HAII KAI <3 sending kissies ur way !!!! i hope ur doing well ๐๐
kai.. listen listen.. imagine PAPA alhaitham
HAIII ๐ผ kisses u back hihi :33
เซฎ๊ฐ๊ฉ แฏ ๊ฉ;๊ฑแ waaah papa haitham.... he's a girldad me thinks. how many? as many as you want bc he doesn't want to demand anything from you! was stunned when he cradled the crying baby in his arms for the first time ever because he couldn't believe that he created such pure and lovely creature :( will kiss your forehead and promise you that he'll keep watch over your daughter so you can rest easy.
became super attentive to you and the child (if he isn't already) and will make sure you're not overworking during your healing period. kisses his daughter everyday before work and when he comes home (you get one too ofc). read books on how to change her diapers n everything so he can help make your job easier!
100% would read bedtimes stories 4 her too!! took her to the house of daena so she can find books that interest her, while the akademiya's students are staring with their jaw dropped at the sight (o_o) uncle kaveh would occasionally come by to visit her and let her do his hair bc her papa's hair is too short to tie up into a ponytail and she can only snuck in a bow clip or two :(
[ ID: a full body drawing of beam from chainsaw man. he is facing 3/4 away from the viewer and is leaning back with a hand on his hip and the other hanging down. a bright yellow light is reflecting off his skin. beam is a muscular japanese man with the top of his head and his eyes covered by a shark head and fin. he has black hair that sticks out the back. he has miscellaneous scars around his body and small pointed ears. he wears jean shorts and a pair of white and black sneakers. the background is a blue halftone with a yellow box and the word โBEAM!โ in the top left corner. END ID. ]
beeg rant and ig vent under the read more about my grief and such about my friend that died nearly 2 months ago now; read at your own risk im just kinda rambling into the void to get my feelings out to no one in particular :3
there isnโt a single day where i have not thought of claire since her death and yet it never seems to hit
thatโs sheโs truly gone
no one seems to talk about it anymore; which i understand, like we canโt just wallow on it forever but
idk!!!
our friend died! like idk what else we could do but i still have the desire forโฆ
something!
i wish she was more than a passing thought
a corpse in a coffin
in a grave
in a cemetery many many kilometres away
i remember her and though she will probably become less omnipresent in my thought i donโt think she will ever leave me
i am far from the only one affected by her death and even though i know that thought is inaccurate and self centred i feel so alone in this mourning
i just want to share this pain with someone i donโt knowwwwwwww
my ear is feeling so much better & everything has been quiet. got cleared to put my home care on hold, my fiance learned how to take care o' me so i can go on vacation. the plane tickets are settled, i'm officially able to go away. & a month somewhere remote w. internet (& the inability to swim) should give me plenty of ample time to get caught up, here. i've already made significant progress, which will free me up to finally update my fanfics & work on a comment request. despite needing naps in order to stay productive. which, i've just done! so hopefully maybe i can do the few more hc questions i've gotten for willy.
the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "๐๐ผ๐๐ผโ" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
gale's reaction to mystra telling him to blow himself up is obviously heartbreaking but on the other hand it is deeply DEEPLY hilarious when Gale, Learned professor of renown, is like "if there was another way to defeat the absolute don't you think the goddess of magic would have thought of it" and the band of badly socialized half-feral murder children he's running with just go "well maybe the goddess of magic is stupid, gale"
every damn time i (spyte) try to listen to a song to sleep and its semi-loud: SOMEONE SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS IN THE MIDDLE OF IT. WHY. ITS SO LOUD AND I END UP RIPPING THE EARBUDS OFF BCUZ I GOT SO SCARED. STOP THIS.
(yes i know loud music isnt healthy to fall asleep to shhhhh its comforting)