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a-dumb-sarcastic-bisexual · 2 years

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Headcanons: (this is just me projecting more because it was a lot of fun last time)

Leo has ADHD and a lot of head trauma

And because of that, he will not remember a singular thing the group says

If they want him to remember something important they have to tell him and then text him a reminder

And then text him another reminder to mark the day on both his calendars (he has one on his wall and his phone)

If they miss a singular one of these steps he won't remember and then he will blame them

“You never told me this!” is a sentence that leaves his mouth often

Leo gets overstimulated very easily which sucks because he’s an extrovert

He wants to spend time with his family all of the time but if too much is going on at once he’ll break down

When the boys were younger Splinter tried to force them to wear clothes and all of them hated it

Donnie hated denim he said it made his skin itch and if it was too tight he couldn't breathe

Leo used to hate loose-fitting clothes

If any fabric brushed up against him he would get irritated

But now tight clothes make him want to crawl out of his skin

Raph can’t wear harsh fabrics they make him feel restricted and he hates that

Mikey hates the feeling of tags touching his skin

I mean don’t get me wrong they all hate it but if any tag touches Mikey’s skin he will start angry crying

Mikey and Leo have a lot of the same vocal stims

And sometimes they will say the same thing at the same time and repeat it back and forth like parrots

Raph will be hanging out in his room and he’ll just hear his siblings yell “yippie! AAAAAA” over and over again

And when someone says something funny Leo will repeat it over and over again

It doesn’t matter that the joke isn't funny anymore he’ll repeat that joke for the next week

Raph’s vocal stims are usually simple it’s a lot of grunting/coughing

And sometimes when he’s really frustrated he’ll scream

And god forbid the group listens to a song together because they will sing a specific lyric until the day they die (or until they listen to a new song)

And even though Donnie loves his siblings a whole lot if he has to hear them sing “I’M LIQUID SMOOTH COME TOUCH ME TOO” at the top of their lungs one more time he’s gonna snap

Leo taps his fingers and feet when he’s thinking and if you try and get him to stop his brain will short circuit

When he was younger Splinter tried to stop him from doing it and Leo screamed at the top of his lungs

He never tried to stop him after that

When the boys get excited they’ll flap their hands

Mikey will often jump up and down and run in a circle

And Leo will rock back and forth on his feet or he’ll hop from foot to foot

When Donnie is overwhelmed he rocks back and forth and bites his nails

And Raph can’t sit still when he’s stressed

He often paces back and forth while scratching at his skin

When April saw the boys messing with their hands she got them fidget necklaces

Leo cried when April gave it to him (it’s one of his favorite things in the world)

In return, Donnie makes her a lot of fidget toys

Because if she’s not constantly moving she will lose her mind

The twins can pick just about any lock

When they were younger they found a lockpicking kit and fell in love

They have regular competitions to see who is faster

Leo can’t hear out of his left ear

After everything he experienced in the movie, I would be surprised if he could hear at all (I mean come on the poor boy got tossed around like a hacky sack)

If the group whispers around him he will yell at the top of his lungs “what did you say?”

The combination of ADHD and hearing loss makes him very loud

And his family has to constantly remind him to keep it down

Leo will hide his more serious injuries from his family and when they ask him about them he just jokes around

He dislocated his shoulder twice and just popped it back in like it was no big deal

And when Mikey asked him why his arm was in a sling he told him “oh my shoulder is a little fucked up don't worry about it”

When his family confronted him about this all he said was “I thought it was normal”

Raph almost fainted when Leo said “wait y’all didn’t start to lose your hearing at 15? That's weird”

And they all know he’s fucking around because he’s the medic he knows that it’s not normal to dislocate and relocate your shoulder and then go about your day

And that’s what worries them

#did I get to personal with this one?#mayhaps #do i care? no #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #medic leo #rottmnt leo #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt raph #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt april #disaster twins #rottmnt splinter #they all have autism and adhd #prove me wrong #save rottmnt

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flockofcrowsinaturtleshell · 10 months

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Corporal Darner (Future Toby)

I used this questionnaire for these notes

Full name: Corporal Samara Tobias Sage Darner

Preferred name/nickname: Toby Sage Darner; Toby

Generally referred to as: Toby; Auntie Tobes or Aunt Toby; Corporal Darner; The Crow; Spirit Seer

Appearance

Faceclaim: N/A

Sex: Female

Height: 5'5"

Weight: 115 lbs

Build: light, lean: "built like a bird"; life in the Resistance made her leaner in comparison to her height

Hair: N/A

Skin: medium golden; some freckles

Eyes: warm, dark brown; intense stare has sharpened with experience and time; longish eyelashes

Mouth: small; sharp teeth

Nose: pointy

Hands: long and slender; 4 fingers on each hand; retractable claws

Feet; bird feet, big and black; left left is a prosthetic about halfway between her knee and ankle

Scars: scarring around prosthetic; faded scars across back; scarring under eyes from straining her powers; other small scars

Clothes: black cloak; leather pauldron(s); white wrappings around midsection (like F!Mikey) and forearms; black tank and pants; black mask/helmet

Other features: black wings and tail; black feathers across back, shoulders and collarbone, cheekbones (range has spread) bridge of nose, small crest, and in place of hair (shaggier)

Other notable features: crowish features; bird feet, wings, tail, feathers; retractable claws; black/dark scars under eyes

Wings: black crow wings; 5 meter wingspan (about 16.5 feet)

Speech

Voiceclaim: me? I guess?

Accent: faintly German (very faint, unnoticeable unless agitated); clear and sharp

Verbal ticks: doesn't tend to show her old vocal tick (getting louder the more excited she gets) as much

Language: English; Crow; Draugr; Spanish; German; ASL and TSL (turtle sign language)

Articulation: uses simple, easy to understand explanations

Education: prefers to use short simple words

Laughter: short huff or rattle/click; doesn't laugh as much anymore

Grump: grunts; makes small caws or growls

Breathing: very quiet

Mannerisms

Face: less expressive than before, more muted; wears a blank or neutral expression most of the time

Hands: doesn't stim anymore

Legs/feet: clicking talons

Emotional outbursts: doesn't have outbursts anymore; the last outburst cost Raph his life, and she blames herself; barely even rattles when happy

Habits: lost a lot of her fidgeting habits; raising and lowering feathers

Posture: slouched to support the weight of her wings, but as straight as she can stand

Walking posture: slouched, either walks or hops; limps, favoring her left leg

Sitting posture: crouched with wings tucked to take up as little space as possible

Personal space: not as tactile as before the invasion; still plenty touch-starved, but thinks she doesn't deserve the affection; very respectful of personal space

Spacial awareness: very aware

Health

Diet: very high metabolism, so she's always foraging and carrying food. She's very opportunistic and will eat just about anything when hungry (even Kraang); often gives anything extra to others

Sleep: very light sleeper; insomniac and plagued with nightmares/visions

Exercise: constantly training to take down Kraang

Activity: tends to work hard and exhaust herself to the point of getting sick

Cleanliness: very picky about cleanliness, even with the perpetual dust and dirt of the apocalypse

Odour: like smoke and jasmine (the smell of her mystic powers)

Medicinal drugs: N/A (regular human medicine doesn't work on her, and yokai medicine is scarce after the invasion)

Narcotics: N/A

Addictions: N/A

Illness: Chronic pain; the Darner Curse

Injuries: phantom pain in left leg

Parasites: N/A

Other: anxiety, ADHD, PTSD

Personal

Introvert/Extrovert: Introvert

Optimist/Pessimist: Realistic Pessimist

Gender: She/They

Sexuality: Demisexual/Asexual

Romantic: Demiromantic

Memory: photographic memory. Can remember faces for years, and can recall appearances in detail

Planning: strategic and prepared

Pensive; tries and fails not to think about her past. She blames herself for a lot of it

Intuition: very intuitive. Extremely talented at decision making and figuring things out from minimal clues

Problem solving: very good at solving problems from minimal clues

Goals: she just wants to make it through life. It's very rare in the Darner Clan to make it past 30 years, since their mystic ability can't be "turned off" and uses up their life force faster. Her efforts to find a cure for the Curse are put on the back burner so she can focus on fighting the Kraang. (She dies protecting Mikey at the age of 29, 13 years into the invasion)

Insecurities: She believes that the death of Raph is her fault, and she carries the blame like a weight on her soul

Achievements: creating a potion using water from the Well of Seeing that allows users to temporarily see, hear, and interact with ghosts; made advancements in a cure for the Darner Curse before having to set it aside; securing her place as Master Michaelangelo's right hand

Anxiety: she actually has an undiagnosed anxiety disorder. A lot of things make her anxious, including the Darner Curse, problems with the ghosts, problems with her father, the apocalypse, and rushing in without a plan

Overwhelmed: tends to hide that she's overwhelmed until she literally can't

Self-help: has completely thrown the concept of self-help out the window

Comforts: a job completed

Bad habits: scratching at her forearms; reading or working instead of sleeping; tends to overwork and exhaust herself ; making plans for scenarios that will never happen or overplanning; hiding her emotions

Philosophy: the past is who you are; you can't change the past

Triggers: tight spaces; being trapped; not being able to move; deep water (she can't swim); very strong emotion

The Past

Parents/Guardians: her mother disappeared when Toby was fairly young (7), leaving her under the care of an abusive father. She was with him until he died 5 years later

School: "homeschooled", which means she was taught anything her father deemed fit and learned everything else from books she found

Adolescence: once she started getting older, her father decided that she could take more beatings as lessons. He died a few months later, and she left home to fend for herself

Leaving home: see above

Further education: taught herself how to survive in the outside world, how to use her mystic powers for the greater good, and how to create a few potions; learned basic first-aid; learned how to control spirits; learned how to drive a transport

First job: picked up a small job for Draxum when she was 14. She basically was the middleman for a ghost Draxum had been trying to contact (he was curious about an artifact they created), and in return he helped her develop her potion-making skills. This happened sometime during season 1.

Life events: left home at 12; found the Well of Seeing at the outskirts of the Hidden City; did a job for Draxum at 14 and developed her potion-making skills; began work on a cure for the Darner Curse; was contacted by Draxum for another job at 16; was contacted by Draxum after the initial invasion to ask her for help in the Resistance; joined the Resistance; accidentally caused Raphael's death; became Michaelangelo's right hand; helped raise Casey Junior, teaching him how to read; died saving Michaelangelo from a Kraang spear

Worst day of their life: the day Raphael died

Best day of their life: probably either the day she found the Well of Seeing and made a home for herself or the day she learned to fly

Lessons: emotions are dangerous

Looking back: if she could replay her life and do something differently, she would control her emotions better and fight harder to save everyone

Relationships

Family: the Hamato Clan, even if she believes that she doesn't deserve them

Friendships: Huginn and Muninn, Draxum, Cassandra, Leonardo, Tello, Michaelangelo, Raphael, April, Casey Junior

Friends in need: she's a good listener, and will be there for those who need to rant

Needing a friend: she doesn't let others help her, believing that she must go through life alone

Annoyances: she internalizes everything and never releases it (until it's too late to reel it back in)

Romance: N/A

Marital problems: N/A

Adversaries: breaking her trust; abuse; unfairness; insulting other people she thinks of as friends or family

Enemies: see above, but repeated infractions is what does it

Strangers: fairly respectful, but closed off towards strangers

Fun stuff: she is content to spend time together without talking, but her friends and family often have other ideas

Dating: N/A

Best friend: Cassandra, but Tello and Michaelangelo are close seconds

Love: N/A

Worst enemy: her father, but the Kraang are giving him a run for his money

Respect: everyone but her father and the Kraang, because they showed her none, so she gives none in return

Mingling: pretty bad at making new friends

Comfort levels: not very comfortable with talking, but she's a good listener

Physical: extremely touch-starved, but refuses to initiate (or often accept) physical affection

Groups: comfortable in a bigger group if she knows everyone personally; prefers smaller groups

Openness: takes a very very long time to open up. That's two verys. If she opens up, it's only to those she would trust with her life (whether it's to save or sacrifice her life, it doesn't matter to her, as long as it is for the greater good)

Generosity: pretty generous with those in need, but has thrown off the concept of self-help

Jealousy: jealousy is basically taboo in the apocalypse. Everyone has suffered, and everyone has to push forward and keep fighting. It's rare to find someone better off

Temper: outwardly patient, but internalizes her anger until later

Empathy: feels empathetic, but it's hidden behind her mask of neutrality

Affection: awkward with giving affection, but shows it by listening when needed and teaching when prompted

Distaste: she has this Stare. Leo calls it "The Stare of Ultimate Disappointment™". It's where she doesn't say anything, just puts on her poker face, clicks her talons on the floor, and just Stares. If she really doesn't like you, she combines the Stare with a deep thrum in her throat and might start puffing up her feathers in a territorial display. Basically the only emotion she displays in front of others

Etiquette: sticks to polite norms of social situations best she can for someone from her background and experience

Responsibility: very responsible. She often carries the responsibility of Ghost Therapist and Middleman to the Living, caretaker of children, Michaelangelo's right hand, and medic when needed

Self esteem: poor self esteem.

Confidence: low confidence ever since Raph died, but hides it under a soldier's face

Honesty: will often keep things private if she feels it might upset someone; but she does her best to be honest otherwise

Leader or follower: follower by choice and circumstance, but will step up when needed

Party tricks: can mimic sounds and voices exactly; uses her photographic memory to impress others

Praise: she is blunt and short with her gratitude

Failures: She understands that her emotions need to be controlled since they got Raph killed, but she doesn't understand that no one blames her, and that they miss her.

Criticism: she brushes it off and ignores further criticism if it's unfair. She takes constructive criticism fairly well, but only by sheer force of will to control her reaction

Insults: passive-aggressively psychoanalyzes the person who insulted her until they back off

Embarrassment: not easily flustered, but she tends to play off her embarrassment as another emotion. She doesn't hide behind her wings anymore

Flirting: doesn't flirt

Attention span: she has a better attention span than before, but she's wrestled with her ADHD to gain it

Situations: awkward with social situations, but does her best to stay neutral. She's a bit blunt.

Life

Career: "Ghost Therapist and Middleman to the Living" (Mikey coined the name). It's very taxing, very stressful, and she didn't ask for it, but it's the best use of her abilities, so she accepts it. She also watches the Resistance children and supports Michaelangelo in battle

Promotion: N/A

Boss: Michaelangelo is technically her boss, along with his brothers. They treat her with respect, and see her as a peer and friend.

Duty: listening to rants; helping ghosts and living contact the other; helping people accept grief and get closure, protect the Resistance, take care of children, support Michaelangelo in battle

Tech: has grown more adept with technology since the invasion

Politics: no political involvement because of the lack of government in place. She sits pretty high in the Resistance hierarchy as Michaelangelo's right hand

Combat skills: can defend herself and others. She often uses her talons and retractable claws in hand-to-hand combat, but she is also adept with throwing knives and guns

Home: her hoarding habit is pretty much gone, since you have to share what you have in the Resistance. She keeps her section of the base clean and organized in case she has to move fast

Daily life: can take care of herself and others

Independence: very independent

Cooking: she can cook, but often doesn't. Raw food is more of a concern in the apocalypse, though, so she does her best to eat cooked food.

Building: she built The Nest by herself, so I'd say she's pretty adept. Can build a basic shelter.

Cleaning: typically organized. See "Home"

Shopping: stores don't exist anymore. Repurposes and fixes when possible. Forages when she can

Driving: she can drive a motorcycle and Genius Built ™ transports

Finances: N/A

Marriage: N/A

Kids: more likely to adopt than have biological children

Pets: N/A

Dependents: she often cares for the kids of the Resistance

Law: nothing is illegal if there are no laws. It's just a matter of morality

Court: N/A

Prison: N/A

Traveling: prefers to stay in one area, but will travel if required

Medical: the doctors/medics in the Resistance are more adept at treating yokai that before, since the mixing of humanity and yokai-kind had both sharing notes. Toby is fairly adept in basic first-aid

Illness: anxiety, ADHD

Worries: the Darner Curse; bad memories/PTSD; anxiety; the problems of others (she is NOT a licensed therapist!), the survival of the Resistance

Peace: prefers peace and quiet

Partying: prefers to stay in

Hobbies: hanging out with kids; reading; patrolling the Resistance base in the dark of night (alone time)

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rotmnt #riseofthetmnt #ghosts of the past and future #rottmnt oc: toby #rottmnt fic: ghosts of the past (and future)#rottmnt oc: Corporal Darner/Future Toby #rottmnt fic: forgotten future #forgotten future

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sweaterrat · 1 year

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Well, least your alive. Since you want us to ask questions, I have one question. What how would describe levlav?

I’ve accidentally made lemlav my whole personality💀

Y’know, the name lemlav originated from “Lemon Lavender” which are my two favorite smells in all of life!

Anyways, you’re probably asking about the deets on the dynamic! In pre-relationship lemlav, I’m literally absolutely smitten with Donnie. He’s like a celebrity to me (and he is!) and I just adore him. I’m constantly trying to earn his attention, causing myself to bend backwards to be someone he’d even think of looking at (a bad habit of mine 😭 [but hey, it makes for some sweet sweet angst]). I’m absolutely in love with the sound of his voice and how he lights up when he’s talking passionately and I just wished he would talk as passionately about me. Most of Early Lemlav is one-sided, but it gets better! Donnie starts noticing how comfortable he is around me. He notices little things about me that he’s come to adore. (For example, one of my happy stims is shaking my foot around 💀 odd, I know, but he seems to think its cute!) Thanks to Doctor Feelings and maybe April, he finally realized that he might have feelings for me.

ENTER IN THE MISCOMMUNICATION ERA!! Since all my signs and hits fly over his head, I kind of assume it wasn’t meant to be. But now, he’s (rizzlessly) hitting on me, which just confuses and frustrates me. I haven’t exactly planned out an official lemlav confession, but all we know is that it has a whole lot of avoidance and lack of communication! Anyways, I usually complain to Kat ( @/sleepdeprivedbagels, another person in Portals!au) about my crush (to which they could probably care less about idk💀). And Donnie complains to Shelldon (and Leo if he’s desperate). Anyways, Leo, Kat, and probably Mikey (Dubbed the matchmaker trio) just try to get Donnie and I together (its failing badly)

BUT EVENTUALLY IT WORKS! WELCOME TO POST-CONFESSION LEMLAV! Post Lemlav is just us being extremely awkward and flustered basically 24/7. Donnie often makes little gadgets and fidget toys for me (gift giving love language <333) that I absolutely adore!!! Me on the other hand, I’m just his little fan! I love listening to him talk and he always has my full attention.

The physical touch part of lemlav takes a bit. This is a slow burn after all! At the start, we only do 10 second hugs! But slowly, he gets comfy enough to hug without a time limit. He’s actually a bit of a cuddle bug! Especially without coffee 💛. After a while, I find that Donnie is quite the flirt (thank the stars, I love flirts). He takes time out of his day just to fluster me with something as simple as a kiss on the hand (ESPECIALLY WHEN HES LOOKING ME IN THE EYE THE WHOLE IME OH GOD IM SWOONING <333). He’s just a big dork and I love him to bits :]]

WHOOPSIES I DIDNT MEAN TO RAMBLE 😭 I hope I answered your question well enough!

TL;DR: Awkward couple! Easy to get flustered and secretly cuddle bugs <3. Mostly fluffy and cute :] 💛

#rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #rottmnt x reader #rottmnt donnie x self insert #rottmnt donnie x reader #lemlav #lemon lavender #RatSpeaks

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androidafton · 3 years

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Happy Autism Acceptance Month. -SHOVES MY HC’S FOR MIKE AT YOU-

Mikey growing up was a bit of a terror. He wasn’t actually diagnosed with ASD (at the time Aspergers) until he was almost to Middle School. Teachers always noticed something different about him. Intelligent boy, just not all that good at socializing. Masking was a huge issue growing up for him. He hated hiding what made him, him.

It wasn’t until he died and came back did he decide to just say fuck it and not give a shit what people thought. If he wanted to stim (happy clap, happy flap, bounce on his feet, constantly fidget with his hair and/or jacket sleeves, etc.) in public, he would. If people called him weird, he’d try and ignore it cause yes he is weird thank you very much.

Becoming an android didn’t change any of this. He’s just in a new body. Nothing has changed, but the fact he’s no longer rotting.

#🐾| Headcanons #⛓| the living android {Mike}

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brightlotusmoon · 3 years

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Me, remembering that in the newest chapter of the RP fic I made all the Bay Turtles Autistic and or ADHD:

I must share this on Tumblr!

"We're not even certain of reptile neurology regardless," Donnie smiled. "I can't imagine they have migraines for example. We only very recently realized what neurodevelopmental phenomena we all have. Mike with ADHD and Autism, Leo and I autistic, Raph potentially ADHD and an anxiety disorder that may or may not be intermittent explosive disorder."

Raph narrowed his eyes. "It's not that bad."

Don gave him a quiet and level look. "I only interpret data, admittedly with some bias."

Raph just lifted one eyebrow.

(Bay Raph's ADHD might be confirmed later anyway as more of a large cluster of related processing disorders depending on where I want to go)

#adhd raphael is accepted #mikey and donnie slide around the autistic spectrum like me #leonardo on the spectrum #raph's coping mechanism is punching and that's okay #leo stims with kata practice #donnie's stress relief is infodumping #mikey stims and fidgets constantly #mikey stims and medicates with caffeine #the ninja turtles are autistic #writing ninja turtles as imaginary coping mechanisms #writing ninja turtles as neurodivergent symbolism #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #ninja turtles and representation #at the intersection of disability advocacy and monsterlover fiction #if you want to write an autistic character please talk to autistic people #if you relate to this you might be this #companion rp #rp shenanigans #tmnt crossover fic #bayverse turtles #rottmnt #rise leo is a tribute to 2003 mikey #2018 leonardo is the hidden leonardo #2018 mikey might be psychic #rise of the neurodivergent teenage mutant ninja turtles #untitled rise of the tmnt fanfic

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brightlotusmoon · 3 years

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In working on my Bayverse Turtles fic and the fics with @remmushound I am thinking about how the boys have near perfect immune systems and strong healing factors with naturally long telomeres, ie slowed aging. So they can still get sick, injured, and disabled in ways they can't fully heal from.

Like migraines, chronic nerve pain, tendonitis, back pain, but it's like a slow healing cycle.

I'm basing it off my husband's healing factor, times eleven. Our favorite inside joke is him saying "The difference between you and me is that I heal" and me replying "Yes, fuck you" with a grin and a kiss and me butting my head heavily against his 58-inch chest like it's a wall because his abs are rocks and he has like no waist or butt so his thirteenth rib and his hipbone are an inch apart and it's easy to treat him like a wall. He was also splashed with boiling water as a teenager so most of his torso is scar tissue that he doesn't really feel. When he's teaching me the IP Man style martial arts he was trained in, it's fascinating to watch a six foot barrel chested guy do roundhouse kicks in silence, with an arthritic spine, a hip that he'll dislocate for fun, and a near impossible flexibility for his age that flows like water over stone. I think the qigong meditation plus cannabis has worked for his ADHD and spine pain better than anything because he's managed to spiritually manipulate his own neuroplasticity over thirty years. He's bizarrely chill and like a socialist anarchist. He also meets the seven signs of the antichrist because he was born in a city called Bethlehem in a hospital called Sinai, no labor pains, stillborn for four minutes, Jewish, light eyes, his name referring to first beloved son of his father, Tribe of David, supposed supernatural powers, talks a lot about people helping people and keeps being put in Facebook jail for poking at conversatives and liberals about concentrating taxes and power on communities and welfare and healthcare but saying it in a way that "sounds libertarian" and being ignored or mocked. Oh shit that's a huge tangent, whoops.

Plus there's a reason I say husband's like the embodiment of all four turtles. We have katanas and accidental bo and he's still teaching me Cane Fu.

2) So for my portrayals of Psionic Mikey with painful side effects, I'm imagining how muscles and nerves are constantly damaging and repairing and growing scar tissue because I've seen it with husband.

Mikey being so completely physical and athletic would influence the kinetic psionics like biokinesis, the way his chi would flex and expand.

His internal telekinesis would probably wind up creating new pathways, dendrite growth, neurochemical receptors similar to opioid and endocannabinoid.

Hell, I plan on honoring Winnychan's unfinished fic where Mikey goes to the Ninja Tribunal to complete his tests and becomes Usagi Yojimbo's student, who guides him. In a scene I've never forgotten, Mikey physically manifested his chi as green plant matter, which he ground into a healing paste, because he remembered Splinter grinding herbs for healing. There was the idea that Mikey's chi manifestation was green, Life Energy, and it was as physical and tactile and touched starved as Mikey himself.

I'm glad I complimented Winny on that before she passed.

When I was writing the 2012 Psionics I made him essentially Jean Grey but I probably could still refine how the powers actually work.

Since the late 2000s, I've imagined Psionic Mikey being able to heal himself and others but at a cost.

In every iteration, he is friendly, boisterous, and cheerful, but a lot of fan writers starting in the late 2000s started thinking that Mikey doesn't like to contemplate life, that he's completely airheaded, that his head is always empty. But he's got so many thoughts that it's like static, like a radio or television changing channels, and it bursts out of him with physical force. So why not manifest as telekinetic force...

In this essay I

#bayverse turtles #tmnt 2003 angst needed more closure #the 2012 tmnt are all autistic #disabled mikey au #tmnt 2016 #my husband is nightwing with adhd on cannabis #i'm married to a mikey and donnie type anyway #whoops more infodumping #donnie's stress relief is infodumping #mikey stims and fidgets constantly #mikey stims and medicates with caffeine #mikey stims with cartoons and parkour and music so of course he's loud and physical #mikey can be as introspective as donnie #outgoing introvert #extroverted introvert

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brightlotusmoon · 3 years

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Bay Mikey, full of dopey brain chemistry after his seizures, makes a random reference to the Arrested Development Good For Her meme and suddenly everyone needs cupcakes.

But they're making him breakfast for dinner right now. Seizure brains need bacon. Cupcakes later.

@remmushound

Mmm, cake.

Mmmm, visual stim. Forever.

#rp shenanigans #tmnt crossover fic #ROTTMNT #bayverse tmnt #why i write mikey with epilepsy #this is why i write autistic adhd ninja turtles #mikey stims and fidgets constantly #raph's coping mechanism is punching and that's okay #leo stims with kata practice #donnie's stress relief is infodumping #mikey's autism is creative while donnie's is mathematical #give mikey caffeine for his adhd

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brightlotusmoon · 3 years

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Multisensory Temporal Function and EEG Complexity in Patients with Epilepsy and Psychogenic Nonepileptic Events

And here I go down the research rabbit hole again; much obliged, ADHD and Autism. Hyperfixations within in a special interest that was already major will probably pop up in my creative writing. Again.

Lulz. When I first loaded my rebooted fic "Cold Fire Rising" on Fanfiction dot net, the reviews that said "I had to look up a lot of the medical terminology but I'm glad I learned things" became my favorite.

#whoops more infodumping #cold fire #cold fire rising #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #my oc has my disabilities #my oc is studying my passion #my fictional characters are all autistic #canon ADHD #polyamorous oc #pansexual oc #self insert character #why i write mikey with fibromyalgia #why i write mikey with epilepsy #Donnie is sad #mikey and donnie slide around the autistic spectrum like me #leonardo on the spectrum #raph's coping mechanism is punching and that's okay #donnie's stress relief is infodumping #mikey stims and fidgets constantly #mikey stims and medicates with caffeine #leo stims with kata practice #michelangelo the social empath #i created this tumblr because of michelangelo #i might have been the one who started the psychic mikey headcanons in the 90s #i might write a fic about this #i have tags for this #i have too many headcanons #bayverse tmnt #tmnt 2003 #the 2012 tmnt are autistic

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brightlotusmoon · 3 years

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In the RP with @remmushound in the Rise world, the three Bay boys met with Hypno and Warren and I accidentally turned Bay Leo into a sarcastic dork king whose malaphors of popular memes, ie Tumblr, both impress and wound his bros.

He's still a jerk but I'm softening him up a bit.

#rp shenanigans #i'm having fun #tmnt crossover fic #bayverse tmnt #rottmnt #rise of the TMNT #leo the drama queen #2018 leonardo is the hidden leonardo #leonardo on the spectrum #mikey stims and medicates with caffeine #mikey stims and fidgets constantly #donnie's stress relief is infodumping #mikey's autism is creative while donnie's is mathematical

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brightlotusmoon · 7 years

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TMNT Headcanon Fanfiction: “Beyond My Words”

One might think that Mikey, as headstrong and brash as he is, might turn to Raph to release some steam. Maybe some physical stuff, skateboarding or running out to beat up muggers, pranking Raph. Mikey actually goes to Donnie. Sometimes Mikey screws up his words, his ability to turn thoughts to language, and of course shiny things will distract him, leading to Donnie snapping at him until Mikey is able to articulate his thoughts. Emotionally, Mikey has a hard time actually opening up about the really deep hurts. He wants to be outgoing, happy, silly, and carefree as much as possible. When he gets frustrated and angry, it never lasts long. A quick fiery blast and then he’s exhausted. But there are times when the darker emotions keep building up, festering, and he doesn’t want to be told that he’s okay, that he just needs to meditate or punch a training dummy. Sometimes Mike wants to sink himself into logic and psychology and science. Donnie realized this a while ago and he knows how to read those very particular signs when his little brother approaches him. Donnie will close and lock the lab doors. He will set aside his projects. He will make hot cocoa. He will play soothing music. He will sit Mikey down and they will drink their chocolate and sit in comfortable silence. Mikey will suddenly sigh and fidget with his empty mug, the sign that he is ready to talk. Donnie will set aside the mugs to refill. And Mikey will talk. Mikey will open up about his fears, his worries, his insecurities. He will talk about how inefficient he feels, that he isn’t sufficient enough, that his casual, carefree, worry-free approach will hurt them all in battle, even as he knows he’s a powerful, fluid fighter. He cannot control what his brain does. He cannot control saying inappropriate things, mispronounced words, jokes that he didn’t mean as jokes; he feels he constantly must grab that part of him and exhaust himself with maintenance. He’s been feeling tired lately. He’s losing interest in things he loves. Ice Cream Kitty is worried, he says. He doesn’t understand why. He feels fine. Just tired. And his head hurts a lot. His muscles ache all the time. His chest hurts like it’s hard to breathe, like his stomach is cold. Sometimes he loses his appetite. Sometimes he cannot bring himself to smile, and he must fake it. Sometimes he forgets how to laugh. Sometimes he wants to cry but feels hollow and empty. And sometimes all he can do is cry, in private, in his room, and dark tunnels away from the lair. Sometimes he is too tired to train. Mostly, he worries that he is feeling dark and cold. Donatello immediately runs all sorts of tests, laptop open to various scholarly sites. He finally settles on Major Depression with anxiety, comorbid to ADHD. He knows they cannot get medication and he’s not sure how vital it is. He looks up more holistic medicines. There are teas he can brew that can help boost neurotransmitters and hormones, and talk therapy has proven effective. He will call April and ask her to bring down psychology books. As he is talking, excitedly, hands moving, mind whirring, Donnie hardly notices that the wan smile on Mikey’s face has gotten wider, and the dullness in Mikey’s eyes has brightened, and Mikey’s fidgeting has turned to stimming. And when he pauses for breath, his arms are full of little brother, who buries his face in Donnie’s neck and thanks him, thanks him, and Donnie tears up when he realizes that Mikey is sobbing openly, his whole body shaking. “I didn’t know what it was,” Mikey gasps, “I didn’t know what to do, I thought I was sick, I thought I was losing my mind.” “No, no, little brother,” Donnie murmurs, “You’re not losing your mind. You’re sick, yes, but it’s your brain chemistry, and it can be managed, you can heal in time. I will help you, and April will help, and when you’re ready we’ll tell Leo and Raph. We’ll all help you. It will be really hard for a while, Mikey, but we’re here for you. We love you. I love you so much, Mikey, I adore you.” After more talking, it turns out that Mikey’s symptoms have been going on for more than three months, that’s how well he was able to hide. Donnie gets a little worried at how deep the shadows might have burrowed into his brother’s sunshine heart. But Mikey came to him early enough to catch the disorder before anything drastic happened. Mikey does admit to some very recent thoughts of harming himself. He tells Donnie of injuries he’d taken in battle that he never mentioned, decided that the pain made him feel better. Donnie warns him of the dangers and begs him to promise to bring every hurt to the lab, no matter how minor. Mikey makes a tiny joke about Raph freaking out and Leo becoming a mother hen, and Donnie is just relieved to hear Mikey laugh. They drink more cocoa. Donnie suggests mixing coffee and chocolate, as caffeine will help ADHD and chemicals in chocolate will help mood disorders. He’s already discovered some plants from India and Japan and China that they can brew to help increase dopamine and serotonin. He makes a list of things to discuss with April, and maybe even her father. He tells Mikey that depression is a powerful illness in the brain, and it can’t be cured but it can be managed, that episodes can heal with help, and Mikey is all sharp eyes and sharp questions and a sharp smile, bright lamplight summer blue irises shimmering with a desire to learn more, to know more, to know as much as he can handle at once. Inside himself, deep inside, Donnie wants to cry out in happiness and dance on the moons of Jupiter for this chance to share such science with his dear baby brother. They keep talking and Mikey keeps listening. Like an ecstatic child and also like an attentive student in a lecture hall. The look on Mikey’s face tells a tale of euphoria and wonder, and Donnie keeps talking until he realizes he is teaching himself as well. The hours have passed. Mikey has fallen asleep beside him. Donnie feels his heart swell to the size of the universe. Here is his very own sun, and he is sworn to make sure that light and warmth never fade. Carefully, he picks up Mikey and carries him to his own bedroom, almost as cluttered as Mikey’s, but with a wider bed and a small ionic air purifier and a pink noise generator. It might ease Mikey’s nearly chronic nightmares. They will get to cuddle. Mikey might sleep in peace. Donnie might actually be able to really sleep. As he places his little brother in his bed, handling him like porcelain, Mikey stirs and sighs. Donnie slips under the covers and draws Mikey’s head to his shoulder, holding him close. In his rapidly sinking sleep, Mikey murmurs, “I love you Donnie, you’re my brain hero.” Donnie kisses Mikey’s forehead and whispers, “I love you, Mikey, you’re my heart hero.”

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