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jkl-fff · 7 years

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But am I wrong to think that gender is not a feeling though? But a representation of your genitalia? It's why I've been so confused because I was raised and taught that if you have a penis your a boy and a vagina your a girl. It really doesn't matter how you act, weather your more masculine here or feminine there because that's just your traits as a person. You want to wear a dress but have a dick? Then your a boy wearing a dress. It don't matter if you act feminine cause your still a boy. 🤔😔

Well, the short answer is:

Yes, I think the belief that gender is all about genitalia is fundamentally wrong.

Yes, it’s a common misconception in most societies(especially since people incorrectlyuse the terms “sex” and “gender” interchangeably–mostly because the term “sex" is treated more-or-less likea dirty word),but the fact that it is common doesn’t make it any less wrong.

Now, let me take a moment to reassure youthat you’re not the only one who wasraised with that belief.Most people are raised with it (certainly, I know I was),which is why it’s such a common misconception in most societies;it’s taught to children, and few people challenge it as they grow up.But, like a lot of things we’re taught as children,the truth is not that simple—it’s not that black-and-white.Why do you think people go to college after high school?Because what you’re taught as a kid isn’t the whole truth …and sometimes, it’s just plain wrong.

Firstly, let’s talk about the meaningsof three very important terms:sex, gender, and sexuality.Sex = Biology; you are born with this, it’s encoded inyour DNA.Most people think it’s a binary, that there are only two (Female andMale),but there is actually a spectrum of Intersex that runs between them.Gender = Performance; you are not born withthis,and can fluidly change it because it is basically how you choose toactand how you choose to present yourself to yourself and the world.Gender is on several spectrums that include Feminine and Masculine(with other factors like race and class, etc. affecting it),and this is what determines if a person is a “woman” or a “man”(and NOT what their biological sex happens to be).Sexuality = Attraction and Desires; you are not born with this one, either (at lest, not entirely … it’s complicated); basically, it’s about who you want to have sex with and how you want tohave it with them.You have hetero- and homosexuality, bi- and pansexuality, and asexuality. This is also where preferred sexual roles, plus kinks and fetishes fall. People often make assumptions about other people’s gender based on sexuality(there’s a stereotype that gay men are feminine, for example),but those assumptions are, quite frankly, ignorant … and often dumbass.

Something crucial to keep in mind, also,is that these three terms are actually separate and distinct;they might influence each other, but they do NOT determine each other.This is why you could have, say, a feminine heterosexual male or a masculine bisexual female,or literally any combination of the above.Now,society does try to impose genders on people because of their sex—does try to equate them, make people believe they’re the same thing(does try to say being male is what makes someone a man or a boyand being female is what makes someone a woman or a girl)—but this is NOT how gender actually works,and is as much a form of oppression as is racism.

In fact, this is the heart of what sexism is–saying a person’s sex determines their gender(and thus the basis of how they can act and what their worth to society is).

Key proof of this is that different societies (whether in different countries or during different centuries)have had radically different concepts of what it is to be a “man” (or “boy”) and to be a “woman” (or “girl”).Sometimes very contradicting ones, too.High-heeled shoes used to be considered “manly” (masculine)—in fact, the very first ones in history were worn by “men”;same with wearing makeup and lots of jewelry.And yet, nowadays, we consider that “womanly” (feminine),even though actors playing hard-boiled action heroes and rightwing politicians (Trump himself) do it all the time.Besides that, you could think of other behaviors or character traits(being strong or a talented fighter, being nurturing with children,being domineering, being subservient, being logical or emotional,being concerned with fashion and appearances, etc.),and people are just as likely to have themno matter what their sex is.Thereis no genetic or biological connection betweenwhat really makes someone a “man” and being male.Thisis why we say that gender is a social construct;it has no basis in nature (biology), but is entirely made up by people and societies (sociology).You literally have countless females who are more “manly” (or more “boyish”—more masculine) than most males,and countless males who are more “womanly” (or more “girly”—more feminine) than most females.To say nothing of the equally countless Intersex peopleor Transsexual people who do not now or have never fitinto the limited binary of “has a vagina or a penis”.

So in the end, whether a person has a penisor a vagina(what their sex is) doesn’t matter to their gender.Should you need another example, then consider this:If being a “man” is all about having a dick,then the only real man would be theguy with the biggest dickregardless of how he acts, dresses, talks, etc.and literally everyone else in the worldis less of a man than he is.That means that biology would be more important to a person’s identity than even their personality.And doesn’t that sound just absolutely absurd? It does to me.

Finally, let me close with a pragmatic point—a point about how we should actually act in the real world.Y’see, all of the above is conceptual; it’s about pure ideas.But in the real world, you have to actually interact with people.Well, most of the time in the real world, you got no way of knowingwhat’s between a person’s legs … and frankly, it shouldn’t matter to you or anyone else, because it’s nobody’s business but theirs.If they tell you they’re a girl, then treat them like a person who is also a girl(yes, even if you think they look like a boy).If they tell you they’re a boy, thentreat them like a person who is also a boy(yes, even if you think they look like a girl).If they tell you they’re non-binary or bigender or gender fluid or queer or whatever the freakin’ hell, then treatthem like a person who is also that gender(yes, even if you don’t get why and are confused by their gender,because their gender is not about youand you don’t have to get it to berespectful of their identity).

I mean, really, to do otherwise is just plain rude.It’s like saying you know more about who they are than they do …and also saying that you just don’t care about their feelings.Imagine asking someone to call you “Marty”,and instead they call you “Farty McFuckface” all the time,and insist that’s what your name really is.That’s pretty much what it is.

So everyone, as always, remember thatthe most important point is neither hard nor complicatedbecause it is quite simply:don’t be an asshole to people.

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wylthefluffer · 5 years

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Hello

7/26/2019 3amish

***TRIGGER WARNING*** ANXIETY, GENDER DYSPHORIA, DISABILITIES, ANXIETY, FURRY, CHRISTIAN, NON-BINARY, TALK OF TRANSITION, TRANSGENDER, MENTAL HEALTH TALK, DEMIROMANTIC, PANROMANTIC, ASEXUAL, MOGAI

Hi, I'd like to introduce myself.

My name is Wyl. Pronounced just like "Will". My birth name has a "y" in it which I have always been fond of, and I like the idea of being called Will, but would rather make it more androgynous I guess, so I'm adding that letter in to substitute. It just makes it feel more familiar.

I am non-binary. The way I'd describe my gender is kinda MOGAI-y (no hate towards them, you're fine), and j don't know if anyone wants hear it, but I guess I will see what happens? I am like... There's the female side, and the male side, and they're like, orbiting each other kinda like a moon and a planet. So feminine lunar energy and masculine Mars energy, right? So basically I feel like my gender is another planet in the solar system. Not super far away, but distant enough. Kind of like a small star orbiting a big star. I feel my gender, but I don't feel a big connection to make or female. I'm not a gender, because I still feel gender. But at times I'm so far away I can't even see the moon and Mars. I'm setting else out there. What, I haven't discerned yet, as most non-binary people describe (at least Frome the ones I've met) this middle feeling between the two binaries, but never used the word "bigender", which is what I thought that was. Or there are non-binary people who describe being so removed from gender themselves that they call themselves "agender" or "demigender". I just don't feel like I'm there. I feel like I'm on the opposite side of agender, and male, and female. I just have to find time to research more descriptions I guess? I've heard of the neutral gender thing, and that's great, but I don't feel neutral either. I feel very biased towards something, that isn't in any of those categories.

I do experience dysphoria. I experience it with my chest, my curves, my hair. I dissociate from my reflection in the mirror as not really me, or I hide from it. That and photos. I hate photos. I have pretended or tried being a guy before. When I was little I would play the guy in games. One time I thought I was supposed to be a guy. A few times I wanted to pee standing up or a different way from boys or girls. I would play outside with the hose and put it between my legs (I know, I know) and say "I'm peeing!" knowing that's what boys did (kinda). I even once tried to walk around without a shirt on, and got yelled at for it. But things associated with male genitalia and pretending I had it made me feel icky too. When I realized I was gonna grow a chest, I was confused, then nervous, and then mortified when it started happening and I had to wear bras. I wanted to hide so badly and couldn't until after I turned 13 and my mom let me choose baggy clothes. I still felt uncomfortable because I didn't know any clothes that would make me feel better. I became self conscious about my chest, and my voice, which I wanted to be mid-range. But I knew I didn't want to be hairy or a deep voice, so I wasn't a boy. I hated being called "lady", "ma'am" "miss" or "woman". "Girl" wasn't much better either. I just felt this fear and uncomfortableness towards gender. Female chests, male groins, naked people. Just ew. I've always disliked my groin area, but I found out quickly I didn't want a male groin. Atm I don't know of any other options. So yea, a lot of things. I knew males didn't have to be masculine and females didn't have to be feminine. I wanted to be called a tomboy because it was the best I had and my mom said I wasn't a tomboy, which angered me. I guess she rather thought me either just a girl or something else that only could be called girl as that's what I was born as. It was not good.

My pronouns are... Ze/Zir/Zis/Zimself - confusing, I know. Me too, but I am more confused by she/her, he/him, they/them. I guess if I'd have to choose one I'd go with he/him?

I am asexual. This was my introduction to the lgtbq community. I realize I might be when I was 13/14ish but really began to take it seriously around 15/16. I then began to officially go by it at 19/20 and my friend group accepted it pretty well.

I am demiromantic. This means, for me, I only understand romanticism when I'm in the mood for it, and it's usually an intensifier of platonic relationship stuff, with exclusive companionship. I am attracted to masculine leaning people, and non-binary people. I get along with them better on a relationship basis. I currently am single.

I am also panromantic. "But how does that work!" I heard you saying. Well, "demi" is something that refers to half, or partial association with something. The part of me that associated with romanticism is panromantic. Why? Because I am romantically attracted and can form crushes on non-binary people. And considering non-binary is a collection of multiple distinct alignments, I count this attraction I feel as towards multiple genders. I do not feel romantic attraction to females at this moment. Being around them sometimes intensifies my dysphoria so that doesn't help? Maybe if I get top surgery I'll feel better.

I am a Christian. I believe in God and that he made you and me, and he made people whose brains and bodies didn't match in gender sometimes. There are intersex people after all, which is where the body is mixed up, so why can't there be people whose brains are messed up? There are even trans-intersex people who were assigned one gender at birth and identify as something different. I don't think people born this way are mistakes, I think it's a chance God gives us to help each other and express love and understanding. It's more a challenge than a curse. And that's okay. This world can be terrible, but that's because of Satan's influence. It's not God's fault people don't accept you. It's people's fault for not accepting you, and Satan's fault for tempting them. God wants you to beloved and to give love. "Love thy neighbor as thyself". This means if you accept yourself, and overlook your own flaws, then be tolerant and do the same for your neighbor. And if you're not loving yourself, and you're treating people the same way you're treating yourself, that's not okay either. To the best of your power he needs you to spread that love. That's the only way we'll make it.

I'm a Furry! Yep! I like to make anthropomorphic animal characters and get art and merchandise of them. I also use them online as a persona, as it's more comfortable for me. My main Fursona is Ridley, who is just like me. I'm a fursuit maker too, a decently popular one in the sense that I have a lot of commissions. I'm still working on them as I am behind ;-;

So I'd like to explain why it took me so long to come out as asexual, trans, non-binary, demiromatic, and panromantic. I got sick when I was 15. What with? GERD (stomach thing), POTS (heart thing related to nervous system function), and what they think right now is fibromyalgia (like a nerve disorder causing pain and cognitive issues). I also finally got diagnosed with anxiety at 18, and went on medication which helped control it. My GERD was cured, it flared up twice. My POTS and fibromyalgia won't stop though, and I've developed PTSD from years of isolation from people (social anxiety), unhealthy relationships, and social hardships and emotional hardships suffered from being sick. POTS causes me low blood volume, tendency to dehydrate, high heart rate, low blood pressure, and spontaneous panic attacks which are caused by an adrenaline release in response to the heart doing funky things. I can't control it, and I have no medication for it right now. The only thing that I've found to help sometimes is sedative antianxiety medications (which they won't give me for risk of dependancy) and medical marijuana, which is legal in my state. I get high sometimes to control my anxiety, and this is only just this week that I started. It's helped a lot as we just moved again and I can barely cope with moves anymore.

I have a Service Dog for my disabilities. My doctor approved it last year after I asked if she thought it was okay I got a dog and trained it as one, and she agreed it would be best. So I did! I am working with a private trainer, and owner training. I actually have researched the topic of Service Dogs a lot and federal Service Animal laws, so youcna ask me questions. Ty, my SDiT (Service Dog in Training, because he is learning tasks) is 20 months old. He's medium sized, almost large, slightly smaller than the average golden retriever but bigger than a border collie. He developed a natural tendency to alert to panic attacks, light headedness, migraines, and to key in to my anxiety. He goes with me almost everywhere now and his tasks are medical alert and physically contact. Physical contact is a task in this instance because it helps my nerves calm down, helps overstimulation, helps anxiety, and keeps me from dissociating and I have him within reach to pet if I need to stim ("stimulate" an action that someone uses in order to focus, deal with stress, or manage attention). I am waiting to see a therapist for PTSD, gender dysphoria, and possibly autism. If I seem a bit disinterested, it's because I do develop special interests, which is one clue that may mean I am autistic. We'll see. One of my special interests is friendship.

So yea, that's me. This'll give you an idea on what you might see in this blog, if anyone actually wants to follow me. If I don't answer, I'm likely working, having anxiety, or sick. Don't feel bad.

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