#message me and ik it’s just a friends thing i am just AHHHH

[sugar-omi]

Saw your last ask about the eloping and then was just thinking if the MC left with Mr. Wedding planner considering some of his lines in the DLC and the Taylor Swift song (and I am so sorry Cove I love you too but oof this went straight to my brain from all the angst and wanting on both sides)

ahhhh im,,, assuming youre thinking what im thinking n that is MC leaving cove to be w baxter bc that angsty idea came into my mind in the middle of writing that request and i have some ideas on it :(( listen to this playlist for the full effect 👍👍 ik a lot more songs i could add but i left it w olivia rodrigo n conan gray

tags : Angst (with happy ending for cove lol), (emotional) cheating, breaking up, your family n friends ar upset w you to say the least, your fam and friends goes low/no contact

synopsis : you leave cove to be with baxter, this is how everyone reacts.

[this is based off this post: "eloping with baxter", where alternatively you leave cove for baxter.]

*edited because i forgot to add derek's reaction.

please break it off before the wedding. if you leave him at the alter, cove would be thoroughly destroyed and your immediate family would prbly end up disowning you and/or going very low contact.

breaking off the engagement was and is a really hard thing, but you do it anyway to be with baxter

i wanna touch on how your family n friends reacts to the break up first...

well lets just leave it at cove's parents don't talk to you anymore and you are not welcome even near their house

in fact cliff even moves out of sunset bird because he's so distraught and if cove comes to visit, which he does and even moves in with his dad, he sees how sad cove is and it kills him

he regrets ever moving to sunset bird and asking you to be his friend.

cliff never forgives himself for this, even though it isn't his fault, he feels like it is and even if (and when) cove gets over this betrayal, cliff hates that this happened anyway.

cliff doesn't send you any text, he just blocks you

but if you send a text before he can do so, which is possible since he's busy comforting his son

then he responds like this..

"please don't text this number anymore. and leave my son alone. you've really betrayed him.. me too. i thought you were a good person y/n. i hope you're happy with him"

kyra leaves you a very scornful message and then blocks you

she refuses to waste her breathe or time on someone who hurt her baby

she starts by saying how much she loved you and everything you did for cove, but ends it with how she can never forgive you for leaving cove like this

"don't bother apologizing. everyone had their faith in you to love and take care of cove but you've really blindsided him. you're no longer family to us, leave us alone."

your family is very disappointed

even though they don't cut you off, you're distant and if you marry baxter, they don't come celebrate with you

your mom is surprisingly very tender about it and she is the one who misses you the most

she cries over your pictures when you were growing up, and when everything was perfect

she knows you're an adult and things happen, this is the way the cookie crumbles sometimes but the holden's were like family too and everything is just hard

she can't even look at cove when she sees him

once she even broke down crying in front of him, she could see the dark circles under his eyes and yet he still smiled at her and gave his best "hello"

cove ends up comforting her in the middle of the grocery store parking lot...

she doesn't leave the house for awhile. she's so ashamed and embarrassed because she can hear the whispers of the townsfolk

"i wish they were kids again..."

your ma calls to yell at you.

ma doesn't ever get mad, if anything mom was the "bad cop" growing up and did most the iron fisting

but your ma can't believe you'd do this. she understands that sometimes you fall out of love with someone or have deeper feelings for someone else but.. you knew cove for 15 years and you leave for someone like baxter, who hurt you?

shes just blinded with rage and sadness, even thought she's yelling she ends up crying

she tells you not to come around for awhile, she can't bare to look at you and look at cliff (and cove) the next day

"please don't bother coming home, you're not welcome here for the foreseeable future. i thought we raised you better than this."

your sister doesn't know what to do

she never expected this from you

she hugs you while you cry, you're still her sibling but she also can't forgive you so easily

she and cove weren't close, but definitely closer than baxter and she saw how much he loved you. and she sees how much he's hurting, as he's slowly gathering all his stuff out of your shared house.

she helps him pack his stuff and gives him a hug, lets him cry and tells cove that he's always been like family, and will always be

she watches him cry in his car before finally driving off and suddenly liz is so mad

all this upset and upheaval for what? a traumatized, flirty victorian-emo man who stayed for a summer and told you to fuck off and then came back 5 years later?

she doesn't yell, but between the quiet and half empty house, liz scolds you and flies back home the same night...

"i love you but i can't believe you threw this all away for someone you knew for ONE summer 5 years ago... i'm so disappointed in you."

lee is the one who comforts you the most when you cry

but you can see the disappointment in her eyes

she calls you a lot less, and she doesn't scream in excitement at you anymore. especially if you're with him.

one night, she even whispers into the dark room, having thrown a blanket over you and thinking you are asleep.

"i thought you were better than this..."

your friends are so surprised

they never saw this coming at all

im (not) sorry to say but you are now friendless :)

miranda is the one with the greatest fury

she leaves several voice messages where she is yelling and cussing you out...

"lose my number! i can't believe you'd leave cove for your wedding planner! someone who hurt you 5 fucking years ago!" "you need to get a grip on reality if you think you're gonna live happily ever after. screw you, you-"

terry is with miranda at the time so she cut off the last message before she could share her new nicknames for you

terry's disappointment is immeasurable.

he tries texting you and asking whats going on before he asks you to meet him for coffee

thats the last time you see him before he sends you on last text...

"i hope you're happy y/n... i really cherished our friendship but i can't trust someone who did this to their partner and one of my best buddies... goodbye."

derek is ready to fly over to cove immediately, and he does.

derek helps cliff get cove settled and calmed down, he even makes dinner while cliff helps cove at least get a grip on reality again...

"i'm so surprised you did this y/n... i thought i knew you better but i guess not... listen, i gotta finish dinner, cove hasn't eaten in a couple days. i'm sorry but cove is my best friend, i hope you're happier now.. goodbye."

cove is ruined, to say the least.

somehow he expected it though..

you were dating cove when baxter came that summer, but he saw how you looked at him... it was with a sense of longing. he supposes it was only a matter of time before you decided you wanted a taste of baxter ward, he just hoped it would never come...

you dated baxter that summer, and he saw how distraught you were when he left you so brutually.. cove thought you really loved him, that you finally got over baxter. but apparently he was wrong, you were just patching your wounds until baxter could put you back together...

you never dated baxter, but cove saw how you looked at him with longing and cove always wished you would look at him like that. i guess you just turned your eyes to him until you could finally have the one you wanted...

cove loved you so much, and now that you've broken up he feels like he'll never recover

cove's personality does a whole 180

if he was "warm", he's not anymore. he can't bring himself to smile and laugh and socialize when his chest feels so hollow yet like he's been stabbed with pins and needles...

if he was already "cold", i need you to imagine him being even colder...

he still says his "please and thank you"'s whenever its necessary, but anything other than a hum when affirming to the cashier that he found his groceries okay

or telling the fast food worker what he wants to eat, which he usually orders online in that case, then he doesn't really talk too much

everyone can see how distraught he is even though he tries to distract himself

he cooks meals from scratch, he even learns how to make bread just to keep his mind away from it all

he tries to surf or look for shells but it just ends up hurting more because he as so many memories of those things with you

his whole childhood was with you... you gave him a childhood and you're the reason he enjoyed life so much, you made him so happy...

cove really tries to keep his head above water but even with the love and care from his parents, he's drowning...

its like when he was a little kid all over again but this time he's the one going through the break up

sometimes he snaps at his dad to please leave him alone and he runs off to the guest room crying.

he's so overwhelmed, overstimulated in every way and hurt.

he feels like he'll never recover from this one

when he does "get better", its still a total change from who he used to be

he definitely keeps his friend circle tight and dating isnt even on the table, and wont be for a long time.

fuck it probably takes him another 15 years to get over you.

all he knew for the last 15 years of his life was you, and now he has to do without you so its hard.

some days he falls apart again, because things are so much harder now that he has to take care of himself in every way possible

you reopened his trust and abandonment issues...

he has a date with olivia rodrigo and conan gray (see above for playlist)

when everyone finds out you eloped with baxter they lose their fucking minds

your ma doesn't even text or call you. you can't even hear her in the background when your mom calls because she can't believe you'd elope to him after all this, no matter how much time goes by...

your mom feels hurt again. it just makes everything so real and she feels sick thinking that baxter is now her son-in-law

your sister calls to yell at you. its less than a 5 minute phone call, she just can't believe you married him...

lee doesn't bother sending any congratulations, doesn't even like your pictures on social media. the next time she texts you she blames it on work, and thoroughly avoids talking about baxter

you better hope miranda and derek don't see it.

derek was certainly the most peaceful when the break up happened, but he would definitely unblock you just to tell you how disappointed he is and he definitely cusses at you.

""i can't believe we were ever friends.""

terry is angry too, but he cries more than anything

he misses having all of you together, this just reopens the wound of how things turned out...

if and when cove finally sees or hears the news, if this happened soon after your breakup he would lose his shit.

if you elope soon after breaking up: it takes everything for him not to throw his phone.

he definitely goes to the gym for a bit to work out some energy. he's so sad but most of all he's angry

that should've been you getting married but you're with him instead.

if you elope later after breaking up: it hurts for awhile. but it doesn't tear him up as long as it did when you broke up

but the first night he does look at your smiling face and he misses you.

in the morning he's talking to his dad and he does realize that its better like this

that you just decided that baxter had everything you needed, and its not cove's fault

he hopes you're happy with yourself

unfortunately, this isn't a bad bone in cove's body to wish you ill.

but he does hope you aren't as happy with baxter as you were with him <3

if he runs into you for any reason, maybe because your moms finally let you come over or you happen to be in town or something

cove smiles at you...

it's unsettling

especially since this is the first time you've seen him since the breakup and its been years

you start talking a bit, you with very big eyes and a shaky voice

cove used to be so sensitive but now that he's in front of you again he seems so unaffected...

"y/n." "y-yes?" your heart is jumping in your chest... "i hope you're happy now." you pause, looking down and twisting your wedding band on your finger. "i dont know... some days i'm happy enough, but most days i.. i think about the what if's...." cove nods. somehow he feels satisfied hearing that, but he'd never admit it. "well i hope you can get over it, you made your decision so you need to make it work. goodbye y/n..."

in the end cove is so much stronger, of course he's still vulnerable with people, he's still a crybaby but the walls he's built around himself are high and it took a lot of therapy for him to get over the betrayal

when cove does start dating again and if he gets married especially, your mom's are in the pictures...

he looks so happy, so does cliff and kyra

if your mom's are in the pictures, especially the wedding pictures, it saddens you because you have no pictures of your family with baxter, it doesn't matter how many years go by.

hopefully you're happy with your decision <3

#our life: beginnings & always #olba #cove holden #baxter ward #our life baxter #cove holden x reader #baxter x reader #baxter ward x reader #cove our life #our life cove #cove holden x mc #cove holden angst #baxter ward angst #angst

[lionofstone]

Malevolent Part 25 reaction post bc my friend who listens to it is asleep and i don’t want to spam them so i’m compiling my thoughts here so i can send one message lets gooooo 

all i’ve been told is that there are ‘sweet moments’ in the first ten minutes so i am :)) 

arthur talking about farou </3 

“a bleeding heart is only going to get us killed” AH 

“we need to stay mindful of this, of us.” they’re an us.... my venom bias is showing again lol 

“don’t be disappointed that we didn’t help them” “i’m disappointed that you don’t seem to care” AHH JOHN IS BECOMING HIS TETHER TO HUMANITY,,,, they are swapping roles,,,, 

“have you ever picked a lock like this” “i may have, yes” listen ik this is probably Private Investigator Related but my brain did in fact go “criminal arthur 👀” so. yknow. 

“we’re not like other people are we” OH AH that line is made for me... the way he sounds when he says it... AHHHH 

when arthur and john work together 😭😭😭😭

yes that is literally the plot of the whole podcast yes it still gets me every time 

“i am glad you’re surviving for us” :(((( 

john is literally so sweet he’s trying so hard to be Good and Kind and Human and i adore him 

this is also the ‘sweet moment’ quinn mentioned i am sure 

“arthur you fucking did it!!” i love when he celebrates he is everything to me 

they are being Awkward with each other and it’s very entertaining but also i am Worried i want them to have an actual conversation again please i like when they talk about their feelings 

i’m so focused on the arthur & john dynamic that i just. forget to pay attention to the plot 

every time they’re like “oh what should we do? which direction?” i’m like. yeah there’s the patreon choice. there it is. idk if i’ll ever join the patreon bc i think it’s fun to have no idea & also interacting with the story feels like it would break suspension of disbelief (for me) (unless it eventually Came Up in the narrative a la Bandersnatch) (but this is just a personal preference) 

“there was a time when [bloody footprints] would’ve chilled me to the bone” arthur my guy you were a private investigator??? presumably you were in crime scenes at least occasionally???? also u killed a man in episode one (ok like technically john did but you were Very Close) 

“the cold has taken me” “i can’t feel as much” “it’s nothing that doesn’t come with experience, i suppose” once again: they are swapping places!!! arthur feels less human!!!! 

also i am glad they are talking about emotions again <3 

“i never thought you’d be cold” :( 

“i am not a callous man, john” “i’m saying your words are taken to heart” 

“really?” “yes!” i love when they Communicate <3 besties <3 

John demanding answers about their time apart ahhhhhhhh 

“tell me everything” YEAH 

(also whenever they do these ‘recaps’ i can’t help but think that it’s a clever way of helping the audience along since it’s usually about a month between episodes which is A While but also the recaps just. make sense in universe so i’m never too mad about it) 

arthur always talks about them going home together and it makes me :) 

john asking “how do you picture that” and arthur answering with practical things like getting a car etc etc AHHH it’s so !!!!! bc i def interpreted that question as john being more like “what happens to us/me when you go back home/to your life” and arthur answered it like it was “how do you think we’d manage the journey” and it’s just. good good emotion soup 

like on one hand i think it’s arthur subconsciously being like “we’re going to stick together ofc” bc that’s not in question for him but on the other i’m like. arthur. please do some reflection and then use your words 

WHY DID THAT “WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO” MAKE ME JUMP SO BAD 

this voice sounds So Scared 

Matthew ahhh 

“who are you talking to” “no one” :((( 

“tell us—tell me” arthur is so bad at pretending to be a single person 

“i’m not supposed to tell you...yet” UH MATTHEW? WTF DOES THAT MEAN? 

arthur interrogating matthew makes me really sad for some reason 

i think bc there was a time when arthur would’ve opened the door no question 

“some seek a power they never had and some people seek power they once did” that’s a very good line 

why is john so panicked about getting information about new york did i miss something 

“HIS EYES ARE BLEEDING ARTHUR” 

DID MATTHEW JUST EXPLODE

DID HE JUST 

ALKFHAG ???? 

“his head split in two” YEAH I GATHERED THAT THANKS JOHN 

and ofc they’re fighting again <//3 

“arthur...” “i know. you don’t know.” 

john is so gentle with arthur in his tone 

“what a waste” “...a waste?” 

“a man is dead, arthur.” john :( 

ahhh like on one hand i’m enjoying arthur’s corruption arc but on the other i miss when he was kind & and john was leaning from him 

i do love a good role reversal i’m just also Worried about what’s going to happen to them & their dynamic yknow 

OOOH THREE SOLDIERS i love when things Connect 

“the coin i flipped—” “what?” PLEASE JUST EXPLAIN THINGS TO JOHN ARTHUR PLEASE HE DESERVES TO KNOW AND MAYBE HE CAN HELP YOU 

“matthew said he wasn’t part of it—” “who?” ARTHUR 🔪 

“they needed help” “so do we!” ARTHUR 🔪 🔪 🔪 

“this is how we stop them!” “is it?” 

“HOW EXACTLY WAS YELLOW THE MONSTER BETWEEN YOU TWO” GET HIM JOHN!!!!!

“BECAUSE HE WAS JUST LIKE YOU” ARTHUR I AM COMING FOR YOUR KNEES 

PARASITE PARASITE??????????? wtf i am so :( 

“too inconsequential to exist on his own” ARTHUR WTF 

like..... is that not exactly what the king in yellow was getting at?? essentially??? “oh john shouldn’t be on his own he needs to be part of the whole” like??? ARTHUR WTF HOW DARE YOU 

john bitterly describing things i am :( 

“arthur” “what” “i’m glad i’m not like you” 

“the feelings mutual” 

HI HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO WAIT ANOTHER MONTH FOR CLOSURE ON THAT ONE 

remember what i said about not getting patreon? i am second guessing that now ajfgkaasfkjgs

i am feeling a lot of terrible emotions 

quinn i hate u for getting me into this podcast but also tysm <3 mixed bag with me 

gonna just. go back to listening to you call it madness (i call it love) on repeat bc that provides Happier Thoughts 

devastated rn 

#malevolent #malevolent podcast #ljs life #gonna insane over this podcast but what else is new

[hueningshaped]

omg my ult ults me back????🥹🥹 i'm a successful fan😎 nope i will always find a way >:D you are so ☹️☹️ i have the first update already !! i have one (1) uni friend and me and her have pretty much developed separation anxiety so we always try to get into all the same courses but this semester it didn't work in one of our courses so both of us are very much like AND i am very unlucky with my schedule because i have uni every day now and it's so tiring because 4/5 days i only have class for 1.5 hours and i live a little further away so i have to commute for twice as long as i'm actually there😐 i hate it here. HAVE YOU SEEN THE SEULO TEASER!!!! i almost lost my mind i need it her to drop it ASAP (whoo woo 눈앞에 눈앞에 나타나 줘) !! not you researching apple types??😭😭😭 it's literally you as #1 cutest person in the world and then 10 spaces empty😔 AHHHH i'm so happy you like the new theme i am also very much 💗💘💕💓in love💓💕💘💗 with yours!! no bc ur right beomgyu really is just SO beomgyu😣 and AHHHH 2.0 i'm happy you liked the song too :(( i really liked ioi and i only stumbled upon the news of her solo by accident but i'm so happy she finally got it, her and chungha were my biases🥹🫶🏻 omg NOOO i really hope you managed to pass ur exam (pls update me i won't be able to rest otherwise :/) and i hope the closing shift was alright too!! AND !!!!!! i forgot to ask last time (literally so vile and evil) but how is your eye i hope that stye is gone by now because it's literally been like three decades since you mentioned it😟 oooohhh i hope you get to read more literature soon!! (plus get the sleep and rest you deserve😾) i also wanted to read a book over the summer but i procrastinated so much that i only started like two weeks ago but i had to stop again because my exams are coming up and i have to study for them which is another thing i'm procrastinating on😁👍🏻 omg the person i was during my 1d days ..... my actual dark past ..... i stanned them from early 2013 to early 2014 and then i kind of lost interest UNTIL the literal earth-shattering day that march 25, 2015 was and i started stanning them again but only until the start of 2016 because right after i started my kpop phase 🫥🫥 i haven't really been keeping up with them that much i've only listened to a few of their singles and i enjoyed the memes that followed the liam drama this year way too much😭😭 omg that first video literally one of my favorites ever i love seeing them just chilling off camera plus him incorporating head and shoulders knees and toes into his freestyle⁉️🤨 NOOOO the cheering he is so 😣😣😞😿 and omg the song!!!!! this message is already so long ur probably gonna be like bffr once you see this😭 so here is your first your second and your third link I LOVE U ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!!!

pleaseee ur my angel but yes hehe we’re mutual ults 🥹💗 how lucky is that 🤯 awww omg an update already yay but aw im sorry also that video is so funny but in the context it’s so 💔💔💔 how disheartening 🥺 omg i hate that !!!! why can’t uni just understand and be more flexible with schedules <///3 commuting being longer than actual class time is so 0/100 would NOT recommend >:(( i hope u find time to rest throughout all this even though ik already that’s it’s difficult to make time btw actual in school and commuting and life 😮‍💨 and omg the seulo mv 😳 “i kiss your brother” SEULGI?!1!1!!3!:!: i really really love songs with a bass line as powerful as that one ~ ive yet to listen to the rest of the album / have you ?? also this is such a random question but do u buy albums or photocards ? :0 hehe anyway (pls ur the absolute cutest to ever exist and to bring meaning to the word ‘cute’) haha….. apparently i failed so terribly…. which is bad bc initially i thought i’d done better… it’s a lot to explain but haha… (you are the furthest thing from evil ARE U KIDDINGNNEME u are the kind of good that gives people hope to keep living to keep dreaming and loving and anyway) my stye went away eventually so yay! there isn’t enough time in the world is there hm 🥺 i hope we both can read books at our own leisure/whenever we want to soon 🤹 best of luck on ur exams !!!! let me know how those go (also plz get ur sleep and eat and be hydrated) omg a directioner too? 🥹 they were dark times…. almost forgot about freaking liam drama ahhh we were so happy then (well sorta hehehe) OH GOODNESS UR LINKS *hand over heart* im… 💔 yeonjun being a lookalike to the short bangs kitty im so in luv ahh and their protocol team :”) it makes me happy to know they’re taken care of and besides that they have fun with each other it warms my heart 😿😿 worlds colliding abby huening is definitely meant to be part of ive idk 😮‍💨 slayyyyy hehe sorry i feel like i didn’t say anything of substance in this reply which is absurd especially after such a pathetically long delay ☹️ during the final week of september my sister came to visit (she lives 1000 miles / 1609 km away) and i had lots of fun and when she left everything went downhill and i haven’t been well and with the little time i have to myself im just exhausted 🥺 im sorry i didn’t mean to mar this response to you not bring u anything but positivity bc u deserve the best 🥺 i withdrew from one of my classes due to how overwhelmed i was and im just trying to take each day at a time at the moment 👍👍 so i hope to be better 💌 HEY WAIT AHH DID YOU SEE UMM UMM TXT NEW HAIR COLOR?2!!2!2!;!/ APPLE, WE GOT BLOND SOOBIN!!!!! PINK TYUN!!!! BROWN 🧸 BEOMGYU!!!!! BLACK HAIRED YJ!!!!! PRINCELIKE BLACK HAIR HYUKA!!!!! at a loss of words……. please update me with ur life and with school and everything! i TRULYYYY hope things are going better and that u at least enjoy the classes u share with ur friend and that ur commutes are safe 🥺 here are ur links 📃~ this impeccable cover of beomgyu, another cover of his hahaha, this tweet, and a song (this song is so sad ive only been listening to sad music lately whoopsies) also sorry my links are lacking :( i’ll do better next time 🫶 i know i only ever give you 2% when u give me 10000% and i apologize i love u and i don’t ever wish to take u for granted 🥺 please take care always ~!! 💗❤️💗❤️💗 (tyssssssm for the pics they’re so cute and beautiful i love them)

#[❤️⭐️]—aquí te amo #ask >3< #apple my love #dream suite

[legobatjoker]

hey mx um. i love you i love you i love i love you !! also um well it is c very much quite past midnight i need to sleep like um. asap !! so i will but i do just rly rly wanna say sm b4 i do that well i love you so so much mx so so so very much like. ut just such such a kind caring friend who does sm for me nd is hgere 4 me in sm ways like how much u always support me through everything esp when things are rough like rn nd how understanding nd thoughtful you are of me all of the kind things u do 2 show me how much u love nd care abt me like ur asks nd messages nd ur drawing u drew for me today ik i already said it but ooh i love it so so much mx so so much its so wonderful and j means sm to me TT__TT and just like talking w u nd spending time w u makes me so so happy mx nd makes my life sm better and j helps me so so much 2 know when things r rough tht i get to message u nd sned u asks nd talk 2 u nd vc 2gether nd j spend time w u like it j make me so sohappy 2 know u nd 2 have u in my life nd ur j such a wonderful kind caring friend 2 me mx u rly rly are nd it j means so so much to me nd i lry rly wanna b the same 4 u nd care 4 u too so so much nd i rly hope u am as much as i can b bc u rly do deserve it sm mx u rly do !!! :'> i hope ur doing good and have sm sweet dreams mx, i love you so so much 💞🍊💕💗🦋🐞❣✨

ahhhh i am sosoo glad that i can do these things like i am so glad i even get the opportunity to make you any happier and to know you and that! like these are things that you do like. feel ig? like that i can show you i care in a meaningful way. like idk how to phrase ir exactly but like yeah i just really do care for you so much and i know you do for me to and you show that so well and so often and are so here for me and i also just love spending time and talking with you like it really is just lovely! and you are so lovely and loveable and yah i hope you have the most good night and rest ladybird ilysmmmmmm i love u 🫶🏻🫶🏻💕❤️💕💕🫶🏻❤️❤️❤️💕💕

#mewtuals #castle.answers #:’’3333

[himborpheus]

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#i think i like someone new OGHHH #i’m happy without a relationship so i don’t know why i’ve been yearning so much recently #like it’s not even in a ‘i need someone else to keep me happy’ way if that makes sense??? I am just gay and a fool #they’re in a relationship n they seem unhappy in it but even if they weren’t i don’t think i’d pursue them bc i’m still not completely ovee #over my ex* #but they keep using lil heart emojis when mentioning me and just #they offered to learn coding to help me with a game i’m making and even offered to learn a whole new language n keep finding excuses to #message me and ik it’s just a friends thing i am just AHHHH #also i don’t know if they’re in a poly relationship or not bc they made a confession in a server i mod in about liking someone in my server #which i don’t think they know i can see #and i’m just like . Hmm . if they do like me i’m gonna talk to them about it but i’m not trying to pursue them at all atm i just hope #it’s in a silly friend way oof i wouldn’t be against it if they were single or their bf is cool with it bc i’m poly But #I am also still recovering from a breakup and i need some time to myself bc ppl have been toying my feelings way too much recently Haha #IT DOESNT HELP THEY FUCKING PLAY THE BASS WHICH IS JUST #GOD #i have had way too many crushes on nb bass players #n they live near me n likke the riddler n GOD…… #they also sent me a playlist so i can rec them music bc i asked I am so stupid i can’t catch feelings for them

[softpine]

hiii brandi it's been a bit since i've sent you a lil gushy message so here it is!! i am loving the story as per usual (it is still my favorite piece of media, period, out of anything ever), and reading your little life anecdotes also make my day as per usual. your whole blog is really helping me get thru my first semester of college, and for that i am also super grateful. here's where im going to mix it up: i come with questions!! firstly, how old is the group currently?? ik time works differently in ur world, so i dont remeber if they are still freshmen, juniors, seniors(??) lol. also, is danny still on tour?? (where would you say he is rn if so?) lastly, how is the loml cara doing?? is her shop successful/keeping her busy?? ok ill stop now lol hope you are doing well and life is treating you kind!! much love to you <3

omg hiiiii 💖 favorite of anything ever??? i don’t even know what to say, that’s a huge fucking compliment 😭😭😭 thank you so much ily!!! and as for your questions:

AGES

yeah these are like rough guidelines, i never know what’s going on here fjkjsd and the age gap between casper and asa shrinks by the day... it’s just so hard to keep things accurate in this format :(

the adults: caroline (34), beth (34), danny (35), mikaela (36)

the baby: sadie (2) ;-;

IN THE UPCOMING SCHOOL YEAR:

sophomores: asa (16), jada (16)

juniors: elaine (17), stevie (17 - but she has enough credits to be considered a senior)

seniors: matt (17), austin (17)

starting college: casper (19 - repeated kindergarten), + all his friends are 18

DANNY’S TOUR

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he’s not even on tour yet LMAO i hate myself so much for this one omg, this is what made me realize i’m god awful at pacing!!! because i keep pushing it off and forgetting !! and any tension that may have existed before is totally gone now bc i just want it to be over and ahhhh but i have a plan now! i feel like i can salvage it! but we’ll see lol

CAROLINE’S TATTOO SHOP

she’s doing good!! we’ll see her again in just a few posts 💖 and her shop is great too! it’s not in a super busy area so she doesn’t get too many walk-ins, which is preferable lmao because she hates dealing with impulsive people who don’t know what they really want. her favorite tattoos to do are big, intricate ones that take multiple visits. and she has a lot of regulars (some of them have been getting tattoos from her since she was literally 19). casper really wants her to give him a tattoo but she told him he had to ask his mom first whether he’s 18+ or not fjksdjs

#the adults being in their mid 30s is so funny to me because it feels SO WRONG but the math adds up #pros of being teen parents i guess 🧍‍♂️ that's terrible i shouldn't say that lmao #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers

[foryouthegays]

Nothing goes wrong. [Dream SMP] liveblog

ok im not gonna say anythin abt before 20 mins in bc its p standard but i will say that as SOON as phil messages techno chat spams blood for the blood god and it barely stops the entire time, its incredible 

kills: 00:37:25, 00:37:40, 00:55:20

i LOVE his ‘if theres no other way, I CHOOSE BLOOD’ line at 00:37:00. its just,,,,,it shows his new justice system where he treats others how they treat him even before he makes that speech i love it so much. also he spams potions like how he does in skywars and it makes me happy. honestly a lot of this stream reminds me of skywars like how he went through quackitys stuff and ran nd stuff. maybe ive been watchin too much techno skywars

also durin that first fight, techno only looses half a heart. against FOUR PEOPLE hes too powerful

does techno saying “bs” count as swearing (00:39:40)

techno insultin his kidnappers is the funniest thing to me like hes outnumbered outgeared and he still makes fun of them and theyre still scared of him asdjkfsdalkfj

00:55:00 I HAVE A PICKAXE, AND I’LL PUT IT THROUGH YOUR TEETH i need some fanart of that right now wljdflkasjf also durin that fight techno looses  2.5 hearts at the end. in iron armor. against a diamond axe. using a netherite pickaxe. with a bad fov. why is he like this. 

techno on his horse by the ocean gives me big ‘beating minecraft with tnt falling on me every 10 seconds’ or w/ever vibes. if u havent watched that stream, u should, its great, he has a horse named rocket w diamond horse armor and i love him. 

just realized my head hurt bc i was clenchin my jaws so much. whoops

techno literally has a boat in his inventory when hes like “theres a boat!!!! :D” skdfjlksajf (01:02:20)

the whole raccoon innit thing starts at 01:08:20 btw :)

techno gettin distracted w the skeletons killin each other is so funny to me hfdgksal (a min or so after raccoon innit happens)

01:09:45 tommys scream is so funny to me can someone find how many hearts he looses from that bc i am crying ghfdjksla 

i think techno has the alphabet memorized. not like, the alphabet song, but like he knows what letter are around each letter without going through the alphabet and idk why but it makes me laugh. i think this bc at 01:16:11 tommys like ‘what, f?’ and techno says, not a second later, ‘no. close to that, though.’ and that is NOT enough time to go through nd find f in the alphabet nd then find where e is compared to it. therefore, he is a nerd. also i love him

01:20:00 this is everything to technoblade: Phil, Carl, and then his items. 

im so gay for technos yelling voice. like. hhgnng he

“if we’re being serious, for a millisecond, dickhead,” :LDSFJLKSDJ I LOVE TOMMY 01:22:25

technos ‘join me.’ at 01:23:25 is SO GOOD AHHHHHHHH

vault/welcome home theseus is at 01:27:10 :D i might start calling it theseus’ vault bc that sounds cool to me

ALRIGHT so in the vault techno has 167 skulls on display. thats 56. withers. they r gonna cause SO much chaos i love it. AND thats probably not all of them ahhHHH I LOVE TECHNOBLADE SO MUCH. LMANBURG IS SO SCREWED A;LDKJFALK 

also thats only if i did my math right a;lksdfjaslk

i have decided that the best trio is techno, tommy, and ranboo. they all just jump all over the place with topics and i thin the convo at 01:56:25 shows it p well

Tommy: Technoblade, why havent you face revealed yet? 

techno: I-I have

Tommy: well, answered that quick

ranboo: *laughs* that answers that question

techno: that was resolved really easily!

tommy: why don’t you do it again?

techno:....what would be the point?

ranboo: yeah, what would be the point??

tommy: because then it would be like -stutters- it would be, you know, easy, good video because there’s so many people who dont know what you look like

techno: ehhhh ill find a good moment at some point

tommy: you could face reveal with me, bro!! we could face reveal together!

techno: ahhh finally, we’ll know what tommyinnit looks like 

ranboo: -laughing- thank god! that was one of the unsolved mysteries of the world

techno: unsolved mysteries of minecraft, what does tommyinnit look like 

ranboo: what does tommy actually look like? 

tommy: hey! speakin of unsolved mysteries, lets talk- lets talk psychology. what- what would be- you know, not the worst one you know, but just the worst word?

ranboo: I’m going to- I- if i hear this question one more time i’m going- i dont know what im going to do. i can’t do anything at this point

techno: ....cactus. 

tommy: ????cactus??? 

ranboo: that is a bad word, i cant believe you said that, 

tommy: -unintelligible- it is cacti, my friend, not cactusus 

techno: I’m sorry

ranboo: how could you say that on stream? 

techno: I’m sorry

tommy: it’s not cactusus, technoblade, its cacti

techno: i- i am aware  

ranboo: you- you gotta stop sayin it.

tommy: cacti almost sounds like a terrible, terrible slur right now

techno: please, please stop saying that- please stop sayin that word

tommy: what, cacti?

ranboo: AHHHH cmon, cmon tommy

techno: you cant use that word!

tommy: AYYY IF I SAY IT OFF STREAM I CAN SAY IT ON STREAM

techno: WOAHHHHH WOAH WOAH -laughs-

ranboo: NO THATS NOT HOW ANY OF THIS WORKS 

techno: thats just not how this works, tommy!!!

tommy: eyyy man im just me, im just me- OOOH i have a novel to write!

ranboo:....where did that come from??? 

tommy: HOW TO SEX 3 BABEYYYYY 

techno: i thought you were already...done with that? 

god theyre so chaotic i love them so much

also yall are WRONG abt eret soundin like techno. ranboo sounds like techno. not in like, a really big way, but when theyre both monotone they sound similar and i love it. this is great

this is actually the most ive laughed at the smp in so long PLEASE go watch the entire techno ranboo tommy interaction its so funny technos just *long, long sigh* ranboos just ???????? and tommys just !!!!!!!! its amazing im crying 

technos such a dad to these kids oh my god his voice at 02:12:40 was so disappointed just ‘do not do that.’ he sounded like a parent on a trip to disneyland and his kids r like, hanging out the window of the car or smthing adjfaslkfkadsl techno :handshake: phil [being tommys dad] and also ranboo is bullying him its so funny i love it

AHHHHH HIS VOICE AT 02:20:35 I AM IN LOVE YALL HEAR THAT???? YALL HEAR HIM??????? AHHHHHH 

“in the small event that your internet goes off or you get hit by a car,” TOMMY THAT IS NOT A SMALL EVENT WHA T 2:21:30

A;LSKDJFASL RANBOO AND TECHNO HAVE SUCH SIMILAR HUMOR I STG TECHNO LOOKED AT RANBOO WAITING FOR HIM TO SAY ‘enchant?? just a wild guess’ AT 02:23:00 A;DLKJFASLD;JF I LOVE THEM PLEASEEEE KEEP INTERACTING IK I WAS A RANBOO HATER LIKE A WEEK AGO BUT ALSO I WOULD DIE FOR HIM ITS FINE 

this is so fuckin funny this end of stream stuff is gonna be a comfort stream 

“what does the moon make you think about?” “it makes me think about the moon” ALSFJDSKJFDSL 2:32:10

techno makin fun of ranboos defense of bein peer pressured,,,,,,,m’dude that was the reason u killed tubbo how is that ANY different (2:33:50) (yes i know he mentions it but FHGJKSDL)

TECHNOSWEAR TECHNOSWEAR TECHNOSWEAR TECHNOSWEAR 2:35:25  HE SAY THE CRAP WORD

#stream post

[neonwizardheehee]

just some happy news from time to time: 

I found some ppl I can cosplay with again!!!!

this makes me so happy since i desperately want my life back where cosplay and my friends were my source of happiness and smth i could rely on

the last years i managed to alienate myself a but from my friend group and anime (yes my fault for getting into emo and then kpop) but now i found ppl that cosplay from an anime I used to like so i messaged them and ahhhh they would like to do this!

another reason why i was so stressed before is bc of SNS it seems like everyone around me is on a crazy level of cosplay while i am stuck on the level i was 3 years into. i came to terms with that since i didn’t invest as much as they did but yes i didn’t want to drag the group down or smth (ik this is a stupid af reason but i am just so fucking proud of my friends working so hard!!)

i really hope these new ppl will be cool (not like that other friend group i cosplayed with the last cons and now finally noped out) and we will have a good time not only on the con itself but also now

that makes me really appreciate (and emo) what an amazing thing we had there in the first place with out og group q.q times were truly more simple when we’d meet each week (or day like in school) and be into shit together and work on stuff together - and yes i know this is wishful thinking bc obv i could get that again for myself and also not everything was roses and lollis back then i just want to dwell in happy memories ig (and I’ve listened to house of memories so cut me some slack XD)

#sry for getting so emo XD #but yes looking forward to the future again #happy vibes finally :D #(i know i was like that too when i joined that other friend group buuuuut #let me hope it'll be better hahahah i want to believe!!

[mieohmy]

jae!! i don't even stan the boyz, let alone read their fics but since you wrote it, i read it haha. also i always found sunwoo cute bc my friend likes the boyz and she biases him, but anyways, i'm telling you, i'm so glad i read this!! i've actually been meaning to read this for a while now too, just more of your fics in general but exams *cries*, but i need a break, so here i am since i ran out of jaemin fics to read. also!! when are you going to write a full fic for jaemin ahhh, i'm just gonna read for the other groups since i read through the nct masterlist already haha. also it’s been a while since I’ve been so engrossed in a fic omg... it’s so good jae!! i love how sunwoo mentioned to pay for the food and the reader was sold. also i noticed a theme, and i see you have a thing for melon and banana popsicles (me too tho) hehe. and omg when sunwoo offers to take the reader home instead of being on the ‘date’ with the girl he likes ahhhh *screams* the foreshadowing!! i loved how you can feel the feelings slowly develop from both parties (but they just don't quite realize it yet) and then the reader meets his mom aww, he really is so soft. and then when he realizes on the date, that you were the one he couldn't stop thinking about, i canttt, this was so good. i kinda resent the girl too for leading him on but ughhh what can i do... also! the pace at this story progressed was perfect and you write so elegantly!! the way you write is just my taste for fics in a way (fluffy but you feel the heartache at times; minimal angst that gets resolved at the end) ahh, but seriously i loved it so much!! i actually stayed up late to read this bc i had to know what happened in the end so i was too tired to leave a review then but i'm leaving it now hehe. i loved it a lot ahh, i don't even read any fics besides nct but since you're the author, i'm finding myself reading svt and the boyz fics haha. also i'm still curious... you had me thinking the reader's ex dated sunwoo's sister lol. i need to know, so you better respond to this, i need to know to sleep tonight grrr!! but anyways it's been a day and i'm still thinking about sunwoo haha (also about ceo wonwoo, if we're being honest here haha) until then, i'll be waiting for a jaemin full fic from you, this is a disgrace. (jk, ily, i just want more jaemin fics lol) <3 also i love how clever your ask box name is "ask mie" haha

oh my god lisa you don’t understand how much this means to me.

the fact that you don’t even stab tbz and still read one of my works for them just makes me wanna cry 😩 😖😖

i wrote the story not expecting people to care or pick up on all the small details i randomly added in but everything you noticed and said just makes me alsjksndksksmss aaaaa -im so sorry im just a jumble rn trying to process all the kind and amazing things you said-

and yes hehe you even noticed the sneaky interaction with sunwoo’s sister >< jendjdjd it’s really stupid but i answered it here (which is more in depth but not really) n e ways basically,,, sunwoo’s sister secretly dances and goes to the same dance place as the reader !

YA OH OEJDJDJ IK i don’t even have an actual fic for my ult 🤧🤧 i am a disgrace but i swear i just get too distracted with trying to get other works out first while also balancing the amount of fics i release for all the different groups i chose to write for EXCEPT *cough cough* i‘ve been writing a love triangle fic for a while and got sidetracked bc of school- but now i have time to finish it and release it super soon! ^^

(yes its jaemin x reader x **** and i got stopped right near the end at like 8k kendkdndn)

i also have a bunch more wips for nana trust me but im slowly getting the time to get to all do them (i promise there’s a lot and ill release them soon hopefully >:) )

ANYWAYS I APOLOGIZE FOR THE RANT

just know i will be thinking about this message and how kind you are for a longass time (thats a longass ride~)

i just can’t express how grateful i am for you and for writing this to me i just- 🥺🥺

thank you so much and i love you ❤️

#mieohmy asks! #i wanna cry you’re the best person ever #ilysm <3333 #my lovely lisa #skrtbabe💋 #you’re so supportive and like my biggest fan I- 😭🥺

[retrorealeyes]

a rife with misspellings rant where i promise to be better @ the end ...and then i psychoanalyze myself lol (what did you expect)

ahhaha since we're all ranting about how much we're failures. Lemme join in. I just feel so awful in every aspect my life has been slowly detoriating. I basically hat emyself, though the hat eis not as bad as it was before (I thouhg I was better at least but it turns out i'm still subtly suicidal, just that when i feel better my mind forces me to forget that ever happened so I literally didn't even know until I looked at some notes I wrote), my life certainly is. (keep in mind there's one guy that is extempt to some of this) I keep distancing myself from my friends, I don't have people I regularly contact, I grow tired of texting people and just close myself off. I don't tel other irl people my issues, further scaring them away. I haven't been exercising for 4 months. I don't have any particular skills I cna boast of (or maybe I do, but I wouldn't anyway because who needs to tell people what they like). I haven't done anything all summer further detoriating my position. Every single interactionw ith my family I come out of being tired, and I'm always annoyed with them. I sleep 9-11 hours and yet it's not enough. I have basically all Fs in my classes because I distract myself and procrastinate on my homework because I don't have any motivation and supplement that time with useless entertainement. I'm not resposible with anything. And i'm tired just so tired. I was gonna say something else so i'll keep gong until i get it again. oh yeah-- and i am just so, so slow on everything. i'm gonna fail my grade and cry myself to sleep everynight because i can't get into college. And I barely do anything to beign wiht, just useless emotional nonsense I'm cutting myself off now. Cold turkey gonna do my hw this week, 7 days, then I'll be back. I know no one on tumblr cares, or will hold me accountable. I might go on discord (but i’ll time myself), tumblr if i need to vent (no liking, scrolling, or reblogging), and whatsapp, and instagram for just messaging (NO VIEWING STORIES AND it’s timed). And i’ll probably use spotify and YT for music but i’ll try to controla and limit that.  responding quickly or not at all; not checking servers on discord except for designnated times; NO watching videos on YT/tiktok or whatever; no scrolling twitter

I can’t think of what else I shoudl restrict-- my drawing time since i’m trying ot do school; not visiting any websites; not spending time on other unccesay things; gettin readyin the mornig; keeping my walks under 60 minutes; waking up when told to; belieing in my will power and not giving myself a boost before (except now, it’s a bad habit ik, ik sorry); no negative self talk; keeping my room clean; being positive to everyone; focusing during class; FOCUS ily 2 i’ll see nobody later but succesfful hw-done self. I know it’s 4 p.m. and my stomach is literally zooming in my torso, but i can do it.

no. i WILL doit. i was gonna say something else. oh yeah:

1) eat or whatever (10 minutes)

2) history ch. 24

3) history ch. 25

3) change and 10m walk (or 20) [ignore the repeat, i’m not good @ formaatting on tumblr so i numbered it by hand and i don’t have the will to fix it]

4) sit outside; write short story, brainstorm w/ notepad  (or phone) on walk

5) clean room

6) dig des thing anyway (1h @ most)

7) algebra video notes x3 (or 2)

8) message you know who + someone else, finish hannah’s card

9) algebra work x2-4

10) chem notes for 1h (try to finish all)

11) read frankenstein (+ do the other assignment)

12) @this point, probably sleep

13)  if not japanese notes 1h

14) english charts x2

15) close tabs maybe please??

16) Forensics hair lab

-to add this started because I was suppsoed to “love myself” but instead decided to a. completely ignore crush guy for uknown possibly angry self esteem realated reasons (? my emotions are unreasonable) b. hate myself again lol that’s pogs

-guys guys guys i’m gonna meet my (kinda sorta) best friend this Wednesday and by that point i’ll be a better person and i’ll get to talk to her about my crush and i’ll have improved by then and aaaaahhhhh I really am excited because being around her destresses me. bruh. why did i not meet up for this long (your bad hw guilt lololoollo criessss) and maybe i’ll come out ahhhh i love herrrrrr (platonically, i get to clarify because i’m bi)

-myy grandparents are yelling at each other :( good to know that i’ll have to go down to that (they think im not home) disturb them and eat. it’s also good to knwo their marriage is unhappy and htat’s what my parents will end up as and that’s what i’ll end up as (probably not, but i acutaly didn’t want to marry anybody for a while ebcause i didn’t want to end up w/some body like my dad) [”the good to know”s are sarcastic]

[cocona]

angel how have you been?? i hope you spent a good weekend ✨ i didn’t do much, it was my last day of break today so i have school tomorrow and i’m anxiousss sksjsksk 😔 i hope you’ll have a good week, if you get stressed remember you also deserve to rest and take time for yourself 💖 you don’t need to work hard all the time it’s okay to take a break and recharge 🍃

hehe ive been waiting for this 😊😊

ahhhh my favourite songbird !!!!!!!!!!!!! ive been well ,, i havent been v stressed tbh ! last week was very easy 2 deal with .. ive been thinking abt u mostly nd tht eased my nerves !!! ur break is over,, well ! thts not sth to sulk over tbh ! the quicker this one ends the quicker summer break comes ! nd then ,, u can get back 2 having a certain work ethic..its weird but to me.. school nd work nd all gives u proper schedules to live ur life with ,, it’s bc its there that we can enjoy break times or else we’d be depressed af at all times !! i mean. tht doesnt stop me from being depressed.. but u see my point :

i hope youll have a great first week !! take it easy ok !!! ik im . usually the one 2 get stressed over perfectionism but ik ure like tht too :( it’s ok if everything doesnt go according 2 plan or if u dnt feel like u did ur best ! its ok ! i believe in u nd all will be fine ! plus the year is almost over nd it’s MAY !! the best month of the year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe !!!

omg but there r news tho…tomorrow…i’ll be seeing at what time i’ll pass my speaking exams @ sciences po….nd ! i’ll b going 2 a play w my friends in the evening :( its the junior’s plkay,, u know,, they have a theatre club..nd theyre performing since its the end of the year ! im looking forward 2 seeing it,, one bc i enjoy stuff like this nd 2 bcos i missed being w my two best friends nd doing activities together :(( as uve heard nd as u can see im always busy nd ..thts impeding on my free time nd i cant see them as much as id like to :( deyg why am i ,, venting all of a sudden. no bad thoughts ! things r gonna go well fghj its nothing much 2 worry abt ! its just tht i worry tht they might not get tht im not doing it on purpose sometiemes ,, ahhh .. i shld stop talking abt this ..

as the days go on ! i feel sad not 2 be able 2 write u lil notes too >:( i stay up late just 2 see u send me a message fguh what have i become….. ella fitzgerald voice get a hold of urself…dnt u know tht it never can be !! u go to my head….

STILL . after tht other ask u sent :(( u sent me FLYING nd ORBITING…. i’ve joined the stars in their dancing nd spinning at extremely hot temperatures nd inner bursting !!!!! i feel like ive swalloed the SUN !!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot e…… this aint good for my mental stability luv xx !! we shld def watch another movie together nd !! fantasise abt al;lllll kinds of sweet homey things :(( 

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh i hope u sleep well tonight nd tht u have wonderful dreams :( tht u wake up feeling rested nd tht u start ur day on a positive note ! what else can a fool do but hope nd dream :( i cannot touch ur life nd i cannot coerce destiny into giving u kinder outcomes,, she’s cold nd adamant like tht :( but u know ! all tht we have is hope. nd so, it’s what i want 2 give u. it’s what i associate w u ! i . can only give u my hope nd my joy nd my heartfelt messages :(( i hope u understand. i hope thts enough for u. we’re mere humans after all ! idk why im getting all caught up in this :( but yeah :(( jamais vu is stuck in my head gyhks

gn !! gn !! gn !!

#tilia anon🍃 #ive been waiting 2 talk 2 u ! ive . waited so long dfgh but u shldnt feel guilty ! #its more like a realisation than an accusation #hm. idrk what else 2 say...im sleepie...... #i have class @ eight tomorrow but i have a lot of undone work i had forgotten abt nd it sucks fghjl #meh it'll all be fine i'll get it done in time! #i hope ur family's doing well nd tht ur pets too !! ilusm !!! <33 #also remember when i said tht i wished they did a fruity summery conceot #nd now bwl was released !! hehe #also what did u think of the concert props :0 nd the updated performances nd setlist !!! i wanna knoeee !!!

[nerville]

tag game!

tagged by - the beautiful @demeantors​ thank you katie!!

rules - you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

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the last 1. drink: iced mint hibiscus tea (bcos I'm Extra) 2. phone call: my mom lmao 3. text message: my mom. again 4. song you listened to: error by vixx (Good Song) 5. time you cried: idk?? I almost cried today watching wonder woman 6. dated someone twice: hahahahhahahahhhahahhhh nope not even once rip 7. kissed someone and regretted it: hahhahhahhh no 8. been cheated on: nop 9. lost someone special: kinda??? not rly??? hard to explain 10. been depressed: yea 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

3 favorite colors 12. blue (darker, like navy) 13. soft pink 14. gold

in the last year have you 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: no (ive fallen out of like tho,, I don't rly like to use the word “love” lightly for relationships) 17. laughed until you cried: lmfaoooo like all the time 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your friends are: yes I think!! 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: nop

general 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: one (1) because I have one (1) facebook friend and its my best friend lmao ((I never use fb)) 23. do you have any pets: no but I want!! 24. do you want to change your name: not rly??? a lil bit but not rly 25. what did you do for your last birthday: my two best friends surprised me at my house and we ate cake and watched Netflix and hung out together! 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: reading angsty bts fanfic on ao3 bcos I'm actual Trash 28. name something you can’t wait for: to go to Australia!!! I need to convince my dad to buy me a ticket ahhhh 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like 5 min ago 31. what are you listening to right now: russian roulette by red velvet 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: maybe?? I don't think so 33. something that is getting on your nerves: I'm surprisingly chill rn and cant think of anything and its been awhile since Ive felt this so I'm not gonna think about things and destroy the feeling :) 34. most visited website: tumblr 35. hair colour: dark brown/black 36. long or short hair: medium-long (mostly longer tho) 37. do you have a crush on someone: not anymore!!! the freedom!!! 38. what do you like about yourself: my eyelashes!! theyre rly long and pretty :’)) 39. piercings: ears 40. blood type: idk man 41. nickname: sanju (call me this and I will Cut You), ganj, gank (and variations upon it), jana, jana banana, sanny montanny (these r all I can remember rn lol) 42. relationship status: single and sad (not necessarily sad abt being single @ that one anon that came after me when I was feeling lonely and afraid id never have a relationship, just sad in general) 43. zodiac: virgo sun! 44. pronouns: she/her (for now, I'm a little unsure lately as to what i feel i am) 45. favourite tv show: parks and rec!! 46. tattoos: none 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: nope 49. piercing: ears!! repeat question 50. sport: I used to play soccer, and ive dabbled in football, volleyball, swimming, basketball, various styles of dance and I do Bharatanatyam rn (indian classical dance) also if u think dance is not a sport I will Fight You. crush you with my thighs. my muscular thighs. which have come from dancing. try me. 51. vacation: ?not sure I understand the question?? if its where I want to vacation, id say around Europe. like going backpacking or sth 52. pair of trainers: ????? still unsure abt what the question is????? I don't normally wear trainers/tennis shoes... I just,,, rly don't like them. I'm ok with laced shoes tho like converse or vans. just not. tennis shoes (its weird I know)

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: I went to kerby lane café for dinner!!! its a rly cute place and they specialize in breakfast food (I had French toast and eggs, and I shared pancakes w a friend) 54. drinking: ?? unsure abt question???? fave drink is rose water 55. i’m about to: noodle around some more on tumblr 56. waiting for: my dad to give me the big laptop so I can work on edits (but its 10pm rn so prob not gonna happen lmao) 57. want: to be happy and loved 58. get married: I want to in the future!! but I'm scared ill never find The One (more scared that no one will be there) so I'm probably going to have an arranged marriage. that's ok tho, my parents were arranged. and my oldest cousin will likely end up having an arranged marriage too, so *shrugs* its in the cards 59. career: I'm currently interested in dance therapy!! I want something where I can help people but also be myself and do something I love and enjoy, and I want freedom (tall order, I know)

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: hugs 61. lips or eyes: hmm eyes 62. shorter or taller: both r ok, I like being smol 63. older or younger: ?? like for a significant other?? eithers fine by me (as long as age gap isn't too extreme) 64. nice arms or nice stomach: a r m s (but stomach is a bonus, I don't rly care about abs or anything) 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER: 67. kissed a stranger: nop 68. drank hard liquor: no 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: yes 70. turned someone down: yes (ik, I'm still surprised someone asked me in the first place) (fun story, 2+(?) people asked me, ive turned them all down;;; first was bcos he was an asshole I didn't know, second didn't even talk to me but sent someone I didn't trust/like to come get me and I was wary, third was a close friend who I cant see as more than a brotherly figure) 71. sex on the first date: no 72. broken someone’s heart: not that I think? prob not 73. had your heart broken: yes 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: I don't know anyone whos died during my life, so not for real deaths. for fictional character deaths, yes 76. fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. yourself: hahahhahhhahhahahh sometimes, depending about what. do I believe in my Bharatanatyam skills? yes. do I believe in my ability to find happiness? no 78. miracles: yes kind of mostly 79. love at first sight: no. only lust at first sight. 80. santa claus: eh could go either way. id like to believe in him. 81. kiss on the first date: eh sure if the date went rly well 82. angels: again, I want to

OTHER: 83. current best friend’s name: irl: Shravani and sarah, on this hellsite: tyler (lob u tut *blows kiss*) 84. eye colour: dark brown 85. favourite movie: I don't have an all time fave, but I rly love dangal and wonder woman rn

#about me #god this was long #not hp