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silverwhittlingknife · 2 years

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In issue # 110 of Nightwing (1996), why did Dick look irritated (and clench his fist) when Tim told him that Bruce considered adoption (which Tim rejected obvs), especially since Tim's dad was killed (and Dick knows that)?

ANON YOU HAVE ASKED ABOUT ONE OF MY FAVORITE ISSUES OF NIGHTWING OF ALL TIME <333

Very short answer: it's the trauma

So the thing is, this is a heartbreaking issue that requires a lot of footnoting, because the emotional undercurrents are BIG and POWERFUL but the dialogue is deliberately understated?? and Dick and Tim are often not saying what they mean?? or just straight-up lying to each other?? and they're TALKING PAST EACH OTHER because

they both suck at communication

they are not even TRYING to communicate their actual problems - like, if Tim straight-up said, "A bunch of people I love are dead and I keep having nightmares about how it's my fault and I'm guilty and miserable and lonely and avoiding Bruce and I came to your city because I was reeling and I missed you and I didn't know what else to do and now I'm scared you're mad at me," that would crack through Dick's determination to keep his distance because Dick's whole thing here is based on the conviction that Tim is fine, but of course Tim doesn't say any of that, and Dick can't read his mind. And Dick's not quite as determined a liar as Tim so Tim is able to figure out a little more of what's going on with Dick vis-a-vis insecurities, but Tim's still completely missing what a colossal mess Dick is right now, and again: this is because he's not a mind-reader and Dick doesn't tell him! And doesn't want to tell him! And doesn't want him to know! So Tim thinks that Dick's maybe acting this way because he's mad at Tim, and he tries to solve the problem from that angle, even though that's not at all what's going on and actually Dick's miserable and traumatized and mad at himself

I love it so much

So the short-ish answer to your question is, Tim's correctly guessed at some of Dick's insecurities here. Dick's not mad that Tim's in the city, but Tim's right that the adoption was a big deal to Dick, and he's right that Dick's a little threatened by the idea of Tim getting adopted too. (This wouldn't normally be the case! But Dick was kinda uneasy about Tim in the early days when his own relationship to Bruce felt very shaky, and right now Dick's feeling like he's lost Bruce again, and when he's insecure about himself he tends to slide into seeing Tim as a rival - both in vigilante terms and in terms of a connection to Bruce.)

And probably the main reason Dick's so stunned - and a bit angry - here is because Bruce didn't tell him, and although this is very different from Bruce not telling him about adopting Jason... it's still jabbing at those old wounds.

BUT THE LONGER ANSWER is important! Dick loves Tim, a lot!! SO MUCH. He watches Tim sadly from a distance and thinks about how much he loves him in this very comic! So why isn't Dick more enthusiastic about the potential adoption? Why is he skulking around in alleys being miserable and self-destructive and avoiding Tim so determinedly that Tim's convinced he's offended Dick somehow? What's going on???

Well, Dick's life has been imploding.

So to really answer your question, we have to back up a bit and get the context of what's going on with Dick and Tim prior to this comic.

I started writing about this and it got way out of hand, so below please find a guide to my four-part manifesto about Nightwing 110 and what's going on and why I think it's great:

Background: Dick + Tim + Trauma Conga Lines

Background: War Games Aftermath

Nightwing 110

Fix-It Fic Ideas

rambling manifesto is below the cut

Background: Dick + Tim + Trauma Conga Lines

Images: a reporter is shot and killed in front of Dick in N 93; a few days later, Darla is shot and killed in front of Tim in R 129; a blood-covered Dick turns from Blockbuster's body in N 93; a blood-covered Tim stares at his father's body in IC 6

Timeline-wise, we're in The Bad Year for Dick and Tim. Dick's life has been FALLING APART. Blockbuster figured out his secret identity and started murdering his entire supporting cast: Blockbuster hired someone to attack Haly's Circus, blew up Dick's entire apartment building, and shot a reporter in front of Dick. In the climactic confrontation, Catalina Flores killed Blockbuster and raped Dick.

More or less simultaneously in War Games, Tim's life has ALSO been falling apart and his supporting cast has been getting gruesomely murdered. In quick succession, Jack figured out Tim's secret and Tim had to quit, Steph got hired and fired as Robin; Steph accidentally started a gang war; Darla got shot and killed in front of Tim during the gang war; Steph got killed by Black Mask; and Jack Drake got killed by Captain Boomerang.

It's a grimdark time in DC comics.

Background: War Games Aftermath

Dick's slowly recovering in the Manor as Bruce recaps recent events to him (Batman 634)

Now, Dick's actually part of War Games - very briefly. A day or two after Blockbuster's death, Bruce calls Dick for help, and Dick comes to Gotham. Dick and Tim briefly interact but Gotham is in flames, they're both freaking out, and they don't really help each other - Tim tries to tell Dick about Darla, and Dick shuts him down (not realizing Darla is actually Tim's friend); Dick has a panic attack in front of Tim and Tim drags him out of danger but gets snappish instead of worried.

AND THEN, midway through the gang war, Dick gets shot in the leg and ends up in a coma for a while. By the time he's recovered enough to wake up and walk around, Steph's dead, Jack's dead, the funerals are over, and Tim - who's avoiding Bruce - has moved to Blüdhaven.

Here's Dick trying to get answers out of Alfred in Nightwing 99 (Alfred and Bruce aren't telling him anything, either because they can't stand to talk about it or because they're worried about impeding his recovery):

Somewhere around here - presumably whenever he first learns about Jack's death? - Dick calls Tim, who doesn't pick up, in IC 7:

In Nightwing 99, it's implied that Dick leaves the Manor almost as soon as he wakes up, after confronting Bruce:

Dick can't bring himself to confess Blockbuster's death, but obliquely admits his own distress: "…Bruce, I'm lost." Bruce wants to solve things by throwing themselves into The Mission in Gotham: "It's just you and me again, Dick. But there's plenty of work to do." As he talks, Dick grabs his crutches and leaves. He confronts Catalina, arrests her, and tries to turn himself in... but Amy doesn't let him. As he's walking out, angry at Amy and at himself, a prisoner offers him a card.

Meanwhile, in the Batcave, Alfred's stunned to discover that Dick's abandoned his costume:

In Nightwing 107, we learn that Dick has ditched everything and apparently joined the mob - or is he undercover? Dick ultimately comes up with justifications for what he's doing, but a lot of what he's doing is punishing himself and hiding from his life. He's in Detroit for a while, but then has to go back to Blüdhaven, where he sees Tim...

...and now we're caught up with Nightwing 110.

Nightwing 110

I haven't had a chance to see Robin in action since the beginning of the gang wars in Gotham. It seems like just yesterday he was an earnest little computer geek too smart for his own good. He's still too smart for his own good and he can still kick butt with a search engine, but now he's a full-fledged superhero, to boot. Wonder if he knows how good he is? Not just at the fighting, but at keeping the whole thing on his terms. That's really hard to do, and Tim - he's been through so much, and weathered it so well.

Dick's been staying mostly in Detroit rather than Blüdhaven for various reasons, but one very important one is that he's been avoiding Tim.

Dick and Tim's relationship always suffers when Dick's self-worth issues get in the way, and this is probably the most dramatic moment AND IT'S SO SAAAAAD *wails*

From very early on, Dick has had a very high opinion of Tim, and - like Bruce's conviction that "you're better than me, Dick" - this is

very heartwarming and an expression of Dick's faith in Tim

very important to Tim, who tries really hard to impress Dick and (like Dick) hangs a lot of his self-worth on being needed and useful

a source of many sweet moments

but also

a source of problems in their relationship, because Dick's high opinion of Tim and low opinion of himself means he consistently underestimates how important he is to Tim, wonders if Tim would be better off without him, and sometimes thinks that keeping his distance is good for Tim so that Dick doesn't bring him down... and meanwhile Tim interprets Dick's distance as disapproval or hostility

When Dick's down on himself, he'll continually compare himself unfavorably to Tim - Tim questions more, Tim's better with Bruce, Tim's got better computer skills, etc. etc.

And that's what's happening here, when Dick watches Tim fight from a distance:

Dick: Still, Timmy played it through nice and clean. Disarmed the perps, protected and avoided the cops, kept any civilians from being shot... God, I love that kid. Too much to let him see me like this.

This isn't a neutral assessment of Tim's skills. This is Dick castigating himself. The implication is: Tim plays it nice and clean, Tim kept civilians from getting shot... unlike me. Elsewhere in this arc, Dick's been convinced that he's "poison."

He can't bear to see Tim because he's certain he'll only bring Tim down.

... There's a problem with his plan, though. Tim's spotted him.

Narrator voice: they were not okay

I LOVE THIS PANEL SO MUCH

Tim spots Dick before he can sneak away, and chases after him. At first he tries to tease light-heartedly - "Look at you! Back on your feet!" - but when Dick looks away grim-faced, Tim sobers and we get a bit more of his actual worries. (Tim will sometimes fake cheerfulness when under stress - both Babs and his friends comment on this in War Games and in Teen Titans.)

Now they catch up. Tim asks Dick if he's okay. (Dick says he is. He's not.) Where he's staying. ("Some people" are the mobster family.) Dick asks Tim how his step-mom is. (Tim says she's okay. She's not. She's had a breakdown.) How school's going. (Tim says school's okay too. Actually, he's dropped out.)

And now at last we've looped back to the panels at the top! Dick tries to retreat, and Tim - convinced that Dick is mad at him, which is really not the case - tries to figure out if Dick is mad at him for coming to Blüdhaven without permission, or about Bruce's offer of adoption. (Tim's self-worth issues mean that Tim's convinced that Dick is mad at him about something, as opposed to the truth, which is that Dick is spiraling and it has nothing to do with Tim.)

Dick (turning away): We - we shouldn't be talking like this. Tim (fake-cheer, acting as if Dick means "we shouldn't be talking with you in costume and me out-of-costume"): Well, go get your gear! Dick: I can't do that. Tim (more serious now): You're not mad I'm, like, in your city or anything? Dick (shocked): NO! No. I'm honored. You have more of a right to be here than I do. Tim: Is it the adoption thing? Dick: The what? Tim: 'Cause I was a little worried about that. That's kinda part of why I said no. I mean, that and the uncle thing. I was just thinking it wasn't really all that long since he officially adopted you, which was kind of a big deal, emotionally or whatever, and to me you're like totally his son and I don't wanna step on that or anything.

Dick (whirling): What are you talking about, Tim? Bruce is going to adopt you? Tim (hands up): No! I mean, he was. But he's not now. I've got this uncle… So I don't need, you know, anything really… from Bruce, or… You, uh. You didn't know. I'm sorry, I figured he would've talked to you about it or something. Dick (turning away, jumping off the balcony): Yeah, right. Fat chance. Tim: Well anyway, it's not gonna happen, so you don't have to worry about it... right?

Dick's unnerved by the adoption offer mostly because it drives home his distance from Bruce - he didn't know Bruce was offering this, and since Dick's been thinking of himself as Estranged from Everyone Forever, it feels like Tim joining Bruce's family - replacing Dick - instead of Tim joining Dick's family. So he reacts badly - EVEN THOUGH!!! AGAIN!!! DICK LOVES TIM A LOT!!!

So Dick emphasizes the distance he's trying to create: tells Tim that whatever he does is up to him and Bruce, not Dick, because Dick's withdrawing from everything. Actually, Tim should forget that he ever knew Dick:

Dick (pulls his hood up, turns away): Look, Timmy, I'm sorry. I don't care what he does. If he can be of help to you, you should take him up on it. I wish I could offer to help you myself, but I can't. I'm not part of this anymore. This whole thing… I'm out. Tim: Yeah, right… Dick: From now on, it'd be better if you forgot you ever knew me. Tim (echoing what Dick said): ...Fat chance.

Tim's hurt by this, and he's been pretty oblivious about what's going on with Dick, but he's not an idiot, and after a moment of hesitation he correctly figures out from this ramble what Dick's not saying, which is that Dick's feeling like he's worthless to Bruce, that Bruce doesn't value him, that he's lost that relationship. So Tim impulsively tries to reassure him that Bruce does need him... but Dick's in a lousy headspace and it doesn't work:

Dick's walking away. Tim chases after him again. Tim: Hey, uh-! Remember how I once told you that Batman needed a Robin? Well, that's still true, but even more than that, he…he needs you. You know, not like every second or whatever, but at the end of the day, he needs to know you're still on his side. It's…important. Dick kicks over a newspaper stand. Dick (glaring): YOU- ! - you have no idea how much of my life I've wasted believing that was true. Dick pulls up his hood again and walks away.

(Side-note: forever wonderful to me that both Dick and Tim use "need" as a synonym for "love." Issues: they have them.)

Fix-It Fic Ideas

I have spent a lot of time thinking about potential fix-it fics for this comic (TRAGICALLY AFAIK NO ONE HAS WRITTEN ANY, FEEL FREE TO BE THE FIRST). An idea that I offer free to a good home:

A bit after Dick leaves, Tim winds up in trouble and gets injured and Dick has to rescue him (how does Dick find out about it? I dunno)

Tim's injured so naturally Dick's gonna take him back to his home with his stepmom and/or uncle

. . . except the uncle is an actor and not a very convincing one; Tim's entire edifice of lies collapses

Dick realizes that Tim is not actually weathering things well

Dick still thinks that he's poison and terrible and awful and (insert self-hating monologue here) BUT Tim living on his own after his dad is murdered is so bad as far as Dick's concerned that clearly SOME kind of intervention is necessary

Tim insists he does not need an intervention

Dick's sense of responsibility and worry over Tim now force him to carve out time from his major project of hate-myself-and-feel-bad to try to look out for Tim

Dick insists that Tim stay with him until his stepmom is better

They share an apartment for a while

They are both still super-super-super traumatized

???

eventual hugs and healing on both sides

profit

Alternate fix-it:

Tim follows Dick back to the Tevis' house like the little stalker he is, and then introduces himself in disguise as Alvin Draper

Dick's furious and frustrated but can't do much about this without screwing up his own disguise

Tim's determined to figure out what's going on with Dick partly for altruistic reasons and partly because he's also running from his own life, but Dick doesn't figure out the second part until way later

Dick's so frustrated with Tim being here when Dick told him to go - plus wrapped up in wondering what Tim knows, and being paranoid about what he might figure out, and hating being observed - that it takes him a while to start wondering questions like, "wait, shouldn't Tim be in school"

Dick and Tim are pretending not to know each other - or pretending to have a hostile relationship, or something - so any real conversations have to be in snatches in secret

Dick tries to bluff/threaten Tim into leaving (for his own good!!) but it doesn't work

Slow crawl toward mutual awareness of trauma which they're both super-self-conscious about - Dick hears Tim crying at night; Tim hears Dick's nightmares or sees another panic attack

At some point it becomes increasingly obvious that they know each other / that their story about their relationship is fake, and when the mobsters confront them, Dick says yeah, he lied, actually Tim's his little brother, and he gives some kind of stylized version of the truth which doubles as an emotional speech to Tim who gets all choked up and hugs him

and it's very touching and emotional because remember Tim HASN'T been adopted so they're NOT brothers and Tim was worried maybe Dick didn't WANT to be brothers but Dick CONSIDERS him a brother so ;_;

??? i don't know what happens next. do they quit the mob? does Dick now explain his mob-infiltration plan to Tim?

meanwhile off-panel Bruce stops Deathstroke from blowing up Blüdhaven, well done Bruce

oh wait or maybe Cass does??

anyway Dick and Tim have hugged so then there's a happy ending

In Conclusion

IN CONCLUSION Dick and Tim should hug more and this comic proves it. Look at them! They both need hugs! They're standing so close to each other! THEY ARE MIRROR IMAGES OF TRAUMA AND BAD COPING MECHANISMS they need each other and they don't know how to say it - they want to help each other and they also don't know how to say it - they don't know how to talk to each other or to anyone else - Dick lashes out and Tim lies and they both isolate themselves and withdraw into depression loneliness even though they could help each other! and would want to help each other! but they won't ask for what they need because they don't think they deserve it and they don't realize how important they are to each other

i just think they're neat. i want to study them like bugs and rattle them around in a jar until all the masks come off and they can actually see each other clearly

#dick grayson #tim drake #dick & tim #long post #i LOVE this comic SO MUCH #the way they echo each other's phrases??#the miscommunication??#the tragedy??#the fact that underneath it all they both still love each other and they're TRYING??#ask tag #i know a lot of this wasn't really about your question anon but thank you for letting me ramble <33

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oatbugs · 2 months

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my research partner and i are huddled in a blanket in paddington waiting for a too-late train i already miss you and you and you

#he keeps falling asleep almost on my shoulder and waking up and readjusting but i want to tell him its ok weve seen a lot #of each other ive seen your brainwaves you called me crying a few nights ago. research partner right now is a potentiality #friend is a certainty. i met a banker passionate about finance. he said his advice made the lives of others better and he likes the numbers #more than he likes anything else. on a high rise near canary wharf the view was wonderful and the people even moreso #he said i loved her but i spent 33 grand on her and i cant do this anymore. his voice cracked talking about her. he did love her.#and she talked softly she grabbed my hand she bought me a pack of Marlborough gold she told me to snap #the russian menthol cigarettes of the tortured polish man near us with my teeth i kept staring at her teeth #bright white and sharp. i couldnt find her heartbeat but i did find warmth and i did find her lips and i did feel #how she felt pressed against a wall. a pretty boy held my hand and i gave him my number. i couldnt stop smiling about her no matter #how many runways youve walked on how many collections youve designed how many students youve taught. senior lecturer teaches me how to do #very unethical things ethically over a double shot of vodka made by the half-persian with broken farsi. she talks softly #and she says her eyes are hazel but they appear a shade of red. pure gold on her hands and leather on her back and her fingers on my lips #(she talks softly sees through me she says something i cant hear but i wont forget the way she flies) she talked to my research partner #about the possibility of moving to sunny dubai with the rest of her family and my heart felt pierced. on her arm i traces a tattoo of a #knife passing through a rose. she told me she thought there was romance in severing so i kissed her some more.#he sat me down and asked me what i loved and i told him and he said no romance no person no tragedy will take that from you.#the room was filled with a collection of people in love with something that wasnt a person and i kept looking at her.#red eyes bitten jawline beautiful hands. it is 3 degrees Celsius my head is on his shoulder i miss my friends #we walked out the lecture hall with arms linked a photo of two years ago and we both said #jesus christ. i miss you all. and i miss logic metatheory lectures. im glad i get to stare at the depth of your eyes #i wish i had met you years ago.#crushposting

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c00kietin · 3 months

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hoi cookietin just wanted to say you really make my day whenever you reblog my posts with bunches of super sweet tags <333 i rlly appreciate you and since I've been making lots of bracelets recently I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO GIVE YOU ALLLLL THE RAINBOW ONES AGHHHHHH Luv you/p hope you have a swell day/night besfrend!! ;3

To wake up to this in the morning was not what I expected, and to be honest, this surprised me- in the best way imaginable.

Would you believe me if I said I even cried a little from how happy I was seeing this-

Glastly, thank you so, so much for being my friend and for the kindness you give me. Seeing you post art, textposts, it makes me so excited and happy, not mention how delighted I get seeing you in my Activity, whether that is liking commenting or reblogging. You very much make my day as well, and I really do appreciate you as well. You are sweet, kind, funny, many many positive adjectives!! <<333

Thank you very much for the bracelets, they're very cool and rainbow-y B)

Love you loads!!! Have a wonderful day/evening, you wonderful person. <<33

#proceeds to stare at the drawing you made in awe #my art #and also #not my art #art #asks #love this #<<33 #thank you so much again ASJHDGHSAHGHAGKA #You're quite the inspiration for me #since you're around the same age as me and how incredible your art is #love you loads

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thebeanestbad · 5 months

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from a peter enthusiast to another,,, my question would be: why >:) (in a why do you like him way)

for me i loveloveleovllvlevolev his character development. from eg to shadow of the giant he’s so bad at doing things its so endearing,, he’s simultaneously trying his best whilst somehow doing his worst,,, he either thinks he has no idea what he’s doing or he thinks he knows everything when the reality is always the opposite. and he’s funny. he’s the only character that OSC doesn’t take too seriously which makes the Weird Racist/Sexist OSC Opinions that come out of his mouth just that much more bearable

YES you get it omg. Like in Enders game he was an interesting character but not really a lovable character, if you get my drift. But then in the shadow series you get the experience of him slowly becoming the worlds most powerful leader while also being a desperate 20something who just wants his mom to say that she’s proud of him.

At the end of the day, most books in the series are about being Just Some Kid being put into the absolute worst situation of your life. And while EG is the pinnacle of that, Ender always has a bit of a Main Character Polish on him. He’s allowed to fail, he’s allowed to make bad decisions, and he’s allowed to be insecure, but Peter is allowed to be pathetic. Ender fails way beyond the point where most people would break— and to his credit, so does Peter. But while Ender goes semi-comatose in his military officer’s space barracks after being forced to unknowingly commit xenocide, Peter gets depressed after failing to notice that his guest was planning to murder him, and his parents have to drag him out of bed and pour water on him. And then they have to go live in Ender’s space barracks so Peter doesn’t get murdered by the guy he invited into the Hegemony compound (for… some reason).

Also, there’s something very… uniquely 20-something about Peter. He’s in the odd place of being able to choose what he wants to do, and basically be considered an adult, while also having the ever-looming sense of “who the HELL let me be in charge of ANYTHING”. He has a touch of relatability that’s missing from a lot of characters.

In addition to all of that I love to see a cringefail losing.

#none of this is to put down other characters I love them to death #most of them #I may add onto this more when it is not 2 am and I remember more #but thank you so much for your ask this was so delightful <<33 #also fellow Peter enjoyers you know who you are. please add on to this.#peter wiggin #enders game #also despite the full essay I gave the last sentence accounts for like 90% of my Peter adoration

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feelo-fick · 11 months

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FOR THE ART REQUEST- Draw Smallkin sipping on some lemonade but he's as tall as the glass itself 😌

THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG AND I PUT TOO MUCH EFFORT BUT HERE HE IS

moominmamma made him the lemonade to help cope with the... small-ness (its heavenly)

bonus :

he dropped it D: maybe next time mamma should find one of those tiny toy glasses, like the ones in snorkmaidens dollhouse...

#moomin #moomins #moominvalley #snufkin #snusmumriken #moomin valley #the moomins #THANK YOU SKIPPY <33 #ill tend to your other asks soon i just spend so much time and effort into them for no reason BAHAHAH #love your au btw !!#smallkin au

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lovedazai · 2 days

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Maiii help I really really need dazai's cuddles today 😭 I'm okay mostly there's just a lot, I need some times to breathe you know 🤍

How are you doing this week lovely? Any plans? ^^

I hope you get lots of rest, remember to drink lots of water okay! 🤍

i hope you’re okay :< take a big deep breath when you read this for me !! no where feels safer than being snuggled up against dazai with his arms holding you against him….laying with your head on his chest while he rubs your back and plays with your hair and gives you little kisses on your forehead. he keeps his heartbeat nice and slow so yours can naturally fall into sync with his and you get all nice and sleepy <33

im okay !! ive made it through one of two scary appointments i have this week (づ៸៸៸◟) but im also getting my hair done soon !!!! what ab you?

#valentines #i hope youre feeling a little better :< ik im a little late to this ask #sending you all my love !! <33 #dazai love club ⊹ 𓂃 ｡ ‧ ₊

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volivolition · 25 days

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Ok, ok, rank all the skills from your favorite to least.

You can do this two ways:

* just a big tierlist with all of them (can also include the funky ones [limbic system, ancient reptilian brain and tie])

* or 4 tierlistes with all the types separated

(You can choose what you like more)

Good luck >:]c

OH THIS IS SO FUNNY BECAUSE IVE HAD THIS TIERLIST READY FOR A WEEK NOW HAKJSH <33

it must be said that i love all of them, even the ones on lower tiers. they're all so lovable in their own ways <33

limbic and reptilian brain are both in the blue tier after half light! and the tie would be in a space between yellow and green called "you are funny but im just not a tie kinda guy" hkjhg

EDIT: NOTES ON PLACEMENTS BELOW THE CUT!!

purple heart 💜 means ive got the gist down for their character study chapter in Swept Up (AKA i understand them a little better) and blue heart 💙 means i have a design for them. both of these boost them a bit hkjgh <3

Shivers, my city, my beloved of all time, La Revacholiere... what can't i say about her. she's everything actually. the world who loves you. the world can be saved. you can save her. Shivers!!! I adore you!!!!! 💜💙

EMPATHY!! My chosen signature skill! i have very high empathy and it is hell and empathy also struggles with that and imjgkjh hugs him. hugs him. you can be masc and sensitive and kind and loving, me handshake empathy. I love understanding people, i love you empathy you're so cool and im writing a whole ass fic about you. 💜💙

Volition. of course. if i said everything i loved about him we'd be here a LOOONG time. i love you "boring" skill, i love that you want to keep me alive, i love that you made a holy vow to keep harry alive, i love your poignant quotes and your silly quotes and everything you say ever and i love knights and protectors and imgnkjhf. YOU ARE WHY IT'S BEEN 0 DAYS WITHOUT ME CRYING OVER THE SKILLS!!!! dude you are so dear to me, i wish i could hug you, i am never going to be normal about you, there's a reason i named my blog after you hkjh 💜💙

Electrochemistry!! if he wasn't in besties, he would be in "You are so fucking funny" but i do adore him... im used to being called a "smol innocent uwu bean pure cinnamon roll aroace" YOU KNOW THE TYPE, and writing echem has let me write silly stupid pick up lines and inappropriate jokes that im constantly withholding. you are. so tragic funny, your lines make me laugh and then i'll sit and stare at a wall when i think about you too hard. i KNOW you can heal my guy im kissing you directly on the forehead 💜💙

Perception!!! HONESTLY perception could go into the besties category, i LOVE it, but i think friends suits it better. that's my senses and im very fond of it. guy who tells me what i see!! 💜💙

Esprit De Corps :]!! im very fond of getting to hear what the precinct is up to, and also what kim is thinking! Esprit is very community focused to me. 💜

Inland Empire! ohh my guy you say the darnedest things!! you're so interesting. used to be a skill i knew how to write for but like... i forgot?? somehow?? dude where'd you go come back??? i need to research him and write his character study so i can GET HIM AGAIN!! dude i love the words you say... 💙

Interfacing, THIS GUY!! love this guy. just a little tinkerer, prefers machines over people because he knows how they work. helps us get closer to kim! he's a sweetie... 💜💙

Reaction Speed! GUY JUST GOES FAST, catch what you miss, fast reflex fella!! reaction speed you're so fun, go swoosh for real...

Hand/Eye Coordination!! dude you are funny, i love that he just wants to throw things and catch things and shoot guns. very endeared by him hkjddh 💜💙

COMPOSURE YOU ARE INTEGRAL AND ALSO FUNNY. masking king and i LOVE characters who are really good at being the serious straightman of the group but are actually really silly and hide their emotions well, composure you are a queen and i love you. 💜💙

Drama!! ough. my liege, let's lie for fun. WHY?? WHAT?? YOU'RE SO FUNNY WHAT???? your whimsy is beautiful, ive always wanted to be a theater kid 💜

Savoir Faire!! you're SO COOL LITTLE GUY YOU'RE SO FUNNY AND SUAVE. i think you're so amusing savvy you're dear to me. DEAR TO ME!!!!

Pain Threshold! dude what is wrong with you (affectionate). thank you for helping me through pain, and your over-masochistic tendencies are extremely amusing to me. dude what is WRONG with you (endeared) 💜💙

Physical Instrument, THE COACH HIMSELF!! god dude, you almost went into the Threatening tier but no, no, you're too funny. i think you're so amusing, why do you SAY THINGS like that dude hkjgh. guy who wants us to jog and lift weights and hit things and is fucking hilarious about it?? i headcanon him as keeping most of the gym teacher memories, so he's good with kids... 💜

Suggestion!! dude you have some WILD ASS suggestions and i love you for it hkjhg

Encyclopedia is up here because of skillsposting i WILL NOT LIE, otherwise he'd be with the rest of the intellect skills hkjfh but also ency is so goddamn funny, i love your infodumps dude, i love that you just say random shit? the pop quiz and the contact mike... dude you're just. what!! (affectionate) i love the fucking shit you remember dude. sorry i just added 50 new words to swept up about him hkjhg 💜💙

Visual Calculus, this is my friend who can make cool light projections and i am FOND OF THEM, i think they're neat!!

Conceptualization, artiste extraordinaire, i ENJOY YOU!! i really like my design for xim, but im still working on her characterization. i love artists. i feel like she wants to see the beauty in things... i appreciate xer :] 💜💙

Logic, pretty neutral about this guy actually, but i do love a skill who tries to get everyone on track hskjsh 💜💙?

Rhetoric! im glad you help us talk good dude!! but you are so very argumentative and im bad at confrontation hkjdh i love communism though, you're so right for that 💜?💙?

Horrific Necktie! my guy please don't choke us and also you are a little too wild for me!! your suggestions are not what i want to do hakjhs but you're amusing and i like you.

Authority! dude, dude, i HATE confrontation nooooo hhkjh!!!! please don't make me exercise my position as a cop noOOOO!!! but i do love you though, you're in charge of some VERY important checks and you're very amusing.

HALF LIGHT ACTUALLY, we're switching her higher because i somehow forgot endurance is misogynistic and fascist?? hkgjh DIVERSITY WIN!! half light will kill everyone equally and we love him for this. like, i will not do your suggestions because i would rather not kill people, also you are very threatening and confrontational, but thank you for looking out for me?? i made a design for her and i think shes so interesting. shes very scared all the time and is not having a good time and i understand little one i get it :'] i will wrap you in blankets (you will burn them and thats okay) 💜💙

Endurance, my guy PLEASSEEEE get better ideology, but you're part of health gang squad and also want harry to live and you remind me of an older sibling who feels like he has to be the strong one while everyone else is weak, so you can stand in the way and protect the ones who can't take a blow. you will endure it... smiles sadly at him... 💙

Limbic System and Ancient Reptilian Brain!! i do love you, i promise, but the voice in my head that tells me i should sleep forever and never wake up has spoken to me for a long time and IM NOT LISTENING ANYMORE!!! we gotta live, little guys. there's a life worth living, worth waking up for. i know it's hard, little guys, but there's a future for us, i promise. also, lovely singing both of you!!

ough. in general i love all the skills. they all want what's best for harry but each of their definitions of "what's best for harry" skew wildly from "live a quiet, normal life" to "learn everything and infodump it to everyone" to "do every drug ever and then drink a whole bar's worth of liquor so you can get dopamine" to "go back to being a gym teacher!" to "FUCKING KILL EVERYONE YOU'RE NOT SAFE HERE" to "it's better in the dark isn't it? where you don't have to worry?" and im trying to understand all of their motives. i do love all of them. skills fan forever and ever <3333

OKAY THATS ALL THANKS FOR READING o7!!

#volta transmissions #hAHSKJH I HAD THIS. READY <33 i hope you are ready for an ask back because i wanna see your faves too <3!!!#volta do mar is actually up there with besties if we count her hkjhg i love you volta do mar... i have many thoughts about you.#kinetic dressage is with ''my friends'' if they count too. ough. kim skills :]!!#task: swept up

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fatuismooches · 6 months

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So, it's your boy, back at it again 💕

This one is not much, it's just a morning thought b4 I leave for exams, I don't feel well but man what's new 💀

I just wanna hold baby zandy and treating him how a real father, or mother would, to their child. I want to hold him, reassure him that he's not a freak like everyone says and leave the town for good, and watch him grow into a fine young man, even though his aspirations are dark. Innovation can be deviance to society, but that's okay, he's my baby, I never liked conforming anyways. I want to reach out and heal his inner child, one that was alone, abused and ostracized...

(Maybe because I want him to do the same with me, I have severe issues I want to ignore 😋 average dottore stan huh)

I just think dottore would have. ALOT of feelings if ur first instinct when you saw baby zandy for the first time is hold him and coo at him, picking him up n treating him how society would never treat his child self.

Cya smooches, I need to wipe my tears b4 I leave 😔

KAI I LOVE THIS SOOO MUCH ZANDY IS WAY TOO CUTE (also i know you sent this in like. freaking October IM SORRY i hope you're feeling better now though, and that you did good on your exams mwah mwah <3)

Okay but. real. It actually makes me a bit emotional thinking about comforting baby Zandy so much 😭 You would hold him so tenderly, stroking his hair and the little boy would be confused at first because why are you being so kind? Normally he's met with indifference or more insults when he talks about how others treated him - "a demon child like you deserves it" "a heretic like you has no feelings" so eventually Zandy just became used to it :( But you? Oh, you're the complete opposite. You cradle him so gently, in a way not even his own parents ever held him, and you say such kind words that they never had the decency to say to him either. That he's an excellent young boy, and he doesn't need anyone in the village to grow up, and that he has you too now, that you'll never let anyone hurt him ever again. And, the young child can't help but believe you this time, because this is all he's been longing for, for someone to accept him, to just show him basic kindness. He's attached to you like glue after that and you fill that parental role for him a lot :( bedtime stories n all and helping him eat vegetables and teaching him lots of cool stuff :( You can't change the past but... you can help Zandy feel loved now.

BUT YEAH ugh i don't even know how to express how Dottore would feel seeing you treat his child self so sweetly :( Zandy would like. Be a bit wary around you at first because of his general apprehension around adults but you just swoop in and give him the biggest hug and swing him around, smiling so hard and making a ton of effort to understand and spend him with Zandy... he finds you one night in Zandy's room, fallen asleep with him after reading too many bedtime stories and he just. indescribable.

#smooches talks #moots: kai <3 #zandy bb <3 #dottore love notes <3 #*wipes your tears for you*#but i agree tbh i think id start crying when im w baby zandy bc of everything he went through 😭#kai pls dont mind me i will be responding to your asks weeks later in the upcoming future <33 (ily pookie)

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kevjrr · 1 year

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For @lioneymessilva🫶🏽

Just neymessi being neymessi

#neymar jr #leo messi #neymessi #thank you for checking in on me and for your lovely ask #you’re an angel<33

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arthursfuckinghat · 2 days

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what's one of your favourite movies?

The lego batman movie :) 🫶

#I like a lot of dreamworks movies too!#megamind over the hedge how to train your dragon the road to el dorado etc #the prince of egypt too the music is so good #but also I love spooky stuff #midnight mass is my favourite spooky series ever #oh I love the sonic movies too 🫶 sonic was my childhood #I'm not really a disney fan but I love most other stuff <3 #mick squeaks #asks #thank you for asking <33

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veveisveryuncool · 15 days

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I'm thinking about naming my gardener waddle dee Daisy,any thoughts?

hfjsnjfngkxnv ohhh my goodness that's such a sweet name!! dandelion definitely thinks soWAIT NO DONT GIVE A FULL POWERPOINT PRESENTATION 😰😰

i think it fits nicely! honestly a good chunk of my gushing comes from it being a "d" name for a waddle dee. like how perfect is that aaaaaaaa ✨ AND it has the "ee" sound at the end! dais-ee! daisy dee! that's way too adorable omgomg

#i also tend to use daisies (specifically oxeye daisies) as little decorations in dandelion's fur #mainly bc theyre easy to draw and fit in thematically.. but lately ive been thinking of changing them to almond blossoms instead?#almond flowers are also p easy to draw and tie in thematically so im thinking ill start using those as dandelions main decoration instead #both are very fun to work with as cool little floriography easter eggs #but daisy as your oc name is just so adorable awmygosh <33 i love it 100%#if you do end up naming her daisy that would be such a cute pun name #ough i love ur oc sm shes so fun to draw <3 #gl with the name!!#kirby oc #gardener dee #ask

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madame-fear · 1 month

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Hey, I was just wondering, and you ABSOLUTELY don't need to reply, but you inspired me to write again, so I wanted to know what you thought...

I just got this idea sparked while listening to the one that got away by Katy Perry and bride or groom by India Parkman, for this Enzo x reader were best friends since like always, she fell for him, but never told him, cause she didn't wanna ruin things, they eventually stop hanging out as much cause life, and when he gets married to someone else, he asks reader to be his best woman, and it's just her regretting letting him go.... don't know if end it on a good note, with him not being able to say yes, cause of her...or leave it just in her regrets....

MY LOVELY LUCIA! I am terribly sorry I got to this slightly late! 🥺🙏💗

Anyways, for anyone who’s interested in reading this fic, here’s the link to it! Let me tell you,, I literally ADORED the idea— it’s super unique & beautifully angsty !! You worded everything so well, that I genuinely felt in reader’s place, I had a lump on my throat 😭🙏

PLEASEEEE I BEG OF YOU ON HANDS AND KNEES keep writing! Write more content, feed us with those beautiful writing crumbs of yours! The angst was so good, and the narration all flew so smoothly. HOW CAN YOU BE SO TALENTED????!! 🥺🥰❤❤❤

#I spot with my little eye an extremely talented writer in the making #no; not in the making... YOU ALREADY ARE SO TALENTED!!! <333 #thank you for coming to me and for tagging me! keep tagging me in all your works! 🥺💗💗#enzo vogrincic x reader #lucia <33 #┆ ⤿ 💌 come chat with amira .ᐟ ୭ #my mutuals <3 #loving my mutuals <3 #— [. 🫂 ] ; my mutuals <3 #ask box messages #ask box open #ask box #✧.* amiraverse

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girl-please-study · 7 months

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hi <3 i love your blog !! i open your blog everytime i feel myself losing focus and boom ✨ motivation ✨ my question is, what are your tips for a 10th grader who is extremely poor at time management?

Honestly I'd just say, Have Fun as much as you can. Ask any 11th grader or anyone in senior secondary they'll start reminiscing their 10th days because sadly that's the last any of us got to experience carefree joy.

Coming to your question, I'm sure you already know the "divide your subjects into slots" management tool. But what I like to do is, divide the day into “Energy Levels” and then fit the subjects according to the energy slots. For example, if you are waking up early, you'd want to utilise that time with doing Physics or Maths or looking at important dates from Social Science — basically anything that'll take much mental effort. When you're too tired you can go through diagrams or maps (they ask map based questions too!). This was just an example to guide you to make a personalized chart for yourself.

The trick to find what works for you is a, sometimes quiet lengthy process of Trial and Error. If you don't get the desired outcome na, don't think it's because you're this or that, don't blame yourself, maybe you didn't succeed is because the method you were using wasn't effective - change the method not the goal ok!

Other than that, try to make studying enjoyable by setting goals/rewards for yourself — once you start enjoying the process, other distractions won't cause you any problem. Try to set aside time to review stuff every other day, or every 2 days since you last studied it — reviewing is the most important task!

Again, I'd like to emphasize DON'T sacrifice all the fun, friends and social life just yet — iska bhi samay ajayega kaafi jaldh (11th next he h) /j

#misscalcutta #ask #ok i love your url. I Miss kolkata everyday </3 #also thank you for saying such kind words <33 #study tips #time management #10th boards

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beyondthegame · 7 months

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hello mila, hope you've been well <3 for the prompt, "I'm gonna kiss you like the sun" for milan, please? 💗 (yes, not an n ask, who is she?!)

You’ve fallen asleep here before. Everything is familiar; the sofa you’re laying on, the blanket that’s over your legs. You can probably make all of that out by touch alone. But you crack open an eye and know you’re at Milan’s house.

Though, there’s a difference. A big one.

The line between the two of you, the one that indicated whether your feelings for one another would stay as platonic or delve into something more.

The two of you crossed that line literally a few hours ago. A pinky promise, muttered confessions, infectious smiles and a pull forwards to position you closer to one another.

But that was then.

And now it’s hours later with the sun streaming in, Milan isn’t by your side and maybe the excitement is beginning to wear off. They’re the best friend you could ask for, is that friendship really worth ruining?

“You’re awake already,” you hear Milan’s voice murmur. It’s raspy, you can hear the tiredness in it by the faintest of margins but they still manage to smile at you. Albeit strained.

“You are too,” you utter back before sitting up and rubbing one of your eyes. “Don’t you have training?”

Milan shakes their head. “Day off,” they answer simply.

The two of you are tiptoeing around this. The confidence from last night is gone: there isn’t any help from twinkling stars in the sky, and it hasn’t reached 11:11 for Milan to make a wish. You’re both on your own…yet you’re both with one of the people you trust the most in the world.

You clear your throat. “You should sit down.” You pull the blanket away and allow them to sink into the seat beside you.

The silence between you both isn’t awkward, but it’s not free from tension. “I…” Milan trails off, their gaze glued to their nails for a moment. “You know that I meant what I said last night,” they manage to choke out.

You blink. “Which is what, exactly?” you begin to ask. “That you want to kiss me or that you have feelings for me?”

Milan’s eyes flit upwards, and they quickly scan your features for a sign, like the eager one they saw from you last night.

“Both,” they murmur after a pause, a slight crack in their voice because there’s no chance of turning back now. “I didn’t think I…I thought any feelings I had for you would stay as platonic.”

Your heart’s racing now. Your brief conversation about this same topic last night was casual, blasé, probably enough to be make the other think you were joking about any romantic feelings—this is more serious.

“And now?” you question.

Milan smiles, one that doesn’t quite reach their eyes. They’re nervous. “Now, I’m falling for you. I’m falling for my best friend without any warning, and it scares the shit out of me because I love how you and me are as is. I don’t want to jeopardise that for something that may not even happen.”

You hum, subconsciously shuffling closer to Milan. “You seem to have forgotten what I said last night.”

They blink. “We were tired last night, we said a lot.”

“True,” you utter, “but we also promised that we’d tell each other how we felt about one another. And I don’t think we’ve actually broken a pinky promise in years we’ve known each other.”

You hold your little finger out and Milan does the same, they watch your movements carefully. Your finger wraps around theirs, and the slight touch is enough to ignite warmth within you.

You try to steady your breathing, ensuring that your finger stays intertwined with Milan’s before they murmur a, “What now?”

You swallow hard. “I tell you I feel the same,” you say after a pause, “and I tell you that you can kiss me,” you whisper.

The words startle Milan a little, all before their smile widens and they lean an inch forward, tangling the rest of their fingers with yours.

You lean in too. Your eyes fall close and you can only imagine that Milan has done the same when your lips brush theirs.

“So, not just friends then?” you ask against their lips with a broad smile, feeling as their free hand creeps over your shoulder and gently holds the back of your neck.

“I personally think us as lovers sounds better.”

And then Milan kisses you. In the same way a genie grants an all important wish, in the same way a golden retriever can happily smile after making pleasant memories during the day.

The same way Milan St. Clair would kiss the sun, or maybe the world, because that is what you are to them.

#drabble #milan st. clair #I hope you’re doing well ri <33 #loving your new blog theme too #sending you lots of love #alsoo so shocked at this not being a n ask!#ri ✨

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