#my head is aching so bad

[elendsessor]

nocturne no fusion run update part god(‘s voice) is dead

well here’s one that didn’t go as planned yet also kinda did

now i actually made some pretty massive mistakes, and at least let the first one be your take away if you ever do any challenge run where the demifiend has to be involved (aka not the demon only run yes that’s real)

do not, and i mean DO NOT pass up glacial blast.

i forgot that’s the only element metatron doesn’t either resist or nullify. my dumb ass decided i wouldn’t take it. i should’ve. i really really should’ve.

i did make the smart decision to finally replace tornado with bolt storm tho for mot. yay???

yeah i was originally gonna save metatron until post diet building but couldn’t remember if you get locked into an ending once you beat mitra/samael or once you entered the tower of kagutsuchi. either way, it was a perfect time to go back to the lab(yrinth) again… after beating up surt, mada, and mot.

as always, surt’s a joke if you null or drain fire. mot can’t beast eye spam in hd like he could back in the day so he got nerfed hard. mada was the only real problem because intoxicate sucks.

i was’t genuinely scared of metatron. worried it would take longer than it did, but he’s kinda weak by nocturne boss standards when you think about it.

i never found him as hard as beelzebub mainly because you start off at a massive disadvantage before fighting the fruit fly from hell, meanwhile you’re given all the tools necessary for mr roboto save for pierce which you don’t need. also because metatron wastes his turns with mahamon if you void or reflect light. death flies at least still damages and beel uses a variety of other elemental moves. the only thing that could make metatron harder for some is how he cracks down on buff/debuff cancelling hard and he has debilitate.

now, what’s the problem with my sorry band of losers featuring raidou kuzunoha the 14th and best girl pixie? simple answer is we don’t have enough ice power.

qing long had to be dropped sadly since he unfortunately can’t match up to a lot of the endgame demons without major assistance. on my first run, mabufula was doing nothing, and because i can’t fuse, there wasn’t any way to power him up without extensive grinding, be it for incenses or levels. i don’t think this would change much as yeah as i ended up learning aside from weak healing moves on high magic stat demons, no amount of buffs can make up for low/medium damage elemental attacks especially not multi target skills due to how they function. he did good though. a real unsung hero. carried my team in interesting ways. i can’t fully change his moveset into something much greater without fusion, not even if i redo mizuchi, but god he was an actual trooper and will always be remembered (i’ll probably resummon him for the heck of it though).

the original team was gonna be black frost, albion, and titania, but i hit another roadblock due to the whole no fusion thing meaning no moveset changing and a good chunk of black frost’s moves can’t be mutated. garuda could work but only through chaining. maybe lilith too, but that would require a lot of grinding i don’t want to do. i tried at least abusing megido and megidiola stones but they did nothing.

and then comes the idea of using tekisatsu.

while a physical move, it does almighty damage. the cons come from the low crit rate (at least in my experience i never get crits with it ;-;) and it isn’t super powerful outside of taking care of random encounters. raidou does get a special piercing ability, but i didn’t feel like abusing it with yoshitsune. i abuse the poor guy enough. also wasn’t super close (the exp from metatron was just enough to get him to learn the pierce skill). the original idea was buff with monke, debuff with war cry and provoke (+dekaja stone of course), have titania both heal and do bonus damage with glacial blast, and have demifiend play emergency support. had to switch monke out halfway through since the debuffing combos weren’t keeping up with how many times metatron spammed dekunda, so i swapped albion in (they null phys so if metatron did decide to use his normal attack it could potentially be wasted). it wasn’t as big a stall race as beel’s fight was thankfully, and i think that’s partly due to the ai giving up and prioritizing fire of sanai and the “forever useless until 4a onwards” mahamon over trying to remove the debuffs.

the other big mistake? i was wrong about the fat fuck elephant. you do need metatron, and yes the only way to get him without metatron is by clipping through the door, but in order to perform the glitch, it needs to be set up using a pc only exploit.

i’m playing on console.

raidou gets to be the op secondary attacker now. good. don’t separate the ankle biter from his boyfriend.

#shantien rambles #smt nocturne #smt #my head is aching so bad #goodnight gamers

[ipusingularitae]

i got so many books, but at what cost? (exposed to streets full of people, loud environment, walking to the train station, sweating, being overwhelmed)

#my head is aching so bad #like SO BAD #I'm so happy i got to go out with my friend and buy books and see new places #but i was not expecting this physical reaction

[imblocking-you]

Wag niyo q pinapatay s puyat guys ganito q pero gusto q pa ng mahabang buhay,

#burnt out n nga tas nagpapagod pa lalo abaa may death wish lmaoo #// maple #ayq n #eka sulitin ang tulog b4 college #baka kapag college n q 1 sec n lng tulog q #nagssink n eyes q #hindi n 2 sleep deprivation n joke like its legit concerning #my head is aching so bad #i cant think properly the more it lasts #ayoko naaaaakshsownsoendkeem #im legit scared 4 mh life #this got shit flashing in front of m eyes #bro #i either need medicinf for sleeo depr side effects or anxiety or oaranoia or wtv #i just wanna be fixed

[freckleslikestars]

Mulder, it's me.

THE X FILES | 5.20

#I want to hit chris carter around the head with a lamp #her heartache is so gorgeous though #this scene just makes my chest ache so bad #the thing is though at this point there's no reason to distrust diana. it's just her jealousy and heartbreak at seeing mulder holding #another's hands. #txf #x files #msr #the x files #txfedit #my gifs #xf gifs #GA gifs #cinematv #filmtvcentral #chewieblog #smallscreensource #usercreate #userthing #dana scully #dailytvwomen #popcultureds #mediagifs #usertvfilm #tvedit #tvcentric #tvfilmsource #televisiongifs #userscully #userars

[jimmyspades]

Alan Shore: It's the night before the Supreme Court and I'm tired. Denny Crane: It's always the night before something. Alan Shore: Yes, well the something tomorrow is the highest court, and a man's life is at stake... A man is facing death! Shut up! You said you wanted to be part of this case. Well, be part of it, dammit! It's the Supreme Court! BOSTON LEGAL 4.17 "The Court Supreme"

#this very rare glance of business casual alan 😵‍💫 #and he's YELLING 😵‍💫😛 #james spader #alan shore #boston legal #* #actual context aside. alan coming home whipping off his tie crashing on the couch. head aching. stressed. long day of hard cases bad client #holding him in your lap stroking his hair. rubbing his arm squeezing his hand and just listening #his complaining turns to mumbles turn to sighs and soft kisses #whatever. whatever! my husband alan whatever. telling him he's the handsomest man in the world. he loves you so much he believes you

[katkalis-the-fanartist]

Never trying alcohol again...

#tried it last night while out to eat with my sister and my husband for my sis' birthday #what happened: #hot and sweaty #and head + neck ache #and some weakness and slight lightheadedness #so the one time im able to down alcohol without feeling bad its just NOTHING BUT SIDE EFFECTS #AND IT WASNT EVEN THAT HARD A DRINK #is this normal for someone that doesnt usually drink it to finally try it at the dear young age of 27? #just talking

[butchdykenormallen]

my moms rewatching shrek and im remembering all the dumb memes and honestly? we were right. shrek is beautiful. but we made him conventionally attractive. we failed shreks natural beauty with filters. and along with that, it also makes me think about fiona and how she had such an issue with being an ogre, calling herself an ugly monster, but honestly, im glad they let her just. be herself in the end. im glad that, even when shrek turns into a human, he still retains his body type and actually resembles himself as a human and not something completely different. i really like how they portray it all its really good.

#shrek #shrek franchise #yeah ok im making paragraphs about shrek. my head aches so fuvking bad #i need t be wuiet #loser_txt.png

[theheightofdishonor]

it's partially the wbl vibes? Like, i truly adore a ship where one person thinks it's an enemies to lovers arc while the other's been pining for years

#my school president #tinngun #it's so cute im already in love #am i revealing myself as a total sucker for a favourite trope? yeah #we best love #even bad buddy kinda fits this #steo #well the steo thats in my head at least #oh until my feet bleed and my heart aches ofc #special a #nothing else is coming to me off the top of my head #i wouldn't classify tine and sarawat as enemies per say #but they're close enough so 2gether i guess

[pcktknife]

I'm having a delicious dasani rn

#kae.txt #i still feel bad my head still hurts my throat still aches ah woe is me #right after i made the original 'im sick' post this morning some ppl came to check on the house so i had to sleep in my 6yo sisters bed #for like idk an hour 30? bad start to the morning

[soldier-poet-king]

Tbh developing a zero tolerance policy for online bullshit and rancid religious opinions this June bc it hasn't even started yet and I'm Tired. I'm done effacing existence and apologizing for being and feeling sorry for kindness and hating the cruelty of it all, and I already have to deal with that irl where I Can't Escape It

#franposting #im genuinely extremely upset #but that's fine. im upset enough to know there is a boundary and distance here #and i can simply. cut it out. it sucks. but i dont have to listen #i guess its a good sign. my ocd is enough under control that i can ignore religious ppl spouting bullshit #and can do that w/out thinking im damned #bc im not buying into cruel bullshit #and think there is so much more to the world than we can ever know #and that there are more ppl out there who agree with me and believe like i do #that its not just me. and its not just a faith filled with cruelty and lipservice #it is mostly filled with those things maybe. but there are goodnesses and kindnesses too. as small as they are #faith tag #just gonna start. blocking. i cant do it anymore #it isnt even personal hatred. i dont really. hate? i hate opinions and beliefs and cruelty. but i cant hate people #i just. ache. and I am trying so hard to stay hopeful and alive and sometimes all there is is spite #and my head hurts so so bad

[kenjakusbraincum]

lol i want to fucking die just like i predicted

#everyone jumped me my last couple of free days #friends family professors #i have like 10 ppl and 10 assignments i have to meet/finish in the next... 4 days #yall cannot be real right now #and also i just came back from the worst bday party #i felt so overwhelmed and excluded evem though i knew half of the people there #i wanna cry #and i cant just tell my friends/family oh i dont have time for you lol shouldve texted me earlier #im so bad at saying no like that #at this point i think ill just.. stop coming to my home country for holidays #its starting to always be a fucking nuisanc #e #like im supposed to enjoy my time here not stress about it #if i was abroad at least i wouldnt hwve to think about fitting ten fucking people who feel entitled to my time in my schedule #but alright #my head aches

[gucciguccigarbage]

I KNOW I GOT LUNGS CAUSE THEY ACHE A BIT

I KNOW I'M MEANT TO BE AN ARTIST CAUSE I FEEL LIKE SHIT

all the time

#my art #recent #traditional art #weird little vent that did in fact help #August is always hard. I can't think of an August in the last 5 years that flare ups didnt interfere with my responsibilities #Luckily my coworkers are understanding. It just feels bad when I want to work and can't. I like it there. #What I don't like is struggling to stay standing without passing out. And having visual delays when I turn my head. And And And. #So. Art about it. #also lol fittingly drawing this made my wrist ache. #also this is ok to reblog i think it turned out Cool

[carlyraejepsans]

either people with OCD need to stop being relatable or i need to see a doctor

#the intrusive thought part is insanely relatable to me but also so much of everything else in tests is just not something i struggle with? #like the cleanliness thing or the disease thing. I don't have rituals per se #or at least I wouldn't call them that? i have really bad intrusive thoughts and I've gotten in the habit of hitting myself #or saying random words/noises out loud when it happens to snap out of it. and it's getting worse with time ngl #only people i ever saw relate to it said it had smth to do with ocd. but it's not exactly a compulsion is it? I don't even realize i do it #it's instantaneous. like instinct. and then I'm left to deal with my head aching or my hand almost bitten to blood lol #it's painful! and it sucks and i hate it and I'm so tired of dealing with it. but it's literally just That #i guess if have anything like a compulsion it's that i check behind my bathroom curtains a lot before i shower #to make sure i closed the windows even though i just did it and checked a dozen times before. but it doesn't stop me from showering #or impact me anywhere else either. like most times i just leave the curtains open so i can see they're closed with a glance and move on #that's it! #man. this i exhausting #anyone got advice?

[tamagotchikgs]

last night i was poking around in my mouth as u do and i reached back where i had always felt this hard thing w my tongue for awhile now but was like ah maybe it's just like. my gums being inflamed in the back or smthn BUT,, no i poked that thing with my fingernail n it is a tooth that is a whole ass wisdom tooth

#NO WONDER... MY JAW IS IN PAIN ALMOST ALL THE TIME.... HUH.. #i wonder if that period where i literally couldnt move my jaw from the pain for like a week was when it was emerging #otherwise the pain is like not awful. not bad enough it's noticeable u know im used to it i have so many aches n pains in my body naturally #like my entire head has a constant ache. if u touch my cheekbones ill drop my head like a cat into ur hand dude it is . #it's like the most relieving ache . like u have just lifted a massive weight off my shoulders. and it's been that way since i was a kid #i think i googled if thats what it was before n they were like no if it were your wisdom tooth youd know :) it would hurt u so bad #which i despise btw because this means nothing to me BHJAH.... like they said the same thing when i broke my foot the nurse that did intake #i was a kid & she was like dont worry if it were broken youd know and you wouldnt have walked in here on it ... fellas . it was broken #& i could never see anything when i looked in the mirror #but it's just because it's slightly covered by like swollen gums back there which i always thought was just because i chewed too hard #but. #no i guess it;s because something was erupting like an alien #i used my lil pokey tool to squish em out of the way and i can see it #it's so weird just having a tooth u know u shouldnt #like i . i want to just grab it i want to just hold it in my hand #why does it have to be so securely in place whihc is something i wouldnt never say for my other teeth HJBA #i am not going 2 have it removed any time soon im . #i have wanted to go to the dentist my whole life but i am too scared #esp w the damage from my ed and depression im so embarrassed #i honestly want to though #there is nothing that would make me feel more like an actual person then to just. get a cleaning #get my maintenance done LMAO #i do my best at home but u kno #i use an electric spinning toothbrush i floss i use mouthwash i do it all 2 try n handle what damage there already is #but it still would do wonders for my mental health and oral health #apparently partial impactions which is what i have can be really bad n get infected so . aha...h. 👍:).. ..h.

[seeminglyseph]

If I say something is not a safe space it’s mainly because it’s not exclusively a safe space and you should not let down your guard for your own triggers and safety because I’m not going to always know or be able to do that or even want to take on the burden of always saying and doing the right thing to make sure no one is upset or hurt in anyway.

I can do my best to not be actively unsafe in certain ways, but, there will always be risks and I will at times fail. I know that I will fail ‘cause I am human and I will say and do things that are thoughtless or ignorant or cruel or in anger or just… idk wrong? There are a lot of different ways to fuck things up. There are a lot of different ways to hurt people. I don’t always deserve forgiveness for that if I do hurt you that way.

This isn’t a statement about anything recently, I’ve just been thinking about the concept of “safe spaces” and what makes one a safe space. Why people expect certain things from certain creators and not from others. And part of it is that a certain degree of safety allows people to let down their guard so much that the appearance of something offensive becomes almost more shocking and offensive.

So I feel like, even if I’m doing my best to like… not actively be harmful, like… I’m still a person. Not a safe space. And that means that I am potentially capable of offending or talking about things that feel unsafe. Especially since I’m processing messy feelings of abuse and trauma. Many trauma victims are honestly way messier than a lot of folks seem to anticipate, and like. I get a lot of trauma survivors want their own safe spaces, but sometimes I really wonder why y’all think policing other trauma survivors to be less messy is making trauma survivors safer, rather than the opposite.

Like it doesn’t really make most spaces feel safe to me to know that I have to constantly self censor and often just not talk because I can’t tell if my traumatic experiences are colouring my perception and will make the situation uncomfy if I speak up or say something. But like, it is for the sake of trauma victims that the censorship has been enforced… like. I don’t know if I get it entirely. But it might be that it’s not the victims that the rules are for, but the people who aren’t victims but have heard of victims and are very very uncomfortable about it. Idk.

That’s why I’m both still processing and also not a safe space. I gotta talk about shit or I might explode or never understand. I’ve been trying to understand things for ages and been “sheltered” with blinders and bars on the windows for ages lmao

Life takes ages to learn and I think we gotta get messy and ask questions and fuck up…

#my life #idk what i’m doing #my head hurts so bad right now #my whole body aches #everything hurts #aaaaaa

[anneonomus]

going to work at the tail end of what may very well be a concussion everyone cross ur fingers for me

#head doesn’t hurt anymore it’s my FACE why does my face ache #and the dizzy. i keep trying to shake my hair out of my face and accidentally flash banging myself #my eye doesn’t even look swollen anymore wht does this suck so bad #elliot should shut up challenge #i dropped my water bottle on my face in the middle of the night last week. if anyone is curious LMAO