#my legs are like destroyed also

[bamsara]

I have to be up in 3 hours and be at a con all day. No sleep gang ig insert peter griffon death pose here

#my legs are like destroyed also #i got too much on the brain to be able to relax rn #i have one knee thats like mESSED up #its the moon knee #sara shush #bam at momocon #i got home a bit ago and im desperatly trying to catch up on everythinf #man i havent even gone through my photos yet

[devereaux]

Simone Kessell photographed by Lucy Edmonds for Woman+ Magazine

#simone kessell #simonekesselledit #i'm— #absolutely fucking destroyed #these altered my brain chemistry you don't understand #also i might've had a stroke #I WANNA CLIMB HER LIKE A TREE #WRAP MYSELF AROUND HER LIKE A KOALA #LEGSSSS OH MY GOD HER LEGS #LEGS FOR DAYSSS #how is she real #🥵🥵🥵🥵 #she is like the whole package howwww 😭😭😭😭😭 #simoaners come suffer with me!! #alternating between pics 4 and 5 as my phone's homescreen wallpaper ngl #i love being gay #*edvrx #*alldvrx

[silverior968]

Continuation to the post I made about Larrikin in the 1920s, and possibly the start to a series where I draw Dead Men in historical clothes. I also made up a silly backstory for the flapper gown outfit, which is: undercover mission at a Mevolent's side's party to destroy some sort of weapon (which is why Larrikin has the bombs and dyed their hair to be single-colored). Any pronouns for Larrikin.

[Image ID: A digital drawing with several smaller drawings of Larrikin Fetter, a black person with freckles, hazel eyes and curly ginger-and-brown hair, in front of a light green background. The biggest drawing is of Larrikin dancing the Charleston, with their hair dyed completely brown and arranged in finger curls. They have period-accurate make-up on, complete with dark red lipstick, thin eyebrows and prominent eyeshadow. She's smiling, showing her tooth gap. She's wearing pearl earrings, a pearl necklace that makes a little loop at the end, and a green flapper dress with a drop-waist decorated with ribbons and fake roses. The dress reaches down to their knees and features intricate embroidery. The dress is not form-fitting. Her shoes are light green with small heels. They have an old and faded scar on their ankle from a fox trap as a child. The drawing above it is a tiny chibi doodle of Larrikin in the same outfit, pictured from the waist chest up, holding a small bomb in each hand. They have a speech bubble which says "You FOOLS thought they were GONKERS but guess WHAT!" The second smallest drawing on the page features Larrikin in the same outfit, pictured from the waist up. They have their hands held out in front of them in fists, and are looking off to the side with wide eyes, shouting "Honey, do you have my daggers? I already used the bombs..." Her knuckles are bloody, there's sweat on her forehead and the hair dye has started to fade, showing ginger streaks. The last drawing is a full-body drawing of Larrikin, pictured from the side, with their left arm and leg forward, and their right hand in their pocket. They are smiling with their eyes closed. Their hair is curly and short, and no longer dyed. Their outfit consists of a white button-up shirt, a grey vest and black trousers, white socks and wingtip shoes. / End ID]

#skulduggery pleasant #fanart #larrikin fetter #historical clothing #also shoutout to my friend Train who came up with the funny bomb gonkers idea #it feels like something that Larrikin would find really funny #also “honey do you have my daggers?” is meant to be adressed to Anton #Because there is literally no place to store daggers on a dress like that unless you strap them to your legs #but that is sort of inconvenient #and getting your fiance to carry your daggers in addition to his weapons is incredibly easy #love is alive and well at the undercover mission to destroy a superweapon #also!! it is so incredibly difficult to find historically accurate flapper dresses! #i tried my best to give Larrikin one that was pretty historically accurate #although I probably missed some things

[mobbothetrue]

I’ve reached the point in my Fairy Tail rewatch where it’s further along than tfd ever got, which means shit keeps happening that makes me go “fucking WHAT”

#mobbtalks #I’ll be real tfd embedded in my brain more solidly than the actual plot did. because tfd is my baby #specifically I’m on the oracion seis arc which I mostly remember for trying to puzzle around how to like. actually tackle it in tfd #it was next up on the chopping block. when I hit the wall I was like. I’d say 3-4 chapters away from it #so the plot beats I remember -the seis themselves #- the guild alliance and (most) of who’s participating in that #- big weird land thing goes walkabout and they have to destroy all its legs at once #things I did not remember but that have BLASTED me. - Ichiya. #and I. I fucking hate to say it. bc I hated ichiya the first go round but I think he might genuinely be funnier in the sub? god. god. #maybe it’s also because every time I have an episode going I’m also doing a few other things #- the monkey guys. genuinely thought they were a filler side plot didn’t expect them to come back #- Erigor comes back???? I uh. I killed him off in tfd bc I forgot that. haha. whoops. #- fucking *JELLAL* which is something I am. quite frankly. *shocked* I forgot #this guy is at the centre of like. every goddamn arc <- exaggeration #things I half remember which have yet to be confirmed one of which is kind of alarming #- there was a guy who was real obsessed with potatoes? #- I’m pretty sure this brain guy was uh. white. he’s black. he also has a line about switching ‘dark’ and ‘light’. the implications of this #concern me.

[crow-of-crochet]

My dnd character lost his leg last session. I'm so excited for the consequences

#for context we were fighting an undead creature and it was nearly killing the party #it ate one of our summons like a folding chair and leaped across the arena in one turn for imagery #I lead it away from everyone and was trying to run around the tower as half the party was trying to destroy the idol that kept it alive #I rolled terribly and it bit my character and paralyzed him and he was fully about to die #I spent my point of conviction -from burning down my house in a previous session from a panic meltdown- on altering the story #so instead of dying I just got attacked bear style and tossed across the arena #it didn't care about my character anymore once it ate his leg and went back to the rest of the party to kill #luckily the party destroyed the idol before it did anymore damage but then they had to find my unconscious character among piles of corpses #which was also great #I love when characters get trauma #personal #savage worlds #dnd character

[tiny-huts]

Is Jarlaxle's diatryma ever named in these books or am I going to need to just keep calling it his awful chicken

#the legend of drizzt #the forgotten realms #i love that he was so into Guen #even after she broke his leg #that he was like i need my own creature #my roomate and i were like in a modern au its just a cockatoo that likes to scream recreationally #and destroy his things #a family can be one man #the four emotionally fucked up members of his polycule #and his homicidal bird son #also unrelated but him being so worried about drizzt in this book is so sadddd

[the-acid-pear]

the more i think about kris the more my insanity increases tbh there's just so much nuance with not only them but also the player and their relationship and it's layes upon layers of them and i keep tryin to peel them off inside my brain and its going to turn me into a dc villain or something

#luly talks #like the common idea is kris doesn't like the player. that's what we all seem to believe. but the more i think of it the least true it feel #sure they arent jumping in joy over the idea of having us with them but they also constantly keep us with them #even when you look at things abouhnhjnn oh good lord #im gonna throw up hang on fuck man. i mean isnt it FUCKING HILARIOUS 🤡 how being a puppet is almost a two way thing? #perhaps not a puppet per say but. we as the player arent really free either #not at fucking all. our choices matter as little as kris #wouldnt WE want too to be free? #we literally need kris to exist. we are tied to kris like kris is tied to us. we too are a being in this world that is trapped and limited #our vessel WAS literally destroyed after all. neither kris' or OUR choices matter #now lets think for a second about the babygirl our favorite rated salesman. okay? we usually understand he's projecting he wants freedom #and we assume kris wants freedom too i mean it would make a lot of sense #but. kris is moving their blue ass down to the basement for that. we are. #of COURSE spamton says Hyperlink Blocked which is commonly believed to be LOVE as in LV which like. #WHICH LIKE IS ACTUALLY MORE TIED TO THE FUCKING PLAYER THAN KRIS IM GONNA RIP MY LEG OFF #ITS TRUE SO TRUE BESTIE DONT WE? DONT WE WANT MORE LEVEL MORE POWER? #TOBY LOVES TO BARK BACK AT HIS FANS WHEN THE FANS GET A LITTLE ANNOYING EVERYONE WAS UPSET ABOUT THE LACK OF KILLIN IN CH1 #WE LITERALLY WANTED THAT SHIT TOO #your honor i am going insane if the jury thinks this is too far im pleading insanity but listen to me #it's there. we are a character in this world as much as anyone else is. #anyway that rant about spamton and the connections with US as the player aside i wanted to talk about kris so moving on #i think that's the best thing i've said since i got into deltarune i might try put it in a decently written post if i can work out the insa #ity also if my mutuals see if and are like yeah that's good make a coherent post about it boy in which case ill say on it boss and wag my t #il and run to do it anyway KRIS. #its just interesting. i think its a bit gratuitous to assume they HATE us. do they like all we do? DEF NOT LMAO. but there's more to this #kris knows more than we fucking do and that's just a fact #they might even know more about us than we know about ourselves after all the soul has been there since before we were playing #which i dont want to ask what implies its a bit nasty to think about #nasty as in confusing btw KJFNGBJGHB #there's just a lot going on with kris and stuff like the bunker and the piano

[thedreadvampy]

glad that Jay is around to help me with planning my Please Diagnose Me pitch bc when we ask 'how is this negatively affecting your life' I'm like hm. can't open jars bc my fingers come out of joint. can't have sex without my hip dislocating. it's fairly inconvenient that all shoes make my feet bleed and I can't brush my teeth without tearing up my gums.

and they're like. yes these are all good points you should mention. have you considered that Being In Constant Pain is also an effect it has on your life?

yeah. hadn't thought of that cause it doesn't actually stop me doing things most of the time. but now that you point it out, that is only bc I'm incredibly stubborn and don't take care of myself. so yeah.

they very astutely pointed out that a major part of lifelong disability is that you develop a lot of coping strategies to the point that you kind of don't notice that some things are affecting you bc you've found ways around them that mean you can still do the things you're trying to do. but that doesn't mean that they're not affecting you or that a doctor is not going to want to hear about them.

it's really easy to normalise stuff is the thing. like as per my bio I refer to myself as 'slightly disabled' a lot bc I am still. broadly speaking. capable of doing most things. it's just that it's often painful/exhausting, I need a lot of workarounds, and I can't sustain it long term.

but the thing is that uhhhhhhh that's only """slightly disabled"""" if I assume other people are also struggling with those things but maybe slightly less.

one of the revelatory things about having these conversations is how much I'm finding that many people don't even have a slight manifestation of these issues.

like it doesn't hurt people's hands At All trying to open a stiff jar lid or clap or pick something up at a slightly wrong angle. other people Aren't In Pain unless something's actually wrong. to most people 'my feet hurt after a 10 hr standing shift' doesn't mean 'my feet and legs physically will not take my weight for 48 hours after a 10 hr standing shift'. some people's feet just never bleed at all unless their shoes are WILDLY the wrong size. when most people say 'I'm tired' they mean 'I'm ready to take a break' not 'I feel whole-body sick and it's a painful struggle to string a whole thought together and I will feel unbearably ill if I move or open my eyes.'

like there's a lot of situations where I only register as Problems the things that I legitimately can't work around or ignore. like I started using a cane bc I was uncontrollably falling in the street bc my knees and ankles would just give way without warning. but now I have the cane so I've stopped noticing that - my legs still sometimes abruptly lose integrity but I can catch myself with the stick so I no longer fall (except occasionally when I trip myself up or I'm wearing inappropriately high shoes that make an ankle slippage harder to correct for) so I don't. consider it a thing that greatly affects my life. but like. it is, right? it's a thing I have to account for that other people don't. idk. it's all very interesting.

#red said #disability #also you know. I'm 29 and still just now realising that stuff that's affected me since i was 6 or 7 at most is Actually An Issue #so idk that's also interesting #bc none of this is new #i don't generally notice New Symptoms i notice that Other People Don't Have This Thing #or sometimes i try and do something I've not done much before and go 'huh. that's a problem.' #like i always had trouble with pain and instability in my legs and feet on long cafe shifts #but as a teenager i did 1-2 8hr shifts a week which knackered me but was manageable #and at 21 i tried to hold down a job doing 5 10-12 hr shifts a week and it fucking destroyed me #literally. i would spend all the time i wasn't at work in bed bc i was in so much pain #i missed a bunch of shifts bc i wasn't physically able to walk two streets to work let alone actually do a shift #like i called in stock several times bc the pain was so bad it took me like an hour to get from the kitchen to the bathroom #*sick #and obviously i got fired within a month #but like. that was the first time i registered that this was harder for me to do than other people. #even though I'd had a similar job with similar physical strains for i think 5 years as a Saturday job? #bc it has to get to the intensity that you CAN'T just work through it in order to register as a limitation. at least for me. #bc i naturally just assume that everyone feels some degree of this shitty and they're just hiding it better than me #bc I'm trying to hide it and get on with things! don't want to be a whiner! #so it's only when it gets to the point that no amount of willpower will make it hideable that you notice that nobody else has it at all #bc you will say to someone 'i am experiencing The Suffering very strongly today you know we've all been there haha' #and they'll be like 'what's The Suffering? that sounds like you have a serious medical condition' #and I'm like 'no dude no I'm not explaining it well. you know the Suffering? the Suffering that we all get #as a natural consequence of this everyday task? well I'm being a bit pathetic about it today so i can't move and it hurts to breathe' #and they're like 'no i literally have never heard of the Suffering' #shocked pikachu emoji

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #dude trying to write jean vicquemare is so hard 💀 #i think mostly bc like. idek how to articulate my thoughts abt this guy #tbh i can’t say i Like jean since he’s. y’know. a cop #kinda like how harry is v interesting and i am invested in him as a person by virtue of inhabiting him #im sort of invested in jean as someone who’s important to harry #and as someone who’s an interesting individual in his own right #(never not thinking about ‘’there is nothing more in that beloved future of yours. we are all done there. done and gone.’’) #but im also like. man i dunno. i don’t think harry has any real future w the rcm #not a good one anyway #and i feel his friendship w jean is like… #well it’s on its last leg really isn’t it… if you don’t stay sober and u have no one to vouch for you #he leaves you to potentially die #i don’t know… sksbsbxjxj I understand how and why they ended up where they are now #but i don’t feel like there’s any real chance of them coming back from it u know #i get the appeal of the content of the task force friendship™️ stuff but i just can’t get behind it #like yeah they’re friends but they’re so… [gestures helplessly] #i can’t even articulate it!!! i just feel like them all being cops really destroys the potential for REAL friendship #i think even the miracle that brought kim and harry together will lose its luster if they don’t change #where was i even going w this idk anymore 😭 #just lots of complicated feelings abt jean and harry’s friendship #i think he’s a v funny and interesting and complex character but also not a good guy #what does any of that mean in the end? i dunno im falling asleep

[nataliewaitegf]

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#if insurance ppl don’t get back to me this week istg im just gonna book a doc appt + pay out of pocket somehow i cannot continue like this #i hate being stuck laying down in bed all the time bc i can’t walk I hate it I hate it #also im srsly debating quitting my job at the end of the month whether or not i have sth else in place #bc i cannotttttt keep spending 5-6 hours a day on my feet any day let alone 4-5 days a week it’s destroying my body + ability to function #i hate this so much i just want Help and i don’t know how to get it when everything is just waiting !!! i need help Now !!!!!!!!!! :( #anyway i have to pee but my legs hurt sososo bad so i cant get out of bed yet 👍 gm

[opens-up-4-nobody]

My boss: Heya - are we going to meet this week or am I going to lose u to the abyss of science completely?

#me from the bottom of a deep pit: science who? i dont kno her. im trapped in a prison of my own creation #im just v tired this week. that tends to happen when i dont have way way too much to do. which indicates to me depression #i did lug 2 35lb cases 5min down the road and completely destroy the sides of my legs tho #like the bruises look fucking insane and theyre weirdly on the outside of my legs lmao #and idk i did some coding nonsense and organized some data stuff. meh #my fic is around 8.5k and its really annoying bc i want it to be finished so i can eject the ideas from my head #and rant about it bc i just have a lot of feelings #uuuugh its 10.30 and i need to organize the things i need to talk to my boss abt tomorrow #hahaha im so tried. i started to type: god bless the machines i sent. hope they make it safely #ive reverted to the logic my religious 10yr old self #tbh i wouldn't have praid for something like that. i had a long lost of prayers wishing that people would not get sick and die #and i said it every night as i worried what would happen to me when i left my parents house for college #i remember thinking that in my sisters room so it would have been before middle school. so like 10 or younger. why tf was i so worried #abt that? idk i also used to get v upset abt missing my mum in elementary school #anyway this has been a recovered memory i guess #unrelated

[six-of-ravens]

okay, after a failed start this morning I woke up about half an hour ago, felt good enough to eat food, and I'm hoping that doing so won't make me have to lie down again...

#i desperately need to do laundry #it's like -15 and im sitting in my apt shivering in pj shorts bc my sweats and leggings are all dirty #also i of course did 0 cleanup after making that extremely messy stir fry last night so i need to clean the kitchen AGAIN! #and i forgot to put the leftover stir fry in the fridge 😭 so its all gone bad #anyway if the little demon voice in your brain says 'this was a hard week just drink a whole bottle of wine!' IGNORE IT. #smack your head against the wall a few times for the same effect #tho tbh usually wine doesn't destroy me this bad. this is what i get for buying $17 wine instead of $8 wine lmao

[outismm]

OUTIS!!!!!! How do you feel about you and Robotus in a princess and the frog au? I think it fits you two very well! You two fall in love and in the end when you share True Love’s Kiss he turns into a human (or you turn into a robot. Either one works)

OK THIS FUCKING IDEA HAS. BIRTHED BRAINWORMS THAT ARE ONLY TANGENTIALLY RELATED TO THIS BUT. IDCIDCIDC IM ROLLING WITH IT.

The idea of AB as a human and Willie as a robot has given me diseases. I've tried to condense these diseases as efficiently as possible so here's this silliness:

*SPINS IN A CIRCLE AND PINGS OFF INTO THE ATMOSPHERE*

#i literally scribbled this out at lightning speed btwn fits of Illness (tm) MSNDMSNDM SO HAVE THIS I GUESS #WAHHHHH <3333 #I'm rambling in the tags bc. shy disease #extra details I've thought of : #Willie asking him how he got his injuries and he's like 'oh yeah bigfoot tore off my legs' and willies like < REALLY? > #'of course not Bigfoot is a lovely man. It was a helicopter crash. how are you so gullible???' #his name... is Ro Abbott (GET IT)- #W-111E was only sent to Cognito bc. there was a Mixup. he was supposed to go to Incineration bc he was defective but #SDNSMN NOPE SOMEBODY FORGOT TO CARRY A ZERO APPARENTLY AND. BADABING BADABOOM #the robot who failed his Spacial Awareness Test bc he kept pulling the push door. is now tasked with destroying Cognito from the inside out #GIGI AND AB DESERVE TO BE MARRIED AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME- #They've been married for ages and. nobody understands it. but also Dr. Abbott is scary as fuck so nobody gossips either MSDNSMND #AB spends 3 weeks Carefully Plotting Trying To Capture Willie while. Willie has 0 clue he's doing anything wrong he's literally Just Vibes. #hes wandering around cognito like :) :o <3 :o) meanwhile Dr. Abbott is literally spending 16 hrs of the day setting traps MSNDMS #somehow managing to miss him every single time #I could go on for centuries about this idea but. I SHANT instead I shall Scurry Away #MSNDMSN #🤖🧪 human error #✨🧪stardust in my eyes #✨🧪🤖RGB Polycule #outis art #i keep forgetting to add that tag #AOUGHE. OH GOD IVE LITERALLY BEEN RAMBLING FOR AGES #UM. RUNS AWAY. THANK U HANDS YOU A ROSE AND THEN RUNS UP A TREE

[quadrantadvisor]

I thought that walking with my toes turned out was just like a little quirk Y'ALL ARE TELLING ME THAT MY HIPS HAVE BEEN IN THE WRONG POSITION MY ENTIRE LIFE AND THAT'S THE REASON I HAVE NO ASS AND MY KNEES HURT WTF

#negative #my rambles #my god...... my fucking legs #no wonder I'm so comparatively 'good' at stretches that involve turning out your hips #mine are just!!!!! fucking like that!!!!!!!!!! #sounds like I could have a lucrative career as a ballerina if I ever wanted to fucking do that and also felt like destroying my body #you ever think about how fucked up ballet is

[liliana-von-k]

I love cats’ consistency.

#my babies #sophie #maxil #the one whose loss destroyed me and the one whose love brought me back #they also both liked/like to sleep between my legs #cats #kitteh lolz

[ghosthart]

i havent dressed how i want to becuz of money not allowing me to buy types of clothes i want and not wanting to buy cheap alternatives that will fall apart anyways and depression keeping me from having the energy to put away my mountain of dirty and clean clothes just mixed together on the floor so i just wear sweatpants and t shirts or sweaters and stopped doing my makeup too so now that i have the semi-motivation to dress and style myself how i want to and am making a little more money to afford it i’m afraid to cuz ppl might act like it’s just a random thing i started doing and that i’m a 22 yr old trying to emulate trendy teenagers or something like as if i haven’t always wanted to dress well there’s just a huge bag of issues why i haven’t and now that i want to and can i’m scared of feeling strange and out of place :/

#like 1 i’ve always had self esteem issues #genuinely hate the way i look so i’ve always felt i’m not worthy for whatever style i liked #like i couldn’t do it justice and would just be made fun of for being ugly trying to look good #and 2 my mom never wanted to buy me new clothes or anything really like ever #i literally had the same underwear i had in elementary school all the way into early high school #and if i begged her to buy me underwear she would throw a fit and make me feel like i’m forcing her to waste money and then get me the most #cheap and uncomfortable kind she could find #also would never buy me training bras even tho i started developing faster than my peers and have naturally larger chest but she just gave #me some random cropped camisole top thing that did nothing #and i only had the one so it was always dirty cuz can’t waste water just washing one thing 🙄 #also makeup i had to steal her makeup when i really wanted to be a scene kid lol but that is understandable #and 3 i started having zero energy junior year like couldn’t do my makeup anymore or wear anything besides leggings and hoodie #i would basically just be late to school cuz i slept in be falling asleep all day in class #then either go home and watch a movie and fall asleep early or go to work until 11pm and start over the next day LOL #so i didn’t look like i cared #like even if i tell ppl i’m a different person on the inside they still label me as someone who doesn’t care what they look like #like ppl constantly when i go shopping with them or at work looking at makeup i say oh i kinda want this they’re like but u don’t wear #makeup??? #like ok remember when i wore full face hair done in middle school and early high school like -_- #idk i just let me dépression destroy my entire personality for many years and i feel motivated now to do come back to myself #but i feel nervous cuz i don’t like drawing attention to myself so that’s why i’m venting ok bye