#my anti list is so short lmfao

[likeithct]

me writing my k/nk list:

#i'm too gay for this ⇎ ooc #my anti list is so short lmfao

[ddejavvu]

ohh i have SUCH a controversial jennifer jareau opinion. and this is probably gonna be more like an essay. i wish i could say i was sorry.

everyone always says theyre anti jj slander, which is fine ofc, but just weird bc i NEVER see anyone slandering her. in my 3 years in the fandom, ive seen it happen maybe 5 times total, which sucks because she deserves so. much. more. hate.

(spoilers for *that* jeid plotline, as well as some other things)

in season 7, spencer tells her that she has mean girl vibes and she replies "i was a nice girl, especially to guys like you" which ALWAYS pissed me off because she literally just confirmed what he said? and everyone acts like it was a funny joke. she said that shit with her whole chest and meant it, and it wouldnt be *that* big of a deal if it was the only time. but shes consistently mean to him throughout the show, ignoring him, walking away, etc. spencer isnt even the only one shes like this to. and she just has a sense of superiority, idk how to describe it. just by the way she talks and interacts with those around her, you can tell. (while we're on that note, she also ignores her privileged a LOT. maybe not all the time, but theres been multiple times where she acts like she went through hell to get where she is. other than her sister passing, she had it completely easy. in terms of resources, opportunities, etc., she was basically born with a golden spoon in her mouth.)

in s14 when she confesses to spencer that shes always been in love with him, it just makes my blood boil. obviously he had been over her a long time (imo), but that was something she should've kept to herself bc it just brought alllll those feelings back to the surface. not to mention that hes the godfather of her children, and shes married, and will probably (definitely) doesnt know how she feels. thats literally emotional cheating on her part, even though reid didnt reciprocate it, it was still wrong of her to be that close to him without will knowing how she really felt.

there are other things i dont like abt her too, but those are the main things and im trying to keep this as short as possible. but i literally cant stand her, shes by far my least favorite character, and everyone acts like shes an angel sent from heaven, when really shes just a privileged bitch.

i like JJ a lot (i want her to be my mom </3) but i do agree with several of your points - she's definitely not the worst character, each and every character has a list of flaws that we could make, so this by no means makes her the worst, but it does make me angry <3

i just rewatched that 'mean girl' episode!! she doesn't even hesitate before saying 'guys like you', which, you're totally right, means he was right, and she was definitely a mean girl in high school. or even if she didn't say any of it out loud, she was still silently judging 'guys like him' and in high school you can always tells who's silently judging you. they're teenagers. they're not silent about it. the nasty looks they give you?? oh man. but i do think that the blame for ignoring spencer needs to be placed on all of the team members, because they do it all the time too, it's not just her. she has some pretty bad moments with him, but it's definitely something they all do and she shouldn't take the full blame

lmao don't talk about jeid. the writers actually deserve the death penalty for that, god it was so nasty and weird. i know that it was something she confessed in the heat of the moment, like she wasn't sure she was gonna make it out alive and didn't wanna die without saying it but ??? WHY WOULD YOU PUT IT ON HIM TO DIE THREE SECONDS AFTER FINDING OUT ??? like great it's off your chest but now he's gonna spend the (very short) rest of his life thinking about it?? AND THEN THEY DIDN'T EVEN DIE LMFAO SO HE WAS JUST STUCK WITH THAT !! and yeah!! will!! what about will!! or her kids!! it was so... writers i'm watching you...

one scene of hers that really pissed me off was in reid's kidnapping two-parter in s2 (the hankel incident) where she was almost attacked by those rabid (?) dogs and she shot them and she's obviously shaken up and she tries finding reid and realizes what happened and she feels so much guilt for splitting up with him - which was not her fault, she didn't know and should not be held responsible for what happened to him - that she started trying to make other people mad at her?? she cornered derek who was grieving and stressed at the loss of his best friend and they're both sleep deprived and she says something like 'admit it, you hate me, you think it's my fault' AND I???? GIRL. he is being so nice to you?? he was literally like oh honey if you need time off i know you're really shaken up and we can take care of this and and and AND SHE WAS LIKE oH yeah suRe just admit it i'm the worSt everybody hATEs mE- I WAS... this is not about you. go get therapy for the dog attack that you just almost suffered?? do not stand around a crime scene and pester the victim's best friend and delay the investigation because you're feeling guilty. go talk to someone about it. take a few days off. again, i totally get that she was shaken up and hopped up on adrenaline, but everyone told her to go get some rest and she was like no i think i will make myself the problem instead <3

all of that being said i still love her </3 i was not kidding when i say that i wish she was my mom holy shit i would have loved to grow up as her kid but she definitely has her flaws just like the rest of the BAU, and logical, critical breakdowns of a characters flaws aren't slandering, they're analysis, so i think everybody needs to stop shitting on people who criticize or analyze their faves lmao

send me your unpopular fandom opinions

#mei's mail #ask game

[vyvesvi]

boys planet initial pick list

supporting blindly:

uehara ichika

he's just a good guy (and a bit of a gag character tbh) but he's a good singer and a good entertainer. i actually really wanted him to transition to rapping based on this clip - the sing rap style really suits him (he wrote a short rap about being compared to his younger brother, jun, who's a member of the jpop group orbit). do i think he fits kpop or this group at this point? no, but i hope he can grow a fanbase and then transition into acting. fun fact: he's now been the oldest contestant on two survival shows (b. 1992, chuang 2021 & now boys planet). on chuang he often took on the father/caretaker/translator role, and i suspect that if he gets screentime boys planet will be similar.

zhang shuaibo

he's hu yetao coded. iykyk. through him yetao will be avenged 🙏 he's '02 line which is the youngest i will actually support tbh. linked here is his cover of somi's dumb dumb, which he ate in my humble opinion.

probably a pick:

kim jiwoong

b 1998. great singer, serving face, popular. was in a bl??? idk but ill be keeping track of him for sure. ex-inx i think? apparently he was in the drama onlyoneof made an ost for. i have no idea what he's singing here but it's a serve.

chen jianyu

he's attractive, and not a child (b. 1998). the only rapper i expect to be supporting. my new rule is no rappers unless theyre also visuals or actually good enough to carry a whole solo career a la woodz/cho seungyoun. we'll see.

hui

hui needs no introduction. but i will say based on current response im not expecting him to have a yujin arc. they picked the most terrible photo of him ive ever seen in my life. good luck and godspeed cousin. (b 1993)

will pay attention to:

hiroto

he was on chuang (and pd101 japan which i havent watched). tbh i didnt really care for him on chuang but i actually dont mind him now. he's a good dancer, decent singer, and he'll bring lots of mom fans from china lmfao. im hoping that he's grown a bit in the past year and a half. i'd really like to see him more comfortable socializing and showing his personality. (b 2002)

wumuti

my friend liked him on under19. he's not a bad singer or dancer, plus he was about to be in u19 debut group until he had to leave the show, so im curious about him. (b 1999)

sung hanbin

he's the theme song center, although i still havent watched tbh. he's decent looking, a good singer, and he has a lot of stans already lmfao. apparently his actual strength is dance, which is a plus (this time around im also anti dancers whos only position is dancer. u need to sing and/or be attractive. no dozens in 2023). (b 2001)

seo won

idk. he has a good face, and isnt a child (b 2000). a member of nine.i. i saw some videos of him performing and he seems solid!

lee seunghwan

b 2000. beat the ugly profile photo curse and i love that for him. pretty good vocalist, but from the little i've observed (u19 and 1the9 clips) he makes a lil stank face when performing that doesn't help him. we'll see!

wen yechen

b. 2000. a singer who SINGS!!! he sounds veryy good here but he feels veryyy marked for flopdom tbh. ex jyp trainee, ex-ywy

xuanhao

b 1995. we love hags perfectly reasonably aged young people pursuing their dreams!! (tentatively trying to cut hag out of my speech we'll see if it sticks). idk i just liked him face. not like he's hot more like i like his vibe. seems to be a dancer.........if he's useless at singing i might have to drop him 😭 lso seems destined for flopdom.

min

b 2000. another one who just has good vibes. was on u19 as well.

assorted pics:

l → r: seowon, seunghwan, yechen, and xuanhao

two pics of min. la dualidad de ser

#boys planet #t watches tv

[wrestlezon]

aew dynamite 2/8/23 liveblog containment zone

wrestling!!

ooo starting it off with mjf new jacket. put that on the list of mjf outfits oh hes fighting takeshita right, its all coming back to me omg he got black and pink briefs too

[ mjf vs takeshita ]

takeshita dont fall for the handshake!! HE FELL FOR IT NOOO its cool seeing a rare MJF Match™ hes doing all the bits. ref shield im anti-spraytan. come on dude just dont have it wow the crowd is loud. what are they saying? lets go nashville nashville sucks??? BITING... unhinged takeshita is cool. im a little mad i got the uh. wrong ddt tickets for march though -_- ok i lied im pretty mad. im obsessed with how mad i am. im not going to get over it forever what a good bit that lead into the deadlift german suplex. takeshita is soooooo strong mjf so smug. your hubris!! ok im gonna need to see that midair corner flip thing again. what the. how did he end up on his feet so smoothly and nonchalantly hes doing a lot of this "psyche!!! IM FINE ACTUALLY!!!!!" stuff. its fun i like it. ARMBAR!!!!!!! BITING i think mjf is a good wrestler. i like to see him wrestle, which is rarely, because he rarely wrestles. takeshita bare knee attack. rolled ref shield part TWO his knee attack is silly looking im sorry aha! knee damage revenge!!! unless hes doing some sort of pretending-to-sell thing like how hes been doing this whole time ok takeshitas powerbomb thing ruled senton!! i am so scared every time i see one ok thrusting armbar? real mad he lost to garcia in the tumblr babygirl tournament huh

lmfao the catcall from the crowd when he put away his ring oh! its danielson omg takeshita bladed from the ring??? hes all blooded now LMAO NOO THE CAMERA CAUGHT THE BLADEPASS...

[ samoa joe video promo ]

samoa joe is just like "im gonna beat you up wardlow" joe i have to say thank you for giving wardlow a haircut

[ the bunny vs jamie hayter ]

the bunny!! she had a big match a while ago she had to cancel due to illness or injury, right? itll be cool to see this match hayter's hair buns look cool. theyre like lil animal ears. nekomimi ringrope leg choke :)c what is britt baker doing with this gatorade sign. advertisement? LMAO "how did u like that jamie" taking turns doing apron combat ohhhhhh thats a hayterade sign i get it now oof the bunny had hayter land right on her face huh that ended fast... <:( i hope shes good

[ backstage with saraya and toni storm ]

dang saraya pulling out the babygirl nice ok thats like 4 babygirls in short succession. cmon dont wear it out ladies youre gonna need to learn how to spraypaint Ls if youre gonna make this your thing. distance and speed im just being a hater u_u they will have to win me over from square one

[ backstage with mjf ]

hey nice its an mjf interview lmao ok the blood on the armwraps buddy? sick and twisted mjf hes damp. hes talking about picking up girls in his car but im kinda distracted by how he kinda looks like wolverine with his hair and beard where is this going mjf oh i see. he is telling a story about how he is a real scumbag badguy, criminal style im sorry hold on im not doing my part as an audience member and believing his fake story. give me a second to internalize it

[ ricky starks vs the JAS gauntlet ]

oh he has to fight all of them in succession? that would explain why this angelo parker match was short i dont know if they explained it on commentary i was still trying to suspend my disbelief enough to be angered at mjf's story about being evil and unforgivable matt menard got mopped up i love garcia :) i dont love sammy guevara but hes making garcia suffer and i can appreciate that part nooo i love rickys spear dont counter it with a headlock. garciaaaaaaa whoa stood up into big powerbomb. ricky is so strong i will say this every time someone slowly lifts another person up. sorry wait what the hell??? why do they have to do this to ricky. god

[ backstage with the acclaimed ]

bowens a little somber here

[ backstage with danielson and takeshita ]

uh oh. they locked him in is danielson gonna walk out with door fragments because thatd be cool his. tracksuit we've reached critical babygirl calls tonight. no more babygirl. dont ruin babygirl for me oh he just shouldered down the door regular style. thats fine too aubrey you could count slower. whats mjf gonna do? enroll in referee school and come back in time to count him out??? danielson appeared that was a really loud chair dropkick oh no hes blee-- DONT LICK THAT AUGH THANK YOU AUBREY blood on da camera lens its hard to pay attention to this match between the action and also the active commentary i can only ever pay attention to one at a time omg that tumble off the apron rush stop taking a shower during your matches lmfao mjf and taz are just chit chatting right now mjf is in casual chat mode its funny. hes not doing his mjf voice as much danielson looks sooooo red and pink right now. wild. good color what a match

oh mjf is so mad hes fighting off all the security!! good. nice

[ backstage with the uh. impractical jokers ]

i hate the impractical jokers btw. i cant handle that much secondhand embarrassment. so i am not enjoying this crossover i am enjoying the distant match happening in the background i didnt have time to get lunch before dynamite and my friend had connection issues during so we're just barely behind enough to skipping through the commercial breaks. im so hungry

[ ar fox + top flight vs the elite ]

wait is this the main event. this is going to be a hella long match dante with the verticality the three flipmasters are here and theyre fighting against the young bucks, also flipmasters. i dont think kenny is a flipmaster? but he sure can wrestle ive been informed that the acclaimed match also exists. im sorry acclaimed i forgot. to be fair im just afraid of them losing the belts lmao ar fox following through to senton on nick(?) back to back jumping outta the ring attacks those kinds of corner backflipping slams, i never know who is the one taking the brunt of the damage there HOW does dante just gain altitude while being horizontal matt jackson with the triple pin god lmao YES top flight teamwork moves :)c and then the elite win. well it wasnt gonna turn out any other way

[ hook video promo ]

this is an extremely quiet video oh its just a "hook is a cool guy" video

[ stokely backstage ]

hes mad at hook!? LMAO HOOK ok i get it. i like this

[ main event time! acclaimed vs gunn club ]

wow we caught up to live yo listen the gunns are in so much glitter right now lmao excalibur criticizing himself during pip... schiavone is right youll get another chance to pronounce picture in picture king i am zoned into this match. or zoned out of it. no reports man bowens really getting into it time for everyone to just lie down for a bit OH NO!!!!!!! THE REF GASP!!!!!!!!! BILLY GUNN OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no way billy goes back to them. they hit him with a belt yeah!!! kill them acclaimed!!!!!! slow count ref debuff NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ?????????????????????????????????????????????????

billy gunn holding bowens' hand............

#livezon

[silverquillsideas]

Hi...if you don't mind me asking who are your top 10 favorite anime couples (can be canon or fanon)? And why? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....

Hi! Oof this is another tricky one lol.... The way I ship is basically in two ways : obsess over ships from shows I'm currently watching for a few weeks/months, and then the love sort of fades away :3

OR find my OTPs and consistently obsess for years :D

So, the following list contains both my current/older ships and some of my OTPs :P

Naruto/Sasuke

My OTP of all OTPs. The love of my shipper life 😍 I have so many bones to pick with Naruto as a media/show, but I'll be grateful it gave me SNS, I'll never stop being in awe of their unparalleled story :')

Victor/Yuuri

Canon, comfort pairing, sweetness to the max. Victuuri is like that soft blanket u tuck yourself into in winter mornings, or that cup of hot cocoa you sip while sitting on a windowsill. They warm my heart <3

Bakudeku

Lolll can u tell I have a type? I'm a goner for childhood friends (+rivals) to lovers tropes, and bkdk has that and SO MUCH more. Someday, I'll read the bnha manga from start to finish just because of these two :')

Royai

The only het ship in anime I can respect, besides Sakura and Syaoran from Cardcaptor Sakura 😌 they are the royal couple, so to speak. So much of shared history, trauma between them. Yet will give up their lives for each other, the trust and faith and sheer badassery of this ship is just ❤️

Touya/Yukito

My first ever ship at age 14, the very first time I discovered that two boys can fall in love w each other and that's okay too!! I can't express how grateful I am to Cardcaptor Sakura for being basically the show which made me fall in love w anime, and introducing me to the glorious concept of *ahem* BL 👀

Iwaoi

Another freaking amazing ship. My favourite ship in haikyuu!! This one ticks so many of my boxes : childhood friends to lovers, teammates who trust e/o unconditionally, and pull each other up, the idiot A and serious/responsible B 😂 Two people who basically spend their whole lives together :*3 and look at them!!! The dorks!!! 😍

Miyuki/Chris

This one came outta nowhere and totally hooked me in. Idk what it is about them : the potential angst, the misunderstandings, the rivalry and respect as fellow teammates, Chris' trauma about having his place snatched by this brilliant kid he helped scout....just...so much shared past :3 I'm sorry miyusawa fans, while I like it too, this one just took the top spot for me from DNA :')

Soukoku

BSD was a huge obsession in 2019, and soukoku undoubtedly became one of my fav ships. Self explanatory : rivals / long time friends / only two ppl who keep each other sane / the daily bickering like a married couple / Dazai giving awful nicknames to Chuuya and teasing him all the time and so much more 😂 they're simultaneously both clowns, as well as two traumatised individuals complementing e/o

Saigenos

Cute and hilarious ship honestly. But has the potential to be angsty and serious too. This was a short hyperfixation a while ago, and I still remember it fondly ❤️

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A confession at the end : I had to exclude some of my other, more beloved ships, because the tumblr crowd is.... Let's say, too delicate to handle those lmfao 👀 I don't want delusional antis to come screeching with pitchforks at my blog, so I'll stick to the softer ships 😂

#yuri on ice #victuri #naruto #opm #bnha #bakudeku #daiya no ace #bsd #soukoku #toyuki #cardcaptor sakura #haikyuu!! #iwaoi #fmab #royai #asks

[irkenheretic]

Q R S (fic asks)

Q: Do you have any discarded scenes/storylines/projects?

oh my god, okay there's a LOT of these lmao

there was this one razr-type thing i was gonna do that sorta paralleled lethal inspection from futurama? that never ended up happening. i have a couple oneshots that i never ended up writing (a dark take on "tall!zim," a trope i dont like, and a dark take on those fics that have zim in a romance with skoodge but skoodge is nice and zim is Bad and needs to be Fixed) but i think i Will write those at some point lest my friends come for my head

with my au... ive worked on it for exactly two years now! the second anniversary was a couple days ago, how the time flies~ but with all that time, a LOT of things changed

first, the name from annexed to anarchisma, obviously. second, all my friends know and are exasperated by all the constant rewrites of chapter 1 of fic 1, i think for like over a year all ive been doing is rewriting this one specific thing lmfao

the biggest change was that i made it so that instead of smeethood friends, red and purple met each other as tallests. i did this so they could have secrets for Plot Reasons and also red's utter isolation as a smeet was the main reason why he ended up so traumatized so him having an irl friend wouldve seriously fucked up that isolation. (he had zim, but he was an online friend and due to the shitty internet on red's home planet, they didn't talk as often as red needed to.) but this also like, fucked up the entire timeline so i have to redo it. the main change was instead of bouncing off a canon character, red has to basically carry the first fic by himself. like, theres an oc, but im worried about his ability to carry a fic

speaking of that oc (his name is carl,) he was originally supposed to kill himself. no, really! for like a year i didnt develop him too much lest i get attached to him and now.... poof! he lives! and now im not sure what to do with him since yk... he was supposed to die? but now he's alive. so what the fuck does he do in the story? where does he go?? what do i do with this stupid dumbass prick??

also in terms of ocs, theres an oc named Q that's supposed to be zim's love interest in this one fic, but i cant... characterize them well. which... they're a sona. i guess im worried that if i give them too much to do, they'll be seen as a stupid mary sue? but then as it stands right now, they have way too little to do and theres no reason an audience should be invested in what happens to them, which is bad since for like 2 fics theyre a deteruagonist.... including a pretty funny sequence with purple honestly. so i need to get over myself and characterize this cunt, like, now

also around december the control brains in anarchisma underwent a HUGE overhaul and with that, the entire plot, so there was that as a big change, but all this is pretty spoilery territory since it comes WAY later in the story than carl and Q

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

listing every single piece of media that ive consumed to get a better feel for specifically anarchisma would take way too fucking long so im just gonna list some fanfics that do something really well and what that thing is

im not gonna bother with getting links because this is taking so long to do as-is ;A;

so first ersatz, its really good with situational ooc and making it seem extremely believable whats going on, and i love it so much that mirforn, a drug in that fic, is actually in anarchisma as an anti-withdrawl drug ^^; in short supply is in that same vein, situational ooc and just really good characterization and prose. drifters au is good for characterization of specifically zim and the tallest together, and the febuwhump stuff (which isnt drifters but yk) has a lot of those "softer" moments that i like and want to emulate. harder better faster taller i love for the worldbuilding around it and the prose itself, a funny thing i noticed is that it has a few similarities to anarchisma- theyre not carbon copies of each other but they are kinda similar down to the moth-themed original species with a name that starts with an F and ends with an -ie, so i do look to it for inspiration but not too much since i dont want to inadvertently copy it, yk? also yes canvas is a ref for red's addiction problems specifically. what of it. i dont go back and refer to it as often but that was the foundation on which all the Addiction Headcanons were built on. firewall is a ref for specifically the computer and his dynamic with zim, its hard to have a character be a caretaker/parental figure to an adult character without it feeling infantilizing or unnecessary so firewall is kinda my bleuprint, eeeven tho that part in anarchisma is pretty minor. btw i dont get inspiration from these fics just for anarchisma, they inspire my other stuff too!

S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?

oh i am an absolute SUCKER for "zim finds out the truth" plots, my ffn favorites are filled with 'em i think! also i fuckin love either enemies/rivals to lovers rapr or old bitchy gay couple rapr that shit is SO good. also anything razr like theres so little i cant afford to be picky with it just Give It To Me Give It To Me NOW!! i also like the idea of rebellion fics but i dont like the execution of most of them so myeh!! i also really like post-florpus stuff surrounding the tallest specifically? like... what was it like in the florpus hole? when did they pop out? how were they affected? i also reAlly like explorations on defect stuff that stuff is just so interesting to me

#AA SDKNJKSDF TIS WAS SO LONG THIS IS SO LONG #TY FOR ASKING THO I HAD FUN #now calling the tallest

[purplesurveys]

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survey by nadine07

[..Introductions..]

First Name: Robyn.

Middle Name: I don’t think I’ve shared it on here and I doubt I will.

Last Name: Not providing it either but it starts with a C.

Birthdate: April 21st.

[..First Things First..]

What was the first thing you did after you got up? I rushed to the rooftop so that I could see the sunrise. I also got in the random mood to do a time-lapse of it, but the sun took forrrrrrrr-freaking-ever to come up entirely. I was holding up my phone for like 15 minutes and nothing was happening, so I quit halfway through lol.

What was the name of your first pet? Goldie, because it was a goldfish.

Who was your first big crush? Gabie, I would say.

Where was the first place you drove after you got your license? Chelsea’s 18th birthday dinner was scheduled right after I happened to get my license, and the event took place in a small, quaint little restaurant in Marikina. 

There’s a bit of a funny story here, too – Aaron needed a ride to get there and so I offered to drive him. I picked him up and we were having small talk in the car, and he asked me how long I’ve been driving. I told him that moment was my literal first time driving out and that I just got my license the day before, and he is my first-ever passenger (at that point I’ve never even tried driving solo yet). The horror and immediate distrust on his face was something I will never forget HAHAHA. We got to the place unharmed, but it’s still one of my favorite stories to tell.

Who was your very first friend? It was a kind girl named Kaye back in kindergarten. We were always next to each other in our class lists, so it was inevitable for us to befriend one another. She transferred schools in first grade and I have not seen nor heard from her since.

What was the first thing you ate today? I had another bag of salted egg chips. I’m extremely hooked, lmao.

What was your first job? I work as an associate at a PR agency.

[..Colors..]

Name something red in the room you are in: We have an unopened bottle of wine here on the dining table and there’s still a red ribbon wrapped around it.

Is orange one of your school's team colors? No, neither of my schools had orange as one of its colors.

How many yellow shirts do you own? I can think of 5 tops hanging out in my wardrobe at the moment. Two of them are class shirts from high school; the others were tops I bought when I started getting into mustard yellow.

Name someone you know who drives a green car: I believe Angel, a classmate from high school who also studies in UP, also drives a Mitsubishi Mirage, albeit a lime green one.

Is it a blue sky outside right now? Yes for the most part, but the sun is setting soon so the sky is bound to change into many pretty colors as it usually does at this time of the day.

What is the first thing that pops into your head when I say 'purple'? Barney the dinosaur, and ube.

Are the walls in the room you're in white? Yes, all our walls indoors are white.

Does black make you think of depressing things? Not always, but if used specifically in that context, it definitely helps boosts the mood.

Jewelry: gold or silver? Silverrr, always.

[..Phone Stuff..]

Who is your provider? Nothing you would be familiar with, but I use Globe.

How long have you had your current phone? It’ll be three years this year. It would be nice to upgrade, but I’m also still happy with my current phone so it doesn’t really matter to me.

What did your last text say? The last one that came through that didn’t come from my mobile services provider was from someone in the media. It was his birthday last Friday and I messaged him if he’d like to receive a gift from us, on behalf of one of our clients; he just replied with his confirmation and details.

If you woke up naked next to the last person to call, would it be awkward? Yep and I’d feel like throwing up almost immediately.

Was your last missed call male or female? It was from my mom.

Who is your 10th phone contact? It’s from Jum, who I realize is still listed as Ate Jum on my phone. That’s cute hahaha; I must have gotten her number when we weren’t super close yet. Anyway, she’s been super MIA for like the last two years...basically, ever since she graduated. I believe she has also since moved back to Bicol, so it’s become virtually impossible to see her again. Bums me out and I look forward to the day we somehow end up in the same room once again.

How did you meet them? I met her in my very first journalism major class. I had mixed feelings towards her at first since I found her to be super loud in class, and I initially thought she would only be a one-time classmate and nothing more; but I got to know her more and we even ended up as orgmates, and it turns out she is literally the most hilarious person I know.

Are you related to your 17th phone contact? I have absolutely no clue who it is. I no longer remember what led to it, but Gabie and I swapped the SIM cards in our phones at one point, and for some reason it made me have access to her contacts; the 17th contact on my phone is someone from her list. And since I never hang out in my Contacts app, I’ve never gotten around to deleting those extra numbers I received.

How long have you known your 1st phone contact? Around 6th or 7th grade. I can’t remember the exact grade level she transferred to my school as a new student.

When was the last time you saw them? It’s been at least a year. I remember seeing her on campus very briefly when I was on my way to a certain building for class, while she was walking out of it.

Who is your 4th phone contact? LMAO, again, it’s from her contact list. Said person is one of her older cousins, I believe.

Have you ever kissed that person? No, and that is very weird and uncomfortable to think about.

When was the last time someone drunk dialed/texted/left a voicemail? Andi drunk messaged me a few months ago. November, I think.

[..Friends..]

Who is your #1? No Myspace but I’d say my top best friend is Angela.

How long have you known them? It will be 16 years this year.

Have you ever kissed? Oh my gosh, hell no. It would be like kissing a sister haha. She’s super affectionate and will sometimes kiss my shoulder or cheek, though.

Are you dating this person? No, never did and never desired to.

Do you have nicknames for each other? Not really exclusive to each other, but I call her Anj (and only a few people call her so) and she will occasionally call me Reben or Rolayn, both from past inside jokes.

What is your #2's full name? I am not sharing that, but I refer to them as Andi (you may remember them as Andrew from the past times I’ve mentioned them).

Do they live within 20 minutes of you? If there is zero traffic, I can probably make it to their place within that timeframe, yeah. But realistically, no they don’t.

How did you meet? We initially met in an anti-Marcos protest/rally – I approached they first because they had a wrestling shirt on, heheh – and that’s when I learned we were from the same college. But they rubbed me off the wrong way from our first meeting as they were too extroverted for my liking, and I spent a good chunk of time ignoring him whenever we crossed paths, lmfao. Eventually we were put in the same class at some point, and they even joined my org, and an intensely close friendship started from there.

Could you live with this person? Sure. I think they would never be a boring roommate.

Who is your #3? I’m gonna go with Kate for this one.

Where are they right now? I have no idea. We don’t really catch up with each other’s lives on a regular basis; we have a very chill, low-maintenance friendship.

When is this person's birthday? January 1st.

Has this person ever seen you naked? I don’t think so.

What is your #4's full name? I don’t think I have a 4th-tier best friend haha, but I’m gonna pick Tina.

When did you last see them? Last year, on the last normal day I was able to be on campus. She was set to present one of her projects at a journalism conference that was taking place in campus that day, but I was able to hang out with her for a short time before the event.

Have they ever dated one of your other friends? No. I knew she had a crush on someone from the college, though.

Do you know their favorite movie? I’m not sure about her favorite movie but I do know she loves Adam Sandler. I was never able to figure out if her interest was ironic or genuine but yeah, she enjoys a good number of his works.

[..Randomosity..]

What time is it? 6:20 PM.

Are you supposed to be doing something other than this? I wouldn’t say so. I do have deliverables for work but since it’s the weekend, I’m not thinking about them nor do I have the desire to touch those tasks until Monday.

Do you live on your own or with your parents? I live with my family. Considering my monthly income, it’d be close to impossible to sustain myself in my own place this early in my adult life.

Are you more of a cat or a dog person? Dog, for sure.

Are you allergic to anything? I don’t believe so.

Does your shirt have anything written on it? Yeah, it says “UP Fighting Maroons” styled in a varsity font since that’s the term for our sports team.

Have you ever tie-dyed something? I have, but only back in like Grade 6 when we had to do it for a home ec class. I remember wanting to buy a tie-dye set recently so I could revisit the activity, but I never got around to it.

Who can you always count on to cheer you up? Angela for the most part; but I also don’t want to be too reliant on my friends in this way. Sometimes I simply allow myself to be sad or upset, and sometimes I count on myself to cheer up.

How many places have you been today? I have been nowhere but at home today lol. I’ll be going to BGC tomorrow to have lunch with my godfather and my cousins, though.

Are you a forgiving person? No.

When was the last time you felt let down? Last night when I read the news that the government will be making All Souls’ Day, Christmas Eve, and New Year’s Eve working days this year. I already know I’ll be half-assing my way through those days lmao because whyyyyyyy the fuck would you make people work on family-centric holidays such as those

What is the title of the nearest book to you? There are no books here at the rooftop.

Are you wearing anything that belongs to someone else? Nope.

Can you whistle? Only through my lips. I can’t do the kind of whistle where you put your fingers in your mouth as well.

Do you look more like your mother or your father? My mom.

Are you still in high school? I’m well past that chapter.

Are you the oldest, middle, youngest, or an only child? I’m the eldest.

Has anyone ever told you that you talk in your sleep? No, because I don’t.

How many people have you kissed this year? None.

Is there anyone of the opposite sex you trust fully? Hmm, no one comes to mind.

Are you a night owl or an early bird? More of a night owl.

If you could have an exotic pet, what would it be? No thanks. I’ve never had the desire to have one.

Would you rather go to Brazil for the weekend or Finland for a month? I’d have to go with Finland. I feel like the cultural differences would be a lot more marked, plus the vacation is longer so that is an instant win for me.

[..And Finally..]

Where did you go the last time you drove somewhere? I was driving to the local coffee shop to spend some time with myself, and do a liiiiiiiittle bit of work as well.

Where did you last go out to eat at? Ramen Nagi. I was initially hesitant to show up there and ask for a table for one on a Sunday evening...but it turned out to feel incredibly empowering and freeing. It was definitely awkward at first, but it got a lot easier once I realized literally no one gives a fuck. Or if they did, they didn’t do anything about it and let me mind my own business. That evening was a crucial step in reclaiming my happiness, so I’m glad I made the choice to suck it up and enter the restaurant.

When was the last time you let someone borrow something from you? Last week, when Angela needed our abaca mat as an aesthetic for her grad shoot.

Was your last breakup a bad one? Yes.

What was the last song you listened to? Just checked my Spotify and the current song I have on pause is Descansos by Hayley Williams. 

What was the last movie you watched? Midsommar.

Did your last kiss happen in a public place? Not technically, but it did take place outside of my house so we were outdoors for some neighbors to see.

How did you meet the last person to leave you a comment? It was Andi, and I already explained how we met earlier in this survey.

#survey #surveys

[bigskydreaming]

fhalkfhaklfhlkak i hate this

TW really truly literally ruined the word ‘spark’ for me. Like the whole damn word. I hear it now and I’m like, NOPE, like...idk, some people who cringe when they hear the word moist or panties. Apologies to anyone who hates those words and cringed, i dont actually know if thats a thing or if like, I just have weird friends. Probably just the latter.

But anyways, Im just like...lmfao. Its so visceral too? Like I have this one original project, Waveriders, that I’ve been fiddling with off and on in the background of other projects for awhile, might have talked about it on here, idk, I don’t keep track. 

Basically its a far future sci-fi novel/setting for linked shorter works set on a gas giant that was settled by humans who figured that they can’t possibly be stepping on anyone’s toes there, its a freaking gas giant, hello, no one’s home, right? They literally have to make their own ground by using technology to form anti-gravity wells in the habitable zone of the atmosphere and like, make floating cities and then these kind of buoys scattered across the planet that create these electromagnetic currents that flow in specific ‘routes’ between the cities, and people travel between them in these flying ships that use magnetized hulls and solar sails to ride these currents, and blah blah blah, yada yada yada, bc like, why would I resist an opportunity to have floating cities and sky pirates and ancient cyborg machine dragons? Doesn’t make sense. 

Anyway, so couple thousand years after settling this planet, and by then for Plotty Reasons there are people who have what’s called waveriding abilities, like they can ‘hack’ certain wavelengths or types of energy and manipulate them in various ways, but only one kind of energy per person, and they each have their own little names and niches. 

So, y’know, basically just like ATLA, except for like, its energy powers and there are cyborg machine dragons and floating cities and sky pirates, obvsly. Plus areas of totally fucked up gravity called the badlands that are all like, criminal underworld metropolis because normal people are like lol nope, we like it when up is up and down is down, all of this is very just...nope. And also because shocking and totally unexpected plot twist, they were totally wrong about the planet being uninhabited just cuz it didn’t have Earth type ground...like, so in addition and on top of and in conjunction with all of the above and whatnot, there are these beings called Chaos Angels, that are basically like sentient quantum waveforms that can take any shape or appearance, but just, have no physical substance and yet are really good at faking that they’re not totally there when they fuck with humans, which they do a lot, because well. Why not, y’know?

But other than that, its exactly like ATLA. I’m a derivative hack. I disgust myself, truly I do.

BUT the point of this particular synaptic misfire aka ADHD ramble, is that so, okay, these different types of not!benders are all called waveriders as an overall umbrella term, but with ten different subsets of this in total, right? So people who can ‘hack’ light and manipulate it in various ways are called brightriders, and people who are tuned into soundwaves are called echo-riders, and some can manipulate the more electricity-skewed side of the electromagnetic spectrum and those are shockriders and the ones who skew more to the magnetic side are steelriders but I’m probably gonna change that because it sounds like a porno? Yeah no, just saw it outside of my notes for the first time and can confirm, definitely sounds like a porno so they’re not gonna be called steel-riders, but they will be called something steel-rider-esque. You get it.

And then there are the five weird ones that people aren’t totally quite sure how their waveriding shticks work because the kinds of energy they hack aren’t like....the kinds that work in the same way as the others with their easily discernible and patternistic wavelengths, and scientists and scholars are always arguing like but skyriders aren’t even in the same FIELD as the other waverider types because gravity isn’t even an actual ENERGY, just because we talk about gravity waves doesn’t mean they’re remotely the same thing as lightwaves, they make no SENSE, and I’m just like hahaha, I am your god, fictional scientists. Fucking deal with it. Plus it does make sense, you just don’t know the Secret Rules and Logistics that I do, pfft. 

Anyway, so the other types are boomriders who hack kinetic energy and skyriders of course obviously manipulate gravity, and then the last three are really weird, and super rare and thus don’t really have set names and just have lots of nicknames and are often just thought to be rumors. So those are the bio-riders who manipulate chemical energy though it often gets mistakenly referred to or just handwaved as being ‘life energy’ as though that’s a thing, ugh future way advanced people are so dumb sometimes, honestly. But so they can manipulate biological processes in various ways and do things with healing and also hurting, and basically just don’t piss one off ever. Like. You’ll die. And then there’s the psi-riders, who are essentially psychics and hack brainwaves, and I’m not at all bitter that I lack the balls to just go for broke and call them ghost riders like I want to, because ghost riders obviously sounds way cooler?? But also, Marvel would definitely sue?? Because they’re just, like that. 

And like, the last of the Weird Ones are the ones so super rare and also so hard to actually....tell if someone actually IS one, that most people think they don’t actually even exist and are just an unsubstantiated like, theoretical idea some scientist had once while high and then just, never shut up about so eventually the idea caught on. And those are the quantum-riders, or luck-riders, basically they theoretically manipulate quantum wavelengths in ways that are almost impossible to identify, like theoretically they wouldn’t even know they were doing it? Anyway, so lots of times, what are actually quantum-riders are just jealously thought to be like, really fucking lucky assholes. Even though the way their powers work really don’t have anything to do with luck or even probability, specifically, like that’s a simplistic approximation and its more like they manipulate possibilities but also shut up me, nobody cares.

ANYWAY, people who can count and who actually bothered to would probably notice by now like the funky little geniuses they are that all of those still only adds up to nine. And that’s because of the last one, the one that SHOULD go up in the brightrider, shockrider, notpornIswear!steel-rider hierarchy or taxidermy or whatever the fuck. And these are the ones who manipulate what’s essentially thermal energy, or more accurately the microwave-skewing side of the ultraviolet spectrum whereas brightriders are just the ones who skew more to the infrared side of it.

And the long and short of all of this Unnecessary-ness and the source of my fit of pique and ensuing ramble-palooza....is that ORIGINALLY, they were SUPPOSED to be called sparkriders.

But OBVIOUSLY I can’t call them that anymore, because like. I tried, and I was like ugh you drama queen slash whiny pissbaby, it was just a shitty teen supernatural show and SPARK WAS NEVER EVEN CANON, do not let THEM win and ruin a perfectly good classification name! But I did. I did let it ruin them, and its. Well. Its a problem, because I kept thinking up ways to kill off the sparkrider characters for absolutely no reason at all instead of like....thinking up ways to make the plot do what it was outlined to do in their parts of the story.

This may come like, way out of left field, and just SHOCK and STUN and BEWILDER some of you, like....no way, srsly? But yeah, true story, among my many canon mental neuroses like ADHD, PTSD, magical depression hour and super fun anxiety like....there is a tiny possibility (aka actual diagnosis) that while I don’t talk about this much, or ever really, I do have a smidge of ye old OCD? Its not like, a big thing and doesn’t really affect my daily routines and that’s pretty much why I never usually bring it up or list it alongside the rest of the crap on my neurodivergence resumé or whatever, because like, there’s already WAY too many misconceptions out there about what OCD actually is and what constitutes it, and tons of people are always jokingly but also thinking they’re kinda half serious, like ‘oh I’m so OCD about this and this and that’ and its like. LOL. Are you though? You sure?

Anyway, but point being, the way mine manifests for me is like...not actually a problem? Like, I don’t actually have any REAL complaints about it at all, just half-assed little fits of pique ones like this, which is the other part of why I never bring it up, because too often ppl just can’t fathom that OCD or even any kind of neurodivergence can be...WANTED, or a good thing, and lololol, that’s ableism, folks. But its true, I don’t actually mind mine at all, even if it occasionally makes things frustrating, when I get stuck like I am now. But the flip side of it is....its actually a pretty huge part of my creativity and just the way my mind works in general....like, what people accredit to me being particularly insightful about character analysis or drawing connections or stuff like that in meta or fics or my novels or worldbuilding...that’s what it is. That’s my OCD in action. 

My brain like...REQUIRES that I find patterns in....pretty much everything. Even day to day mundane stuff too, though like I said, its mild enough there that it doesn’t fuck with my routines too much, but like, I have to order things into nice, neat patterns and groupings. And if there aren’t any that are immediately obvious, I kinda pretty much HAVE to dig deeper until I find some on a slightly deeper level, something beneath the surface or first glance, and keep going until I find something.....or worst case scenario, I have to like....add stuff and embellish and fill in gaps with my own ‘content’ until I have the rough edges rounded off into something that CAN be stacked neatly atop some other part of the story or whatever it is I’m focusing on? And the obsessive-compulsive part for me is like, lol, I gotta find it SOMEWHERE, SOMEHOW. 

My brain literally won’t shut off or grudgingly accept being diverted to a different subject until I’ve made some kind of pattern or flowchart or classification system. It will literally keep me up for hours, going over the same things over and over from every angle until I find SOME way to....reassemble or restructure it in some nice, neat little order of some type. I mean that’s basically what it is. My brain insists on me forming some semblance of order out of any glimpse I have of what I would otherwise term creative chaos. And it won’t give up until it gets what it wants, which when you throw in my ADHD and how often I’ll get derailed off on slight tangents but with my OCD then sooner or later forcing me back to the original focus, rinse and repeat ad nauseam....like. LOL. I learned to operate on very little sleep from a pretty young age by necessity, its just...my brain, dudes. Its just like that.

But the perks are like, I pretty much think this is WHY I’m so creative....because my brain, for as long as I can remember, has always just kinda....forced me to be? Also probably has a lot to do with well...eh, I don’t need to talk about that right now. Whatever. Anyway, point being, so....I do like the end results very much so, and for all its....Why Must You Be Like This eccentricities, I’m quite attached to my brain and would not be very likely to agree to a trade even were one possible. I mean don’t get me wrong, I could do without the PTSD and anxiety, if we’re just, like....talking some pruning shears or whatever, but the actual creative machinery, I’m keeping. Ultimately it just means I really fucking like patterns and finding patterns or making patterns where previously there were none, or at least none that were easy to spot.

But ugh, man, these are the rare times when I’m like omg, just call it a day, we don’t ACTUALLY have to come up with the perfect replacement name for that one relatively small and insignificant detail of a much larger story that isn’t even in the Top Ten list of my main priorities at the moment. And my asshole of a brain is just like....yeah no, we gotta. You know the rules dude, you decided it was official, that name didn’t work anymore and was never gonna, so now we gotta find a replacement or else things will be UNEVEN?? The pattern will be...missing a piece? There will be CHAOS AND ANARCHY IN THE STREETS THAT RUNNETH OVER WITH BLOOD? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT??

And so I’m like....literally sitting here googling synonyms for spark because I’m just like that sometimes, lmfao. Oh and of course its gotta be a GOOD replacement, naturally. I can’t just shoehorn in a somewhat acceptable substitute that in the back of my mind I’m expecting to only be temporary, until I come up with something better. See, because my brain will KNOW, and it will NOT be okay with that, because that is CHEATING. And my brain, apparently, has strong feelings about cheating, which is weird and fairly unexpected of me, IMO.

Anyway, kudos to anyone who actually read through that instead of scrolling, I honestly have zero idea why I felt like sharing it, I just did and thus I did. *shrugs* 

[writingwaynes]

Let Scarlett Johansson do what she fucking wants lol she’s an actress, that’s what she’s supposed to do. If she plays a minority, she’s stepping out of her comfort zone and doing much more than whiny SJWs like you ever will.

LMFAO

1) you’ll be happy to know that scarjo is a privileged white woman in hollywood that’s had a track record of not caring abt the roles she’s stolen so she’s just gonna do whatever she wants anyway regardless of criticism! there’s no need to worry abt my insignificant disapproval stopping her, anon! so feel free to continue kissing her ass while i’m pissed off bc i’m allowed to be and u can just get off my acc if ur so upset abt me criticizing ur fave!

2) she’s not “stepping out of her comfort zone”, she’s crossing a line she has no business crossing. idk what in god’s name convinced this white woman she should play an asian woman and now a trans man, but she has no right or reason to do so. scarjo is VERY successful. she’s in the biggest cinematic franchise today and she’s getting a solo film as one of the most iconic female comic characters. she DOES NOT need more roles as she’s clearly not struggling.

but u know who is struggling and will continue struggling if ppl don’t criticize the entertainment industry until they acknowledge their mistakes and make a conscious effort to be better? countless asian actresses who were robbed the role of motoko kusanagi in ghost in the shell. and now, countless trans men who are being robbed a role in rub and tug. and the list goes on to literally every other minority as well! none of us are getting the rep we need and deserve

the entertainment industry is definitely not short of actors from marginalized groups, yet they choose to cast privileged white actors time and time again. and the worst part is, scarjo is one of them and ~~newsflash~~ she has the power to make decisions!!!! so she could definitely decide to turn these roles down to give up and coming actors the opportunity! but she doesn’t!!!! and it fucking sucks!

hollywood would rather invest money in cgi to make scarjo look more asian for ghost in the shell than cast an asian woman. hollywood would rather change motoko kusanagi’s name to “major” because oooh the western world is too scared of pronouncing ~exotic~ asian names so we have to hold their hands and baby them by making foreign content as white as possible because apparently ppl in the west can’t interpret narrative unless it’s through a eurocentric lense. hollywood would rather cast a cishet woman to play a trans man because ooooh they want to fill their woke quota but casting actual trans ppl might turn ppl away so they’d rather cast ms. already-popular-and-pretty-scarjo to make the role seem more attractive to reluctant audiences. hollywood rlly sucks! but she equally sucks bc through this shitstorm, she‘s complacent. she doesn’t seem to see any problem with taking these roles and it has to stop because as long as she allows herself to do this and as long as ppl just let her without criticism, the longer the industry as a whole can get away with refusing to actually diversify their content.

3) if widdle ol’ scarjo’s feelings are more important to u than thousands of ppl in minority groups missing out on the privilege of seeing themselves accurately represented in the media they consume, then u rlly gotta sort out ur priorities. to this day, i have NEVER seen someone like me on the big screen and in case i haven’t drilled this into ur head yet, lemme remind u that that is the reality for plenty of other minorities as well. and i guarantee u, that experience sucks a whole lot more than scarjo missing out on the chance to “step out of her comfort zone”

4) she’s a fucking adult who’s been in that industry for quite awhile. she’s fully aware of what she’s doing and she makes the deliberate choice to keep doing it. u don’t have to baby her.

5) sure, as an actress, it is indeed her job to act! thanks for dropping that knowledge!! BUT as a social elite and a self proclaimed feminist, one of her responsibilities is using her privilege to help pave a way for the minorities she claims to support. and she hasn’t done that lmao

6) yknow i genuinely liked her before! i loved her in Her and i thought she was great as black widow. i didn’t pop out the womb as a screaming scarjo-anti (and i’m NOT a scarjo anti rn). but i can recognize when someone does shitty things and drop them. OR if i really like someone, i can recognize that as a fan, i don’t have to shove my head up their ass and pretend they’re perfect! i can still criticize them and hope that they take what their fans say into account in the future! revolutionary, i know!

and 7) LMFAOOOOOO x2

#and now i’m goin to bed #peace out ✌🏻 #answered #anon

[thatbutlerwriting]

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About Me

Alias: Astre

Age: 20+

Gender: nonbinary (he/they)

Faceclaim: Yamato Kurosawa (Sukitte ii na yo); icons from aihasuicons

Faves: Noah’s Ark Circus Troupe, Grell, Ronald

OTP: me x Joker lmfao

NOTP: Sebastian x Grell

Other: I will protect Doll with my gotdamn life, fight me. Sebastian is trash and I can’t stand him.

Rules

This blog is here so that people can have fun. If I see any sort of bullying, I will not hesitate to turn anon off and block the users I see doing it.

That being said, my rules are quite simple, and I ask that you obey them.

First and foremost, THIS IS AN ALL INCLUSIVE BLOG. You ship SebaCiel? Cool. You ship CielLizzy? Cool. You’re trans? Cool. Bi? Cool. Nonbinary? Cool. I will NOT tolerate hate of any kind, especially toward my followers. This includes ship hate, body shaming, and discrimination of any kind.

That being said, I will let it be known I am uncomfortable with otherkin for very, very personal reasons. Please do not reblog my art or writing with kin/ID tags.

I enjoy a good laugh, so I don’t mind the occasional silly question. However, I reserve the right to ignore something I find offensive.

I am caught up with the Black Butler anime, Black Butler II, Book of Circus, Book of Murder, Book of Atlantic, the musicals, and the OVAs. Because of this, I will only be answering asks about things contained in these until I have fully caught up with the manga.

Some asks I receive may be offensive. If I think that there is a chance it could be offensive or triggering to someone, I will place the answer under a cut with the proper warnings.

This blog will not accept roleplay requests.

While some people may find it offensive, I will refer to Grell as female. I can relate to her character in more than one way, and have no intention of denying what I see as canon. I truly hope this doesn’t bother anyone.

This is a work of fiction and should be taken as such. I will NOT tolerate any anti vs anti-anti drama here. Period. The drama I’ve been involved with is toxic and damaging to my own mental health, and I will not argue with anyone over my stances for whatever reason. Don’t like something I post? Either blacklist the tag or block me and move on with your life.

In addition, there are a few things I’d like to list as disclaimers:

I am not responsible for a minor coming across content which is 18+. There are many warnings placed on this blog, and all 18+ content will be tagged as such. This disclaimer also applies for those residing in a place where the content of this blog may be considered illegal in some way.

All characters appearing in 18+ material have been aged up or deemed to be 18 years of age or older.

This is a ship safe blog. If I see ship wars, I will not hesitate to block you. The same goes for any hate I receive in my inbox.

FAQ

Who is Astre?

Astre is my Kuroshitsuji self insert persona, a demon shipped with Joker. I could get into more detail, but honestly, I’d rather not unless you guys want to send asks about him. I’ll happily answer them!

Who you write for?

Long story short, any anime/OVA-canon or musical-canon character. I’m not caught up with manga yet, but I hope to be soon so that I can add the plethora of manga-exclusive characters to my writing portfolio - especially Bravat! Until then I’m most confident writing the anime, OVA, and musical characters for all you lovelies to enjoy~!

Do you have a favorite character to write for?

Despite the fact that most of my confidence comes with writing characters I’m familiar with, there lies a single exception, and he’s actually the answer to this~! I absolutely adore writing for Bravat! He caught my attention from the minute he was introduced, and I’ve done so much research on him that I’ve debated making a full on roleplay blog for him. If I do, I’ll let you all know~

I also really, really enjoy writing for Grell. Her character is one that I can relate to, and back in my early Tumblr years I roleplayed her a lot. maybe if I can ever get into my old account, I’ll revamp her blog and we’ll bring Lady Grell and Sir Red back ;)

Do you, ya know, ship nasty stuff?

This blog ain’t about my ships, hun. I’ve been involved in the anti and anti-anti drama before, and it absolutely destroyed my mental health. I was sent some not-so-good things by some really shitty people on both sides of the debate, so I’ve learned it’s best not to disclose my feelings on the subject. If that bothers you, you can feel free to leave.

Does that mean you won’t write for ships?

Honestly, I’m game for just about anything that isn’t triggering for me - which isn’t much, honestly. That being said, this blog is meant as a “x reader” type blog, so I’d like to keep canon x canon ships away from here if I can.

But if what you’re really asking is “will you write my SebaCiel/SebaReaderCiel smut for me???”, then the answer is no.

So you don’t ship (ship)?

Again, I’m not answering questions like these. My views are my own, and yours are your own. Let’s leave it at that and move on with life, shall we?

Where do you stand on the Great Grell Debate?

Grell is a trans woman, a queen, and I love her. No, I don’t accept criticism.

Can you tag (thing)?

Of course! If you ever need anything tagged, be it a trigger or not, feel free to let me know! I want this blog to be enjoyable for as many as possible, and I know something as simple as tagging can make that difference.

That being said, all asks and scenarios will be tagged with the characters they contain, as well as any ships involved. If need be, I’ll gladly make a tags page so that you guys can figure out how I tag stuff in case my system isn’t easy for some to use.

Do you do matchups?

Yes, but only if you fill out and submit a form. If they get overwhelming, I’ll be limiting how many I accept at a time.

Why do you keep your reader gender neutral?

As someone who’s been in fandom their whole life and realized over 5 years ago that fem-identifying labels didn’t feel right, I understand the struggle to find inclusive content - especially for x reader content. My writing features a gender neutral reader so that others can have what I’ve longed for - inclusive content that hopefully doesn’t isolate them just because it uses female pronouns.

Will you write nsfw/triggering content?

Hell yeah! Dark fiction is my favorite thing to write, so I’d adore to get some darker themed asks here and there. Don’t worry, they’ll all be tagged properly so that anyone who doesn’t like that sort of thing can avoid it.

I use mobile, so I can’t blacklist!

Honey, mobile came out with a blacklist feature some time ago. If you can’t figure out how to use it, either enlist in some help or just avoid my blog altogether. I’m not going to stop writing what I enjoy just because someone doesn’t know how to use the internet.

I’m a minor, can I still follow?

Yeah, I’d rather you not. In my experience, even if I say “as long as you use the blacklist feature!”, we all know that the chances of that happening are very low. So, to avoid that problem, I’m gonna say plainly that I don’t want minors following me.

If I find out that you’re following me and you’re under 18, I won’t hesitate to block you. Period.

But-but-but Tumblr is 13+!

Yeah, well the app is 17+, and this blog is 18+. Life has rules, kid. Get over it and follow them.

#mobile pages #pinned post

[yuriyuu]

About me tag game

Tagging game - About me

Tagged by @grievingcain

The rules: You must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

Tagging: @otabekismybff, @faeyuri, @unzan, my moms @godtier1 and @alliechick, whoever wants to do this really idk

long so putting under a read more

The last…

1. Drink: mango juice 2. Phone call: dad 3. Text message: my friend Tilda 4. Song you listened to: Syphilis - Fleshgod Apocalypse  5. Time you cried: uhhh I think when I was at my last con like a year ago. I was a bit drunk and my friend showed me dog videos and I started crying lmao. The last time I cried sober was years ago when my dog died back in like, 2014. I don’t cry very often tbh.  6. Dated someone twice: Nah lol. I’ve officially dated one person in my entire life. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: lol yeah. 8. Been cheated on: you can’t be cheated on if you don’t date. (i’m keeping cain’s answer bc it’s perfect) 9. Lost someone special: my dog.  10. Been depressed: i’ve been depressed since I was in my mother’s womb lmfao. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: More than once D:

Favorite colors… 12. Teal 13. Black 14. Purple

In the last year, you have…

15. Made new friends: Yeah 16. Fallen out of love: If by fallen out of love, you mean realized the people I was emotionally dependent on for years were giant pieces of shit, then yeah. Kinda had to force myself to fall out of love with them for my own sanity, even tho I still look back on them very fondly despite the trauma they’ve caused....>.> 17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah. 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Lol yeah. I’ve had some pretty wild rumors made up about me.  19. Met someone who changed you: Yes, in both good and bad ways, mostly bad lol.  20. Found out who your friends are: Uhhhhh I guess??? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: LOL I READ THE QUESTION WRONG. no I haven’t. I have not kissed anyone. The last person I kissed on my facebook list was back when I was 11 way before facebook was a thing hahaha. We still good friends to this day. 

In general…

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Pretty much all of them. I don’t add people I haven’t spoken to IRL with a few exceptions. 23. Do you have any pets: No. :( I used to but he passed away a few years ago. 24. Do you want to change your name: hah I already did.  25. What did you do for your last birthday: Nothing 26. What time did you wake up: lol i dont’t sleep.  27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I have literally no recollection.  28. Name something you can’t wait for: to be surrounded by big beautiful dogs. 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: like 10 mins ago. 31. What are you listening to right now: Nymphetamine Fix - Cradle of Filth 32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: dude my dad’s name is tom. also I was friends with Tom on myspace...yeah...tom on myspace was my buddy.  33. Something that is getting on your nerves: the universe, myself, the fact I don’t have a dog, my OCD, my PTSD...just everything really.  34. Most visited website: Tumblr and twitter. 35. Hair colour: right now it’s blond but it’s naturally dark brown. 36. Long or short hair: I consider it short, but it’s fairly long for someone who’s male-identified. 37. Do you have a crush on someone: lol 38. What do you like about yourself: lol, but bigger. 39. Piercings: I have 3. I have 2 on the left side of my lip and my septum pierced. 40. Blood type: idk.  41. Nickname: Kiichan, Keagasaur 42. Relationship status: single forever. :’) 43. Zodiac: Scorpio 44. Pronouns: he/him or they/them. 45. Favourite tv show: Probably Jojo’s bizarre adventure. I love YoI but there’s a lot of things that disappoint me about it so Jojo is probably my fave show. 46. Tattoos: Yeah I’ve got my dog’s pawprint tattooed on me.  47. Right or left handed: right. 48. Surgery: I’ve had a few. 49. Piercing: Didn’t u ask this already. 50. Sport: look i’m a lazy piece of shit i don’t do sports lol.  51. Vacation: I hate traveling and being away from home. vacation is stressful. 52. Pair of trainers: what

More general…

53. Eating: I just ate tacos? 54. Drinking: Nothing 55. I’m about to: Work on fanfic probably... 56. Waiting for: the antis to finally notice me. 57. Want: the ability to get shit done. 58. Get married: Yeah I do. :( like really bad lol.  59. Career: can I get a career in petting dogs

Which is better?

60. Hugs or kisses: Neither i’m extremely touch repulsed. pls don’t touch me. 61. Lips or eyes: Eyes 62. Shorter or taller: taller!! I’M A SUCKER FOR TALL BOYS. <3  63. Older or younger: Older def lol. Everyone i’ve ever liked or kissed has been way older than me. My first ever crush had the same age gap as Yuuri and Yuri LOL. I was around Yuri’s age too haha. man I miss him, I wonder how he’s doin’... 64. Nice arms or nice stomach: pls i’m a leg guy. 65. Hook up or relationship: Relationship 66. Troublemaker or hesitant: idc.

Have you ever…

67. Kissed a stranger: no lol i hate being touched by people I actually like, never mind some rando. 68. Drank hard liquor: Yep.  69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: This is the story of my life. 70. Turned someone down: Many times. 71. Sex on the first date: i’m sex repulsed. 72. Broken someone’s heart: Yeaaaaaah.  73. Had your heart broken: Yeah, but only bc I become emotionally dependent on people who treat me like shit bc i’m stupid lol. 75. Cried when someone died: I cried when my dog died? 76. Fallen for a friend: yeah. never again.

Do you believe in…

77. Yourself: LOL. 78. Miracles: not really. 79. Love at first sight: I barely believe in love even tho i wanna get married one day. 80. Santa claus: ofc. 81. Kiss on the first date: uhhh I don’t kiss people but I guess? 82. Angels: no.

Other…

83. Current best friend’s name: Siobhan and Tilda. 84. Eye colour: brown 85. Favourite movie: shit what’s a movie.

#tag meme

[nintendo-666]

OPEN CALL TAGGED from @carvedfrxmstone lolol I need attn

THE LAST: 1. Drink: 7/11 coffee mu uber driver bought me lolol 2. Phone call: Gazzy 3. Text message: also my Gaz 4. Song you listened to: Dope Hat by Manny-Chan 5. Time you cried: 4th of July cause my bf’s mom is super mean to me :c

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: unfortunately 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: oh yeah dude 8. Been cheated on: yeah apparently I’m really good at it 9. Lost someone special: yeah dude 10. Been depressed:  all the time B) 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: lol yeah once I blacked out on a totally empty stomach and unblacked out over the toilet.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. black 13. purple 14. blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends:  yeah dude! I think. 16. Fallen out of love:  idk if it’s fair to say I loved him, more he controlled me and every aspect of my life so I was like really stockholmed. but I got out of that shit this year. 17. Laughed until you cried:  lol yeah last night over “biladelphia” 18. Found out someone was talking about you:  all the time 19. Met someone who changed you:  I didn’t meet him, but we got close. 20. Found out who your friends are:  no? 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list:  lol ya

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life:  like 75% 23. Do you have any pets:  yeah my kitty Marmalade! 24. Do you want to change your name:  absolutely 100% yes 25. What did you do for your last Birthday:  went downtown with a bunch of my friends, got bought many beers, and ate salad 26. What time did you wake up:  6:30, then 7:30. I slept in twice. 27. What were you doing at midnight last night:  ugh sleeping cause I work mad early. 28. Name something you can’t wait for:  tomorrow night presumably. 29. When was the last time you saw your mom:  yesterday when I went to go get my shoes! 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life:  I NEED more money to survive 31. What are you listening right now:  Wrapped in Plastic 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:  that’s my old pill dealer lmfao 33. Something that is getting on your nerves:  I’m hungry but too fat to eat. 34. Most visited Website:  this hellsite

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s:  none 36. Mark/s: birth? on my butt. 37. Childhood dream:  be an astronaut 38. Haircolour:  right now black blonde and blue 39. Long or short hair:  short af 40. Do you have a crush on someone:  I love my boyfriend an insane amount 41. What do you like about yourself: I got off drugs 42. Piercings:  lip, two in my eyebrow, anti eyebrow dermals 43. Bloodtype:  O- 44. Nickname:  Cam, Eli, Court, Scotia 45. Relationship status:  super happily taken 46. Zodiac:  Saggy 47. Pronouns:  literally any 48. Favourite TV Show:  Broad City and South Park tbh 49. Tattoos:  star on my left wrist, majora’s mask on my left forearm, elephant on my right hand, “try again?” in 8-bit on my right forearm, sheikah eye on the right of my ribcage, power symbol above my pubes, hylian crest under my left collarbone 50. Right or left hand:  right 51. Surgery:  sepsis in my uterus from a baby I wanted but couldn’t afford and wouldn’t leave my body fully during the abortion. gruesome stuff. 52. Hair dyed in different color:  yah but part of it is just my natural color but enhanced kinda 53. Sport: noooo 55. Vacation:  idk man 56. Pair of trainers:  I just got some hella new shoes man. they’re metallic and I put black laces and sparkly lace wings on them!

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating:  nope 58. Drinking:  nope 59. I’m about to:  get back to work lmfao 61. Waiting for:  2:30pm when I buss outta this bitch 62. Want:  more $$$ 63. Get married:  one day 64. Career:  I work in the office category at a contracting company. it works for now.

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: both simultaneously 66. Lips or eyes:  eyes for the most part I guess but I love me some nice lips 67. Shorter or taller:  taller by default tbh 68. Older or younger:  older generally 70. Nice arms or nice stomach:  armz. I like a little soft tummy :} 71. Sensitive or loud:  idc 72. Hook up or relationship:  relationship at the moment 73. Troublemaker or hesitant:  hesitant to make some trouble maybe but still doing it ofc

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger:  pretty much 75. Drank hard liquor:  always 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses:  yeah I never found my last glasses 77. Turned someone down:  no I’m too scared to lolol 78. Sex in the first date:  not even on dates I’ve just invited people over and it happened lol 79. Broken someone’s heart:  allegedly 80. Had your heart broken:  oh god so much 81. Been arrested:  thankfully somehow no 82. Cried when someone died:  soooo so so so sooo hard 83. Fallen for a friend:  yis :3

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself:  occasionally 85. Miracles:  nope 86. Love at first sight:  neh 87. Santa Claus:  well of course 88. Kiss on the first date:  duh 89. Angels:  uhm.

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name:  Adam is forever and always my number one, but I currently talk to/hang out more w my weed dude actually lmao he goes by Sweeney 91. Eye colour:  blue grey green idk depends on the light 92. Favorite movie:  I can’t focus on movies

tagging @thenimbus @hotalienexgirlfriend @ghoul-thirst @copy-paper @undrjoyed @nohomosuperior and ofc @aeternas

#none of u are obligated ofc

[szopenhauer]

Have you ever lived in a mobile home?: no but I wanted to buy one and park it next to my home so I could be both living with my parents and on my own lol Have you ever had your bedroom in a basement?: noooo  Do you think it would be cool to have a lion as a pet?: not really What do you think about those little dogs that ride in purses and strollers?: cute <3

In the house - shoes, socks, slippers or bare feet?: socks and slippers Do you consider dogs inside or outside pets?: outside if they’re not tiny Favorite thing that you can see up in the sky?: clouds?

French fries. Yay or Nay?: yay Which of your friends has the most annoying sibling?: me lmfao Wood floors or carpet?: wood  Would you rather eat at the table or in your room?: table, unless it’s a snack  A teacher says she’s noticed you’ve looked sad, do you confide in her?: maybe Friend asks you to hide drugs, booze etc for them, do you do it?: no way Do you like the sound of birds singing when you wake up, or is it annoying?: depends Have you entered the Lays create a flavor contest?: I have Do you do anything to recognize St Patrick’s Day?: nope Do you think nutcracker figurines are creepy or cool?: both XD Which of your parents do you laugh more with?: dad Where do you keep your phone at night?: on my desk, next to computer Do you feel comfortable asking your parents or grandparents for money?: I don’t feel comfortable doing that but I have to :( If you could have your own car or an apartment, which would you choose?: apartment for sure Best Happy Meal toy you ever got: the only one I got was Eeyore  Do you make lists?: mhm Do you make pro/con lists before making a decision?: sometimes Do you have a favorite pen? What kind?: I like blue Flexi pens :3 Do you like romantic gestures or do they make you feel awkward?: what gesture tho? Do you like the toilet paper your family uses?: I don’t care Just shampoo, or shampoo + conditioner?: just shampoo Scariest driver you’ve ridden with: my middle school classmates father?

Do you own any animals that absolutely hate you? my dog doesn’t hate me Would you ever name your child after nature? (ex: storm or rain) not that I want kids but why not 

Are there any piercings you want but you’re too afraid it will hurt? I don’t care about pain, I just think it’s expensive and will be uncomfy/problematic and I already have enough issues, especially health ones, too lazy to change anything about myself at this point Do you think ear gauges are gross? it’s ok, I hate gauges in cheeks tho :x 

Do you ever read the last few pages first? yeah ^^” Do you think that things will get better? I hope so but I doubt it  Do you have an unpopular opinion? What is it? I have many and don’t want to talk about them publicly  What was your reaction to Tatum getting killed whilst stuck in the pet door in Scream? I didn’t watch Scream Do dogs like you? most of them? Would you say that you project an air of authority? pfft Are you addicted to technology? could say so Have you ever gotten into an argument on the internet? Did you win? shitload of times and been winning majority of arguments Do you pause movies/TV shows if you have to go to the bathroom or the kitchen, or do you just let them keep playing? pause if I didn’t saw it before How often do you fall up the stairs? as a kid it happened few times Do you pronounce “anti” as ant-eye or ant-ee?  ant-ee Do you pronounce “via” as vee-uh or vie-uh?  vee-uh

When was the last time you changed your outfit? today

What was the last thing you took a picture of? it was a selfie because my gf asked me to change my profile picture  What was the last thing you threw away? lettuce  What is the cause of your current emotional state? life Does the weather affect your mood? physically, unless it’s snowy/cold then also emotionally/mentally What is your favorite thing to go shopping for? I just like shopping in general How organized are you? an organized mess What were the positives and negatives of your last week? it’s a long story What did the last jacket you wore look like? it was grey Name five things you can grab from where you’re sitting. cellphones, mug, mirror, scissors, pen etc.

Has anyone ever tried to poison you before? Did you tell someone about it? hahaha it reminds of that one time I was visiting M. and her mom asked me to eat spaghetti  Does anyone in your household dye their hair all the time? nobody Does anybody in your family go hunting? none that I know of :o

When the phone rings and you answer, what exactly do you say? tak, słucham? Do you have anything against extremely short or tall people?  wtf, I mean I might feel insecure around tall ppl The last time you got blood drawn, what was the reason? was in the hospital for examinations What was the last urge you resisted? sigh... What is your relation to the last child you spoke to? she’s my niece What did you last feel torn up over? ugh... Have you ever been miserable, yet happy at the same time? now, I’m miserable when it comes to a lot of things but I’m happy in relationship  Is music a daily part of your life? would say so Do you drink alcohol regularly? I don’t drink alcohol

If you had a choice to be a unicorn or mermaid which would it be? unicorn Which subject is worse, English or Math? math

How was your day? it’s awful Do you consider yourself a stalker? sorta Do you bruise easily? I barely ever bruise Do you wear jeans to relax at home? prefer pajama pants, sweatpants or leggings  Do you use deodorant? usually not Do you like ice in your drink? meh

Do you find it difficult to tell others what you want for Christmas? I don’t want them to spend any money on me

What is your life philosophy? complex Would you like to have a pet horse? kinda Have you read the entire Harry Potter series? didn’t read but watched several movies Do you enjoy literature from the past or more recent times? doesn’t matter Do you know anyone who plays World of Warcraft? Do you play? I’ve wanted to try someday When is the last time you sent an e-mail? sent photos yesterday or day before Have you ever heard of Goodsearch? They donate money to charities every time you search. woah  If you could be any Harry Potter character, who would you be and why? Luna or Lupin but probably would end up as Snape or Neville, eventually Trelawney

When was the last time you talked to your mom? seconds ago

Are there any tattoo parlors in your area? not in my town

Have you ever accidentally ripped your clothes? more than once

Do you own any brightly colored sunglasses? nah

Have you drank water today? obvi

Do you kill spiders? when I have to

Can you do a handstand under water? ... I wouldn’t even try!

Have you ever hated a song, and then later on found that you liked it? hmm...

Did you have a good childhood? to some extenct

If you wrote a book, what would you write about? it’s about fighting evil

Do you play games on your PC? yup, at times

What would be your VERY last meal? we’ll see

Would you shave your head for 100$? gimme more cash and I’ll consider that but like... much more?

Would you rather have the lights on or off? is this a sexual question?...

Have you ever changed a lightbulb? not by myself 

Have you ever gotten a bullseye in darts/archery? I wish

Do you have a sister that steals your things? borrows without asking and not giving back in some cases, especially if I on’t bug her 

Would you ever go to Hawaii? I dislike travels but Hawaii is fine Where did you get the pants you’re wearing? I don’t recall  What are you currently listening to? Scissor Sisters - Any Which Way Where did you last eat? home