#neondvcks

[starryspeculation]

15 questions, 15 friends

thank you @fourteenthofaugust for tagging me! and sorry it took me a whole month to answer 🙏

are you named after anyone? nope

when was the last time you cried? yesterday watching one spring night, the couple is so so precious T-T

do you have kids? i have a cat

what sports do you play/have played? i used to be a licenced basketball player and then i was in the school's volleyball team, but nowadays i most regularly swim and surf, and skate during the winter festivals.

do you use sarcasm? unfortunately

what is the first thing you notice about people? how they stand. it's usually how i tell people apart from afar, im not good at faces

what is your eye colour? dark brown

scary movies or happy endings? happy endings all the way. i've never enjoyed scary movies.

any talents? im good at picking up languages. 8 and counting

where were you born? in a posh hospital. i went there the other day for something minor and they showed me the bill i would have to pay even with insurance and i decided i was not sick anymore

do you have any pets? kitty cat

how tall are you? 165 cm

favourite subect in the school? foreign languages

dream job? professor at the uni. or the editor of my own publication, we'll see what life brings

no pressure tagging: @armysonemeu @colorfulfireworks @the-city-kitty @sorceresslodge @evarelis @julesnichols @rosettyller @neondvcks @startreklesbian @eyesof-kkomi @reflectingiridescent (i saw you being active again! welcome back) @robotslenderman @andremichaux @karadenizin @dragoncharming

#tag game

[yashanydoren]

TAG GAME: 3 songs, 3 books, 3 movies.

I was tagged by: @nynazenik 💗

three songs (random three on shuffle from my “songs that made me” playlist)

landslide - fleetwood mac

hounds of love - kate bush

the mess - the naked and famous

three books (I'm currently reading)

the brothers karamazov

the life and letters of emily dickinson

poems on nature

three movies (a few faves)

little women (1994)

titanic

finding nemo

tagging: @strawars / @listen-past-the-silence / @brittaperry / @neondvcks / @beaufjords / @loiislane / @wallofbees / @flowellch.

#thank you for tagging me lovely!! #😌 #nynazenik

[justalittlebluetiefling]

i CANNOT believe we haven’t talked about the moment yet what is happening please tell me the things you need to get off your chest like how ‘i’ll see you in the morning’ haunts you

HOW have we not talked about this yet?!?! Oh my gosh there’s so much. I have so many feelings about this conversation.

Uh oh, this needs a cut. Didn’t mean to turn this into an entire analysis of that conversation, but apparently I had a lot I needed to get off my chest.

How are YOU holding up with all this?!?!

I was really worried about you... when you fell. ... This suddenly feels far more serious than I thought it might be.

UMMMMM. His voice?! This whole time. His voice is like... unsteady and rough and he’s quiet the entire time. Fjord tends to be pretty subtle anyway, so quiet isn’t exactly rare for him, but this actually shook him to his core AND YOU COULD HEAR IT. It messed him up so bad that he threw all of his plans to wait out of the window?!

It felt like hell. It felt like torment.

And we have to stop it, right?

I’m emotional about THIS because JESTER?! She lost FIVE YEARS. Not only did she have to see this again, feel it, but she lost five years. And it’s clearly hurting her, but she’s not letting herself worry about it, because there are bigger things to worry about. It’s just the way both of them push their own emotions to the side to be dealt with later in favor of the larger problems at hand. It’s so admirable.

AND HE’S NOT EVEN... okay wait.

I... I may have a... a... a problem.

THE WAY HE CAN’T EVEN SAY IT. He’s so NERVOUS. Because he KNOWS why he’s THERE.

And JESTER. What is it? So fast! She’s so worried! She probably thinks it’s Uk’otoa or Kotho contacted Fjord about Sabian again or something.

I saw you standing on that pillar. It was the first time where I kept myself from... trying to... stop something that was happening TO you and... I didn’t do anything and it’s bothered me.

He has a problem. His problem is that he can’t focus past the fact that something might happen to Jester. THE THING HERE. IS THE EMPHASIS ON THE WORD ‘TO’. “Stop something that was happening TO you”. Like, all of the times throughout this campaign that we weren’t overanalyzing. We’ve made the list a thousand times and I don’t need to repeat them. here

ALSO. Think about how many things in Fjord’s life have happened TO him. He doesn’t WANT that to happen to anyone else. Especially not Jester.

But wait. Like. He didn’t say it, but he really CAN’T focus past the idea that Jester specifically might not make it out of this. The guilt he’s been carrying after the Iron Shepherds. He took all the responsibility of that onto his shoulders and I don’t think anyone realizes that he’s still hanging onto that.

It seems to have exacted a pretty serious toll.

It’s just... his voice! And the way Jester’s face falls!! I’ve been pretty worried about how Jester still seems to be putting up the ‘happy’ facade for everyone and you can truly see in this moment how much it bothers her that she’s lost time.

I want to come out of this and be able to go back to the sea and go back to Nicodranas and go back to where it’s warm and not fucking freezing and...

Me too.

They miss HOME. The poor Coast Kids miss their home. They’re both so sad. But okay. The hilarious thing here? Is that Fjord? Is talking about how he wants to go back. To THEIR home. With HER. And it hasn’t HIT HER yet, because she’s distracted! She has no idea what’s about to happen.

I just don’t know if that’s... I don’t feel as optimistic now.

Me neither. But... I’ll try to be safe. And you should, too. But if it comes down to it, if it means stopping that thing? I want to stop that thing.

AND HERE. What was it he said to her at Travelercon? And you care about people you know, about people you don't know. You cause chaos, but in the end, you don't want to hurt people. You care. This is something that he LOVES about her, but right now, it’s just... okay I’m trying to put this into the right words.

*sharp inhale* I told your mother I would look after you.

Yeah. I’ll be fine, Fjord. We always are.

Continued from the previous thought. HERE’S THE DEAL. Fjord knows he can’t protect Jester from this, no matter how much he wants to. His voice is breaking over that. And Jester’s is, too. They’re saying all these words here, but they’re also NOT. I don’t know. I’m watching the video again while I’m typing this, so this moment is breaking my heart in slow motion.

It’s not even just on Fjord’s side. Jester’s doing that thing right now where she deflects, because that’s what she does and trying to reassure Fjord because he’s never been so worried about her and she doesn’t know what else do to while Fjord is sitting here like we’re running out of time we’re running out of time we’re running out of time. Like, that’s the whole thing. He can see that they’re running out of time on Jester’s face. Literally. It was one thing for him to wait to tell her until after he sorted out his life when they felt invincible. But... out of all the danger they’ve been in before, he’s always been able to follow her. She’s never had to be alone in it, because he was one step behind her. And this time? There was literally nothing to do. He was powerless. He is powerless.

This part of the exchange is so loaded. You can FEEL Fjord about to break. It is tangible on the screen because his voice keeps shaking and he takes that huge breath.

IT’S JUST. He’s trying SO HARD. I always talk about this, but this one specific  time Travis was on Talks lives in my head rent free. The time when he talks about how much Jester’s unconditional and unrelenting support has meant to Fjord and how much Fjord wants to be able to return that. ALL he wants to do is be there for her and she’s still not opening up to him and he has NO IDEA if what he’s about to do is going to work. He has no idea if she’s going to be okay with what he’s about to tell her.

I care very much for you.

Really?

JESTER’S VOICE IS SO SOFT. SO SOFT. AND HE’S LOOKING AT HER. AND SHE’S LOOKING AT HIM.

I’m melting over this moment.

*huge sigh*

Is it because I have chiseled cheekbones now?

It’s the longer horns.

Yeah, it really does it, doesn’t it?

Yeah. It gives you an intimidating look.

YOU KNOW WHAT I LOVE ABOUT THIS?! Jester saw that Fjord was nervous and she immediately tries to defuse the tension with a joke. And he jokes back. Because that’s what they do together. They’re goofy and silly and they comfort each other and Fjord LIKES that she’s strong.

Listen I’ve got clips saved up from my last rewatch because I want to make a gifset of the times Fjord has been openly appreciative of strong Jester and one day I’m gonna do it.

I mean they’re joking around, but Fjord is like, super attracted to Jester and I really love that for her. But it’s MORE than that, because he’s attracted to her, but the thing that won him over was who she is so every time he talks about how attractive he finds her, it’s just icing on the cake. He doesn’t just want to see her, he wants to know her and I don’t know how I got to this point from this section but here I am, I’m not going back.

C A N I K I S S Y O U

OKAY.

I’m gonna hyperventilate again for a sec.

It caught Jester SO OFF GUARD. AND THEN SHE’S NODDING AND THEY’RE SMILING AT EACH OTHER LIKE THEY’RE SO IN LOVE AND IT’S JUST BEAUTIFUL HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO LIVE LIKE THIS

HOW.

Kissing is a lot more fun when you’re not dying.

Jester!!! She brought up the kiss! THEY SMILE AT EACH OTHER AFTER THIS. LIKE. They both acknowledge the “kiss that wasn’t a kiss” AS A KISS. I never thought we’d hear about this again! But Jester’s been thinking about it THIS WHOLE TIME!!!

I love this though. The first time, he kisses her to save her life so she can get them out of that temple. This time, he kisses her, because he can’t stand the idea of losing her.

BUT ALSO. KISSING IS FUN. Jester!!! Liked!! Being kissed! By Fjord!!!

I want them to have downtime so bad. I want them to be able to spend time walking around Nicodranas and kissing and going on little dates and eating ice cream at the Lavish Chateau and hanging out at the beach with Luc. I WANT THEM TO HAVE QUIET MOMENTS.

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

This was so cute! This last part might be my favorite part of the conversation. Because Jester got all flustered and FOR ONCE Fjord didn’t get awkward! He was just so RELIEVED to have told her! And she was so HAPPY?! The CUTEST grin on her face! EVER.

I’VE WANTED TO DO IT FOR A WHILE.

JESTER’S GIGGLE HERE!!!!!!!!!!! I love this for her so much. I just do. She’s been SO into him for SO long and she didn’t think he liked her back and here he is TELLING HER HE’S WANTED TO KISS HER FOR A WHILE. Her giddiness is contagious!

And FJORD! How LONG have you wanted to kiss her?! For some reason, this isn’t something I’ve considered when trying to figure out the timeline of Fjord’s feelings. When is the first time he wanted to kiss her? I think I need to go watch all their big conversations again to see if I think it’s any of them. For some reason, I feel like it’s going to be in one of those silly little moments they have together and I’m going to miss it. Do I rewatch the entire campaign for a third time???? Is that what I have to do?

I’m kind of a big coward.

No, Fjord, you’re very brave.

I am very brave, aren’t I?

You are.

Jester FULLY believes this. She’s just smiling over at him this whole time. But he looks down. Because he still doesn’t think he’s brave. Or he’s brave enough for most things, but there’s ONE THING he knows he can’t do and that’s let her go and I’M. 

Is this all just speculation and guessing and me making stuff up? Yes. Do I care? No. That’s what his face says to me in that moment.

ALL WHILE JESTER IS JUST SO HAPPY. She DOES think he’s brave and she thinks he’s amazing and he just kissed her and it’s not how she thought it would happen, but IT DID and it was so meaningful.

We could get cats and just flee.

I need to get the whole dialogue for this, but I’m tired tbh and I need to sleep, so I’m gonna focus on this last part. How they’re talking over each other to joke around, but it’s really smooth and flows really well between them. But right before this you can still see how heavily the upcoming trials are weighing on them. They feel a little better about EACH OTHER, but there’s a very real possibility that they’re about to lose each other, but they can take this ONE moment of hope?!

And I just love it when they joke around with each other to try to make each other feel better. They’re so good to each other. 

I’ll see you in the morning.

God, the way his voice is just ROUGH and small and quiet and he DOESN’T WANT TO LEAVE and they just SMILE AT EACH OTHER and they’re scared of what’s coming but THEY KNOW THEY LIKE EACH OTHER and they’re SO HAPPY FOR THIS MOMENT. 

And the soft way they say goodnight to each other!!!

THEY!!!!!!!!! make me want to walk into the ocean. In a good way. I SWEAR I CAN’T WITH THIS.

And then the way Jester sighed and giggled after Fjord left! And I can see her leaning back against her door and sighing and looking up at the ceiling and just..... SO. HAPPY.

She doesn’t even ask for a cat cuddle pile!!!! She just stares at her unicorn until she falls asleep. SHE DOESN’T ASK FOR A CAT CUDDLE PILE! 

And then there’s Fjord! Who doesn’t sleep much!

That part makes me a little more angsty. There’s lots of reasons he might be awake most of the night. There are some really cute ones. Like he’s thinking holy shit I just kissed Jester and she kissed me back and she said it was fun that’s good right? And then there are the angsty ones where he could have been laying there thinking about how he doesn’t have any control over the situation and how scared he is. But he did something and he made her smile and that’s all he ever really wants to do. Is make Jester happy. And maybe he made Jester happy in this moment where she was trying to hide that she’s sad. AND THE THING IS THAT HE DID! 

And I’ll leave you with a very short list of random things I expect them to say to one another at one point with no context:

I can’t stand the thought of losing you.

Are you sure you don’t miss the longer horns?

You don’t always have to be fine.

OH. ALSO. 

Get ready for casual intimacy. I’m ready for hand holding. Shoulder touching. brushing someone’s hair out of their face. GET READY BECAUSE IT’S GONNA HAPPEN.

#i didn't proofread this yet don't judge me #i'm not sure if this is what you wanted to happen #but it did #i got very excited and couldn't stop talking #OH MY GOD THIS IS SO LONG I'M SO SORRY #critical role #the mighty nein #fjorester #fjord #jester lavorre #cr spoilers #cr2e118 #gosh these two are adorable #neondvcks #erin answers things

[cranesofibycus]

108 and 117 (you are awesome for creating this thank you for continuously being a force of positivity in this fandom)

Aw, thank you! I’m happy people are enjoying it! I mostly made it because I’m capitcal c Curious and love hearing people’s thoughts on the show and their engagement with the fandom :D

108. Traveler Con: Which area of Exandria do you want the Mighty Nein to explore in the coming year that they haven’t yet?

Just answered that one, but Port Damali pls I beg of you Travis Willingham just go home!!

117. The Tortoise and the Dare: Which big evil creature/NPC that the Mighty Nein have angered in the past will seek revenge on them next year?

One of these days they will be crossing another snow-covered mountain, Veth will start a risky, but hilarious maneuver, Jester will waste a spell on Polymorph,  and all of a sudden a massive shadow will pass over them and Gelidon, the Nightmare in Ivory, will have finally found their scent again. 

#end of year ask meme #neondvcks #b answers

[sylvansleuth]

thank you for singlehandedly giffing all of magic and misfits; it is very much appreciated ❤️

no problem, i'm happy to do it!!!😄💙

#it aint much but its honest work #lmao #neondvcks #ask

[maskeddevera]

Just for the record, I’m voting for so many Jester x Fjord kisses in this campaign that @neondvcks ongoing kisses gifset would break if there is not a part 1 / part 2 / part 3 et cetera.

#Critical Role #Fjorester #Fjorjester #Fantastic #kissing #kisses #neondvcks

[humble-wayside-flower]

They’ll Say They Saw it Coming in Our Fault Lines - Fjord and Sabian, mostly pre-campaign, probably a little during campaign too  👀👀👀

So this is actually the fic born out of that crack head canon I hatched awhile back about Sabian being another Syldor Vessar bastard child (in the same vein as Vex and Vax from Campaign 1), because I got to thinking about the way half-elves are treated in Syngorn and how that would relate to the way half-orcs are treated in the Menagerie Coast, and how that would color Sabian’s perceptions of Fjord if he grew up partially in the former, and then ultimately in the latter environment.

Other influences are Luke Arnold as John Silver in Black Sails, and the song Fault Lines by Rosie Tucker, because the line that would become the title of this fic just perfectly captures a certain type of tragic inevitability that felt appropriate for Fjord and Sabian.

Style-wise, I’ve played around with 2nd person POV where you, the reader, are seeing things through Sabian’s eyes because apparently I love making things difficult for myself in addition to unreliable narrators. In my head, the flow of it is very Grimm’s fairy tale as well.

Ultimately, the whole thing is an excuse for me to air out all of my Sabian head canons, and also to indulge in some feelings about tragic brothers connected neither by blood nor bond, but bonded all the same. Sort of this fic version of this post.

Selections from a very Rough Draft:

The only one who doesn’t laugh is the chubby half-orc named Fjord. He doesn’t believe you either of course, but the look he gives you is more pitying than the others, and somehow that stings worse.

…

You hate Fjord, and you love him like a brother, and you respect him enough that when it comes time to stab him in the back, you do it in the front instead.

#neondvcks #fjord #sabian #critical role #cr2 #critical role spoilers #excuse me I am here #my fics #My WIPs

[captainofthetidesbreath]

about the fjord oaths things; some people were talking about the watchers oath and that has me very interested but i don't know if they ever use ua stuff. anywho what i was thinking was how interesting it would be if matt changed/homebrewed one of the oaths a little bit to give it that special fjord flavor; which idk how easy that is too do but the 'we'll talk' has me very excited on both travis' ideas and matt's ideas. our half orc is going to vow his oath on the beach of nicordanas!!

Of the UAs, I do think that Watchers is a good choice, but I don’t think they’d use UA for a subclass. If I recall, the ship-based combat that Matt used for pirates arc was UA at the time. But, that’s a wholly different case. Using a UA subclass is a big decision that I do not think the table will do. So, Watchers is very likely out.

The thing with paladin Oaths is that, narratively, they’re all deeply personal to the character in question. But, I think that’s less a mechanical, homebrew thing and more of a flavoring thing. Overall, paladin Oaths are pretty flexible as far as flavoring and how any given paladin pursues the general thematics of a given Oath. It’s a little ironic bc Oaths are rigid™ tenets and value systems that one swears to, but as always, how those broad values apply or are interpreted by a character is so varied and multitudinous.

I wouldn’t expect homebrewed mechanical changes. I am very excited about how the thematics and the values represented by the particular Oath are presented in relation to Fjord though. That’s always such an exciting part of paladins.

#GOD i love paladins SO MUCH #Critical Role things #Critical Role #Critical Role spoilers #neondvcks

[vixxxenly]

90 and 109!

thank you!!

CRITICAL ROLE ASK MEME | END OF 2020 EDITION

90. Bathhouses and Bastions: What was your favorite episode this year and why?

I’m ganna cheat a little and split this to account for pre-COVID times bc I swear that hiatus felt like an entire year between episodes, and also combine my first part bc those eps pretty seamlessly fit together.

EP 97-98 (the live Chicago one into Fjord’s death): the live show made me laugh so much and I really loved the M9 getting to hang around Nicodranas and go to a fancy party but still be ridiculous. All of those really nice character moments Fjord got with people in the party (like chatting with Caleb, investigating at the party with Beau, having dinner with Jester, etc) leading into his death in a very impressive and fun combat encounter made these two eps super cohesive and impactful for me.

EP 108 (Travelercon proper): the ENERGY in this episode lmao. I swear they have been more chaotic since coming back in the new studio setup. I laughed so much during this episode and also got hit with the feels due to Jester and Artagan’s relationship (growth? in an archfey? amazing), and Fjord being wildly devoted with no thots

(also i’m sorry but predictably I will give a mentioned to EP 118 as well bc I was giddy and floating on a cloud for weeks after The Scene whatever sue me I am shipper trash)

109. Frigid Propositions: Give me three Mighty Nein predictions for the next year!

Caleb mentions his recognition of Fjorester to Veth and she loses her goddamn mind and is so happy for them but demands Jester tell her everything in extreme detail

Beauyasha (hopefully) have a first date in the tower where Beau has had Caleb make a room into a cute dinner area with wildflowers all throughout, they bang before Fjorester

Brutal and scary Tomb Takers vs M9 fight where someone probably dies and needs properly resurrected (cannot believe these hoes have not had a proper res ritual yet compared to VM but i guess that’s what happens with two clerics)

#critical role #neondvcks #ask

[laurasbailey]

happy belated birthday!!!🎉🎉

thank you!! 💙💙

#blue hearts for........... beauyasha #neondvcks #ask

[vethbrenatto]

💐🌷🌹🌺🌻🌸🌼 send this to ten other bloggers you think are wonderful. keep the game going. 🌼🌸🌻🌺🌹🌷💐

Thank you! I love your blog <3<3

#ask #neondvcks #positivity

[salamoonder]

💐🌷🌹🌺🌻🌸🌼 send this to ten other bloggers you think are wonderful. keep the game going. 🌼🌸🌻🌺🌹🌷💐

:D awww thank you :3

#neondvcks

[jcylenz]

#same energy

#critical role #critteredit #criticalrileedit #critroleedit #credit #neondvcks #the mighty nein #cr spoilers #jester lavorre #fjord #fjorester #fjoresteredit #laura bailey #travis willingham #mine #myedit #* #tv show: critical role #character: jester lavorre #character: fjord #ship: jester x fjord #am i just gonna keep giffing them? #maybe so #i have no shame #there are just so many possibilities #and parallels #and these two are basically the same thing #i love them so much #1k #2k

[justalittlebluetiefling]

OH another thing to catalogue maybe if you want to is the ‘okay/okay’ thing they do it’s the cutest thing

!!!!!

You’re very right. This is something else that needs to be catalogued!

#i have almost an entire sheet of paper of categories now omg #i want to do this though #think of how handy this would be for a giffing reference #for parallels #all that stuff #fjorester #critical role #fj notes #the mighty nein #neondvcks #erin answers things

[suzteel]

I’m not watching season 2 yet because I’m not ready (lol it’s been a year) to dive back into all that the show brings with it; but can I just say that everything you are giffing and reblogging about liz and maria and especially rosa (!!!) is truly sustaining me in these trying times :))

Aww thank you! I’m glad you are enjoying all my ridiculous stanning of the women on this show.

#neondvcks

[lion-cheshire]

4, 19, 20, 33 for the ask thingy :))

Thank you!

4. Favorite outfit - atm I love to wear black sneakers, tights, boyfriend jeans, and a pink or yellow waist length hoodie

19. Favorite weather - I love storms or just strong winds and rain, but considering that I go everywhere by bike that’s not always ideal, so I’ll go with mildly chilly, cloudy sky, windy

20. Do you believe in horoscopes - I don’t, but I think they’re fun!

33. Where would you live if you could live anywhere? - assuming it has to be a real place, probably either close to the North Sea or in a small house in the middle of the (black) forest

#asks #neondvcks