#writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology

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#the fact that this needs to be said #cerebral palsy and #all two dozen disabilities #from my facebook group #spasticity #mixed cerebral palsy #my oc has my disabilities #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology

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Therapists Are Prescribing Dungeons and Dragons Now | Inc.com

https://www.inc.com/jessica-stillman/therapists-are-prescribing-dungeons-dragons-now.html

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This actually was on my 2023 bingo card.

#i write fanfiction as a coping mechanism #my degree is in creative writing #yes it’s gotten a lot easier for people to pursue these creative goals! #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #i wrote a novel over twenty years ago and still haven't published it #dungeons and dragons #dnd shenanigans

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Emotional numbing in PTSD is associated with lower amygdala reactivity to pain | Neuropsychopharmacology

I feel like I already knew this. Then again I've been reading studies on CPTSD since like forever.

#cptsd #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology

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A cluster of neurons in the brain seem to change their activity after nerve injury, but this change is most pronounced during sleep.

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My mom just sent me this and reminded me to get my sleep patterns in order. Between cerebral palsy, fibromyalgia, sensory processing disorder, ADHD, etc, I'm lucky if I know what my body is going to do today.

Husband, describing me to his gaming friends during a discussion in his Red Dead Redemption 2 group about medical marijuana: "See, she's got cerebral palsy, her brain beats up her body before she gets out of bed every day. So she's gonna get tired easily. And then there's all the other stuff, but the palsy is the cornerstone."

Which I also need to remember.

#aaaaaaaaaaaaa #my fucking brain #ow my everything #all two dozen disabilities #insomnia to the tune of disturbia by Rihanna #brain cells gone haywire #neuropsychology #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #cerebral palsy and aging

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Cerebral Palsy With ADHD: 100 PERCENT EFFORT FOR NOTHING, AUTOMATIC AND AUTOPILOT, LET'S GO LET'S GO-

Cerebral Palsy With Autism: Yeah, sure, of course we're going, give us a fucking minute you whippersnappers, just a sec we need to flip the On Off switch to Broke.

Cerebral Palsy With Fibromyalgia: TAH DAH. SARD BORKEN.

#cerebral palsy neoteny #did i mention i am a neurophysiological nightmare? #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #angst fic #welp time to give trauma to my characters #there's gonna be so much whump #sard borken #whoops i'm high

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I think the thing that just happened was a seizure. The nature of the seizures changed as soon as I switched to the cannabis regimen last year. My house mates assure me that they're quicker, less scary, with easier recovery. I'm less concerned. It's still annoying.

*hits vape pen* Ahh, THCV.

#why i write mikey with epilepsy #seizures #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology

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"When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?You're in ruins."

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Well, I didn't expect to be slapped by my playlist so randomly while writing a fanfic about neurological disabilities and their physiological damages and smack in the middle of a really really difficult caregiver conversation.

@remmushound

#cough cough #companion fic! #spastic hypertonia #writing neurodivergent characters #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #did i mention i am a neurophysiological nightmare? #why i write disabled characters

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#did i mention i am a neurophysiological nightmare? #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #welp time to give trauma to my characters #when you just put yourself into the fic as an alternate reality character #when you're disabled you develop weird coping mechanisms

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Oh, look, hello all of me at once.

Yes, it is Autism/ADHD mood. And most other Neurodivergences. Add yours.

#Welp #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #welp i'm gonna head out #i feel personally attacked #i feel called out #actually autistic #actually adhd #autism and adhd are cousins #Dissociation #Alters #i mean come on #Anyway #mental illness #mental health #being disabled means having a very dark sense of humor #being neurodivergent #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #projecting my issues onto fictional characters #projecting my disabilities onto fictional characters #my oc has my disabilities #adhd rsd #hyperempathy #hnnng

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Fascia: A Hidden Piece of the Puzzle of Fibromyalgia Pain - Fibromyalgia Resources

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Accepting the role of fascia to fibromyalgia pain expands our treatment options. Surely pain from the fascia is not the whole story of fibromyalgia pain—a hypersensitive nervous system that over-reacts is also the problem, and we have to look into it. But in my understanding, tautness in the fascia is the flicker that lights the pain fire and needs to be treated in order to have effectual pain relief.

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Fanfiction research. For, uh, reasons. Beyond just giving my characters fibromyalgia after heavy trauma. Also, this is stuff I really wish I'd known in 2006.

#fibromyalgia #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #did i mention i am a neurophysiological nightmare? #welp time to give my trauma to my characters

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Me, remembering that in the newest chapter of the RP fic I made all the Bay Turtles Autistic and or ADHD:

I must share this on Tumblr!

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"We're not even certain of reptile neurology regardless," Donnie smiled. "I can't imagine they have migraines for example. We only very recently realized what neurodevelopmental phenomena we all have. Mike with ADHD and Autism, Leo and I autistic, Raph potentially ADHD and an anxiety disorder that may or may not be intermittent explosive disorder."

Raph narrowed his eyes. "It's not that bad."

Don gave him a quiet and level look. "I only interpret data, admittedly with some bias."

Raph just lifted one eyebrow.

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(Bay Raph's ADHD might be confirmed later anyway as more of a large cluster of related processing disorders depending on where I want to go)

#adhd raphael is accepted #mikey and donnie slide around the autistic spectrum like me #leonardo on the spectrum #raph's coping mechanism is punching and that's okay #leo stims with kata practice #donnie's stress relief is infodumping #mikey stims and fidgets constantly #mikey stims and medicates with caffeine #the ninja turtles are autistic #writing ninja turtles as imaginary coping mechanisms #writing ninja turtles as neurodivergent symbolism #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #ninja turtles and representation #at the intersection of disability advocacy and monsterlover fiction #if you want to write an autistic character please talk to autistic people #if you relate to this you might be this #companion rp #rp shenanigans #tmnt crossover fic #bayverse turtles #rottmnt #rise leo is a tribute to 2003 mikey #2018 leonardo is the hidden leonardo #2018 mikey might be psychic #rise of the neurodivergent teenage mutant ninja turtles #untitled rise of the tmnt fanfic

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Not me diving down this new hyperfixation rabbit hole about Neuropsychophysiology and how using orgasms to increase dopamine for anxiety and neuralgia should be studied alongside cannabis and psilocybin etc...

#writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #thesis #entheogens #chronic pain and cannabis

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Dear TMNT Fandom,

Remind me, please, who here is autistic and writes Imagines and requests? I have a request for anyone who wants to try in their style.

"What if: Mikey has a nervous breakdown in front of Donnie, who figures out Mikey has had depression for a while. Not to mention ADHD RSD and autistic burnout. Autistic ADHD Reader can be involved in whatever capacity."

#tmnt #tmnt fandom #tmnt imagines #tmnt headcanons #tmnt x reader #this is why i write autistic adhd ninja turtles #michelangelo is adhd and autistic like me #donatello is autistic obviously but so is michelangelo #leonardo on the spectrum #raph's coping mechanism is punching and that's okay #mikey and donnie slide around the autistic spectrum like me #mikey's autism is creative while donnie's is mathematical #donatello is a precious geek and he adores mikey #big brother raph #leo and mikey #spiritual intuition bros #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #ninja turtles and representation

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My entire bed, all day: Sorry, you can't move. You're clinically depressed, your palsy damaged the tendons in your shoulders, there's bursitis in your hips, and this fibromyalgia flare broke your temperature regulation again. Please stand by for the maintenance crew with the bubblegum. They keep losing the soldering iron.

#anyway #did i mention i am a neurophysiological nightmare? #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #being autistic and adhd is a neat trick

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Re: TMNT Michelangelo having ADHD in canon and being autistic in fanfics.

I found this comment in an ADHD support group, and it describes Mikey perfectly.

"I can often tell by looking at a person that they have ADHD - that they are empathic, that they have high intuiton and are very "imaginative". Sometimes, a photo will catch it, too!"

More and more people in the fandom headcanon Mikey with ADHD, but they don't have to, it's already canon.

I've been nudging Mikey's Autistic traits for years, because Donnie was stereotyped as an autistic nerd since the late 2000s. In 2012, 2003, and 2016, I like to think Leo is also autistic. Rise Raph, too.

There are many ways to be autistic, not just Donatello.

See. As a spectrum we're a Mobius Strip, an Ouroboros, a color wheel, never a line. No mild or severe, no high or low, just varying traits and presentation.

(The autistic advocate community as a whole prefers " is autistic" to "has autism" since we see it as defining and identifying, how our brains are wired. It falls on the individual to say if they prefer Identity First Language or Person First Language.)

#mikey and donnie slide around the autistic spectrum like me #mikey's autism is more creative while donnie's is more mathematical #donatello is autistic obviously but so is michelangelo #tmnt mikey is coded girl autistic #leonardo on the spectrum #2018 leonardo is the hidden leonardo #leonardo the honor nerd #rise leo is a tribute to 2003 mikey #raph's coping mechanism is punching and that's okay #raph and his heart #tmnt #autistic nervous systems are wild #autistic neoteny #give mikey caffeine for his adhd #give leader raph a chance #tmnt mikey has always had adhd #writing ninja turtles as neurodivergent symbolism #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #writing tmnt mikey as neurodivergent symbolism #i might have been the one who started the psychic mikey headcanons in the 90s #the sunshine child #the brightest fire #mikey the lifegiver #michelangelo the social empath #thirty years with the ninja turtles #tmnt donatello #tmnt leonardo #i created this tumblr because of michelangelo #fandom grandma #fandma

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Image Description: Sara Gibbs @Sara_Rose_G

"When autistic people ask you to go the extra mile in learning about how we think differently, we're not asking for anything we haven't done for neurotypical people all our lives. It's just that you're the default so you didn't have to ask."

#being autistic #actually autistic #autistic people #autism and adhd are cousins #autism is my identity #functioning labels are arbitrary bullshit #will neurotypicals finally understand us #neurotypicals give me a headache #we can't all be neurotypical karen #writing fictional entities who represent my neuropsychology #my fictional characters are all autistic