#just a bummer more than anything

[ofswordsandpens]

To be fair 3/8 of episode is almost half way through so if the first half is okayish….welp

yeah that's my thought too - we've seen more than enough to understand how the writers/director are handling the book... which is just sanitizing the ever living hell out of it. So unless they pull something unexpected out of the bag in the second half (which I would love for them to), as of now we're set to receive a perfectly fine, fairly faithful adaptation that is just largely duller than its source story in most aspects. Again, the biggest shame to me is that the actors are just so good.

#I've lived through one shitty adaptation before I can manage through a blasé one #just a bummer more than anything #at least the movies are fun now #asks #pjo show crit #also I would have higher hopes for a more... higher energy action packed second season if people voiced their complaints #but the majority seem very content w/ the show? #... and I cant tell if its genuine or false positivity after years of begging for a faithful adaptation #idk im prob just too critical but oh well

[lycanr0t]

thinking about laios' forever hunger and sometimes it hits me in a really intense way that i was starving for like 4 years and people who have not gone hungry for extended periods of time do not really. get what that does to you

#rot posts #sorry a bit of a bummer post #this isnt meant to be criticizing anyone btw i just like. forget that its not a normal experience #there are a lot of small things that come with never being able to feel full. #dunmeshi spoilers #i think laios would be. not very well mentally. more than the physical aspects the psychological ones are the scary shit! #i just think abt it a lot. having personal experience with just being HUNGRY for so long and not being able to do anything about it just #agh theres a lot to explore there. laios can be so so tormented 😩

[joshuaalbert]

another thing I do wish had at least come up in ds9 while talking about the bajoran faith is the idea of just like. secular bajorans. I think the way they’re written that’s kind of ‘everyone just believes in the religion and that’s it’ is honestly a little flat? but I think there would be people who have a very complicated relationship with the prophets, who maybe didn’t believe in them before the events of the show and now maybe they have to but they think of them more as the wormhole aliens rather than gods, or just don’t believe (anymore, if they once did) that they should be worshipped because they allowed the events of the occupation to happen. but that wouldn’t mean entirely disengaging from the practices of religion as a community thing, or as comfort in times of need bc sometimes that sense of ritual can be a good one, who still wear the earring not so much as a sign of faith but just as a sign of being bajoran and being connected to their people.

idk not to sound like I’m overexplaining secular approaches to an ethnoreligion when that’s a lot of people’s lived experience but I’m just kind of thinking about what it would look like in this context, and I don’t know that it ever would have been a whole plotline but I think a mention could have been interesting. maybe something as small as rearranging duty schedules and it’s something that would interfere with religious services, but a couple specific bajorans are willing to take that because they’re not religious, and it’s a one line mention (which is the kind of thing ds9 often did well so it would feel natural), but it makes them a little less homogenous as a species.

#i don't really count the pah wraith cult for depth honestly like. it's never really about them #sometimes I feel like the show dropped the ball a little on bajorans other than kira and winn #like people always joke about how boring bareil and shakaar are and then idk that anyone else really gets talked about #and even if you expand to other shows you get ro laren and sito jaxa but let’s be real it’s mostly me talking about the latter #the few one-offs on voy don’t really have much going on (which is a bummer it would have been nice to have a recurring maquis bajoran) #and idk about later shows really but the prequel types won’t have anything so. idk. #I think just. adding a little more individuality in terms of things like faith could have helped the perception a little? #idk this became a grander statement than it was meant to be I’m really just rambling #and now im trying to tie it back together and i really cannot. good luck. #san rant #im sure this is a post someone else has already made but im always just doing whatever.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#guess who fucking fried 3 very fucking expensive machines today. me. i did #bc a fucking cabled decided to burn out and there was only one little symptom so i switched out the sensor head and inadvertently fried #another instrument. then when i was wait. hang on wtf happened here? and i was trouble shooting. i fried another one. so im down to one #machine. fucking holy christ. one mother fucking cable. a problem i cant fucking control and then i just fucking spred the problem #god dammit. which means i either have to do 20 additional days or we cut the number of reps to 7 or 8 #and because of this. ive Disrupted the plans of 4 different labs bc it takes at least 3 months for them to do calibration #ugh. i was so angry. whatever. its fine. these things happen in labs and u kinda just have to deal with it. i dont really feel bad on a #personal level bc ive been working with these things for like 4 years and if i mishandled the problem something was pretty fucked up #bc ive fixed a lot of fucking problems on those machines. bleh. and as im like simmering with rage my family is texting eachother like #yayyy vacation soon ☺️ #ugh. its just so frustrating bc i onlu had like 7 days left and i could have got thru all 10 reps. its gonna b maddening on one machine #ans ill have to do more when i fucking get back from vacation when i want it fucking done now but whatever ive bought #my fucking plane tickets and i leave in less than 2 weeks. plus ill get to spend at least one day at home #god im gonna be such a fucking bummer tho. im gonna get of the plane and my fam will b like how r u? and im gonna b like not fucking great #i am barely a functional person and im sure ill b so stressed abt thr fact i have to come back here that ill b on edge the whole time bc #thsts what happened over winter break. whatever. next weekend ill b fucking outta here for like 11 days #and just a few more months until i can leave for good. never walk into thst fucking building again. not that i have anything ready for thst #move. bc again. im barely a functional person #god. now i have to fucking ask for thr stupid bottom of the chamber for this last machine. i swear to christ if i have to fucking drive #down to [redacted] i fucking dont even kno #unrelated

[squeakadeeks]

newest member of the blue man group, Pacific 

someday i will do a sculpt of a character with an easier paint map, especially considering that 1) i'm the one designing them, and 2) i'm the one choosing which OC to make. but anywho heres a lad

#my art #ALSO not super happy with this sculpt #but for once it was a mistake i actually learned from #a lot of times i make mistakes that are just bummers and i get nothing out of #but what i learned is i keep trying to indent hair details into the clay #bc i think it will be more dimensional #but what really happens is theres no way to get a clean and consistent groove so more than anything it makes it look sloppier #so from now on with hair i will leave the stylized hair lines for paint and not an in-sculpt detail

[oodlenoodleroodle]

Okay so pickled herring is a thing in Finland and I really like it. It comes in jars and in different sort of situations, like in seasoned plain brine, in mustard brine, etc.

Now obvs. I don't eat pickled herring anymore because vegan, and it's a bit of a bummer because like, this is part of my culture, food is a big part of culture and, by extension, identity.

Today I had vegan pickled herring-like stuff that is made out of eggplant. Like if you like mustard herring you would like this, it's just a super-good fishy and mustardy combination. And I was just so happy and will be buying this stuff in the future.

So if you ever see anyone asking "why do vegans have to make vegan versions of nonvegan things" this is the reason. Food is a crucial part of culture and everyone should have ways to connect with their food culture regardless of what sort of dietary restrictions they have, voluntary or involuntary.

Food innovations that enable people with food restrictions to take part are good and worthwhile.

And hey, if you are in Finland and you like sinappisilli, try the Kalavale eggplant product. It's good and adds some extra vegetable in your diet :)

#to me the suffering of fish is more important than my food culture identity bummers #but its nice that they dont have to be mutually exclusive. #and i will really happily support and promote people who work to make these kinds of products accessible. #also score! a new vegetable has entered the rotation! i dont eat eggplant in anything else as of yet. #i am just so excited about vegetables these days. like i get to try my pickled beets thing tomorrow and im so excited! :D #and they dont always work out - last weekend we had jerusalem artichoke for the first time and didnt really care for it. #which felt like a betrayal because so many people praise it to high heaven.

[monstermoviedean]

oh i am so irritated and aggravated

#after telling our grantees for months that their reporting requirements were x and would not change #my boss decided when we were making the reporting template less than a month before it was due #that actually she wanted way more than what was agreed upon #and now she's mad because we are missing a ton of data #data they weren't collecting because THEY DIDNT KNOW THEY HAD TO #and she keeps acting like she knew all along that she wanted this but never said anything about it until so late which ??? #i should have pushed harder to keep the existing requirements and change them for the next report 😫 #but i don't know what to say when i tell her one of the grantees hasn't reported and she says 'bummer' #like? yeah??? but also they talked to us about it and we gave them an extension and I think it's the least we can do considering #and how am i supposed to respond to that? 'bummer' back? fuck. #i just hate when she points out problems she created and doesn't seem to acknowledge her role

[garlicowboy]

jarring to come to terms with the fact that life isn’t always devastatingly heart-wrenchingly painfully awful and it isn’t always incredibly beautifully wonderful either. most of the time it’s just like. mediocre and boring. it’s pretty ok. it’s just another day again. you know?

#i have had #such expectations for so long #of life just being… #debilitatingly miserable right up until the very second it magically became incredible. and then it’d be incredible forever #but i think my brain has just randomly developed. cognitive functions are functioning #and i realise that there is no Eventually Everything Will Be Amazing #its like. This is the amazing part #all of the moments that feel so mundane and nondescript #they’re the amazing part. at the end #which is kind of like. Bummer. i thought it’d be more exciting than this #but also a relief i guess? #i don’t need to sit around agonising over and waiting for it to get good and sitting here on pause up until it happens #it’s already here. right now. each moment. and the only way to make it feel any more exciting is.. #by going and doing it. right now #ummmm yeah i know this is common knowledge and not an epiphany to the world but 😁 im just now Feeling it for the first time and its crazy . #is this how it feels when ur brain finally clicks into place during adulthood or am i still too young for that. #im looking forward to it if not LOL because this is literally sooo #it’s doing wonders for me rn #i have never been able to accept anything that was not an Extreme my whole life and it feels like i can finally relax and just live #instead of strain towards and wait for some big Something that isn’t going to come #i just have to… live… #mine #txt

[heirloommtomatoes]

hate social media so much man like. sorry someone cheated on their wife after making her their persona like that literally doesn’t matter at all to me and I shouldn’t know about it, it’s literally JUST a useless bummer to anyone beyond the immediate people it impacts?? and the Netflix show Dahmer being like an awful stinking pile of garbage like…….I’m sorry but I do NOT care about literally ANY of this!! 😭🙏

#No I will not elaborate I’m just feeling v Stone Age about all this. #we’re no longer bound by geography and sometimes that’s great! #but more often than not it’s shit like this where it’s like. WHOOOO cares!! #and it’s not unempathetic to say!! #I’m not CONDONING anything it’s just like. #man this does not impact my life my loved ones my community the world at all. in literally any way. #I doooo not care 😀 #and yet Twitter is exclusively talking about these two things and it’s like. #TOUCH!! GRASS!!! #talked w my partner about this yesterday too 💀💀 #he listened to a podcast where someone on it was like. #technically couples aren’t biologically wired to last past 2 years #and he was like. gross bro science. and also false and just a bummer #and i was like. exactly like ????????????? #anyway peace and love on earth. #ellie yodels #sure this post is ironic etc etc whatever

[pixelated-dragon]

3 days of comic con and only one completed cosplay,,,,,

I'm going to starting tearing and biting things

#orion rants #ig #I'm just frustrated at myself and complaining ignore me #it's embarrassing! #and the one i have is basically a closet cosplay from a few years ago :[ #went in a graphic tshirt and pants today </3 </3 #i just ran out of time to work on my other ones because i was busy with school until 2 weeks ago then was out of town most of this week so #i didn't have time to sew or build anything 😔 #orion rambles #it's just a bummer because I've always had at least two cosplays for con when i was going more than one day and this time we got to go all 3 #days and i only have 1 :[ #everyone looked so cool today and i was in street clothes </3

[allofuswantgwinam]

my mom was supposed to go to Olive Garden with me tm and stay with me while i watch my god moms pets and i was actually excited but she is canceling now and this is why I want a man so bad i stg 🤣

#you have a designated person #like it doesn’t mean you have to do everything together all the time #but things would just be nicer #I would have a man to go with me to Olive Garden and stay with me when I house sit #but no #at least my bestie is staying with me Saturday I’m excited asf #but my moms like always anxious. it’s always mfing soemthing and it’s just a bummer #I understand but it just sucks sometimes #this woman smokes weed and she takes all these fuckin anxiety pills but it doesn’t work half the time #and when I had my mental breakdown guess who took all my emergency anxiety pills. #MY MOM #so when I was having an emergency guess what? they were mfing gone and that is fuckin insane #that’s why I refuse to even take medication for my mental health 😭😭 #watching her my whole life has been more medicine to me than anything 💀 #I love her tho #my tumblr is for venting 😭😭🤣 #my mental brakedown was over a man anyways. I finally excepted that and HE EVEN SAID IT WAS BC HIM #AND STILL DIDNT ACT RIGHT FOR ME THATS CRAZY BUT ANYWAYS #im bummed. was excited to have a lil sleepover with my mom but whatevs

[comradecowplant]

oh shut up.

democrats & republicans don't "fucking hate each other" they are comrades in class war against evvvvvvery body else, i want to read this fanfiction where joe "if there was no israel the u.s. would have to create an israel" biden has made "gritted teeth diplomatic cracks" regarding israel because it simple has never happened, there is no ever-elusive illogical magic mystery why the U.S. always supports Israel-- money (AIPAC donos, arms sales, etc.) & key strategic location for U.S. geopolitical interests, zero rocket science or brain surgery required--, MENA is a place of human beings not your orientalist fatalist "🤷‍♂️ i guess middle easterners are just meant to die, it's how da cookie just crumbles 🤷‍♂️" bullshit, and please, even adrian zenz dropped the Xinjiang concentration camps story years ago.

#the cpc is not a flawless government but there is simply no actual factual evidence for fucking genocide #and it's especially evil imo to bring it up in comparison to a REAL genocide of muslims happening #one that OP is basically shrugging off as 'gosh darn the world is a bummer it's just Always Been This Way & there are no good ideas :(' #god i cant wait until this site officially implodes. go back to blogging about plants ya geriatric gen x hack #i am in a MOOD today and as soon as i think i've posted through it i see another post to make me even more mad #i hate when olds go 'this has gone on longer than u silly youngs understand' & it's like okay well sounds like youre projecting your #own shame about your own ignorance & complacency onto the newest generation who cares more than you 🤷‍♂️ #if you 'saw the same things in the 1980s' okay then why didnt you do anything then or in the decades since? YOU are part of the problem #YOU saw rachel corrie get bulldozed while we were in grade school or not born yet and some how WE'RE incorrect for demanding action? k

[jexxdelphis]

straight up smells like a red dead redemption in here

#have confirmed; getting the ending spoiled back in ~2019 did affect my reaction to it. a bit annoyed at past me for that #just kind of an Ohh... Thats a Bummer... rather than the more severe reactions people describe #i was more sad at my horse dying than anything. poor foxtail :( #anyway now i have a farming sim to play

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ho hum they finally filled my prescription so ive now got the new medication #havent decided when im gonna start taking it tho. like i should start tomorrow bc i dont feel that great #i mean ive physically recovered from my allergic reaction debacle. my mood is generally just low. not like dangerously so. more like i #talk to ppl and im like oh im being a bummer. which i hate. so like i should start taking it #but im only here for like one more week before i fly home so im like. well ill b fine over the break bc no school #which is like yeah ill prob b fine but like even when im hanging out with family and being chill im not really happy. im just like not so #stressed but theres still like a cap on my mood so like maybe if i take it i can b like a human person. but like im still somehow resistant #which is dumb but like taking an old timey non ssri anti depressant feels different than taking an actual up and down mood stablizer #which is stupid bc im just getting freaked out by the word anti psychotic. and like grappling with the stupid voice #in the back of my head from growing up around the super health freaks in my family who r like: dont take medicine. dont trust doctors who #want to unnecessarily medicate u. but like im also worried itll work and ill just have to b on medication for the rest of my life #which is like fine but it feels weird to theoretically spend 30 dollars a month to be not miserable. bc idk the copay on this medication was #way higher than anything else ive had to get. but idk its dumb and i should just take it #but also a tiny bit a afraid of side effects after last time. i dont wanna deal with that :-[ #unrelated

[wishful-seeker]

Tips on how to avoid being unintentionally ableist

1. When a disabled person says they cannot do something, and you wish to offer solutions, do not make a solution that involves them powering through pain, or something thats not accessible to the disabled.

Example:

Disabled person: "washing dishes hurts too much and i cannot do it."

Abled person: "what if you did one dish at a time throughout the day?"

This statement is not respecting that this disabled person just said they "can't". Always respect that. No matter how simple the task would be for you.

Disabled person:" i think ill use plastic silverware so i don't make dishes."

Abled person: "plastic is bad for the environment!"

This statement shuts down the most accessible and disabled friendly option that this disabled person can actually do because of the abled persons personal beliefs. This is not helpful, and ableist.

Better yet, instead of offering solutions, ask them directly "is there anything you need that you do not have that would help you do this?" This allows the disabled person to think about what would work, and they will always have a better idea of what would work than you do.

To add on to this, when we say we have no more energy to solve a problem or do a task, or change our lifestyle, we mean it.

2. If you feel discomfort when a disabled person is talking about their health, good and bad, that is ableist. Your discomfort is coming from a place that deams disabled peoples very existence as a bad thing and you need to fix that.

For example:

Disabled person:" this week has been rough pain wise, ive been through a lot, felt like my body was on fire. Lucky i got new meds though and i think they're helping!"

Abled person: "can we talk about something else, this is a bummer."

Disabled people should be able to exist freely without worrying about your personal comfort. Do you really think its appropriate to tell someone in constant pain that their life is making YOU uncomfortable?

3. Do not treat disabled people as tragedies, do not romanticize their old life or put their current one down.

For example:

Disabled person: "yeah my life is pretty difficult sometimes, ive lost a lot but i still have happy moments."

Abled person: "it makes me so sad to see what disabled people go through :(. You used to love rock climbing and running, i would love to see you move around more again."

This statement is putting more value on the disabled persons abled past, and ignoring their life as a whole.

4. Do not avoid speaking to disabled people because it hurts to see your loved one disabled.

For example: my grandmother avoids conversations with me because it hurts her to see me in pain. While she has good intentions it leaves me being unable to be close to her. This is very isolating to the disabled.

5. Do not stop inviting your disabled friend/loved one out even if they are never well enough to attend. Unless we specifically ask you to stop asking if we can go out, good chances are we want to know you still care because again, disability is very isolating.

6. When a disabled person says certain things in their health have gotten better or worse, do not challenge this because you don't see a difference.

For example:

Disabled person: "yeah things are getting a little better"

Abled person sees disabled person using their wheelchair like usual: "i thought you said you were getting better?"

Better and worse are usually small changes only the disabled experience, its not like abled people healing from a broken arm. Better to a disabled person could mean they can stand for 10 more minutes.

7. Do not expect disabled people to ever be abled again, and again, do not put more value on an abled life.

For example:

Disabled person:"I have been using a wheelchair for 2 years."

Abled person: "oh you're young, im sure you'll be walking around in no time!"

This statement invalidates and ignores the disabled persons current life by hoping they get a more abled bodied life. Its fine to hope disabled people get better, but you don't get to decide what better looks like.

Hope this helps, stay punk.

#cripple punk #ablism #physical disability #disability

[golisopod-mutual]

uh oh not another text post from lindsey lol anyway my dad/step mom/step sisters etc had a christmas party last night that i was invited to but i had to work so i was just gonna show up late. and i didnt have a gift for the white elephant gift exchange but they waited for me to get there before doing gifts anyway even tho they could have done them in the 2 hours before i arrived (they knew I didnt have anything to put into the exchange) and one of my sisters had an extra gift that she gave me so I could have something for the exchange so I could participate. and afterwards my sisters messaged me and were like ‘oh im glad you could come!’ and ‘i loved seeing you, I always love seeing you!!’ and it made me really happy bc I don’t see them all that often so I don’t always feel all that close w them yknow. so the fact they were patient while I was at work and waited to do the gifts til I could be there and were so happy to have me there... it made me feel very welcome and like they really genuinely cared that i was around. everyone had to leave like an hour after I arrived bc it was 10 pm by then but even tho it was only an hour I had a good time and felt very loved. it was a good reminder that ppl love me and I dont just cease to exist to them as soon as im out of their sight.

#growing up i was rly close w my youngest sister [youngest of my 3 step sisters but still older than me by a few years] #but we grew apart as we got older and she seemed to be closer w our other sisters than w me so i was left feeling kind of out of place yknow #and nowadays when im around everyone i feel kind of awkward and distant just bc we dont see each other often and im so shy and introverted #theres part of me that has always kind of felt like the odd one out yknow. im the youngest girl. my interests dont really overlap w theirs. #im the quietest of the 4 girls and the most reserved. and my 3 step sisters all have the same parents #so of the 4 girls im the odd one out just by having different parents and living in a different house growing up and stuff yknow #like ive always wondered do they see me differently than each other? do my sisters have 2 groups in their heads #group 1: real sisters and group 2: step sister [aka lindsey] #like does my youngest sister favor her 2 sisters who are blood related to her over me [her step sister] #its nice to be reminded they dont think of me differently and they want me included in family stuff and to them im just another sister yknow #thyere the only sisters i have lol to me theyre just. my sisters whom i love. so i would be very hurt if they thought of me differently #bc im a step sibling and not a directly related sibling #anyway ive been making an effort to stay in touch more often. theres a family group chat i never used to read but ive been trying #to do better. bc i know if i want my relationship w that side of my family to be better i have to put forth a little effort lol #i really do love them im just so introverted and shy and idk if i have anything to talk abt that theyd care abt yknow #my oldest sister is turning 31 this year i dont really have much in common with a 31 yr old engaged ex-military nurse #but im trying #i also have always felt like the ugly one of the group which is a major bummer and i feel like they still see me as a kid sometimes #or like they think less of me bc of my mental health struggles and the fact i still live at home and only work part time #im sure they dont but im insecure abt that stuff so im terrified ppl are judging me abt it lol