#like idk i just dint like it

[ninjasmudge]

i made these when s3 came out to try to understand the difernces in animation style, wanted to do all the characters but i never got around to it so im just posting these little s1 vs s2 vs s3 comparisons + a couple of redraws

the little things i pointed out aint hard and fast rules, they still change around a bit, i was just trying to get a feel for general style

#im not an animator or anything i just like to try to mimic styles #the redraws were fun trying to imagine the scenes in the more updated style #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #mk #sun wukong #lmk sun wukong #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #idk i dint get to really go itnto the other characers so i wont tag them #i had part of a mei one but i didnt wanna finish it so i just watermarked these and m postin #hope someone finds them interesting #my art #mk art #the draft these were in is dated jan 26 because yeah

[bangcakes]

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#personal #ladies... its lovesickness on the menu again tn NDNNDNDNDMDMDNDMDMDMDM #god help me #i made it like 29 years without this. why now NFNDNDNNDNDNDNDMD #like ok im happy to be experiencing this in the sense that like... now ik what it feels like to really like someone #but man oh man is it... A Lot #and like maybe its this intense at any age. but idk..... it feels like So Much..... #and im freaking out bc i talk to my mom about it ok. and shes like oh ya that reminds me of how i felt with ur dad in the beginning n im #just... like ... o #bc my parents were like friends first and are like in Love love and have a v happy marriage so im just #the... Potential of having that n like oh god idk. i just dont know its all too much...... #and im also like what if its all in my head. but then again like why is he waiting around for me n messaging me out of the blue. #i also caught him staring at me n looking away after i caught him. i just..... idk like i wanna Believe so bad but im so scared too........ #im all over the place JDJDDMDMDMDMDMDMDNJDND #but i also am just..... i'll be patient .... bc rushing is no good #like idk. i feel like things have been Moving. and its not super fast but its a pace i can handle #bc ok say i Do ask him out or he asks me.... then oh fuck. then all the Scary things happen. like ok not scary #i dint think itd be scary with him #but idk.... physical... things. would start happening n like. id l9ve to hold his hand n like k___ him ok OK. but at the same time i just.. #idk !!!!!!! im v shy !!!!!@@@@@ and ya. ....... idk 😭😭😭 #like i like him so much that i think id want him to .... i just .. ya idk. #getting kind of ahead of myself here but what else is new

[always-a-joyful-note]

Reading Toma's 16 idol story is great because once again we get possessive Zool over their leader.

#sure i dint condone most of the relationships in media for irl people #but ill be entertained nevertheless by it in fiction...within reason #perhaps veering into insanity but hopefully not...idk...depravity? #anyway zool is like if three out of four did not really believe they could be a found fam but were so determined... #...and the other one was just like 'but we are a family? anway about my other fam -' #they are a riot and thank you toma 16 idols #idolish7 #fandom spamdom #note's notes

[digital999placebo]

Lukas has kind of a sailor get-up, so some sailor tattoos for him. Peter's jealous, but until he gets old enough for the needle, Lukas ballpoint pen will have to do. 

#REUPLOAD bc the last one fucked idk what happened #ok whatever copying tags: #i wanted to give den sve n nor some tattoos but id dint know what #first i wanted them to have tattoos from when they were vikings #but 1. they were kids back then 2. theres no proof that vikings had tattoos #n even if they had theres no remains so idk what theyd look like #and im not in the mood to sketch out a bunch of designs #so sailor it was #hetalia #hws sealand #hws norway #just based on that scene from loranga masarin n dartanjang where masarin wants tattoos #999art

[perilegs]

can someone pick me a new ear piercing to get, here's my current layout

#do not say daith i know it would fit so well but i had one and #first of all the maintenance was hard and it made a lot of things difficult #but after i had it for like? i think around nine months? i had to take it off for my top surgery and the hole closed #so now i have a boring ass layout bc theyre all just in a line #i think a conch might b cute but idk if it would break the line enough #also my other ear has just two lobe piercings bc im basic like that gdvfjdb #leevi talks #also ignore that some of the holes look a bit. unprofessional. bc they are #on this ear i have. two lobe piercings done with a piercing gun when i was a child #one lobe piercing done professionally but by a shop that uses externally threaded jewellery #one helix piercing done professionally but in a shithole that also uses externally threaded jewellery #and two helix piercings done by a friend in her kitchen #also i dint want a tragus bc it's going to be even more annoying than a daith

[girl-bateman]

Some days I'm pretty content with my childhood other days I'm ripping my hair out because it just doesn't add up !! someone is hiding things from me !! I don't trust anyone !!

#im studying 'family as a psycosocial context' rn and its been pretty interesting! #and i was talking to my mom an article with an evolutionary perspective #bc we've talked before abt how this area of psychology can come off as dismissive abt socioeconomic factors & put unfair pressure on mothers #so i brought it up bc the paper didnt define parenting in terms of good/bad which was interesting ! #but then at the end i said something abt 'the article talks abt abuse which obviously isnt relevant for me' #and she wouldnt answer me but her eyes were all watery and weird and I DONT LIKE THAT #like girl 😟 i was coming to terms with the occasional childhood neglect but abuse ? dont even tell me that bc what #like i know things werent perfect for me growing up but i hate how weird my mom is abt everything #and she starts crying if we get too much into it so i feel a little bad bringing it up #i also feel like when i do get new information abt something in my past it always makes me have a crisis #so maybe its just not worth it ? #bc i do feel like im in a rly good place rn and i dont need to know if i was 'abused' whatever that means #what i do know is bad enough and makes me sad as it is #i think the reason i get so paranoid abt it is because i have trouble remembering the stuff that has been told to me #and some vague things i do remember have been refuted ? so i cant rly trust my own memory #but idk if i can trust anyone else either #i mean i do trust my mom generally but shes so emotional and guilt-prone that im not sure what to believe #what i do know for sure is that there is a lot shes holding back in terms of what shes told me #which i dint love tbh #personal

[thewitchqueen281]

I know a lot of people liked the show but also a lot of people liked fallout 4 so idk if any of you mfs can be trusted

#fallout new vegas #i am SO pretentious about fallout and im happy to be #literally i hate how the ghoul looks so.much #MELT THAT MAN #I WANT THAT MAN GREEN AND YELLOW AND GRENREGINOUS #ghoul fuckers you people are barely even monster fuckers #thats not my ghoul!! #also the ghoul lore in the show dorectly contradicts the game lore #you dont start going feral you either are or your arent #its qlso literally a dorect reference to the VERY REAL horrors of atomic bombs #its why feral ghouls dint have clothes #they were so close their clothes got disinterested #also there arent more ghouls unless a bomb goes off #you only become a ghoul by being in proximity to a bomb #being a ghoul is also like were making light of it but #while not immortal thats just how some.people like #looked after the nukes in the real world dropped #we like to joke here but fallout is at the end of the day a very intense political satire #and to dull any of that down to basic zombie horror.... #idk it doesnt sit right with me?

[androcola]

About my previous ask, I’m about 15 to 16, so would shipping minors be bad? I don’t want them to do anything sexual, just a silly romantic relationship, and I’m wondering if that’s weird

idk man i just work here

#asks #anon #likw 😭😭im sorry im not an authority on any if this i dint feel comfortable commenting #like ..if ur a kid whatever?? just dont ship a kid with an adult and youll be fine idk. why ask me i dont get into ship stuff anyway #sorry if i sound oike a bitch bbut whaat. whaaaattt😭😭

[lesbianaglaya]

revoking people’s right to talk about the tolstoy marriage until they write and turn in to me a ten page essay on complex relationships

#‘tolstoy STOLE from sophia’s diary’ almost certainly not true. #at least not in the usual vein - sophia was (and should be credited as!) at the very least his editor and collaborator #with w&p at times i want to say co author but i also dont think we should diminish the importance of editing #they worked as a team! and in the later years when thier relationship was increasingly frought they were BOTH reading each others diaries. #the problem is there is genuinely an avenue to talk about how tolstoy drew from real life in less than ethical ways #tanya bhers/natasha rostova for instance. THE KREUTZER SONATA! FOR INSTANCE! #but diminishing it down to oh he stole from her is. a disservice to both of them. #sophia confessed her love by writing a story that blatantly copied real life and lev’s personal insecurities confessed in confidence #and honestly that isnt even BAD like there is a reason they were happily married for 25 years! they’re work is similar they were a team! #we dint need to flatten it out to sophia-wife-victim lev-husband-abuser. #nor do we need to ignore the many ways sophia suffered! #it’s just theyve been reduced to a famous literary disaster marriage when they really… werent that. #gabby.txt #genuinely tanya as the inspiration for natasha is far more upsetting to me than giving his diary to sophia before the wedding. #idk. idk! its like on one hand im so fully on sophia's side and im so happy that her diaries and writing are being translated #and. not even on the other hand these ideas arent in opposition to each other. reducing her marriage to a flat picture of suffering is. bad #actually i think in many ways the problem is solved by looking at sophia as an author instead of a wife. #which like. she was very much both. but if we afford her the agency afforded to an author i think the conversation immediately gains nuance #and that also comes with the caveat of female authors being far less respected - look at nadezhda khvoshchinskaya - but still #anyway GOOOOD morning

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #it literally takes #idk #like 1 minute #one message #and now im like #winded and lack motivation and #i feel like a dejected dog? #idky i keep venting on tumblr dot com of all places #i guess it just feels nice to know im screaming into a void and dont have to interact with people rn #not that i dint appreciate it but its so much to try to think of a response #also bc rn i just??? want to bitch and moan and feel this out for a little idk

[im-just-tired2024]

PSA: I know not everyone had a good home life growing up. This is about me and my life and feelings. I’m not wishing bad things on anyone else or wish they can go back to abusive situations. (Feel like this needs to be addressed first cause people seem to lack critical thinking skills or straight up ignore things that are very clearly not about them)

*Sorry if that sounded aggressive or rude but I feel like media literacy is dying

Anyway, wishing to be an adult quicker and daydreaming about being an adult was the stupidest thing I wanted. Like don’t get me wrong it’s nice to have freedom from my parents and family; parents can’t really tell me what to do (in a way but even when you’re grown ass adult and move out they still tell you what to do) like they could and did as a kid/teen and I have my own home and can decorate the whole place and not just my room how I want.

But like I just miss that innocent and youthful time of my life where I didn’t really have a whole lot of responsibilities outside of school and chores. My parents were always really cool and pretty much gave us a lot of leeway to do things. Like late curfews and we didn’t have to have a job in high school. The only thing we needed to focus on was good grades and doing chores. I.e generally speaking I could do most things I wanted to do except like smoking and drinking and partying all night type of stuff (but I wasn’t interested in that stuff anyway so I guess that point it moot)

I know high school isn’t the best years of your life and it was pretty good for me but not necessarily something I’d desperately want to relive. But I just wish I tried more in school and paid attention and actually put effort into things and got my head out of my ass. But I just fucked around and acted like a dumbass.

Even in my early 20’s I just made bad decisions and made changes and made certain choices that I didn’t have to and was just being stupid and now I’m paying for the consequences. I did good my first 3 years in college but acted like an ass cause I don’t know why.

I’m just so tired and exhausted from work and life and I’m just thinking about everything I did and I realized I took a lot of my childhood for granted and screwed around and acted like a dickhead when I should have been focusing on school. But I was ungrateful and daydreamed and fantasized about life instead of enjoying the moment and being grateful for the freedoms my parents gave me that other kids and teens my age didn’t have.

I really just want a break from life and have someone else take care of me for a little bit. Im just tired of all the crap from customers and my boss and my every day life. Even stuff around the world seems to be getting worse and worse every day. I know things were always bad all over the place. It’s just 10-15 years ago no one really talked about it but idk I just feel like things are worse??

Anyway this is a rant and I’m not looking for sympathy and I just needed to vent and get my thoughts out of my head. Without an irritated sigh from my little sister followed by “i know. Me too” or my parents telling me “I told you so”

I’m just tired of dead end jobs, exhausted with everything and everyone and I’m unhappy with my life and my choices right now. It’s whatever and I’m sure in 5 years I’ll be fine and in a better headspace and job. I hope….

#personal #might delete later #but idk #probably will forget I did this #but also will be a little too lazy to delete #i just need to vent #you may ask why post this? #and to that I say why not? #also i dint like having drafts saved #it annoys me

[bangcakes]

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#the more it sinks in... the more surreal it feels. like HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #the Way i doubted whether he wanted to keep in touch with me when literally..... said he would... how he always answers me... #messages me when he has news kr something to say..... hangs out with people he doesnt like just to have like.. moments with me.... #i really cant handle it OYXKYDKYTKDDO #its so fuckin weird. like even if we end up just friends... the experience has been so wild..... #like lmao this time last year we had had like. 1 conversation JDJDJDJXJZJZ #literally sat a seat away from each other an entire semester and dint talk til the last day. oh its so funny #god i cant believe we're friends.... #i havent talked to him since i saw him last week at that dinner.. i cant really think of anything to say BDDNDDNNDND #been focusing on job applications #i handed a second one in yesterday and started a third today. hoping to have it done tomorrow but... its not due until feb so... i have som #time to perfect it :)))) #i really hate this stuff. like god it takes so much out of me..... #i'll probs update him on how many ive applied to idk. trying not to overthink HDJDJDJDJDJJ #im not really the type to message unnecessarily and neither is he so hhhhhh lmao #itll be fine.... #personal #have i mentioned hes my favourite :p

[pneumonic-screamers]

I think my worst trait is that I need too much. and I don't mean in a "I'm needy" way I mean it in a want things so bad that I cannot discover it from need and it turns into a need when I start feeling ill over it

#jinx's hijinks #example. i get attatched really quickly to people who are interested in me romantically. this is probably because my last ex abused me. #but that attachment becomes extremely unstably very quickly too. if they arent talking to me or interacting with me. #i crave them to the point of not being able to focus #not being able to think about ANYTHING other than them and then it manifests physically #with nausea. throwing up and various other bad things #like it can cause genuine suicidal ideation #and idk i questioned that maybe i have bpd but idk because i dint fit many other symptoms i think i just have really bad anxious attachment #and im still traumatised from my ex. which ofc usnt gonna just go away. but i wish it was just easier to manage #i just wish that i handledthis all differently #and ik i dont really control it at all #but i wish i could.

[infinitycarrot1]

I redecorated my bag after getting rid of all the ants. It's so blue hair and pronouns core now 🐟

#i dont think i talked about the ant infestation on here actually #im p sure all the ants are gone now tho so thats good #ill put where i got all my pins/keychains here in case anyone wants to know #all the pins except the Lancer Miku and gay mlm ones are from hot topic #the Lancer is from Fangamer (official Deltarune merch #the Miku one is a pusheen colab pin which you can actually find at hot topic (thats where i got it) but its also online #(im p sure the official pusheen store and amazon has it) #the gay mlm one is just a generic one i got at an art store #the bear Wacca arcade machine keychain was made by MooshiKaik on etsy #the san x ghost bear (forgor its name 💀) i got at hot topic but i think its at other places too #the Cinnamoroll keychain was from a random small store in alaska that i dint remember the name of #it came with nail clippers too lol #the cinnamon roll Pusheen in the bottom right corner came from a blind box that can be found on the Pusheen store and at some other stores #the milk keychain at the bottom that can barely be seen is made by Kiwihen #(idk what platforms they sell their stuff because i got this at the store uwajimaya) #the hello kitty keychain blocking it was from a friend so idk where its from #and the rest of my Wacca keychains are bootlegs from AliExpress because the official store is only in japan/asia #i forgor what the official store for them is called but theres also some other online stores that sell them #(only in japan/other asia countries tho ]: ) #ok thats all of them idk why i did all of that only like 4 people will see this lol #bag

[autismon]

"trans age" "trans abled" this is just ppl taking a few cases, ppl w BIID, and age regressors and fear mongering.

How the fuck does it work every single time. Ive had trans people send us transphobic ass videos of a woman going "Kids cant b trans cuz its kinda like if i said I wanted to be a different age" and AGREEING. Like how do people not realize that news medias take random shit, make it into something scary, and push out a biased idea they want people to believe.

How easy it is to lie to people is scary man.

#transphobia #discourse cw #idk if it is but i will tag it in case:3 #swearing cw #i am so done #why do people just by into everything #like the news isnt a horror movie! you dint need to suspend your disbelief!

[altruistic-meme]

sometimes it's nice when you have friends who try and look out for your mental health. and sometimes it's incredibly annoying.

#like yes i HAVE been very low on mental capacity these last few days but have you considered #that when i said 'no im ok' i actually meant that i was. idk. ok? #at some point you no longer need to keep insisting that 'oh you know you dont HAVE to go out we ubderstand if youre too tired' #'we wont he upset if you tell us that you dont have the spoons dont worry :)' #'jsyk theyre only going /for/ you so like if you dont WABT to you dint HAVE to ok? :))))' #ok or you could just fucking say you dont want to go. #ya know. like an adult. #i invited you bc its a fun thing ti do its not like i was going to tgrow a fit if they said no im???? #and i HATE HATE H A T E that theyre trying to frame it as a 'oh YOU are overwhelmed and YIU are probably tired so dont worry about it' thing #like please dont use MY mental health as a fucking excuse ok thanks #sorry #i am. more annoyed about this than i thought. #anyway i wanted to go bc i know i need to get out of the fucking house for smth other than work on occasion #and it was a free fucking event #but :) #whatevrr :)) #cus now im mad :))) #shh ac