#like genuinely this shit fucking sucks ass i dont want to feel this beautiful wonderful pain anymore

[valpuduzz]

talking about getting bitches with my crush...... like noooo im lying about getting bitches the only bitch i want is you 😭😭😭😭

#the meowing of a cat 🐱 #heart eyes kitty 😻 #if this crush doesnt disipate by summer vacation i dont think i will go to otakon #like genuinely this shit fucking sucks ass i dont want to feel this beautiful wonderful pain anymore #especially considering he's in a loving relationship already so it hurts that i dont even have a chance #like if he was single it wouldnt be as painful because at least i can tell myself i have a chance #BUT I DONT I WILL NEVER HAVE A CHANCE IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF #I HATE THIS PLEASE #I HATE THIIISSSSSS

[itonje]

i accidentally unfollowed you trying to send this ask... thats the anti anti song of achilles agenda trying to hijack me. anyway i dont know anything about greek stuff and ive never read song of achilles but i love drama, whats wrong with it?

HI also this has happened thrice with my mutuals once with claudio and once with ramon everyone unfollows me whilst trying to send asks anyways uhh i think the song of achilles is a poor iliad adaptation that kind of makes the characters either really milquetoast or really caricaturized beyond belief (the one character i think they did...relatively less awful with briseis just because for ONCE. for ONCE an adaptation didnt make her in love with achilles and actually leaned into her relationship with patroclus more which i really like as in the iliad the one time she speaks its not even about achilles lol. but she still only rlly exists to augment the achilles and patroclus relationship and also she dies in a really awful way which i HATE). like if a character is not made like wildly evil (agamemnon, thetis, neoptolemus and the latter i find funny cause hes just as bad as his dad is in the iliad and iliadic related content) theyre declawed to all HELL

and thetis being evil makes me so mad when she has a good relationship with achilles, maybe one of the most important relationships with achilles in the iliad, his best loved one other than patroclus, and its implied she cares for patroclus as well as shes the one to preserve his body and keep it from rotting but in here shes just. the homophobe mom who only exists to keep achilles and patroclus apart bc she hates patroclus which is SO stupid because it goes against one of her biggest character traits which is ‘she loves achilles so much and would do anything for him’ as well as so many of the women in this story only being a wedge between achilles and patroclus’ relationship (like deidamia) which is so misogynist and pisses me off SO much because theres so much more you could do with that! like i understand making the gods more distant and abstract and cold to humanity but there are canonically cruel ass gods in the iliad and thetis is not one of them!!! 

and going back to my declawed comment objectively the worst characterization here is patroclus. in the iliad patroclus is known to be very friendly and likeable among the greeks, he weeps when he hears of them being beaten by the trojans and one of his epithets is even ‘amicable’, as well as briseis saying he was the sweetest to her when she became a slave (because yes she was a slave she literally was a slave and no one acknowledges that because god forbid achilles and his men could be the the BAD guys here). 

 but hes not just nice lol! hes known to be a fantastic fighter and when he dons the armor of achilles and goes to fight the trojans he has the highest kill count of any iliad character! he tries to mount the walls of troy because he wants to destroy shit so bad he may be nice to the greeks but hes also an incredibly formidable and violent fighter (and he killed a guy at the age of 12 by the way hes just wild i love my crazy boyfriend soooo much) and tsoa just makes him. incompetent lol? so that achilles can like rescue him all the time which is so silly...lean into the warrior boyfriends dynamic you want to have warrior boyfriends who are crazy and kill people in your books SOOO bad 

also the song of achilles doesnt even lean into the kind aspect of him yeah hes nice to briseis and the women but where are his friendships w the greek men lol? what about him and menelaus?? theyre really good friends in the iliad, menelaus getting upset over patroclus’ death is heartbreaking too. 

but patroclus isnt an active character, everything that happens to him is just that-it happens to him. he makes NO active choices at all the only thing he does is ask achilles to let him fight for the greeks. hes just a witness to EVERYTHING he does NOTHING of genuine importance or active choice and i know that it was written like this so it could make achilles seem more important, (as well as leaning into the ‘oh we have no choice when it comes to how the gods play us’ but i would argue in the iliad whilst a theme of us being victims to our grander fate is there, the iliad also says that even though we cant control our ultimate futures we CAN control the choices we have in front of us, achilles giving back hectors body wont bring back pat or make him. not die eventually but he still does, and its still important. maybe the MOST important choice he makes. but thats... another thing lol) it is tsoa after all, but patroclus is also a main fucking character lol? and as important as achilles is to patroclus’ character so is patroclus’ to achilles! 

also even achilles seems like hes strung around first by his mother and then by the war and god it all seems like this is all here to absolve achilles of responsibility, to absolve him of wrong doing when in the iliad achilles does many many many things wrong as well as just being a bit of. an emotional hotcase (lol), and thats what makes him interesting! but no hes just whitewashed so that we dont have to feel bad for liking him and we wont find patroclus morally dubious for just going along with all of achilles’ shit out of love (when patroclus, like i said above, also does bad shit cause thats just how these characters are...most of the greeks do awful wretched shit in the iliad lol and they still are heroes with compelling characters cause like. moral ambiguity baybee) 

anyways this is all to say as an iliad adaptation it sucks. as a gay love story though. its fine lol? again. not my fav dynamic for these two but. this book isnt meant for people who are like hardcore achilles kinnies or whatever the fuck or have been reading and fixating on greek myth since they were baby like me lol. i know there are lgbt kids who read percy jackson or whatever or are vaguely familiar with greek myth who are going to read this book and see themselves in it and be happy and content with the rep and thats wonderful. i recognize this book isnt really supposed to be for readers like me who are hardasses about adaptation and its okay for people to enjoy it as less of a greek myth interpretation and as the romance it actually is. the writing is very beautiful and yes it inspired some (positive) emotions out of me regardless. 

however if youre looking for gay greek myth content that actually has pretty interesting and compelling characters, with various heartbreaking stories and fascinating themes about divinity, fate, humanity, and love well. just read the iliad. 

#finny.txt #asks #SORRY FOR SUCH A LONG RESPONSE..THIS BOOK MAKES ME SO. RUGAFSHDSDFHSDF

[cheekbites-moved]

ok i still havent gotten the secret ending but farming for it might take me a bit so im gonna make a thoughts post for age of calamity now:

Major spoilers obvs so ill put it under a read more

things i enjoyed:

revali beatdown simulator

the controls for the divine beasts are a bit clunky, but i think the angles they used for them did an excellent job at really making the player feel like we were actually controlling a divine beast. so i think it was done well.

link’s personality really gets to shine full force in this game with the amount of cut scenes and it was wonderful to see

every character clearly had a lot of love put into how they operate. they truly all feel unique, & all of their play styles fit them really well in my opinion

the game does a really good job of making you understand what a real threat the monsters are. like in botw they’re intimidating at first, but once you’re far enough into the game they become just an inconvenience to work around if anything. this game managed to actually make certain monsters intimidating for me again, and i think that’s a real accomplishment

the blight battles are actually somewhat challenging in this game and that is truly a commendable achievement lol i think all the bosses are good tbh. i didnt rly dislike or not enjoy any of them.

the way daruk and link’s friendship & urbosa’s motherly relationship towards zelda got to shine was. so good. it’s all i could’ve ever wanted

seeing the descendants again was really nice & it was awesome to see the champions interacting with them!! especially sidon and mipha omggggg. that was. really fucking good shit

kohga. just. kohga in general. getting to see more of him was really rad, he’s such a fun guy! and his english va was Excellent. you could really tell he was having a lot of fun playing him, and it was lovely to see! :)

zelda getting to really shine in this game was also lovely to see. and her being so assertive and badass by the end? omg. it was so wonderful especially after botw. man. 

the combat is done very well imo. im rly glad that they took so many elements from botw, but also added their own flares to make it feel fresh. it was rad.

sidon’s tagline is “winning smile” and his power is “boundless optimism” and i think that’s beautiful

the music in this game is SOOOOO good oh my god. multiple times during playing i had to pause to just appreciate it. it’s pretty much all remixes of botw with a few originals for the new characters, but they all slap. there was not a single song in this game i didn’t like. it is definitely one of my favorite video game soundtracks officially. maybe one of my favorite overall soundtracks in general tbh.

the visuals obviously look just like botw, but it still looked fucking gorgeous at some points. like. man. they really went off to make it look not only faithful to botw as far as appearance goes, but also as far as capturing botw’s beauty and it was. excellent to see!

if anything is true to botw’s backstory, it’s definitely how op link is. cause he was established to be op in botw, & when u finish botw he is also op as hell. he is so fun to play as the higher leveled he gets. he absolutely kicks ass. especially with a two-handed weapon??? daaaaammmmnnn. thats my badass baby boy!!!!

link eating rocks not once, but TWICE. just showing PEAK gremlin energy. 10/10 for those scenes they were great

the ending was really beautiful actually and i did cry like a little baby for it what about it

things i didn’t like:

obviously first and foremost.. this is not the game we were advertised. and no matter how much i overall enjoyed the game, it will always have some layer of being tainted attached to it due to the false advertising. this is not the prequel we thought we’d be getting. & not using “prequel” specifically doesn’t matter when all the advertising, including the box art talks about this being the story of what happened 100 years ago. with no indication it wasn’t the story of what happened 100 years ago in the botw timeline, but a separate universe/timeline entirely. i do hope we get dlc for the game at some point giving us what we were advertised, but at the same time... rly wish that the story that’s in the final game was dlc, & the story we were promised was the original :/ or just having the game have two separate storylines originally would’ve been cool. i just wish it wasn’t falsely advertised. 

fort hateno can fucking eat my whole entire shit WHY is that part so needlessly obnoxious compared to everything else oh my god

being forced to fulfill revali’s power fantasy TWICE hurt my soul

fuck any mission where you have to protect the useless hylian guards. i hate them. they suck.

the ai for player characters when you aren’t playing as them can also be pretty useless. it was really frustrating failing missions because my fellow party members weren’t helping me, and i was basically expected to be in two places at once to get shit done myself. :/ ik you can just switch between characters to make it easier, but like. i like playing as link the most. he’s my favorite character, & ofc since he’s mandatorily played for most of the story, he’s gonna be the most leveled up character regardless so he’s just the best to play as in general especially for harder missions. it was annoying to be forced to play as other people Solely cause the ai was so useless.

king rhoam’s attempt at a redemption arc. i’m not sorry that i just fucking hate this man. i don’t mind him entirely in botw bc you can see clear, genuine remorse during the cut scene at the end of the great plateau. but the redemption arc he gets in this game? after all the fucking shit he does in this game? especially when after his ~redemption arc~ i had to sit through a cut scene of him being an absolute fucking asshole to baby zelda after her mother just died????? absolutely fuck that shit. i don’t appreciate that crap at fucking all. he’s a verbally abusive piece of shit and i hate his guts.

obviously there was gonna be some retconning of how certain things worked in botw in order to make this kinda game work but the way sheikah technology works in this game is so goddamn confusing i do not get it. the works of botw are never outright said or explained completely, but it’s straightforward enough that it doesn’t really matter. this game does try to explain certain things and it just becomes. really clunky and confusing very quickly. 

the story is alright, i guess, but..... really confusing/convoluted as hell at times to a point that it’s. really fucking distracting. especially in comparison to how straightforward botw’s story is. like..... cannot help but be annoyed that such a problem wouldn’t have been a thing if they stuck to botw’s story.

i was sad when the egg thing died but i dont like the egg thing.... it is the MAIN reason shit was retconned so much & i just. dont get its purpose. but i did really like the reveal that zelda made it herself. that was good shit!

also the egg glitched out like. a LOT. idk what the fuck was going on with the poor thing but there was multiple times during a cut scene or when i was just sitting there that it was freaking out in the background and it was rly weird

elemental overworld boss monsters................. obnoxious. especially elemental guardians like goddamn bro what the fuck

i know warriors’ games aren’t about exploring anyway but the limitations for exploring was really sad/frustrating. this is still somewhat the world of hyrule before the calamity, which is something we’ve always wanted to see. not being able to explore even the immediate area at certain points because of shit like timed missions was really upsetting, man. :( i just wanted to see hyrule castle Before the calamity why was did they have to rob us like that.....

creepy corrupted egg’s transformation. why. what was that. what the fuck

even though i did enjoy the boss fights, it did get. incredibly taxing eventually to have to fight the SAME bastards so many times. like yeah botw is also guilty of this with the blights, but goddamn.... at least i have a choice to avoid certain encounters with them? this game has you fighting the same bitches like upwards of 3-4 times. it was. really annoying tbh. like the fights themselves are enjoyable, but damn we added new characters and it still inevitably lacked variety in boss fights.

no playable kass >:( if he’s available later in dlc then fine but i wish he was playable in the original game. so many random choices you’d never expect are. why couldn’t he also be there >:(

overall:

it will forever have that sour taste for the false advertising attached to it unfortunately, but that aside, i overall did enjoy the game! i think it has a lot to love in spite of the issues i encountered. as someone who has this as their first warriors game as well, it did lend itself to letting me see the appeal of them. idk if i’ll get more, but i do get why they’re so beloved/popular now. it was an alright time, with some amazing highlights that i’m gonna think back on very fondly for a very, very long time. if i had to rate it..... 7/10 

#hw #aoc #hw aoc #hyrule warriors #age of calamity #legend of zelda #botw #danni plays hw aoc #mine #long post #v long post sorry lol i have so many thoughts/feelings

[96xie]

2019

a whole summary of this difficult year

2019 was full of unexpected good and bad surprises along with lessons and experiences.

january

spent good time with mocha, wayo and brian

had such a good time with guildies from our game

met up with some other ppl from the same game and didnt feel too good bc i was never good with crowds and/or groups that were already well established

tried tinder for the first time because i thought it would be nice to put myself out there for once

feburary

continued my tinder journey and actually had fun with it. it was pretty scary at the same time because it was such a new experience talking to other people and to have them notice you? because i always knew and felt that i wasnt really the desirable one.

actually hooked up with a guy from last months meetup and hung out twice. thought it was going somewhere because he, too, showed signs to progress further ((was wrong because he lied and showed red flags later))

one major red sign to me: no response after genuinely saying thank you for rides and dinner. im the type of person who always says thank you because im honestly grateful for the little and big things. he basically shrugged it off.

also, a huge liar. yah, big no

i brought him to my friends birthday bc they and himself wanted to meet each other, it was fun while it lasted but stuff happened

towards the end of the month, i cut my ties off with him for being awfully mean to me and also cut ties with my “friends” for having really bad assumptions of me.

i was frustrated with myself at that time bc his cats gave me a bad breakout and i felt super ugly. also i wasnt sad over him, but over the fact that i let myself be treated like a second option. eventually i learned that it was good that i didnt let things go further and that i only deserve the very best.

even though i was hurt, i thought it was a good experience, esp since i havent really been in the “dating game” for years. like it was a just a small step to putting myself out there once again

a week later after that a classmate asked me out and got tons of compliments from him and wondered “the universe really works in crazy ways”

march

met some cool people through the same mobile game on a discord server and they were much better than the first group.

also met this really funny dude in the same group. like he was so fun to talk to and he understood my dumb lingo

remember when my classmate asked me out on a date? it turned out a bit weird. but considering this was my first date in YEARS i thought it was a cool experience. got some carne asada fries outta him

i had the dude i was talking to call me so i could leave the date tho LOL ((he helped me lots, esp how to deal with awkward situations with my classmate. also at this point, i really liked talking to him but i wasnt rly sure if i wanted to date other guys bc i had been hurt previously)

this month was pretty much dedicating most of my time talking to him and i enjoyed it alot

also went to pubs for the first time to hangout with my coworkers. such an interesting place

april

tried rollerskating for the first time ever, ended up with a bunch of bruises but it was cool!

also tried 7leaves for the first time and instantly fell in love with mungbean

also went clubbing in sf with my friends and it was such a fun time like i had SO much fun

i got auctioned off of SAD! that phase was just a crazy ride. while there was many that dm’d me, there was only one special person that i only replied to and continued to talk to him on a daily basis

((honestly, i was scared that i was taking things a bit further with him because a part of me was like “are you ready for this?” and “have you really recovered from that guy?” or “can you give this guy your all?” just alot of overthinking))

spent 4/20 at sf with my friends, and overall had a GREAT time. took too many hits and drank so ya gorl was crossfaded. not sure if i wanna do tht again tho

unfortunately woke up with a swollen face and it lasted for a LONG time.

may

so my face is still swollen, still bad, red as a tomato and at this point i was really hesitant to meet up with the guy ive been talking to. i mean!! my skin was SO bad. i felt like i was gonna make a fool out of myself by scaring him away

but,,,, he was still willing to see me despite my appearance and : ( he was so accepting and typing this makes my heart ache bc he is SUCH a good man : (

i met up with the guy towards the end of the month in sj and first thing he does when i walk up to him is give me this great warm hug and so many smooches !!!!!!! like my heart is melting

eventually we became official !!! he got us an airbnb for the night and we jus spent time cuddling on the bed and honestly i : ( i like him so much

june

my birthday wasnt rly that like “wow” it was actually kinda annoying

my bf flew up to sf where we met up, explored the city and slept the night in at an airbnb. next day went to oakland where i introduced my friends to him!

went to my first festival with several with my friends, including ppl from our same guild from our game and it was SO fun

rolled for the first time and it was SUCH an experience. redosed like twice and ended up hallucinating which is something ill def not do again

also i really wished my bf was with me at that time : ( while i had an extremely fun time, i wish i shared that moment with him : (

july

went to vegas for my cousins 22nd bday. shit was wild

also rolled there.

also threw up for the very first time

a fight broke out at the club and that shit was fuckgin CRAZY and it was RIGHT next to our table

also used alot of my money for the whole trip in which nobody really told me about so …. i was like ok.. fuck …

also my skin was still bad during these past months so it was pretty hard masking it

like really hard. with someone with terrible eczema, its just extremely hard to hide it

august

bf flew to sac!!! he met my mom for the first time and we explored the city and stuff

and went on an ikea date! and! honestly i just really loved spending time with him :c

we also spent time with my friends! they came over also! and ate some fuckgin bomb ass waffles

and then took bus down to la to meetup with some friends from our guild towards the end of the month!

it was pretty nice to be able to stay with my bf in his apartment !!!!!

also some scalding tea but thats rly for another time

to make it super short tho: our friend that we’ve known much longer than the girl he met (less than 3 months) dropped our friendship SO quick lol

september

cousin bonding @ beach, too cold for tht doe

towards the end of the month, my bf flew me down!!! so i spent the weekend with him and like always, only had a good time with him!

AND ALWAYS EATING GOOD FOOD!

october

during this fall semester, i took online classes and one of them was a 8week class. there was a topic about mental health and how we can take care of ourselves better and i just thought it was such an important thing to cover. i feel like its not talked about enough

november

spent thanksgiving with my family down in morgan hill and ate good food! honey ham has a special place in my heart.

went black friday shopping first at walmart, lowkey disappointed in myself because i was bummed out the apple watches were sold out. the materialistic part of me jumped out oof

slept at my cousins then went to the mall! didnt get anything besides really good bulgogi fries. i hated going into stores tho cuz everything was literally crowded. hated it !!!!!!!

went to a small festival in sacramento with my friends at the end of the month and this time is 7 of us (than the usual 5)! it was sososo fun.

also took my coworker with me, it was actually amusing to see bc our group were all asian and he’s the only tall white guy

made hotpot at home and we also went out for milktea and waffles again! sooo good.

december

flew down to see my bf again and only had a good time! went to this garden with beautiful lights and ! ugh! SO pretty!

cried in his bed before my flight back, cried on the plane, cried at home and cried before i slept. i miss him

also racked up alot of hours so i could pay for my tuition and my family’s bills. kinda sucks bc im pretty tired but i gotta do what do i gotta do.

christmas was a bit lonely bc my mom went to the philippines and i dont rly talk to my brother but my kuya came the next day and we ate n watched stuff

overall, it was a whacky year. but im so glad to have met ed. he means SO much to me. a part of me was so hesitant to date him because i mean, he’s man with his life set. i dont have a car, im still in school, i have this part time job where im giving my mom all my paychecks and which the only money im keeping is just my tips (not much), i still have issues with myself and other conflicts and honestly theres much to do, learn and grow from. but he’s so supportive, understanding and loving and i love and appreciate him from the bottom of my heart. most of the time i wonder if im doing and if im being enough for him. i worry about that alot but he’s so patient with me. i laugh alot when im with him and i feel so happy.

did i mention that we are long distance? him being in la and me in sacramento. so the only thing thats connecting us is facetime. maybe once every two months will i see him in person but yep. when i had my first panic attack, i really wanted him right next to me. at that moment i felt even more sad because of course you’re gonna want you’re significant other during a moment like that. but anyways, i always miss him and i always want him next to me and i always love him. i want to hurry up and get my education done with so i can be with him. not to sound like omg im so madly infatuated with him type of thing tho. he’s someone who understands me and knows how to love me.

i hope 2020 treats me well despite all the challenges ahead of me.

#phew #old mutuals im on twtr! keep in contact with me there!

[letstalksymphogear]

Symphogear, EP.7 (Cont.)

“i have not now, nor ever, liked this creepy ass church elevator.”

“kanade please get out of my head, just because im hungry doesnt mean you have to tell me every time i am”

Hibiki finishes getting a full body X-ray. She’s fine.

“that anime protagonist immunity is really kicking in well!”

“by the way, your wife is here! and she’s looking mighty miffed., as opposed to me, mighty milfed.”

“you dont strike me as a mother figure but ill play along for now”

“i just hope miku’s okay...”

“oh, she’ll be fine! see, i’ve seen these kinds of plots before. big secret revealed, another lover is shown, the victim watches as they’re thoroughly cheated on, and they get to lik-”

“please stop breathing”

Genjuro’s wasting away again in Margaritaville. Looking for some daughter to adopt. SOME PEOPLE SAY THAT THERE’S A, WOOOOMAAAAAN TO BLAAAAAAAAAAME, BUT HE KNOWS

XYLOPHONE RIFF

THAT’S IT’S ALL HIS FAULT

XYLOPHONE RIFF

“i hate it when he gets like this. jimmy buffets not a good look for him.”

“for once you and i agree. seeing the commander sulk like this like a middle aged perma-tourist is genuinely miserable”

“hey homies! im back and i brought some bitches! oh, jesus, why does this place smell like mistakes in miami?”

“its me. im sorry. every time i feel like i failed as a dad, my anti-dad energies manifest. imagine every midlife crisis rolled up into a single ball, smacked into the face for eternity. thats the depth of my pain for failing this girl.”

In a moment of positivity, the friendship between Tsubasa and Hibiki is cemented.

> Tsubasa has joined the party.

“FRIENDSHIP!”

“fweindship.”

“uuuuhhhhh... dadship? yeah thats close enough.”

“WE’RE ALL GOOD FRIENDS!”

“ya tiddies are ringing again, better go get it”

Ryoko also points out that Hibiki’s relic is fusing with herself at an alarming rate. This is important to keep in mind.

Meanwhile, at night.

Miku is posing in the motherly “you done fucked up, where have you been young lady” position. A cold scolding is coming.

“.........................hey miku......”

“you can come in. are you worried im gonna bite? you suplexed a car. that shouldn’t be an issue anymore.”

“miku, i.... i wanted to tell you.... but.... the plot wouldn’t let me, miku....”

“should’ve told the plot to fuck off anyway. now you’re gonna live with that. you’re sleeping... on the bottom bunk.”

“b.... b..... b...... b.... b...... bottom bunk...?”

They slept separately that night. God, this is so stupid. All of this is so goddamned stupid. “I’m so mad at you even though you saved my life.” This is just so. AUGH. THIS IS DUMB. KANEKO WRITE BETTER ANGST THAT MAKES SENSE THAT ISN’T THIS.

Meanwhile, far away from this garbage...

Chris, having been evicted from Fine’s McMansion, wanders the streets of mumblemumble aimlessly. Don’t be fooled by her new fancy dress. Basically, she’s a combat-competent hobo.

“no food. no home. no victories. this sucks. whyd you do it, fine? we coulda been great together. but no. ya fired me. now i look like im prancing the red light district with a highly advanced superweapon around my neck.”

“no... hibiki’s to blame. ever since that genderbent little mac showed up to fight me, it’s been all downhill. fine thought me a laughstock because i couldnt take out her oversized boxing gloves, and now she beat me while i had nehushtan. god... i wish i never met that damn hamster faced chubby cheeked nerd.”

“wait, whats that crying”

Chris spies two kids talking to each other, one of them crying. Chris immediately makes an assumption, believing the big bro is bullying his sis.

“hey! stop nicking her lunch money, twerp”

Chris currently is a firm believer of corporeal punishment.

But the sister deflects the blow. Chris can’t even defeat children right now. Truly, this is a record low for her. You know you blew it when even kids are schooling you on basic morality. She then tells the little girl to stop crying, ironically mirroring her brother.

The infamous double T-Pose maneuver. Chris, you might as well get a shovel and start digging your own grave.

“i keep doing bad things badly, and now im doing good things badly... when fine said i was bad... did she just mean im not talented?”

Chris, finally, does a good thing and helps these kids find their parents.

“yeah. hibiki saved a kid when she got her gear. guess what? bam! im saving two! that’s fifty percent more kid per kid saved. take that, weirdo.”

The kids call her out on Chris singing unconsciously, and Chris gets flustered over it. Dawwwwww.

Chris manages to get them to safety to their Dad...

...while brutally lying about it, making Chris look like a predator. There’s a very crushing irony at play here, given who Chris used to serve.

“ugggggggggggggggghhhhhh hes not even gonna payyyyy meeeeeee why the fuck did i dooooo thiiiiiiissssss”

“hey, you know. you kids have a really nice relationship with one another. care to give me tips on how to be an empathetic human being capable of making friends?”

“maybe we’re born with it”

“maybe its maybeline”

“maybeline...”

Meanwhile...

A cold wind blows through Lydian Apartment 69-L. (I don’t actually know if that’s their room number, I just made it up.)

“jesus take the wheel, because i’m jumping out the passenger seat to save this current wreck of a relationship”

“miku please i saved your life, doesnt that count for anything”

“you already killed me the moment you lied. also im taking the bottom bunk so i dont have to see your face coming down the ladder.”

“miku you cant hide in this depression den forever. i know i hurt you and im sorry for it, but please understand i literally couldnt do it. you saw there were punches and violence and stuff... i didnt want you tied to that...”

“what was that? i cant hear your apologies over my incredibly loud snoring. SNOOOOOOORE. SNOOOOOOOORE. SNOOO- fuck, i just swallowed my spit, fuck”

“i hope this cocoon of displeasure you’ve made for yourself lets you erupt into a butterfly of acceptance so i can fly with you again.”

“......thats not fair. you cant say those beautiful metaphors and get away with it. let me be mad... sniff... let me be mad...”

Sadness wafts in the den of lies Hibiki has been forced into.

No music plays. There is only heartbreak, and woe.

In the midst of this pain...

Ryoko loredumps about how the Symphogears work and are immune to the noise on her blog, ‘hornyonmainforscience.org’, her hybrid science journal slash kink zone. It’s mostly a recap with some pretty good soft techno beats in it.

“i made a custom brew of red bull, five hour energy drink, coffee, and cream. i call it gamer girl piss.”

“damn. that’s some good piss.”

She muses about how Hibiki has managed to break the limitations of her Symphogear, making her a totally unique specimen. Wait, where have we heard this before...?

Hey... Ryoko... let’s just... cool it a bit with the Hibiki pictures... come on...

Ryoko touches upon the Custodians and the Curse of Babel. We ain’t touching that shit until later, because that’s another shitfuck box of crazy just ready to jump us in a dark alleyway to rob us of our wits.

Back to Lydian:

“miku whats the answer to the first three multiple choice questions”

“B. A. D.”

“oh, thanks. huh, BAD.”

“yeah. you are.”

“mmm. taste likes dissapointment. just like my life.”

“hey table for two haha get it cause there’s two chairs and miku for the love of god, please, forgive me”

“ive surgically removed my eyes and drew eyelashes over them with sharpie so i dont have to see your bird bangs.”

“thats very rude to both me and my hair. also, wig.”

Even Hibiki’s meal is judging her. Mainly for not eating it. Fucking look at this. God, that looks amazing. Fuck, why did I write this while I was hungry.

“miku you cant do this forever. i might die and youll end up crying on my tombstone going ‘oh god, why, oh god’, and really, i cant live with myself if that happens. mainly because id already be dead by then”

The Anime Janai crew show up to break some icebergs with a goddamn sledgehammer. As the self-aware Gods of this realm, they got very tired of this poor display of angst, and have decided to directly intervene.

Nevermind. They came for her kneecaps, and they most certainly got them.

PLEASE. I’M BEGGING YOU. END THIS GARBAGE PLOT THREAD.

“look. imma lay down the facts. yall are gay. yall are in love. yall are angry for the wrong reasons. its nobody’s fault here but the writer. so please kiss and make up. pretty please.”

“kaneko... you fool... we all know what the original sin is. its your hack writing making this stupidity in the first place. let the pencil go, asshole!”

They bring up the fact that Hibiki isn’t doing her work and wonder if she has a job on the side, which isn’t allowed by the school. Miku gets annoyed and bails, with Hibiki running after her. Unfortunately, Miku runs faster...

“oh god miku not the rooftop whatever you’re thinking just dont do it! please!”

“no. i came here to angst, since this is the Maximum Angst Zone.”

“i..... okay! okay, that’s fair! rooftops are the perfect place to look sad while getting proper air ventilation, thats fine”

It really would have been better played if it was played off that she felt hurt not because of the lie, but because she felt like she could have helped her better having known the truth, and it being a self-loathing sort of scenario for not being there better for her and not fully understanding the risk at play.

But no, instead, we get this.

Absolutely obliterated. A heart ripped, shredded, and sent to the Shadow Realm.

The episode ends on that note, but has a post credit scene.

Naked. On an old timey telephone. On a computer. Wearing stockings and long gloves.

The main antagonist of the series, everybody.

She’s talking the best English possible to some random-ass American when suddenly bursting through the scene is none other than:

“I WANT WORKERS COMPENSATION YOU BITCH, BEFORE I UNIONIZE YOUR NAKED ASS”

“AND I WANT A GOOD REFERNECE FOR MY FUTURE EMPLOYER, AND ALSO A SEVERANCE PACKAGE SINCE I’M FUCKING HOMELESS”

“i paint my eyelashes with mascara made from the tar of freshly carbonated corpses manufactured through noise, what on gods green earth compels you to think id give a rats ass about you?”

“so you never cared, huh! you’re just a nasty naked hedonist trying to- trying to- what the fuck are you even trying to do?!”

“i want to live the dream every spicy little fossil like me yearns for.”

“I WANNA FUCK GOD!”

“how- what? what? how do you even- what? are you- do you want to be the pope? is that it? does the pope get to fuck god? are you- is this a larping thing? you’ve really been into larping lately! i don’t like this!”

“youve never read the old testament, have you. ass out, pussy bare, hips up and barefoot. that’s how god’s always liked it.”

“now get lost, punk. you tipped off my hand to genjuro and now you being here is going to ruin everything. if you still feel any semblance of devotion, eat one of your own bullets and call it a day.”

“it’s 2012 bitch, if the mayans dont get you, I WILL”

“what god gives, He takes away, and so do i. i built you from the ground up. your relic, which was good for jack shit on you. the nehushtan, which you failed to do anything with except zap a couple hundred people. stop wars? you’re a walking war, waged by me, for me. and your cartridge has just run out of bullets.”

“uh oh! hand’s acting up again! better bail before i send you back to smacktown where all the bitter little shittalkers like you strut around spending their lives being useless as hell.”

“ah fuck, im not dealing with no manos: the hands of fate bullshit again”

“and guess what else i got on motherfucker”

“i see the union efforts have officially been busted. understandable, have a nice day ma’am”

“LEAVE.”

“I’M GOING, I’M GOING”

#symphogear #symphogear season 1 #anime #recap #comedy

[pynchvinsky]

i dont know if you’re still taking prompts but if you are.... could you do kandrew and andrew getting possessive or jealous 🤠

this turned into FILTH i hope thats okay (also still taking prompts, more kandrew would be 👌)

Kevin Day was indisputably attractive. He was an athlete, towering at 6'2" with toned and tanned muscles. His long frame slouched into a perfect lean, bowed head only accentuating his prominent cheekbones and jawline. Neatly pushed back black hair, pretty green eyes framed with the small 2 tattoo and long dark eyelashes, a friendly bright smile put on for the press. He was the poster child for Exy, Andrew knew this. But it wasn’t what was attractive about him.

Andrew knew the real Kevin. Not the sickeningly pleasant smile he wore like formal attire, but the goofy grin he let out when he danced to music he hated. Not the beautiful boy with a tragic past who everyone wanted to know, but the idiot who locked himself out of his dorm 9 times in his first week. Not the guy who’s playing hard to get and can’t be tied down, but the guy who is genuinely not interested. Dating didn’t interest him, but Andrew did. Maybe it was a way to get pent up energy and anger out, a new kind of escape. Nonetheless, Andrew was the only thing that ever made Kevin look unfocused.

And then Andrew saw the way Kevin looked at Jeremy. He was waiting outside the locker room for Kevin, knowing that the rest of the team would be done with the showers soon. Kevin was walking off the court, sweat still sticking his hair to his forehead and smiling through his heavy breaths. He was chatting idly to Jeremy, but Andrew noticed the way his eyes were softer and smile lazy. He watched the way Kevin’s shoulders swayed his body down loosely when he spoke, the way his hands moved awkwardly around Jeremy. Also, Kevin had never looked this happy after losing a game.

Turning his body to lean flat against the wall outside the locker room, Andrew met Jeremy’s gaze, who smiled in greeting and looked back to Kevin. Kevin hadn’t taken his eyes off Jeremy the whole time, while he ranted about the game. Andrew would usually tune any Exy talk out, but Kevin was there, drooling over how well Jeremy played. Briefly, Andrew wondered how they’d react if he threw his own head so hard against the wall he blacked out. As tempting as it was, so was Kevin.

Kevin said his rambled goodbyes to Jeremy, “yeah, okay, I’ll see you around- good game! Yeah, alright. Bye.” Andrew could see how nervous he was, blushing when Jeremy turned around just outside the other locker room to flash him a peace sign.

As if snapping out of a daze, Kevin looked back at Andrew, nodding his greeting. Andrew stared up at him coldly. Kevin knitted his eyebrows in confusion in reaction to the chilly glare.

“What kept you guys?” Nicky asked as he left the changing room, Aaron in tow.

“Was just talking to Jeremy about the game,” Kevin said, Andrew bit his tongue.

Nicky turned from Kevin to Andrew expectantly, “smoke break.” He offered with a shrug.

“I’ll see you back at the dorm then?” Kevin and Andrew both agreed a little too quickly, not wanting the cousins to wait for them.

“Cool, I’ll take the car. You two can walk,” Aaron joked.

“Over my dead body,” Andrew didn’t joke.

Once the others had all left, Andrew grabbed Kevin’s sweaty shirt collar and dragged him into the locker room. “What was that about?” he seethed.

“What?” Kevin’s eyes were wide, he nervously glanced around Andrew.

Andrew couldn’t bring himself to express his anger in the preferred manner of kicking the shit out of him, his fingers wouldn’t tense into a fist, not for Kevin. He pressed a hard kiss onto Kevin’s mouth, hand pushing back Kevin’s shoulder into the wall and away from his own body.

“What was that about?” Kevin breathed out when Andrew pulled away.

“You,” Andrew paused at the wrong moment, “you drooling over Jeremy.”

“Huh? Drooling?”

“Are you that oblivious?” Andrew didn’t want to laugh, it shocked his chest and came out a sharp chuckle. His hand was still pushing Kevin’s shoulder, he didn’t want to let go. “You didn’t stop eye-fucking him the entire game, then you’re babbling to him about how much you admire him and falling over yourself when you said goodbye.”

Kevin was frozen, he wouldn’t lie. He thought Jeremy was cute, he liked him actually. He knew that that was insignificant compared to what he felt for Andrew - but he wouldn’t tell Andrew that. Andrew knew how Kevin felt, and he wouldn’t want to hear it.

Andrew stepped dangerously close to Kevin, not quite enough for their chests to meet but enough for Kevin to feel like he was suffocating. “Was him beating your ass on the court not enough for you?” He said, voice lowered and close. His hand trailed from Kevin’s shoulder up behind his neck. He tangled his hand in Kevin’s hair to pull him into a kiss, biting his bottom lip as he pulled away. He stared at Kevin’s open mouth, red raw and wet, running the pad of his thumb over his lip. “Do you need a reminder that you’re mine?” Andrew asked, locking eyes with Kevin like he was scanning him.

“Yes,” Kevin whimpered. The words echoed in Kevin’s head, he was Andrew’s. Kevin had always been owned, for his value when it came to Exy, he was claimed and branded for the Ravens. This was different; he felt special, he felt wanted, he felt loved. Andrew’s hand fell down his face, grazing past his 2 tattoo, and Kevin felt as if he had just rubbed it off. The meaning it held so easily dismissed, because he belonged to Andrew now.

Andrew’s hand made it’s way under Kevin’s jersey, slipping up his torso. He pulled the shirt off and pushed himself back into Kevin, kissing him with everything he had. Kevin’s skin was on fire, burning in anticipation. His breaths were short and quick as he let Andrew kiss down his neck and chest. He felt Andrew bite at the skin of his collarbone, making Kevin whine. He deliberately sucked a huge red mark that would turn purple soon.

“You like that?” Andrew mumbled against Kevin’s neck, “want me to mark you?” The words alone made Kevin groan in want, but Andrew wanted verbal conformation. “Yes or no?”

“Yes, yes,” Kevin panted, “I’m yours, Andrew.”

“Turn around,” Andrew muttered. Kevin was quick to turn to face the wall, letting Andrew guide his ass towards him, back arched.

After dropping to his knees, Andrew dragged down Kevin’s shorts and pulled apart his ass cheeks to spit on his hole. He ran his index finger around his rim before replacing it with his tongue. He felt Kevin’s body jolt, so steadied him, one hand flat on the small of his back and the other wrapping around his thigh. He ate Kevin out painstakingly slow, ignoring the fact that they really should be quick. He teased at Kevin’s balls, not touching his hard cock. “Fuck,” Kevin sighed, “just fuck me.” His voice came out hoarse but still more of a demand than begging.

Coming up for breath, Andrew slipped two fingers into Kevin, who threw his head back an groaned in pleasure. He stood back up and opened his fingers to stretch Kevin’s asshole enough to let his cock in. It was tight, tighter than usual, but Kevin was dripping his Andrew’s spit. He ran his hand up Kevin’s back to his hair as he pushed in.

Andrew watched the way Kevin’s back moved as he pushed back onto Andrew, the way his knuckles went white as he pressed his hand to the wall to steady himself, his quick glances back to look at Andrew. He was thrusting into Kevin overwhelmingly fast, gripping his hips hard.

He let out small groans under his breath while Kevin was almost screaming. He leaned closer so his breath was on Kevin’s neck, “Jeremy’s probably still here, keep moaning like that and he’ll hear you.” Kevin shuddered, Andrew grinned and kept talking into his ear as he fucked him. “Maybe we should let him hear you, it’s so hot and he’s all alone in the showers too. Let’s let him know you’re mine.”

Andrew was so caught up his words, he didn’t realise how close Kevin was. “Touch me,” he whined. He slid his hand down to grip Kevin’s cock, just the pressure setting off Kevin’s orgasm. Andrew slowly rubbed him until he was done, then pulled his cock out of his ass. He quickly jerked his own cock until his cum splattered across Kevin’s ass.

Kevin stood himself up and pulled up the shorts that were still half way down his thighs. At first he was taken aback by how tall he was compared to Andrew, because he can make Kevin feel so small and delicate when he fucks him. He loves it. He walked over to the mirrors above the sink and softly ran his fingers over the two hickeys that adorned his neck and collarbone. He thought about how bad he wished he didn’t have to hide them, but neither him or Andrew could be bothered with the questions.

In the mirror, Kevin saw Andrew walk behind him. He looked at Kevin, eyes flickering down to the bruises. He edged closer and ran his thumb in circles around each one. “Wear a shirt that shows them off tomorrow, I want my message made clear,” Andrew said firmly, but it was more of a suggestion than a demand. He understood why Kevin was keen to keep things like this a secret.

“It’s risk-”

“As if I’m the only person who wants to claim you, it could’ve been anyone.”

“But you’re the only one who gets to own me,” Kevin grinned, to which Andrew just hummed contently before wandering off to shower.

#all for the game #my writing #aftg #the foxhole court #tfc #kandrew #kevin day #andrew minyard

[fuckhandsmcmicycle]

Tomura carried bag upon bag of groceries in his already overloaded arms.  Someone with his physique can barely jog let alone carry heavy objects long distances, but that’s what he found himself currently doing for the sake of the league.  He opened up his cracked phone to send a quick text to Dabi- the man was probably hiding out in his room again.  

Shigaraki had already spent the fucking weekend chatting with plenty of their allies as well as potential recruits and he was just damn ready to go back to his room and sulk, but the mist villain was adamant he go shopping to snag some much needed supplies for their crew.  It had been quite a while since any of them had left the hideout, but Kurogiri needed him to be the one to go under cover shopping while the police were still hot on their asses. 

Shigaraki scoffed at the fact that he was the least recognizable in their main group of villains, but he considered he had only his severed hands to thank for that.  How the police failed to get a single look at his face clearly will make him laugh for the rest of his fucking life.

He sighed in relief when he finally spied the hideout in his view; Kurogiri insisted he walk as to not raise further suspicion by using the warps again.  He sent a short response to Dabi and within a few moments his phone was blowing up; message after message from the other man.  Some things never change, including the fact he keeps texting until he gets a damn response.  

[you] ill be up in a sec assuming youre still hogging my room when im gone

[scarface <3] im in my room

[scarface <3] haha get it i dont have a fucking room fuck you you know where i am

[scarface <3] but wath out

[scarface <3] watch

[scarface <3] fuck

[scarface <3] you might not recognize me ;)

[you] watch out for what?

[you] what the fuck did you do

[scarface <3] hahaha youll see

[scarface <3] its gross tho

Genuine worry clouded his heart and he found himself running up the stairs; abandoning the groceries quickly.  With a quick look to Kurogiri in acknowledgement he found himself panting and tripping over his feet up the stairs before finding himself almost disintegrating his damn door knob in a rush to get into the locked room.

Shigaraki gasped at the sight before him.  He suspected something horrifying, something disturbing; split stitches, gashes, loose skin needing to be stapled back into place, the whole nine yards.  Dabi had a habit of doing some crazy shit when left alone... but... this was different.  The man before him was almost unrecognizable at first, pale perfect skin and dimples when his lips turned up in a smirk.  It was the eyes that were a dead giveaway.  Dabi, the man he had been with for a long time was looking less... like himself like than ever.  Tomura finally spoke up after making an ungodly rasping noise in surprise.

“You’re lucky i recognized your eyes otherwise i would have thought there was an intruder...”

Dabi kept smirking at him, playing with his nails absentmindedly anxiously.  Every little motion he did had Tomura stammering at how... pretty he was.  What the ever loving fuck did that Doctor asshole do to his wrinkly zombie fuckface?  Why does all the crazy shit happen when he’s gone??

Dabi finally spoke- wetting his plush lips, his voice drawling and thick with faked confidence; hiding the true anxiety under a smile and charm.

"Do you like the new skin?  Does it fit me?”

“It’s... different”

Shigaraki tried to avoid the question.  What was it?  What the fuck did he think??  He didn’t have the words for this.  He never had words!  But Dabi was going to keep prodding him until he finally gave in and said something embarrassingly lame.  Like usual.

He watched as Dabi crossed his arms and leaned against the wall of his bedroom, looking at him with a hungry gaze.  

“Indulge me. Tell me what you REALLY think.”

There was that fucking smirk again.  That goddamned beautiful irritating annoying smirk.  What the fuck does he really want?  Everything was making Tomura feel tight in his chest; warm and fuzzy again.  Ah yes... there it was.   The emotion he barely knew of:  Affection, Love, Excitement...

“I... you’re beautiful? This is weird...”

Dabi just smirked and licked his lips once more before resting one of his hands on his hip, leaning casually against the wall.  He eyed Tomura up and down before speaking again.

“I always wondered what I would've looked like if I never burned half my face off you know.  I was a 'pretty' kid I knew that but hey”

“So you think I'm beautiful though that's cute...”

Dabi’s smile looked like a starving crazed vulture ready to eat him alive.  So that’s what he wanted

“I thought you were... beautiful this whole time but this is... a bit extra...?”

Weird.  It was fucking weird.  It was different and scary and strange but this was the man he loved standing in front of him eyeing him up and down and needing validation and to ease his worries about it.  There was no doubting this whole time Dabi had been trying to hide his fear of rejection from Tomura like this.  But he couldn’t do anything but stutter and make weird noises and be confused confused CONFUSED at everything before the man spoke once again. 

“For one, that's really gay.  Two, I'm curious now.  Which do you prefer?  'Cause I mean, either way I'm going back to how I looked but for curiosity’s sake.   Also dude you're red as a fucking tomato.  You're making me wanna kiss you, would you die if I kissed you?”  

The noise that came out of Shigaraki’s mouth was inhuman.  A dry screeching noise of shock that only lasted a moment.  So this was what it was about.  They hadn’t messed around since... right before Dabi got captured.  Shit it had been a while.  He watched Dabi smirk yet again and continue to word vomit in his silent shock.

“Heh.  You're like the gross scaly nerd that somehow bags the hot popular chick in high school.  You look like you're gonna shit your pants.  Don’t actually die before i make out with you.  I can actually FEEL things again.  It’s weird feeling like i actually have a functioning neck...”

Shigaraki looked at his neck with a curiosity.  It had in fact been healed by the crazy flesh doctor.  He kept staring as Dabi continued to word vomit at him until he blurted out,

“Do you want me to play with it a bit, then?” 

Dabi looked like he hit the jackpot, facial features relaxing just a bit as his nervous blabbing slowed.  

“Do you just want an excuse to put your mouth on ME for once?”

He stared at the man, contemplating if he would go through with this.  The air was charged and tense, like before a predator pounces on the prey.  Tomura didn’t know which one he was, but he felt like the former in this instance.  Dabi sauntered over slowly, teasing the other man slowly.

“I'm all yours, gaywad. Don't disappoint me though 'cause you'll never live it down.” 

Shigaraki stood there, nervous.  He was so damn inexperienced compared to the man before him, and didn’t want to disappoint.  He pouted, flushed in the face and picking idly at his neck to calm his nerves.  

“All you fucking do is pout especially when I start picking at you. You're such a baby.”

That was it.  It was fucking on.  Challenge accepted.  Game start.  It was fucking on like Donkey Kong.  Tomura quickly crowded Dabi to the wall he was originally on, capturing his lips in a heated kiss.  He used the wall to brace one of his hands and the other was carefully being used  to drag Dabi down to his level for a moment.  He bit gently on Dabi’s lower lip before breaking the kiss and looking into his fucking gorgeous beautiful amazing eyes before moving to press gentle kisses to his neck, carefully exploring the newly healed skin before sucking harshly, trying to get the hang of this foreign feeling of arousal he... actually enjoyed.  

Tomura stood back and looked at his boyfriends face before examining the weak purple bruise he left on his collarbone.  He’d have to try harder to reeeally mess him up, but it was a start.  He smirked and pointed out his lame handiwork.

“So Dabi...  would you like a necklace of these?  Or...”

#<3 #((this is gay)) #stainedideology #long post

[princesspraxina]

ok since my queue just popped out my pre-season 2 ship chart, here’s my post-season 2 ship chart and explanations below:

otp status:

nathaniel/iris - still an absolutely angelic ship, adorable. healthy but not perfect, interracial, adorable, i love them, i want them to be happy

praxina/iris - forget you! is such a good fucking episode and praxina just wanted to be happy and good and iris just wanted her to have what she wanted and felt was right and iris letting praxina choose her own path was so good and pure and i love them

mephisto/auriana - i still love them and am holding out for them when mephisto comes back. idk the status of lolirock currently but if theres a season 3 i expect mephisto’s return and i expect tension!

love status:

iris/auriana - did yall see the finale? did yall see that hug? that hug was so good. auriana loves iris so much. theyre so cute and good to each other and i love them

iris/talia - i also really love how these two are dedicated to each other. it’s wholesome and good and i love them a lot

like status:

auriana/talia - i love these two a lot but sometimes it feels like they wouldnt be friends if not for the mission, so its moved from love to like. i still enjoy them plenty and appreciate fanstuff for them, i just like them better with iris lol

talia/praxina - i still enjoy the potential for this ship a lot, i liked how talia was suspicious of praxina in forget you! but then at the end she wanted praxina to stay good, and i loved her saying wow! when praxina smiled her first genuinely happy smile

talia/kyle - i didnt like them initially because i was annoyed that kyle never came back, but now that he did, i find them way better! talia acknowledged her crush as such, kyle wasnt a pushy dumbass like in his first ep, they were more like an actual shippable couple this time! im glad he came back tbh

praxina/auriana - remember when auriana was like “nooo, you look great!” and praxina blushed like a fool? yes. i love them. i love that auriana can make praxina blush like that

matt/auriana - i still really liked them even if matt has disappeared and will likely never return

don’t mind status:

nathaniel/doug - doug has become irrelevant but theyre still buddies so its fine

iris/mephisto - i still dont get why more people dont ship this. nat/iris is obviously better but meph/iris is pretty good. they have lots of really sweet moments. the “id be happy to serve you as queen of ephedia” line? forreal? good shit

carissa/mephisto - ive seen this a few times and its not bad. i prefer carissa as a lesbian but she and mephisto worked together well and i like how she beats the shit out of him

doug/praxina - i thought this was gonna be praxina’s “canon het ship” in case of redemption but then in forget you! they had an opportunity to interact that just...didnt happen! so i guess it was my misinterpretation. so i still like it but its pointless to me

carrisa/lyna - i thought these two would be more shippable but in the end i find them more annoying as a pair than cute. they dont seem to like each other much or share any interests, but are mature enough to work together for a just cause. so im good with the ship but it doesnt appeal to me

dislike status:

doug/auriana - i dont reeaaally have a problem with this ship its just, yknow, boring! theyre really cute bffs, i love them taking that selfie together. also doug kind of is barely in the show anymore so who cares

lev/lyna - ive only seen this once and its super boring. thats it. its just boring. whys it exist? because for some reason this fandom thinks we need more het ships

hate status:

iris/lev - lev is boring and pointless, but it’s not a notp cuz i DO see the appeal. but really, iris/nat is way better and i dont think lev was a necessary character esp considering the small number of episodes he was in

notp status:

talia/mephisto - this ship sucks it was made up by homophobes who are obsessed with mephisto and draw nsfw art of teenagers! whats the appeal? there IS no appeal! i used to think id ship any interracial ship that was thrown my way but sometimes life proves ya wrong. anyway this ship is Bad and im tired of seeing it

praxina/that one guy whose name i dont know because he’s completely irrelevant and uninteresting and she deserves better than being paired with a random ass guy just for the sake of unnecessary heterosexuality - oh i accidentally said it already cuz i dont know his name cuz he’s pointless, yeah, so. who is he? who cares. he’s pointless. if youre gonna ship praxina with a random dude why did it have to be such a boring ass white boy ohhhh my god. im tired of seeing praxina/this guy shit when i search her on google! google doesnt include my tumblr blacklist. oh wait i cant even blacklist this shit cuz idk his name cuz hes pointless!! anyway i love praxina and she deserves better than this bullshit. another ship made up by homophobes, btw, so, extra annoying

ot3 status:

auriana/iris/talia - in that order! i love polyrock. polyrock is good, its golden, its beautiful. girls loving girls. these girls loving each other. its wonderful

mephisto/auriana/praxina - i guess, obviously, not with all three of them, but more like auriana with each twin on one arm? i love how she makes both their hearts race, it’s adorable. i love it

#lolirock #anti mt #i dont wanna tag all the ships #i didnt on the other one either lol #ship hate/ #ships #im bitter about this fandom constantly

[deardizschel-blog]

i love you

Hi. I don’t know how to write and I suck at writing but as always, I give out my best for you. So allow me this attempt hahaha. Its 4 in the morning and I’m not yet asleep, sorry for lying. Ewan din haha antok na ko kanina eh pero nung nag good night ka na, it didn’t felt right. I felt like I have to express my thoughts here than saying it directly to you… how I wish we didn’t have to end up like this. Di ko nga alam kung kaya ko ba eh pero shit happens siguro talaga minsan. You told me you don’t understand bat ganito… bat ganito tayo, bat naghiwalay… bakit… honestly, ako rin, I don’t know. A part of me wanted to stay, wanted to fight for this, wanted to be with you a little longer pero ewan. Kanina I thought dahil lang yun sa alcohol dahil lasing ako. Baka sobrang vulnerable at sensitive lang, pero hindi eh. Siguro sobrang bullshit lang kasi na pagsabihan na nanloloko ka lang na hindi totoo lahat. Hahahaha naiyak ako gago HAHAHA. Pero totoo, ang sakit na pinamukha mong pinaglaruan kita, ginamit kita. I’ve been at my realest when it comes to you. Lahat yun walang filter. Sobrang unfair dahil kung sino yung minahal ko, yun pa yung ang layo layo sakin. Pero okay lang. promise okay lang ako if you felt that way. Sorry ang arte hahaha minsan lang kasi ako gumawa ng big things for a girl tapos aakalain pa na fake love yun hahaha uy fake love by drake HAHAHA joke. Pero yea, as what ive said diba, in life siguro some days we win some days we lose at baka today’s a loser day ahaha baka ganun lang yon hahaha. Tapos mas irritating pa dahil sobrang jinxed!! I booked a flight just the other day tapos biglang ganito HAHA kaya siguro I didn’t had the chance to ask papa for the returning plane ticket. Well at least you know it’s real haha I was willing to go to you, spent 5,000 pesos pa nga from my money eh hahaha and okay lang. Sobrang okay lang gumastos non just to see you, hug you and kiss you. Sayang nga lang di na mangyari hahaha but nonetheless, you were worth everything. Worth it magstay up hanggang 3am just talking to you, mag take out ng Jollibee palabok and chicken para mainggit ka, the sushi and milktea para twinning tayo haha, the got 2 believe and serendipity movie na di mo naman natapos, magpatalo sa tetris battles so you would win HAHAHA, the Spotify playlist, the tumblr blog (HAHAHA alam mo ba, at first I thought it was “tumbler” :))) NANOOD PA AKO TUTORIAL PANO YUN GAWIN HAHHA), bili ng car charger and cord dahil ayaw ko malungkot o mabored ka walang kausap in case gabihin man kami, pagpicture ng pink skies para aesthetic din ako kahit di ako mahilig magpicture hahah, magpause or off ng ps para makausap na tayo and basta lahat lahat yun. Lahat nun and many more other things hahaha. I would be lying if I say kaya ko na to live my normal day without you, my samokan dizschel!! Hahaha but I promise I will try my best to distance myself from you para easier for both of us. Although I promise you this, can’t promise na di kita matatandaan sa things around me. I swear youre one of the bestest things that has ever happened to me and although it has reached its end, know na you will always be my bubba and that you have been my favorite part of the past 10 months! Favorite kita on Mondays kahit first day of the week yun, you unknowingly help me get through my Tuesdays dahil BL day yun, Wednesdays pag natatawa ako seeing white polo on my closet dahil wash days namin yun, pag Thursdays dahil I hate Thursdays kasi 1pm class ikaw pa yung nagreremind sakin haha, pag Fridays kahit early class mo you never failed to remind me everything, pag Saturdays u always make time for me kahit na uuwi kang muñoz at ako may class at pag Sundays na family day pero ikaw naman family ko at ako din sayo kaya tama lang na spend pa din natin Sundays together diba AHAHAH!! almost 5:00 am na ngayon, grabe 1hr pero parang kulang pa din yung mga sinabi ko haha see told you I’m bad at this hahaha. Baka napapagod ka nang mag basa ha hahaha bear with me im sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being an ass before when I cheated on you, for the time na nagpabj ako when I shouldn’t have because you trusted me, for being a constant maldito and impatient boy haha, for being extra seloso, for being “kind” when you don’t want me to, for hating on your harry styles hahaha, for all the lapses, im sorry. Sorry dahil naggive up ako. Youre not the type of person na dapat igive up and honestly im not giving up on you naman eh youre the hardest person na igive up on hahaha but maybe this is time’s way of telling us na baka di pa ngayon? Maybe we’ll meet again some time soon? Pretty sure you’ll find someone who’s better than me. You always say im the best, best lang ako when its with you and I know mas may best pa than me. You say ako yung lucky charm mo but im not. All your achievements and success are all you!! You are an amazing and wonderful person. Wouldn’t have had it any other way. Love yourself lagi dahil maganda ka naman talaga inside out. Trust me when I say na you are strong haha ako di ko siguro kakayanin yung broken family plus shitty friendships plus hassle breakup with a gago. But you, look at you!! When I met you you were thriving kaya easy to say na youre strong. Your loyalty is such an admirable trait bub, you will always be one of my greatest friends in life. I would not know how love and life and distance is if not for our times together. You will always be my madam sel. I wish you find genuine happiness and love that you truly deserve. Look for a man that will hold your hand while you conquer the world and not a man who will merely offer you the universe dahil ikaw mismo ang universe haha youre beautiful, you are more than enough and worthy and gooooooddddd its so hard to let you go haha I don’t want to. grabe. Pero yun nga you felt na my existence is half baked and my feelings for you are lukewarm hahaha. But I swear it was real haha. Youre the fifth woman who made me cry. First was mama, achi then lola tapos yung ex ko pero mas masaklap to hahaha fuck bakit :--( you know I don’t like you to cry pero feeling ko umiiyak ka na hahaha don’t cry okay don’t cry lalo na dahil saakin. But you should know na I actually dreamt and hoped na we would end up together kahit may 101% doubt ako don hahaha tapos turns out ganito pala talaga ending. But I don’t blame you and I don’t want to hear any explanation. I guess I’ve already made up my mind. I’ll let you go na. I want whats best for you and I hope na you would find your better man soon!! I love you chel. I know sobrang redundant ng mga sinasabi ko pero I mean all of these. I meant when I say na minahal kita and mahal pa din kita. Don’t think na this is an easy exit for me because its not its definitely not. Sorry if this has to happen on your birth month pa. pero wag na wag mo ihate yun ah kasi ako ito one of my favorite months dahil pinanganak ka HAHAHA CORNY HAHAHA. Pero oo yun hahha I love you babe. Sobra sobra sobra!!!! No more explanations i dont want us to argue anymore haha basta know na mahal kita. This is definitely not a good bye just a til then! Hahaha ang daldal ko na and medyo sleepy na ko hahaha sana di na ko gagawa ulit ng letter pero puta madaldal ako eh dami ako nasasabi lagi HAHAHA thank you for everything bub. Di pa naman final na di ako sasakay ng plane eh hahaha pero wag ka din aasa. We’ll be in touch pa rin okay? You still have my heart and I will always be your number one fan! I love you my bestfriend, my home, my family, my girl!

 Selkirk forever hahaha

 Always,

Coy