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boomerang109 · 3 months

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getting myself to eat is truly like reasoning with a toddler

#‘I’m not saying you can’t have the ice cream I’m just saying if you’re having ice cream because #you’re hungry then you have to have something else first because we don’t eat ice cream for hunger #my brain: but whyyyyyy #because ice cream sugar and not significant enough protein #brain: but dairy #no brain. not all dairy is automatically significant protein. its probably some sure. but not enough. eat real food first

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barawrah · 4 months

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been extra miserable about them this past week

#WHYYYYYY WHY CANT THEY BE HAPPY #mxtx can we talk....lets discuss mxtx listen to me #and its just . banging my head into a wall their whole thing is they never be happy in any life . ever again #because they Die . and thats it poof out of the reincarnation cycle #FUCK YOUUUUU BFLF RUINING MY LIFE #canon im beating you with a stick like a feral animal #ill be sitting minding my own business and my brain will go dream on like shut the fuck upppppppp #bawling my eyes out rn #this is so awful i hate u bflf i hope youre both miserable #no i dont sorry please be happy #ok . ok deep breaths #art tag #tgcf #shi qingxuan #he xuan #beefleaf

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ruporas · 2 years

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more sugiO

#sugio #osugi #sugimoto saichi #ogata hyakunosuke #golden kamuy #UWAHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #ok #i posted on my other socials so now ill ramble in the tags bc its a little less embarrassing to post on tumblr than it is anywhere else #but these are just the results of waiting a week #thinking endlessly about sugio and then doodling my ass off the moment the weekend came #i cant really verbalize how i think of them. in a modern au sense they're ofc much better off and ill talk about that in the future maybe!!#but canon compliant wise................ :melting-emoji:#i am a multishipper so in another universe sugimoto is much more happier with perhaps. someone superior. someone better than ogata but #unfortunately i rotate sugio in my brain the most often and while i picture sugimoto be both regretful and disdainful of his feelings #i do think he accepted his feelings early on once he recognized it #and well. sugimoto is nice. hes really nice. hes sweet and silly and has a knack for romance even if he never really pursued it himself #but he has a track record for ppl that he has loved. and i think those people shape him into his kindness.#toraji... umeko.... and now the person he's closest to is asirpa who is just. eugh. ill cry if i get into their familial/platonic bond.#But u see what i mean. ogata is like a trapezoid box trying to fit in with circles. and that wouldv jarred sugimoto soooo much and consideri #ng the kind of personality that ogata elicits from sugimoto during their interactions . he's Just immediately like Why. Whyyyyyy HIMMMMMMM #but i think he gets around it. a real internal struggle.#meanwhile ogata -- the absolute legend of denial and repression - denies it vehemently. does not See it. and thinks there must be something #wrong with sugimoto -- which is smth he takes comfort in #but he'd never return those feelings -- only the passive affection that could come along with it bc physical affection =/= internal emotions #and i don't find ogata to recognize it -- only catch glimpses of it through odd feelings of warmth -- dreams -- instinctively following #or looking at sugimoto pre-abashiri. its small things and well. it'll whiplash him in the end.#bc love has been so absent in ogata's life. if familial/platonic love can't reach him #then romantic love could never either. and that makes me shake his shoulders and weep.#ive written too Much in these tags. AND THis is Not worded in the best way ANYWAY. but At the least i got to verbally wordvomit it out. it s #been just stewing in my brain bc i have no idea where else to put it down.

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enbeemagical · 4 months

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ugh

#listen #my coursework is interesting #but whyyyyyy is it so difficult to reply to my classmates' weekly essays #i have to say something thoughtful and incisive and add to the discussion and i have to provide references #and rn i am trying to do this even though there is a heavy blanket on my brain #least favorite part of the hw #why can't i leave an ao3 style comment (rhetorical question; i know why not)

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e-the-village-cryptid · 8 months

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going two fucking days without several hours of intense physical activity is like. my skin is crawling off. tasks? never heard of her. itchy itchy somehow my bones are itchy. attention span 6 seconds. that building looks sooo climbable do you think that bank would care if i climbed to their roof. i'm never sleeping again. i need to pick a direction and run as fast as i can until i pass out. i need to be tased. yeah. tased repeatedly

#adhd restlessness has me wanting to tear my skin off whyyyyyy does my brain do this to meeee #it's been two! calmer! days!#an e original

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andrasta14 · 9 months

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Them: So after 20 years of off and again therapy, what would you say was the most useful thing you got out of it?

Me: *thinking* This.

Them: A brain-shaped stress ball?? Really???

Me: *nods emphatically* Really...truly, madly, deeply. *lmao*

Them: ..... O.o

Me: *squishes contently away at my brain* I also learned to get used to people thinking I'm weird. But that I taught myself. *squish squish squish*

#my teenaged self liked that brain so much the hospital psychiatrist gave it to me and I've had it ever since 😅😂#my random ramblings #mental health #self care #self love #therapy #...and enough procrastination...back to trying to clean my disaster of an apartment #didn't I just do this two weeks ago? whyyyyyy can't stuff just stay clean???? 😭😭😭

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lemonofthevalley · 7 months

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every time I speak in an incomprehensible manner unintentionally I want to dig myself a grave and bury myself alive

#whyyyyyy is my brain like this . i hate it

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daemonzephyr · 9 months

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Been playing Stardew Valley Expanded for hours and I was truly in hyperfocus mode but then my stomach started growling and I couldn't ignore it, so I forced myself to go make food. The food was great, but now my hyperfocus has been interrupted, and I have no desire to go back to playing Stardew 😭

#adhd #autism #actually autistic #hyperfixation #audhd #tis the tism #whyyyyyy #why is my brain like this #i just wanna play my game

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ghostzzy · 8 days

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thoughts are spiky today 😔

#everywhere i turn there is an anxiety ready to prick me #i can feel the escapism bug gnawing at my brain stem #girl help. i know it’s still my meds and my hormones and my general life circumstances but like. whyyyyyy. 😔#izzy.txt

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liliallowed · 8 months

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teacher: *gibberish*

me: (hehe symbiot kissing dust and MAYBE making out)

my face:

#bou i blame you for this #whyyyyyy #it's been haunting me for five hours #microwaving in my brain #suggestive???#i guess???#im really not used to thinking like this #brain stahp #avrage ace-fictosexual behavior

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recurring-polynya · 11 months

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whyyyyyyy when I am writing at a certain level of seriousness, does my brain decide "this should be in present tense"? What is the connection? I've caught myself doing it, like seven times in three paragraphs. I do not want to write in the present tense. This is a flashback, it has double reason to be in the past tense.

#i need to keep a spray bottle on my desk and spritz myself whenever i do this #whyyyyyy brain whyyyyyy

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lanternlightss · 2 months

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god looking through characters that keep crossing my mind recently and its just. venti and nameless bard, bards. thistle, a jester. sun and moon and eclipse, also jesters.

like. Man 😭 sure do wonder what kind of pattern there is here

#WHYYYYYY #no one look at me im ignoring it #i will NOT look at the pattern revealing itself #fuckkk lance and his aerial silk skills that boys a clown and i mean this affectionately #GOD.#WHY ARE THEY ALL ENTERTAINERS 😭😭😭#this is bc i was a theatre kid wasn’t it. it changed the trajectory of my brain too much #also i am Not looking at thistleee and how he reminds me such much of ven #like oh ???? Oh ??? you went mad because you were trying so desperately to save your closest friend from devastation ??#you hold him so horrifyingly close that it melds into your skin ??? that the memory burns into your very skull ??#ugh #lantern when tragic entertainers 😔#lantern says stuff

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 1 year

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*smacking myself in the face* SHUT UP BRAIN SHUT UP

#like girl this is NOT something I need to spend every waking minute stressing out and making myself miserable about #and YET #LITERALLY LOOSEN UP I WANNA BE ABLE TO BREATHE AGAIN #Lu rambles #literally nothing has happened I went out with the theatre boy ONE time and we chatted and it was fine. I said some stuff #that in retrospect was probably super awkward but like that's life. like it was just a chill hang out except for that #I HATE social situations. theatre is one thing bc it's With A Purpose but just sitting and talking to someone #is REALLY REALLY HARD. I feel small and terrified like a frightened animal.#but it was fine! it was literally fine!!! at the end we were both like ''we should hang out again sometime'' even though #neither of us is sure if we want like... a Relationship(TM). we're just hanging out bc we get along well. it's Normal #so WHYYYYYY can I not just feel any peace or confidence anymore why did I do this to myself #I wish I'd never said anything to him in the first place. like it was chill and easy to just be friends but now?? UGH #I literally do not care enough to be THIS freaked out about it and I know that logically and yet my brain won't stop panicking constantly #I just want to RELAX 😭#shrimp emotions

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naenaex0xx · 9 months

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I am

Tired !!