#okay i'm done rambling lmao

[berry--blonde]

So I got into League..........

#ahri #ahri lol #ahri league of legends #kda ahri #league of legends #kda #leagueoflegends #my art #yes after weeks if not more of no art on here the first thing you get is league art #ahri is not my main btw she's my friend's main who got me into it i just think she pretty #i mainly play bott lane both adc and support #mostly support lux rn tho #okay i'm done rambling lmao

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a digital drawing of Hunter and Willow from the owl house based on the "lesbians doing makeup" meme. Hunter is lying beneath Willow, who straddles him while doing his makeup. He looks at her somewhat dazed and she looks at him fondly. the background is a mid-tone blue. End ID]

This is what they are. To me

#the owl house #toh #hunter toh #willow park #huntlow #this the. 3rd? huntlow meme redraw I've done? #it's fun okay? #yesterday and today were pretty okay but they left me WIPED OUT and this was all i could make lmao #i probably could've spent more time on this but also it was just a silly meme redraw for fun lol it doesn't have to be the mona lisa #<- saying that through gritted teeth btw. it does not have to be the mona lisa #man I'm even too tired for tag rambles i do not have much to say #i will say that i contemplated doing this with amity and willow instead but I'm not super huge into them romantically #hence i figured that as much as i love the off-screen makeover Amity gave willow in s2 (that i lowkey wish ppl did more with) #I'd prefer to indulge myself this once lol #she's gonna give him red eyeshadow i think :] #i was gonna try and draw each of them with more makeup but it straight up didn't look right in my style lol #so uh. just imagine #okay i gotta go listen to music like my life depends on it hope u guys enjoy

[siliconforbrains]

Okay, it's like 10pm on a work night and I haven't had any coffee today so my thoughts are a little scrambled BUT. I WAS THINKING.

(About In Stars and Time of course I'm always thinking about that game)

A couple of years ago, at the height of Steddie -my sister was big into it and recced me some fics okay- I read this fic about Steve dealing with time loops ("The one in which a time loop is fucking exhausting" by badpancake) and there was this specific detail about the epilogue that stuck with me.

It was the idea that, once the time loops were done and over with, people would slowly start to remember bits and pieces of what happened in earlier loops. After being fractured for so long across dozens of timelines and experiences and outcomes, time was finally healing, and broken shards of lost memories would find their way back into people's minds.

And that got me thinking about a post-game what-if scenario where the same happens to the gang as they travel through Vaugarde.

Like they still don't remember everything -just bits and pieces. Experiences so emotionally charged that they found a way to cross the sands of time and reach them again.

The question is, what would those memories be? The first answer that comes to mind is some of Siffrin's deaths, of course. I can't imagine watching your friend get pancake-d by a boulder would be pleasant, nor witnessing them turning their own dagger to themselves. Or offering him a slice of your favorite snack only for him to go into anaphylactic shock in front of your very eyes, for that matter!

But there would be other instances too, wouldn't they? Death is not the only thing that shook them to their core. What about their first death to the King? Or Bonnie's fate at the end of Act 3? What about basking in the blissful feeling of victory against the tormentor of your land only to turn to look at your friend and know something is very, very wrong?

What about fighting through the House with a party of 4 instead of 5, bloodied, confused, staring in the face of the King knowing you're about to die and wondering why your friend left you all when you needed them most?

I honestly have no idea where I'm going with this, but I've been rotating this concept in my head since this morning and thought I'd get it out on here so y'all can suffer with me tehee

#maxisrambling #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #isat siffrin #i genuinely don't know if i'd ever write a fic about this concept #esp bc i already have like 3 wips im working on and i don't need another #but if i ever were to it would be like. a post-game fic where the party realizes just how bad the loops were #how they affected siffrin and how they mightve affected /them/ #(bc love this found family to death but siffrin probably downplays a lot of the loops stuff until confronted /lh) #and meanwhile sif has to deal with the knowledge that his family is remembering things he never wanted them to remember #seeing things they never shouldve seen #and is probably filled with a fuckton of guilt about that bc even now that the loops are broken they're hurting them #they all need a hug oh my god #OFC it would have a happy hopeful ending but NSDJKVNDJKFV angst hurt/comfort <3 #okay im done rambling hopefully this makes sense #im gonna go pass out now id say sorry but I'm not lmao xoxo

[daipeanutsaiban]

A Victorian couple. (Leyendecker redraw)

#the great ace attorney #tgaa #tgaa spoilers #dgs spoilers #klint van zieks #klimt van zieks #lady baskerville #<- isn't it madam van zieks tbh (though i like that she has at least a last name) #i'm glad i didnt rush this one.. i think i started it one or two months ago? #i like painting because since it's more time consuming i get to really think about the characters and what kind of thoughts they were havin #at that moment... in this one i'd say the professor killings have already started. kvz looks quite grim here compared to how silly i usuall #depict him lol #anyways! move outta the way gayboy im about to get it #i wanna do this with mr asougi (gen-chan..💖) as well at some point #OKAY done rambling <3 idk if anyone reads this far but if u do hiii. the joys of following daipeanutsaiban on tumblr: chatter for days #scheduled #help i forgot the ship tags im not retyping all that. #klintville #baskerzieks #fun fact: the ship name for klint and the name i gave lady (primrose) would be *drumroll* ...PRINT....lmao....

[lucy-ghoul]

why are you, as an adult in 2024, still hung up on reylo. why are you still mocking the shippers. why do you believe yourself to be superior only because you dislike a stupid ship from a fucking space fairytale. girl (gnc) get a grip

#it's ridiculous. this ship is... stupidly cliché. like if you know fandoms at all #you could easily guess why people would be into it. hello?? have you tried to watch tfa without your hate-on-kyle-ron goggles? #did you watch their scenes together? you don't have to like something to recognize the hints #hell. at the time i didn't really like jonerys but i realized they were going to be a thing when i read agot in 2011 #like folks. it's been nearly TEN LONG YEARS. let it go. LET IT FUCKING GOOOO #and for the lucy/cooper shippers out there who think reylos are (again) delusional when they compare the two ships: #no. *you* are being delusional only because you think reylo is unsexy and uncool (which is your right to think btw. obv) #if you can't see why someone would like both of these pairings for similar reasons... idk what to say honestly #people compared it to hannigram... honestly. again i see why they would appeal to anyone who's into both ships #i really do. but... unpopular opinion (since i'm more of a clannibal fan than i could ever be of reylo): #they are more similar to reylo than will/hannibal. there i said it #i'm not talking about the writing (admittedly the quality of it was questionable). i'm talking about tropes #never mind that imo the ghoul is more akin to vader than kylo but whatever #hannibal is an unapologetic kind of villain. he's not gonna have a redemption arc and that's okay #cooper is an antivillain who used to be a good man and became a disfigured cruel bastard. a parody of himself #lucy is him. him before the bombs dropped before he discovered the person he trusted the most wanted to commit genocide #nice. moral. polite. infused with the Good Old American Values™. he's basically her dark side #all of this is very hannigram/clannibal. i'm not denying it at all #but what'll likely happen is that lucy's actions will have a positive influence on the ghoul and remind him of what it means to be a man #and that's way more reylo-like. sorry. #beauty&thebeast/villain with some hidden good in him+morally righteous heroine/enemies to lovers etc. #i mean. hello??..... having said that. i'm not so much of a reylo shipper anymore and tbh never was. i really liked it at the time #but i was never fond of the st era. my fav characters are vader and leia and revan from the old eu. just saying #*and* it's also not impossible lucy gets darker with the ghoul as her traveling companion. in fact i wouldn't dislike it at all #if done well i mean #but i would still like for people to be intellectually honest and less puerile. god knows i have my notps #but i really don't give a fuck about the shippers. good for them i guess? i have better taste lmao but that's heavily subjective #val rambles in the tags #val speaks #txt

[ahollowgrave]

Hiiii do you have any more writings or musings about None? I was in your writing tag the other night and they came up a couple times but I'm not sure if I should be picturing a miqo'te or some sort of service animal/familiar lol

Hello! That's so fair, my Odette writings do not offer a lot of description for them! They do have their own tag [HERE] although not much is in it, currently. Some of the screenshots I'm including here and the writings which you've already seen! I'm very sorry for how rambling this is but None is where a lot of alts and relationships spawn from! None is neither a miqo'te nor a service animal (though I think they'd give a huff at the title)! None is the saddest creature in the whole world, a widower, Odette's favorite lil guy, Gerry's estranged step-parent, and a Lalafell:

A Lalafell ranger who makes their living guiding people through the Shroud. These days they are 'mostly' retired. They're well past their middle age and when they were younger they made a deal with sylphs. To be fleet-footed and quick and the best hunter. It came with some side effects:

They wear a hat to cover the ears. It's a bit silly to have two sets and, frankly, None doesn't wanna talk about it. They are stoic, pragmatic, and a bit of a hermit when they can afford it. None is a widower, their late wife was an duskwight woman named Aloutte, who was a widow herself with a young child; Geraldine. None and Gerry were never close and in the wake of Aloutte's passing that distant only grew. None and Odette met at the Menphina temple she was raised at. The Sisters there offer grief counseling and when Aloutte first fell sick she made them go to make the transition easier. A child at the time, Odette was obsessed from the moment they met. A pale shadow trailing after them. Where None failed with Gerry, they bonded with Odette. After Aloutte's passing None returned to the temple to live long term, some grievers need more support than others, they and Odette spent a lot of time together. They very much fill a uncle/aunt role for Odette; a trusted advisor who isn't the adults who raised her. When Odette took her vows and started to travel it was None who traveled with her, taught her basic outdoors skills, bought her Beauty and taught her how to care for chocobos. When Odette has to leave her flock of karakul to travel it is None she calls to care for them. Also, while Aloutte's loss and the grief that follows is very important to None as a character I feel it is important to note they were the saddest creature in the whole world before they knew the warmth of Aloutte's embrace! Sometimes you're just born with a heavy heart, you know? Because of how important they are to Odette. Odile... fucking hates their guts. Oooh, she hates their guts so much!!! The feeling is mutual and Odile and None have come to blows a few times. Something they both keep from Odette; None because they don't want to make her worry, Odile because she'll use the information to drive a wedge at some point. None also features in Odette's WoL AU, they're an honorary scion and spend most of their time with the other off-screen members. They spend time with Krile and Tatatru discussing lalafell things and I like to imagine that F'lhaminn and None have a lot to talk about. This is... pretty long so I will stop here! But I hope this satisfies some curiosity about None and thank you SO MUCH for asking about them!

#Answered #None #whooo boy this doesn't even touch on how #Iron's alt Lia is a former lover of Aloutte's and how Lia and None remain close to this day #and that Gerry is Lia's ward and one of her students #and that Gerry and Prudence have a toxic yuri onagain/off again relationship #and that Gerry is real envious of Odette because of Odette's relationship with both Lia and None (very different relationships mind) #and that Prudence and None get along just fine which also causes problems with Gerry and Prudence (Why isn't prudence on HER side) #(There are no sides) #(just two people lost in grief) #(but also gerry was the child (adult with Aloutte died and nearly an adult when None and Aloutte met and married but still) #but none was never going to be a parent and was never going to marry #but aloutte was a force of nature and you don't resist nature for long !!! #anyway hello I had a period of time where I was having people lie to me all the time (like about having cancer) and so I made #a bunch of alts to have my own complicated family dynamics so I didn't have to keep rewriting things when I learned people were awful #and then Iron and I went “Hey. We should entangled our characters stories so much.” and it's been very fun ever since LMAO #anyway woof sorry to keep rambling in the tags #but man now I'm starting to ship None/F'lhaminn......... #Also None was sort of a Prudence Rough Draft #isn't that insane??? #that's why they have such similar coloring LMAO #but now they're very different aside from being :| and good at their jobs #okay i'm done now #sorry you stumbled into asking about one of my favorite alts that I never play :weeps:

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #that's it that's the only tags i am putting this in. maybe someday i will have the balls to do more but for now that's about it #while i have the chance - and since posts with more of my yapping in the tags don't pop in people's feeds much - i might as well ramble- #-about these guys here. self-inserts or not i'm projecting only half of my bullshit on each one of them. creativity 👍 #backup is tall and pale and has sharp canines and more of a dull brown hair colour with tired grey eyes. no amount of babyface or soft- #-hands can really help a motherfucker when he's grimacing so much because he just Hates being around half the people on the team. #cleaner meanwhile is on the shorter side and has constantly flushed skin and brighter colours and whatnot. you can't see it because of the- #-mask most of the time but they do smile a lot more and have a more cheery disposition towards life and see the whole team as their friends! #backup transitioned fully (albeit not very legally lmao) and is scared shitless of not being seen as a man although the last time that ever- #-came up was years ago. he holds onto his last name as part of the heritage he loves and loathes at the same time - attached to his culture- #-and religion and bloodline while also resentful of his family and the regime he knows someone else on the team suffered under. #cleaner just kinda binds and calls it a day. he only does it to confuse the team because while he doesn't identify with being a girl he- #-loves the confused looks his epic gender reveal moment gets. they do not remember their family name or where they grew up or what even got- #-them to this kind of mental state. and he's chill with it he values the here and now way more than some dark edgy backstory. #backup despite trying to be an honest man is afraid of vulnerability as well. he stubbornly refuses to express love towards certain people- #-lest they feel disgusted and turn away. he's afraid of consequences afraid of losing the people he loves afraid of his ''interests'' being- #-what drives them away. it doesn't by the way and he just wasted time being a cold indecisive loser for several months lmao #cleaner wears a suit that hides all of them yes but they pretty much never lie. he is always his truest self and he can always just burn- #-people who don't like him enough to make it a problem. they are a lot more comfortable indulging in their interests - be they innocent- #-and juvenile or violent and dangerous. he is quite open with his affection and his fascinations that backup would rather keep secret. #i want to establish that these two can only exist in separate universes because they both have feelings towards the funny assistant lady- #-and the funny inventor guy (selfshipping for the winnn) and would fight over those two. cleaner would win by the way #it's also a really funny point of comparison. cleaner is objectively more fucked up than backup and still managed to be more normal about- #-their feelings and live as a healthier and happier person than that guy. comedic gold honestly #OKAY I'M DONE if you read up to here you get uhhh a cookie :-)

[linkswife]

A forehead kiss a day, keeps the sadge away.

#astarion #astarion x tav #mc: amelia #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #look I know this kiss is bugged but listen...this angle make it look like a forehead kiss and I'm just ksjdhfksdhfhsdfs #if amelia or astarion was sad they would give forehead kissys to each other followed by hug #i love my soft astarion okay leave me alone xD lol #I don't have the free cam mod so sadly can't see this in different angles cause that waist grab thooooo 🥴🥴 #but I'm okay with this its good enough for me💚💚 #okay done with my stupid rambles probably sick of it lmao

[fushigurro]

idk if i'm actually writing any more often than i previously was, but it feels like it—or at least feels a little bit easier—and i'm rather pleased with that alone

i know i'm not cranking out full-length multichap fics or anything like that, but even just being able to drabble or whatever once or maybe twice a week feels like such an improvement. i'm able to at least turn some of my thoughts into something tangible instead of letting them all get lost to the chaotic void, and that's so much more satisfying. i don't feel like i'm struggling as much to put the little pieces or sequences together either, no matter how simple.

#rambles. #idk if it's the meds or just a little creativity burst/fluke/me kidding myself but. i'll take it for now lmao #i just hope that it is the adderall and that i can continue to get semi-consistent results of like. being a more functional human being #having more streamlined thoughts instead of feeling like there's 10 cracked out squirrels in my brain and body all at once is nice lol #okay sorry for the journal entry i'm done now

[churchydragon]

I already knew I had no interest in Palworld when they showed the guns and slavery of the Pals in the first trailer but hearing that not only has the company dabbled in NFTs and AI but there's also HUMAN slavery AND the farms are called plantations has just totally turned me off. why did the devs think that was even slightly appropriate in this fucking day and age?

like I DO think we need an open world survival Pokemon-esq game, we really do. but not Palworld. hopefully Kindred Fates will fill that void properly, in a responsible, not overly and poorly thought out edgy way.

#granted if they make it clear in the game that the slavery is Bad and there are better ways to do the things you need to do #then that's slightly better. Morrowind has slavery in it too but it makes it very clear that it's Bad #and in quests involving them they give you options to help the slaves out and allow you to free them (two Telvanni quests come to mind) #it's not great but it's slightly better. but like. if it's like the guns then I suspect it's in there just to be edgy and “cool” #which isn't okay and shouldn't be defended. that's not okay. that's not ever okay. #and it sucks cuz again we do need a game like Palworld but without all the terrible things! Nintendo has been slacking hard and also #they been playing it way too safe and I feel like anything they make will kinda fall short #I enjoyed Scarlet and Violet but I feel like they could have done a little more if they were braver #and also. you know. payed their workers and didn't push out a new Pokemon every year. #give it time to sit so new ideas can develop properly. come on now. #anyways I have no idea if any of this is really coherent or just a rapid flow of thoughts. whatever #I'm excited for Kindred Fates. it comes out this year supposedly so I'm gonna grab that when I can #also there's nothing wrong with edgy concepts in video games. Palworld just does it badly to me #and as always people are allowed to like the game but. use some critical thinking #I've seen little bits of the game that look really fun. I've just been totally disillusioned to it lmao #I am gonna be sus of anyone accusing people of being moral crusaders for calling the game out for the slavery tho. that's sus as fuck #churchy talks #churchy tag rambles

[altruistic-meme]

dear Abram,

i hope there have been Gentle Moments between the Horrors. dont forget to take it easy, but Take It.

how has the Horrors been going, by the way? last posting i recall you were halfway to acquiring a Vehicle? how goes The Hunt?

with much love,

Milo

P.S.

thank you milo ;;;

there have been some gentle moments!! despite everything, there have been a few good moments this month :) including cat cuddles. i have gotten so much cat cuddles and boy did i need it.

the Horrors. man. i have now MOSTLY acquired my car! unfortunately there was a mix-up while at the bank which means i have to go back again tomorrow, and to the dealer as well, BUT the dealer was very VERY nice and he let me ""borrow"" the car i'm buying since he knew i was actively without a car right now. so the car is parked outside!! i get to drive it!! i have it now!! i just have to finish up with all the financing stuff :') and also with dealing with my sad little VW rip

the rest of the Horrors........ well. i've mostly only talked about my car here bc it's the only one that i can have any like actual control over and it's the only one where it's like "ok this is an issue and this is how it gets solved and all of these things are achievable" so i've been making myself put most of my focus on it since it IS the only issue this month that i CAN solve. the rest is stuff that. sigh. 2 of my family members died this month, one of which was my last living grandparent. and it sucks!! and my mom is currently halfway across the country having to deal with all of the paperwork and logistics of that more-or-less alone.

i know my job has bereavement leave, and i have been deeply considering figuring out how to use it so that i can go see my mom and give her some support. but i can't afford time without pay so i need to figure out if it's paid or not. OUGH.

but SOME good! like my new car being so fucking funny to me. it has push to start. it has android auto. it is so fancy. also it has roll-up windows. and little knobs for the side mirrors. i die. the contrast. her name is also Tails in honor of my favorite Sonic character. and she will be getting flower magnets.

and TSC coming out!! and rewatching Bungo Stray Dogs!!

and Blue! Blue is good too :)

#sorry for the rambling just. HHHHH. #it's hard to actually think or talk about especially with my family #cus we're all kind of going through it because of The Everything and they just aren't well known for #actually listening to me or comforting me so :') #but yay bird!!! #and also yay for blue!! #my mom is thankfully not ENTIRELY alone she does have more family out there #but #we aren't super close with most of our family so i'm grateful she has my cousins and their families out there with her #but also her sisters are... expected to be Issues. although again my cousins have apparently already offered to be body guards for her lmao #still though. it's different than having me and my siblings and my dad with her cus we're all still in GA #my dad having stayed behind so he could help us deal with the everything here #and play middle man so we could be updated on what was going on without putting it on our mom along with everything else #and just. yeah. april sucks. we hate april now. i'm so glad my birthday is only ALMOST in april but it ISNT thank FUCK. #fuck april!! worst month ever!!!!!!! #old man blue #askers #cozy-fish-crow #shh ac #okay i'm done ranting now ;;;; gonna see what sweets i might still have to consume

[flaming-toads]

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#i am so very tired today #the 3 cups coffee this morning has done nothing to help me #allergies are driving me batty #feeling silly tho #might draw dumb stuff later #if i had it my way i would be all cozy in bed and reading or drawing but alas #responsibilities -c- #eyes want to stay closed #hey also what would the ship name be for hackle+mcgonagall? mchackle? Lmao I DONT HAVE A SKETCH OKAY LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEE #toad rambles #i'm leaving lol #it's lunch time

[christopher067]

Hi hi hi!! I was wondering if you would be willing to ever open commissions or if you would be okay with people contacting you for help figuring out how to make CC on their own?? :)

hiiiiiii ♥ yes of course !! i'm always up to try and help! :) now i can't promise to actually be any help lol but i will try ♥ also i probably won't ever do any commissions or anything like that because i think it would make me too anxious lmao 🫠 but my messages are always open ♥♥

#ask #anon #anonymous #yeahhh idk about commissions #i've been asked a few times over the years but would feel too much pressure i think #like even on patreon i overthink it so much since you are literally paying me technically #and i feel so bad that i keep y'all hanging on there #but i just get so annnxxxious over it idk #this literally has nothing to do with the ask now lmao #but i guess all that to say #i do have plans for patreon stuff! ♥ just need some more time to make it worth it #okay i'm done rambling its 3am so we can alllll blame that for this lol

[orbdotexe]

(This is... an old post I just rediscovered in my drafts, and figured "oh hey, i haven't been posting a lot again, why not". it is another song post tho so might be annoying, but blehh. Mostly unedited:)

I think it is a well known fact at this point that I am extremely unwell about Crane Wives songs and Exile. so here's another post about both bc... hhhhhnnm. exile. and its 3am again. uh

anyway, I know I talked to Cryptid awhile back about Canary In A Coal Mine, but I'm listening to it again (and again. and again) and the Brainrot is Bad.

You and I are friends of empty graves, black air and black, black lungs Am I the only thing that keeps you safe when the light is gone?

I hear the word "grave" and think. That Grave. i Will cry if someone makes me go into detail about my thoughts on it again (this is an invitation) On a. slightly more normal note. Wolf to Crow. He's taken up their mantle as the Hero of the City, it's beloved champion and symbol of hope. The two of them are the canaries - when things go wrong, they take the fall. Also consider, for the first line: Red War and graves that couldn't be filled, with bodies that were never found.

But if in the end I lose my voice Will you forget about your love for me?

I just keep thinking about when Forsaken comes and goes, and the Vanguard getting no response from Ghost and Wolf - But also when they're exiled without being given a chance to defend themself. They lost their voice, and their home - their family.

Their Nightmare of the Speaker, in Haunted, taunts them for being unable to speak up for themself and saying they deserve it for thinking they were enough to stand against the Darkness (or even enough at all). They barely stand up to him there, either.

"But I still hold out hope that maybe someday / I'll be worth more than all the silence left in my wake"

My brain keeps defaulting to my own bs, so I'm inflicting it again bc it might as well be the only thing I think about ever: "(...) self-destructing and giving their last, accepting that they could never be understood in life and letting go so that maybe they could be understood in death."

"And when you break the surface all without me / Please don't return me to the dark of all the memories"

"Know that all my love will be your breath. I will save you when your lights go out."

if you don't already know what the deal about canaries is (I have no idea how big of a thing it is), canaries were historically used by coal miners to tell when the oxygen was getting too toxic to be breathable. When the canary got lethargic and stopped singing, the miners knew to get out. hence the "Canary Curse" on the guy who dies first every season. F

#old tags: #The Forsaken Exile #Orb rambles #never let anyone tell you i'm any form of sane. #but the Crane Wives are SO GOOD please please go listen to them #if you don't like a song the first time. listen to it a second time #because all of my favorite songs by them have been like that #the moon will sing. the hand that feeds. curses. tongues and teeth. All of them #you should also listen to all of them btw #songs songs songs songs i love. songs. yes i am a perfectly normal destiny player i promise what are you talking about #also how the hell does mr. Canary Curse manage to do that. how is he the first out of the game every single time #poor guy is getting drawn with canary wings now #new tags: #i have no idea why i never posted this? it might've been that i had been posting a lot of song posts. idk #this is from july 1st... god okay its been almost 6 months #on another note- #Heyyyyy Mr. Canary Curse wasn't dead first this past season! #saw some headcanons that mumbo (? who died first) was held in some purgatory until jimmy actually died #so the curse was still upheld. p cool idea #but you guys also probably have no idea what im talking about so. im done lmao

[ziskandra]

💞 🕯️ and 🎀 for the fic writer asks <3

💞what's the most important part of a story for you?

I think what's most important to me is the narrative (which to me is different to the plot, especially as I often write shorter works). Every time I write something, I tend to ask myself (in one way or another)

why am I writing this story (is it for an event? another gift? am I unable to contain my blorbo brainrot? am I trying to make sense of canon? etc.)

why am I writing this story (as opposed to the multitudes of other things I could be writing)

why am I writing this story (what part of myself am I sharing with the world? How do the emotions and events resonate with me?)

Sometimes the answer is as simple as '"friend things character X is sexy and I want to make friend happy :)" and other times, it's a bit more complicated than that 😅 🕯️ was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you? Oh gosh, I think the fic that had the biggest unexpected affect on me was the blackest night, the kid!meredith fic I wrote for @debts-to-the-dead for the neurodiversity flash last year! Ever since @venatohru and I tumbled into the depths of Meredith hell last year, we'd talked about how Meredith's sister Amelia displays a lot more... stereotypical autistic traits, for lack of a better word, and that eventually led to us discussing how Meredith herself could also quite easily be read as autistic (albeit with a different presentation). And as a sensory-seeking, socially confident autistic myself, I wanted to explore this depiction more in fiction... hence the fic! What I was not as aware of at the time was that one of the reasons Meredith really resonates with me is the survivor guilt: how do I stop something like this happening again? How can I prevent others from feeling that pain? How can I save myself from feeling this pain again? It is especially poignant to me that Amelia was Meredith's older sister, because the person I lost was also like an older sister to me, and I feel like that's a dynamic that's not explored as much when it comes to depicting grief in fiction. Often it's dealing with the loss of a younger sibling, or a much-idolised older sibling. But I feel especially with a close-fin-age older sibling, there's still that feeling of "I should have been able to do something", but it's coupled with that frankly terrifying and overwhelming realisation of "if the Actual Adults couldn't do anything, then what could I have done?" But instead of the thoughts cancelling each other out as they should, it just results in despair x 2. Because, like, what do you do when the person who you've known your entire life is no longer there any more? What if it's someone who was both a great source of love and also pain? What if your parents compared you so often you barely knew where you ended and they began? And then... they're just. Gone. my own experiences with grief were just. something I kind of tiptoed around until I started working on that fic, and as I wrote it it's like every repressed feeling I had about the situation just rushed into my brain at once and oh boy. I think if it hadn't been for an exchange, I would have just been like, "okay, not thinking about that for a few years", but because it was, and the minimum was small, I knew I could put together something that didn't poke the most tender of the feelings as hard. but yeah. writing that little fic actually made me able to put my feelings into words for myself which then enabled me to like. actually talk to my psychologist about it and get. actual help and support. ✨healing✨

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing I'll keep this short because I rambled so much above 🙈. I think my best qualities as a writer are writing engaging in-character dialogue, as well as describing powerful emotions in simple words! [fic writer asks]

#OKAY. actually done now #asha answers #poetikat #thank you for the ask!!! #i'm only a little bit sorry for getting lost in the rambling about meredith stannard sauce #shout out to knight-commander meredith for finally helping me open up enough about myself to get a ptsd diagnosis after a decade of therapy #i guess???? #grief cw #also i swear rereading this i can pinpoint the exact point my adhd meds wore off lmao

[catzgam3rz]

Minecraft Villagers but they are different Big Cats for each biome TWO!

Ft. two not actually big cats for the less common village types!

#rambles #my art #minecraft #minecraft designs #minecraft villager #mineblr #minecraft headcanon #cat villagers #mc cat villagers #WHOOP okay thats the full base villagers done :D #i love the pallas cat SO much ya'll dont even know i'm glad I remembered it for this lmao #also the fur on the Jungle outfit is supposed to resemble an ocelot's patterning :D