#just change the rules my dude

[sunnydayaoe]

hello. being completely Normal w/ my new highlighters :) [zoomed in under the cut]

#undertale au #utmv #hghghg hthis is why. I changed how they drew their faces. I was hit with a vivid image of him eating bones </3 #don't tag as ship #[I have no clue What you'd tag as ship but I think I'd explode if someone called anythign here romantic [bit to close to my heart ghghg]] #eyestrain #highlighters so bright I need to tag as eyestrain >:) #tw:eyestrain #canabalism #just to be safe ghghg #wanting an exuse to draw skeletons but also I know people will call me sus if I take off any more layers >:T #guys their bones they can't be nakey #this is furry art rules fr fr smh #fresh #fresh sans #fresh!sans #nearly forgot to tag the guy ever of the hour GHghghg #blue. .berror is also there but I not taggin him cus he is just. in the corner being cute bahahaha #and the sans the guy is lookin to be chomping is jus some random dude. no thought put into him at alll #jbird's art #traditional art #notebook art #notebook sketches

[un-pearable]

tiny, scribbly, nigh-incomprensible teaser <3

#yes these are directly from my godforsaken instagram. whatever #aggressively first pass. i’m having so much fun doodling him though i know he’s extremely generic kid character rn i promise i’m trying to #branch out artistically but sometimes. cute’s cute. plus it ups the tragedy factor #the most important part of the design i need to get down is his hair. being aggressively just the grown out original bowl it #BOWLCUT. kid hasn’t ever set foot in a hair salon and goodness knows none of the ninja give a shit. later on he’d care #but atm dude needs a popsicle and week long nap self exploration can come later #also. cole calling lloyd a sprout bc of the tiny pigtail lives in my head now #the dark part of his hair isn’t bc he dyed it it’s bc he grew six inches in five seconds and NONE of that blond hair has been exposed to #sunlight. hair color changes SO MUCH based on context (like amount of copper in your environment literally any number of buckwild factors) #and i have many thoughts on the logistics of the age up. but also the ohoge is immune to hair growth rules he deserves it both for the added #cuteness-tragedy points and to tie in with how i draw kai and nya #ninjago #lloyd garmadon #art✨

[kindaorangey]

you can talk about whether a character "deserved" or "earned" their redemption arc and whether it serves the narrative or whatever until the cows come home but at the end of the day it all comes back to this: is the character more or less enjoyable now that they're redeemed?

#thunder rambles #bc like lilith is boring as FUCK post-redemption. i personally like adam (sex ed) more as a minor antagonist than i do as a minor protag #but like. anya btvs for instance. once she switches sides she hardly changes at ALL it just means u get more of her cuz shes in the #main cast!! #and that RULES bc anya is the BEST #all that matters is whether you enjoy the character more now that theyve undergone their character arc. thats literally. the way it works. #and! enjoyment can be hindered if said character either continues to act shitty or asks for kindness from people they have no right to do #that to! #if that makes sense #basically dont push the forgive your abusers thing. thats a valid reason to not enjoy a character post-redemption (looking @ u spuffy) #anyway what was my point #oh yeah this is why im so against redemption for chloe bourgeois. bc unless she goes on a full alexis rose character arc #shes never gna be more enjoyable as a permanent protag as she is as an antagonist #and like even then alexis was never as cruel as chloe #and chloe's cruelty can be rly hammy and dramatic and its part of what makes her a good antagonist. #yeah. #also tom's redemption arc in svtfoe is less of a redemption and more a soft rewrite of his character to be a viable love interest #and it works #bc i love his dumbass #bottom line is: is it serving the narrative? nah dude is it serving ME?

[reconnecting]

rambling dont mind me

#thinking about how the difference between me n my other indigenous friends is like a border or two #thats it #and how that really just can totally remove everything i have to say from relevancy with other indigenous people #like my yukayeke vs my cousins tribe n clan #function completely differently #which makes sense like we're ages apart #literally different countries and opposite sides even if we werent #but i think like #as soon as you get south of the border the 'rules' that northern dudes have made kinda stop applying how you think they do #like my cousin is metis and taino because theyre my cousin #or more theyd be a part of my yukayeke if theyd learn about it i guess is more accurate like #its a bit more complex than how im saying it but yk #but i cant be part of their clan or tribe #which mind you is FINE like its not a bother or anything like that and i dont necessarily even know if id join given the choice #but i find it really interesting like #something about the timezone of when you got colonized and where that border is really changed us #i dont think we need to be this divided in our views is kinda the other thing but also i think that we currently need how certain things ar #like how theyre different #just in order to deal with the surrounding population of people #like shit my boyfriend's family would NEVER admit theyre indigenous even though he wants to reconnect #whereas white cherokee grandma is a whole thing here #well excluding the aztecs but his family considers them dead so im not counting that rn #versus like my taino ass #we're having a whole resurgence of people trying to be proud of their blood in puerto rico #its a HUGE thing to say 'oh fuck we're not dead' like its a MAJOR event thats been happening for the past few years #and its great! its like actually fantastic! #and i really GENUINELY hope it doesnt end up with our yukayekes becoming even more closed off #i hope it ends with 'youre taino? come learn then.' and then we learn #because fuck if i dont love my people but fuck if im not sick of people claiming shit for fun too #idk

[burymeinblack2022]

it was so clear esc this year was rigged in favor of loreen the moment they said she couldnt have the 1 ton screen from her performance at the melodifestivalen bc it was too heavy so they were gonna have to change the performance but then she still showed up to the semi with the goddamn screen over her lwhile everyone else (*cough* portugal) had to compromise like it’s clear they were always playing favorites also i think we should just abolish the jury vote at this point let the people decide

#we had a COUCH instead we ended up with an empty stage and still ATE when will ur fave ever #wow anna said something #it's soooo weird how i have no recollection of last night except for cha cha cha do u guys remember #anything ?? thats sooooo strange #Esc 2023 #yeah im bitter and i WILL continue bitter im in my lemon era #at least maybe we'll get måns hosting but it should have been helsinki 2024 #im just mad dude im just mad its verka all over again #eurovision 2023 #eurovision #also i just know fdc (our selection) will be so ass next year as usual this was by FAR the best song this year #and the 1st year with public submissions being accepted (and one won !) i hope they dont change the rules again #ive been saying for years we need to send a rock song but they always choose the most bland mainstream artists

[mister13eyond]

that gender post has me wanting to put Gender Shit into words and like man

from Outside i suppose I'd probably be labeled 'nonbinary' since i present in a way that doesn't adhere to gender norms for men and my presentation is androgynous at best

but imo my personal view is like. the gender binary is fake and made up, it's a set of social rules enforced by societal norms, and opting not to comply with it doesn't necessarily change my internal view of my own gender

i'm a guy, that feels easy and uncomplicated. i like he/him pronouns, my medical transition has focused on masculinizing my body via T and top, my everyday interactions with family, friends, partners and coworkers all place me squarely in the realm of 'guy', i don't necessarily think my relationship to my identity is at all complicated or outside the binary. i like being a dude!

it's just, like. why would i ever BOTHER adhering to the social standards or norms for what men are supposed to look or dress like? i'm never going to be a Masculine Ideal- no amount of medical transition can make me taller than 5'0" or make my generally soft features somehow more acceptably masculine. I also no longer give a shit about 'passing' as this is just... not something i care to do and would require caring more about Outside standards than my own perception and comfort

Once i got to a point where I was at ease and completely present in my own body because it met my mental ideal, I just stopped overcompensating with more masculine clothes/leaving my face scruffy/affecting masculine mannerisms, i just like. don't care. i hit 'right' and everything else is My City and I am simply not interested in the standards for what men are supposed to look like or dress like. if we say a cis man can be effeminate and gender non conforming while still id'ing as cis, why do i have to be classed any differently for opting not to bother with social norms?

tl;dr: it's not that i'm NOT nonbinary, it's just that I simply think gender is ALL made up so my dressing and behaving in a certain way doesn't mean I Have To be outside the binary; i feel like a guy, the rest is all just fun and games

#personal #gender #gender thoughts #this is not to say that someone else that feels the exact same way i do is NOT nonbinary #in fact i'm rather affirming the idea that your label is your choice and your personal decision rather than a set of standards or rules #if you feel like you're nonbinary you are no further questions #if you feel like nonbinary is an additive label or one part of a more descriptive set of labels that's real too #your identity is whatever feels right #mine feels like 'dude' is easy and requires no further explanation #even if i completely eschew rules about what clothes are masculine quote unquote and which are supposedly feminine #i just figure it's opt-in not opt-out #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk #lately ive been thinking about it a lot because i think it's probably giving people outside my circle pause #and i feel like people will think i have somehow Changed identity or Detransitioned in some way because of my presentation #but nah #same guy #same dude just now i figure fashion is my playground and i'm having a great time #also im gay #that is a big part of it #why would i act like a straight man. i like men. #why would i want to adhere to the idea of what masculinity is when i feel most at home adopting a label that #embraces gender nonconformity historically

[cyberstabbing]

a new classmate looked at my phone just as a text notif popped up from my friend asking if i'm depressed :)🔫 shouldn't be embarrassing but of course it was arrughh

#for the record i think it's just light seasonal depression #with a tinge of ever present sadness because HALF MY FRIENDS MOVED AWAY FOREVER #mine #i wore such a cute outfit today but i only study with guys rn so no girls compliment me :( #but my classmate is super chill and i'm trying to figure out if he's queer?? #or just the type of nice straight nerd dude that queer people flock to #sidenote but he's really pretty and if he dressed in thrifted clothes / parted his hair differently and acted aloof #he would do extreeeemely well in this city #but he's clearly been in his room in the suburbs on twitch all his life #so he's very unaware and talks in a very doggo le random way #he shouldn't change though!! i'm just saying in a parallel universe he would have ruled the indie scene here

[thefaultinoursprinkles]

how to explain that I’m dying and have too much going on in my personal life to have such a stressful job without sharing unnecessary details with my boss that may come back to bite me later on

#ayyyyyyyiiiiiii #like oh yeah sorry my partner tried to off themselves last December and then they were on leave for 9 months and we were living on one in on #and they just came back a month ago and it’s not going well and honestly they’re probably gonna have to quit and I don’t think they’ll be #able to work anymore at all #anyways all my bills are over dude my credit is fucked and I get about 20 calls a day from bill collectors #not to mention I’m still trying to figure out the short term disability ahit HR fucked up #oh yeah and also my depression is relapsing and I have ‘can’t do things or pay attention’ #disorder and terrible anxiety and my depression is relapsing #plus we had 2 deaths in the family very recently which I still haven’t had time to process #and you know I have to leave work early yesterday to go to urgent care cause I was having a miscarriage! #and they scooped me and gave me meds! #so like 15 client projects 6 internal projects and onboarding 2 people while you change literally every single process and rule after firing #half of my team and leaving me as the only person with product knowledge #well it’s a lot it fucking handle. #I’m dying #like how do you even say that. #you don’t #you just suffer in silence as the bone chilling dread and ‘waking up unable to breathe’ panic takes over

[doecrossing]

had a really normal discussion with the prof who's supervising my thesis. he loves making my ego explode and then punching it down in the same breath it's insane.

#he was like ''as a general rule youre the smartest person in any given room. if you try and do anything outside of academia youll struggle'' #he also said that i would have trouble dating because of it and i was just like ?? im fine??? #i didnt tell him im in a relationship bc thats none of his business but like. dude. #he also wrestled me rlly hard abt my thesis topic so im kinda. changing directions with it but im glad he did this. #txt

[ofherlionheart]

27 and 29 for ao3 wrapped! :)

27. What do you listen to while writing?

whatever i happen to be listening to that day/week/month! im not nearly put together enough to have dedicated playlists for different pieces lol. lately i've been vibing to 夏に溺れたい by Nao'myt (yo the linked lyric vid is so cool, gr8 colors), 나는 왜 by O.O.O., cherry and heavy, california (music/dance video, also amazing colors) by jungle, driftin' and expressions by STUTS, and run by han

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

i liked this one b/c it was completely unplanned! the scene had done what it needed to do but then i was like. i want an abrupt mood change teehee

Sokka plucks a slice from the forgotten plate of plums still in Zuko’s hands. “Funny how she talks to you more now that you aren’t dating her daughter.”

“She’s always been protective of Mai, I think.”

A wide grin splits Sokka’s face. “What, because you’re so threatening?”

Zuko blinks. “You don’t think I’m threatening?”

“So, so scary. Just look at this face.”

With one hand, he grabs Zuko’s jaw, his fingers squishing Zuko’s cheeks toward his lips, and Zuko nearly flings his plums in his desperate squirm away. “My cheeks are normal-sized!” he protests against Sokka’s laughter, backing further into the corner.

“Very round. Extremely frightening.”

Embarrassed by Sokka’s teasing and the light feeling bubbling in his chest, Zuko shoves a plum slice into Sokka’s mouth. “Shut up,” he grumbles. “Where did you leave Nisha?”

“Mm mph mr mn—”

“Spirits, Sokka, finish chewing first.”

ao3 wrapped ask game (writer’s edition)!

#ask game #yo obsessed w that jungle music video (as always) #the reverse footage? 'you were never going to change me / i was already changing'? #as in. the motion you're seeing now already happened #mindblowing #check out casio too that one of my fave music videos possibly ever #i dont listen to it while writing but the True 'on repeat so much id be concerned as an outside observer' song is halazia by ateez #the fcking organ dude #the tempo shifts #yeosang in that deep range?? #hongjoong's verse?? #the batshit outro that i just KNEW was going to be an incredible dance break before a video even came out? #bonus points for making wooyoung the center there it's been too long since he's had a true choreo moment #sigh im really outing myself here #like the sun inside of you #hmm that's kinda long for a passage isn't it #oh well #i make the rules

[bunn-iiii]

never gonna change my main url, however you can enjoy about 70% of my other urls I have horded as side blogs in my ever growing collection

#sorry that's just how things work here i have a nonexistent self brand to uphold #well i say non existant like as if all of my usernames and urls and socials aren't all the same thing but a little different #bunn.iiii is my insta #bunn_iiii is basically 90% of my socials #and bunn-iiii is my tumblr which u r at right now! #this literally started cause i wanted to be a twitch streamer in early 2021 #and so i made everything that one name cause that's a spin on what my discord was at the time #and it kinda just stuck with me thru the years #idk it's strange cause like i don't really want to b a twitch streamer anymore and i dont uphold my rule of not showing my face and i don't #post my little online sona dude anywhere anymore really #the only thing left from that era is the stuff i posted at that time on insta and my username #any time i make a new social media account it has to be some version of bunn_iiii #and usually like 90% it's not taken so it's not a problem but sometimes it is so it changes to a period or a hyphen instead of an underscore #just some lore shit on my user cause i think the story of it is relaly neat #there's actually more to this story than that but I'm trying to keep it shorter #anyways #tag rant

[shrimp1y]

Every time I'm like wow maybe im wrong about jjk maybe it is good and I go back to read it, I'm disappointed

#krill livestream #'so then why are 90% of your art and projects jjk aus' i like the idea of it ok i was sold on the concept of math based abilities #but then like. the series is just. held together by mashmallows n spagheti #LIKE IS IT JUST ME i feel crazy im like the character motivations are all over the place imo i feel like. they just Do Things #why? they just Do. like from a writing perspective feels like gege is going well in order to go from here to here these characters have to #do xyz so therefore they will do it #itadoris motivation as a main character is so flimsy to me. and like considering gege is a big fan of dgm i think he's a bit inspired by #allen walker. the original painfully good hearted protag. nobody can do it like u king. but itadori failed at every step allen took #allen had a solid anchor a motivation when his parental figure died and its referenced again and again. whenever his world view shifts as #he's forced to adapt to his circunstanced #his truth of why he fight is questioned and the reader feels it. they too question where he finds the strength to continue n then the story #answers that question #and we are struck by how good he is. how much pain he is in and how fucked up everything is and yet. hes just wholeheartedly there still #itadori barely has a moment of onscreen reflection. hes like oh im sad and someones like ur sad bc u cant protect people therefore u must #get stronger and hes like yeah ur right this is no time to mope #my biggest gripe is with gojo and geto's development actually because like. i feel like gege didn't actually show how GOJO changed from #being cold and detached from humanity. apathetic and homicidal to like. somehow wanting to follow jujutsu tech's rules? #like you are telling me this kid who's bestie changed his entire world views. who once considered murdering an entire group of ppl and only #didn't bc bestie said it wasn't a good idea. who literally could beat one of the strongest dudes #decided to just. sit down and be like ok elders i guess my bestie is a criminal now #like gojo shouldve been like you killed an entire village because they were assholes? i told you sometimes ppl deserves to get beat! #i feel like geto killing his parents was thrown in just for shock factors imo and for satoru to be like wait whaaat but ur parents??? #even then im like gojo. low empathy interp. would probably be like i hate my parents too i kinda get it #you just don't. have enough. to pull a role reversal with them. there just isn't enough motivation for why Gojo would consider morality #especially the morality that jjtech valued. over his best friend. who was the one who gojo held onto that morality for in the first place

[melto]

love mechanics is actually so hilarious for having mark suicide bait like 3 times in the first ep. and then having the audacity to be mad when vee interrupts his hookup after he posted like a broken heart emoji and b&w roof pic that had all his friends freaking the fuck out and vee went to find him so he didnt jump and shit lol

#i love mark he's so iconic for that honestly. #i think its so funny when people characterize mark as like this sweet poor little guy like are we watching the same show. #he suicide bated to be funny right off the bat and he's mean as all hell and he rules for that. #he needs drama or he'll die but he cant fully handle the heat. #veemark is so funny. two dudes obsessed with each other. one needs them to constantly be breaking up while being hopelessly romantic and #in love. the other is literally that tweet thats like if a pretty girl disagrees with me i'll change my views. that literally vee with mark #and had his entire life changed by one night with this guy's dick. #they suck so bad. everyone who says they wont last is crazy bc they are the only two people who can handle each other they are so annoying #and just as bad as the other. they are both winners and losers they both dated up and dated down and they make it everyone's problem. #if you dont get it you just dont. But i get it. i get it and i love them for it. #isaac drama posting hours

[dustylovelyrun]

So, I’m pulling out a piece for a ‘last line’ and just going over them, picking out a thing I like, right? One of the last edited ones from nano. Getting all curious and such about them, reading further back. And there’s one thing I’ve noticed after bouncing between the same few wips for Nano -

There’s always a Nathan.

Why are there so many Nathans?

#writing #for further context - I have something of a rule to keep the name to one or two uses #two is the maximum and then we throw it in the bin. Look elsewhere for a character #because I genuinely just have way too many and a lot of wips don't even HAVE names #so I'll just call it something like 'mycin' #or 'flynn and marco' #or 'henrietta' #to get an idea of which wip I'm referring to when I make notes in my chaos file and go back to sort things out do the whole wip thing later #three has happened before but I ended up changing out one of their names #then becoming immensely confused because I left myself a note mid-way into the file and didn't change the rest in the drafts #and y'know. lost the name and who the heck that one dude is with the new name but THEN who THAT one is with the old name #and for Nathan - #I have five nathans #and I'm not sure about the ones that I have yet to find #I'm just... it's like KEVIN all over again #can't think of a name? KEVIN #boy character? KEVIN #girl character? KEVIN #whatever character? You guessed it - KEVIN #I overran myself with Kevins when I was sixteen and genuinely forgot other names existed. everyone was kevin #and slowly but surely the nathan's are growing and I am fearful about what they're aspiring to do as more continue to join their ranks

[huidol]

🪄 🪄 🪄 TRIPLE ATTACK!!!

BEING ATTACKED!!!!!!!!!!!

(Ribs - The Crane Wives)

Time has changed the metaphor

now, dust is not the origin of bone

Little girl, don't let them sell you any armor

All your ribs are still your own

--

The dark doesn't frighten me

I chose to close my eyes; it is mine

The night doesn't frighten me

I chose to let it thrive; it is mine

#honey blather #GRIFFIN <333 #YES its another crane wives song i was gonna do uhmm. an orion experience song but ribs made me cry the first time I heard it so <333 uhm. #this song makes me loose my mind though seriously its not my favorite crane wife song that's probably like. curses or uhmm hand that feeds #but like?!?!!??!? the whole plot of the song is like. uhm the story of lilith which. okay this is like a religious thing but its not like #shitty. lilith is awesome and cool and the rules set in place were shitty #lilith didnt submit to a man and left the garden or was cast out idk anyways the whole song is about her being independant #and her story was removed from the book bc they don't want girls to follow her footsteps and be independent #and the whole song shes like You're still your own your ribs are not from a man etc etc #i listened to it and i was just like Oh god i have religous trauma <- already knew that #time has changed the metaphor dust is not the origin of bone <- talking about how since lilith's story has been wiped that everyone thinks #that women's bones are created from man'sbut in reality her bones were created from dust just likeadam FUCK DUDE!!!! #LITERALLY THE WHOLE SONG IS LIKE she literally just wants to be independent this is the most normal request how on earth could she be evill #also i promise if i get another ask i wont do another crane wife lyric i just like music. oh god wait i completely forgot about go! child #FUCK!!!! <- loves all the lyrics #sorry for the religious blather in the tags usually despise talking about it but i like this song because its like. #idk how to describe it its like. Lilith literally didn't want to submit to man and Christans treat her like a demon and its like. #wow theyre really outting themselves like this. #cw religion #tw religion

[jjeremysstash]

internetingishard is nice and all, until you have to fucking code your own site bc the person who made the thing is telling you to try to put semantics but also the entire semantics part was made without css and now you have no idea how to apply all the css you just learned into that sematic thing because it's not organized the same way

so yeah lmaoooo kill me I have every and yet also absolutely no information at my disposal rn so I'm doomed to just have the html without having a fucking clue as to how to make that fucking css

so or I do what he told us not to do and put only div shit, or I do like he told us to do and I don't know how to put the css in place

#coding #i'm about to smoke the guy I swear omg #like dude really just completely changed all the rules of organization and left us like idiots #my autism can't compute send help #ASD ADHD HOSTAGE