#no i can tell you precisely when

[horce-divorce]

#favorite #honestly cannot fucking believe this post didnt come from tumblr #would 100% believe if the fb op was ripped from Tumblr originally #this killed me instantly btw #i havent laughed this hard since um #no i can tell you precisely when #i havent laughed this hard since the compilation post of Is It Food Or Animals #specifically the chihuahas that are muffins and the birds that are guacamole #i laughed at that shit til i hurt myself

[taz-writes]

here's a hot take for today

the narrative function of sex is the same as the narrative function of fight scenes is the same as the narrative function of songs in a musical

no i will not explain

#taz talks #writing #actually i WILL explain but i'll do it in the tags #these each serve the same function within their respective appropriate genres #each one is a kind of revelation #they heighten the connection between 2+ characters and highlight relationships and feelings and needs #they are out of place in genres where they do not belong and/or as curveballs when the narrative did not provoke them from the start #but they have the same sort of emotional/dramatic build-up #talk -> sing -> dance (talk -> yell -> stab) ((talk -> flirt -> You Know)) #and they are all expressions of intense physicality and intimacy through physical gesture and interaction #they are fundamentally empty and boring if there is not a deeper purpose or drive behind them #although they can still occasionally be entertaining on their own if your audience is specifically seeking that experience out #people who do not like them will be very unhappy to encounter one where it isn't supposed to be #it is very easy to ruin the mood with poor word choice #many people have an inherent sense for terrible ones but it's often difficult or complicated to explain precisely why a bad one fails #when executed properly they are a very raw and intimate expression of a character's most fundamental needs and desires #the fluff is stripped away and there is nothing left but a series of needs. conflicting or cooperating. #and even when you're lying during one it's still a form of truth #none of these things are remotely necessary to tell a powerful or compelling story but if you're going to use them you need to do it right #also all 3 of these things are difficult if not impossible to write if you are not both interested in them and personally invested #this post brought to you by me trying to write smut about my dnd characters and failing because i generally hate /reading/ smut #so i have none of the vocabulary or instinct for it that i do for. say. graphic violence (or lyrical poetry)

[calciferstims]

“I know you have a little life in you yet / oh, hold my hand”

aka the ofmd ep 2x03 mermaid scene :))

requested by @fightingtrim

sources: 🌊🌊🌊 | 💙🧜‍♂️💙 | 🌊🌊🌊

#when I tell you. that I literally custom color adjusted almost every single gif in this board #to make everything PRECISELY fit the color palette and complete my vision #I am not exaggerating. there was a lot of ezgif.com usage. I was COMMITTED. #anyways can we talk about how pretty that center shot is bc OUGH. they… #stimboard #ofmd #our flag means death #blackbonnet #mermaids #water #nature #ocean #stim board #my boards #requests #blue #orange #gold #black #ofmd spoilers #literally obsessed with the fact that rather than do any weird cgi they just chose to flat out put Rhys Darby in a mermaid tail #what a power move tbh #you can very clearly see his legs and I don’t give a single fuck. I love it

[bytebun]

hey don’t cry. 10 million blorbos from your shows, okay?

#commander cody #obi-wan kenobi #uh. i guess implied #codywan #star wars #bytebun draws #ok on twitter sometimes japanese artists i follow will caption their au posts with 'delusion for those who can accept anything' #(and then explain the au) (or at least that's what google translate tells me) #that's how i feel about this one. #can't imagine a universe where this guy would sit down to play mario cart w his bf's family after an obvious crying jag #but like maybe he watched legally blond or something & got rlly moved #abt the main character finding her own path with an identity separate from her partner without losing the core elements of her personality #and self-expression. and also winning at the law. you know? #au cody can have elle woods as his blorbo. #in my au where he's doing law things re: clone citizenship #but also fuck stylizing crying genuinely hard. idk if i can get stylistically simpler than the first pic & still convey the precise emotion #that i want. i'm cheating there with like some actual shading instead of hard lines... more studying required #it's like difficult to draw people crying bc/ it's one of those emotions that changes the whole shape of your face... the invert of a #beaming smile. the tears aren't the important part... that's why the 'stoic guy sheds single tear trope' is so funny #they're out there w their plastic immobile faces and a fake tear when the important part is all those scrunched up microexpressions #someone trying rlly hard not to cry has the deeper mouth corners & tense brow-eyelid combo & that wrinkle near the nostril #unfortunately all of these lines are also the only indication of old age in most anime lmao so its so so hard to figure out how to draw em #shld do some ch*insawman or g*lden kmy studies probably. those guys r pretty good at funny looking faces

[coquelicoq]

me: how about...natori contracting some kind of youkai illness & matoba finding out about it & showing up to his set & natori dragging him off to his trailer bc it would be bad for his sparkly reputation to make the angry faces he feels coming on in front of his coworkers & matoba offering to help but in that smarmy condescending way that raises natori's hackles so he refuses but unfortunately he doesn't know how to cure it so matoba just keeps showing up every day & natori keeps carting him off to the trailer every time & being suuuuper cagey when people ask him who his visitor is & what if his coworkers get the wrong idea & matoba is fully aware of this & what if one day in the trailer natori reluctantly agrees to let matoba help him & matoba's like okay fine off with your shirt i gotta paint this spell circle on your bare chest & what if he's in the middle of doing that when they hear somebody opening the door to the trailer & obviously they don't want anyone to know what they're actually doing in there bc youkai-exorcist confidentiality so matoba's like no worries i got this & he KISSES NATORI omg classic kiss-as-misdirection trope & the person at the door is like whoops my b carry on gentlemen & after they've left natori is like wtf matoba????? & matoba's like well it's what they all thought we were doing anyway & your mouth was right there & it allowed me to cover the writing on your chest with my body & also you kiss people for a living so i figured it wouldn't be too complex for you & your part-time exorcist training to handle & natori recovers admirably quickly & is like WELL for your information that was a TERRIBLE kiss & no one is gonna buy that i professional makeout artist natori shuuichi would be swapping saliva with somebody on the reg without any of my considerable skill rubbing off on them & matoba's like so what do you propose we do about it & natori's like obviously i have to teach you how to kiss in case they come back -

the bedtime story fairy who thought this was gonna be an easy assignment: please just go to sleep im begging u have mercy ur brain cells are dying

#my other bedtime imagine also features misunderstandings in natori's trailer/dressing room but this time it's established relationship #natori and his costar are in his trailer practicing a kiss & matoba comes in & thinks natori is CHEATING 😲 #& packs up & goes back to the matoba estate & natori's calling him daily like i LITRALLY dk what i did wrong...miss u baby... #but also tell me what i did wrong u asshole!! you just left & didn't even tell me if/when you're coming back! wtf!!! #and eventually matoba comes home & they talk & natori's like mkay well first of all kissing that lady is my literal job that pays me #but i understand that it upset you bc we were alone in my trailer & looked startled to be interrupted. hey i know #why don't you come with me to set & you can see just how incredibly unsexy these practice sessions are? #so matoba accompanies him & it's literally just natori & his costar like calculating exact face tilt angles & figuring out #their precise height differential during the scene in question based on the shoes she'll be wearing & testing out ideal #degree of mouth openness & choreographing switching sides of the face to correspond to the movement of the camera #(bc obviously it's one of those epic 360-degree shots with the swelling orchestral score and w/e 🙄) #& figuring out where they should put their hands & whether it makes sense for them to be smiling at this point in their arc &c &c #& matoba starts like observing them from multiple angles & critiquing their technique & giving pointers to the costar #& grabbing natori's chin & bodily arranging his limbs like a mannequin & showing the costar the best ratio of lip give to firmness #by demonstrating with his own lips on natori's lips. & so on & so forth. meanwhile #the sleep i am forgoing in favor of having these thoughts is something i will NEVER get back. #natsume's book of friends #horrible exorcists #f #my posts #i am such a clown to watch one of the sweetest and most poignant shows i have ever seen and for what? #to get fixated on imagining ways to get these chuckleheads to smush their mouths together? unbelievable. #like these scenarios barely (if at all) have anything to do with what makes them so fascinating as characters. i just want them to Kiss #idk though i do feel like their first kiss has to be some sort of dare or 'accident' or w/e like these weirdos can't just KISS each other! #who does that! have you heard of a little thing called pride and invulnerability and plausible deniability!!!! #but i also completely imprinted on this one established relationship fic i read last year so sometimes i just skip ahead #to the kinds of misunderstandings and shenanigans and conflicting priorities they could get up to as a couple #i guess i just want the fact that natori is famous for kissing people to be Matoba Seiji's Problem in some way or another #is that so much to ask #(i also CLEARLY imprinted on a fic in which natori teaches matoba to kiss at a bar?? i should reread that one)

[pickled-flowers]

It might be I have anti social personality disorder 🤨

#hmmm #i dont think its just the autism fellas #idk im already aware i have some sort of personality disorder as diagnosed by a psychiatrist but without any more precision #and my vast confusion about other people might be explained by that #idk ive been reading about it and well #very much possible #ive known since i was 15 that i dont experience empathy in a “normal” way #and i have a very rich inner life within my brain #tbh i love my own company (most times) and im my favorite person #but there is such a big stigma about anti social ppl so im like #well. i can name a bunch of ppl around me who would dismiss me about that #but my dear just because someone can mask does not mean that is the real them #like idk especially if you cant tell when someone is masking like that's on you 😭 #i see someone masking and feel so sad like damn bestie i get it this is the only personality of yours people will enjoy #winter rambling in his tags? its more likely than you think

[alttxt]

people using ai to create images are fuckin weak. put down the generative algorithm and make something with your hands for once. embrace your humanity.

#last night i put on some music and spent a couple hours measuring and drawing lines #the precision and patience involved made it a meditative experience and i felt better by the end of it #that's where my new avatar came from #sure your stupid glorified bonzi buddy can generate something roughly similar #but it is empty. devoid of care from the hands that made it. #tell me: did you feel anything when you typed out your prompt? #did you feel anything as the picture rendered itself in front of you? #were those ten minutes or so of talking aimlessly to a computer program worth the result? #do you feel anything?

[greendreamer]

In my Torchwood:UNIT AU, Jack, Gwen and Martha didn't tell each other that they had their own Torchwood teams for a good while. Potentially for a good few years.

#green speaks #torchwood #Torchwood:UNIT #martha jones #gwen cooper #captain jack harkness #I should mention that Jack has been off world for a good while #early 2010 - January 2021 to ve precise #not too sure if he actually forms his own team #but if he did it would just like one from the comics #whilst he was away Gwen and Martha formed their own teams #some how refusing to tell the other #although Martha knew immediately that Gwen had #'Dealing with another rogue weevil again Gwen? Sure you are' #there's only so many Weevils you can deal with but it starts to get suspicious #I feel when they all finally meet/find out it's like the spider man meme and it's very chaotic

[asterdeer]

heres the problem with life: it’s soooo easy to recognize when you done fucked up even in the smallest way but it’s borderline impossible to know when you did something right or good

#i need someone who follows me around and tells me if I did Good or if I did Bad #and they can slap my wrist when I do Bad and pat my head when I do Good #i am coveting the life of a service dog in training #i just need to KNOW i hate not KNOWING #the lilo-style badness level chart would make things so much easier as well as a precise Punishment Meter #and then something for the reverse so i can get a little serotonin hit of Being Good #you know??? idk why it’s so hard for the world to just be a tidy binary for me and i never have to not know again #having to decide for myself……..i don’t trust that bitch. why would i listen to anything they say #shut up myth

[dudefrommywesterns]

dude has deeper thoughts and very likely is a fairly wise person but he can't articulate it very well.

#typewriter dings #you can tell he's really trying to say things but he doesn't have the words #sometimes he manages it #and sometimes you can tell he legitimately doesn't have the words to say what he means with any precision #and he's hesitant when he says anything at length #we're opposite that way. he moves fast and thinks slower and i think fast and move slower #dude

[unproduciblesmackdown]

amnesia: the bunker release obviously turning my thoughts to cherished fun guy of a baker's dozen years, amnesiac daniel of mayfair. cherished game of as many years; meanwhile he Has the ranges: tormentor/tormented, good/evil, noble/petty, scaredscaredscared/bold as brass tacks. not to mention ofc his Some Guy ft. a very dramatic nature, a lot of introspection, but not much to show for it. i do love him & he's a great choice for [i want to do fun sketches] which i also did with call on me on loop which happened to be a song i associated permanently w/him, as well as the reason my art tag is corned beef

#clapping cheering etc He Horney #amnesia #atdd #corned beef #daniel of mayfair #just watching someone's playthrough of a:tb so i dunno All the lore yet. hope there'll be more revelations abt things like Dan's Enthusiasm #further context abt the game if you weren't familiar already which: check it out!!! watch a playthrough. or play it yourself #i actually played through a third? half? the game. got stuck on a puzzle in one run then trapped in the water section later lmao.... #it's a game from an indie developer & made a big splash & had Lasting Reverberations: survival horror game shift impact; namely #you have No Weapons in amnesia (though you Can kill the kaernk w/a precisely aimed barrel (or box?) or two (this isn't at all obvious)) #and Daniel Gets Scared is a big component of the game. an Enemy shows up & blurred tunnel vision + the [DANGER] audio goes off #v fond memory: once yrs ago i was moving a small grandfather clock & hit smack w/like. What *Sounds* Threatening Here.... #then realized the reverberation of the chimes was akin to the kind of low ringing of [daniel's Low Sanitymeter] effects #which! the game Tells You to watch your levels therein b/c enemies will find you more easily when your sanity(tm)'s low or nil #turns out this is completely untrue though lol. the player may be impeded b/c daniel's vision is crap & his mobility will cut out as well #but just as it says; enemies Aren't drawn to you any more than they ever are; they just tell you that Knowing the player will feel it lol #and it works perfectly...as well as ofc daniel having like nightmare visions / ambiguous hallucinations if he's feeling too bad lol #gotta solve a puzz son .or turn on the lights; daniel also being afraid of the dark. even though it's like yeah man in general i'd be scare #meanwhile i always forget frictional had already made penumbra games & the penumbheads would be like...scoff. amnesia easy mode #b/c penumbra doesn't give you any light? you do have a flashlight i believe. at least sometimes. but that's more ltd than a lantern #couldn't be danny w/his tinderboxes; candles; torches; etc. laudanum. blowing shit up. daniel is sososo fun to me #and it all comes back around w/pentiment like ''mithraeum....i heard of em'' fr fr lol alchemy....weird science ooo #the universe HATES him: unless it doesn't (daniel & the shadow) local locals HATE him: baron discovers one weird interdimensional trick #for real for real check out some playthrough of amnesia: the dark descent if you haven't ever seen / heard of it. or play it #we'll have a movie night of it.... #corned beeeeeeeeeeeef........i'm the same boy i used to be

[hazeism]

hi!! wanted to ask if you have any favorite books, either that you've read recently or of all time. Your prose is insane and I need to broaden my own vocabulary so if you have any book recs, fiction or nonfiction, I'd love to know :')

Hii :D ! ahaha, what a well-timed question; lately I've become the kind of guy who just really wants to talk about what people are reading, or are planning to read, and responding in kind, so thanks for giving me an opportunity to indulge that, haha. What a wicked invention the printing press was!!! (Also--thank you!! I'm glad my prose is to your taste. I'm happy !💕)

If you don't mind, I'll put a cut on this right away, because I know I'm very talkative, but let me put a TLDR above for all the novels/authors I mention here. Disclaimer also that I am kind of a dunce (I think you know this) so I like silly shit a lot of times . please be nice to me adfhbjkdg. :D

(No nonfiction also because I'm a frivolous and unworldly little sprite or something but if you want straight philosophy [which counts] come back and I'll do my Top Ten Epic Platonic Dialogues Compilation for you .)

TLDR: Read any UKLG you get your hands on, Cain by Jose Saramago, or any Saramago (though maybe not Skylight, which is not a good introduction to Saramago), very much enjoyed Sartre's The Age of Reason recently, Shadow & Claw or The Fifth Head of Cerberus by Gene Wolfe. If you feel like it, come off anon and tell me what you like, so I can give more tailored recommendations!!

Now if you're asking for favorites, like just the particular and arbitrary objects of my partiality, that stir my stupid little heart, the true answer is probably UKLG's The Farthest Shore, just because it is very special to me. I can't, of course, in good conscience, recommend the third novel of a six-novel fantasy series to someone (but of course read Le Guin, everyone should be reading Le Guin, it's dire for universal soteriology that we all read Le Guin; You'll probably get told to start with Left Hand of Darkness, and that's pretty solid. I liked The Lathe of Heaven as well. And if you read any Le Guin it doesn't hurt to pick up a copy of the Tao. I love the Tao man.)

Some friendlier recommendations, though:

José Saramago is someone I really consider peerless; There's no way to pick up a Saramago and not know who's written it. Cain is a bit drier, a bit more abrasive (almost accusatory, in that particular way you'll find in a Buddhist parable) and bleak than some other Saramagos, but it's one I like (perhaps for the trite reason that I like bucolic atmospheres and Classical antiquity as a setting) so it's the one I'll put forward.

Uhh, I've also been enjoying Sartre's Roads to Freedom lately, starting with The Age Of Reason. I'm partway through the second novel and umm... despite all the other things you could say about Sartre, lmfao, let it not be said that he is not a serious literary force. Serious is maybe the only word for it. Dire, too. I keep a commonplace book, so usually I take excerpts, but this was the first time in memory that I felt compelled to commit entire pages, ahah (I just took pictures though, fuck copying all that).

If you're itching for esoteric language, Shadow of the Torturer (as usually collected with Claw of the Conciliator in a single omnibus edition titled Shadow & Claw; the first of the give-or-take five volume Urth series) by Gene Wolfe will scratch you BLOODY. If you're particularly fussy, you might be irritated by your compulsion to Google, but I find it really makes the experience when you type in a word and the only results are "what the fuck did Gene Wolfe mean by this?" hahaha; Honestly, though, those kinds of complaints are borne from a lack of immersion, but you'll notice pretty quickly that the verbiage is a pretty crucial vehicle OF the immersion.

It may or may not become a commitment, though, if you like Urth enough to want to read through, so if you want Wolfe without the strings--though less of the exciting vocabulary, which is pretty necessarily constrained to Urth--I'd really highly recommend The Fifth Head of Cerberus (the novella OR the novel, I mean the former is volumized in the latter so just start it and if you feel like stopping then stop, haha). Mr. Terminal E is incredible but I scrape enough time out of my daily life to gush about his crazy literary density so I won't do it again here (you should ask my coworker, lmfao, who one time went "stop, hold on, hold on." because my face started getting really red while I was explaining to him some Wolfean gesture). If you read any Wolfe, and I mean ANY Wolfe, because his permatypes and his manipulations of them are endlessly interesting, feel free to come back and chat with me over it!!!

I guess I have to disclaim that my habit is mostly to pick through an author's corpus over a course of, usually, a couple years, and then sometimes I'll read things that will inform my understanding of the genre conventions or currents that the author is writing in (been enjoying Golden Age sci-fi recently)--it's not really as deliberate of a process as it sounds, but I think if you were to map my habits, that's the landscape of it. This means, though, that my reading is actually pretty narrow in scope, and I am not very well read or very knowledgeable in general (who is, in this economy) but it does mean that of the authors I do like, I can probably find the novel that'll work best for your taste.

If you want to come off anon, or I guess just leave another message, haha, (or if someone else wants to, idgaf, we're all friends here at tumblr user hazeism) describing the things you like or look for in a novel I can probably give you a more relevant recommendation. I've been dosing people up a lot lately tbh, it's like a parlor trick I've been doing; I have a conversation with someone and afterwards they'll have a PDF with a relevant Asimov story in their messages, hahaha. I can't help myself sometimes.

Come back anyway, though, if you read anything I talked about, okay? I want to hear about it 🥺

And alsooo (turning to face the audience) if anyone ever wants to put recs in my inbox (or my dms : ) slow replies though sorry I'm a hermit) I'd be happy to take 'em down. Can't guarantee I'll read them in a timely manner, or that you'll ever find out if/when I do, but it's good for me to leave my comfort zone.

#also not what you asked but a thing that i find always pertinent is the fact that synonyms are a scam #no two words ''mean'' and by mean I mean Convey Meaning Serve Function Perform Their Obligations In Continuity Or Discontinuity etc the sam #thing. if two words meant the same thing they would be the same word and even that's a bit of a trap (though i guess there is allure in the #potential scenario in which you are able to so precisely construct the surrounding matter of a sentence that you can get a word to repeat #its exact sensibility when being reused--usually when you are reusing a word you are manipulating it to throw light into an alternate facet #i think maybe it seems like i have an extensive vocabulary (i can't say if I do or not) because I trot out all manner of words in all manne #of contexts. under that pretense. or maybe I am a douchebag who wants to live in the world of forms who knows #sorry for all my me btw your first mistake though was looking at me and going Yeah I bet he has both a meaningful answer AND the ability to #convey it. like no sorry. you'll have to pick through the charnel field again. one million words curse #anonymous #ask #mine #bet you were waiting for me to tell you to read asimov well no. don't feel compelled to do that. i mean don't let me stop you (at the momen #I need them to live so I won't judge you but dhfkudh) i mean if you're currently in a place where reading is difficult (we'veall been there #then his mission of clarity makes his books sublimely digestible impossibly easy to read they're comfortable novels without being totally #unstimulating andthey can in fact be very stimulating if you give them the room to proliferate in your brain . but the thing about asimov i #the best things I find are Daneel (who is a scam and will ruin your life) and HIS PERMATYPEESS guys I love permatypes lately but it's hard #to get the texture of the Asimovian permatypes (muttering about the continuum from fisher through terens) and really luxuriate in them unle #ss you read one fucking million novels . so if you feel like doing that do it but if you don't. don't. #i've been getting so many asks lately (i mean. three. but before that another three!) and it's ruining my icy and aloof image . because i a #a motormouth. and now I'm going to stop typing!!!!!!!!!

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

btw, for anyone who isn’t aware, you’ll probably be seeing another influx of twitter users very soon unfortunately. twitter’s for you page is being removed for non-verified accounts and voting in polls will also be taken away from regular users/non verified accounts.

tumblr on the other hand has a free for you page, accessible to everyone, and free voting in polls, also accessible to everyone.

mind you, clown face’s excuse for this is “we have to stop the bots!” but tumblr has just as many if not more bots and they clearly don’t see that as a problem related to those features.

basic, everyday features are being taken away from the average twitter user and progressing into being an explicitly pay-to-even-use-this-fucking-website situation, so... yeah. expect to see more of the twitter discourse and its discourse obsessed nutcases to end up here.

also, be sure to welcome all the upset innocent people affected by this fuckass update by the clown who thinks he’s still the richest person in the world but isn’t (hint: it’s bernard arnault).

considering twitter is becoming a place for only companies, brands, etc to advertise and promote shit (in other words it’s slowly becoming a corporate usage website and not meant for an average internet user, as many of us likely predicated the moment clown face took over as its ceo), it’s pretty likely a lot of people will end up here again like the last influx. please welcome the unfortunate people affected by this but also please punch the discourse lovers in the face and teach them how we operate here at tumblrville (that includes the goddamn tagging system).

that last part is a joke. mostly. halfway. kinda. a little bit.

#DCB Comments #also one thing i hate about the tagging systems is seeing ppl straight up write the tags in the comment area #like where it says go ahead write anything and you see people literally put the tags there??? #like bruh you can tell they came from twitter bc that's only twitter stuff jskfgjhsg #but it also gets me that ppl even do that when there is literally a section FOR tags right under the text body #it's like... You Know They Came From Twitter When... #BUT YEAH fuck Clown Face he's a literal psychopath who wants AI to take over the world #and still seems to think he's the richest person in the world and he's not precisely bc he is literally a moron #tumblr had a rough time when yahoo bought it but damn it was never THIS bad #a single man rly do be obliterating usage of a former monster of a website. it's just slowly becoming a corporate gathering

[lovesour]

musings below

#I would love to write fic. the ethics of RPF are convoluted but I don't bother with convoluted #I mean look. I don't know these guys so. In essence when you write fic about them you're only toying with an _idea_ of them. Not really the #Although admittedly it would be jarring to have your likeness used for fangirly wetdream daydream written in the purplest prose #the purplest prose youve ever seen and slapped onto archive of our own #The other problem is I'm not good at writing #and the Other other problem is that I actually have incredible respect for Carlos hes something of a personal hero for me #musically. theatrically. and stylistically as well. Adore that guy #and he's actually very Online. and. Present. for being an older gentleman. Alright he's not that old. #Lots of political commentary. I love to read his newsletters as well. He is actually a very warm man. Something a lot of people don't know #because they were never able to get over his theatrics and sense of style. found him arrogant or pretentious. #And he is pretentious but I say this in a strictly loving way #Anyway. Let me tell you a secret #Carlos actually has a tumblr. Yeah. And well #Frankly the idea of him being on the same platform as me horrifies me to no end. Imagine if he saw what I was doing #PFSSHSHHS. I think at the precise moment Carlos ever opened my blog. wherever i was #and whatever i was doing the flesh in which i inhabit would instantly initiate self destruct #because i couldnt live after that NYAHAHAHA #And he is so accesible by virtue of being very authentic genuine. but i can never ever interact with him online becaaause #I have a personal guideline I must always strongly adhere to. NEVER. MEET. YOUR HEROES. #So yeah. That's my musing for tonight. It's 3 AM and I'm unhinged. Like maximum of seven people will ever read this. Whatever

[tiziri-art]

I've been talking in instagram story a lot and 😭

I realized i'm as chaotic as I make my self-insert actually. They are supposed to be exaggerated. I'm as bad as them.

#nah. give me around 4 hours first. i want to do something else before #THE NUMBER OF TIME THAT I AM IN A DANGEROUS SITUATION OR UNWELL AND I JUST GO 'chill' OR *putting it to check later (when it's obviously a #now issue) #or even people suddenly dming me very suspicious question and me acting seriously about it (instead of either taking it as a joke or being #worried about it) #similar situation also happened irl #note : chill doesn't mean not taking care of it. #but it can mean being too uncaring about the situation while still treating it. it can mean not realizing like any normal being it should #be an immediate issue rather than a #and even for my social interaction i'm a bit chaotic. but it's covered by the fact that i'm polite and respectuous and considered nice #(so the result you may get is people saying that i'm weird but they don't mind it's kinda fun) #this can go between 'i have asked them to sign their soul away (precising it's absolutely fully ok it they don't want and that i mean it)' #to 'idrk social norms and so may talk a bit weirdly. maybe too casual for how i should actually have for exemple. often a mix of talking #like to a friend while having a sort of formal speech' #and also as you can guess i'm not really inside the social expectations which i don't know what they are and am fully counting on people #being nice and tell me when it's an issue even in the slightest way

[origami10]

Omg I was gifted dashboard crabs and it even works on mobile now… this is so exciting

THANK YOU ANON

#crabs #tumblr #can’t tell if this will be good or bad by the end of the day but #maybe the reminder I need to get off tumblr?? #haven’t figured out how to delete them yet XD #but their little comments are so fun #edit: ah for reference they go away again when you close out the app #oh also you can capture them by clicking you just have to be precise