#my mom's visit was really good

[whentherewerebicycles]

oh my god friends i have had a MONTH. there are still many small parts left to this move but almost all the really big stressful stuff will be behind me by the end of the weekend. i have a precious window of 24-36 hours now where i can be totally alone in my space before my dad arrives sunday evening for a whirlwind 48-hour visit to drop off my car and do some work around the house. he leaves tuesday morning and then my bff liz arrives tuesday afternoon for six days (although that will be fun and not stressful i think, since we don't have any big Tasks to do and can just explore/hang out/relax). but then after that i will be SETTLED!!! i can develop ROUTINES!!! i can start COOKING FOR MYSELF instead of eating out all the time at odd hours!!! i can actually have a single blessed thought about like, idk, creative projects or fandom stuff or literally anything besides this six-week move!!!!!! i cannot wait!!!!!

#my mom's visit was really good #i was a little irritable for some of it because it was just a LOT of no-breaks time together doing my least favorite things #(shopping endlessly and organizing things and making decisions about house stuff) #but on the whole it was really nice to see her and we got soooooo much stuff done #still: i am very glad to have today to hole up in my house and not talk to anyone #i think i am most eager to be done with all the move stuff + the hosting stuff so that i can like #have a minute to breathe and look around and be like #oh wait i live here now #this is my home #because right now i'm so TASK ORIENTED i keep forgetting like #oh i LIVE HERE now!!! #this is my HOME!!!!

[dumb-doll-lips]

To like not be trying to shove all my little thoughts in a reply bc I feel like someone may find them amusing but Ohmygosh the thoughts got rambly.

And lol, yeah, it does feel silly. I was getting all ready to be like yeah even first relationship and the fun that goes with it was w a girl. But started rembering that maybe I liked that her guy best friend was a her a roommate a bit too much. He didn’t like me much, prolly some jealous (he seemed way into her) but prolly was annoying how I loved getting her to make a lot of noise. While I just like that, def also enjoyed knowing he heard and def was hoping he’d use us as porn. Other times with her I’d be imagining like if some man (or sometimes men) were watching. Maybe peeking in from the windows that I feel like we’re never totally closed or just like in the room.

Also like wanted to add that first time I sucked someone’s cock and got facefucked, I was still saying I was a lesbian.

#w first bf (first guy who fucked me) #he had told me something like when he first visited me that I was still mostly being like I like girls only #but meanwhile I was like so so eager for him to fuck me #sexuality stuff is weird #there was probably a good 3 or 4 years I really considered myself a lesbian #even like tried a more stereotypically gay at the time haircut at one point #oh I even tried to come out to my mom which was mostly ignored #personal

[imwritesometimes]

Lavender & Lemon bundt cakes with a honey glaze 💜🍋🍯

#they're good! subtly sweet and just the right hint of lavender and the honey glaze really tied it all together nicely! #might use a *touch* more lavender extract next time or add a tsp to the glaze but they're good!!! #hope I can send one of the little mini bundt flowers to my mom's friend in the hospital tomorrow #I'm taking her over there so she can visit her!! #erin bakes

[briar--rising]

I have made the impulsive and probably stupid decision to visit my mom tomorrow. The thing is. I'm really interested in learning how to do fabric collage. And my mom has an amazing art studio with every material under the sun including lots and lots of fabric scraps. And I'm not willing to spend money on a new hobby, especially when I'm not even sure I'll like it. So. Doing it at her house makes a lot of sense. And I know she'll appreciate seeing me, and she loves showing me her art and getting my opinions and stuff. So it'll buy me lots of points. And I'll hopefully do some fun art stuff and take home free supplies. But. Also. I'm seeing my mother. So. That could go...a lot of different ways

#text post #my post #i got her to agree to limiting the visit to 5 hours #more than that will not be good for me #idk if doing this at all is a good idea but also. i do miss her sometimes #and i do want access to her studio lol #idk we'll find out whether it's a disaster or not tomorrow i guess #the thing about my mom is in some ways she's actually a really cool person? her art is very neat #she's just not a great mother lol

[orcelito]

As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!! #well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol) #but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad. #i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning) #he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad. #im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant. #and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one? #take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say. #but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did. #seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him. #makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad. #sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today. #negative/ #death/ #hospitals ment/ #idfk. sorry

[darkmothsy]

Twas a good day

#a much needed good day at that #visited my mom #got dinner #went out to the mall #saw a Christmas light show with the fam #had hot chocolate #good stuff #personal #using tumblr as my diary again #alt mom #dyed hair #makeup #snapchat filters #maybe alt #casual goth #winter goth #i think i'm pretty #i struggled really hard this morning #but my husband helped me out #it's been a very hard few weeks

[astriiformes]

Honestly pretty emotional about where things are at with my family right now.... at one point in time I really didn't know if things would look healthy between my parents and I again, but my dad especially has grown a lot as a person (and, importantly, is still willing to have me and even Scribe, who he absolutely sees as family at this point, sit him down and tell him to do better), and even my mom seems to be coming around more on certain things than I ever expected.

Things are rough for me right now, but it means a lot that I can reach out to my parents and say I need their help, and that we've collectively put in work to make that a sustainable, healthy option for me instead of a painful last resort. And it also means I can focus on the things they're doing right -- like how my dad has been phenomenal about my transition from the start, and both my parents have accepted Scribe as a part of the family (and both really genuinely like her!) without asking me to explain myself having a queerplatonic partner. And as far as I know my dad seems to get on great with my sister's girlfriend and it sounds like even my mom (which is huge, recent news!) is starting to accept her as a part of the family, too, which marks a pretty significant change.

Both my parents came from really difficult family backgrounds with a lot of problems and at time I've excused their behavior too much, and there's still a lot they need to work on, but I'm proud of them for at least dampening that cycle, and for my sisters and I to get even better at it and turn it into something we can work on as a family. That's pretty cool.

#like was there still some major awkwardness at a few points when scribe and i visited over the summer -- YOU BET #we are a mess and never going to be perfect #but it means the world to me that my dad's response to me moving to another state and going totally no-contact for a while #was to say he was proud of me for doing what i needed to #and it WAS what needed to happen and it WORKED #i would not have believed that at one point in time #but now i get to introduce him to my friends here (who he apparently cried at; thanking them for being so good for me) #and ask him to send me recipes he made when we were visiting that scribe really likes and wants to make sometime #and even watch my mom realize how cool my qpp is when they got to talking about cake decorating #and it's like. wow. my family is messy but i have one #and i don't have to choose between one that's good for me and one that isn't #and i did that #and they did some of it too but #i made choices that helped it to happen and i feel really good about that

[savourings]

my mental health got so bad i was sent to the farm and i have to admit they are onto something with this being surrounded my nature and animals and shit. 10/10

#personal #text #this is a really weird way of saying that I am visiting my mom for a week to get a break from work #but it’s really nice! #I hope everyone has a good week and gets lots of rest

[stillcominback]

🎀 🎀 🎀

#hi cuties! just doing a quick little check-in since it's been a minute ✨ #still not really checking tumblr cause there's just too much going on and i'm trying to find some joy here getting settled in a new home! #i do check here and there though so if you wanna hit up the IMs i'll for sure get back to you!! 💕 #ANYWHO: things are going okay! kinda same old but just trying to enjoy what i can and take a day at a time #started talking to a recruiter today and she was so sweet (and my age which is a bonus) so i'm hoping she'll be a good help ... #... in the old job search (while i keep looking on my own as usual of course) but still! having someone who's JOB it is to search for me?? #feels promising??? i hope! #(even tho in all honesty this job search stuff has been peak deflating and depressing but! we keep movin!) #i'm also super excited that my mom is treating me for xmas/my bday to a trip to london to visit my best friend #(since they weren't actually able to come visit for the holidays sadly) but i think it's gonna be special and healing 😌💕 #i think that covers most of the things!! pretty pleeeease come hit me up on discord!! #i would love to chat and write more there and have servers and all that fun stuff so don't be shy! #love and miss you all so much *big hugs to the dash* #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[graciebirdie]

Okay so I watched the live action One Piece...

It was so good I genuinely couldn't believe it????

Like I liked? all... of it??

About halfway through the first episode I ended up sitting on the floor in front of the tv, eating chips, feeling like a ten year old watching Saturday morning cartoons. (Except I grew up without tv so I guess I felt more like what I assume a ten year old watching Saturday morning cartoons feels like. Perhaps that's why I enjoyed it so much? Who knows lol.)

I was ~captivated~ I enjoyed the whole experience so much. I haven't fully felt like this in a year and a half so it was genuinely nice to watch something that was familiar to me while simultaneously analyzing the differences. It was super fun!

There were even parts I thought the live action did better than the anime!

Shocking I know. But!

I loved watching Zoro and Nami bicker and actually like each other. I always got the vibe in the anime (at least early on) that they were cousins that only pretended to get alone for the sake of their other cousin that they actually got along with. (If they didn't try to get along Luffy would cry and neither of them can stand that.)

And Nami just being more chill and badass in general was super nice. I feel like her and Luffy were the two that were changed the least and it really worked for them.

Luffy! Perfect casting. Him not knowing wtf he's doing as a captain and then muddling through the best he could for the people he knew were depending on him. And figuring out his powers along the way? So interesting.

Usopp being adorable! He's trying his best! He's just some guy but the whole crew will gas him up! (also I screamed when he and Kaya kissed frfr.)

Sanji being bad at flirting? Amazing. Everyone he flirts with going "Ew no." was perfect. (Literally the most annoying part of his character is his over the top fawning over women like can you just chill? for once in your life can you just be normal? I love him when he's not being a hound dog and put up with him when he is but i'm rolling my eyes SO hard behind his back.)

Helmeppo and Coby trying to speed-run enemies to friends to lovers. I'm so here for it. (Garp and Coby playing go and Helmeppo going "Dude wtf he's playing u are u dumb" *chefs kiss*)

Buggy! His actor...👀 but Buggy himself 🤮 (jk he was great him being genuinely menacing in the beginning and then in the end flipping off both Zoro and Sanji and then running away was hilarious.)

And of course my wife Roronoa Zoro. That introduction scene was *fans self* something. I was iffy on his actor in the gifs i saw but him in action is... very nice.

And then that's not even touching on the actual real sets and the fun fight scenes and the practical make up!

Final thoughts:

They managed to condense 45 episodes into 8 in way that made sense while keeping the main story beats intact.

And they did a good job all around.

#aka it was good and i really liked it #spoilers #my shit #it did weirdly bring up a memory from 20ish years ago when i was visiting my aunt #sitting in front of her tv eating chips and my mom walked in and looked at me in horror #and told me i wasn't allowed to sit in front of the tv and eat chips like that #i felt bad for a second before i remembered that i was 30 and can do whatever the fuck i want

[born-to-lose]

Some photos from this week 💕

#first shift at the bar on friday + concert on thursday 💕 #third pic is the face of a girl who had run around mixing longdrinks and juggling shot glasses at rush hour #overall it was chill tho it will be a lot busier next weekend but hey i get to properly prove i'm good for the job!! #and get paid immediately after we close and i already got tipped €15!! even when there weren't really that many customers #but one guy who waved me over to him a couple of times tipped me 50ct or €1 each time he ordered <3 #and i was adopted pretty quickly by everyone!! my colleagues the boss the boss' mom the djs the regulars 🥹🥹 #the dj asked if i have any music requests and when i was like not really he asked what i listen to and i said glam metal #that was when i came back in after my break and a few minutes later he played pour some sugar on me 🥰 #on his way outside he said there's gonna be two or three more songs for me and it was just such a sweet welcome imo #still haven't gotten to write the concert summary but it will follow soon!! including some photos and videos #mutuals from my area or the ones who come to this bar for gigs (you probably recognize it) come visit me if you like #mel talks #my face #the bartender chronicles

[lightfulonion]

thank you @skijjiki for tagging me!!!! i love these types of tagging games so much!!

last song: Tokyo Calling by ATARASHII GAKKO! (pls watch the music video. its so good 😭) im kind of, sort of, obsessed with this and i have been listening to it non-stop like my life depends on it. anyway

fav color: hmm im really feeling brown right now (wow! that sounds awful! im not changing my answer tho. brown rules.)

currently reading: im able to read only fanfics at the moment because anything that involves a book and new characters feels like too much work for me for some reason and also like im cheating at my classes in university. both of these suck big butt and i hate being like this but it's true. anyway please read a million times along the way by starsqwub. its a bokuaka fic, it hasnt updated since 2022 and it made me cry every chapter. its about love, its about friends, its about being a weird person in a normal world and, more importantly, its about bokuto and akaashi. oh! also manga like chainsaw man and toilet bound hanako-kun!! and some webcomics as well too.

currently watching: the wall mostly but also dungeon meshi! and ive been trying to be up-to-date with the one piece anime!!

spicy/savory/sweet: sweet <3

relationship status: i was reading a bokuaka fic and i was crying. take a wild guess.

current obsessions: listening to Tokyo Calling and ATARASHII GAKKO! apparently and im starting to feel like reading the ending of Haikyuu!! which is probably a bad thing?? (im scared. i really dont want it to end :'((( )

tagging: @livingonyoghurtandspite, @horson, @clementinethekitten, @pierogish, @alcieside, @mars-matrix, @peachybeesplease, @mangatxt.

#get tagged #guys. we get (got?) the movie this year. really scared to ask whats next. #i had goofy funny things to share but i forgot them while writing this im sorry u_u #i went home to my mom for a few days and i had 'the end of the beginning' by djo stuck in my head the whole time #and i visited my friends from high school and im kinda sad about the years passing. a quiet kind of sad but sad nonetheless. #like 'my childhood room is too small for me now' kind of sad and nostalgic #i have many things in my brain that are rolling around like pointy rocks and i need to get them out somehow without hurting myself #anyway #pretend i said something really funny and truly profound here instead of. whatever that is. #also i have listened to ATARASHII GAKKO!'s whole discography and its really really good #and i STILL havent been able to read bnha!! :(( #i havent been able to be up-to-date with chainsaw man or toilet bound hanako kun and i also NEED to read dungeon meshi AND haikyuu and- #i really love dungeon meshi so far. its so good and i got so excited on the last episode when they put falin's bones in order. that was #so cool. and the bath scene............ yeah. #if you dont want to do this guys is okay btw. im always saying this but i do need you to know because i feel anxious when i dont do them bu #also when i dont tag people. i dont want you to feel like that. #onion talks #ok thats all! bye bye!! hope you have a nice day!!!!! #Youtube

[apeshit]

anyway i bought stuff to make pollo guisado im so excited

#eating food is at least one thing thats great about being alive #my stepmom made it for us when we visited in july and it was sooooo good #my mom helped me out with buying groceries today since i only really have enough for the next 3 months rent and utilities in my acct #canto viii

[strifethedestroyer]

my uncle died. hm

this is the first time i've ever reached the tag limit. the last word is meant to be funeral.

#text #interesting experience #i mean it was expected he's been suffering for a couple of months now. he got a lot better at one point and everyone was like woo you're- #-gonna survive! you're not gonna be like before but you're not gonna die but eh voila he died #like a week ago he was sent to the hospital because his kidneys just failed and the doctors said nah dude he's on his deathbed. better #just die at home rather than dying in the hospital alone so they took him home and they've been waiting ever since and here we are #personally i barely know shit about the guy. he used to deliver us bread and he shook my hand once and smiled at me. radiated a good aura #but i dont know anything. dad says he really respected and loved my brother and i so ill take his word for it #but man for the past like month its all you hear about. like i dont mean this in a derogatory way i completely understand dont get me wrng #but its just death death death all around #an hour or so ago i was walking my dog with my mom and brother and i just said i wonder if uncle's died yet #20 minutes afterwards my mom gets a call that he's died. uncle was in a different room from the rest of the family so they couldnt know #exactly when he died (we went to visit at about 5 pm today and he was alive but asleep) but my parents think it must have been around when #i said that. dad's superstitious and all and says that uncle sent me a sign. like i said apparently uncle loved me a lot. im not #superstitious but i'll take his word for it - uncle sent me a sign before he died. #i feel a little bad now. he seemed like a good man. im just replaying my only memory of him - that time when he shook my hand and smiled #like smiled very brightly. he and grandma look so alike. like ofc they do they're siblings but they look so alike #im very worried for my parents and grandma though. #espechially grandma. she's been at his house almost all week becuase she knew his time was soon #when we visited today we were supposed to pick her up and bring her home and then return her tomorrow but once we arrived she apparently #said (idk i didnt go inside i just wandered outside and pspsed at cats #that she didnt want to come home becuase he was very ill. she knew man she knew. #i dont know how she's going to handle this i just hope she'll be okay we'll do what we can to help her #i hope my parents are going to be okay too. me and my mom's relationship is rocky and i dont like my dad much #my dad returned from europe yesterday to stay with us for a month and i was really not looking forward to it. i always dread his visits #like dont get me wrong i love him just like im supposed to i just dont like him very much #but nonetheless i hope they'll be okay #as far as i know my brother also didnt know my uncle very well so i dont think i have to worry about him #he and i will just have to do our best to support our family i guess #about like 30 minutes ago my parents left for uncle's house and they'll return early morning tomorrow and then go back immidietaly for the

[bonefall]

Questions

Does Squirrelflight have another mate or kits (Juniper and Dandelion) or is she chillin?

Does Russetfur have kits? She’s a clean slate if you don’t have her and Raggedstar share a father. I’ve seen some say Redwillow could work as her son but who knows.

What’s Bramblestar and Jessy’s relationship like? Same with their kits

Hope your day going great bones and remember to hydrate

Does Squilf have another mate or kits?

Not currently! I don't think she really needs one, honestly. I know a lot of people write her as finding happiness with someone else after breaking away from Bramble, but in my mind, I want to give her satisfaction in her family, in power over her clan, in doing the right thing, in all of the other things in her life more important than romantic love.

I wouldn't be against letting her get with someone though! But only if it shakes up that way as I get into the specifics of the story. Imo it's more important to give her a satisfying arc with finding a new mate as a possible nice bonus, if that makes sense.

(I will mention that Daisy is the only current candidate, as they are both having arcs about moving on from bad mates and they might end up having a lot in common. But also this is just a scintilla of an idea at the moment.)

She will also not be having any bio-kits; Squilf is infertile! Weird that they just sorta obliterated the only fertility issues in the whole series...

Does Russetfur get kits?

Not impossible! But unlikely. Something about Russetfur to me feels child-free.

If she has kits, she will probably be a surrogate and the litter will be raised by another couple, ergo be counted as that couple's children for all intents and purposes.

I do want to casually drop, though, that Hal will be getting some major rewrites. He is now a leader of BloodClan, and, I am tentatively planning large changes to how Chelford Township cats view fatherhood. Depending on how those changes go, it might not even be relevant if Hal is their sire or not.

Bramblestar and Jessy

I think the biggest thing to remember with abusive partners is that there's no perfect partner that could 'fix' them. Though growth is possible and I very strongly believe that anyone can change, I feel equally as strongly that most abusers don't. So, I'm actually reaaaally trying to be careful with them.

I don't want to frame Bramble as someone incapable of improvement... but at the same time, I'm not sure if he's the sort of person who actually would. Especially with him being the Clan Leader, an unaccountably high social position. That said, I'm also not interested in just turning Bramblestar into a demon that I just beat with the narrative for catharsis, if that makes sense...

I am leaning towards having them together for a few books, before Jessy breaks it off with him after Bramblestar, inevitably, starts up the cycle anew with her.

I even actually considered her taking Alder in the divorce, returning to her twolegs, with Alder eventually being drawn back to the Clans. To make for a more 'clear' reason why Bramble is so often dismissive of him and his concerns-- clan xenophobia. I'm not very fond of how AVOS glossed over Squilf and Bramble as parents, it ended up sort of implying both of them were toned down personality-wise.

But I'm still unsure if she even leaves ThunderClan, because she does end up with a very respectable position as an excellent builder and general problem-solver. I'm not sure if she should want to give that up.

So TL;DR I've been waffling a lot with my drafts and don't have hard answers yet.

The Bramble/Jessy litter

I mentioned Alderheart earlier, but Sparkpelt is kind of an inverse situation. No matter what happens with Jessy, Spark absolutely excels at her tasks and has a huge interest in clan history. She does a lot to impress her dad and live up to his legacy, hoping to continue the family tradition of becoming leaders of their clans.

Tigerstar is an inevitable part of that history, but Bramblestar named her after his mentor, Firestar. She holds him in high regard, a sort of familial respect towards the cat who saved their legacy by opposing Tigerstar. Because of this, she is apprenticed to Squirrelflight, and they become extremely close.

In contrast to canon that sort of implies Bramblestar was a better father to his first litter than to his second one, I think Bramble was more present for Sparkpaw. Not neccesarily as a nurturing father, but as a quite assertive one. Like a paternal teacher of sorts, keeping her informed on the family stories, social expectations, doing a lot of personal training. Not in a strict way, more... authoritative, is probably the best word for it. Still somewhat emotionally distant, however, though he is trying.

He is also proooobably prone to jealousy, when Sparkpaw is closer to her mentor than to him. I think this eventually causes fights to break out between father and daughter, as Bramble suddenly gets colder and Sparkpelt realizes that she can't just over-achieve her way out of his emotional problems.

I have a huge fondness for complex family dynamics, in case it isn't obvious.

ANYWAY I'm running out of room for Dandelionkit and Juniperkit to fit into the narrative, honestly. I've considered their deaths to be the start of "The Fight" that lead to Jessy and Bramble's kitty divorce, but I don't think Bramblestar is THAT KIND of bad. If anything, it would temporarily cause him to treat Jessy less badly, if they had brewing issues, as these situations make him do in-canon.

I may end up just eliminating them both entirely... giving them to Squilf as a rough pregnancy and stillborn litter seems cruel, unless I shuffle them back earlier to be 'born' at the same time as Holly/Lion/Jay.

#Thanks for the Rewrite asks btw #Makes a good break between me violently shaking main series characters in my mouth #Bonefall Rewrite #I did have a good day btw! #We had like 7 graves to visit and managed to tag 5 before the rain chased us out #Found out apparently I have an ancestor who drove tanks in WW2 so that's cool! #When we visited my Great Great Grandpa we started googling the division he served in and the sun came out as my mom read it out loud #Like right before the clouds rolled back in and it started raining #It was both awe-inspiring and funny because it was right around the moment she says #`Apparently (division) served /w British infantry and got jam and tea as rations causing them to descend on France in search of real food` #Like GGGrandpa was out here trying to REALLY DRIVE IT HOME that British rations sucked LMAOOO #Used his magic ghost powers to make the sun shine down upon dunking on the British #Absolute legend thank you GG Grandpa #Bramblestar #Russetfur #Sparkpelt #Squirrelflight #Alderheart #Jessy #Jesse