#oh shit theyre perfect

[felsicveins]

His heart belongs to another

And no other heart will do

#no other heart by mac demarco : D #I drew this a couple of days ago because i was feeling crazy and i just love the idea that #these two should be great together!! they should!!! but #theyre not together #theres just . theyre missing something #and thats okay!!! its not meant to be #and theyre friendship is very valuble to both of them!! #their* fuck my baka keyboard #trolls #yall are gonna be mad about this one i feel it ... #i think we all know who jds gonna end up with now right ... #i just gotta .. draw them more 💀 #i actully have the perfect ruveal i just have to finish painting it #urrgg i HATE painting #trolls oc #trolls oc cory #trolls movie #trolls john dory #trolls jd #john dory #jd ex husband #oh uhh i imagine this feels like a new years thing. or something #something that happened like right after they reconnected #before floyd and cory started going out #on god one day im gonna put all my tags lore into a post #i just shy 😔 who wants to read all this in a caption #not me brother!! I'm not reblogging that shit!!! #and im not finishing this cause i dont wanna give false hope 😘 #although jd dating sim ... is pretty real #i would love to do endings with all his exs

[lwiann]

i adore your durge so much please share facts about him if you are so inclined

omg thank you for taking interest in him... 🥺

He's a really quiet guy who takes the cult business seriously. He's got insane father issues with Bhaal and does everything he can to be his perfect son. Hence the extreme religious crisis when he met and got obsessed with Gortash to the point where he would punish himself through self-flagellation and offering more bodies to him. Self punishment has always been something he did when he thinks he disobeyed Bhaal, but it was never that bad until Gortash... hjkgfkdfg anyway..

He enjoys the killing and whatnot.. typical durge stuff. Huge ego, pretty pompous. but there were times when he'd wish more in life and question his purpose especially during the start of his fall from grace. questioning what he wants aside from killing. be with who he wants. I cant ever talk about him without bringing up Gortash hjfkff but Gortash really did ruin him because for the first time, he wants something more than the purpose his murderous father has given him. His one true equal in this world. The only person whom he has told his real name that was given to him by his adoptive family before the urges came. Yet the only way he knew how to express his love is to tell him "i will kill you on my father's altar and then myself" lmao.. just two very emotionally constipated evil people honestly.

Post-tadpole, he tries redeeming himself and ultimately fails because I think it's such good tragedy. He develops a thing with Gale but can never really commit to anything because the moment he woke up on that pod, there is a hole in his heart in the shape of a tyrant he can barely remember. So it's more of a complicated interest in gale. I am torn between: Gale makes him sane and he's truly the only person that he never wants to hurt. or someone he wants to corrupt. mostly leaning on the latter. but less corruption and more of trying to maximize his potential, is what Vanh believes he's doing anyway. he's still very much a silly fucked up evil guy with or without bhaal...

I could go on and on... he's so special to me jgdfkgkkg...

when he's not being an undiagnosed edgelord (lol) he likes the sky, he likes the ocean. he likes watching the tyrant tinker with his metals and inventions. He likes watching the wizard cook. he's very observant in an almost creepy way. He likes being alone too where nothing can disturb him.

as a cult leader, hes just a very annoying guy when he talks, honestly. he could go and on and on about his father and his unholy mission and i like to think he would be banned from fortnite lobbies 💀💀

#oc: vanh #the bhaalists think hes so perfect but deep inside when he talks theyre like oh shit here we go again #this is why everyone at moonrise was like not this fucking weirdo again #gortash once told him not to kill a noble whose money they need and Vanh recited like the bhaalist bible @ gortash or some shit #for 10 minutes straight #gortash: (looks at the camera like hes in the office) dude.... #i think vanh is silly and unintentionally funny hes so emotionally constipated

[pepperpixel]

Rune factory 5 art!!!! Cuz I’ve been playin it a lot recently! And I finally got married to Lucas so I wanted to draw some stuff of him!! Cuz I love him. He is a lil weirdo god whomst I cherish and adore..

#rune factory #rune factory 5 #rf5 #lucas #alice #rf5 lucas #rf5 alice #doodles #my characters name is Perez but considering the extent of customization is what outfit do u wanna wear I’ll use her canon name lol #anyone yeah… at first I was like oh god!!!! how am I ever gonna pic between murakumo Reinhardt and lucas?!?!? theyre all so good!!! #and then I got enough hearts to date Lucas. and I completely fucking forgot about the other guys ghgh #LUCAS IS SO CUTE… I LOVE HIM #1 I love him. 2 he’s beautiful. 3 the narrative of two amnesiacs falling in love is incredible to me #it’s like fucking. soulmates fate destiny shit. it’s great #3 the whole. him being an actual literal fucking god thing is. both funny and hot…. like yess babe. work that divine power ghgh #4 he’s HILARIOUS. AND SO CUTE. AND SWEET. AND ENDEARING #I couldn’t help it… I just got sucked in.. ALSO HES OLD AND WEARS GLASSES AND JUST. idk… he’s perfect ok. everything about him #the other guys didn’t stand a chance #after I met ludmilla I also rlly seriously was considering her too! like she’s SO FUCKING. I love ludmilla. she stole my heart instantly #but like!!! lucas just came out on top. I trusted my gut and my gut said this weirdo.. #also #in regards to Fionna and cake. I still haven’t watched it all yet ghg #I’ve watched a few episodes tho! and wow.. I was way off a my thoughts on Simon mental state lmao. I was literally like that girl in the #2nd episode. I’m sorry for misjudging ur issues so badly simon. u still have issues but they were not what I thought they were!!! damn.. #anyway im gonna get around to watching the other eps soon! promise! #till then tho… have completely self indulgent rune factory 5 art of me swooning over lucas lmao #w 2 diff versions of the last picture cuz! I couldn’t decide which I liked better! indecision is my curse ghgh

[rexscanonwife]

WATCHED A FEW EPISODES OF THE 2016 PPG REBOOT...........

#jane journals #self insert talk #will excuse me while i- SCREAMS!!!!!! #ITS SOOO DOGSHITTTT #UGGH #ok listen there are SOME things that are OK about it #the voice actresses they chose for the girls arent bad by any means #theyre NOT anything like the og voices but theyre..cute #i like bubbles's voice a lot #but the characterization....leaves a lot to be desired. THAT IS TO SAY EVERYONE IS FUCKING MASSACRED #ESPECIALLY UTONIUM UGGGHHHHHHHHH #IM GONNA FUCKING BLOW UP A CHILDRENS HOSPITAL ITS SO BAD #THEY RUINED MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE #like?? hes a goofball but hes not a DUMBASS??? #ugh i did a long vent to my partner about it cause we watched it together and like #hes not a perfect parent by any means. he gets carried away sometimes or maybe doesnt read a situation properly #but he always SAYS the right thing to put the girls at ease because he LOVES them and he does have some wisdom!! #AT THE END OF THE DAY HE IS A GOOD DAD!!!!!! #he wouldnt word vomit some dumb shit that makes blossom insecure and then cover it up with 'oh haha love u bye' LIKE ITS QUIRKY #HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT #ok im fine now im normal im good #im gonna wash the taste of that out of my fucking mouth and then draw some stuff

[jrueships]

sometimes i'll think abt a Fandom and wish it were bigger, and sometimes i'll read something from a fandom.. and wish it were smaller

#ppl seeing a confident black man : FINALLY! A PERFECT ANTAGONIST FOR OUR STORY! #THE CORRUPTOR!! THE ASSHOLE! MR KNOWS ALL! #i want to be bigger into football. i rlly do #but . omg. sometimes seeing just So Much . side eye shit is . like imagine my exhaustion #and this isnt me trying to be the behavior police like let ppl write but sometimes seeing such. Fun. patterns can be like #idk man it's sad like damn thats rlly how the world is and obvs i KNOW how it can be but it's real wack #real wack being reminded even in ur supposed happy place ur supposed lighthearted little break from the world #it's still not . idk. it's just not #oh the poor pale blond qb just a little anxious baby oh and his evil zany teammates trying to corrupt him oh theyre so terrible for my angel #:/ #.. that is. a Grown. Man . #it's like replaying my 2nd grade teacher ******** me bcs i was a troublesome kid and it made her feel young and alive and bad again #like wtf am i corrupting you with maam? skibbity toliet ? leave me alone !! #listen. if it were smthing like 'x rlly likes tomatoes' when he actually likes idk carrots? i would not give a fuck. infact i prefer carrots #but bad patterns have smthing more to say bcs patterns in general have a story #it's more than 'he would not fucking say that' it's 'WHY tf are YOU making HIM say THAT of ALL people & THINGS???' #like i love having asshole characters in my stories too. and they can be poc ! NO ONE is a saint! #but having one just to fuel the only one u actually care abt? having their problems solely be for plot?? & making that one #a SPECIFIC kind of person ?? is kinda giving me 'u dont view x as a human which could mean you dont view x race as humans' #WHICH IS !! IT SUCKS ! THAT SUCKS! #i know i need to just suck it up and ignore it but thats like the life quote of being poc isnt it #ugh #it sucks

[fuckinart]

you ever become obsessed with your own sentences

He could tell the truth. But he was frozen. Somehow he knew that if he did talk, they would just have found that fascinating, and probably would have started with his throat instead.

#Flying Over the Pit of Death #FOtPoD #Magpie AU #Danny Phantom #spoilers btw. for my fic. that i havent posted yet orz #art #artists on tumblr #i forget when i wrote this but this is an ''old'' scene #i need to rework it cuz ive only added onto it & built up to it. this is straight up raw FOtPoD here #i will start posting FOtPoD. im losing my ability to care about making it perfect #but there is like. A Lot i need to write #especially considering i've decided to like. add 40 chapters. like some kinda idiot #i know people like it when there's more fic but like. :| you might not for this one. considering what those 40 chapters Are #no theyre not vivisection. they're something worse #i dont wanna say cuz. well. ive already spoiled enough #unless anyone WANTS to know then i WILL infodump about this fic to you #i've been writing this for 3 years straight. this fanfic is gonna kill me #i better be able to use shit from FOtPoD at the end of this #OH btw the green stuff on his throat & wings is cuts. signifying clipping his wings & cutting his throat. if that was. confusing for anyone #this one IS from the vivisection chapter #yay vivisection!

[bmpmp3]

i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness. #plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english?????? #people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me..... #a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

[liquidstar]

i genuinely think some of you guys have gotten really weird about protecting tumblrs “purity” against twitter users or whatever

#i cant quite put it into words but it feels like some shit ppl in 4chan echochambers would say #does it just like. give you a sense of superiority after being seen as being on the lame site or something #it all just feels so off to me it feels weird. i think maybe its time to log off if you rly care that much #like its fine. ''oh but theyll be annoying'' block them? tumblr users are already annoying lol #idk guys this site isnt somekind of wonderful perfect safehaven theres a lot of far worse groups on here than ppl from twitter #youre just good at curating your own content.... which is good! you can keep doing that. #it just literally doesnt matter at all if ppl from twitter join tumblr thats fine who cares. it does not matter #ik most of it is joking around but at some point ppl lost the 'irony' of it and are just acting like. so so strange. its fine #it will be no skin off our backs i promise. pls learn how to interact w ppl as if theyre ppl and not just pixels again also #i also promise the world outside your tumblr mutuals isnt that evil and scary

[echo-bouquet]

Okay, so the one time I'm not really trying I actually draw a decent piece of artwork? Fine, be that way.

Anywho, meet Ash of Blue Maiden, one of the many Links from my still-as-of-yet-unnamed-AU. One of the first I designed and finished, and one of my favorites to play around with.

(Also I don't consider this drawing to be a good rep of his personality, this was just the best drawing I made so far)

#boi is pissed and bouta cast Wreck Your Shit #also while this is my best so far still not perfect & some details intentionally wrong #for example the shadowy wisps on sleeves are just part of an illusion he's casting for intimidation #they don't actually look like that #(also theyre not that long i just didn't feel like doing hands today) #still need to tweak proportions n stuff but really proud of how he came out so far! #hopefully itll turn out even better when i try this in color (oh god) #anyways uh tags #legend of zelda #legend of zelda fanart #loz #loz fanart #loz au #legend of zelda au #loz 15rb au #<- thats placeholder tag until i come up w actual au name #four swords #four swords vio #fsa vio #echosandwich #zizistuff

[dubiouslexism]

Mr. and Mrs. Bergara on Instagram

more photos

#bro theyre so fucking beautiful 😭😭😭 #ryan bergara #marielle scott #this is so sweet holy shit #and oh my GOD mari's DRESS #her dress her fucking dress i'm so in love with it holy SHIT #they're so perfect together

[fancy-marshmallow]

I NEED A NORMAL STOMACH RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#like GIRL. make up your mind already!!! #my stomach is like ohhhhh noooooo I'm soooooo hungry ... but if you put anything in me I will kill you personally #if you eat anything thats not the perfect tastiest flavor suffer the curse of eternal misery!!!!!!!!!! but if you eat anything with sugar #STABBING PAIN! #like stop it please. I'm trying to pass all my classes 😭 #I have seen multiple doctors and theyre all like oh you should eat more YEAH NO SHIT!!!!!!!! THATS WHY I"M HERE?? CAN YOU HELP ME??? #its so fucking annoying #stop trying to tell me having a stabbing pain in my stomach when I drink water is normal. because I am absolutely positive it isn't #yknow i came up with a tag for when I'm discussing my health issues but I forgot it so. sorry #vent #kind of #fancy thoughts

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[bunnyb34r]

I'm so burnt out my dudes

#explains why the past two weeks ive been at my limit/only have like 2 spoons to deal with after work and by god do they go fast #like the tolerance i have for anything is so low lately and im sure it's autism burnout :/ #and idk what to do ab it bc i can't bring up the tism to my therapist bc oh youre not autistic. bitch i mask well ive had to for 20 years #straight! and i only talk to you for an hour once a month so like... how would you know #anyway i have 0 tolerance for like anything anymore and it's so frustrating #and sometimes i give into that and will seek out shit that will make me mad so i have SOMEBODY to blame my anger on #i dont interact other than reading/lurking but i sit here irl bitching to myself like 'yeah that happens bc youre a little fucking brat' #and most of the shit is stuff id roll my eyes at and scroll past in a good/neutral mood! but the burnout brain is like no theyre doing this #on PURPOSE they're like this to piss me off specifically. and it's like... how do i channel this energy into a non harmful way when #im so fucking burnt out? aside from stepping away from social media bc id seek it out elsewhere lmao trust me id pry ab my #cousins bc they are so fucking stupid and rude and the 'perfect' ones to latch onto and bitch ab bc my brain needs something to #justify this rage and anger and it's so stupid but sometimes that anger feels good? idk it's stupid but like i said i never interact #directly bc im not an asshole lmao im not gonna like call my cousins and be like lol yeah thats all your fault xoxo hope that helps bitch! #marquilla #idk where i was going with this lmao #this barbie has autistic burnout!

[irl-ichi]

this is what love is

#no honestly like im glad that my partner has always been... 'chill' about body functions? #i dunno how to describe it but. when youre raised as A Girl you kind of end up spending most of your life learning and practicing ways #to cover up body things that ''arent pretty'' #like farts and boogers and sweat and misplaced hairs and marks on clothes and etc etc #and from day one this person has been so chill about telling ME body things because. yeah theyre just body things we all deal with #but ive never lived in this world of openness and no shame for things you cant control #like openly just being like ''alright i gotta shit'' and not hiding it for some reason (like me) #i think most guys out there still think of women as the like... 'effortlessly perfect' body images were trained to maintain #because its so ingrained in everyone socially #and thats why i heard the story of the first time my sister farted in front of her gf. a year into them dating #i cant even remember what my first time was because weve always just. existed around each other #no shame #and it leads to the kind of stuff where we can just be like 'oh you have a booger sticking out' or 'let me get your eye crusties'

[hauntingblue]

Still havent got over how ace looks like his mom. The eyes man

#also i find it very cruel how theyre showing us how he was born to explain why he is going to die. stop #also is luffy wearing yellow so ace can be red this arc #also last episode garp said youre going to live with these children/young men hinting at sabo i guess but damn since the start they tell you #also whitebeards bones in his jolly roger being put like a cross...... yeah yeah #iva san thinks dragon has two children lmao #LUFFY KNEW ABOUT GOLD ROGER!!??? #he could have loosen his tongue just once and boom...... oh here is where aces father got executed WHO??? #screaming for his father omg....... #find it very funny that ace hasnt changed clothes in 3 years but he lost his shirt at least #oh shit ace has the spade pirates... funny #ACE CLULD HAVE BEEN A SHUCHIBUKAI #fighting for five days. love how luffy is there to chill but ace will fight on prupose and at any given point to make it #saying fuck you to the man. hell yeah ace #also thinking about a perfect world if ace and luffy went into the sea together. what if...... #so whitebeard just took him lmao #ace just going to kill whitebeard in his sleep lmao man have some honor. god the assassination attempts #it probs gives whitebeard memories of him and roger fighting each other #oh thatch was his friend...... that was personal #still the assassination atempts are hus reaction to not being able to kill him and take the claim of pirate king when he is born to be it #fucking blackbeard in the background of all this.... DIEEEEEE!!!! #and whitebeard trying to stop ace from revenge.... oof the angst #disobeying hus father is going to get him executed.... but he is being executed for being just someones son. okay i am normal #so ace is not wearing his necklace until he make shis pirate crew #i feel like i need to watch this episide again. i need to squeeze it clean #extract every drop of stuff i can retain #whitebeard said he told him to go but ace clearly went on his own.. wtf #talking tag #watching one piece #episide 461

[arolesbianism]

So. Sit with me everyone. We agree that we need to stop worshipping a person or media on the sole grounds of being gay right. Can we finally agree that it's not homophobic to criticize gay ppl with large platforms. Can we finally actually learn to think critically abt how these ppl talk abt ppl outside of their immediate identities and to recognize that just because they say they aren't bigoted doesn't mean they aren't. Please.

#rat rambles #like seeing ppl dunk on james is vibdicating and all but also. yall do realize that even without the plagerism hed still be a piece of shit #and that another white man shouldnt have to spell out to you what misogyny is #<- directed at ppl who watched mr misogyny before hand #Im not saying anyone is a bad person for not realizing. Im just saying to be more careful and attentive in the future #dont be scared to criticize the ppl you watch even if you dont think theyre a bad person #hell Ive been watching hbomberguy for years and he is certainly not perfect #like in a lot of his old videos you can rly see some unconcious ableism #and I could go on and on with nitpicks and gripes Ive had with him over the past several years but thats not the point of this post #the point is that you need to get yourself comfortable with digging deeper into the things you consume #a lot of ppl will say things like 'oh this person gave me a bad vibe but I didnt think it was this bad' #and I want to just say if you get that sort of bad vibe then fucking dig deeper!! interrogate that feeling and where its coming from! #this also applies to situations where you might dislike someone for bigoted reasons of your own #I think ppl try way too hard to train themselves to not interrogate their discomfort and it's so not good for your critical thinking skills #and in fact interrogate your comforts too #just in general thinking abt why certain things make you feel certain ways is good practice and will help you see red flags sooner #is this gay guy focusing more on gay men than gay women? why might this be? is it really the topic like he says it is? #if you think well Im also more interested in gay men that gay women in history so hes not doing anything bad #then question why you think that. idc how uncomfortable it makes you to question your views on minorities fucking do it #cause imagining you arent misogynist or racist or whatever the fuck doesnt make you less bigoted #if you want to be the ally you think you are you need to suck it up theres not rly a kinder way I can manage to put it