#no bc why is he so calm all the time

[fbfh]

very much in need of some more ben florian content literally anything works i am desperate.🥲

I AM SO FUCKING GLAD YOU ASKED. AWWWUGUUHGHH. It's really been a minute since we talked about Benny boo huh. okay so I have some stuff planned for Ben so that's definitley something to look forward to, until then......

one thing about Ben Florian is that he's easy to fluster until he's not. He's a very patient, very diplomatic man. He can withstand a lot of teasing from you. he can handle all the jokes and jabs and flirting, all the getting up in his face just to watch his cheeks flush, watch him try to maintain his composure. but at some point... at some point, Ben is really really going to want to call you on all your big talk. He's going to want to shut you up. it's an instintaneous and almost invisible change in his demeanor, but before you know it he has you pinned against a wall or his big mahogany desk asking you to repeat what it was you just said. You have no idea, you can't remember anything except how good his muscular chest feels pressed against yours, how easy it is for him to hold you down with his big old hands.

"Mhm. That's what I thought, bunny."

He presses a kiss to your nose before standing you back up and parting ways so he's not late for his next meeting. You're gonna be thinking about that for the rest of the day.

#drabbles #ben florian #ben florian x reader #ben florian drabbles #descendants #descendants x reader #descendants drabbles #no bc why is he so calm all the time #he's... composed... #and I hate it #bites him #god he makes me feral

[yesloulou]

Daniel and Max interviews with Georgie Tunny for Network 10 Australia | Wednesday, 2024 Australian Grand Prix 🇦🇺

#max verstappen #daniel ricciardo #maxiel #f1 #* #** #australian gp 2024 #see this is why i love gif making bc i didn't realize max's lil 'ah okay' after daniel said 'friendly date' #like ah ok daniel is still not ready or whatever that was. and then being sooo assertive when he said 'no. your farm. let's go there.' #he was so calm and assertive the whole time it was so so so so endearing and attractive #ALSO DANIEL'S FOND LIL FACE IN THE 2ND TO LAST GIF OH MY GOD. BABY YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT FOR ALL OF OUR SAKES #also Georgie Tunny the queen that you are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[suffarustuffaru]

I don’t speak Japanese so I’d LOVE to hear more about the differences between the English and Japanese Re:Zero fandoms

yeah sure its very interesting to me now that ive noticed it more lately :o !! though ok disclaimer - i dont speak japanese either hah so if anyone is seeing this and does speak japanese + is familiar with the japanese speaking side of this fandom please add info if youd like!! and of course ill be mainly speaking from the english side of things bc im more familiar with that yes (sorry anon again im not a japanese speaker T^TT so sorry if i tread on info you already know!!). but yeah im speaking from my own experiences given the Topic at hand. ive been in this fandom since... 2019?? which is so wild to me aljsdfljsd.

anyway so - i think the big difference is mainly that the english fandom and many english speaking people that engage with rezero are. to put it bluntly, misconception runs Rampant to a very Interesting degree. to the point where it seems like the english speaking side of the fandom is More. Aggressive. than the japanese fandom. not that the japanese speaking side of the fandom is perfect - also bc what fandom is ever perfect 100% of the time, tbh - but that the louder people in the english rezero fandom are. well its a Very low bar. Very low. and from what little ive seen and heard so far, the japanese fandom tends to understand rezero and its characters better than the english fandom. which ig makes sense bc you know, rezero is japanese media, and also im sure cultural differences come into play here as well (im not familiar enough on this to speak about it in depth but the cultural differences feel Pretty Clear even though i cant 100% put my finger on what they specifically are).

but also bc yeah. its not That hard to beat some of the english fandom when it comes to media comprehension. misreading rezero is unfortunately Extremely common, both in and out of the rezero community. its Everywhere - youtube, myanimelist, ao3, ff.net, reddit, twitter, various rezero discords - and from what ive experienced, rezero tumblr basically kind of feels like finding an oasis after crawling through the desert for days on end lajdslfjs. which is probs bc rezero tumblr is Smaller and also a lot of us seem to be lgbtq+ in some way or be allies, so you dodge a lot of the misogyny and homophobia that happens in other rezero english circles. its why you see a lot of openly queer rezero-related posts on here while its a bit more. barren. in other rezero english places yes. bc its more safe to post queer rezero things on rezero tumblr rather than rezero reddit for Sure.

im not sure how the japanese fandom is with that exactly but theres some interesting differences between whats popular in the english fandom vs the japanese fandom. i mean as an otto fan ive been noticing how hes more popular with the japanese fandom—and on top of that, ottosuba is Way More popular in the japanese fandom too. reinsuba and julisuba seem to usually be the most popular mlm subaru ships in both fandoms but ottosuba is like A Little Up There in the japanese fandom. not sure if its on the same level as a ship like reinsuba but ottosubas Definitely loved as a ship. from what little ive seen it also seems like ships like vichisha are more acknowledged by the japanese fandom? im not entirely sure on like—Complete differences regarding what the japanese fandom finds interesting that may differ from english fandom, so ill really have to look more into the japanese fandoms fanart and fanfic when i can bc im pretty curious too. in general though, it seems like the japanese fandom has a bit more variety…. you can find fanart on So Many characters in rezero (which already has a very Massive cast full of very fleshed out characters) there. not that you cant in the english fandom bc theres a Bit of variety too, but id more so contribute that a little more to the Big Cast and less to having actual variety in fancontent. and of course im not saying that the japanese fandom may be a bit barren in some areas of fancontent—bc inevitably when u have a big cast of characters, side character content is gonna be more sparse compared to the main characters, but to me it does feel like the english fandom lacks variety in comparison. (and also yeah. seems like the japanese fandom acknowledges gay ships more in general tbh.)

whats focused in fancontent makes it easy to tell what may be popular in a fandom in terms of how fans perceive the source material and what fandoms want to do with the source material, if that makes sense. and its very easy to tell that with the english fandom if you just hop on rezero ao3–or even better, rezero reddit given theres a fanfic ideas thread thats usually pinned right at the top of the site. again i havent looked at japanese fanfic for rezero yet (bc i dont know where to look oops ajdndn) but when it comes to the english fandom you can tell that theyre generally more focused on the female cast both in fanart and in fanfic bc. theyre women and many fans on say, reddit or various rezero discords, are cis straight men, so inevitably… well lets just say you can tell when a man makes content for this fandom o.o theres also the. very weird reaction fic trends and trends following popular fics in the fandom, the two biggest being the watching him die again and again react fic and re:forgotten, the former of which includes a harem plot with subaru and the main girls of rezero while the latter is one of those subaru gets tortured by his ooc friends and then he gets revenge on them fics. which i suppose says something about the english fandom too.

of course on ao3 its dominated mainly by english fics (of course not all fics on there for rezero are in english— big shoutout to all the non english fics on rezero ao3 ur doing great <3 — but the majority are in english). and while yeah ur occasionally gonna find stuff like queer content or side character content or rarepair content, its definitely not that big in amount and also comes with the risk of. Hate. if anyones reading this and remembers the lone star stuff. (if u dont know—lone star was a julius x emilia fic where they NTR subaru or some shit and then it got bombed with hate bc of the ship? yeah.) so yeah english fandom is very cis straight oriented, ironically with the nastiest people being the very people that rezero criticizes. though this is also my personal experience, i do know several people personally whove been in this fandom for a while or were here for a while and yeah english fandom isnt very welcoming at times???? and it seems like at the very least the japanese fandom is A Little Less Aggressive than the english fandom is.

otherwise. yeah im very very curious about more of the differences in popular content between the japanese vs english fandom. i mean the english fandom’s main focus on the female cast for. Interesting Reasons other than their actual character depth is… interesting. and the astreas being popular in general vs otto + ottosubas popularity fluctuating is also very interesting to me (but i have several guesses as to Why that is), among other things. yeah id love to know what else the japanese fandom likes about rezero and see more of their content. i also have to wonder if characters like emilia and subaru are hated less by the japanese fandom…. T^T well that and the english fandom and many english speaking people engaging in rezero have this interesting pattern of either hating subaru No Matter What, wanting subaru to Not Be Subaru (ie using him as a self insert almost or attempting to change him into virtually another character), or putting subaru on a pedestal and ignoring his flaws and mistakes and that he Can do wrong. like theres Really not a lot of nuance there. so i wonder if the japanese fandom is. A Little more chill when it comes to character opinions like this too.

#rezero #tldr: english fandom sets the bar so low (unless ur on rz tumblr) that the japanese fandom def seems a bit better by comparison #in terms of. Calmness levels. #every time i step into a rezero space that isnt tumblr i get a little worried my heads gonna get bitten off by someone HAH #recently someone tried arguing with me over how i interpret otto (this was on reddit) and then said stuff that showed they did Not #understand his character that well so that was awkward 😭😭😭 #even just by looking at otto fanart from the japanese fandom it seems like more people understand his character there. in the english fandom #he is. either Not There or his flaws are just handwaved away or replaced with Different flaws #atm hes the most obvious example i can think of when it comes to. how differently characters can be percieved by different parts of a fandom #for rezero. like hes near invisible here but ottosuba being almost on the same level as REINSUBA in jp fanbase is crazy to me #kinda reminds me of the disney’s duffy and friends line and how it failed in the us but its SUPER popular in asia. really fascinating #and also yeah some of the english fandom seems. more loudly misogynistic and homophobic which is very unfortunate #also im sorry ill never forgive that random person on reddit i just said one (1) thing on otto and they came for my throat like fr 😭😭😭 #ask #i do wonder why reinsuba is so popular but thats probs bc reinhards well loved too and also hes op. which is a bonus for the english fandom #bc theyre into all the power scaling stuff. and also reinhard gets the other bonus of being a guy and he isnt shafted by canon. hes treated #very sympathetically which is another bonus akdnsn #i say this as a reinhard fan btw but as an emilia fan im also crying bc theyre SO SIMILAR and yet why do people hate emilia…. #but u know. reins a guy and we havent got his pov yet so there isnt much to hate.

[lobotomyladylives]

love how these end preview bits will have gon saying stuff like "in my next life I want to be me and meet you again <3" to killua, and then in the episode itself he's like "you are an emotionless robot just like your abusive family always told you. go kill yourself"

#ive gotten to this part in my rewatch & am experiencing the usual levels of suffering. #''you have it easy killua. youre perfectly calm. since it means nothing to you'' WHY DO YOU THINK HES EVEN HERE?!?? #its so sad bc killua cares SO much & hes not calm at all hes constantly breaking down in this arc. always about gon #we get 80ish episodes dedicated to making us love them & their friendship. then 60 of it being ripped up & set on fire #really cool really fun stuff love to make myself experience it all over again for a 5th time #its so crazy that its been a decade since i first watched hxh. and 9 yrs for hannibal. but then again its not bc who was i before that #my post

[thatgirlonstage]

Yeah yeah “show don’t tell” get mis-explained and misinterpreted as writing advice a lot and yeah sometimes you SHOULD be telling the reader things however I am unwilling to discard this particular phrase given the number of stories I have encountered that make me want to slap the author across the face with it

#tal reads #this post brought to you by my current audiobook #telling me. REPEATEDLY. in conversation and internal narration #that the mc is this incredible rebel who never follows the rules and who everyone knows likes to live on the edge man #meanwhile in terms of his actual ACTIONS in the story #the most exciting thing this man has done is buy a coffee shop without his family’s approval #(there’s a LITTLE more weight behind this than I’m making it sound bc his family is politically important. but not much.) #there’s this whole conversation he has with one guy #to whom the mc mentions his family wanted him to take religious orders #and the next like. ten lines of dialogue #are all just the guy repeating how UTTERLY UNBELIEVABLE this is and how NO ONE is less suited to that than the mc #and I’m just sitting there like. this guy is neither a serial killer nor afaik a political atheist so like calm the fuck down perhaps #it’s not a bad book overall!!! #but the reputation the author wanted her mc to have is HILARIOUSLY out of step with the character she actually wanted to write him being #if it was all internal narration I might call it a brilliant bit of unreliable narrator of the self-aggrandizing flavor #and take it as an artistic choice #but it’s clear other people think of the mc how he thinks of himself #just with…zero justification in the actual story lmao #every time he gets close to actually doing something seriously risky he’s like ‘but I’m not stupid so I didn’t’ #me: WHY DO YOU HAVE A REPUTATION FOR DOING STUPIDLY RISKY THINGS THEN??? #anyway if you have to TELL your audience what kind of person your character is #rather than letting their actions speak for themselves #then it’s time to reassess if that character actually is the kind of person you’re describing

[the-ragbros-are-okay]

i actually feel as though i am going insane bc i need to do TOMORROWS commissions to get the last story key for kaeya’s story quest because i was an IDIOT and and DIDNT

and now i feel like i’m full of BEES

PLUS. IM GOING ON A TRIP.TOMORROW

so i’m waking up early and doing my commissions and then a story quest bc i’ll be damned if i have to wait three more fucking days to see my favorite traumatized blue haired man

#my sister saw me yesterday when his story quest came out #and i realized i didn’t have enough keys #and i was fucking FUMING #and she was like “(name) you need to calm down” and i was like #“oh im SO FUCKING CALM RN you don’t even KNOW” while grinding my teeth and doing my commissions #i’m actually so upset why tf did i just ASSUME i would have enough story keys #i’m inconsolable #if i get spoilers i’m gonna be putting Diluc In Snezhnaya as the first thing on my kin list (that doesn’t exist) #but at the same time. i want to know so bad #my sister and i were arriving back at home and i was telling her how ME of all people is gonna wake up early #and do my commissions and the quests #and she was like “yeah i was on the hoyolab website earlier and saw a screenshot that i thought you might like” #and i was like “hokyfuckisng SHIT did it. okay answer me one questions. did he talk about—“ #“yes he said The D Word” and i literally said YIPPEE and jumped for joy #we were arriving home at the time and i fucking. skipped across our driveway #and i’ve been in a haze ever since #i feel like i’m. like my blood has been replaced by pure electrolytes. and like im #gonna explode if i don’t DO SOMETHING to occupy my time #was doing my commissions earlier and kaeya’s always on my team (ofc) but i heard one of his idle lines and i #went into such a fit of despair bc it reminded me of how i couldn’t do his story quest yet #DUE TO MY OWN DUMBASS CHOICES #that i. had to take him off my team for the day #AND THEN TWO KF MY COMMISSIONS WERE RIGHT BY DAWN WINERY #LIKE. GENSHIN JS REALKY FUCKING ME OVER HUH #why don’t they just spit in my face and stomp me into the ground i think it would feel better than THIS

[tricksterlatte]

Yearning for another fandom historical event that makes me feel the way I felt when they confirmed Tracer was a lesbian. Please...it was so triumphant

#parker says things #look I know P5T had bi Joker BUT I NEED HIM KISSING SOMEONE LIKE TRACER DID #I know he's fruity we all know it but in a fandom so predominantly dudebro despite the creators being pretty split demographic wise #nothing would bring me greater joy than him smooching a boy even if it's not my ship #do y'all remember Tracer kissing Emily #i was barely even in OW fandom at that point in time and yet I remember the exact day it happened #'she's ours now' #I think it's calmed down since then or maybe the reaction to Pharah was more chill bc we kinda...could tell with her #BUT STILL #pls I need every company to make the faces of their franchises LGBT+ #Sega unintentionally makes Sonic feel gay since he's not allowed to express long term romantic interest in female characters #where's the Shadow and Sonic makeout scene Sega #Let's have Aerith and Tifa kiss too I've been wanting that for 20 years #throwback to nearly every bi option in FE3H being from Adrestria #why did they do that #I think casual confirmation of queerness is as important as slow burn queer romances and I just am nostalgic for the euphoria of lesbian Tr #*Tracer #OKAY THAT'S ALL wow I'm ranting #can you tell it's the home of phobic family dinner holiday today

[storfulsten]

hey uh sorry for disappearing yet again for a couple months. don't have much of an excuse, though things have been more stressful than usual, offline life having involved family and hospitals and stuff, but not gonna go into any details, things are better now either way so ye. my way of coping with things have been mostly to just play games (ffxiv mainly, leveling alts and other grinding can be a good distraction sometimes) and nothing else to keep my mind off things, so haven't been able to focus enough to do much of any art at all. I am hoping to get back into the swing of things, I am back on my meds that I skipped out on for like a year due to various reasons, but they seem to be helping again so yeah, fingers crossed that things will work out and such ha

#also any and all social interaction not offline has been nonexistent due to things and I'm sorry for general unresponsiveness #again hoping to get back to being ever so slightly less antisocial at least sometimes #now that things are mostly calm again hopefully things will get easier in general idk lol #also I did actually doodle yesterday for the first time in like two months #just a random doodle of my viera alt that recently got to shb #he's very special to me and is a very good edgy bunboi bean that's been getting a lot of playtime these past couple months #he's very much a comfort alt based on a certain uhhh vibe that's been so important to me lately so idk felt inspired for once ha #so maybe I'll post that later just to post something idk we'll see #but ye fingers crossed I can get back onto the art train again properly soon #bc really more bombeep is not gonna draw itself and I'll be damned if I'm not letting it die just yet even if everyone else has jumped ship #it's my comfort ship and I do whatever the fuck I want art wise so heck yeah more bombeep soon hopefully ha #but ye anyways laters and such #also unrelated but corpse released a new song recently you should go listen to it #it's very good makes me feel really nostalgic and I dunno why #but ye stream DISDAIN on spotify or yt or something or don't you do you ha #ok laters forreals this time mmbye

[hella1975]

‘you’re all i got, cousin’ crying over richie of all people. can this day get any worse

#IF I SAID RICHIE IS ONE OF THE MOST COMPELLING CHARACTERS ON THE BEAR WHAT THEN #THIS SHOW SAID NO TWO DIMENSIONAL CHARACTERS!!! #he’s still a dick tho. love him #hi i had a hellish day. being on ur period plus working bank holiday saturday lunch rush? no a slaytastic combo #saw unprecedented levels of twatism today night actually be my worst shift at this place ever #god fr saw me posting positively about work lately and went girl BE QUIET and u know what it’s crickets from my end from now on bossman #this is the first time i could NOT snap myself out of a mood bc of a customer like it was a hundred little shitty interactions #of being spoken to like utter shit and then one table just pissed me OFF like complained to my manager the works and if it had been that on #it’s own it would have been fine but it had already been building and i was like no. im done #got asked if i could stay on until 10 and i wasn’t even polite about it i just went ‘FUCK no’ #almost cried on the bus home. humiliating. immediately got in an argument w my mum. thriving tbh #and then went ‘now is probably a bad time to watch THIS of all shows but oh well’ and weirdly it’s actually calmed me down bc I’m reminded #this is a universal struggle and it isn’t just me being a little bitch lmao. still sucks that my job literally consists of #‘whoever can tolerate being spoken to like dirt for the longest without snapping will get shifts :)’ like why is this behaviour allowed #why do i have to regularly day after day be disrespected and treated like im not even a person. for MINIMUM FUCKING WAGE #blowing the restaurant up im so fucking done man #the bear #hella slaves to capitalism

[mars-ipan]

honestly i don’t really think any mental illnesses have been like “destigmatized”- not fully at least. i think the stigma has just changed from demonization to “that’s not a real problem get over it god”

#obviously demonization is more Actively Harmful #but to say things like depression and anxiety have been destigmatized is. incorrect i feel #yes we are not treated like we’re evil. which is for sure an improvement #nobody deserves to be treated like they’re evil #but our illnesses are now being dismissed. ‘oh everyone has that’ not like me #‘you’re just being lazy’ i wish that were true #like. ok hold on let me use an example bc i’m worried abt reading comprehension on this website #(not my followers i trust u guys but i act as if every post i make will get popular) #my brother is autistic. i have GAD. #my brother was diagnosed when he was 2. he’s faced a lot of bullying from both kids and adults and it sucks and he didn’t deserve it #because of all that bullying (especially as a kid) he’s rejecting his autism and focusing really hard on being as ‘normal’ as possible #i was diagnosed last year at 17. i’ve been having these issues my whole life (my mom and i both saw it) but my issues were dismissed #by all the other adults around me (save for family) because i wasn’t visibly struggling and i was doing well in school #it made me doubt my convictions for a long time. what if i’m wrong? #as such i didn’t seek a diagnosis for a long time until my anxiety had gotten to a point where i knew i couldn’t keep ignoring it #now that i have that diagnosis i’m able to wield it as a weapon. my struggles aren’t made up #they’re real. and they always have been. and i can’t just ‘calm down’ like you can. and that needs to be respected #so while i think one is more actively harmful (bullying and harassment lead to self-rejection and loathing) #the other is also harmful- just passively (constantly being dismissed leads to self-doubt and not asking for help) #also why are people angry about the idea of a mental illness being destigmatized? #one group freeing itself from oppression isn’t gonna immediately forget about the groups who helped them get there #if i’m one day able to get perfect accomodations for my anxiety and nobody looks at me like i’m dramatic when i talk about it #i’m not gonna suddenly stop advocating for mental health issues to be normalized #if anything i’ll argue HARDER. you learned to understand me now learn to understand my siblings #learn to understand those with bpd. with psychosis. the sociopaths. the narcissists. the systems #i’m not gonna act like i have it worse than people who are heavily stigmatized. i’m not gonna get attacked for stuttering at mcdonalds #but that doesn’t mean i have /no/ problems and it doesn’t mean i think i’m better than anyone else #i don’t get why people fight each other about this. it’s a good thing so long as we remember where we came from

[prettyblondguys]

Some of my favorite quotes from my favorite play, The Busy World is Hushed

"I'm somebody's only son. So, it's my job to watch him when he gets sick, it's my job to bury him. It's part of the deal, isn't it?"

"I'm not terribly holy when I'm faced with the prospect of losing something I love."

"It's relatively easy for Christianity to explain genocides and wars, you blame them on the devil or a world gone wrong. But, watching my father die is the most natural, inevitable thing. It's how the world is supposed to work, and it's unspeakably cruel."

"You always say it's God when it's really just you."

"Here's where I see God: He's your aching heart in the dead of winter. He's reaching out to you right now, with all the power to ease your pain and lift your burden. Will you take His hand?"

"Because the real question is not what your philosophy is but how it's working for you. If it's sustaining you."

"Nothing ever comes to you entirely clean, and if you walk away from everything once it gets a little tarnished, then you will always be walking away."

"But what's the use of loving people so strongly and passionately when, in the end, it isn't nearly enough to save them?"

#Also Hamish Linklater is in it and it's so good #They did an audio recording of it and I've listened to it so many times #It's vv gay. Three main characters #A priest. Her son. And the guy she hired to help write her book thingy #The two guys are 💅 #And she's just like. Not a big deal about it #She WANTS the guy to date her son bc she hopes it'll calm him down bc he's all over the place lol #But it's also very sad #Which is why I like it I guess #Anyway #The Busy World is Hushed #I really wanna get a physical copy of it #Literally got me through last year lol

[mishkakagehishka]

Me when i dream of lil Mika but it's another nightmare

#and this one was so stressful bc like #i dreamt he was indeed my s/o but he was so controlling #like i was so stressed out felt like a trapped deer trying to gather a support circle so i can get away from him and he just kept ruining it #all for me. fucker learnt my native lang just so he could monitor my conversation with my family🤕 #at one point he made me agree to marry him and dream me did just bc she was absolutely terrified of him???? #girl just beat his ass ????????? #but like jokes aside i'm still in that ''just woke up from a nightmare'' mood so i still feel the adrenaline so i still get #why he was so scary like. i didn't know he knew my lang until he threatened me and told me i'm not allowed to speak to #my family anymore (bc i tried to get my dad to help me) and he was very. pushy with se.xual stuff #which like here's a fun fact but i'm a hypochondriac and i find it very hard to bond with people so i just kinda #accepted that i'm waiting for marriage (which is easier to explain than ''i need to REALLY trust you'' and agreeing to marriage is on that #level anyway) so when i TRIED to get him to stop by telling him i don't want to before i have a ring it did fuck-all to stop a guy #who was just like ''well we ARE getting married so what's the problem''😔😔😔😔 #i woke up before he did anything tho which i'm thankful for bc every time i dream of being sa'd it feels like it reopens old woundd #and it takes me a while to actually calm down from it #i will say tho. it's a vibe to dream of thingd you consider hot in concept but terrifying irl (controlling/abusive men <3) #bc like you know in-dream it FEELS like it's real life i really didn't care that it was Mika and he's not real it was reality for me #and so it was terrifying i was crying every time i'd get a hope of getting away from him he'd ruin it for me very swiftly etc etc #like i'm still stressed out. but. the concept? like now that i know i'm safe and none of that was real? i just think o-kayyyyyyyyy #lmfjsjsnmemdksks i'm hopeless. but not really! confirmation i'm actually normal just like certain things from the safety of fantasy

[lightsiided]

truly the one thing she never grows out of is having an emotional reaction to things like

rey has such a temper and we see her get overwhelmed and react without thinking so many times. and once she can take a minute to take a breath and collect herself she does the right thing and it all works out but sometimes she can't get there

and for as much as she matures i think that's one thing she'll never be able to shake. her instincts are always to react physically because so much of the formative years of her life made that a necessity so she's always going to be the person who swings first

#the fight with kylo in the snow is such a good example of this bc like. her initial reaction when finn is hurt is super emotional and sloppy #and then you see her close her eyes take a breath center herself and then she's ready to go #same when they're fighting on the death star in tros like ben isn't even trying to hurt her he's just trying to get her to calm down becaus #she's mad and overwhelmed and her instinct is to fight #actually doesn't he literally say to her in one of the novels that he's the one who should be afraid of her because she always shoots first #can i even call this a headcanon it's pretty well supported #& headcanon. #just thinking about when rey zapped the transport accidentally at work this morning and all the times she snapped and tried to fight someon #during the trilogy like just because they made her mad KJDFGFJHG #anyway this is why i like dynamics where the other person calms her down a little because she has a short fuse #so anytime someone can be like 'hey' and buy her a second i find it sweet. and i also find it sweet when they're like you know what go off #and just let her loose because sometimes she is right LMAO #watching rey just totally unload like aren't you going to do anything? and the other person is like no ❤️

[worstloki]

how does sigyn fit in with tesseroki?

Tengen Uzui 🤝 Loki

(has three wives and literally no one else is happy to learn this)

#''why does HE get three wives?!??!'' ''the Tesseract isn't a wife actually. no one's sure on them. except the 3 others i suppose'' #tony stark on his knees asking pepper to marry him so he can have at least 1 bc what stage will he stand on when talking to loki now #clint: heh #steve: you're not married either barton i don't see what's funny #clint: (can't blow his cover but is really tempted to just for tony's reaction) #tony loudly complaining about how he's losing to a supervillain #tony: technically rhodey and i got married in vegas that one time and it wasn't legally binding and neither of us accept a priest BUT-- #thor: please calm down he will still be there to fight you sometime this week i am sure #tony: i can't just repulsor a guy with three wives it'll make me look inadequate or like im trying to compensate for my lack of pepper or-- #bruce is the only one being normal about this and politely asking thor about asgardian culture or whatever #thor like oh it's not really legal on asgard but they're all from different realms and neither wants divorce compensation so it's accepted #like the most mildly mannered conversation ever between an alien prince and a phys-chem major scientist #while tony wails in the background and everyone else is lowkey gloomy about this info too #tesseroki #sigyn/loki #logyn