#just need to finish this application!

[konakoro]

RTGame Minecraft Let's Play save me

RTGame Minecraft Let's Play

Save me RTGame Minecraft Let's Play

#dumb stuff #rtgame #I've been in such a slog lately that his playthrough has honestly been a saving grace for me #been putting on the vods and working on drawings/job applications or just enjoying them on their own #and the main channel version got uploaded but i want to finish the vods first #it's been such a comfort blanket and i really needed it #if you ask me the best moments are any that involve the Ross notifications because they take me out every time lmao

[urjustaguyonahorse]

Erica or Boyd next! Erica or Boyd next! Erica or Boyd next! (/j, of course, but I'm really liking your analysis of the ships and characters!)

ERICA

Okay gang, so here's the thing about Erica. (For the sake of the analysis once again, she is not dead) My girl went through a LOT in her life before she got turned. She had to deal with her medical condition and the impact that had on her socially, mentally, emotionally, and in basically every other aspect of her life. Kind of like Isaac, when she got turned and got powerful, her personality experienced a whiplash. She went from being shy and insecure to being incredibly confident in a day. Which is entirely fair, she got a chance to restart her whole life the way she wanted to live. BUT it also created a gap of time where she was really just playing a part again instead of being herself, you can really see towards the end of her time on the show her character softening out and her becoming more comfortable with herself.

I LOVE her and Boyd, and I really feel like their relationship was supportive and special for both of them. But I guess I always put them together because they were the only characters that either of them had soft interactions with and stuck with during their time on the show. And the way I viewed their relationship was, salty, clever Erica, and firm, loyal Boyd, who were there for each other through thick and thin but never really romantic. I guess they could be lovers but I don't think that's what was best for either of them.

Erica and Stiles were an interesting match and I loved their banter. They DEFINITELY needed more screen time together, they could've been a really iconic duo, but she could never have really been what Stiles needed, and she deserved better than to be second string all her life.

Isaac and Erica again, were just playing more reckless shells of themselves to make up for all the time they had lost being afraid during the beginning of their relationship. And by the end, again, they never really could've been what each other needed.

I've seen Cora and Erica be shipped? I don't know, they would just both try to be the boss in the relationship and it wouldn't go over smoothly in a romantic relationship.

In short (this is not going to be that short) I think that Erica shouldn't have ended up with anybody on the show. She's charismatic and witty and beautiful and doesn't deserve to be shoved into a relationship with any of the characters already there just because she was single.

Ideally, I've got this idea of her ending up with someone not involved in the supernatural world. She's been dragged so far into it all because Derek needed a pack (he's made some very poor decisions I'll admit) and ended up basically losing everything for it. She deserved to have a little bit of refuge from it all.

I like to think she becomes the person she would've needed when she was younger and maybe she finds the person who would've healed her when she was young and hurting. And maybe falls in love with them completely of her own volition later, when she is healed a little more and is a person of her own, instead of desperately clinging to them while she was at a point in her life when she was weak and afraid.

She just deserved somebody who picked her first, who didn't take advantage of her, who could take her out of that world a little and show her there's more to life than the wolf inside her.

#erica my love you deserve the world #protect her keep her safe keep her slaying keep her confident #she's gorgeous #lmk what you guys think about who she should've ended up with #i do tend to entirely ignore the situation that went down with derek and erica to get her to accept the bite #i kind of just block it out because i hate it and i think that it's entirely out of character #even for early seasons derek #so sorry for that it was brought to my attention after i finished writing for anybody who thought it was applicable to this #erica reyes #teen wolf #tw #also sorry it took longer than expected #i had some projects i needed to finish

[athinginmotion]

had an interview on Wednesday and they said they’d get back to me by the end of the week and Friday has come and gone and nothing. I’m assuming I didn’t get it and they’re just waiting until Monday to let me know because notifying the successful candidate is the priority…but I really wish they’d just rejected me outright because this way I have a teeny tiny remaining crumb of hope remaining over the weekend lol. Which is worse

#I knowwww I haven’t gotten it I just need to convince this last stubborn part of me which keeps hoping #Because otherwise the rejection will be too painful #I know i need to be less invested but it’s the second round and the process has been so long and drawn out #And it’s the closest I’ve come in ages and I FOOLISHLY started letting myself get attached to the idea #Plus my temp job has just finished and I’ve been slacking with the applications #And I can’t bear the thought of starting from square one again #But I guess I’m going to have to!!!

[nehswritesstuffs]

you know, maybe one of the reasons Law has resonated with me as a character lately is because he ate the Ope-Ope no Mi/Op-Op Fruit and my Midwestern American ass recognizes that sacred word and just clings to it because he is exactly the type of guy who would wear a hoodie with shorts and exudes not only big I Might Have Had A Rebellious Phase But I’m A Professional Now If You Would Just Listen to Me I am So Tired energy but also what is Flevance but a Rust Belt town decimated by toxic mining and a government filled with just enough people who want to sweep it under the rug and look the other way and this doesn’t even get into headcanons about Flevance being the Low Countries/more Dutch than what most people think of when they read “German” bc it caters to my personal whims or Detroit parallels because I will make Detroit parallels about every fictional center of wealth and prosperity and culture that gets fucking abandoned and treated like trash (especially by those around it) and no one can stop me

#wearing a hoodie and shorts while in A/C writing this like yeah this tracks #Law is just a very good and applicable blorbo #he can translate really well into Midwestern and while I know some of it is projecting not all of it is #this is part of why Double Date From Hell is set in the pseudo-Midwest #it just fcking works in my head alright #no shade to people who think he's swiss or from dresden or smth #those hcs are just as valid it's just iykiyk #might use these musings in fic might not #Trafalgar Law #One Piece #Trafalgar D. Water Law #I really need to finish up my current seagull fic but the ability to concentrate is eluding me #post the 1331st

[risingsunresistance]

btw i am a shivering wet cat of a man rn so like. if you wanna chat about something or ask random questions feel free to hop in my inbox or something idk

#does anyone want skyblock screenshots like the prev reblog. my 1.8 folder is uhhhhhhhh 1GB! and that's only after i downloaded essential- #anyways the reason i am a shivering wet cat of a man. Job. i have acquired job #did god's toughest battle today (interview) and for my efforts i am rewarded with a cr2032 battery to replace the one in my sad old laptop #but i cant work on that rn so im just sitting here winding down from that kjghfdk #i was finishing the Official Application part but im stuck now bc i need management to get back to me before i can continue :V #also drug tests taste really bad. in case you did not know that #WHY ARE THEY SO BITTER #chat

[pinayelf]

.

#so im thinking abt applying for retail work again gaah #student loans being back on + struggling to get comms is making me apprehensive #this is in no way shaming ppl unable to commission me nor do i think like im entitled to commissions im just saying how it is & i kno #a lot of us are struggling bc the economy is just so ass rn #im lucky tht im able to live w my parents where im not starving #but i do need money to pay for certain bills & student loans #so i guess retail it is ;-; #im just apprehensive bc 1. my last retail job absolutely obliterated my mental health #2. i feel like i wont be hired anyway bc of the 5 year gap.... #mental illness isnt rly tht fun at all when trying to Live #anyways i decided to try again bc im medicated this time & according to a friend the job is less stressful #i have the application p much finished im just not hitting send bc i feel like im psyching myself out

[eggplant-dolma]

o-KAY!

threw together some dough for bread last night but ended up shoving it into the fridge because I came down with a sudden migraine and opted for bed instead. Plus side - I get fresh bread this morning!

I had to fill out a form for school since i missed applying for our grad requirements workshop (so I can graduate at the end of the semester!)

Now, working on reading a couple articles for class tonight, as well as continuing my work to compile potential book resources for my capstone.I need to find close to 20 books which will then be whittled down to 10 which will be put into an annotated bibliography, and then 3 of those will be what I am reading and responding to in my final research paper :')

** the gorgeous prints i bought from adambcreates on the etsy. y'know when you see some art and, within it, yourself? yea.

#i honestly really dont mind and even enjoy this part of the project where i just get to dig for authors and books its a lot of fun #i also need to decide on my approach of my independent study class which will be tied in with my capstone but will deal with a slightly mor #specific lense and much more empirical and ethnographic research/materials #i need to decide so i can finish the application to DO the class and move on with my life lol this smester is going to be so intense but #i know i will only be better for it #studyblr #eggplant does research #cest moi #adambcreates

[alteredsilicone]

boss sent me an email asking if i got the uni PhD stipend and I remembered that I did not get it

#talking to myself #i dont even know how they decided whom to give them to #probably based on our initial application scores #which means that if 6 people got it #and i was 7th #i was once again right behind the finish line #also i hope my boss wont rope me into signing for some grant #that forces me to finish my phd in 3 years #cuz i will kms #and my coworker scared me how he has to do mountains of paperwork for his grant #but then again our institute is always in need of cash money #augh #literally the worst part about phd is the money and the paperwork #otherwise its just you do study you write your silly papers and you do a science

[bitterpngs]

i wanna drawww

#but i need to work on this fucking application #please let me draw please please please #angel.txt #@ myself please just FINISH THIS

[fakecats]

watching the coleydoesthings zine video and feeling very maniacal

#i need to join a zine #or start one #when i finish eternal punishment #shall i start a p2 zine Twiddles thumbs #if i were to do one it wouldnt be like all this fancy shit #it woudl just be #a bunch of artists writers whatever #get together and make stuff. slap it in a pdf. make it free to download #no applications because the p2 fandom is like 3 people total #anyways this is all just my deranged talking Probably will not ever happen #dont wanna end up like the shuake zine #anyways i need to buy more art #my post 🔮 #laurence says things 🌌 #fanzine #persona 2

[abusivelittlebunny]

Applying to jobs/masters is so

#i am so overwhelmed but i already cried too much about it today sighhhh #i just need to finish my masters application before the end of the month and im so tired 😫 i just want to sleep and drink boba #and talk to my friends about pretty boy stuff

[alkibiadessuperfan]

y‘all im back in my academic weapon era

#✨✨✨✨👹👹👹 #beware #HIHIHI #im going insane #idk if i am happy or going to cry from panic cause i just did smth #i need to write all my essays for this semester still but #i got spontaneously into a really REALLY big work experience thing #ILL BE AN INTERN AT THE ROMAN MUSEUM #HEHEHEHE #im also really really scared #I FINISHED THE EXCHANGE YEAR APPLICATION TOO #maybe norway this september??🤭🤭🤭🤭

[katierosefun]

god okay the way i need to remind myself that i'll only be a student for a little longer . . .

#caroline talks #i'm just processing that i've been steadily working/studying for the last. TWELVE HOURS. #it was really 'go to class. have class. go to gym. respond to emails while at the gym bc everything is urgent.' #'sit down. have lunch for 20 minutes. do work for that thing.' #'now have this meeting for that thing.' #'now do more work for that thing.' #'and now finish this job application. revise your personal statement.' #'okay now you need to do your actual homework.' #'and then after that. you need to review your class notes.' #and it's just like. ENOUGH. ENOUGH . . .

[skyllion-uwu]

Am I nauseous because I'm hungry or because I triggered myself last night

#my stomach hurts and i need to eat but the idea of doing that is. ack #and i cant tell my parents why because id have to unpack so much spontaneously #like id have to explain i was on the internet before they let me make an account and that i didnt tell them when i was getting those dms #and how its basically ruined any neutrality i had towards sex because ill be fine and then BAM! #everyone else is 12 year old me and im an adult and im my abuser and im going to hurt them if i keep talking about this #just because it was only words doesnt mean it fucked everything up forever. i know back then i was aroace but didnt have the words #but i sincerely think id be just sex neutral if it wasnt for that fucking asshole and now i think about sex for too long and get sick #and i didnt say anything because i thought they were my friend and i dont know if they were 11 like they said they were or not either way #its just. im getting so much off my chest here i wish i could go back in time and tell myself to block after that first message #and i didnt say anything after i realized because i wasnt allowed to have social media and i didnt want to get in trouble over that part #fantasizing alone is one thing but as soon as someone else is involved theyre me and im that person on da and i hate it. i hate it i hate it #i hate it i hate it #is that a common thing. where you feel like youre the abuser in certain contexts even if youre nothing like them #whatever. i have physical therapy and then ask a prof if i can use him as a reference and then finish my application if he gets back to me #and then i can rot all i want #sky vents like amogus

[dykeseinfeld]

yeah the loneliness is reaching critical points i am going to die

#my best friend is coming to visit this weekend #and i don't super trust myself not to try to kiss her under the moonlight but that's another issue #i'm trying to schedule a date w a girl but she hasn't texted me back in a bit #but mostly i just. ugh. it hurts man. i need to finish these applications Now for real but like. this is untenable

[arcaneyouth]

my shit ass gamer chair has developed a quirky lil issue where the seat won't stay up and is constantly sinking down and there's nothing i can do about it. it'll last for like 2 hours and then i just can't use it anymore. and i don't feel good asking my parents for a replacement we do not have that money rn. and i apparently don't know how to tell if a chair is going to be good before it gets here (i chose this chair. it's lasted less than a year) so i would have to ask my parents to figure it out for me and they don't have that time. so. i'm kinda just. not able to use my computer for very long. so that's awesome.

#vent post #negative #the seat hurts to sit on at this point too #it's just a bad chair. i knew it was bad the moment i started putting it together. #i'm glad it waited to do this until after i finished making chapter 7 of my comic so i don't technically need to use it much #but i wanted to draw today. #and now i'm gonna spend the rest of my day in bed cause i've got nothing else i can do #i also have not finished making my fucking cover letter for this stupid application so i'm gonna have to transfer that to google docs to #do it on my phone in bed #also the chair sinks down so slowly that i usually can't tell if it's actually sinking and trying to figure it out makes me nauseous #for some god damn reason #fuck. chairs are so fucking expensive. #i wanted to use the money i'm gonna get from the job i'm hopefully getting to buy fun silly stuff #but i'm probably gonna have to spend All Of It on a fucking chair #because i really cannot make my parents get me one. #so now if i don't get this job i'm just. kinda fucked #i've got money in savings i just hate having to use it. that was supposed to be my moving out fund man #this fucking. sucks #if anybody can explain why the fuck my chair is doing this so i can fix it. that'd be awesome. #update: its clearly a problem with the cushion. unfortunately i cant replace the cushion. #not without taking a knife to it. which i am super unsure if thats a good idea. #i hate knowing fucking nothing. i dont know what to do. i want to scream.