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whatadaze · 5 years

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oh anne,

okay so i started this show after fifty years of seeing it float around here on tumblr and one of my closest friends grew up reading the books so i was familiar with the story. couple days ago i was looking for a new show to watch and was like “okie i’m going to start anne” and i’m so glad i did! i have to admit, the first episode was really long (but understandably) and i sort of let it play in the background while i unpacked. i found anne a bit annoying at first but after the second episode i was like, you know what? this little girl is INSPIRING.

so here’s my hot take (that no one asked for lol)

**possible spoilers ahead**

anne CLEARLY has issues with anxiety, ptsd, and even some bits of mania, but the thing is, she doesn’t let that hinder her. she had such a horrible upbringing but learned to console herself with books and her imagination. it sounds a bit childish but if you really take the time to look at it, it’s quite beautiful. she was able to create something so wonderful despite her less than wonderful circumstances. she never uses her past as an excuse for anything and just views it as something that happened to her and led her to where she is now.

and oh my goodness, the family dynamic between marilla, matthew, and anne! seriously one of the best television relationships i have ever seen. i love how cold and expressionless marilla is at first but she is one of the kindest, warmest characters i’ve ever seen. she doesn’t let anne get away with anything but does it reasonably and out of love. matthew is such a softie when it comes to anne, but he is just an overall softie towards everyone and i love that. anne just has that effect on everyone she meets because she is truly out of this world. which leads me to...GILBERT.

wow, what a cutie. i know it might seem weird to root for a couple that is so young, but just knowing that they do in fact end up together in the future makes this whole thing even more worthwhile. he is just so intrigued with her from the very beginning and i mean, i can understand why. anne is just so different from the other girls and really turns the town of avonlea upside down (in the best way!). and man, the way gilbert stares at her and challenges her and even the way he teases her is just so adorable. their relationship is so pure and they match each other so well! i’m so excited to see their relationship grows and watch them fall in ~lOvE~

now, the friendships on this show are amazing! if you know me at all, you know i’m a sucker for strong girl friendships. i’m sick of seeing girls pitting against one another, and i’m glad that for the most part, the girls on this show support and love one another! daina is the cutest and purest bean and i was hoping she wouldn’t be a stuck up rich girl when she was first introduced. (i’m glad i was wrong 2.5 seconds later!) she is EXACTLY what anne needs since she has never had a true friend and i’m so glad that she is there to support her and encourages her imagination and (sometimes) wild thoughts! ruby was a bit harder to warm up to but you know what? she is just a bit ignorant and i’m glad she has diana and anne to tell her what’s right + wrong. i think ruby has good intentions and she means well, and she is just such a cutie. i really couldn’t nOT like her, you know? and ugh, the rest of anne’s friends are super cute as well and i just love how anne brings her imagination and creative storytelling to the school + help stir up the rest of the kids’ imaginations as well.

another thing i’m gonna touch base on is the topic of family. ugh, i love how this show teaches its viewers that family can be chosen as much as it is assigned by blood. and that sometimes, the ties that we choose to MAKE are often the strongest. of course, the main example would be the cuthberts. they are the least traditional family to say the least, with marilla and matthew never have begin married and anne being an adopted orphan, but their family dynamic is one of (if not THE) strongest bonds on the show. and i love them so much and want to protect them forever and ever!!! another example seen is at the end of season 2 with cole. he is such a talented, amazing kid but you can clearly see how depressed and out of place he feels with his own family. he can’t be his truest self and that really hinders him from being his BEST self. i’m so glad that he decided to live with Aunt Josephine at the end and CHOSE his family. HE CHOSE WHAT WAS BEST FOR HIM. lkajdflkjas

and omg, i’m so glad aunt josephine played such a big role this season with all of the children. man, i aspire to be her. she is such a good influence on the children and i am really looking forward to learning more about her and her backstory!

now i’m going to take a second to just rant a bit about the “antagonists” of this story. first off, MR PHILLIPS. i know this show is set in the 1800s but i COULD not handle the whole mr phillips x prissy thing. i know it was deemed “acceptable” back then but something about it always seemed disingenuous and wrong. (we learn later exactly why....) but man, the way he just took out his own internalized homophobia and anger at cole was just...IT WAS SNAPE LEVEL (AND THAT IS NOT A COMPLIMENT WHATSOEVER). for an adult to lash out on a child is never acceptable and lkajsflkd it just angered me so much.

and bILLY OMG is every evil character just named billy? jesus, i could not stand that kid. he was truly a punkass for no real reason. (not that having a reason would’ve justified it) but i’m glad that cole still apologized to him and told him to think about why he destroys the things he does. and MAYBE that scene with the fox is hinting at a redemption arc of sorts in s3? i hope so...bc i’m sick of him pushing everyone around and calling everyone BUD. THEY ARE NOT YOUR BUD, BUD.

ok last thing

when you think about the fact that this show is a children’s show, it makes the whole show even MORE amazing and out of this world. they tackle subjects such as feminism, mental illness, homophobia, racism, sexuality, bullying, and encourages kindness, imagination, reading, learning, and friendship. you might be thinking, “ugh this show is just trying to push its own liberal agenda” um excuse you, it is NOT. they don’t force it down your throat and are able to incorporate these topics in a natural, fitting way. it doesn’t stray from the storyline and fits really well into each episode.

ALRIGHTY so that’s enough of extra shan for now

i’m so excited for season 3 and even though it’s airing in Canada first, i am willing to wait because this show deserves all the OFFICIAL views !!!

i’ll try to avoid spoilers till then...

(random sidenote: i really wanna gif this show but have no idea where i can download the episodes...help...ajlfksdjla)

ok toooooodles

#anne with an e #shan watches anne #shan is extra again #with these long ass posts

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irl-dogboy · 5 years

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i have no friends to talk to so im gonna rant under the cut ignore this lmao

i dont feel comfortable anywhere.

like.. i don’t have a bed i like to sleep in. it doesn’t have sheets on it. it’s an awful mattress, it sinks down to the point where i wake up and can’t move bc my back is fucked. i don’t have a dovet, i sleep under blankets fit for a sofa. i don’t have a space to call my own. my room looks like a storage room, because that’s what it is. i have speakers that i can’t use, i have an extra desk that my parents couldn’t afford to throw away. my cupboard is full of things that aren’t mine. i own my school uniform and like 3 outfits. i own one fucking pair of pants and they don’t! even fit me! i dont like asking for money for things like clothes and decor because the answer is always “we dont have enough money for luxuries! dont be selfish!” and i dont get it because both of my fucking parents have ipads and the newest fucking iphones. despite being the right age to get a job im not allowed to get one, im not allowed to open a paypal so i can maybe get a commission every so often. i dont even know why. they dont fucking tell me.

and like,, i dont have anywhere or anybody to talk to about this shit! school friends would never fucking understand because theyre all a bunch of rich kids who think of me as a joke. im a dumbass who isolates himself from his online friends so i cant just be like “lol we havent talked since i disappeared when i found out im going deaf help my life sucks” because who fucking DOES that? not me! my parents are procrastinating getting me a fucking psychologist for GOD KNOWS WHAT fucking reason, maybe they really do just think this is a phase. they refuse to talk about anything related to my transgenderism until it pushes their fucking political agenda or makes them LOOK GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mum, at home, behind closed doors: hey deadname

also my mum, arguing with people online: as a supportive parent of a transgender child blahblahblah

also my mum, to my school: yeah haha we’re getting there HE’s such a good BOY isnt that right NATE this has been hard on all of us but especially ME

i regret coming out so fucking much. if i could go back in time and tell myself anything it wouldnt be “do ur schoolwork” or “dont die” it would be “dont come out because every fucking aspect of your life is going to be so much fucking harder” and i get it! some of it is me being a lazy cunt! yea! but its also everybody else being a lazy cunt! my entire family? deadnaming for days! my parents? “we know you need therapy we’ll call them later” and then what do they do??? yeah not call them later. since i came out my previous psychologist DROPPED me and i get it but i NEVER talked about that shit and i wouldn’t talk about that shit bc i know shes not qualified to deal with that!! and i get it but fuck its so annoying and im weak and im a fucking asshole and i dont want to exist!!

i just dont get why my parents had me. like. my dads an alcoholic and a fucking coke addict, and yeah, he works 70 hours a week and supplies everything for our family, but hes also a fuckign criminal whos had me ASSAULTED before and thats a whole other fucking thing! and he’s trying to turn my sister and i against my mum and i DEFINITELY see why because she literally does nothing but smoke weed and do coke herself but fuck i am so tired of hearing about their shit all the fucking time! call me selfish, i would agree, but they blame me and my sister for all of their problems, and whenever me or my sister call them out on their shit they immediately go for the “we’re your PARENTS” or “im mentally ill and im an addict you know this” like yeah i do but i also know that YOU’RE NOT TRYING TO HELP YOURSELF DESPITE HAVING TWO KIDS THAT FUCKING DESPISE YOU

i just want a normal fucking family man. a normal life, really!! i want a dad that has some dumb manly hobby like woodwork or fishing and i wanna do lame things with him. i want a mum that i get along with. a sister that i fight with sometimes but its ok because im still there for her! protective big brother style! and i want them to be there for me and i want to feel safe in my own fucking house. i want a bed that i can sleep comfortably in. i dont wanna be who i am. i wanna be normal. i dont wanna have to deal with dysphoria and wanting to die every time i look in the mirror or shower or speak or do anything. friends that i feel like i could talk to. i would die just to be a cis girl or better a cis boy and just live my life without worrying about all of that shit. i want my depression to go away or take a fucking break or something. i hate it so much.

god this is long im so sorry for anybody who made the mistake of choosign to read this

#vent post #drug mention #dysphoria is a bitch and i hope she burns #goatmanetc

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polyamorous-mysme · 7 years

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this is weeks late, unrequested, and it has an #agenda but here’s some feminist rfa headcanons for you All With Jaehee And Most With MC (several poly ships but u can apply most hcs to most ships) because a nazi got beat in the face and im living and also: i love girls i literally love girls so much

all of these r as though MC is female/female-leaning but if anyone has male/male-leaning/agender/etc feminist MC headcanons you can Send Those The McFuck In

this is also super gay and trans because all ur faves r gay and/or trans

707 x MC x Jaehee

jaehee and MC literally gearing up to go to marches/rallies/protests and seven gushing because he loves how strong his partners are

he can’t technically go to many because the agency but he calls and texts to check in and is constantly looking through security cameras just to make sure they’re safe

comes up with great gay slogans

jaehee and MC making sure to especially advocate for their gnc boyfriend because inclusion is the only option

jaehee and MC being the Best Girl Duo and an even better Interracial Gay Couple who do not deal with white feminist nonsense

jaehee and MC kicking people out of the coffee shop for microaggressions or giving them lukewarm coffee/stale food

jaehee wearing subtle lesbian/bi pride colors every day and ESPECIALLY around valentine’s day

seven has so many pictures of his partners even if he doesn’t like to be in many himself but he just super loves them??? he’s so proud of everything they stand for and is so happy to support them even when he worries about their safety

seven sending Wholesome Memes all the time

Jaehee x MC x Zen

zen using his platform to make his opinions known even when jaehee tells him to be careful but No My Girlfriends Are The Most Important Thing To Me And Their Lives And Safety Matter Just Like Everyone Else’s

zen literally refusing to work with people when they make disgusting comments

zen having a blocklist longer than mine bc people tweet him lesbophobic bullshit

jaehee and/or MC getting followed on their way home for work and zen literally making sure to come pick them up every day afterwards

zen also saying occasionally :/ shit but like. genuinely willing to listen esp if it’s from MC or jaehee

jaehee and MC going to events with zen wearing openly feminist attire. jaehee refuses to wear suits ever again but her dresses are always related to current issues, or she’ll talk about them openly and unapologetically.

zen speaking out against poor casting choices. disabled characters go to disabled actors! queer characters go to queer actors!

zen actually realizing the homophobic/transphobic things he says in chat nonchalantly are bad and like. actually apologizes and is understanding when he gets called the FUCK out

jaehee and MC gaining a small following of their own for their #iconic gay posts on social media sites

feminist movie nights all the time i love it

Jaehee x MC x Yoosung

yoosung taking classes explicitly abt women’s struggles and other oppressive histories

yoosung sheepishly asking jaehee and MC if they wanna go to a protest/vigil/etc on campus like. the day before because he’s been too shy to ask bc he didn’t know if it was his place

yoosung exploring his own status as someone who might be gnc/not het and jaehee and MC encouraging him to explore it

the first time he goes to class in a skirt or a dress or literally anything not “masculine” and coming home so happy

jaehee and MC doing their makeup before work and yoosung asking if they’d do his a bit (not too much yet)

jaehee and yoosung both growing their hair out a bit more

shared hairclips all around the house

jaehee and MC coming home angry as hell because fetishizing customers and yoosung patiently listening with wide eyes and getting teary-eyed because his girlfriends are so upset

they/them yoosung

xe/xem yoosung

he/him yoosung who’s still a Boy but is much more aware of and concrete in his masculinity

yoosung’s mum knitting matching “girlfriend” sweaters for the whole bunch

Jumin x MC x Jaehee

jumin listening to jaehee and MC’s discussions about misogyny and homophobia (esp lesbo/biphobia) and sexual violence patiently and not quite Getting It at first

jumin realizing he’s fucked up when jaehee gets so upset to the point of almost leaving a few times

jaehee and MC using their coffee shop as an abuse/lgbt/etc safe place and jumin providing the funds to make it safer

jumin and jaehee researching the best organizations and shelters for women, abuse victims, homeless, mentally ill, lgbt+ community members, etc. and donating All The Time

jumin tightening anti-harassment in the workplace esp after jaehee goes into long rants about some of the shit she had to deal with while working for him

MC and jaehee passive-aggressively holding hands/kissing/basically displaying as much PDA as possible that time jumin made a comment about gay pda/pda in general without actually thinking about what the fuck he was saying

jumin getting in an actual argument with his father when he makes some gross fetishistic comment about how jumin has “every man’s fantasy” or some bullshit

jaehee and MC holding hands and walking through the c&r building to spend lunch with jumin and jaehee giving Looks to her old coworkers

bonus appreciation for jaehee: she’s a grown ass woman who literally questions her entire life and identity and especially sexuality bc she met a Girl and she’s like? wow i might be gay. wow. i love jaehee and i love girls and i especially love girls who love girls ha ha but i guess you could say im a bit . . . biased

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