#i have the application p much finished im just not hitting send bc i feel like im psyching myself out

[pinayelf]

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#so im thinking abt applying for retail work again gaah #student loans being back on + struggling to get comms is making me apprehensive #this is in no way shaming ppl unable to commission me nor do i think like im entitled to commissions im just saying how it is & i kno #a lot of us are struggling bc the economy is just so ass rn #im lucky tht im able to live w my parents where im not starving #but i do need money to pay for certain bills & student loans #so i guess retail it is ;-; #im just apprehensive bc 1. my last retail job absolutely obliterated my mental health #2. i feel like i wont be hired anyway bc of the 5 year gap.... #mental illness isnt rly tht fun at all when trying to Live #anyways i decided to try again bc im medicated this time & according to a friend the job is less stressful #i have the application p much finished im just not hitting send bc i feel like im psyching myself out