#like UGH. fine. i GUESS.

[arcanegifs]

"I spent so many nights in that shitty prison. On the freezing floor, hungry, bloody, counting the hours. The only thing... The only thing that kept me going was the thought of getting back to you."

#arcane #arcaneedit #vi #vi arcane #arcane vi #arcane league of legends #league of legends #netflixedit #showedit #media: arcane #type: gif #s1 ep8 #well this was an ASS to color #it ended up looking fine i guess lol #can we look at this scene bc god the composition is beautiful like #vi STILL cant decide whether shes still going to join powder or stay with cait here #THE LAST PART SHE LOOKS SO FRUSTRATED BC SILCO JUST TOOK JINX AND LEFT WITH HER EVEN THO SHE REALLY WANTED TO FIND JINX UGH #but ultimately she chooses to stay with cait in s1 i guess #well to be fair she didnt have a choice skdfjsfsfsf #im so curious on how shes gonna be a cop bc the show did say this will be how she becomes into an enforcer #ANYWAYS LOOK AT HER MY TINY SKRUNKLY MY BLORBO ILY #VI U DONT DESERVE ANY OF THIS

[zishuge]

The Spirealm 致命游戏 (2024) | Ep. 2

#the spirealm #致命游戏 #kaleidoscope of death #ruan nanzhu #ling jiushi #lin qiushi #xia zhiguang #huang junjie #cdrama #cdramasource #kodedit #userhanyi #*gifs:mine #the heart eyes started early and never stopped #this is episode TWO #really love that rnz was so thrown for a second that he actually turned to stare at the pot #anyway i'm always going to remember how i was just about to nope out of this show because of the scary part right before this #(i am not equipped for horror) #but then this happened and i was like ugh okay fine they're super cute i have to keep going #i guess “幹嘛去啊” is actually more like “why are you leaving” not “where are you going” #oops #also “why are you leaving” is so much clingier why is he like this i love him

[fis-paprikas]

din reuniting mandalore purely by accident because everyone he meets wants to be his friend might be the best thing about the show actually

#even bo katan who actively dislikes him at first is like. FINE UGH i guess this guy is solid actually. goddamnit. #paz has had it out for him since s1 but he has literally nothing to complain about #the mandalorian

[incarnadinedreams]

Hot Take Time #2309209 (edit: actually this isn't a hot take it's lukewarm at best. it's a room temperature take) but I really don't understand the argument "mo dao and gui dao are different and therefore everything WWX does is completely fine!"

Like, yes, it's a difference that plays into the public discourse vs. real truth themes of the novel to a degree, and I of course absolutely appreciate all the explanations and meta around the nuances and differences. But like. What he actually does with it is... still not good whether it's mo dao or gui dao? And there are many very significant reasons that gui dao is still not great? (Which I won't get into here because there are other people far more qualified with cultural/genre knowledge who have written about it way better than I ever could anyway)

Like y'know. The several hundred people he tortured to death, the thousands of desecrated graves, the mini-harem of pet zombie girls he kept after the war for purely entertainment purposes...? Like, those behaviors aren't inherent to the method (well, except the method sort of uniquely facilitating the keeping of pet ghosts), but they're not... good...? (Note: 'morally good' is completely different than 'fun & sexy, having a great time torture-bonding with shidi, etc'.)

I just cannot agree that keeping a little harem of pet ghost girls nor anything that happened with the Wens is being "gentle with the dead, empathetic and respectful". Even WWX thinks his past self was kinda cringe with it and went way too far!

I do think there's meant to be a significant amount of ambiguity about what elements of his downward spiral are caused by the corrosive nature of his method vs. the trauma of the Burial Mounds and his own, internal, homebrewed mental crisis. The alcoholism, rapidly shifting moods, anger and inability to control his temper, before and after the war. How much of it is Wei Wuxian and how much of it is the impact of the resentful energy he's using, and the use/proximity of the Yin Hu Fu?

I do think there's a reason why there's just as much brutality carried out by characters using orthodox cultivation methods. But in the end, his behavior was a problem, and the novel hints that the methods were impacting his mental state, and it was overlooked because of his usefulness to the war effort, but it did significantly damage his credibility leading up to the parts where he is in the right, which is also part of the point of the story. And you know. The subject of Jiang Cheng's whole 'the flower that blooms alone' monologue in the cave.

Anyway. 'He's using gui dao not mo dao and there's a difference' is super not the same thing as 'Wei Wuxian is morally justified in every action'?

Anyway this book is a lot more fun to me when you approach it from 'look what absolutely insane things these boys will do when they go absolutely feral for each other, it's so cool' with a side of 'look how fucked up he is now, that's hot' and not, like, trying to somehow figure out how to make pet ghost girls into a moral ideal.

So much of the story, for me, is about what desperate, wild lengths a person will go to for survival and revenge when pushed, and then what do you do after? When the danger is past and the revenge is done, what then? How do you come back from that?

#mdzs thoughts #I am a wei wuxian enjoyer #but it feels like I enjoy a different wei wuxian than these people #which is fine... I guess... #people on the internet out here just. having different opinions than me. ugh. #mostly joking but I just find it weird because to me these takes also significantly ruin the cool factor

[fabaceous]

was thinking about this post of jackie wearing shauna’s flannel after she finds out shauna slept with jeff. i was thinking about this and i was thinking about how jackie is so furious at shauna and feels so betrayed by her but still cant help but instinctively seek comfort in her. and even when jackie tries to shut shauna out and force herself to move on, it all still comes back to shauna anyway because why else would she look over her shoulder and make sure shauna sees her walk off with travis? the more jackie tries to make it not about shauna the more it IS about shauna (and of course the more shauna tries to make jeff not about jackie, the more it IS about jackie) and shauna is so deeply embedded in jackie that even after the ultimate betrayal jackie still cant help but reach for her, whether for comfort/familiarity (flannel) or to try to hurt her (by sleeping with travis) or even just to get her attention (again, sleeping with travis) but either way she’s still literally physically and emotionally incapable of not reaching for shauna. so anyway i was thinking about this and then it was making me soooo unwell so i decided to inflict it on all of you so you can think about it too

#sorry. or you're welcome #anyway of course it couldve been a coincidental shirt grab from the communal pile but also NO THE FUCK IT COULDNT HAVE BEEN #do we really think jackie 'im not in love with my best friend' taylor does not have all of shaunas flannels memorized #she def either grabbed that one by accident and was like ugh. well. fine i guess [secretly glad to be able to claim a piece of shauna] #or she sought it out for reasons that are unknown to her but very obvious to us #also someday we should talk about how both of them just want the other to notice them #but thats a post for another day bc i think i need to rotate it in my mind a little longer #yellowjackets

[universal-verringbebe]

NOW THIS BITCH RAFAYEL. IM SO TIRED. LET ME CATCH HIM IN THE STREETS

HOW DARE HE MAKE ME MELT WHEN I JUST WANT TO THROW HANDS. SASSY ASS, SARCASTIC ASS, UNSERIOUS ASS, *smooches*

HELP??? I know his anecdotes said he can sing but like... THE WAY HE SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAD ME 😳😳😳 there was TECHNIQUE. AND LOOK AT HOW HARD HE BLUSHED. I HATE IT HERE 😭😭😭

*smacks him in the face.*

*with my lips.*

#love and deepspace #love and deepspace rafayel #i hate it here #like FINE i love you a little i guess #his birthday greeting was so ugh

[oh-gh0st]

awww...

#ghost's doodles #ghostoro #I HATE HIS OUTFIT. ITS SO COMPLICATED TO DRAW. UGH!!!! but he serves kinda so i guess its fine #whatev at least it came out cute #i love the idea of ghost being like his lapcat but like. a bat.... on his shoulder and arm #he'd go “aww you're so cute when you're tiny...” then theyd screech at him Very Loudly <- demanding attention #im not gonna be able to stop thinking about this au for a LOOONNGG time my goodness.... #guys did u kjnow bats r my favorite animal next to raccoons. did u kn

[corfisers]

love that he looks at doumeki's whole deal and recognizes how ultimately pointless and misplaced his self-flagellation and attempts at "atonement" are, but then frames his own suffering as some deserved punishment. funny how that works.

#for both of them it's not entirely self inflicted of course. doumeki has a response to a traumatic event that he has no control over #but he then tries to cut hismelf off from his family and always says how he's fine and doesn't mind being impotent etc etc #yashiro has no control over men abusing him #but he always... i guess justifies it in one way or another? frames it as something that he deserves #like. even when he tells aoi about his experience he throws a comment about how cute he was so yeah duh of course he was abused #how many times he calls himself disgusting or irredeemable. how many times he assumes that people hate him #with so much self-loathing of course you'd try to make sense of it all in this way #doumeki shows it differently but he clearly doesn't like or think much of himself either #he wouldn't be so reckless and willing to throw his life away (literally and metaphorically) otherwise #ugh. shaking them. #saezuru tag

[batwynn]

I literally offered free work for a few projects because it was a bucket list item for me and I still got turned down. I genuinely don’t know where to go from here because what does that mean about my work when it’s not even worth free?

#personal #vent post #art stuff #sorry just #I don’t know #it felt very Bad #on top of not getting commissions at all anymore #commissions and Patreon are my ONLY income #that’s it #and Patreon takes a good $100 off in fees #now which is wild and wtf? #just. ugh #I don’t know how to feel about that #maybe they thought I was lying #or maybe they just really don’t like my art #which is fine I guess I just uh #I thought I was doing ok gif #batwynn talks

[girl-bateman]

Every day I am reminded that 90% of my problems would be solved if I actually listened to my intuition like ever

#my intuition: 'thats stupid. dont do that' #me: hm.. anyway ! :D #literally it does not register.. 😒 #ok so what i did that was embarrassingly stupid.... ugh ok.. eh.. #its like genuinely genuinely stupid ok like actually #ugh #ok so im making a new passport and i assumed that since the old one is old i didnt need it anymore #and so i cut out the cute little picture of myself for my travel journal and threw the rest of the passport away #meanwhile thinking: hmm. well this doesn't feel right but google said it was fine so i guess its fine. anyway look at that cute picture :D #and now i realise that the police need the old passport for when im taking out the new passport #so yes. embarrassingly stupid. there u go #i feel not great abt all this tbb. my brain has a tendency to overreact so now im convinced im not gonna be able to travel like i planned #plus im totally going to passport jail for idiots who cut up their own passport and throw them away #WHY LITERALLY WHY #i just wanted the cute little picture IM SORRY DONT TAKE ME TO JAIL 💔💔💔💔💔 #no but actually i do feel very not great about this genuinely actually genuinely </3 #the curse of scrapbooking i guess #is there a way i can tell the police im literally a neurodivergent (ex)minor ? and that this old passport thing is very offensive to me #anyhow.. yes its ok to laugh at my stupidity here but pls also remember im fragile 😢 💔 a poor little meow meow or something to that effect

[girlweepinginstairwell]

just realized that i am definitely going through a depressive episode

#i did really well all summer so :’-) i guess it’s fine and i will surely pull myself out of it soon like i always do #and my period is coming ugh. i’m just so sad lately so so so sad

[feliciadraws]

Lunarian Warrior Holding Tengu Helmet 🌙

Look, the moment I saw this painting, my simp brain's first thought was "man I have to recreate this but with Waka", and so...I did! After all, LOOK AT HIM. HE'S A WORK OF ART. WHOOF.

Painting inspo under the cut:

Germanic Warrior Looking At A Roman Helmet by Osmar Schindler

#look out girlies I'm in my classical art era #ugh this man #THIS MAN #he is FINE ART #like really he is a work of art #my muse #my roman empire #he deserves the 'recreation of famous classical paintings' treatment #like the fact that there isn't more Waka art like this is borderline criminal #CRIMINAL #*screeches* #anyways on to the tags- #okami #okami waka #waka #okami fanart #my artwork #should I tag this as classical art? #I guess #classical art

[soobadnoonecanstopher]

This morning my kid (the bbh-l) said “mom remember when I came in and you were watching exo ladder without me?” And I was like “yeah?” And he was like “😐” and then so I was like “😐” and so NOW????? SO NOW DO I JUST HAVE TO WAIT FOR HIM????? What the hell is this

#he’s like you know I also want to watch that #like okay #watch it then #but I’m not waiting alllllllll day while he’s in school #jeeeeeeez #ugh #fine #guess I’ll wait then

[munamania]

real life drama moment eye roll sams apparently struggling bc he wants to move out and is touring this building hes been eyeing but his roommates dont want him to but also apparently theres beef and he just 'doesnt want to be friends with those people anymore' and he was really vague about what that was all abt and his friend group and who he wanted to even still talk to. and well. not my circus not my monkeys....... but im gonna go ahead and keep my feet in two lanes here does that make me a shady bitch. girl i literally dk any details and thats fine but like. idk whatever..

#personally me and ur roommate r fine so gonna just chill there and also thank my fellow dyke they went on a trip with #just for being a lesbian hashtag dyke swag (we met once and high fived over this) #again not my business but all i know is that apparently some of them planned trips even to where hes from over break and didnt talk to him #abt it. and i was like well did any of you just talk about spring break at all and he was like no. so. okay.. and then he talked vaguely ab #doing so much for them to try and make them like him again and i was just like well once again #did anybody in this friend group ever just like have a direct conversation about anything ever. lowkey. i said it nicer than that #and the answer is pretty much no #like ok blames not fully on u ig but if we had unspoken beef and u were adjacently doing nice things idk that id. recognize that..? #esp just with. the busy-ness of sams life. not trying 2 be callous #idk in general that group just needs to fall apart once again why have u known each other since freshman year #go to like. therapy. also. ok im sorry to be bitching abt somebody thats kind of my friend i dont like feeling like a two faced bitch #thats the gemini in me i guess. ahaha everyone laugh. but whatever this is tumblr dot com. also like the fact that he approached this with #ugh.... im feeling Complex emotions... and i dont like it... :(. im gonna keep it real idk that thats very complex #ur just gonna have to talk to them. a general them. whoever. 'well whats the end goal of that' idk dude u have to figure that out hello #abby talks

[plotvichka]

Writing a coparents-Yenralt modern!au is so exhausting. I love it, but how do I choose who's the first to meet Ciri? What if I've already decided they're exes at the moment of adoption, but I want them BOTH to raise her together from the start? Ughhhh

I mean I do have ideas, but it just doesn't feel right. I can't find The One that will make my heart beat faster. And what's the point in writing if I'm not 150% into it?

#i do have their whole story before ciri planned #but it just seems so off when i add ciri #it's fine with geralt but yen is so out of place there #i guess i'll just have to add her later #but then again i had a very different idea for this fic #ugh it's like im writing 2 fics in 1 and they're completely incompatible #yenralt #the witcher #yennefer of vengerberg #geralt of rivia #cirilla of cintra

[pcktknife]

had a dream last night where I was in the zombie apocalypse with my family and my first thought within the dream was basically to get myself killed via zombie bc I didn't want to have to go through with it but my immediate second thought was 'i can't do that bc my little sister is going to wonder where I went cause I wouldn't be there anymore' so I didn't and I woke up

#i was kinda mad abt it too cause i really really do not want to have to live that experience but it made me so sad to think abt my sister #missing me i was like ugh fine i guess ill fucking live it almost made me want to cry in dream #kae.txt #i hate zombie dreams i dont get em alot but they always fill me with dread #its always the zombie ones i feel like i wake up and remember unfortunately