by the sensation of great elemental power surging through him." (and then he got his vision) (x), which, for me, implied that the vision appeared and stopped diluc's blade from doing any damage? not that it was ever explicitly stated, but that was just how i interpreted that bit of lore! so it did actually surprise me that diluc not only swung at him but swung at his fACE? lsdkfjkdsf diluc really went no holds barred on kaeya lmao

i think the other part that surprised me had more to do with the manga, which led to some false beliefs about kaeya's eyepatch (i feel like this was very eye-opening, pun intended, about how i regard the manga lmao) namely, that kaeya did not have an eyepatch prior to their fight!! and ofc that kaeya's eye is perfectly normal apart from, supposedly, a scar. which begs the question of why it's so important for him to hide it, apart from hyv being like "this is a cool look let's make him look like this all the time" lmao

honestly, my overall take on what happened that night hasn't changed in a super vague sense, though - diluc, overwhelmed and upset from losing his father and suddenly being faced with the fact that his closest friend was placed in mond as a spy for a foreign land, acted brashly and out of pain, and attacked kaeya. kaeya expected and understood diluc's anger, but chose to face diluc as his true self regardless, which is what earned him his vision

from there, they parted ways, though kaeya obviously never stopped worrying over diluc, keeping him updated, etc. and diluc, in spite of his best efforts to pretend he didn't care, still responded twice to kaeya's letters - after his fourth message and again after his ninth (as far as i can tell) - which is just kind of adorable. even when they might have plenty of chances to speak in person, they send each other letters lmao (diluc presumably returned sometime between kaeya's 5th and 6th letters)

ANYWAY i'm getting off track lmao - i don't know that i can extrapolate much canon-wise about diluc's opinions with regards to the damage he did to kaeya's eye, he's clearly very tight-lipped on the matter but i do wonder how he found out prior to his return - i don't believe anyone else mentioned (in the letters diluc kept) that kaeya's eye wasn't blinded in the attack. diluc also says "i suggest you stop mentioning eyes in your letters", which is strange, because of the letters he kept, only the one immediately prior to diluc's response mentions eyes?

whiiiiiiiiiiiiiich begs the question of whether or not other letters existed, and if so, why diluc didn't keep them. or, better yet, why he did keep the ones he did lmao. the ones with "you don't have to reply" and "leave at night, too, so things won't be too saddening. take care" and various proofs of kaeya's efforts to help diluc in whatever ways he's able - really, every letter diluc kept is some proof of his assistance to diluc. i wonder why he'd find those particular qualities of a letter so meaningful :)

as for what kaeya kept - well, again, no proof that these are the only two letters, but the first is the one in which diluc mentions that he knows kaeya wasn't blinded. a fact that he knows somehow prior to his return to mond. the second not only gives clear ambivalence toward the knights of favonius, but diluc also suggests that kaeya take care of himself instead? those sound like begrudging admissions to me lmao - both of diluc's lessened hatred for the knights and, more critically, his concern for kaeya's safety and wellbeing (again, begrudging though it is lmao). whether these are the only two letters diluc ever sent back or they're the only two kaeya chose to keep, it absolutely screams "diluc still cares about kaeya" - enough to inquire via some third party about kaeya's injury as well as to suggest his concern for kaeya's safety in some capacity. i don't blame kaeya for keeping them after all he's been through lmao

given that letters have indeed been exchanged since diluc's return, it makes me wonder 1. how and 2. why lmao like even the letters are more implications than anything concretely stated (on kaeya's part, with regards to the darknight hero) and are clearly not coded since we were able to read them with no issue, so...what purpose does it serve for them to exchange letters when they could speak in person? perhaps it's in order to avoid people meddling - clearly, varka at one point thought he could get them to "improve their relationship" by sending kaeya to chat with diluc about the darknight hero sightings, so perhaps there's clear proof that people can and will meddle if given the chance? and they'd rather avoid that? but i also wonder if diluc's bird does the passing of messages now (i'm also envisioning a cute lil timelapse of kaeya taking care of the bird while diluc was gone 🥺 promising him that diluc would come back, half just in an attempt to convince himself, etc)

anyway the other piece of this is: how recent were the most recent letters exchanged? based on diluc's story quest, he didn't seem to know that kaeya knew (or suspected) that diluc was the darknight hero til the end of that questline, though kaeya's letters (starting at his seventh letter, possibly his sixth) imply he might know or suspect that diluc is the dnh. i'm inclined to believe that the events of diluc's story quest took place between the sixth and seventh letters (where kaeya goes from a more vague suggestion that dnh and diluc would 'get along well' to outright stating that "my lips are sealed") which casts the final letter exchange (kaeya's ninth letter and diluc's second, which was in response to that) in an interesting light. namely that of diluc possibly actually considering working with the knights in some capacity? since it has "objective pros and cons", i'm inclined to insinuate that he knows of at least some pros - perhaps just with regards to cooperating with kaeya as he has been, at least

ANYWAY i feel like i've rambled a lot and not said very much lmao so let me see if i can tl;dr this:

the biggest changes for my perception of that night are that diluc actually hit kaeya, that kaeya hasn't always had an eyepatch, and (i didn't exactly mention this outright but i will now) that they corresponded at least a little during diluc's absence

i think that the letters they kept (or perhaps all the letters there were, if we can believe they kept them all) seem to imply their concern and care for each other - namely, diluc keeping letters that prove kaeya's care for him and his willingness to help/dedication to diluc and kaeya keeping letters that prove diluc cared about him enough to ask about his injury via a 3rd party and to tell him not to worry about his safety and to take care of himself instead

i also find it interesting that they chose to correspond via letters (not coded ones) instead of speaking to each other even after diluc's return, though i'm not sure i can say confidently why i believe that is

i also wonder how recent, exactly, some of these letters are - based on some context from diluc's story quest, maybe some were even sent after the events of the story quest (in this vein, i'm not considering manga events, cause idk how canon/trustworthy they are, given the appearance of kaeya's eyepatch prior to the night of their fight)

anyway thank u for joining me on this journey!!! i probably have Many more thoughts with regards to the contents of kaeya's box so if yall are interested i'm happy to ramble about that as well lmao i just don't think they all relate to the situation between kaeya and diluc lmao

#ask #anon #genshin #genshin impact #kaeya #diluc #hidden strife event

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

Re: inbox infodumping

I’ve gotten back into Hades recently and I really want to be playing it, but I don’t have access to my computer at the moment, so I’m gonna start rambling about the story so far and see where that takes me. You don’t have to read all of it

SO

You play as Zagreus, son of Hades and Persephone, and prince of the underworld. Something I haven’t found out yet happened a long time ago, causing Persephone to leave the underworld for good. Zagreus was raised by Nyx, goddess of night, but realised right before the events of the game that his mother is in fact Persephone. With Nyx’s help, he contacted Olympus to ask for help, and got answers from most of them. They can talk to him but he can’t talk to them, and partly thanks to Nyx, they can’t see him either. They think he’s fighting his way out of the underworld to join them on Olympus, hence the help; he’s actually fighting his way out to find and meet Persephone

So that’s our backstory. So far, I’ve made it to the very end a few times and fought the final boss, Hades himself, at the gates of the underworld. I’ve made it to phase 2 twice but I haven’t quite beaten him yet

I have, however, made some good progress in two subplots:

In the second zone, Asphodel, you can meet Eurydice; she gives you food that can power up the boons the Olympians gave you. You can also meet Orpheus; he’s been sentenced to solitary confinement because he refused to sing, but you can pay to have him brought back to continue serving as Hades’ court musician. However, he still won’t sing

Eventually, Zagreus finds out that they know each other and starts playing messenger. The end of their myth, with Orpheus turning around, seems to have gone kind of like a messy divorce. Eurydice kinda hates him now and wants nothing more to do with him, whereas Orpheus desperately misses her. After a few more conversations with them, you can get Eurydice to write down the song she’s been singing and bring it back to Orpheus. Shortly after, he will start singing it

When you see Eurydice again, she says that you’ve gotten her thinking about Orpheus again and asks what you expect her to do with that. Then gives you food and you leave. That’s as far as I’ve gotten in their storyline, but I do have a prophecy (sort of like a sidequest but not really; you have a list of prophecies like “Zagreus will one day escape the underworld” and you get rewards for fulfilling them) that they will be reunited. And I’ve seen that they sing that song as a duet eventually, but I’ve avoided listening to it before I get to hear it in-game. It’s called Good Riddance, if you want to hear it

Then there’s Achilles. He’s Zagreus’ mentor figure; he taught him how to fight and smuggled him the weapons that you use in escape attempts

When you reach Elysium, you can meet Patroclus, who’s waxing poetic and sitting next to the river Lethe; the one that makes you forget everything when you drink from it. Eventually, Zagreus figures out that Achilles and Patroclus know each other and asks Achilles about it. He asks him to send a message, that he still thinks about Patroclus every day and sends his love. Patroclus doesn’t believe that you actually know Achilles, and I haven’t managed to convince him otherwise yet

After more questions, Achilles will then explain that after he died, he made a pact with Hades; Patroclus would get to go to Elysium instead of Asphodel, and Achilles would serve in the House of Hades for eternity. His logic was that they couldn’t be together regardless, so at least Patroclus gets a better afterlife this way. He doesn’t know that Patroclus doesn’t like Elysium very much, since he doesn’t exactly fit in with the, quote, “braggarts and kings”

And I’m absolutely sure that I can get them reunited at some point, too

So yeah! Hades story! Here’s some random other stuff about that game as well!

Cerberus does guard the gates to the underworld, but he can be bribed with treats because he’s your dog

The boss at the end of Elysium is in fact two people: Theseus and the Minotaur (Asterius). I haven’t learned their backstory just yet, but from what I understand, Theseus somehow and for some reason got Hades to put Asterius in Elysium with him. Anyway, now they’re inseparable. They say they have a brotherhood that Zagreus could never understand. But also, I’m fairly sure Theseus calls Zagreus a homewrecker if/when he starts becoming friends with Asterius. I do know for sure that Asterius reassures Theseus that their bond could never be broken by anyone besides themselves, and to not let Zagreus get in the way of that

I really like Asterius

The weapons have four Aspects each, which are different forms the weapon takes on for different wielders (and each one has a different gimmick that changes how the weapon plays). Each one has one Hidden Aspect, which is a form it will take for someone in the future

And my point here is that in Hades, you can fight the god of the dead himself with the actual Excalibur

And there’s also a dedicated button to pet Cerberus. Great game

Ah yes I have heard of this game but I haven't actually played it yet bc it's a roguelike and roguelike Hard for me. But ooh. Thank yew for the infodump. Any game where you can pet the dog >>>>

#fourth wall mail slot #ghostlycoyote0

[miscling]

Hello

Call me Lin. She/her. If you're not at least 18 dni at all. Don't follow me, don't message me. If I think you're under 18 I'll block you. I'm very interested in finding blogs by people in the UK, who are in the 30-45 age range (similar to myself!). It's okay to follow/interact outside that range though! I'd really like to make lots of new friends of any age!

I'm not new to tumblr, but I've started this blog for hornyposting about kinks and to follow blogs for the fet stuff I like. I'm also queer as fuck, so I'm esp into looking for queer shit to follow. I live in a really dull part of the UK (NE, near Grimsby) so it's also a kind of way to feel like a part of a kinky and queer whole.

I'll probably just sporadically rb stuff based on my kinks. I might start posting some of the kinky fantasies that get stuck in my head, and maybe even write some stories (since I am also a writer). I'd like to find someone to beta-read them at the moment, so I can build up the courage to post some! Scratch that this blog has become a hyperfixation and I'm definitely gonna post stories that pass muster.

I'm using the tag 'Ask Meme' for ask memes, feel free to look one up and send me questions to answer! Copy the questions in so I know which ones to answer! I tag my answers with 'Miscling Answers'. I really like ask memes (I am a complete ask meme slut please don't hesitate I will answer literally anything) so don't be shy! If I reblog an ask meme I'll also send some asks back to you, I'm nice like that.

I also have a lovense wishlist: https://www.lovense.com/wish-list/939q and it would be swell if someone were to gift me toys I could use to play with people on here. I'm a slutty set of holes, a toy for others to use. Fill my mouth, cunt, and ass.

Kinks I practice:

I'm mostly a bottom, but I can switch, I'd be into a sub/sub or switch/switch dynamic with someone.

bondage, the more inescapable the better. Rope especially, but I also love cuffs and padlocks. I am a big fan of stocks and bondage frames, and basically anything that restrains my body.

tickling. I'm a lee, and it's more about the stimulation than anything else. I can't say I'm that ticklish, if I'm being honest.

sensation and sensory play. Stuff like slime, mud, and other goops.

masochism. sharps and biting! I like getting hurt sometimes, and I wouldn't mind a good beating every so often. I'm especially into medieval type tortures and gear.

latex wear, bunny outfits, bondage wear, maid outfits. Dressing up is really fun, if only I was brave enough to post selfies. and it's really east to goad me into sharing my pics if you're nice.

Exhibitionism! I love showing off, from pics to my endless ramblings, I really like just being at the centre of attention.

masks and hoods. I have more than a few masks and I always love adding new ones to my collection. I love wearing masks, even casually.

praise and worship. I'm a good girl, the best. I like being revered and put on a pedestal, but I don't like false or empty praise.

breast milking and nipple play, hucow stuff (moo!). I regularly milk my breasts, though I haven't quite got a good flow yet I'm getting there! I've got some hucow pics on here too: link

Edging. This one's new for me. I knew what edging was, but I didn't know how to get it to work. Someone taught me how, and now I'm a dumb edgeslut who stays horny and compliant. Good girls don't cum without permission, they stay horny and help others get off first.

Hypnosis and conditioning. If I reblog something with a spiral in it, I will tag it as 'hypno gif' so it can be filtered. I am finding hypno and conditioning stuff so hot atm I might just boil off. I am really getting into hypno, and love the idea of being switched off like that. I'm still super new to it, but I'm gaining lots of experience.

Kinks I'm curious about/breaking into:

group, freeuse, drugging, kidnapping, and cnc. I'm definitely not going to go into this sort of thing until I know I'm with someone I can actually trust with my safety, but the thought turns me on.

probably some rp stuff but not much. I want to interact with kink as myself, and get real with it. When I write, I much prefer to work with original characters and settings than work in other canons.

petplay, but I'm a cat, like one of those that sleeps in the corner most of the day, but really likes affection and nuzzles you like a lot.

Into some shit that's more fantasy than reality:

size kinks (I wish I could be like 12in tall or like 12ft tall, I can never decide. I definitely prefer being small, though.)

stuff with ovipositors and breeding, tentacles, and just general purpose monster-fucking.

stuff with robot girls, slime girls, and that sorta thing.

Probably some other things that'll get awakened in me and I'll have to edit in later.

And not into this shit at all:

unnegotiated submission (don't come at me acting like a 'dom')

puppyplay (don't refer to me as anything dog related)

humiliation (don't talk me down and treat me as lesser)

ageplay (I might want a mommy, but I'm so far past being a kid)

sissification (I get it, I do, but I'm a woman, and I do not want to ever be called a sissy or associated with sissification.)

shit and piss (just makes me feel sick)

Basically I like being treated with respect even if we're doing fun kinky shit and I'm not really a person any more. I'd like to talk to people as people, before we negotiate any kind of dynamic.

#About miscling