#one exam down one to go :’)

[strawberry-cowmilk]

I shouldn't be allowed to own these plushies

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me lucifer #asmodeus obey me #obey me shitpost #I have a stats exam tomorrow can you tell I'm going crazy #sadly they didn't fit on the tall white fluffy boots they kept falling down so they sit on the pink ribbon ones instead #don't mind the lid I wore these outside multiple times and I didn't want my floor getting dirty #also yes that is the very asmo doll my neighborhood cat is obsessed with

[hella1975]

ONE EXAM DONE RAGHHHHH

#THAT WENT!!!! NOT AMAZING BUT NOT AWFUL DARE I SAY OKAY??? AVERAGE????? #i submitted ON the minute tho and someone came in to kick me out the study room i was like PLEASEEEE PLEASE PLEASE 😭😭 #they were understanding tho thank god i must have looked a state #im gonna chill for a bit then ive got my fav study pod booked again tonight gbless her 🤞🏼 #every day at 5pm i book pod 9 it’s an ongoing love affair u wouldn’t get it #then I’m going beer garden w my mates to celebrate one exam down THANKGOD i need cider in the sun NOW #ONE EXAM LEFTTTT WOOHOOOOOO THE WORST ONE BUT STILL ONE LEFT OF MY ENTIRE DEGREEEEEE #hella goes to uni

[oatbugs]

idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do

#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second. #remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one. #make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard. #you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper. #she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down #and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep. #there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more #and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true. #you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her. #the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers. #your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts. #learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again. #i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir #youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this. #right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full. #youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother #im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg #just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts. #breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful. #the lack of her is still beautiful

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

Since we all agree legacy is a moth running cat software then he'd probably get zoomies!!!! Like imagine coming home at 3 am because of a work dinner or something and legacy is just sososo happy you're back that he starts running around the house like crazy because he's so excited:(((

oh my moon and stars this is absolutely adorable thank you so much anon

just imagine you get home in the wee hours of the morning, exhausted and wanting to just fall over, which you almost do when you sit to take off your shoes. then suddenly you hear a delighted trill from upstairs, Foul Legacy darting out of his room and down the stairs to scoop you into a tight hug, nuzzling his face into your neck with a chitter before setting you gently down. you smile tiredly, sitting down to watch him sprint around the house, trying to get all that energy out- your hardwood floors are ruined forever from his claws, the skittering making deep gouges, but you don't really mind. eventually Legacy slows to a stop beside you, breathing heavily and shaking out his fur until it's a fluffy cloud, leaning his head against your legs

now you're both exhausted, but leaning against your front door is no way to fall asleep, so with much grumbling you both drag yourselves up into your room and promptly collapse onto your bed with a collective groan. Legacy wearily curls himself around you, resting his head against your chest with a tired rumble as you settle in for sleep. you yawn, then he yawns, and you yawn again, a never-ending cycle until Legacy buries his face into your collarbone and lulls you into a peaceful sleep. he'll insist that you stay home the next day, sleeping late into the morning with him to make up for staying up so late, and when you accept you can see his wings flutter with utter joy <33

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #chit chat #anon #when he's excited Silly Mode activates and he starts zooming around #yeah your wooden floors are absolutely ruined #but that's okay you just put rugs over them #this is making me think of trimming legacy's claws oh my goodness #short scenario #other's stuff #good evening :) #second exam down... one more to go and i gotta wait till THURSDAY ARGH

[kazoologist]

TWO OF MY CLASSES ARE OFFICIALLY OVER WITH AND COMPLETED

#I AM GOING TO WATCH ONE (1) EPISODE OF 100 DAYS TO INDY....AND THEN THE REST OF THE NIGHT IM STUDYING FOR MY EXAM TOMORROW #DATABASES AN INTRODUCTION....PLEASE DO NOT FUCK ME. #kazoo noises #the captain goes down with his scholarship

[manglechanbluh]

Yes Countryhumans in 2023. Trust me I'm more suprised than you.

So yeah I've tried to make designs that match more my current artstyle instead of the ball head ? I'm not sure if it looks cursed or not. And I couldn't miss the occasion to try to draw traditionnal russian outfit.

France + Spain + Usa shitpost down

These songs have been brainworming me for too long BUT I would die to see a MAP made with them or smt. Here the links to these master pieces : The Spain one, the Usa one

#coming out as a countryhumans girlie #Please don't unfollow I swear it's a phase #like I have only 2 other post in mind #:D #the one with spain is inspired by real life event btw #The quality is shitty cuz I'm supposed to study for my exam #but I still took time to do there dumb fingers in different colors #Also I need one bitch in each fandoms with very long hair so I'm going down with the russia as long hair under their ushanka hc #Also if you know the kosovorotka is inspired by the one Danilerusse wears in his videos #countryhumans #countryhumans russia #countryhumans france #countryhumans spain #countryhumans usa #fanart

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[elmax-week2023]

Elmax Week begins in eleven days (see what i did there, i am so funny haha) ! So excited to see what you guys have planned, for this ! Reblog this post with how many prompts and what prompts you are planning to do and your progress on them :D

#elmax #elmaxweek2023 #elmax nation #elmax stranger things #i (as in arian) am going to complete maybe two writing prompts #the rink-o-mania one and the post comatose #i might just do another one but that’s unlikely #i was actually going to do every single day but unfortunately my exams has been squeezed into the last week of august for no reason #i am a quarter in the rink-o-mania one and i have the second fic plotted down!

[flamboyant-king]

I had an Isaac run where it was so stressful my heartrate was at a 145bpm and it persisted for 6 hours. After that, like every day that followed, my heart would just suddenly shoot up to 120-140bpm for an hour if I so much as thought about something I've been stressing over recently. Everybody encouraging me to go to the ER. And I'm just like "Oh please I've actually always been like this, I'm fine." Had to chop down my Adderall dosage. But I swear I've felt like this since high school, but I guess the medicine enhances the feeling and that feeling was ANXIETY.

So, suffice to say, playing The Binding of Isaac™️ almost gave me a heart attack.

#and its not the adderall thats just inducing the heartrate #cause i only got prescribed adderall this year #dad got diagnosed with afib when i was still in school. he rushed himself to the hospital with mom while i was taking a test #i was like what the heck where did you guys go and mom said oh dad was having a heart attack or something and we didnt want to bother you #like WOULDNT YOU TELL YOUR CHILD OH MAYBE YOU WONT SEE YOUR FATHER AFTER WE GO TO THE HOSPITAL BUT FINISH YOUR EXAM BABY #that was like 2020 and we have a couple of those oxygen readers for your fingers and it measures your heartbeat #i out one on for fun im just sitting there at the dinner table and my heartrate was at 120 #like i didnt do anything we been stuck at home because pandemic and we just having a nice dinner #and my heartbeat was just thats my resting heartrate. they told me to try the blood pressure thing #average blood pressure but truly my heartbeat was just vibing at 120. mis padres were like oh no maybe you have afib too #babes youre too young to have that. and i jsut said oh is that what it means when im nauseous and have to lie down #i havent been diagnosed with anything. i suspect is tachycardia but no official thing #although i havent seen a cardiologist. what if we pay to get a screening and its nothing #i dont want to go thru all that and let it be nothing. lets wait until its a real problem #when my brother and his family visited just like what two weeks ago he was like #he was sitting on moms exercise bike and said it reads your heartrate #and it did you put your hands on the handle and it reads yer pulse #i told him like oooh let me try. hey brother my resting heartrate is 120 a lot. and hes like. what. get on this thing #and i get off the couch literally resting and lay my hands on the handles #and we see it go up. from 80 to 90 to 100 to 110 to 120 and hes a nurse and my moms a nurse and he says go upstairs and rest #dont hang out here with the kids. and im like ha i already told mom #he said sit there for ten minutes dont do anythingg and were trying again #he got mom to call our doctor and my doctor said to stop taking the adderall which is NOT IDEAL theres worse repurcussions to stop cold #so i cut mine in half. cause i had a dosage of 20mg and i almost fainted at work. we died the dosage down to 15 #but after all that i cut my 15 down to 7.5 cause hey i cant stop cold but i can ween myself #brother said i shouldnt be taking adderall if im not doing anything that requires focus. but im like i need focus to live man #look at how much ive been drawing...i mean its only in like hour long intervals but its productive #so theres that. i can feel my heartrate already up but i guess its just a thing with me...anywho #doodles #the binding of isaac

[strawbs-screaming]

looking through my old messages is so traumatizing i want to go back in time and kick myself in the stomach like what possessed you...

#biggest “WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT” moment in my life tbh #the only thing that didnt make me cringe is me calling my brother a “mayo snorting goblin” #2020 me kinda ate that up #2021-2022 was def something tbh #i wore pink cat ears. i think thats all you need to know #ohh this is def going to keep my dumbass awake at night #ı was cringe but i was free and im proud of past me for that #it was one of my worst years but like... kick ass #<- by worst i mean mentally horrid in a way that changed me forever #speaking of 2021-2022.. my old chosen names were absolutely CRIMINAL #the first one was felony (which i still kinda dig but in a cunty way) the second one was ciel which i think is cool #but heres the bomb: one of my old chosen names was cereal. CEREAL #i think ted takes the cake tho. what evil soul possessed me to choose ted as a name #also constantine waa one of my old names which is actually fucking awesome #eıhjfjfjf i have a science exam tomorrow and im on tumblr infodumping about 2021 me uhhhf #i jumped through so many hoops to get to this blog #2020 somehow knew something transgender was going down and decided to get a haircut and boom. gender #DYSPHORIA THAT IS GET PRANKED LOSER #shout out to 2020 me for figuring out whats up #not sorry about the incoherent screaming. im autistic and i am full of violence

[siriuslynephilim]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[ashesforart]

KISS RN 💥💥 DO IT KISS KISS RIGHT NOW I DARE U 💥💥 BET U WON'T

#fucking finally finished my final project #one final + one project down #two final exams to go!! #then I'm done for the semester thank god #back to this hellsite (affectionate) #bbc merlin #ash posts #merthur

[clarabowmp3]

like I’ve been generally fine in my teenage years (no more unhappier than from the average dose of teen angst) but man do I miss the excitement I’d get from those fantasy Geronimo Stilton books

#like my worldview on life was so different then #Obv it was Pri school so it was more chill (I was arguably too chill and messed up my psle) #But you know what I’m actually so fine w that! I’m happy that at least in some point in my life studies weren’t hanging over my head #Like a guillotine #And I would find so much joy in the little things like hell yeah new book!!! #because a part of me feels like I’m never going to feel that undiluted childlike joy ever again #And I’ve killed myself so much on every exam since #baby me deserved to have a little happiness in her life #I still think 12 is way too young for the first major board exam #Esp one so heavily surrounded by stigmas/reputation/prestige of the school you get into #like you’re setting a child up for the rest of their life and they’re not even a teen yet #thankfully it’s gotten a lot better (in terms of tangible change in sg societys mindset) #but god was it brutal for me in 2018/2019 #anyways trip down memory lane over heheh

[spiderwebd]

hiii.. ty for all of the nicey tags on my art btw..... means a lot :D ♥♥♥!!

GWAH.... ARTIST RECOGNITION HI!!!! WAVES AT YOU!! YW I ADORE YOUR SILLY ART A LOT!!!

#/Gen btw I eat your art for 4 am breakfast/silly #Jdjdjrbnrndnsnnfjfjfjd sguys this is the second one today what #Guys stop bejfn nice to me it's scary I need the luck for my exams guys guys please/silly #Polkka posts #Hiiii your art style is so scrunkly I wanna absorb it and turn it into mine/silly+pos #Asks #I'm going insane is God gonna strike me down for this or what why are you guys so nice to me sobs/silly

[cuddlingsun]

.

#just passed my first of five last few classes before i start my thesis #or theses even #and then finish my studies #i nearly shat myself but my god. it is very fun to do an exam at home in your pyjamas. i admit it was very funny #i also said i have a plushie called willem/wilhelmus and that was only funny to one of the two guys so i guess i did make a fool of myself #but it was worth it! #he called my knowledge of securty rights 'impressive' #im going to write that down and frame it #anyway thank you for reading this im going back to giggling

[deancaskiss]

it’s official! I passed my OSCE this morning and I can officially graduate vet school at the end of may!! now all I need to do is pass the NAVLE in april and get my license!

#baz’s babbling #one big exam down! one to go!