#my thinking process was simple

[squarecloud73]

*I worship you Tumblr don’t remove it

Punk & goth & emo

#yep #my thinking process was simple #look I need to focus on something other than sadness and suffering ok? #the sandman #dream of the endless #death of the endless #delirium of the endless #SquareCloud

[julijbee]

girlbossing too close to the sun.

#art #ive literally just been treating this game as a library simuator #i walk from bookseller to bookseller opening up all of their books #vivecs sermons are either a highlight or the point at which i stop reading #ive been trying to convince the ordinators that imitation is the highest form of flattery but it hasnt been working #let me wear your helmets please theyre so funny.. #posting morrowind in 2024 isnt a cry for help but youre not wrong to be concerned. #morrowind #almalexia #vivec #im going to explain the chitin armor give me a moment #so the bonewalker nerevar on the shrines is adorable and it was only after drawing it however many times that i realized #it looked relatively close to a modified chitin armor #and so i modified chitin armor a few times and this was probably the cutest result #i also know i drew almalexia relatively pristine and untouched by years and vivec not so much but my thought process was #vivecs role as if not a favorite then the most accessible divine or the most “hands on” in a manner of speaking #acting in ways visible to the general population or actions explicitly brought to their attention #like not that almalexia isnt doing anything she is #but the dissemination of information regarding that is very different etc etc etc #anyways to a certain extent a god is the face on a shrine or in art or upon a statue or carving #but vivecs presence is interwoven with the geography of vvardenfell especially and his actions and writings with pubished materials #and the arts and culture and customs etc etc etc #so to me the face of a god you know and feel a commonality with or a god that walks alongside you is a face you would recognize #and vivec is already otherworldly looking enough #the simple mark of the years on his skin in some way grounding him in reality felt more right #that and i think the ways in which he and almalexia care about outward appearance are slightly different- they prioritize different things #and the ways they present outward power and their embodiment of their respective attributes share some similarities as they both have that #important preoccupation with physical power and physical strength to a certain degree #oh my god nobody read this i am yapping so bad. #tes

[hisirdouxcasperan]

Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022), dir. Joel Crawford

#puss in boots #the big bad wolf #puss in boots: the last wish #PLEASE GO SEE THIS IT'S SOOOO GOOD THE ANIMATION AND SOUND DESIGN ARE WELL WORTH THE CINEMA TICKET COST #dreamworks #dreamworks animation #my gifs #puss in boots spoilers #the last wish spoilers #puss in boots the last wish spoilers #puss in boots: the last wish spoilers #this moment was GORGEOUS and TERRIFYING. #played around with sharpening the gifs. for the first time. which (as it turns out) helps a LOT with the dithering #my gif process keeps getting slower and slower. whatever #i hope the alt text for this one is OK because i felt it was too simple just to describe the action and not the animation #(i also think a dark blue caption would've been nicer but then i have to put in the alt text again bc tumblr gets Weird about html mode)

[barbietoiles]

You know what i like about phil ships. He is just soooooo obsessed with the other person.

Pissa = old man crying over seeing skull. Old man sobbing over missa mention. Old man excitedly running towards husband when he shows up, then proceeds to declare his love at the end of every sentence. "kiss me right now, on the lips" 👈 LOVESICK WET BIRD

Codebreakers = have you seen how much he brings etoiles up. Every chance he gets hes babbling on about how cool and capable etoiles is. When they meet, ANY chance he gets to interact with him he WILL. Spots a pixel of etoiles in a crowd must approach must call him the goat. Theyre both so enthuasiastic about praise, they simply keep stacking compliments. Phil just wants to play around and have a praise battle in a loop forever

Fitza = to be fair fit is instigating things more but they just keep piling weird and genuine compliments higher and higher. Every chance at praising fit he gets, he takes it. Every chance at showing off to fit, he takes it. Fit showing off to him he loves and vocalises this love in peculiar ways. Whatever fit says phil is nodding along to. So true bestie.

Philhalo = Another guy he talks about often when capable and cool people are brought up in conversation. Phil respects badboy but he also wants to antagonise him sooooo bad. He sees badboy he NEEDS to punch him. One manditory swear word drop per interaction BUT after that he will respect the language policy (as best he can, he is very bad at it). I need them together more i need phil trying so hard not to swear and also praising badboy and also being a bastard about it.

#qsmp philza #phil is simple bird man he wants to give gift play around and spend time with those he loves #pissa #codebreakers #fitza #philhalo #if anyone else ships phil and bbh please let me know i want more insanity in my little pot 👍 #text bits #i think i shohld do a deeper analysis sonetime. but alas my thought process is limited by my poor level of language </3 #i can always TRY

[lizard-dumbass]

so The World Of Mr Plant is actually rly cool

Image ID: a digital illustration of Mr Plant from the web series The World Of Mr Plant. He is sitting on a white bed and is looking at the "camera". Behind him is an open doorway cloaked in pitch black darkness. The room is dimly lit and the lighting has a distinctly purpley blue color to it.

#lizard dumbass's art #the world of mr plant #ashur gharavi #mr plant #this random ass tiktok dreamcore horror series is now taking up space in my brain so i had to draw him #tbh this was more so an excuse to get myself to draw more because i rarely ever make a full proper completed illustration and its been #making me feel inadequate as an artist :') #anyway im fairly pleased with how this came out #i tried to capture the liminal dream-like vibe of the series #also i got this done in 1 day which is neat ig since i tend to draw very slowly and it can take days for me to just draw #a simple character render #its also during the process of this art that i realized that mr plant's current flower petals are different from the ones in the first ep #i think ashur might have replaced them after the babysitting episode where one of the flower babies tore a piece of a petal off #twomp #mr plant twomp

[bitchfitch]

I have the general rule that I just, don't let myself give a shit about other people's dumbass opinions but I have one pet peeve that I just. Can Not let go of. and it's posts that go

How to write [Minority Group]!

Step 1: Make sure all your characters are exactly like me the op, or are exactly what I like to see in media.

Aside: Anything else is impossible, unrealistic, bigoted and you'll go to hell forever.

Step 2: They also have to use the exact language I do to describe themselves btw, no matter the time period or setting. See the above aside for further explanation.

Step 3: you should never ever even think about the actual mechanics of what makes a trope problematic in its impact in the real world. J ust memorize this list of things that should be banned in all fiction (for being problematic because I don't like them/someone else I agree with said they should be banned)

Step 4: Nuances in identity don't exist <3

#this is specifically about the number of how to write acearos posts that dont recognize people can have motives outside their orientation. #or that demiromantics/demisexuals exist #They are also always Really particular about how its unrealistic for aro characters to be anything other than disgusted by romance #Hi im an ace aro who fucks often and adores romance #as like a genre and form of social performance #I like sex because I like attention thats socially simple and doesn't require the upkeep of a relationship #I like romance because im a human person who doesn't think every story has to be about me to be interesting. #I like new experiences and seeing the world from other perspectives i like the pagentry of dates andnthe aesthetics of love. #Whether im loveless or not is an ongoing question because my ability to process my own emotions is zilch. #Maybe im incapable of love (the chemialcal reaction) but still chose to love (the social contract) #its not unrealistic for people tobe different from you #it just Frustrates me to no end when folk try to define anyone who shares their lable but arnt like them out of existence.

[skeletalheartattack]

i haven't played minecraft in years, but with the armadillo winning the vote, i think about how wolves don't really have much going on in terms of their utility. like anytime i tame a wolf, i end up just kinda keeping them sitting at home.

i think if mojang really does feel like wolves are deserving of armour, with the addition of armadillos, they really need to update wolves to be more useful as companion mobs, because personally... i never feel the urge to bring a wolf with me when im going out to do things, especially if it involves combat.

like, what do dogs do best? fetching stuff and digging, right? like i wish that i could just mill about with a wolf and they track a scent or something and start digging into the dirt and then proceed to bring you that item. like it could range from rarely digging up iron nuggets to digging up vegetables or whatever, yknow. combine the fetching stuff with combat and you wouldn't have to manually pick up stray arrows or items from mobs your wolf kills.

the only other thing i wish you could do with wolves is automate their health in some way, like give more utility to the bowl item so you can place it down for them to eat from so you don't have to constantly manage their health by looking at their tail. just minor quality of life stuff i guess.

idk, that's just my thoughts. i do like wolves in minecraft, they just feel rather lacking with the way some new mobs have so much going on, like the sniffer and allay and so on.

#id like to play minecraft at some point but sadly i dont think my current computer can run it due to not supporting opengl #but yeah. i usually keep this stuff to tags but i figured my thought process wouldve ended up with more than 30 tags #so thusly just. lone post of my thoughts. #but back on subject. i kinda think about how you could automate like... mob farms with wolves. but i run into dead ends #like how do you specify which mobs to have your wolf ignore. and how do you target them in the first place without attacking them #like. maybe the scope? like you zoom in on the mob you want attacked. idk. thats a tough one to figure out. #cause like it has to be something that can be easily executed. and easily managed. #like im imagining going to a pig pen and letting a wolf in to go kill and then bring back the items #but like you dont want the wolf to kill all of them... and yeah ik theres more efficient ways to farm mobs #i guess i just want it to be a bit more player involved. add some fun to it. #i like going around and doing things. automation is kinda less of my thing in most cases #especially with the complexity of some things right. like having a simple easy option would just be nice to have i guesz #its just all about how you go about executing it in gameplay #anyway thats all my damn brain power #minecraft #tagging that for myself for if i gotta find it later

[mikesbasementbeets]

“if mike is gay and never actually loved el romantically it would diminish their whole relationship :(” ok but like what do you think they’ve been doing this whole time then? do you think the current dynamic of their relationship is good? the relationship we’ve been shown this whole time is supposed to have some sort of positive romantic meaning?? like what do you think would be diminished if mike is gay? he is already unable to genuinely (ie not under dire external pressure) tell el he loves her. he is unable to be genuinely romantic with her (see Every Single Time they kiss (or almost kiss) and mike looks like he wants to crawl out of his own skin). he can’t even put his arm around her waist to support her!!! like. what would be lost if we were to learn that the feelings between them are actually platonic????

#this is about my last rb like. YEAH. they’ve BEEN devaluing their romantic relationship ALREADY. the Whole Time you might even say #it’s like…. their entire thing #also the idea that mike’s being gay would diminish the value of elmike’s relationship as a whole is 1. a miIeven take and 2. homophobic #said it before but. if you think a gay person ending a het relationship and coming out as gay devalues the meaning/importance of that #relationship? that’s homophobic. ask yourself why you think that. examine your thought process. reconsider. #imo mike being gay would EXPLAIN the intricacies of their dynamic in a way that would DEEPEN the meaning of it #but hey some people [cough] will continue to claim gay mike theory is biphobic while providing no evidence for that claim #and at the same time refuse to even acknowledge their own homophobic bias (which has been plainly laid out for them over and over) #hot tip if you don’t want people to think you’re a miIeven shipper then re-examine the opinions you cling to that fully align #with a homophobic miIeven's. quite simple. #beets posts

[izzyspussy]

i think a lot of people have never been in a truly desperate situation but think they have, and this causes them to pass really harsh judgment on people who made bad choices when either irrational or having no good choices to pick instead, and i really wish people could get some fucking self-perception and work on their compassion skills and not fucking do that as much anymore

#jack facts #people be banging on about empathy this empathy that #and like sure maybe people have a measurable capacity for it but i can tell you what #that sure as fuck don't mean any fucking one of them ever bothers to make use of it when it matters lol #and i mean on the other hand it's hard to conceptualize how you would feel going through something you've never experienced before #i just wish people would be AWARE of the fact they don't know! #or like that there's a difference between ''i can't afford anything but instant ramen'' and ''i can't get any food or water'' #or a difference between being freaked out by spiders and having clinical arachnophobia #or a difference between ''my loved one is sick and i'm really worried about them'' and ''my loved one is dying in front of me'' #etc etc etc etc etc #anyway the longer i live the more i'm convinced that empathy is a garbage concept #and actually a more reliable way to act with true compassion is through at least some capacity for relative objectivity #the ability to say ''i don't know how that feels and i cannot understand it through comparison'' and to be able AND WILLING #to take people's self reports on their feelings thought processes or lackthereof in good faith and with sympathy #and also the ability to acknowledge that doing a bad thing for good reasons does not negate the bad thing being bad #but also should and does change what consequences are appropriate and/or most effective #and also like............... things people do in desperation or other irrational states do not represent Who They Are As A Person #or what it's like to hang out with them in a day to day situation #another thing i keep getting more and more aware of is like. if y'all can't even handle an irrational or impulsive choice that does harm #done by an otherwise ''good'' person under short term desperate situations #that they then do their best to reduce the harm of after the situation is over #i can not even imagine how absolutely unforgiving you must be of anyone who has delusions #and i mean real delusions and real psychosis not the hyperbolic babytalk version lol #like i don't think most of you even know what the fuck a delusion even is the way you act about things as simple & straightforward as like #fear. hunger. pain. #absolutely fucking exhausting

[szampers]

Personal notes from before the szpd epiphany nr. 4. More info in tags.

It'd be nice if staying solitary wouldn't affect your cognition. I'd stay alone forever perhaps. I was probably meant to be some solitary animal, but for reasons unknown I've become a being which is supposedly the most sociable.

#animals could live their whole life alone. if you ignore the mating season part #it's the one thing i value about being a person #they simply live their simple lives bound by instinct. it is inflexible. it is rigid. #now my own rigid thinking goes right in line with that #only good thing about having the consciousness to process all of this is that i get to absorb knowledge. that's about it for now #schizoid #szpd #schizoid personality disorder #rambling #for being a being who are defined by their ability to form bonds i am quite bad at it.

[ennuidays]

i wonder if people think im a clueless idiot . i wonder if people think they have me wrapped around their finger . like realistically i know Nobody cares about me that much but like ... i cant help but wonder if everyone is out to Get Me

#no one thinks about you even haaaalf as much as you think that theeyyy dooo #its not thay big of a deal if everyone i know Does hate me and thinks im stupid and gullible #but id rather be told up front . #on this same topic i dislike people who act all mysterious and unknowable #like they treat themselves likr an unsolvable puzzle thay needs to be studied #i know im a hypocrite there . but a lot of their thought processes are extremely simple #i get sometimes simple things are so simple they seem complicated #but sometimes its a matter of self reflection #i should def be taking my own words to heart rn #and ive been trying to . if not only for my dislike of hypocrisy

[shakingparadigm]

Would the human pets be capable of basic tasks like washing their clothes or preparing food? I can see some pets knowing how to prepare food as like, a fun little party trick to impress others, but as a basic survival skill I don't think it's commonly taught to humans anymore. There's most likely a line drawn between pets that are helpful and reliable, and pets that are too capable, to the point where certain owners may feel threatened by their level of intelligence and independence. I wonder just how helpless the humans would be without their aliens.

#alien stage #alnst #rambles #my take is this: hyuna is completely independent and knows every basic survival skill (a long process of learning if she was self-taught) #but afterwards she taught every single recruit how to take care of themselves. #i think hyuna would be the closest to a normal functioning adult in terms of skillset among the main cast #mizi would know how to prepare certain foods but only very simple ones #im not sure if till would know how to do anything properly but he's at least resourceful enough to keep himself going on his own #(since it seems like Guardian Urak leaves him to fend for himself most of the time) #Ivan would know how to do a lot of things in theory but has most likely never performed them himself #and i think sua and luka perform very decorative trophy-esque roles to their owners #so they wouldn't really know how to do anything other than what they're trained to excel at #of course theyre smart people so theyd pick it up eventually #but as of now they probably dont know how to cook or wash or properly clean aside from the basics of tidying after themselves #especially since sua is stated to constantly be in a daze with no plans #and luka as a kid seemed in his own world most of the time #THIS IS JUST ME THO LOL my opinions are bound to change eventually im jist #im just speculating and headcanoning for funsies

[mayordoi]

something a bit different: a scrapped idea~~

so one time i made a piece of art based on YugamiP’s “Alice of Human Sacrifice” (here). this was an old version of this fanart project before i settled on a single traditional piece with all the characters in it.

as a former ibispaintx user, i really loved the stain glass style that could be achieved w its tools (there was a whole official tutorial on it and everything). i used to make some of these styled pieces and wanted to try again with different individual pieces for each “Alice”. unfortunately after i finished meiko it wasnt really clicking for me. idk if it was bc i didnt want to repeat the time-consuming process three more times, or if i was just rusty with the style, or if the idea wasn’t as cool as i thought it was but some of the sauce was lost. so thats when i returned to the drawing board and thought of a different approach.

i figured i’d share the completed meiko piece since it is complete and all and i dont want to let a perfectly fine (if a little mid, by the standards i was trying to shoot for) piece sit around and collect dust.

here are the sketches for the rest of the gang :]

i remember struggling with the poses, miku in particular. also had no idea what i wanted to do with background elements besides vague color shapes and roses which is what i settled on for meiko. i think that roadblock was also another factor that turned me off from this.

anyway if you like this stain glass idea more than what i actually ended up drawing then.. sorry. i suppose!

#mayor doidles #fanart #wip #technically lol! #vocaloid #meiko #kaito #hatsune miku #kagamine rin #kagamine len #i doubt ill post more defunct ideas here [theyre either cringe/boring/i vigilantly see almost everything to the end so there’s not enough to #post] but if i ever do have more to share id definitely like to. i think its cool seeing bits of the process and idea making and whatnot #but that said there wont be a tag or anythin like that for this page. wip works fine #digital art #misc style #simple/sketch #also would like to make a category for the stained glass style but i straight up dont do enough of it to do that. #unless i post my old attempts at it here— they aged quite well for old art #but eh im rambling at this point. dont mind me.

[shopcat]

i think there's probably something to be said about like. how a concerning amount of your own rights and life are locked behind red tape and prerequisite knowing how to do something "official" and how legal situations work and everything. as well as how technology is being integrated into it all. bc fundamentally a lot of people just will not be able to do these things without help and they don't know how to get that help and the members of ur community that are vulnerable to this like i don't know the disabled the elderly people whose first languages aren't english even just quote unquote "the uneducated" or those who struggled to get an education for any reason are all just CONSTANTLY being fucked bc the formula is locked away and those who put it in place just go "well you should have known". like how could you know what you DON'T KNOW. and these aren't a small percentage of people like i'd say it's literally just. laymen. people you know.

#🐾 #like for example my dad got served a small claims amount for like i think 3k #which he can't afford obviously and there's this whole like personal situation aspect to it #but he missed the hearing because they told him they'd call but really they meant they'd send a fucking #google meeting invite to his gmail account (that he doesn't use) which he'd then have to know how to set up #and now after the fact he's trying to submit different forms to reopen the case and he said like #how are they going to hold it against me that i'm not brainy enough to understand the steps to take #and he's RIGHT it's LITERALLY not fair like yeah if i'd known i would've helped him but if it's not fair that he'd have to rely on someone #else. these people should be taking the fucking initiative and doing what they're meant to do and TELLING PEOPLE how to do things #not telling a 64 year old man who doesn't have good english to find and print pdfs and shit #which sounds really simple sure but it's just like. the entire process is ridiculous. AND IRS FRUSTRATING #like there's hundreds of thousands of ppl just being taken advantage of bc they don't know processes to follow it's ridiculous

[perilegs]

ok i might need to force myself to not romance astarion bc i don't want to know what it says about me to turn down karlach, the woman of my dreams, the character made to cater me personally, like, if she was real i'd bring the moon and stars down for the chance to see her smile, she's everything i've hoped for in a rpg companion, what does it say about me if i turn that down for someone like astarion

#ngl karlach would be too good for me and i wouldnt deserve it #shed probably ask me stuff like 'what do you want?' upon which i would be paralyzed with fear my mind completely blank unable #to process why i can't answer a simple question #and she's so up front with her emotions which i absolutely adore but i could not reciprocate that #wait am i actually for real avoiding the karlach romance bc i feel like this fictional character from a video game is too good for me #a real human being. like. i think i would feel guilty about romancing her #which makes no sense bc i romance characters too good for anyone all of the time. but idk #in those cases ive always had like a strong character i play as who is very divorced from who i am #but playing as durge there is no past so idk who my tav is yet so all i can do is project so he feels very. personal #im v sleepy and also ive had brain fog all day so yea idk #i mean i do genuinely like astarion and his character but in his case i dont feel guilty bc i feel like i #i have no idea how to finish that sentence without it sounding like 'i can fix him' #bc i dont want to fix him i want to show him compassion and respect him and his boundaries so he'll be able to reclaim tje feeling of #being in control of his life #so he'll stop putting people down to feel like hes on a pedestal #like i get him and why he is like that but i just feel like being kind and caring towards him would feel so good #it wouldnt fix him and thats a good thing bc i dont want him to change who he is but i do think he needs support #also hes hot im so mad at myself for being so atteacted to him #we wouldnt b here if i didnt have a thing for voices #besides thag back to the main point of astarion its like. ugh! im so frustrated rn bc i dont have the words #to express my emotions toward him bc everything ive said lacks the nuance that im feelikg but idk how to put it in words #i guess i want to protect him? that such a terrible sentence and still not what om going for

[dadfathers]

some uncolored lineart from the kurapika figure drawing session, and what the lines look like vs when I finish coloring…easy to tell what part of drawing I prefer based on how much effort I make LOL but lining is fun it’s actually grown on me a lot

#drawing #Hunter x Hunter #I think some of the uncolored drawings are actually good I wish I’d colored them but it’s in the past now…onto other things lol #my entire line drawing process is based on what gets me to a decent clean line drawing fastest #meanwhile my color process is like how much color detail can I add before it becomes too much #as an instructor once said I am weak at line and tend to color to hide it which is true but it’s also because I like coloring more #I feel like I should post just line drawings sometimes bc it’s cool to see how simple they are compared to my colored drawings lolllllll