#my younger self just needs this

[surrenderonvinyl]

if miss swift brings out phoebe to sing nothing new as one of the surprise songs tomorrow for phoebe’s first show instead of her last when i will be there i’m actually not sure that i’ll recover from it

#i wanna hear it live sooooo bad and i know if they do it it’ll only be once #and it makes sense to do it on either phoebe’s first or last show but i do fear it will be tomorrow #and not when i’m there :( #i’ve already lost mirrorball treacherous wonderland and the other side of the door #and so many more favs ugh i just need to hear them all #anyways if anyone is reading this sorry for swiftie-ing on the dash it’s not that serious #my younger self just needs this

[intheconfessiondial]

Seaforth

12 days of 12 - January

#i'm gonna try and draw 12 (and clara hopefully) every month of 2024 #and see how my style changes through the year #I'm tragic at drawing Clara so honestly I should like to see the improvement there #when I was like 13ish and big in my Who phase I would draw her all the time #but stylised beyond recognition #I think that learning how to draw her consistently and recognisably would make my younger self very proud #i'm just terrible at drawing softer shapes #I can comprehend only lines #doctor who #doctor who fanart #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #whouffaldi #twelveclara #my pony versions of them got a strange amount of love #maybe that's what I need to post more of #I can be the 12clara pony person

[lonichedgehog]

Mixing my likings :))

#my art #sonic the hedgehog #sonicfication #crossover #trigun #vash the stampede #sonic #vash #followed the footsteps of my younger self of doing sonic versions of any character I like from other medias #also just because drawing any character as a mobian is fun lmao #this design is also not entirely original since I think it was subconsciously inspired by one I saw on tumblr a while ago #so no need to credit me if you do end up getting inspired on wanting to do your own version

[welcometoteyvat]

the only thing i took away from hsr 2.1 is that march is gay

#who is this bartender and can she become playable she deserves a full on the mouth kiss #hsr spoilers #hsr #also aven meeting his younger self is cute tho i still havent gotten to the part where they explain who tf is speaking thru his future self #but i actually hate how the game pushes you to keep pulling for newer units oh my god like i dont wanna do dot damage stop making your boss #bosses able to be oneshotted by black swan acheron kafka and nobody else #pov person who hasnt progressed through aven boss fight because it's taking way too damn long. prolly a skill issue but just let me play #my fav characters i dont need this fucking powercreep stuff T_T #ramblings! #also aven is growing on me but also idc his design is too dripless and so is boothill's im like -_- #the only pretty people are robin and siobhan the bartender and im so sick of physical.............. #also i tghink this is just a side effect of being way more invested in genshin bc i cannot fully pay attention to the lore tm #they be revealing things left and right and i just dont care so it flies over my head #at least they properly gave everything needed to understand avens backstory before we have to fight him

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

im finally going through my stuffed animals to choose which ones to donate (most of them. ive been putting this off for a long time ahaha sobs) and each webkinz i put in the box kills me inside

#THE GUILT IS EATING ME ALIVE #both a betrayal to them & my younger self #who would burst out sobbing at the mere notion of parting with a single one #and swore to themself that they'd never willingly say goodbye to any of their plushie friends #im trying to do it quickly and unemotionally but man. Man.... #clinging to my mangled toothless plush like it has any life left in it #GODDDD AND ALL THE WEBKINZ #when i was little i fucking collected them. i was obsessed. id play the online game for hours and diligently add each toy i got #some of them im not sure i can part with... #like milk the cow... dinner the turkey... white fang the husky... orchard the dragon... #ice cream the polar bear... strawberryblast the horse... kevin the bloogaloo or whatever the fuck it is... #why yes i do still remember most of my stuffed animals' names. which is making this infinitely harder #'sorry lovemuffin. sorry ellie. sorry momma dolphin. sorry snakey' etc etc #im keeping the ones with the most emotional value #like High emotional value. devastation to say goodbye level value #this box is Not Small and its still gonna get filled up.... #i havent donated or thrown away a single one in all of my years #eating glassssssss #absolutely unprompted #but it needs to be done!! i finally have a moving date! the uhaul will Be Here in like! just over two weeks! #and i've barely packed Anything!!! its crunch time babey! #its emotional turmoil of a different flavor babey!!! #now if yall will excuse me i will sit here and reminisce #of long past nights sneakily spent awake to play with my stuffed animals #oh the stories i would give them... #cooking shows... assassinations and resurrections... broken marriages.... betrayals... #white fang & milk you were my most iconic couple fr fr #badass lone wolf (husky) / easygoing sweetheart cow.... #OHHHHH THIS IS KILLING ME ITS KILLING ME #gonna go purposefully choke on my leftovers i stg-

[yardsards]

when characters have poofy messy but otherwise straight hair, i like to headcanon that their hair is actually naturally wavy/curly and they just don't know how to/don't care to take proper care of it. bc irl that is often the case (speaking from personal experience)

#eliot posts #*looks back at my younger self who didn't know their hair was wavy just thought it was Bad* #i was fuckin. walking around with hair poofed up like a mix between a founding father and a startled cat #and with a halo of frizz at all times #older relatives would call it nappy or ratty and suggest i cut it off or get a relaxer treatment done on it #(sidenote a bit ago i learned that apparently ''nappy'' is usually a racialized term tho i myself am white) #fascinating that they knew that straightening treatments would ''fix'' my hair but did not actually know my hair was wavy #i wore my hair real long back then too so it was constantly tangled lol #memories of being a kid and my dad having to basically corner me to brush my hair in the morning before school #my mother would bitch about my hair being too long when i was a kid and sometimes TRICK ME into getting it cut shoulder length #but then when i was an older teen and wanted it cut real short she FORBADE ME from going any shorter than a bob??? #so i just left it super long til i moved out and then chopped it all off and sold it to a wigmaker for a $300 profit lmao #now that it's short tho the wave pattern is very minimal #part bc of the way i style it part bc it's just a 2b wave pattern so you need a bit of length before the waves start getting really defined #anyway like. looks at catra and eda. let me get u some good conditioner and a wide toothed comb bby

[liquidstar]

WOW I FINALLY FINISHED THIS SET. There were a lot of things I wanted to get right for them so I took some extra time but hopefully it was worth it! The guild for this set is Cobalt Heart- a guild with focus on maritime missions, lead by (of course) guildmaster Neptune. There was no other planet I could've picked for his namesake lol. They're the guild I jokingly call the most jockish, but some moreso than others. I really do hope I did all the characters justice, but if you wanna know more about the individual members, it's under the cut as usual!

Name: Neptune

Name Origin: The planet named for the god of the ocean

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 52

Guild rank: Guildmaster

Weapon: Trident

Ethos (Power): Ocean wave (Control over water- stronger with sea water)

Flaw power is based on: Originally based on his overly relaxed go-with-the-flow nature, but since becoming a father and guildmaster he's matured, and his power grew from simple wave control to more powerful control over the ocean's water. Waves aren't always peaceful, but he's become someone who understands their power and the responsibility needed for it.

Notes: If it's unclear, the marks on his chest are meant to be top surgery tattoos, but in cool wave shapes!

Name: Triton

Name Origin: Neptune's moon, aptly named for his son

Pronouns: He/they

Age: 24

Guild rank: 4 star

Weapon: Twin sai

Ethos (Power): Ocean breath (Underwater breathing as well as other aquatic adaptions)

Flaw power is based on: His ardent wanderlust, especially in regards to the ocean. They literally cannot leave it alone despite any possible better reasoning, which is when it becomes a problem.

Notes: Was his other parent a mermaid or did they just do the fish thing on their own? The world may never know.

Name: Otrera

Name Origin: A trojan asteroid named after the queen of the Amazons

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 32

Guild rank: 5 star

Weapon: Brass knickles

Ethos (Power): Preflexes (Hightened reflexes)

Flaw power is based on: Her overly-guarded and cagey nature.

Notes: But her brass knuckles are pink so its quirky when she knocks your teeth out.

Name: Naos

Name Origin: A star whose name means "ship"

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 21

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Modified crutches

Ethos (Power): Helm (He can change the direction of inanimate objects. It's not limited to projectiles, he can change the direction of objects while they're in someone's hand too.)

Flaw power is based on: His avoidant tenancies, especially where more serious responsibility is concerned.

Notes: Honestly? Joined the guild to boost his playboy status.

Name: Aitne

Name Origin: One of Jupiter's moons, named after the personification of Mount Etna, a stratovolcano

Pronouns: They/them

Age: 27

Guild rank: 4 star

Weapon: Spiked gauntlets and armor

Ethos (Power): Molten Core (Lava manipulation)

Flaw power is based on: Their brash and destructive nature.

Notes: Likes all their food to be charred.

Name: Ariel

Name Origin: A moon or Uranus, named after an air spirit!

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 16

Guild rank: 2 star

Weapon: Baton

Ethos (Power): Harmony (Perfect balance on anything)

Flaw power is based on: Her own difficulty maintaining emotional balance under stress

Notes: She's a gymnast! And even though I didn't make the character named "Ariel" a mermaid, you can still see a scale pattern in her leotard!

Name: Maru

Name Origin: A white dwarf whose name means "Sky." It's orbited by the planet Ahra.

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 18

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Claymore sword

Ethos (Power): Sky walking (She is capable of interacting with air as if it were a tangible object, creating leverage for herself to walk and balance on as if it were solid)

Flaw power is based on: Her somewhat vain tendency to place herself above others

Notes: Complete and utterly confident she's the cooler twin

Name: Ahra

Name Origin: A exoplanet whose name means "Ocean." It orbits the star Maru.

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 18

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Claymore sword

Ethos (Power): Wave riding (Creation and control of tidal waves to ride on, as if she was surfing them with no board. But she does have to be on them.)

Flaw power is based on: Her arrogance and recklessness

Notes: Completely and utterly convinced she's the cooler twin.

Name: Pipoltr/Pip

Name Origin: A star named for "a bright and beautiful butterfly."

Pronouns: Whatever really?

Age: 8

Guild rank: 1 star

Weapon: Giant lollipop

Ethos (Power): None yet!

Flaw power is based on: N/A. This doesn't mean they're flawless, but until their power develops they're really just here to go on fun little adventures.

Notes: This child hangs around with sailors all day long. The words they know....

#finn's ocs #finn's art #oc references #FINALLY POSTING THIS SET #there was a bit of a delay bc i wanted to make sure i got the crutches w naos right #i ended up not making just the crutches a weapon but like. with modifications based on a real self defense item i found #but slightly different for both fantasy reasons and also i think its patented lol #his pose is also based on a real self defense w crutches video that my friend sent me (hiiii thank you for that once more btw <3) #so like hes very much in motion here. thats not how he usually stands w the crutches lol he usually like. uses them as crutches lol #the little trigger on them is what releases and returns the blade in them btw #also as for the rest of the group! i think neptune is absolutely the most fitting of his namesake out of all the guildmasters #i mean they all have aspects of it but he's fully embraced it. despite what i said abt him growing into responsibility and all #hes still such a chill nice guy. just in general. it would take a lot to get him angry (and if you did the sea is NOT peaceful!) #and in a lot of ways triton is like how he was when he was younger. responsibilities dont matter he needs to go to the challengers deep NOW #also the reason i picked twin sai to be his weapon is bc i didnt wanna do a trident twice. even tho like thats kind of the typical motif #but sai are like. also a 3 pronged weapon. so i felt it kept the energy. but smaller and 2 of them #omg speaking of weapons i completely accidentally added a trans flag to ariel's baton design lol. but i left it in why not #i had such a hard time w her colors bc i wanted her to be flashy but also to make the leotard mermaid esque #also for it to not be too revealing. like leda (from the lunar flare set) can have an exposing leotard tutu sure but shes an adult #and i wanted to give ariel more of like an 80s home gym workouts vibe. with the legwarmers and scrunchies lol #and the twins!!! i wanted to make them samey but differeny. in a way i havent done w matching outfits before #bc the actual shapes of the clothes are very different but the colors totally match! #plus the twins are fraternal. i feel like thats obvious what w their different hair colors but there are more subtle things #like slightly different eyes. the height and weight differences arent part of that tho bc that can happen to any twins even identical #otrera i also had a lot of fun with. especially the blonde hair in an emo bang with like a pink sporty outfit #the crown logo references her namesake being a queen too! #she really was fun tho bc shes just no nonsense trusts nothing but her gut. and shes meant to be like an MMA type #aitne was also super fun but a bit tricky to make it clear that their eye is half lidded from the burns and not just like a drawing mistake #but i think i made it clear! its important bc their vision is also impaired on that side #and the burns themselves were most likely an accident on their end. remember they're brash and destructive. even to themself!

[ezlo-x]

Three (3) figures that I would kill to have in my collection

#im patting younger self here for obtaining ww link #the store didn’t have ww zelda </3 just sksw link and it was between ww link or that link #however i am a FOOL for not getting MM Link when it was right there on discount on game stop #idk how old i was maybe 16? i looked at it and was just hmm…i don’t think I need it YOU IDIOT #albw link figure…i just want it he looks so cute i love that specific art style actually its one my favs #and then botw link/zelda figures + guardian??? those were out of my reach lol </3 #but im actually not interested in getting those #personally me thinks they should’ve not gone w the chibi figures #i get mm link and ww link/zelda cause they’re kids and the style fits #but yea I’ll stop rambling here #txt

[anmaries]

#throws up #she's always like this she's always so adamant on being the one to throw herself in the line of danger #it was much worse when she was younger and starting out inthe x-men but #it's still there!! #this need to suffer and sacrifice herself! #to prove that she can be good! #but not only that but because she still does not believe her life is necessary #why do u think she's so upset when wanda does her no more mutants things #partly because she STILL has her powers #she still is unable to touch #she still has to live with the fact that every day she has to exert massive energy to controlling herself #to make sure if she does touch it's only what's needed in the moment #being her is exhausting its tiring #having to inhibit a sense #just so that others can be around you #she's extremely dangerous and she's extremely guilt ridden #AND THIS LIKE SCOTT IS TALKING ABOUT SENDING A TEAM #and rogue is like no i'll do it by myself only i should risk my life because who actually cares im not even real #still so hung up on her past self and constantly trying to atone for it #and it's not even self sacrificial in a glory way she just genuinely doesn't care about herself that much

[seagull-scribbles]

Saw some artists draw Rise Raph’s mask in a bow and I fell in love ♥️

#rottmnt #rise raphael #raphel #i saw the bow and i loved it i was like yes i love how raph is so angry and tough but rise raph punched toxic masculinity in the face #but then i was doodling it and its like #its lgbt history month here in the uk #and most of you know im non binary #and i have been self projecting onto rise raph a lot this past month so #i ended up doing this instead with his two outfits #experimented with colours and textures a little more #i want to branch out and maybe try drawing the other turts and maybe some humans but i am missing my sonic stuff a lot too #but yeah a fem and masc rise raph for the soul for now #i really love all the ideas and headcanons about raph having DID and stuff it is logical #but i also just like that maybe raph is like an onion with lots of layers that i can hug and self project onto mwahahaha #i think i need more practice with this more boxes body shape but i do think this is already much better than my attemp 3 weeks ago so progr #progress #its a shame i dont have time to do lots of studies and redraws i think that be the next step for me to progress #also no one asked but i think his masked it ruined at the bottom because he chewed it when he was younger #also also no one asked even more so but this month ive just been thinking alot about how i present and idk #just a lot of thoughts and reflections going on here i guess #SaveRiseOfTheTMNT

[needylittlegirl]

#hes me #i just got very like umm #i need to hold someones hand but that someone Needs to be my younger self #like i wish i could hold my hand so tight right now #growing up is scary and i just want her to know that im okay. that ill be okay #and that even if she isnt proud of me im proud of her #21 was always a big age in my head #in the sense that like. for awhle i was so sure i’d be dead by then #like i knew id graduate highschool and i figured i’d make it a few years but never to 21 #so just the fact that ill be 21 in a few hours really is. So wild and so scary #whatever im fine #also completely unrelated (i swear) i just got my panic attack chest feeling #i think its because i havent been sleeping much so im just exhausted #whatever #i want to grab little 8 year old me and just hug her so tight #i needed it then and i need it now #i hope shes okay. i feel her sometimes and i hope she knows im strong for her #everything i do is for the little girl i used to be #amd i hope everytime i tell her i love her it somehow reaches back through time and she can feel it #tbd

[wayfinderships]

AUUUUUUGH! I miss my little guy your honor!! I miss him so damn much!!!

#pan rambles #I've been listening to some songs and AUGH... #Sorry for bringing up the original story me and 2 close pals of mine have made again but AUGH #I MISS MY LITTLE GUYYYY #The way that despite everything he stays kind... #How being the Hero and Saving the World is cool and all #but what his real motivation for starting his journey is wanting to create a world that was safe for his family #How deeply he cares about his younger siblings and mother and how being apart from them hurts from time to time #How in one ending he achieves his goal of creating a safe world for his family #at the cost of watching all the friends he met across his journey die #He won and was called a hero but at the cost at becoming a shell of his former self #How his mother and siblings saw him leave with a smile on his face and coming back with a dead look in his eyes. How he looked so exhausted #How in another ending he achieves the same goal and even creates a world where the Villain got to live a better life #but this time at the cost of his life and memories. Specifically everyone's memories of him- #He got what he wanted and no one will remember him #And then there's the good ending <3 #Anyways yeah sorry I just needed to ramble a bit about my little guy-afksnfkdn He's so special to me <3 #no amount of s/i angst will ever top what I've made my little guy go through

[sonknuxadow]

i dont really like the tails is secretly a kitsune theories either i think he should just be a normal fox who has two tails for no special reason

#i think my not liking that theory about tails mostly comes from personal bias though #because tails' whole deal of ''something about my body is different from everyone elses and the other kids are mean to me over it'' #makes me see my younger self in him as a disabled person #maybe its debatable whether having two tails would count as a disability or not but tails is disabled To Me #and trying to come up with a magical explanation for why he has two tails #instead of just letting him have two tails for no particular reason feels like its taking away from that a bit idk #im not saying youre a bad person if you believe that theory or that youre not allowed to make him a kitsune in your au or whatever btw #i know most people probably wouldnt see it this way #thats just my reason for not caring for it and not wanting it to ever be made canon #but also i just think its funny that some sonic characters are actually special because theyre princesses or ultimate lifeforms #and some are just powerful for no reason #we need some people to stay in the powerful for no reason category i vote sonic and tails stay in there #sonic and tails are brothers who are just some guys

[paladincecil]

I got my first 99 in osrs :)

#my younger self has finally achieved one of his goals xD #I've been levelling cooking while I use my treadmill over many months #today I got to 98 and decided to just grind out the last level doing 1 tick karambwan #Now I need to pick something else that I can only do when on treadmill to motivate me to exercise xD

[britneyshakespeare]

Also I never knew that there was even a single color photograph of my grandparents' wedding in 1952. I've only ever seen the ones in black and white. Don't they look beautiful? Didn't I just come from the most gorgeous people?

#i love how you can actually see my grandfather's red hair #as a redhead i know the injustice that black and white does to us... alas! #my charcoal self-portraits always look unlike myself to me because im like i have red hair. this doesnt look like a redhead #this isnt me #also even though it's a white dress. grammy's dress looks so much more beautiful surrounded by color #wow #tales from diana #did you know i never knew my grandmother was a local beauty queen when she was younger until after she died? #when her dementia got to the stage where she needed a live-in nurse to help her all the time #at one point my aunt rediscovered a picture from when she was about. 17. i posted it years ago #she scanned it and had it cropped and framed and left it in the front of the living room #the first time the nurse saw that photo (i was there) she said 'DAAAAMN MOM IS THAT YOU?' #and grammy was like 'oh :) yes thats me' #like it was nothing and then later on the nurse said 'i know you already said it but damn i just cant stop looking at you!' #that nurse was really nice. really really nice. #the priest at the wake when saying a prayer for the family before everyone else started ushering in #mentioned what a beauty my grandmother was and what a lovely couple the two of them were. #they went to that local church for about 60 years so he mustve known them for decades. it was a nice touch.

[ezraphobicsoup]

with every act of self love i hug my past self and give him reason to keep going

#i dunno i’m feeling things i’ll try and spare you all the thoughts #i was gonna make a post saying ‘i need to go back in time and hug my younger self’ #but this is how you do it right?? you do everything you can in the present to make up for all the shit you subjected yourself to #or were subjected to by others in the past #and it will get easier even as it gets worse it will get better #and maybe one day i will be the past self that i look back and feel such pity?? sorrow??? for #but i can do everything i can now to forge that future me into someone who is loved by himself #sorry bit uhh bit deep for not even that late night tumblr posting #just bare with me it’s important i do this every once in a while #ezra’s real life rambles