#like it doesn't even feel like covid

[jade-curtiss]

I mean okay like vaccines are, okay, arbitrary (i mean one of my friend refuse and just live in lock down sitting down while technically ok I mean that person is funny because like I think it's an intolerance due to a component but he is also having a condition, so it's like, he just go online and watch the show and be like "ok, why, people" and then there's dudes trying to poach him due the attitude and the pics like it's grinder "aaaaaye come with us" and he's like "ok yes but no but yes but no" then he throws shit in the discord because he's like "ok lol but if i go out with these dudes i die within..dunno kskskdkd") but like also masks are rather tricky. But yea, newly found disabled misery lifestyle yea.

#like i don't even know what i have but the symptoms are kind of funny ngl #like it doesn't even feel like covid

[gideonisms]

i'm trying my best but my best is so bad. It is so bad

#sick again... #i feel like i am having all the symptoms but testing negative for covid. i've already had the flu this year so WHAT is it now #love to get sick every 3 months. it's fun for me #i can't even get the stuff done i need to i am so tired and even when i'm not sick i am so exhausted #there has to be some way out of feeling this tired every day for the rest of my life. i have to be able to figure it out #the burnout just doesn't stop ever. i am so tired

[cannibalisticskittles]

woke up feeling like death warmed over and unpleasantly nauseated -- think i only got like 2.5 hours of sleep? which is partly my fault bc i did go to bed late, but not that late. i don't normally have trouble falling asleep but i felt Strange. bit of a sore throat.

so i was. kind of out of it for a while. overtaken by nausea. my aides were awesome and stepped in when a wave of nausea stopped me from beginning our morning routine, and shortly after that the worst of the nausea passed; oughta get them some kinda treat as thanks for always being on the ball and handling stuff like that

and i thought that it would be relatively smooth sailing from there. that i'd feel not great but Okay and make it thru the day. and that's mostly how it's been so far...... except that a whole fleet of students has been sent home with the same symptoms, and it's looking like we're having a fresh new covid outbreak, wheeeeee

#even tho i am 99% sure the nausea is bc of lack of sleep #i'm testing rn anyway just in case #don't want to expose anyone if i'm wrong #tho it feels more likely to me that i'm not sick now but i will Get sick in a few days from being around sick kiddos all week #we'll see tho. #if wearing a mask every day doesn't prevent me from getting covid a second time i'm gonna be So Mad #i know it's not magical but come onnnnnn

[liebelesbe]

passed the exam, I am now officially allowed to start my job in september 🎊🎉

#even tho I told them about the long covid stuff hell yeah #because let's be honest. 39 hours work week?? when I feel terrible after. a doctor's appointment. hmmmm #doesn't seem like it'll work out to me! #but at least I'm officially allowed to try ✌️😌 #doddie redet #now I'm gonna hashtag miss my fucking bus #because it leaves in 10mins but I have to wait over 10 mins for the bus that'll take me to where my going-home bus is :^(

[davepetea]

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#ooc post. #.vat file #I'm. really sick. #I dunno if I got salmonella poisoning. bc there was some raw chicken in the back of my fridge that I completely forgot about. #and a couple like. exposed things in my fridge tasted like the smell of raw chicken?? #so I had to throw a bunch of stuff out and clean out my fridge. #but I've been feeling really awful. and I'm like really sensitive to food poisoning anyway. I dunno if bc my mum used to (and still does) #overcook literally everything to the point that she burns it. which is fine but then if anything is even undercooked by a second. I'm ill #but this doesn't feel like food poisoning? I feel sick etc but I've had migraines and a fever and it's almost like the flu a little bit? #it's probably not covid I did a test but it doesn't feel like covid... #sigh sigh I just wanna sleep a whole lot but I gotta catch up on all the homestucks lmao #unsanitary;; #mayb. #/rant off

[smoothie03]

Everytime I realise I'm as old as Ludwig or Feliciano in their human/physical age my head doesn't want to accept that and it feels SO wrong.

Like wdym I'm 20 and not idk 16/17 anymore -

When did that happen-

#Covid messed up my inner clock #I feel like I'm stuck at 17 and not 20 #The lack of experiences I have doesn't make it better lol #I don't feel like I'm an adult yet but at the same time I'm not even a teen anymore

[gynecologistmsfrizzle]

sick and fucking tired of abled people wanting me to hold their hand and reassure them we can still be friends if they don’t wear masks. fuck you. don’t you dare ask me “is it okay if i keep my mask off?” you KNOW the answer is no. you already know i don’t want your fucking covid because you have EYES and I’M WEARING A GODDAMN N95.

people only ever ask that question because they KNOW your response is going to be “oh, um, i don’t care...” bc responding any other way makes you look unhinged and demanding. nobody is ever gonna tell you to put a mask on. do you understand that? nobody is EVER gonna ask you to put a mask on, no matter how high fucking risk they are. “you can’t tell me what to do with my body” NONE OF US EVER WILL.

when you say “stop trying to force me to wear a mask,” what you are actually saying is “stop reminding me that my choice not to wear a mask is selfish and ableist, because that makes me feel bad about myself.”

the first point would be a fair request-- much as i think you should be masked, i sure don’t think anyone should hold you down and force it on you. but nobody is doing that.

the second point is not a fair request. kill us if you want. fine. i can’t stop you. but you will look us in the fucking eye when you pull the trigger.

#my classmate tried to have a conversation with me about why i seemed frostier than usual towards her #and i was like listen. you already know the answer to that question. #(she did know the answer. she brought it up immediately.) #you don't want me to explain how hurtful it is to see you preach anti-oppressive practice with your unmasked mouth. #you already know. #the reason you're bringing this up is because you want me to reassure you that you're the exception. and you're not. #when i talk about how much it hurts to see abled people throwing us by the wayside bc they don't feel like inconveniencing themselves #even slightly #to save our lives? #that's about you too! in fact that's fucking ESPECIALLY about you! #i watched you go out to parties maskless all through covid! i watched you show up to class in flimsy single layer cloth masks #and take them off at the slightest opportunity #and drop them the second the mandate ended! #and now i'm watching you talk about harm reduction and disability rights ?? do you think i have my eyes closed ?? #i am not forcing you to wear a mask. in fact i have told you EXPLICITLY that i will never pressure you to wear a mask. #but i also refuse to lie and tell you it's fine and that your convenience outweighs people's lives. it doesn't. #no matter how hard you try and bait me into saying it. #this is not just about this one person. i'm thinking of her specifically but this is about every so called leftist who threw out their masks #either your progressive politics are a steaming pile of crap or you just don't think disabled people should be part of your visionary future #it's one or the other. PICK. #rhi talks

[bluesunsdusk]

--// I have been ooc a lot... but... I am making a storyboard and learning I really only hated storyboarding because I hated school assignments, so I can thank Blizzard and the Overwatch team and Ramattra for making me realize that storyboarding is cool actually and I need to add more of them to my portfolio. I only have two I find presentable right now... ))

#ooc also if anyone is interested my art acc lmk it's inactive atm bc covid made me the big sleepy #ooc #had to put commissions on hold so sketching is all I'm currently capable of and uh that's storyboarding #you don't storyboard with a full illustration #if you dp you're not an efficient storyboarder #i use my twitter more for art but you know how it is #i been inactive there through covid and recovery too #i feel bad because i don't like making clients wait but luckily my current client is a guild friend #honestly i should check how she's doing bc she is super nice even if my socially awkward ass doesn't know how to talk to her sometimes

[katya-goncharov]

ugh i got scheduled for a ridiculous amount of overtime shifts at work AGAIN and now i'm going to have to pluck up the courage to talk to my manager about it

#TEN extra hours i got sceduled in for this time when i'm only supposed to do 17 a week! #and they didn't even ask me #and maybe it doesn't seem like a lot but i have a university degree i have to study for at the same time which is quite a lot of work #and also the whole neurodivergent thing. i just genuinely do find it difficult to handle a lot of hours and weird shifts #and honestly it's rude not even to ask me if i'm available that week! i mean it's the weekend i was planning to maybe go visit my friend #but ugh i hate having to ask for stuff and i'm going to try to find a really really polite way to talk to my manager about it #but i feel too timid and i don't want people to dislike me. ugh this is just such an uncomfortable stressful position to be in #and my mental health has been spiralling in a way it hasn't since covid just from stressing about it all which. DEFINITELY not a good sign #emma vents

[youssefguedira]

so so sleepy

#i have to be out 10am tomorrow but i'm really having a moment of 'what if this sore throat means i am about to die' so that's been fun #if i have covid i'm gonna be so so pissed i've been careful but it does feel like i am the only person still being careful #not sure i'll ever be able to transition fully out of masking! at least for the next few years! it's not like covid is no longer a thing #and like. even if it wasn't. i don't know how i'll ever be comfortable in large crowds again #its like. wow that was a fucked up period of time. hope it doesn't have any long lasting effects on my psyche #anyway. i am going to sleep. we got the movie next month #neon has thoughts

[thecoolerliauditore]

screaming cus I love rendog i love rendog i love rendog i love rendog. ouppy. deserves all the love in the world.

#random thoughts #im about to be unhinged in these tags beware #i cant for the life of me remember where i heard it from or if i just came up with it on my own but #i remember some conversation about the healthiness of escapist media #and like how some ppl insist on escapism being inherently bad because its almost like a shield from reality that lets you not confront #your actual issues #but the important thing abt escapism to me at least is its ability to let you come out of the other side stronger irl #even if you don't realise in the moment that it's helping you #it's like when a kid watches like naruto or something and it inspires them to never give up but in a more sneaky adult way #and just being a young adult coming out of covid is so full of uncertainty about the future #and just like #even tho they're funny minecraft ppl who I 100% watch for the funnies #there's something abt seeing these 40 year olds living their best life and having fun despite having to deal with adult life #there's like a specific charm to these episodes where the hermits are just being human #AND REN STOP APOLOGISING FOR IT #and something about it is just like yeah #I think I'll be okay #ren is so so so so so. #i hope he doesn't feel the need to be strong for us all the time.. his advice is amazing #stupid friggin dog ears minecraft man made me cry I am an Adult #hermitblr

[bethanyactually]

I feel like Jack would be the first to say...nice.

#this just made me laugh #and I needed a laugh because covid finally hit out house after two years #my older daughter is sick with a sore throat and just generally feeling crummy but otherwise she's okay #none of the rest of us have any symptoms yet so we're waiting to test everyone else #sick kid is camped out in the basement with the good TV and the big couch being waited on hand and foot #(masked and from a distance of course) #the rest of us are just kinda hanging out doing our best to think healthy thoughts #my husband is working from home even though technically he could go to work since he's vaxxed and not having symptoms #but his supervisor was like 'people keep coming to work with sick family members and then they test positive too so just stay home!' #my mom is here visiting so we're just really hoping she doesn't get sick just in time to mess up her plans to go home #we wouldn't mind getting to have her here for longer but my dad and her other grandkids miss her #at least we finished school a couple weeks ago and we got to do all the end-of-year fun stuff and a graduation celebration before this #it's like the universe said 'hey congrats on finishing high school kid! here's covid as a graduation gift' :P

[batsandbabydolls]

I am straight up NOT having a good time right now

#adhd hell brain trying to do schoolwork at the last minute #this is so stupid because technically I'm ''studying'' #but actually I get GRADED on this stupid REVIEW SHEET based on how detailed it is #which isn't how I study at all but whatever #straight up just feels like the stupid busy work they gave me in high school #that used to take me like 6 hours because it was so boring I couldn't focus on it #and college courses basically never make you do stupid shit like that but this professor is built different <3 #honestly with the state MY fucking brain is in right now I'd probably just try my luck with the test #maybe just study a few of the things I'm less sure about because that's all I've got the mana for #I got fucking MARKED DOWN for my LAST study guide for ''not being detailed enough'' #like what do you want from me? this is how I study and I got a 92% so CLEARLY it works for me #also not for nothing the specific part I got marked down for was the material we covered in the class I had to miss #because I caught covid IN HER CLASS #and I'd emailed her to ask what I should do to catch up on that material #because she deliberately doesn't put the information from lectures on her slides #and she didn't answer me until AFTER we'd already taken the exam for that material #also not for nothing (again) but I'm pretty sure SHE also caught covid because she was coughing for like two weeks #around the time there was a known exposure in our class #and not only did she continue doing class in person #she didn't even wear a fucking mask!!

[freddiekluger]

super super fun being a trans person in australia rn having to fear for the safety of my trans friends who are able to be out on the streets protesting and organising even with covid and attending self defence collectives to protect themselves from being hate crimed more than they already have, all while doing what i can from isolation on top of dealing with the general trans disabled shit and then interacting with my cis friends who like. can't even be bothered to ask a simple how are you holding up or are you okay when literal homegrown nazis are advocating for the end of trans existence on the steps of state parliament and groups of religious fundamentalists are harassing people en masse in local queer suburbs with police protection. heaven forbid they actually try to help us in any meaningful way or even signal that they care at all

#there's something about watching your friends begin to opt out of politics as they start thinking it doesn't affect them personally that #sucks tbh. its so fucked up because while on the one hand the fact that i am nowhere near having the kind of financial independence #i would need even to start hormones is awful and really does a number on me rn i cant help but be grateful for the fact that i know i'm a #hell of a lot safer because i just look like a quirky alt cis woman to most people instead of a clocky gnc man #idk many feelings i have been exhausted lately so excuse the lack of activity and vent post ✌️ #dont even get me started on the fact that pretty much the only person i know who takes covid seriously anymore because i know i can't #risk pretending it doesnt affect me. i havent had meaningful physical contact in like two years its fine though im feeling really normal

[17yearcicada]

do that many people actually loose their virginity in high school? that can’t be real. teen dramas have got to be lying to me

#like i have a biased perspective bc a) covid pandemic and b) i'm at an itty bitty baby school. but like #that doesn't feel real. half the high schoolers i know haven't even dated anyone #.txt

[pvremichigan]

love u guys :)

#but seriously I'm sorry to those who wait months and months for me to respond to you #I promise I'm trying to get any motivation to write. At this point the adderal (prescribed) isn't even helping. #I'm a lil burnt out especially since my dumbass likes to hoard asks and drafts and never touch them #but i adore that so many people want to write with me. #I promise you are not forgotten. I'm just very slow with getting to things. Especially long threads. #Eugh shit's hard. And this year has been a pain in the ass too. #Within January #we got covid #then my roommate said she doesn't feel welcome and she's leaving #so we have to wait a whole year to get another roommate #and our rent went up to over 1000 #so Jay and I are going to be busting ass trying to afford bills #I'm mostly active on Discord and somewhat active on my server #dm me btw if you want in. It's dead bc no one wants to interact there but if you throw a character into one of the channels i promise you #will be responded to #anyways it's just been extremely rough and my energy to write has been non existent #but I'm always here to talk on Discord and plot and discuss character stuff and just make friends #I do want to interact I promise #I do a lot of dash com to get small spurts of motivation going so that way when it dies I don't have to draft it up #Please come talk to me about your muses #please #and please come talk to me to just talk #Tumblr dms are ass I'm bad at responding to them #But just come talk to me #discord is Heck1497 #lmk who you are if you add #I wanna interact and answer asks and I will! It will just... Take a bit. just be extra patient with me if you're able to. #If not I completely understand if you want to softblock #Otherwise I'm here. I see you. You're not forgotten. All nearly 20 of you that I have a draft/ask from #I SEE YOU. I WILL REACH IT WHEN I FINALLY CAN I PROMISE