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wonwoonlight ยท 1 year
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when jeonghan realizes he's in love with you
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friends to lovers (??), fluff, i'm not sure there's even a plot lol. just got this sudden, random urge to write bc i was listening to dream (kor ver) earlier. not sure the wc bc i wrote it on tumblr but it's Short ๐Ÿค not proofread. enjoy!
Jeonghan has always claimed he doesn't think he can date a friend.
It's weird.
And he's pretty emotional (romantic?) of a person, so if there's no spark from the beginning, it's likely that his brain has categorized that person as a friend and nothing else. No chance whatsoever that he'd develop romantic feelings in the future.
Though he's also realistic, so he admits that there might be a 0.1% possibility that he might suddenly like a friend romantically. Who knows, right?
But not you.
Not because he thinks you're lacking, but because you've been friends for too long that Jeonghan was sure that if, and only if, there was a possibility that he'd fall for you, it probably had long passed.
He's seen almost every side of you, so have you his. Hell, he's pretty sure he even treats you almost the same way he treats Seungcheol and Joshua; surely, there's no way, right?
"Why are you looking at me like that?" you glare, annoyed.
Jeonghan blinks owlishly; has he been staring at you? His eyes dart to your eyes and then down to your lips for half a second before he searches for your face, both intrigued and curious.
He doesn't register whatever's coming out of your lips, but is it just him or do you actually look flustered the more he stares at you?
"Jeonghan. Stop it."
"Why?"
"The right question is why are you staring at me!" You reaches out to turn his face elsewhere, your palm centimeters away from his cheek when he catches your wrist, his eyes still refusing to look at anything but you.
He sees you pout, and his mind suddenly thinks back about a talk he has with Seungcheol a few years ago, when his friend asked if he'd ever consider dating you because he thought you'd make a good pair.
You had pouted in disgust, told Seungcheol that it's gross to paint that kind of image between you and Jeonghan when you're clearly nothing but friends.
He didn't take that too personally, he remembers, he had simply laughed and agreed. But he also remembers glancing at your lips then, wondering how they'd feel against his, quickly removing the thoughts out of his mind because you're not supposed to think about friends that way.
"Will you be mad if I kiss you?"
Your eyes widen comically, and he would've teased you if he's in his usual mood. But he's not. And he wants to find out if there's a reason behind why he's been adamant about seeing your smile and wanting to stay close to you as much as possible.
"What? Are you drunk?"
"Will you?"
You pause for a second, your eyes searching for him, biting your lower lip before you shake your head no.
His thumb reaches for your lip so you'll release it from your teeth before he places his lips upon yours, his heartbeat ringing in his ears and the tips of his ears burning red.
The kiss (peck?) lasts for a short three seconds (or was it 3 minutes? He doesn't know, he can't think straight with you in this proximity). And when he pulls away, your breath warm against his face, he presses his lips together as if to see whether he can still feel you there or not.
"If you're making all that fuss just to kiss me." You whisper, avoiding his eyes despite the usual teasing tone Jeonghan's used to hear from you. "At least kiss me properly, will you?"
Jeonghan grins. If this is what being in love with your friend is like, perhaps it's not as bad as he thought it would be.
For the first time, he doesn't mind at all being wrong as long as he gets to be with you.
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icyminghao ยท 6 days
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like you want me
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pairing: jeonghan x gn!reader genre: fluff, drabble, friends to lovers warning(s): none word count: 0.8k
summary: youโ€™re enjoying yourself at a party with some friends on just another typical night. only, a certain someone seems to keep staring at you.
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โ€œGod, Jeonghan, just go talk to them already. Itโ€™s painful watching you be like this,โ€ Seungcheol groans for the third time in the past hour, nudging his friend in pure desperation. Jeonghan begrudgingly tears his eyes away from your figure from across the room to give Seungcheol an uninterested look.
โ€œPainful watching me be like what?โ€
โ€œYour eyes have been on them the second they walked in, and theyโ€™ve never left.โ€ Joshua pipes up from Jeonghanโ€™s other side, letting out a chuckle at Seungcheolโ€™s exasperated sigh at Jeonghanโ€™s apparent obliviousness.
โ€œโ€ฆThey have? I havenโ€™t noticed.โ€ Jeonghan quirks an eyebrow in response, failing to notice that his eyes have subconsciously made its way back to you from across the room, giggling and laughing at whatever your friends had said.
He canโ€™t help the way the edges of his lips soften and curl up just the tiniest bit, something his friends definitely do not miss.
โ€œYou know, if youโ€™re not going to talk to them, Mingyu did mention his interest in them a while ago. Maybe I should set them upโ€”โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t you dare,โ€ Jeonghan cuts Joshua off at the mention of their heartthrob of an underclassman, levelling at the latter a piercing glare that shuts him up immediately.
Dread fills Jeonghanโ€™s senses as he turns back to where youโ€™re supposed to be, only to be unable to spot you anywhere.
โ€œWhere did they-โ€
โ€œI saw them go outside. A while ago,โ€ Seungcheol quips, clearly amused at the sight of a panicked Jeonghan.
Jeonghan nods quickly, moving to leave the house without providing an excuse. The boys knew heโ€™d be going after you, anyway.
Sure enough, Jeonghan finds you leaning against the front porch as soon as he steps out of the house. Youโ€™re looking up at the night sky so peacefully that Jeonghan feels bad walking into a private moment.
โ€œy/n? What are you doing here?โ€ you turn your head towards Jeonghanโ€™s voice, making no move to back away as he moves to stand beside you.
โ€œJustโ€ฆ had to clear my head,โ€ you reply, returning your attention to the starless sky.
Jeonghan simply nods, subconsciously unable to tear his gaze away from you. You turn to make eye contact with him after a while, holding his gaze as his cheeks gradually flare up.
โ€œWhy do you always look at me like that?โ€ you speak up, no hint of teasing in your voice.
Jeonghan freezes. โ€œLike what?โ€
โ€œLike youโ€ฆ want me.โ€
Jeonghan shakes his head, going into flight mode, โ€œLetโ€™s have this conversation when youโ€™re sober-โ€
โ€œI am sober!โ€ you cut him off, โ€œI havenโ€™t touched a single drop of alcohol the moment I stepped foot into that dingy house. I thought you would know, since all youโ€™ve been doing the entire time we were there was look at me.โ€
Outwardly, Jeonghan stays rooted to the floor, saying nothing. Inwardly, Jeonghan is freaking out, reeling at the fact that youโ€™d actually been noticing him looking at you at the party.
Jeonghan turns towards the sky, resting both arms on the porch. โ€œAnd if I do?โ€
โ€œDo what?โ€ you reply, mirroring his actions.
โ€œAnd if I do want you?โ€ Jeonghan manages to get out without freaking out in front of you, and now itโ€™s your turn to freeze.
You speak up after a while, โ€œThis was not how I expected the conversation to go,โ€
โ€œWell, what did you expect then?โ€ Jeonghan jests, having regained some of his composure from the silence.
โ€œI donโ€™t know, deny it! Get defensive! Tell me Iโ€™m being delusional!โ€ you blabber, clearly flustered. Jeonghan smiles in endearment, resisting the urge to cup your face in his hands and squish your cheeks.
โ€œBut youโ€™re not,โ€ he simply replies in the softest voice he can muster, looking at you endearingly, โ€œIโ€™m in love with you, y/n. I have been since we met in high school, and Iโ€™m unfortunately still catastrophically in love with you now.โ€
Your mouth opens and closes in shock, clearly not expecting a confession. You clear your throat, a hint of a smile appearing on your face, โ€œUnfortunately?โ€
Jeonghan chuckles. โ€œWell, thatโ€™s subject to change depending on how you feel.โ€
โ€œWell, then, I hope youโ€™ll be happy to know that I feel the same, Hannie,โ€ you grin adoringly at him, using the nickname that never fails to make him blush furiously, โ€œIโ€™m in love with you, too.โ€
For a while, the both of you just smile at each other like idiots as a comfortable silence ensues, neither of you wanting to interrupt the special moment.
โ€œSo,โ€ Jeonghan pipes up after a while, still smiling, โ€œdo I have the honour of being your boyfriend?โ€
You beam at him. โ€œTake me on a date first?โ€
Jeonghan chuckles, leaning the tiniest bit closer to you. โ€œGladly.โ€
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p0ckykiss ยท 6 months
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five ways to say "i love you" - jeonghan
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summary - how jeonghan shows his love to you, through all five love languages
-> sick y/n, worried jeonghan, fluff, established relationship, soft jeonghan!!!!, whipped jeonghan
seasonal depression is a real thing. at least, according to you it is. personally, jeonghan had never experienced it. its entire premise just didn't really make sense, is all. watching the leaves change colors and fall was beautiful, and when winter rolled around the corner, so did the holidays and days off. if anything, wasn't that a reason to be happier?
a sneeze interrupts his train of thought, and jeonghan feels a pang in his chest at the sight.
it's officially been three days with you being flu-struck, and you both hoped it would've gotten better by now, but if anything it only seemed to have gotten worse. the time reads a quarter past two, and jeonghan can't help but sigh.ย 
you've been stuck on the couch since noon, curled up in your warmest blanket trying to watch the latest sitcom episode. your drowsiness is palpable, and every time you reach for a tissue to blow your nose, jeonghan flinches.
if seasonal depression corresponded with your well-being, then maybe jeonghan relates to it more than he thinks. and though jeonghan is chock-full of sympathy, his urgency to comfort you proves stronger.
and so jeonghan begins to rack his brain for different methods to make you feel better. and somehow his memories digress to the day you both took the love language test, even before you started dating. much to his embarrassment, jeonghan doesn't actually remember what your love language is, and he's way too prideful to ask. luckily, the nostalgia ends with the spark of a lightbulb, and jeonghan smiles. he knows exactly what to do.ย 
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the quest to rediscover your love language begins with the first type: words of affirmation.
slowly, jeonghan saunters over to you, trailing his fingertips over the leather of the couch, then over the fabric of the blanket, gently and gradually, until they find their way to your shoulder, and jeonghan leans down so you're promptly face to face. the quiet chatter from the TV fills up empty space, but it's not enough to force jeonghan to speak loudly. so he doesn't. instead, he inches ever so closer, until he can make out every beauty mark on your face, and he breathes, hardly above a whisper, "you're so beautiful."
in an attempt to play the compliment off, you merely roll your eyes. you blame your illness, though, when you can't contain the slightest inklings of a smile forming, nor the red flush that threatens to overtake your cheeks. you pair a gentle slap against jeonghan's arm with the statement, "i look like shit," and the accusation, "you're just saying that to make me feel better."
if it was even possible, jeonghan moves in closer, propping one hand on the couch arm for support so he could lift his other hand to rest perfectly under your chin. jeonghan swipes his thumb over your skin, hot to the touch, but he can't tell if it's from a blush or from the fever. "you might be right," jeonghan concedes, humming as he takes in every detail of your current stateโ€”rosy nose, puffy eyes, dry skin, messy hairโ€”and yet jeonghan can't seem to find any flaws. inspection complete, jeonghan searches for the one thing he knows he can find. ever so faintly, glimmers dance in your eyes, and when jeonghan catches them with his own, like he's done before a million times, he repeats himself. "you might be right. i could just be saying that to make you feel better." jeonghan tucks one of many stray hairs behind your ear before reaching down to cup your hands together, "but that doesn't make it any less true."
and jeonghan can see it, can physically see it, how all of your insecurities instantly crumble, like a house of cards collapsing upon itself, melting away to make room for new walls, sturdier this time, built from affirmations and confidence and care.
a verbal response isn't required. all you do is smile, subtly, so that your lips barely curve up, and you close your eyes. but even this speaks volumes, because it's your cue of absorbing all the good things around you, no matter how small. it's also jeonghan's cue to add one final speck of positivity to your realm with a sweet kiss to your forehead, before he takes his leave to give you your much-needed space.ย 
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mindless chatter continues to emit from the TV, and when jeonghan peers into the living room, he spots you tucked away in your same spot on the couch, only this time your head rested lower and your mouth hung open, blissfully asleep and temporarily free from the virus that ailed you.
jeonghan is quick to shimmy on his coat. braving the bite of winter air, it was time to do some shopping for part two, giving gifts, in his mission to determine your love language.
months of taking extra shifts, saving up, determined observations, and heavy research all culminated into this one moment. he was battling not one, but two, life-or-death decisions. the first was to pick which gaming console to buy, and the second was to pick which game to correctly pair with said console. his dedication to this plan, despite being executed weeks before the planned date, does not fail him, and fifteen minutes later jeonghan is walking back into your home as if nothing even happened.
luckily, you are still asleep, which gives jeonghan enough time to wrap up (literally) this phase of the journey and get a head start on the next: acts of services.
โ€”ย 
about a million things fly through jeonghan's head when he watches you ease out of your slumber, the most prominent thought being how adorable you look, but the most important thought being how sick you still must feel, and how it's engraved in jeonghan's soul to fend off your demons.
unable to contain his excitement, jeonghan approaches you with his arms tucked behind his back, very conspicuously hiding something. you don't even get the chance to sit up before jepnghan kneels beside you, looking up with the largest pair of star-filled eyes.ย 
jeonghan brings both hands forward, so the two presents display themselves proudly between you. "i was going to wait until christmas," he shuffles the gifts into your arms, "but i can't stand seeing you like this." jeonghan balls his fists into his lap to prevent himself from tearing away at the wrappings himself. "i hope you like it."
piece by piece, bits of red and green foil fall to the floor. no amount of congestion or itchiness in your throat could suppress the yelp that burst from your voice. "jeonghan," you begin, but the growing lump of emotion in your chest was making it damn near impossible to finish your sentence. "you really didn't have to."
jeonghan beams. "yes i did. i know how much you miss your old switch."
"you mean the one i threw out the window because i couldn't pass that one stupid level of super mario?"ย 
it's clear that you are very unfond of the memory, but jeonghan simply finds it all the more endearing. "that's the one."
the grin on jeonghan's face has yet to falter, and suddenly the swells of appreciation that lap at your heart transform into guilt. you imagine all the sacrifices jeonghan must have made in order to afford this, all the late shifts he had to seek out, just to buy you a replacement for something you broke in the first place. you swallow a lump of equal parts of exasperation and admiration down your throat, ready to air out further protest because you really don't deserve this, and you sure as hell don't deserve jeonghan.
and jeonghan can imagine all of your internal turmoil, of course he can, which gives him all the more reason to assure you that you do, in fact, deserve the entire world. it's also happily up to jeonghan to deliver it to you. one warm hand placed on your cold ones and a couple of soothing circles rubbed atop of them later, and jeonghan has effectively drawn you out of your own bubble.
"whatever you're worrying about," jeonghan exhales, "don't." when jeonghan senses the tension releasing from your body, he drives his point across with a home run. "plus," he nods at the game he bought to accompany the console, mario kart 8, "we can play together this time, too."
there's no reason to argue, you conclude, especially not against jeonghan. a deep breath resets your mentality, and you try your best to return to your usual self, biting back a smile. "you know I won't go easy on you, right?"
"oh please," jeonghan ruffles your already messy hair, "in your condition, you'll be begging me to go easy on you."
frowning, you take a moment to envision this unlikely scenario. unwilling to even entertain the possibility of losing to jeonghan, you dodge the challenge altogether. "how about we play another time," you mutter.
and at that, jeonghan jumps to his feet, grabbing the switch and the game in one fell swoop. "i knew you were gonna say that," he giggles, "which is why I prepared something else."
after quickly shooting a prayer to whatever gods were out there, you tentatively say, "please don't tell me you got another ridiculously expensive gift. this is more than enough."ย you're more than enough, you want to add, but don't.
jeonghan all but skips to the kitchen. "i wouldn't exactly call this a gift." a painfully slow thirty seconds pass until he returns to the couch in the living room, to you, carefully balancing a plate of various desserts in one hand, and cradling what appeared to be a lighter in the other.
you squint, double checking if you were actually seeing what you thought you were seeing. "what exactly would you call it, then?"
figuring that calling it an act of service would be much too blatant, jeonghan settles on "lunch."
"lunch?" you eye the plate, definitively making out two chocolate bars, a sleeve of graham crackers, and a bundle of marshmallows.
once his rendition of a charcuterie board is secure on the coffee table, jeonghan maneuvers his way onto the couch and under the blanket, shoulder to shoulder with you one and only. "you haven't eaten all day. and i know you probably don't want to eat a proper meal," jeonghan gestures at their awaiting food, "but I also know you crave sweets when you're sick."
it should be second nature by now, really, with how many times jeonghan so casually demonstrates just how well he knows you, maybe even more than you knows yourself. but jeonghan leaves you in awe every time, regardless.ย 
s'mores are your designated comfort food. the entire process is just so enjoyable, from prepping the ingredients and assembling the structure, to trying to eat the whole thing in one bite lest the remnants ooze out the sides. and so you both do just that.
lacking anything close to a fireplace or a firepit, you roast marshmallows skewered with chopsticks above the dim flame from the lighter. as per the laws of physics (or something like that), the first marshmallow never goes well, and you both end up with a big black burnt chunk of goo. you effectively hurl yours in the trash, but jeonghan dares to take a nibble off his own. he learns that curiosity does, in fact, kill the cat, and jeonghan scrambles to wash out that terrible ashy aftertaste on his tongue. then he hears the faint sound of you snorting, and he concludes that it was worth it.
you tackle the issue of melting the chocolate next, but it's jeonghan who requests to handle this part because he doesn't want to risk you getting burnt.ย 
and so you watch as jeonghan carefully heats the chocolate piece by piece over the fire. and you note all of jeonghan's habits you've picked up on over the years. how jeonghan's tongue peaks out from the corner of his mouth when he's super concentrated, how he furrows his brows when he tries to see better, how he forgets to blink when there's one specific thing on his mind. and you feel yourself likewise melting like the chocolate, because even to this day, you still can't fathom how you were so lucky to have jeonghan to call yours.
"i hope you're hungry," jeonghan announces, grinning ear to ear.ย 
you reciprocate the expression. it's assembly time.ย 
you make a mess. it was inevitable, honestly. there was only so much precaution to be taken from your comfy position on the couch, legs and feet all tangled up in each other. and you wouldn't have it any other way.
laughter outshines any noise from the long-forgotten sitcom playing on the TV. each bounce of your shoulder from an accompanying chuckle is followed by the blanket sliding down, just a bit. jeonghan tries to be slick when he drapes his arm around you, a front to make sure he can pull the blanket back up every time it threatens to slip. but this is you. you, who notice everything that jeonghan does for you. you, who's grateful for all of it. you, who don't think you can love jeonghan any more than you already do.
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an impromptu nap is essential for their post-s'more recovery. the last two love languages, physical touch and quality time, are much harder to gauge. considering jeonghan's affection is usually on full display 24/7 and the fact that he counts his entire lifespan with you as quality time, he can only hope you treasure your moments together as much as he does. and honestly, at this point, jeonghan is much too tired to care about his quest to uncover your love language. the only mission on his mind is to get you as close as possible, and so he seeks to accomplish just that.
pulling you into his arms, you both slump onto your sides, feet dangling off the edge of the couch, hands wrapped around shoulders and backs, and eyes locked unwavering onto the other's. jeonghan slips his bicep under your neck, fashioning a faux pillow, and rests your head against his chest, just above his beating heart.
you squirm in a weak attempt to create some distance between you. (you're not successful.) "i'm gonna get you sick."
jeonghan only snuggles closer. "i don't care," emphasizing his point with a chaste kiss upon your forehead, and then, oh so gently, on your nose, both cheeks, and finally, still ever so softly, on your lips.ย 
you've both long since outgrown the butterflies in your stomachs. what used to elicit sparks of electricity at every touch now resound in echoes of warmth. and lying here, in jeonghan's embrace, in jeonghan's comfort, in jeonghan's life, you feel so safe. you'd spend eternity with jeonghan if you could, but right now, when the passage of time has all but stopped as you continue to hold each other in your own beautiful world, what you have right now is all you want.
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you both wake up as you were, still entangled in each other's body, each other's affection, each other's hearts.
you let yourself drown in the serenity that was jeonghan before you ask the question that's been tickling the back of your mind the whole day. "what was up with you today? you were oddly kind, even more so than you usually are."
an instant flush of red rises upon jeonghan's cheeks, and if you didn't know any better, you'd think jeonghan was the sick one, not you. "this is gonna sound stupid," jeonghan says.
and to that, your first instinct is to reach for jeonghan's hand and intertwine your fingers, still perfectly warm under the blanket. "nothing you say is ever stupid." it's true. on a scale of endearing to adorable, never once have you thought jeonghan resembled anything close to the word stupid.
jeonghan bites his lip, as he confesses, "i hated seeing how miserable you were, and i wanted to cheer you up, but i forgot what your love language is, so i thought i'd do one of each to see which one you like the most, but you were equally receptive to all of them, and i feel dumb for not knowing what means the most to you."
when you don't immediately respond, jeonghan sighs and chides himself. "i told you, it's stupid."
but you just laugh, sporting a grin so wide your eyes turn into mini crescent moons. "yoon jeonghan, you're ridiculous in the best way possible." you unlace your finger in favor of cupping your palm around jeonghan's cheek, still blazing from embarrassment. "did you know that?"
jeonghan flits his gaze downwards, uncharacteristically shy towards the one person he's bared his entire soul to. "could you still remind me what your love language is?" he sheepishly requests, adding on, "just for future reference."
you just smile, and you hope your words are enough to convey the intensity of the way your whole body swells with an undeniable warmth every time jeonghan does anything. "as long as it's with you," you use your thumb to tilt jeonghan's head back up, ensuring he can see just how sincere you are when you say, "i love it all just the same." and then you lean in, breaths already mingling, lips centimeters from meeting, hearts seconds from colliding, when you whisper, "i love you all just the same."
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I can't help but think about dirty talking with Jeonghan. He just gives me the vibe that he's so good at it. Like, I- I can't๐Ÿ˜ญ I would lose my shit. I need him in my mouth fr
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jeonghan totally seems like the type who would be a cocky dirty talker, if that makes sense. he would be whispering everything he could think of with a stupid smirk on his face, watching you eagerly as you squirm under his heavy gaze.
"i could see the way you were looking at me while I was getting undressed, do you wanna tell me what was going thru that pretty head of yours?" followed by "you just wanted me to fuck you, didn't you?"
and he would tease you for hours after that. letting his fingers graze over your skin delicately while he lets his mouth do all the work. telling you everything he wants to do to you, but never actually doing anything about it and riling you up to the point where you beg him.
which only makes his ego grow.
and every time he sees you squirm or go to make a move, it only makes him talk more and all his dirty thoughts are released for only the two of you to hear. things like, "such a filthy slut, only thinking about my cock hm?" and "you're so pretty when you beg for me"
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kittyhuii ยท 9 months
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โ 5 ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ด โž โ†’ ๐˜ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜‘๐˜ฆ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ
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"Hannie... wake up, you're gonna be late for work" you say as you shake the body of the curly haired man that was laying next to you.
"Mmm... 5 more minutes..." He said groggily as he snaked an arm around your waist and a leg on your torso.
"But you said this day was important for you and the members" you whine more as you try to shake off the seemingly koala-like Jeonghan who was holding onto you for dear life.
Apparently, today was the day him and his members were going to film for a variety show, he explained for hours last night; yet, here he was with his whole body embracing yours as a means to spend more time in bed, or rather, more time with you .
"But I won't be home for a while..." He whined back as his arms tighten around you and his head nuzzling your neck.
Finally you give in, "Fine... 5 more minutes" you said, trying to hide the smile that was creeping up your lips.
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kwallanghae ยท 1 year
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twenty two days before we go our separate ways (twenty two days of not falling for you) | yoon jeonghan
content: fluff; angst (because ofc); fake dating; friends to lovers; some joshua x reader; adults who are in their 30s and have jobs;
word count: 20.3k
summary: thereโ€™s a special bond between you and jeonghan, and no one was surprised when you announced you were together. to you, itโ€™s a surpriseย no one realised it wasnโ€™t real.
warnings: language; allusions to sex and suggestive language; (brief) descriptions of vomiting; jealousy and possessiveness;
after a five month hiatus i have returned with a HOLY WHY IS THIS SO LONG fic hope you enjoy :)
also iโ€™ve decided i want to label my fics the same way fob write song titles
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โ€œYou have got to be kidding me.โ€
His eyes widened, then slowly closed in embarrassment. โ€œLook, youโ€™re the only person I could askโ€ฆโ€
โ€œThere is no way Iโ€™m going to fake date you, Jeonghan!โ€
In all the years that you had spent knowing Jeonghan, you had never gotten fully used to the shenanigans and plots, half of which you were a pawn in, half were levied against you. Right now, it was easy to say you preferred the latter. Especially given that unlike your mutual friend Soonyoung, he never went too far. Jeonghan had a perfect skill for being outlandish but never unacceptable. Although, this time felt too far. This time felt ridiculous.
โ€œItโ€™s only for three weeks!โ€
โ€œTwenty two days! Three weeks! Thats three separate, wait no FOUR separate Saturdays Iโ€™ll have to spend cozied up to you, pretending to- ugh.โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t gag.โ€
โ€œHuoh.โ€
Gagging was excessive, in all fairness. Jeonghan was a gorgeous man, and the string of broken hearts he carried on his shoulder was evidence enough, which made you so much more suspicious of his words. Why were you the only person available?
โ€œI just need to get this girl off my back at Wonwooโ€™s wedding, and it has to be believable, because you know that Jun and Seungcheol cannot keep a secret, so if they know then Jiwon will know, and if Jiwon knows then Iโ€™m trapped. Cmon, please.โ€
โ€œThree weeks is so long.โ€ You whined, throwing yourself down on the couch. You had always been one for the dramatics. Perhaps thats what drew you to Jeonghan, why you were good friends.
FRIENDS. Specifically.
โ€œLook itโ€™s not like you wouldnโ€™t get anything out of it!โ€ Jeonghan begged, kneeling in front of you in a desperate attempt to have you look his way. โ€œIt would make Joshua so jealous.โ€
โ€œHe would only be jealous if he actually had feelings for me, Han, and we both know he doesnโ€™t.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s not true, I am so completely sure he has feelings for you, he just doesnโ€™t know it yet.โ€ Jeonghanโ€™s hand was on your shoulder, rubbing it soothingly, as you were reminded of how helpless and pathetic you felt when it came to Joshua. The gorgeous American who never seemed to spare a glance in your direction. Sure, you were all friends, and he obviously cared about you, but only as a friend. It was clear the way he looked at other people, it was a way he had never looked at you. It didnโ€™t take a genius to figure it out, and for the most part you would like to say you were pretty good at spotting when people had feelings for you.ย 
When you were eleven and there was pesky Seokmin who kept throwing pencils at you when he thought you werenโ€™t looking, it was obvious he had feelings for you, which you quickly shut down because who would want to go out with someone who had to resort to petty violence to get your attention? And Mingyu, who would avoid you like the plague all of year 12 until he could muster up the courage to tell you about his feelings for you, which you had obviously seen coming. You were always one step ahead - you didnโ€™t like being caught off guard. Jeonghan was the only person you felt like you could trust to trick you, if that made sense at all. Even when he was being a menace, you still felt somewhat safe. And that was really working against you at the moment.
โ€œYou know,โ€ He spoke with a glint in his eye that you couldnโ€™t have missed, even if you wanted to. Oh, how desperately you wanted to. After being friends for so long, you could read Jeonghan too well. โ€œHeโ€™s just broken up with Heejin. I bet we could try to make him jealous? Make him realise his feelings for you?โ€
You sniffled slightly, burying a laugh at Jeonghanโ€™s cunning expression. โ€œYouโ€™re just saying that so Iโ€™ll agree to go out with you.โ€
โ€œMaybe. Is it working?โ€
You pondered for a moment. When Jihoon got married just a few months prior, you didnโ€™t have anyone to go with, and you felt devastated watching the gorgeous boy hanging off Joshuaโ€™s shoulder. Jeonghan was quick to offer to ditch his date for you, but it didnโ€™t make the ache in your chest dull any faster. You didnโ€™t want to relive that, and you definitely didnโ€™t want to seem lonely and desperate - you didnโ€™t miss the concerned glance from Joshua last time. It would be nice to seem more desired, even if it was fake. Itโ€™s all about image, right?
โ€œYou know if we do this you wonโ€™t be able to flirt with anyone at the party.โ€ You reminded him. โ€œWeโ€™ll have to keep up the ruse that youโ€™re actually interested in me.โ€
โ€œIs it too late to take it back?โ€
โ€œYah, Jeonghan!โ€
โ€œKidding! Who wouldnโ€™t be into you? Wellโ€ฆโ€ He trailed off teasingly, and itโ€™s moments like this where your glare settles in across from him that he feels so lucky to be secure in your friendship. โ€œI wouldnโ€™t dream of ditching you.โ€
โ€œI canโ€™t believe Iโ€™m doing this.โ€ You whispered to your ceiling, and you didnโ€™t miss the grin that spread across Jeonghanโ€™s face. Lucky bastard. โ€œFine, starting from tomorrow we will be fake dating.โ€
โ€œThank you, thank you, thank you Y/N!โ€ He grabbed your hands, pulling you up from the sofa to celebrate with him. โ€œI will drive you everywhere, donโ€™t worry, and whenever you donโ€™t feel like cooking Iโ€™ll cook for you, and-โ€œ
โ€œWoah, slow down, Iโ€™ll pass on the food. Iโ€™ve seen you in a kitchen.โ€ You hushed your friend, letting him settle. โ€œBesides, if weโ€™re going to do this, we need rules. Everything needs to be out in the open.โ€
You never liked being caught off guard, and you were going to make sure you werenโ€™t.
You settled back down onto the couch, and Jeonghan disappeared to grab something from out of your fridge before settling against you, cuddling to your side. โ€œSo whatโ€™s the backstory? People are definitely going to ask how we got together, we should probably get a story established.โ€ย 
โ€œHmm, what about, you watched me kill it at karaoke, and you were so overcome with adoration and horniness that you confessed your undying love for me, and-โ€œ
โ€œAbsolutely not. I refuse to say any of that.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s okay, Iโ€™ll tell them.โ€
โ€œNo way!โ€ You shoved him playfully, groaning as he elbowed you in retaliation. โ€œLow blow, Han. Letโ€™s try to think of something more realistic. What about you went on a date and it made me jealous, so I confessed?โ€
โ€œYeah, except weโ€™ve both dated other people and itโ€™s never caused jealousy before, I donโ€™t think anyone would fall for it.โ€ He told you, and you cursed under your breath because he was right. โ€œWhat about we got tipsy and made out? And then realised we liked each other?โ€
โ€œThat works, I guess. Itโ€™s a little crass but itโ€™ll do.โ€ You nodded at Jeonghan, and grabbed a piece of paper from your coffee table. โ€œNow rules: obviously we canโ€™t tell anyone.โ€
โ€œNo shit.โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t be rude, we have to write the obvious too.โ€ You rolled your eyes at Jeonghan, jotting down the words escaping your mind onto paper. No one can know this is fake.
โ€œWhat about once itโ€™s all over? You know, when youโ€™re off being married to Joshua, and Iโ€™ve got myself a new sexy partner?โ€ Jeonghan questioned, wiggling his eyebrows and nudging you.
โ€œEw? Why did I agree to this?โ€
โ€œBecause deep down you love me and my shenanigans.โ€ Jeonghan popped a cherry in his mouth, chewing on it slightly, staining his lips red. You looked in disgust as a sliver of crimson drool slipped down the corner of his mouth.ย 
โ€œDeep, deep, deep, deep, deep down.โ€
โ€œDidnโ€™t deny it.โ€ He winked. โ€œSo can we tell people eventually? Or are we taking this to the grave?โ€
โ€œOkay, how about this? No one can know this is fake until weโ€™re married to other people. There, that gives us plenty of time.โ€ Jeonghan nodded thoughtfully, and you quickly jotted down the addition.ย 
โ€œOh, pass me the pen, I have a good one.โ€
You let the pen drop out of your hands, pushing it to Jeonghan, who started scribbling something down. You looked over his shoulder, reading out the wordsโ€ฆ
โ€œโ€ฆWe canโ€™t be cliche and fall in love with each other- are you taking this seriously at all Han?โ€
He laughed, and you swear he would have spit cherries all over you. You cursed slightly, feeling suddenly very tempted to push him off the bed. โ€œDickhead.โ€
โ€œA future junior partner at Kim-Byun Legal Services shouldnโ€™t be using that kind of language, Y/N.โ€ Jeonghan teased, smirking at your frustrated expression.
โ€œShut it Yoon. And take this seriously! If we fuck up everyone will find out, including Jiwon.โ€
He shuddered at the mention of her name. โ€œGod and she wonโ€™t leave me alone. Fine, what other rules do we need?โ€
โ€œHmm, we need to post each other on social media. Instagram is a must.โ€ You told him, and to your surprise he hummed in agreement - you really were expecting more of a pushback. Jeonghan never liked tainting his single and available persona, and he was yet to ever post a S/O photo anywhere. โ€œYou donโ€™t sound upset?โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re right. It wonโ€™t be believable if thereโ€™s nothing online, at least on your social media. Besides, the more we commit, the more jealous Joshua will get, and the more Jiwon will realise she needs to back off.โ€
You nodded, writing it down. โ€œThat means weโ€™ll probably have to pose for photos, go on dates and such.โ€
โ€œEh, we already hang out loads, weโ€™ll just have to add cheesy captions. Doesnโ€™t sound difficult at all.โ€
Jeonghan was right. You had spent way too many years being friends with him to ever feel uncomfortable around him, and with that boundaries were out of the window. Half of your outings looked like dates, and this wasnโ€™t even the first time the two of you had used that ambiguity to convince others you or he wasnโ€™t available. It was the first time you were actively deceiving people though. Perhaps that was why you felt on edge. All the other times, you had just let people come to their own conclusions, this time you would be lying. Was that why your heart was beating more? Was that what was causing the sudden discomfort as you laid in Jeonghanโ€™s arms?
โ€œOkay, thatโ€™s three rules, do we need anything else? Is there anything weโ€™re forgetting?โ€
He thought about it for a moment, then brushed it off, letting the thought roll away from his shoulders, while yours stayed tensed and rigid. โ€œWe can probably add as we go along. Leave it on your fridge, oh but hide it when you get guests.โ€
โ€œWell duh.โ€ You rolled your eyes at him, grabbing a cherry out of his bowl. You chewed it softly, and groaned in surprise at the way it burst open. โ€œGod these are way too ripe, why are you eating them?โ€
โ€œThey still taste good, and they make me look like a vampire.โ€ He grinned at you, showing off his stained canines (and chin, but you decided not to focus on that). โ€œJust spray me with body glitter and Iโ€™ll have hoards of fangirls.โ€
โ€œYou already have hoards of fangirls, and fanboys.โ€ You reminded him, rubbing at the corner of your mouth where cherry juice exploded down.
Jeonghan watched as you missed the trail of juice that had begun to dry on your skin. He smiled, and before you knew it he had licked his thumb, wiping away the red line from your mouth. Your breath hitched as you watched his eyes, trained on you, the part of your cheek right next to your lips, so much so that it felt like thatโ€™s all he was looking at. He smiled, drawing his finger back, with a satisfied look on his face.ย 
โ€œThere,โ€ He whispered, barely audible had you not been pressed up against him. โ€œYou can get a taste of the Yoon Jeonghan Boyfriend Treatment early.โ€
โ€œGross, you got your saliva all over me.โ€ You whined, pushing him away. โ€œI gotta wash my face now.โ€ You ignored his chuckles as you made a beeline for the bathroom, eager to get him off of you, in every sense.
โ€œYou better get used to my saliva babe!โ€ He laughed as you walked away from him. Cute.
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Itโ€™s a strange feeling to ponder on your time with someone, but thatโ€™s what you watched yourself do in the hour before you were, technically, officially going out with him. The hour until midnight struck, you were in bed, teeth brushed, pajamas on, and only Jeonghan on your mind.
Youโ€™ve spent more of your life with him in it than without him. He was in the year above you at school, but you and him always gravitated to the same napping spot under the bleachers, and from there a comfort was born. Even before that, he was always around, his friends were the older brothers of your friends, and you had known each other by association, which made it easier to grow into an easy friendship come middle school. Half of the times you had suspected someoneโ€™s growing crush on you, it was Jeonghan whispering rumours into your ear. He had always looked out for you, and as the two of you aged and grew closer, you looked out for him too, until you two felt most comfortable together, and not with anyone else.
It had never stopped the two of you from dating, of course. He was hot, you were hot, and other people realised it. In your case though, it had been a force driving boyfriends away. They could never quite get used to how close you and Jeonghan were, and you had been accused of cheating or leading them on more times than you could count. Meanwhile, Jeonghanโ€™s flings always came rushing to you on advice and inside intel, seemingly loving your presence - until they realised that he would never put them above you, and suddenly you were the bitter best friend who could never let him date in peace.
And you had friends, mutual friends who in turn formed a large group that you welcomed and blossomed with. But no one could ever come in between you and Jeonghan. The two of you existed in a little bubble, never to be popped or disturbed. You could imagine the delight some of your friends would express once you told them you two were an item, they were always the teasing that you two were secretly dating and hiding it from the world.
But you were an adult now, the two of you had been out of high school and university for several years now, and still you werenโ€™t dating, despite being so close, it drove your friends mad. You knew that you didnโ€™t need to explain it, as long as you and Jeonghan were on the same page. Boyfriends would come and go, but Jeonghan was always your priority. It had always been platonic, but you knew that if nothing else lasted, your friendship with Jeonghan would. He knew it too.ย 
You turned, groaning into your pillow. How were you going to go to this wedding? Part of the beauty of your relationship with Jeonghan was that it was simple. It had never once felt complicated to you, just because other people didnโ€™t understand it doesnโ€™t mean you didnโ€™t. But not dating for over a decade and suddenly starting to go out? Only to break it off three weeks later? That felt too complicated to explain, or even comprehend. Would people even believe it?
You were so tempted to text Jeonghan to call it off, to find another stunning specimen to hang off his arm and scare away Jiwon. She was all bark, no bite - no matter what hurtful words she had spat at Jeonghan when he tried calling their thing off, she wouldnโ€™t go up and make light of those threats. Ultimately, she was harmless, but terrible at taking hints. Hence why heโ€™s created this dumb plan. It wasnโ€™t too late to back out was it? You grabbed your phone, and it dinged in your hand.
12:01. Shit.
And there it was, a text from your loving boyfriend.
Hannie: Happy first day of dating, baby ;)
No backing out now.
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Day 1 - Saturday 3rd November
After the reminder Jeonghan had sent of your month long promise, you had rolled around your bed until you finally nodded off, and then subsequently overslept, which was only made clear as a banging on your door began to wake you.
Jeonghan was here.
The knock (which was always made with the full force of his fists - you swore that one day he was going to break your door down) was nothing other than courtesy. Jeonghan had his own set of keys to your apartment, and he wasnโ€™t shy about using them. You could already hear him fumbling with the keys, and the muttered curses under his breath. You couldnโ€™t wait to make partner and get out of this place and to somewhere with more soundproofing, you were certainly sick of hearing the muffled grunts and moans of your neighbours who had nothing better to do than spend the nights in each other(โ€™s arms). But it did allow you those few seconds of awareness before Jeonghan barged into your home.
The door finally swung open, and there he was in his full glory - your new boyfriend. Even thinking the word in association with Jeonghan gave you a shudder. There was something about thinking of Jeonghan that way that just felt soโ€ฆ alien. It wasnโ€™t like you had never had those wandering thoughts, but that was all they were: visitors who didnโ€™t stay long. Now, the label was here for three weeks, and you were way too tired to comprehend just how long that really was.
โ€œWhy arenโ€™t you up? Donโ€™t you remember weโ€™re helping Minghao set up the venue today? Weโ€™ve also got to make an all so important announcement, in case you forgot.โ€
You groaned, smoothing down your bedhead as best you could to be semi presentable. โ€œI know, I just overslept. Struggled to fall asleep last night.โ€
He looked over at you as you stumbled out of bed, grabbing the coat hanger that had your outfit off your dresser as you walked slowly to the bathroom. โ€œJust give me 20 minutes to get ready.โ€
โ€œAre you feeling okay Y/N?โ€ He asked carefully, walking closer to you. โ€œItโ€™s not too late to call it off, I donโ€™t want to stress you out, especially with everything going on with work.โ€
It was certainly a tempting offer, and one you had been considering just the previous night. But looking back at Jeonghanโ€™s concerned expression, you were reminded of why you even agreed in the first place. Yes, you wanted to make Joshua jealous, and that was your main goal, but Jeonghan had never let you down, and you werenโ€™t going to let him down either.
โ€œDonโ€™t worry. Wonwooโ€™s wedding is on the 24th. Four Saturdays, I can definitely last that long.โ€ You told him, blinking away the puffiness in your eyes. He didnโ€™t seem too convinced, but you knew Jeonghan was too far in it to say anything else. โ€œTwenty minutes, then weโ€™ll go.โ€
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Day 1 (cont.)
You werenโ€™t too sure when it happened, but somewhere along the car ride, Jeonghanโ€™s spare hand had nestled into yours. It felt somewhat romantic. You were no stranger to holding his hand, but it meant something different this time. Of course, something deceptive, but still different.
As the car pulled to the stop, you squeezed his hand comfortingly.ย 
โ€œReady?โ€
You and Jeonghan smiled at each other, and to anyone who could see past the tinted windows, you were putting on your best show even before you walked out of the car. Of course, knowing Seungcheol, he was probably waiting outside the venue, and this sort of attention to detail that Jeonghan had mastered was crucial considering your friends.
โ€œReady.โ€
Your hands detached as the two of you got out of the car, only to join once more as Jeonghan rushed to your side, draping his arm across your shoulder and kissing your hand. You were almost shocked by his actions, the ones that felt so loving, until you heard the all too familiar screech of his would be best friend (had that title not been taken by you, long ago).
โ€œYoon Jeonghan! Did you and Y/N finally confess your love to each other?!โ€ Seungcheol yelled across the parking lot, jogging up to you.
โ€œShowtime.โ€ Jeonghan whispered in your ear, nuzzling his nose against your skin. It was so sickeningly puppy love, you had to hold yourself back and be reminded that this is your life for the next month. โ€œSeungcheol!โ€
He walked up and hugged his friend, and you followed suit, before settling back at Jeonghanโ€™s side. Seungcheol couldnโ€™t hide his grin, going on and on. โ€œI knew it! For years, you guys said there was nothing there, but I knew it would happen eventually! I told you so, didnโ€™t I Jeonghan? And all you ever said, Y/N and I are just friends, they would never see me that way, but HAH! I was right!โ€
Seungcheol kept rambling, barely even speaking to you, truthfully it felt more like he was yelling at characters on a screen rather than friends he had known for all his life (at least in Jeonghanโ€™s case - you only got to know Seungcheol as you got closer to Jeonghan).
โ€œEveryoneโ€™s going to be so shocked, even more so than when Wonwoo finally proposed.โ€
You scoffed. โ€œNo one was surprised when Wonwoo proposed, we were all surprised he hadnโ€™t proposed sooner.โ€
โ€œSame sentiment theyโ€™ll have with us, I guess.โ€ Jeonghan shrugged, tightening his grip around you. You held your bated breath as you thought about just how close you were to Jeonghan, that if you reached out just a little you could tuck that stray hair that was in front of his face away, you always thought he looked so much nicer when his face wasnโ€™t covered-
โ€œโ€ฆdating?โ€ Seungcheolโ€™s sentence finally trailed off, and you realised he was waiting for your answer. Shit, you hadnโ€™t paid any attention, and it was clearly evident by your lost expression. โ€œGod you two are still in the honeymoon phase, pay attention to me as well, not just your boyfriend.โ€
Your nose almost curled so instinctively at that word. Boyfriend. It still felt so wrong to use for Jeonghan, and by the way he tensed only ever so slightly beside you, you knew he felt the same. As if you were claiming him, but you knew Jeonghan wouldnโ€™t want that, thatโ€™s why he froze. Wasnโ€™t it?
โ€œCome on, letโ€™s go inside, you can tell everyone youโ€™re finally dating!โ€
You and Jeonghan followed Seungcheol, who chattered away to Jeonghan as you walked in silence. You were always the more quiet of the pair. Not exactly introverted or shy, but picky with your words. You hated the idea of saying something you didnโ€™t mean. Jeonghan was careful too, but it was like he had everything ready before anything else was ever said. Jeonghan was always careful, always clever.ย 
He had never been the boyfriend type. Everyone knew it. He had flings, some that even lasted months, but never relationships. He went on dates, but only those that ended up in a hookup. The word boyfriend had never been used to describe him, only used as a wish others had hoped he would fulfill. Your friends would always tease, of course, that he could never be a boyfriend to anyone else because he was too busy being a boyfriend for you, but the two of you knew it wasnโ€™t that. No, Jeonghan could never be a boyfriend to anyone because he didnโ€™t want the expectations that came with it. Jeonghan did as he wanted, on his own terms. But a boyfriend has a role to play, and Jeonghan would die before he gave into that. It was always frustrating for him that his friends never seemed to understand that, but now it played right into his plan. And you understood, so did anyone else need to?
As Seungcheol ushered you in, you were surprised to see just how many of your friends were already gathered, moving chairs and dusting the floors, with Minghao set in the centre, directing everyone. Wonwoo and his fiancee were doing their best to cut costs, with Minghao acting as wedding planner, and all their friends chipping in to help out where they could, which of course is how you all ended up setting up a wedding venue inside a dusty old warehouse. Minghao assured them it would look beautiful, if and only if everyone listened carefully to every instruction he gave, without deviation. To say you and Jeonghan were scared of pissing him off was definitely an understatement.ย 
Eyes snapped to you and Jeonghan at the sound of the door closing, and even more gathered in your direction as Seungcheol started yelling about an announcement.
โ€œY/N and Jeonghan have something to say!โ€ He yelled across the crowds (well, 30 or so friends), apologising silently to Minghao as he glared at the older boy.
You froze, hiding your head in Jeonghanโ€™s arm as the pressure of being watched suddenly settled into you. He smiled at you, and wagged your hand held in his at everyone. โ€œY/N and I are dating!โ€
Everyone erupted into gasps and shouts, but were all effectively shut up by Minghaoโ€™s yell. โ€œGet this place clean first, then gossip!โ€
Jun walked up to you, handing you a mop and reading off instructions Minghao had given him on everything that needed to be done today. โ€œBut seriously, I am so happy for you guys. Good luck fielding everyone off though, everyoneโ€™s gonna have so many questions.โ€
You walked over with Jun to where Chan, Yeeun, Sakura, and Seungkwan were all mopping the floors. The youngest pushed you gently, grinning at you.ย 
โ€œI canโ€™t believe you and Jeonghan are finally dating!โ€ Chan grinned. โ€œTook you guys long enough.โ€
โ€œI guess itโ€™s been a long time coming.โ€ You hummed, as you started cleaning the floors with them. You looked back to where Jeonghan was, now surrounded by friends who were congratulating him. It filled you with a strange pride to know you were a prize to be congratulated for winning. Of course, they donโ€™t know itโ€™s not real. But the illusion still felt victorious.
โ€œIs everyone here? Itโ€™s been ages since we all met up.โ€ย 
โ€œYeah! Oh, everyone but Joshua, he had to cancel last minute.โ€ You felt your shoulders threaten to drop at the news Soonyoung shared. โ€œOf course, the day weโ€™re cleaning away the dust and mould, he canโ€™t make it.โ€
Sakura hit his shoulder softly. โ€œHe would come if he could. There was an emergency at his firm.โ€
There was no skylight, but you were sure that if there was one, the clouds would have covered the sunlight.
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You were only a year younger than Joshua, only a year younger than Jeonghan, but he had already been a junior partner at his firm for three years now, while you were spending every spare hour at your office in a desperate attempt to prove to the asses behind the desks in the floor above yours how much you deserved to be partner.ย 
You werenโ€™t surprised when Joshua was made partner. He was incredible, a talented lawyer who saw shortcuts and loopholes no one else realised were there. He was so dedicated, and smart, and dreamy, although you were sure that last part wasnโ€™t one of the qualifying traits for partnership.ย 
Your whole life, you were a step behind him. Most of that was just the fact that he was a year ahead of you: he graduated first, he took his bar exam first, he joined a firm first. Meanwhile you were the sad kid following him from place to place.
It was no secret Joshua cared for you like a younger sibling. Of course, he wasnโ€™t always around, he couldnโ€™t be. He had too much to do, too many places to be. But he cared about you, and always made sure you knew. What was a secret were the feelings you had for him, locked in a cage next to your heart, with a bluebird that sang love songs to fuel your adoration for him. Only Jeonghan knew, and he had been sworn to secrecy. (It didnโ€™t matter that he had been - he could keep a secret easily, and he would have never given away one of yours.)
When you were seventeen, and Joshua left you to go to university, that was the first moment you realised just how much you cared for him. You ended up in the same university, and then later the same law school, and now the same city. The years you shared in law school, cuddled up in sofas trying to decipher notes from lectures, and questioning the sanity of professors formed a budding love, and one that you only realised when he left you once more. You followed him and Jeonghan place to place, in a desperate attempt to have him realise just how you felt, and he never did. You were his Y/N, always around, always there for him, but never an option. And while he dated, you did too, but no one seemed to replace him. All your exes blamed Jeonghan for your failed relationships, when they should have blamed Joshua.ย 
And now here you were once again, back home from cleaning up Wonwooโ€™s rented warehouse, once again wishing he had noticed you, wishing that he would finally see you in a different light.
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Day 2 - Sunday 4th November
โ€œYou have to pose more like youโ€™re my boyfriend.โ€
โ€œWhat does that even mean?โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t know! But youโ€™re not very good at this.โ€
Jeonghan groaned, shoving your phone away from his face like a disgraced celebrity. The two of you had met out for coffee and, in your case, highlighting case notes and writing out forms, while Jeonghan edited scripts. You always thought Jeonghan should have gone into law like you and Joshua, he certainly had the intelligence for it, but he didnโ€™t particularly have a drive to become a lawyer, and in his eyes it was too much work if he wasnโ€™t motivated. Times like this convince you that perhaps he was correct.ย 
Except now that the two of you were dating, there was also the task of creating the evidence necessary to post your relationship, and it was tedious and confusing having to show the difference between you as friends and you dating when nothing has changed.ย 
โ€œWe might as well just post a photo of you or I in lingerie if you want to make it look more like a real relationship.โ€ Jeonghan said teasingly, although you didnโ€™t miss the hint of frustration in the growl of his voice.ย 
โ€œGross.โ€
โ€œLet me see the photos youโ€™ve taken at least.โ€ You handed your phone to Jeonghan, moving your attention back to the case in front of you. Malcom Optics vs. Kim and Hogan. You wanted to tear your eyes out. โ€œThese are boyfriend-y enough!โ€
โ€œThey look like all the other photos I have of you!โ€
โ€œEveryone else was convinced we were dating beforehand, thatโ€™s definitely relationship kindling.โ€
You reached our for your phone from his hands, grabbing a highlighter. โ€œItโ€™s not enough. Apparently, something has changed.โ€
โ€œFine then. Kiss me.โ€
You dropped your highlighter, and it clacked to the floor.
โ€œExcuse me?โ€
โ€œYou wanted to show that something has changed, what do people in relationships do? They kiss.โ€ Jeonghan explained nonchalantly, leaning down to grab your highlighter. โ€œWe can post a kissing photo, youโ€™re right, itโ€™s more believable this way.โ€
โ€œB-Butโ€ฆโ€
โ€œItโ€™s not like weโ€™ve never kissed before, anyway.โ€
He was right, and you cringed at the memory of being drunk with Jeonghan. The two of you had spent a couple of nights in university drinking your problems away on the floor of your dorm when your roommate was away (and considering the sheer number of parties she spent her time at, you and Jeonghan had a semi frequent tradition), and one such night after an emotional day of being accused of cheating, you ended up making out with an equally wasted Jeonghan, only for the two of you to wake up with an insurmountable feeling of dread and regret. The two of you had always known whatever relationship between the two of you was platonic, but that night destroyed any sort of wondering. There was no way you had feelings for him if it resulted in that awful dread. And it made you so nervous to experience it once more.
โ€œY/N?โ€
โ€œFine.โ€
You got up from the desk to sit on Jeonghanโ€™s lap. The seats at this coffee shop were comfortable, but not enough for two people to sit together. Jeonghan felt himself tense up as you settled into his lap. It had been way too long since the two of you kissed, and a strange feeling settled in his stomach.
โ€œReady?โ€ You asked him, moving your phone into position.
โ€œGuess I have to be.โ€
Jeonghan placed his hand so his thumb nestled just in front of your ear, holding the back of your neck securely, and closed his eyes as he kissed you, waiting for the click of your phone camera, which came quickly. You quickly pulled away to look at the results, ignoring the way your stomach dropped. It meant nothing. But why was it lingering?
โ€œThis actually looks good. We look like we could actually be dating here.โ€
You hummed in satisfaction, moving back to your desk to focus once more on this case, and you hoped Jeonghan missed the coy smile on your lips.ย 
He was too busy thinking about how his own felt.
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Day 7 - Friday 9th November
โ€œSofia is hosting a party, weโ€™re going once youโ€™re free from work.โ€ Jeonghanโ€™s voice was gravelly over the phone, and the reception in your office was so bad, you were barely getting every other word.
โ€œWhoโ€™s Sofia again?โ€ You asked, hardly paying attention to the question. Instead, your attention was trained on the office door on the other side of your office, where your coworker, Eunwoo, resided. You just watched as two senior partners had stepped in, and it had been now 26 minutes since the door closed. Were they going to promote him over you? Or perhaps he was getting fired? You had seen him grab one too many pens from the office storage room, he could have been selling them to make a bit of side money. Probably not. But could he?
โ€œVernonโ€™s sister, try to keep up.โ€
โ€œRight yeah, sister.โ€
โ€œWhoโ€™s sister?โ€
โ€œUmmโ€ฆโ€
Jeonghan sighed on the phone, and you winced at his tone. โ€œYouโ€™re working too hard. Or overthinking. One of the two. Either way, you need this party.โ€
โ€œIโ€™ve got so much work to do, Hannie.โ€ You told him, taking note of the time. There were two shadows by the base of Eunwooโ€™s door. Someoneโ€™s feet? Was the meeting over yet?
โ€œBut itโ€™s a Friday! You can work on the weekend. Iโ€™ll drive you, and Iโ€™ll stay sober so I can take you home. Besides, Joshua is going to be there.โ€
You perked up at the sound of his name. โ€œReally? Heโ€™s actually coming?โ€
โ€œYeah, he called me earlier to make sure you and I were coming, and I told him you were. You donโ€™t wanna flake on him, do you?โ€
You sighed. Your resolve was always diminished when Joshua was involved.ย 
โ€œFine.โ€ You smiled, imagining Jeonghan celebrating on the other side of the line. โ€œI have to stay back late though, can you bring me a change of clothes? Something comfy though.โ€
โ€œGot it, Iโ€™ll bring dinner and your sexiest ensemble. Bye!โ€
โ€œWait-โ€œ
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Day 7 (cont.)
Just like he promised, at 7:43, Jeonghan showed up at your office door, with your clothes (which were a lot tighter than you would have liked) in a bag and a pizza box in the other. He settled on the other side of your desk as you finished up, and listened as you bitched about the meeting Eunwoo had which lasted a whole 34 minutes, which is insane for what looked like an unscheduled meeting, and were they really going to pick Eunwoo over you? I mean heโ€™s a good lawyer but the pens!
Eventually he managed to get you to stop talking and follow him to his car before driving you over to Sofiaโ€™s new place. She had just moved, to a much more relaxed neighbourhood, hence the big party. While you and your friends were close to or had just reached their 30s, with you being on the cusp at 29 (Jeonghan is old and is already in the decade ahead of you, a fact you have mentioned to him several times), Sofia was still in her early 20s, and that was definitely reflected in the party she had set up (with the help of Vernon, who was perpetually stuck at 16). Music was blaring from the house, and you silently cursed Jeonghan for dragging you out. You knew exactly how this party was going to end - with you drunk, having embarrassed yourself in at least three different ways, and passed out somewhere to nurse a major hangover in the morning. At least this time Jeonghan would stay sober, true to his word, and could take care of you. Hopefully that comes with making sure you donโ€™t embarrass yourself, but you wouldnโ€™t bet on it.
You instinctively reached for his hand as Jeonghan led you to the house, and you were reminded of your job. This was a big party, your friends would be there, you had to play the role you were given. Beside you, Jeonghan was reminded of the same fact.
You almost forgot everything as you approached the front door, and saw him waiting for you. Joshua waved you over, and you felt the air knocked out of you as you and Jeonghan walked up and he engulfed you two in his arms.
โ€œI heard you guys finally started going out! Took you long enough to ask them out, Jeonghan.โ€ Joshuaโ€™s voice was honey mellow and so soothing, you were sure just like honey it was antibacterial. You hadnโ€™t even entered the house, and you already felt drunk on his touch. Yet your heart seemed to drop at the fact that Josh didnโ€™t seem at all jealous or upset at this development. Thatโ€™s probably a good thing? But it definitely wasnโ€™t the outcome you wanted.
โ€œWe should get Y/N to the kitchen, Iโ€™m sure they want something to get their mind off of work.โ€ Jeonghan told Joshua, who let you slip out of his arms as he led the two of you inside the house.
โ€œTough week Y/N?โ€ Joshua asked delicately, placing his hand on your shoulder, and every worry you had seemed to drain away, only for the reminder of Eunwooโ€™s closed door to come right back.
โ€œJust feel like Iโ€™m putting in effort that will never be recognised.โ€ You grumbled, and leaned closer into Jeonghanโ€™s side. Joshuaโ€™s sweet gaze reminded you of your goal: you wanted so desperately for him to be jealous, so you nuzzled your forehead against Jeonghanโ€™s bicep. โ€œLuckily Iโ€™ve had my boyfriend here to make everything better.โ€
You donโ€™t think you could ever get used to that word, and evidently neither could Jeonghan, who felt as though he was choking on air. You felt the vibrations of his discomfort, but Joshua didnโ€™t seem to notice.ย 
โ€œAhh, young love. Or, I suppose newfound love. I really am surprised you two didnโ€™t start dating earlier.โ€ Seungcheolโ€™s voice suddenly permeated the air, and you watched as he settled next to Joshua, facing you and Jeonghan with a friendly gaze. โ€œYou drinking tonight, Jeonghan?โ€
โ€œDesignated driver.โ€ He told him, running his thumb up and down your arm. Jeonghan didnโ€™t miss the way Joshua looked at that small action, and he felt a glimmer of pride under his skin. โ€œI think Y/N will want a drink though?โ€
โ€œOh god yes, Seungcheol, will you mix me something? Put those bartender days to use.โ€ You hooked your arm around Seungcheolโ€™s and let him guide you to the drink station (Sofiaโ€™s kitchen island which had a cupboard fully stocked with alcohol and mixers).
โ€œWow, you and Y/N.โ€ Joshua smiled, and Jeonghan grinned coyly at his friend. โ€œWhyโ€™d you finally ask them out?โ€
He stole a glance to you and Seungcheol. You didnโ€™t notice his gaze, and why would you? You were too far away. But you seemed so in your world, like you always had been, something Jeonghan found endearing.
โ€œJust realised I wanted more. Didnโ€™t want to lose them to someone else.โ€
โ€œAs if you would ever lose Y/N, you two are stuck together. Honestly, I was a little jealous of it growing up, they would always pick you over me, guess this is another case of that.โ€ Jeonghan hadnโ€™t realised until now how Joshuaโ€™s skin was tinted pink, the blush of alcohol settling over his cheekbones. Was that why he was rambling like this? โ€œBut then I realised I had to find my own Y/N, make my own soulmate. Anyway, Iโ€™m glad you finally asked them out!โ€
Joshua stumbled back towards the drink station where you and Seungcheol were waiting for him. Yeah, Jeonghan wasnโ€™t too sure he would be able to make Joshua jealous. But he owed it to you to try anyway. You werenโ€™t always as aware as you wanted to think you were, but Jeonghan was, and he was acutely aware of the way you froze and smiled as Joshua approached you.
Over a decade had passed since you were seventeen, and you were still completely whipped for Joshua Hong.ย 
Jeonghan knew this, he went into this knowing it, but why did it feel different now?
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Day 7 (cont.)
Two hours in and you were officially drunk. It didnโ€™t take much - you were out of practise from your days of drinking through the night as an undergrad, and too often your nights our were at charity functions and galas where you had to stay on the safe side of tipsy, and not let loose like you were currently doing.ย 
You had lost Jeonghan a while ago, instead having spent most of the night with Joshua, catching up and taking shots together. Heโ€™d been having a stressful time at his own firm, and was happy to accompany you as you drank your worries about Eunwoo and making partner away.
โ€œItโ€™s just so stupid, cause Eunwoo is my age! Heโ€™s not more qualified than me, and heโ€™s definitely not a better lawyer than me, cause he steals pens!โ€
โ€œYou mentioned the pens!โ€
โ€œItโ€™s important!โ€
You felt a tear roll down your cheek as you drunkenly recalled the events of the day, and before it several more followed. Joshua didnโ€™t notice, you made no sound, but the stress of being at the office for 53 hours this past week only to get no recognition became so overwhelming so quickly, too quickly for your drunken self to register.
โ€œJosh, did you make Y/N cry?โ€
You barely registered that Jeonghan had walked up to you until you heard his voice, the voice you had been missing for the whole party.ย 
โ€œH-Hannieโ€ฆโ€ You choked out in sobs, reaching your arms out for him. He obliged, pulling you close to him, letting you cry into his torso.
โ€œY/N, youโ€™re crying?โ€ Joshua questioned, but you could barely hear him, your face pressed against the fabric of Jeonghanโ€™s shirt. It wasnโ€™t a comfortable position, to cry sitting down into someoneโ€™s chest, but right now you werenโ€™t thinking about that.ย 
โ€œHannie w-where did you g-go, I miss- I missed you.โ€ You sobbed, barely sounding out the words. โ€œSt-stupid Eunwoo and h-his stupid pens.โ€
Jeonghan cooed, running his hand through your hair soothingly. โ€œMaybe we should go home? You need to get to bed. Josh, Iโ€™ll see you tomorrow? Say goodnight to Seungcheol for me.โ€
Jeonghan grasped your hand, pulling you up, and guided you out of the house to the car.ย 
โ€œWhy are we l-leaving?โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re way too drunk. Besides, weโ€™re helping set up Wonwooโ€™s venue tomorrow, better get some sleep.โ€ Jeonghan reminded you, tucking you into the passengerโ€™s seat and clipping the seat belt around you. You hummed, shuffling until you felt comfy, and curled up as close as you could. Your eyes fluttered closed as the car started, and soon you felt yourself dozing off, the salty tears slipping past your lips.
โ€œYouโ€™re such a good boyfriend, Hannie.โ€
Had you not been so drunk, maybe you wouldnโ€™t have said it so easily. Maybe he would have felt more uneasy about the term. He hadnโ€™t even noticed it until you were well and truly passed out, gone to the world.
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Day 8 - Saturday 10th November
The streaming sunlight that peeked through your blinds was enough to awaken the deep nausea within you, yet the banging in your head begged you to stay in bed. This was such a gross hangover, and one you hadnโ€™t had to deal with in years.ย 
Who let you drink this much?
With as much strength as you could muster, you stumbled to the bathroom, luckily you had an ensuite, and felt the contents of your stomach escape up and out through your throat into the toilet bowl. The base of your throat burned, and so did your eyes, as more tears threatened to escape over the fiery sensation. You stayed there, waiting for another wave of nausea, when you felt Jeonghanโ€™s hands push back the hair from your face, and rub your back soothingly.ย 
โ€œWhy did I drink so muchโ€ฆโ€ You whispered, your voice hoarse and sore.
โ€œYouโ€™re just too out of practise, Y/N.โ€ Jeonghan told you, pulling you up slowly. โ€œYou need to spend more nights drinking with me and not at the office.โ€
He handed you a glass of water, which you greedily took from his hands, gulping it down as fast as you could without suffocating, until you went to fast and started coughing it all up.ย 
โ€œGod youโ€™re a mess when youโ€™re hungover.โ€
โ€œThanks, Jeonghan.โ€
He grabbed the box of panadol in your bottom cupboard drawer, handing it to you. God, he was far too familiar with your apartment, although you were fairly familiar with his. Well, actually not quite as familiar, because he still has a roommate (and according to Jeonghan, they are necessary for the nicer apartment he lives in on his salary, even though youโ€™ve told him is useless since he spends most of his time here) that you never wanted to bother.
โ€œWe have to be at Wonwooโ€™s venue in three hours, you think thatโ€™s enough time to get ready?โ€ You nodded, swallowing the pills quickly.ย 
โ€œThat should be enough time for the panadol to kick in.โ€
โ€œGood, because Iโ€™m only being this nice to you until then.โ€
You frowned mockingly. โ€œDonโ€™t you have to be the sweet and caring boyfriend?โ€ You cringed at the way that word sounded as it came out of your mouth, and watched as Jeonghan did too. โ€œGod, I donโ€™t think twenty days is enough time to get used to that.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t think a lifetime is enough time.โ€ Jeonghan let himself out of the bathroom, leaving you alone on the tiled floor. โ€œTake a shower, then come and get some food!โ€ He yelled, and you closed the door behind you, terrified of whatever horror he had cooked up (and you used the term cooked very loosely here).
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Day 8 (cont.)
It had become a tradition for you to start holding hands with Jeonghan when he would drive you. Somewhere along the car ride, his hand met yours, and they joined, not a word to be said. You didnโ€™t think about it. You wondered if he did.
The venue wasnโ€™t too dissimilar to last week, but it was way cleaner. Once again, you and Jeonghan were separated, sent to do different jobs under the watchful eye of Minghao (and his faithful minions Jun and Jihoon).ย 
โ€œDo you think he gets stressed out or is he just like that?โ€ Sakura whispered to you. She was friends with Wonwooโ€™s fiance, and wasnโ€™t all too familiar with Wonwooโ€™s friends. You felt for her, most of the people here were on his side, and you were one of the only people Sakura knew here, having met previously in university.ย 
โ€œBoth? He is a little bit like that, but Wonwoo is a close friend, I think he just wants everything to go well.โ€ You told her in hushed breath. โ€œWe all want it to go well. Wonwoo is such a good guy, so is Eliza.โ€
โ€œI know!โ€ Sakura gushed, a little loud but not enough to catch the attention of Minghao. โ€œTheyโ€™re so cute together, I was so excited when she told me she finally got engaged.โ€
You smiled, making marks with electrical tape at each measure for Seungcheol to place chairs at later on.ย 
โ€œWhat about you though? Are you going to get engaged any time soon?โ€
You gulped, feeling awkward under the heat of her questioning gaze. โ€œJeonghan and I have only started dating, marriage is so out of the picture right now.โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t be modest! Chan told me you and Jeonghan have basically been together since high school.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s an exaggeration.โ€ You told her, not meeting her eyes. It felt so strange, so deceitful, to keep up this lie. Were you a bad person for this? It was harmless, just a little lie to keep Jeonghan from Jiwon, but it followed you everywhere.
โ€œWe were just friends back then.โ€ Weโ€™re just friends now. โ€œWeโ€™ve just always been close.โ€
โ€œUh huh, and did you have feelings for him all this time?โ€
Wrong guy.
โ€œIโ€™ve always loved him.โ€ You told Sakura, and she began to giggle once more.
That one wasnโ€™t a lie. You have loved Jeonghan for a very long time. Itโ€™s just always been a platonic, simple love. You wondered if it still was, and then you wondered why it wouldnโ€™t be.
But it was clear that no matter what it is, it was no longer simple.
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Day 11 - Tuesday 13th November
โ€œHello?โ€
โ€œY/N! Itโ€™s Wonwoo.โ€
โ€œOh, hey Wonwoo! Whatโ€™s up?โ€
โ€œNothing, nothing! Look, I know I havenโ€™t been hanging out much-โ€œ
โ€œStop, donโ€™t apologise! Youโ€™ve been planning a wedding, and weโ€™re all so excited for it!โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re too sweet, Y/N. Anyway, I wanted to congratulate you and Jeonghan!โ€
โ€œOh, you heard?โ€
โ€œCanโ€™t stop hearing about it. Mingyu was being a little pissy when he found out, kept saying this must have been why you didnโ€™t like him back in year 12, instead of the fact that he face planted into a pool in front of the entire year group two days before he confessed to you.โ€
โ€œI forgot about that!โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t worry, I put him in his place.โ€
โ€œAhh, thank you Wonwoo.โ€
โ€œOf course. How did it go, by the way? Who asked who out?โ€
โ€œOh, I donโ€™t wanna waste your timeโ€ฆโ€
โ€œNo no! Eliza wants to know too, go on.โ€
โ€œAhh, well, we were just hanging out one night andโ€ฆ one thing led to anotherโ€ฆโ€
โ€œMy god did you fuck him on your leather couch because that poor piece of furniture has seen more than enough-โ€œ
โ€œNo! No, we made out, jesus Wonwoo.โ€
โ€œSorry, sorry, go on.โ€
โ€œWait what do you mean seen more than enough?โ€
โ€œOkay you didnโ€™t hear this from me but you should ask Soonyoung what he got up to that week two years ago when he was house sitting for you.โ€
โ€œOh god oh god...โ€
โ€œAnyway the story?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m burning that couch.โ€
โ€œMoving on.โ€
โ€œRight, well we realised we both had feelings for each other, so we just decided to go for it.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s so cute! That reminds me of when we were all in uni, I got this call from Jeonghan in the middle of the night-โ€œ
โ€œSorry Wonwoo, the doorbellโ€™s just rung, thatโ€™ll be Jeonghan. Do you wanna say hi?โ€
โ€œNah, I should get back to wedding planning. Have a good night Y/N!โ€
โ€œNight Wonwoo.โ€
You hung up the phone as your door opened, Jeonghanโ€™s figure standing in the doorway.
โ€œI got kebabs!โ€
You ran up to rip the food out of his hands. โ€œGod I love you.โ€
He grinned smugly. โ€œI know. Letโ€™s eat!โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t sit there!โ€
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Day 12 - Wednesday 14th November
cheolie_cherries: you guys are sickeningly cute ๐Ÿคฎ ๐Ÿคฎ sunshineseok: about time you started dating! julijuli33: oh my god heโ€™s actually taken ๐Ÿ˜ญ good for y/n but we lost today wonworld: congrats guys!!
You couldnโ€™t help but smile at the comments on Jeonghanโ€™s instagram post of the two of you. There was a sneaky one he had taken of you working (which you had called and immediately asked him to take down, and of course he refused), as well as the kiss photo, to really prove the two of you were dating. Looking at it now sent flutters to your stomach. You had never seen yourself like this. Sure, you had dated, but it never really got all that serious, and you werenโ€™t one for PDA, so photos like this were rare. That was probably what was causing this feeling. Right?
โ€œEarth to Y/N.โ€
You snapped your head up to see Eunchae, your newest paralegal, at the doorway between your office and the hallway, grinning at you with a stack of files in her hand. She walked in, placing them on your desk.
โ€œThese need to be checked for errors.โ€ She told you, and you waved her off.
โ€œGot it. Anything else I can help you with?โ€
โ€œHmm, you could tell me what it is thatโ€™s on your phone making you look so giddy?โ€
โ€œNothing!โ€ You quickly yelled, cringing at the volume your voice was raised to. โ€œIt was nothing, just having a good morning.โ€
โ€œMmm, sureโ€ฆโ€ She smiled knowingly at you, before walking away, closing the door softly behind her. When you heard the click of the door, you groaned, letting your body fall against the desk. That was too close.
Why were you even ogling? You had work to do, and you would be damned if you spent too long staring at your phone and it cost you the promotion.ย 
They were announcing the newest junior partner next Friday, making the decision at the end of this week. You had to win. So you turned your phone onto silent and placed it face down on the furthest corner of your desk, burying your head into the paralegalโ€™s work. No matter how much it beckoned you back, you would not lose.
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Day 15 - Saturday 17th November
When you and Jeonghan stepped into Wonwooโ€™s venue the Saturday before the wedding, you were practically expecting a fairytale, and thatโ€™s almost what you saw. Minghao had dedicated so much time, you knew Eliza and Wonwoo would be so shocked when they finally saw the finished product.
Still, there was much to be done, and with less and less time, everyone was rushing even more to get as much as they could done. This time, you and Sakura were stringing up fairy lights across the pews for the optimal mood lighting, as Minghao called it, and a fire hazard as Jihoon called it (so they compromised to have it on the ceiling above the pews, meaning you had to stand on a 3 decade old ladder while Sakura tried her best to guarantee it didnโ€™t collapse).
You slowly got down from the stairs, guided down by Sakura, when you saw Joshua waiting for you, and you felt your heart beat out of your chest.
โ€œHey Y/N, can I borrow you for a sec?โ€ He asked, his deep brown eyes looked through you, as if they knew all your secrets.
โ€œYeah, I mean, Sakura do youโ€ฆ?โ€
โ€œNo, go ahead, I need a break anyway.โ€
Joshua offered you his arm, to which you took, and he led you to the corridor, secluded, hidden from prying eyes.
โ€œWhat did you want to talk to me about?โ€ You asked, waiting for Joshua as he glanced away from your view.
โ€œLook, I really am happy for you, I promise,โ€ He began, and you recoiled slightly, holding your elbows. What was he going to say? โ€œBut Iโ€™m questioning Jeonghan.โ€
โ€œLike, as a person?โ€
โ€œNo, as a boyfriend.โ€ The word dripped with malice from Joshuaโ€™s lips. โ€œLook, I know youโ€™ve only just started going out, but he went out with a lot of people before you,โ€
โ€œSo did I.โ€
โ€œYeah but thatโ€™s not the point, Y/N. Iโ€™m just saying, heโ€™s putting on this whole show of being a good boyfriend, and being faithful and kind, but he never has been before.โ€ You stood there silently, rocking slightly, but it didnโ€™t seem to stop Joshua. โ€œHeโ€™s known you practically all his life, he could have had you at any point, why now? And why is he suddenly acting so different compared to his past relationships?โ€
Joshua put a hand on your arm gently. โ€œIโ€™m not trying to hurt you, but if I were you, Iโ€™d be more suspicious of his motives.โ€ He began rubbing circles into your forearm. โ€œI love you, I donโ€™t want to see you get hurt.โ€
โ€œWhat about Jeonghan? Donโ€™t you care if he gets hurt?โ€ You asked, your voice barely a whisper.
โ€œHeโ€™s not the one Iโ€™m most worried about.โ€
You stepped back, and Joshuaโ€™s hand quickly dropped from your arm. โ€œI need to go.โ€
You turned away, and walked back to the venue before he could say anything.
โ€œJust think about what I said, Y/N!โ€ Joshua yelled behind you, but that was the last thing you wanted to do.ย 
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Day 15 (cont.)
You were quiet the rest of the day, feeling more drained from that interaction than the intense physical labour Minghao was making you do (maybe it was the combination of both that killed you). You donโ€™t think anyone noticed, aside from Sakura, who realised you werenโ€™t talking but didnโ€™t say much, but you were terrified of someone else realising, so when Jeonghan approached you with his car keys in his hand you didnโ€™t hesitate to drag him out to the car park before anyone else could follow.
The two of you had been on the road for ten minutes in silence before Jeonghan finally broke it. โ€œAre you going to tell me whatโ€™s wrong?โ€
โ€œWho said anythingโ€™s wrong?โ€ You did your best to speak nonchalantly, but Jeonghan didnโ€™t miss the quiver in your voice.
โ€œIโ€™m not an idiot, I can tell when youโ€™re upset.โ€ You were still five minutes from your apartment, you couldnโ€™t dance around it for that long. โ€œTell me whatโ€™s wrong.โ€
โ€œJoshua pulled me to the side, asked me if we could talk, and then he told me I should be suspicious of you and your motives.โ€ You admitted, looking out the passenger window. You felt choked up. How could he think like this?
โ€œThatโ€™s what youโ€™re worried about, Y/N?โ€ Jeonghan questioned, a slight smile on his lips.
โ€œYouโ€™re not?โ€
โ€œJosh has been super stressed at his firm right? Itโ€™s cause one of the senior partners was caught embezzling. That, and heโ€™s the only one of us going to Wonwooโ€™s wedding without a date.โ€
โ€œReally?โ€
โ€œYeah, of course heโ€™s going to act weirdly.โ€ He brushed off your concerns with such an ease you forgot why they upset you in the first place. โ€œDonโ€™t take it to heart, Iโ€™m sure heโ€™ll get back to normal soon.โ€
You breathed out a shaky sigh, feeling your doubts subside and settle.ย 
โ€œItโ€™s cute you were so upset though.โ€ He teased, and you groaned, cupping your face with your hands. โ€œYou were so worried about what people thought about me, about your boyfriend.โ€
โ€œShut up, Yoon.โ€
โ€œHow can I? My partner cares about me too much.โ€
โ€œI regret everything.โ€
He chuckled, stopping his remarks as he watched you calm out the corner of his eye. A secondary realisation as to why Joshua was acting like this was on the front of his mind, but it was nowhere near as comforting. No, this thought was one that was now threatening, and could result in losing you forever.ย 
Jeonghan didnโ€™t want to think about the implications of Joshua being jealous. Instead, he focused on you, and the way you stared out the passenger window.
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Day 15 (cont.)
โ€œHave you still got that 12-pack at the back of your fridge?โ€
โ€œGo nuts.โ€ You told him, kicking your shoes off and lying down on the carpet on the floor. You and Jeonghan had made a mutual decision to pretend the couch wasnโ€™t there until after Wonwooโ€™s wedding, then you could go shopping for a new one, and until then there was always the floor. โ€œI havenโ€™t been drinking much, trying to just get through this wedding and the promotion.โ€
โ€œHowโ€™s that going?โ€ Jeonghan asked, and you heard the faint pop of a bottle opener from your kitchen.
โ€œThey said they would make their decision on who would be the next junior partner by the end of the week, and make the announcement the next week. Itโ€™s Saturday now, and I havenโ€™t heard anything, so I know what that means.โ€
Jeonghan settled next to you, handing you an opened beer bottle and clinking it against his own before taking a swig. โ€œDonโ€™t be too worried, maybe theyโ€™ll tell you youโ€™re getting the promotion on Monday.โ€
โ€œMaybe.โ€
โ€œYou give your everything to that firm. Theyโ€™d be stupid to not want you as partner.โ€
โ€œThey would be stupid! Howโ€™s your boss?โ€
The two of you spent your evening reminiscing and complaining (two of your favourite pastimes) as you drank more and more, getting gradually more drunk, unlike on the night of Sofiaโ€™s party where you got embarrassingly shitfaced way too quickly. At some point in the night, you had cozied up to Jeonghan, and now you were nuzzled up in his arms, too comfortable to even consider moving.ย 
โ€œGod, this whole thing is so stupid!โ€ You yelled, throwing your pillow across the room with as much force as you could gather, sending it a few feet ahead of you. โ€œWe gotta fake date to get people off your back and onto mine, meanwhile Joshuaโ€™s not gotten jealous once and we havenโ€™t even seen Jiwon!โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t say her name three times, or sheโ€™s gonna appear.โ€ Jeonghan told you, wide eyed, taking a quick look around the room just to confirm she wasnโ€™t there.ย 
โ€œPussy.โ€
โ€œSheโ€™s coming to the rehearsal dinner though!โ€ Jeonghan told you, wagging his pointer finger in the air, making you giggle. โ€œAnd thatโ€™s Friday, so itโ€™s coming up soon.โ€
โ€œAhh the rehearsal dinner. What are we rehearsing again?โ€
โ€œWeโ€™re rehearsing how to fake date, Y/N, weโ€™ve been over this.โ€
โ€œAnd we have a whole dinner for it?โ€
โ€œYes! How kind of Wonwoo.โ€
You burst into fits of laughter, lolling your head into the crook of Jeonghanโ€™s shoulder as you laughed, and he followed suit. Moments like this were ones where you felt so comfortable with him, like the bubble was intact once more.ย 
โ€œWe should start rehearsals now!โ€ Jeonghan exclaimed, grabbing your elbows excitedly. โ€œWhat do people in relationships do?โ€
You shrugged, and his arms moved with your shoulders. โ€œI donโ€™t know, youโ€™re basically my first boyfriend.โ€
โ€œWell youโ€™re the first time Iโ€™m being a boyfriend.โ€
โ€œWhat does that mean?โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t know.โ€ He admitted, giggling. The two of you were so far gone, and neither of you had the capacity to realise it. โ€œBut I know people in relationships kiss! Kiss me Y/N!โ€
โ€œEw gross, you have cooties.โ€ You pushed away his pouted lips.
โ€œNo I donโ€™t! Iโ€™m vaccinated against cooties!โ€ He whined, pulling you closer to him.
โ€œWhat if I have cooties?โ€
โ€œJust kiss me!โ€
Jeonghan grabbed your face, guiding it to his own, where his lips met yours in a kiss. It was delicate, a kiss for the sake of kissing, and you relished in the feeling. There was a comfort to kissing Jeonghan, a comfort you hadnโ€™t felt for several years. He was comfort, and his kisses were a perfect specimen of that comfort. Kissing him was returning home after a winterโ€™s day.
But decisions were sobering, and the feeling of your lips against his suddenly drained all the alcohol from Jeonghanโ€™s body. He pulled away slowly to see you still half lidded, barely aware of your surroundings. He stole a glance at the clock on the wall, 2AM. Maybe the two of you should end the night here, before you did something you couldnโ€™t go back from.
โ€œTime to sleep, Y/N.โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t wanna.โ€ You shrugged him off. โ€œWanna kiss you more!โ€
Jeonghan chuckled. โ€œMe too. But we canโ€™t.โ€
As he tucked you into bed, you were already on the verge of passing out, but he was wide awake. Jeonghan found himself hoping the hangover would be a bad one, a distraction from the memories he knew would flood back. He didnโ€™t need to be reminded of how stupid he could be.
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Day 16 - Sunday 18th November
Your hangover wasnโ€™t as bad as last Saturday, but you still didnโ€™t feel like dealing with the pounding headache. This time, as you went to wash your face and drink water in the bathroom, there was no Jeonghan to hold your hair back and give you panadol. He wasnโ€™t in the kitchen causing a mess (cooking) either. No, your apartment was strangely quiet without his presence. As the pain in your head began to subside, you checked your phone to see a message sent three hours prior.
Hannie: work emergency - had to leave early. drink lots of water <3
Something felt so off about the message. Jeonghanโ€™s boss was fairly laidback, and he had never had work emergencies that made him go to the studio on weekends. But you were also way too hungover to question it.
You hoped Jeonghanโ€™s hangover had already passed.ย 
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Day 18 - Monday 20th November
You called Jeonghan twice. It went to voicemail both times.
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Day 19 - Wednesday 21st November
There was a flurry among the paralegals that day. You tried to ignore it, to keep your head down, but the amount of papers flapping in the air made you feel like there was a hoard of pigeons down the corridor. You hated the โ€˜open door unless in a meetingโ€™ policy at work: half of the lawyers your level didnโ€™t even follow the rule anyway. You wouldnโ€™t have followed it had you not wanted so desperately to show what a good team member you were, and yet here you were, on a Wednesday afternoon, with nothing to show you it.
There was an annoying rap against your open door, and you briefly lifted your head to see Cha Eunwoo leaning against your doorframe. Eugh. Cha Eunwoo. The two of you were in the same cohort: graduated from high school in the same year, graduated from uni at the same time, went to the same law school, and both went straight to Kim-Byun Legal Services, where youโ€™ve spent the entirety of your careers. And throughout law school and now work, you have wanted to beat Cha Eunwoo no matter the cost, and you never managed it.
โ€œCan I help you? Iโ€™ve got quite a bit of work to complete.โ€
Eunwoo waltzed right in, taking the seat in front of your desk. โ€œI have news, but you have to promise not to tell anyone.โ€
โ€œDo I even get a chance to say no? Not interested?โ€
Eunwoo was smart. You were smart too, but you liked to think (and Jeonghan liked to tell you) that you were smarter than most of those law students you competed against. Sure, they studied hard, they were good lawyers. But you were quick witted, and they couldnโ€™t keep up. Eunwoo could. If it were anyone else, you wouldnโ€™t be opposed to playing dirty, to pulling little tricks where you could to show him up, but Eunwoo would catch on. The only thing he didnโ€™t seem to notice was how desperate you were to beat him. He never realised the battle you constantly fought, and it killed you. So you had to work twice as hard, three times as much, and play by the rules, just to win a challenge where you were the only one competing.
โ€œI made partner!โ€
(At this point you stopped writing. This was the first time Eunwoo had ever managed to completely distract you.)
โ€œIโ€™m not supposed to tell anyone before Friday, thatโ€™s when theyโ€™re announcing it. But I get the new contract this evening, and you and I came in together, I know you would tell me if it was you!โ€
No shit you would. You would love to act all classy and poised, only to rub it in his face that you won! You did better! But no, Eunwoo won. Throughout everything, this was the first concrete time heโ€™s won, and itโ€™s shattered your reserve. Youโ€™re a good actor though, something that helped you get through this job, so you keep your head down.
โ€œThatโ€™s great Eunwoo, congratulations. Weโ€™ll celebrate properly next week, Iโ€™ve got a rehearsal dinner on Friday though.โ€ You met his gaze with a smile, even though there was rage behind it. Eunwoo didnโ€™t seem to notice. โ€œNow, Iโ€™ve got to get back to work.โ€
He nodded, barely containing his grin, shuffling out of your office. โ€œSee you later Y/N.โ€
God you wanted to cry. You wanted to yell and scream, cursing the world, the senior partners, and most of all Cha Eunwoo, who had showed you up once more.Your composure was slipping, a veil that threatened to fall off your head and reveal your facade to the world, but you refused to lose it at work. Instead, you closed the door as gently as you could, and hoped to god that the third time you called him, Jeonghan would pick up.
โ€œPlease, please, please pick upโ€ฆโ€ You whispered, as if you were summoning him.
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
Fuck. Voicemail. Once again.
You heard a beep and considered hanging up, but instead decided to send a message.
โ€œHey, um, I donโ€™t know if youโ€™re just busy, or youโ€™re mad at me, I really hope itโ€™s not the second. I havenโ€™t heard from you in a while. Thatโ€™s why Iโ€™m calling, I guess. Oh, and Iโ€™m not gonna be partner. I got passed over for it. Cha fucking Eunwoo made partner. Fuck. Sorry, Iโ€™m rambling now. I hope youโ€™re doing okay? You know you can always come to me, but if you donโ€™t want to thatโ€™s okay I guess, Iโ€™ll leave you be.โ€
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Day 19 (cont.)
When you went home that day to punch your pillows and scream about Cha Eunwoo, the last thing you expected was to see Yoon Jeonghan walk in with chicken and beer as if nothing had happened, which was especially strange, as it was so expected on a normal day. But something was off. Something had changed. You just couldnโ€™t quite put your thumb on what it was.ย 
โ€œAre you mad at me?โ€ You asked, your eyes more glassy than you realised. You could barely see Jeonghan, but you knew he had that stupid damn smile. Right now it was infuriating. โ€œIs that why you disappeared?โ€
โ€œNo, never.โ€ He told you, setting the chicken down on your dinner table. โ€œThings really have just been so busy at work, Iโ€™ve barely had time for anyone.โ€
โ€œBut you have time to drop by with chicken?โ€
โ€œCha Eunwoo is an idiot compared to you.โ€ Jeonghan told you, opening the can of beer with a hiss. โ€œThey missed out on not promoting you.โ€
You didnโ€™t say anything in response, just stuffing your mouth with chicken. Jeonghan passed you a beer can. โ€œMaybe I shouldnโ€™t. Iโ€™ve got work in the morning, and last time we drank I didnโ€™t remember anything after we started bitching about that one actor, Park Sunwoo.โ€
Jeonghan smiled at you, but you barely noticed, your expression trained on the can in front of you.
โ€œYeah, I donโ€™t remember either,โ€ He told you. โ€œBut one canโ€™t hurt. We drank way too much last time, Iโ€™ll keep you in check.โ€
You shrugged, opening the can, and clinking it against Jeonghanโ€™s. โ€œThanks boyfriend.โ€ The metal made a satisfying clank noise, and you missed the way Jeonghan looked over at you. Maybe itโ€™s changed, or maybe youโ€™ve been missing it for a long time.
Jeonghan is your blind spot. You didnโ€™t like surprises, you didnโ€™t like feeling caught out, and you would always make sure you werenโ€™t, until it came to Jeonghan. No matter how fast you ran, he always seemed to beat you by a few seconds. No matter how strong you were, he could always lift more. You and Jeonghan both had that same competitive drive, but you could never quite match him. As a teenager it pushed you to be better and better, but youโ€™ve come to accept it. Youโ€™ll never beat Jeonghan. Thatโ€™s why itโ€™s always better to be on his side.ย 
You were observant, but you let your guard down around him. That was how Jeonghan won. He never let his guard down around anyone. He didnโ€™t need to have it up around you, he didnโ€™t keep secrets from you (and you didnโ€™t keep them from him). But he kept everything close to his chest, and he wouldnโ€™t let himself get caught out at any moment.
You wondered if it was hard for him to never reveal himself fully. You knew he still kept to himself around you. It was the only way he could still play tricks, pull pranks, and he loved it. He wouldnโ€™t stay reserved if he didnโ€™t want to. Still, itโ€™s tough to feel like you can never fully reveal your facade.ย 
But there were moments he did. Like tonight, as he tucked you into bed once you fell asleep, and kissed your forehead with a sweetness he didnโ€™t know was there. Maybe he would reveal it to you one day, but all in good time.ย 
You didnโ€™t like feeling caught out. Jeonghan hated it with everything heโ€™s got.
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Day 21 - Friday 23rd November
โ€œHow are you feeling about seeing Jiwon?โ€ Jeonghan didnโ€™t answer, but the grip he had on your hand tightened as he stared down at the road.ย 
He and Jiwon were a bad match. He knew that, he knew that from the moment they met and she started talking about having a husband around at home to help with the kids one day. Jeonghan knew he could never be that. Sure, he had daydreamed about settling down, raising a family. Jeonghan could never be the husband Jiwon wanted him to be. Could never be the husband he wanted to become. But she was just so pretty, and she would stare down at him with a feverish grin that just made him weak in the knees, how could he say no to her?
So for three weeks, they went out, which for Jeonghan just meant promises of another day he never intended to keep so he could get back to her apartment. But she fully intended on keeping those promises, and soon she was the one setting up dates, and changing her name in his phone (which really freaked Jeonghan out, because, when did she have access to his phone?) to seem more like a girlfriend. Maybe Jeonghan wanted a girlfriend, but he definitely didnโ€™t want to be a boyfriend, and now he was stuck acting one.
Jiwon didnโ€™t believe him when he told her weeks later that they were incompatible. Why would she? She believed every lie that dripped from his lips, and couldnโ€™t wrap her head around why it suddenly changed overnight. She thought he was lying, just trying to keep her away, but a good girlfriend doesnโ€™t give up so easily.
And so began the midnight calls, the uninvited show ups to his workplace or his apartment (Seungcheol definitely had a fun time telling her off, not that it kept her away), and the letters slid under your door begging for your help getting Jeonghan back. This is what led to the whole thing. She seemed to calm down once Jeonghan posted you on his instagram, but neither of you could predict what she would do when she saw you together.ย 
She was Elizaโ€™s sister in law (Elizaโ€™s brotherโ€™s wifeโ€™s sister, who just had to attend), so her attendance was expected, and you knew it made Jeonghan all the more nervous, especially in the way he would speed round corners. It didnโ€™t frighten you, but worry for your friend escaped you anyway, and you squeezed his hand whenever the car revved.ย 
Jeonghan pulled into the street along Wonwooโ€™s house, seeing cars littered along the side, and Jeonghan pulled the car into park. You took his hand off the gear shift and brought it to your lips, kissing it comfortingly. โ€œEverythingโ€™s gonna be alright. I promise.โ€
โ€œYou promise?โ€ He took a glance at you, and smiled cheekily. โ€œWell what happens if you break the promise? What do I get?โ€
โ€œIโ€™ll cook you an actually decent brekkie to apologise, not those rubber pancakes youโ€™ve been serving me these past few weeks.โ€
โ€œHey! You love those pancakes!โ€
โ€œThe texture is so chewy and terrible Jeonghan, Iโ€™m begging you to just use a recipe.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t need one.โ€ He huffed, but he never let go of your hand.
You rolled your eyes at his dramatics. Honestly, he was right. You did love the pancakes. Of course, they were way too chewy and tasted of nothing without lashings of sugar and lemon, but you loved that Jeonghan had been making them for you all the past mornings you had spent together.ย 
โ€œCmon, itโ€™s time to head inside.โ€
The two of you walked hand in hand towards the door, and you could feel the deep breaths Jeonghan took to calm his pulsing heart. He really didnโ€™t want to cause a scene or do anything to ruin Wonwooโ€™s rehearsal dinner (or god forbid the actual wedding), but he felt so much more secure with your hand in his.
You werenโ€™t surprised to see Wonwooโ€™s place completely packed. He and Eliza were having a fairly small wedding, but with the sheer number of family members on Elizaโ€™s side, their starter apartment was bursting at the seams. You held onto Jeonghan as tightly as you could, and still you felt like he was slipping from your grasp.
โ€œY/N! Jeonghan!โ€ A familiar voice greeted you, and you turned to see Jun greet you. You hugged him gently as he started going on about seating plans (there wasnโ€™t much of a plan, with half of the guests eating off of paper plates on the floor, but Wonwoo had made sure to save his nice carpet for you and a few of his friends). โ€œDonโ€™t worry, the two of you are together, of course. Minghao stayed up all night setting up this seating chart.โ€ You scanned your eyes to see who was attending, and saw most of your friends, minus one.ย 
โ€œIs Joshua here?โ€ You cut Jun off with a worried look. โ€œHe was acting really weird last Saturday.โ€
โ€œYeah, heโ€™s helping out in the kitchen.โ€ Jun told you, pointing down past the archway to where there was (hopefully steam) pouring out. โ€œHe seemed fine to me though, heโ€™s probably over whatever it was. Oh! Mingyuโ€™s just arrived. Heโ€™s so late, that goddamn best man should have been here an hour ago! Got to run.โ€
Jun rushed past you, leaving Jeonghan and you hand in hand in the entryway. Jeonghan turned to look at you. โ€œIs this a I want to see Joshua and flaunt our thriving and perfect relationship at him so he gets jealous?โ€
You pushed his shoulder. โ€œNo. Itโ€™s an I think I should be avoiding him thing. Iโ€™m still a little shocked by what he told me.โ€
Jeonghan smiled down at you. โ€œGood luck avoiding him when weโ€™re sitting with him at dinner.โ€
โ€œWhat?โ€
โ€œYeah, you really have to pay more attention to Junโ€™s rambles. They often contain useful information.โ€
You groaned, leaning your head against his arm. He smiled, leading you towards the carpet, where Seokmin and Seungkwan were already seated. You waved a hello towards them, not wanting to remove yourself from Jeonghanโ€™s side.
โ€œGod these two are way too cute together.โ€ Seokmin spoke, nudging Jeonghanโ€™s side.ย 
You blushed, hiding your face as much as you could. Jeonghan was almost shocked at your display, you were far too good at playing the doting S/O, but it was working. He watched the way Joshua stared at you from the kitchen doorway. He knew without a doubt from the way Joshua looked over at you how jealous he was. That was what he wanted, right?
After a few minutes of small talk, Joshua eventually sat down next to you (even though there was a free space between to Jeonghan and Seokmin, which Jihoon ended up filling, with his husband settling in next to him) and the rehearsal dinner began. Luckily, with Minghao as wedding planner, there was never a free moment for Joshua to steal your attention. Jeonghan wasnโ€™t sure if you or him was more glad about the fact, but he kept an arm around you at all times, separating your shoulder from Joshuaโ€™s.ย 
As the dinner went on, with less formality and more people moving around the space to congratulate the future couple and catch up with old friends, your โ€˜tableโ€™ settled into a comfortable talk. Jun was right, Joshua seemed fine, which only made Jeonghan feel more uneasy. It helped settle your nerves though, and Jeonghan realised your grip on his side had loosened, and you were leaning towards Joshua ever so slightly. No one else at the table would realise, but Jeonghan knew, and he was sure Joshua did too.
โ€œHonestly Iโ€™m still surprised Jeonghan actually had the guts to ask Y/N out.โ€ Seokmin said offhandedly, and you looked up at Jeonghan with a cute grin. You were so good at playing the role, but why didnโ€™t it feel like a role anymore? Jeonghan must be losing his touch if he was falling for your act.ย 
Joshua took a sip of his wine, smiling as he spoke. โ€œWe all thought you two would never get a date before you realised you liked each other. Good thing you finally manned up to it, Jeonghan.โ€
Your gaze suddenly snapped towards the crowd. โ€œWhy does everyone always assume Jeonghan asked me out?โ€ Jeonghan tensed, and everyone surrounding you looked away from your inquisitive gaze. Joshua opened his mouth to speak, but he was cut off by Jiwonโ€™s commanding presence.ย 
She was so short and petite, keeping to herself, but she walked with such a force that commanded attention. Her eyes were trained not on Jeonghan, but instead focused closely on you.ย 
โ€œAnd who did ask who out?โ€ She asked sweetly, but you felt your tongue go numb under her gaze.ย 
Jeonghan held you closer to his side, and you settled into him with comfort. โ€œWe kissed, and both decided to go for it. It was mutual.โ€
She hummed, still staring at you. โ€œWell. Iโ€™m happy for you two.โ€ And with that, she turned on the ball of her foot, walking away like nothing happened. You let out a shaky breath, and felt Jeonghan do the same. As Seungkwan and Seokmin started hissing gossip about Jiwon, you reached out for Jeonghanโ€™s hand, relishing in the comfort of his touch.ย 
โ€œGod sheโ€™s terrifying.โ€ You told him in a whisper. โ€œAt least itโ€™s over.โ€
He grinned at you. โ€œDamn, I was looking forward to your breakfast in bed special.โ€
โ€œYou think Iโ€™m serving you in my bed? You would spill it everywhere, no way am I cleaning up that mess.โ€
โ€œYou wound me, babe.โ€
Jeonghan knew Joshua was staring, maybe thatโ€™s why when the urge to kiss you overcame him, he took it, placing a kiss on your cheek, as close to your lips as he could get. You let him, only to wonder why well and truly after.
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Day 22 - Saturday 24th November
You were awoken by the now familiar smell of Jeonghanโ€™s rubber chicken pancakes, and you followed the smell out to the kitchen.
โ€œHow do you always manage to wake up before me?โ€
โ€œYou always sleep in way too late.โ€ He told you, flipping a pancake onto your plate and pushing it towards you. โ€œLast day!โ€
โ€œHuh?โ€
โ€œItโ€™s the wedding today. After today, we will no longer be officially dating.โ€
โ€œOh, right.โ€
You didnโ€™t realise how quickly three weeks could pass. There was a strange sense of dread that passed through your system, although you blamed the pancakes. It felt weird that after everything, tomorrow all would be as it was before, as if this whole ordeal never happened.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re gonna have to stage a breakup, of course.โ€ Jeonghan told you, still flipping pancakes. โ€œBut we can plan that out tomorrow. In the meantime eat up! Weโ€™ll have to leave in an hour.โ€
You nodded along, feeling too tired to speak so early in the morning (10:30). Jeonghan sat down next to you, shovelling down pancakes as quickly as he could (how he managed to chew through those was a mystery to you) before excusing himself to your bathroom while you continued eating. God, why were these so salty today? Jeonghanโ€™s latest prank, you suspected, but you didnโ€™t have the strength to confront him, especially once you heard the splash of the shower turning on. You began cleaning dishes, not waiting for Jeonghan to finish showering before you stole the hot water, and giggled as you heard his shrieks. Hopefully the wedding would give you a little bit more energy.
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Day 22 (cont.)
You and Jeonghan arrived at the warehouse at 11:40. You still had a few minutes before the ceremony would begin, and knowing how these things tended to go, you knew you had plenty of time. You walked hand in hand with Jeonghan, and tried not to think about how this was the last time you would be able to as you settled into a pew. Soon after, Joshua sat down next to you, clearly dateless. He didnโ€™t say anything, and aside from a nod of recognition, you didnโ€™t say anything to him either, instead choosing to rest your head on Jeonghanโ€™s shoulder.ย 
Silence is comforting, whenever itโ€™s done right. With you and Jeonghan, silence never felt awkward, it was just a frame of being with him. It was relaxed, you felt no need to fill the air with meaningless speak. Your silence was interrupted as Seungcheol ran up to Jeonghan.
โ€œHan, we need your help. Wonwoo canโ€™t find his cufflinks, heโ€™s dropped them somewhere, and it is freaking Mingyu out, please come look.โ€
Jeonghan looked at you, but you smiled. โ€œGo help them. Iโ€™ll be right here.โ€ He hurriedly followed Seungcheol to Wonwooโ€™s dressing room, cursing him under his breath.
You were left alone with Joshua, and the silence suddenly felt suffocating. It didnโ€™t seem to bother him, as he spoke quietly about the venue. โ€œIsnโ€™t it all so gorgeous? Minghao really did a great job pulling this off.โ€
You hummed, leaning over to point out the fairy lights strung along the ceiling. โ€œSee those? That was all me.โ€
โ€œAhh, I was wondering. Theyโ€™re my favourite.โ€
You smiled, and Joshua turned to face you properly. โ€œIโ€™m sorry about what I said, Y/N. I didnโ€™t mean to scare you. I think I was just jealous.โ€
Your eyes widened. You felt strangely off guard. โ€œJealous?โ€
โ€œYeah. I just broke things off with Heejin, and then having not dated anyone seriously in, I think ever, Jeonghan suddenly lands a great person like you.โ€ He admitted shyly, squeezing your shoulder with his hand.ย 
โ€œI landed him, too.โ€ You reminded him, but you could barely process what you were saying as you realised he hadnโ€™t moved his hand.ย 
โ€œOf course. You two are good together.โ€ He told you, and you smiled.
โ€œWe are.โ€
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Day 22 (cont.)
The pop of a champagne bottle was one you couldnโ€™t miss. As you entered the reception hall, your eyes gravitated towards the bar, and you pulled Jeonghan along with you.ย 
โ€œI canโ€™t believe how many of our friends are married now.โ€ You told Jeonghan as you waited for the bartender to return with your drinks (or water, in Jeonghanโ€™s case. He was determined to stick to his word until the very end). โ€œFirst Seungcheol, then Soonyoung - who even saw that one coming - then Jihoon and now Wonwoo.โ€
โ€œWeโ€™re getting into that phase of our lives.โ€ He shrugged. โ€œMakes sense to me.โ€
โ€œYeah but what about you and me? Weโ€™ve never even properly dated.โ€ You pouted. โ€œWhat happens when they all leave us?โ€
โ€œThen weโ€™ll have each other.โ€ He told you. โ€œHave you already started drinking? The receptionโ€™s only just begun.โ€
You grinned sheepishly. โ€œWe got here late! Anyway, itโ€™s been such a hellish few weeks! Let me have this.โ€ The bartender approached you with a shot glass that you quickly downed, and you pulled Jeonghan to your assigned seats (next to each other, of course). You were greeted by the same table as the night before, and you waved to Seokmin and Jihoon who sat opposite you.ย 
โ€œWhereโ€™s Joshua?โ€ You asked, and giggled when Seungkwan pointed towards the flailing figure on the dance floor.ย 
โ€œHeโ€™s already drunk and living his best life.โ€
โ€œGood for him!โ€
At the mention of his name, Joshua stumbled over, grabbing your hands in an attempt to pull you to the dance floor with him. You looked over at Jeonghan, your boyfriend for only a few more hours, but he waved you off. โ€œGo enjoy yourself.โ€
You grinned, letting Joshua lead you. Jeonghan smiled as he watched you, his chest tugging with a strange feeling.ย 
โ€œWhyโ€™d you let him take Y/N?โ€ Jihoon asked. โ€œYou know he likes them.โ€
The tugging in his chest felt stronger, but Jeonghan ignored it. โ€œAs long as theyโ€™re having fun.โ€
It doesnโ€™t matter anyway. They like him too.
Seokmin and Seungkwan eventually joined them, and Jihoon and his husband went dancing as well. Jeonghan instead placed his attention on his phone, flipping through all the stories of Wonwooโ€™s wedding venue he had been tagged in. There was one, posted by Soonyoung, that he couldnโ€™t seem to tear his eyes from. You were in the corner, next to Jeonghan, and there was something so sweet about the way you stared at him. It was dangerous, convincing him of something that wasnโ€™t real.ย 
โ€œHey Jeongie.โ€
Jeonghan looked up to see Jiwon, sat in the seat that once belonged to you. She had that same cat like gaze that made him fall for her initially, but now he felt nothing. He really was bad at committing, he couldnโ€™t even commit to finding Jiwon attractive.
โ€œHi Jiwon. What are you doing here?โ€
She cooed, running her hand up and down his arm, much to Jeonghanโ€™s discomfort. He looked away, breaking the eye contact she was trying to keep.ย 
โ€œDid you leave me for Y/N?โ€ She asked, tutting under her breath. โ€œI remember everything you told me, how theyโ€™ve never really dated. Theyโ€™re not partner material, Jeongie, I am.โ€
โ€œI didnโ€™t leave you for Y/N,โ€ He began, a shiver trailing up his spine. โ€œWe ended it because I didnโ€™t want to date you any more. Y/N came after that.โ€
Jiwon leaned close, her lips barely separate from Jeonghanโ€™s ear, and he couldnโ€™t lean any further back in his chair. โ€œMaybe not for long. They donโ€™t seem to like the way weโ€™re talking.โ€
Jeonghan tore Jiwonโ€™s hand from his arm, looking to the dance floor to see tears close to spilling out of your eyes. When you met his gaze, you ran away, not willing to let him see you like this. Why did it feel this way? Joshua glared at Jeonghan, and quickly followed you as you ran down the corridor.ย 
โ€œJiwon just stop!โ€ Jeonghan raised his voice, cringing at the volume (and the heads that turned towards the commotion). โ€œItโ€™s over, just leave me alone, please.โ€
He ignored her whimpered sobs as he got out of his seat and scrambled to find you, but the sounds of Jiwon crying made him feel awful. He didnโ€™t exactly handle their relationship well, and he wasnโ€™t handling what was left of yours well either.ย 
As he ran to find you, his heard lurched when he heard your own voice muffled by cries.
โ€œItโ€™s s-so dumbโ€ฆโ€
โ€œClearly he was just trying to make her jealous, Y/N.โ€ What was Joshua telling you?ย 
โ€œHe wasnโ€™t doing that.โ€
โ€œYou donโ€™t deserve someone who will use you.โ€
Jeonghan couldnโ€™t deny the guilt those words caused on his poor heart. Sure, you knew what was happening, but he was still using you, wasnโ€™t he? It was his idea to start this whole fake dating thing.
โ€œI wouldnโ€™t use you like that.โ€
โ€œJoshโ€ฆโ€
Just as he had caught up to the sound of your voice, Jeonghan caught a glimpse of you in Joshuaโ€™s embrace, with his lips on yours. And his aching heart shattered.
You pulled away from Joshua to see Jeonghanโ€™s forlorn expression, a sight you donโ€™t think you had ever seen before.ย 
โ€œHannie, I promise, itโ€™s not what it-โ€œ
โ€œLooks like? What a cliche Y/N.โ€ He scoffed, moving away from you.
โ€œHey man, I kissed them.โ€ Joshua spoke, dropping a protective arm over you, one that weighed you down and you wriggled out of quickly. โ€œBesides, serves you right for using Y/N to make Jiwon jealous.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re so fucking stupid Joshua.โ€ Jeonghan spat. โ€œThey were using me to make you jealous, looks like it worked, huh?โ€
โ€œNo, Jeonghan, wait-โ€œ
โ€œDealโ€™s off, Y/N. Weโ€™re no longer dating.โ€
And he ran. And no matter how fast you ran too, you knew you wouldnโ€™t be able to catch up to him.
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Day 23 - Sunday 25th November
You woke up on Wonwooโ€™s couch with a massive headache and chest pain, although you knew only one of those was due to your hangover. He and Eliza ended up taking you home, luckily they werenโ€™t going on their honeymoon for another week. Wonwoo was rubbing your back as you vomited, and the worst pain was knowing that it would never be Jeonghan doing this role anymore.
โ€œI still donโ€™t get it.โ€ He admitted. โ€œAlthough most of these weeks have been a blur for me.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m not really supposed to tell you.โ€ You told him, sipping the glass of water in your hands. โ€œWe made these rules.โ€
โ€œTell me anyway, because no matter what it is itโ€™s not worth losing him forever.โ€
You sighed, and settled against the tiled floor. โ€œItโ€™s a long story.โ€
โ€œItโ€™s a Sunday. Quit stalling and tell me what happened.โ€
โ€œFine fine!โ€ You gasped, shoving Wonwoo slightly. โ€œSo pushy.โ€
โ€œYou know how Jiwon wouldnโ€™t leave Jeonghan alone?โ€ Wonwoo nodded along with your story. โ€œWell, we knew she would be at the wedding, and Jeonghan really wanted her to take the hint that he wasnโ€™t interested, so we decided to date. Well, fake date. Just to get her off his back.โ€
โ€œAnd you agreed to this?โ€
โ€œI didnโ€™t really want to? Butโ€ฆโ€
โ€œYou were in love with Joshua.โ€ You stared at Wonwoo in shock. He smiled back at you. โ€œYouโ€™re not as difficult to read as you like to think you are. Maybe the other idiots we call friends canโ€™t see it, but it was fairly obvious to me.โ€
โ€œBut you didnโ€™t realise Jeonghan and I werenโ€™t actually together?โ€
โ€œJust continue the story already.โ€
โ€œWell yeah. Jeonghan convinced me we could make Joshua jealous, so I agreed. We said we wouldnโ€™t tell anyone, and we would post about it online so everyone believed it was real, and then once Jiwon backed off at the wedding, we would call it off.โ€ You recalled the story, rubbing your head as the pain settled and you felt like your skull was cracking open. โ€œGod do you have any painkillers?โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t really get hangovers.โ€
โ€œYou lucky bitch.โ€
โ€œWhat happened at the reception, Y/N?โ€
You cringed at the flood of memories. Most of the time when you got drunk and made bad decisions, your brain saved you the embarrassment of remembering everything. This time, you couldnโ€™t escape the images. Of Jiwon and Jeonghan, of the way Jeonghan looked at you, the way he ran away from you.ย 
โ€œJoshua and I were dancing, and when I looked back I saw Jiwon flirting with Jeonghan.โ€ You gulped, feeling an all too familiar lump in your throat. โ€œAnd I ran off.โ€
โ€œWhyโ€™d you run?โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t know. And then Joshua kissed me, and I thought it would be perfect, but it felt wrong.โ€
โ€œWhy?โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t know! And then Jeonghan saw, and I donโ€™t know why but he was so upset, and then he left. He left me, Wonwoo.โ€
โ€œYou really donโ€™t know why he was upset?โ€ Wonwoo questioned, and you met his gaze with a confused expression. โ€œEven after all this time, Jeonghan can still surprise you, wow.โ€
โ€œWhat do you know?โ€
โ€œI know that just like you, Jeonghan is not as difficult to read as he thinks he is.โ€ Wonwoo told you, stroking your hair. โ€œNine years ago, at 2:30 in the morning, I got a call from Jeonghan, who was so excited because he finally got the nerve to kiss you, and he went for it. And then the next day, nothing. And you two continued this dance around never going out, even when everyone could see how much you liked each other.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s not true, I donโ€™t like Jeonghan.โ€
โ€œThen why is Jiwon bothering you? Why did you even agree to this whole thing? There are easier ways to get close to Joshua that donโ€™t involve pretending to date your best friend.โ€
โ€œIโ€ฆโ€ For once, you didnโ€™t have anything to say.
โ€œYou do know, Y/N. You have to stop acting so blind when it comes to Jeonghan. All the signs are there, you just donโ€™t want to address them.โ€
He offered you his hand, pulling you up off of the bathroom floor. โ€œWant to know why we all thought Jeonghan asked you out? Itโ€™s because we all knew he likes you. Itโ€™s actually pretty obvious.โ€
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Day 24 - Monday 26th November
There was a knocking at your door. This wasnโ€™t like Jeonghanโ€™s courtesy knocks before he let himself into your house, this was a gentle knock that barely reverberated through the room.ย 
You walked up to let Joshua into your house. He was shocked to see you like this - tear stricken cheeks, eyes and nose red and running.ย 
โ€œYou lookโ€ฆโ€
โ€œShit, I know.โ€ You finished for him. โ€œWhat do you want, Joshua?โ€
โ€œI wanted to apologise.โ€ He looked over your shoulder expectantly.
โ€œFine, come in, but you canโ€™t come any further than the entryway. I just donโ€™t want everyone to be spectators of this.โ€
Joshua followed you in, shuffling awkwardly. He acted as if he had never been in your apartment before. You werenโ€™t entirely sure he had been. You let him shut the door gently behind him, and you leaned against the wall, blocking him from moving any closer in.ย 
โ€œI shouldnโ€™t have kissed you while you were dating Jeonghan. Iโ€™m sorry.โ€
You clicked your tongue, not moving position. โ€œYeah, that was messed up. Youโ€™re Jeonghanโ€™s friend. Youโ€™re my friend. I felt like you were just fighting over me to compete with him.โ€
โ€œY/N, thatโ€™s not true.โ€ He reached his hand out to caress your arm, but you pulled it back.ย 
โ€œWhatโ€™s even been going on with you?โ€ You asked. โ€œIโ€™ve barely seen you since your breakup, none of us have, and you were a total dick the whole time Jeonghan and I were dating.โ€
Joshua scoffed, and you gasped at his attitude. โ€œYeah well you guys werenโ€™t actually together though, right?โ€
โ€œThat doesnโ€™t matter.โ€
โ€œYes it does!โ€ He raised his voice as he began to yell. โ€œWhy are you upset? Itโ€™s not like you were cheating or anything, it wasnโ€™t real.โ€
โ€œAre you kidding? You didnโ€™t know we werenโ€™t actually together! Whatโ€™s your excuse?โ€
โ€œMy excuse is that according to Jeonghan, the only reason you were even pretending to date was to make me jealous, and now youโ€™re upset that it worked? Iโ€™m jealous. Iโ€™m jealous that Jeonghan got to go out with you and play the part of boyfriend, even if it was fake.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s not the reason.โ€
โ€œOh, so you didnโ€™t want to make me jealous?โ€
He was staring at you with an intensity you hadnโ€™t seen since law school, and it reminded you of the Joshua you once knew. The Joshua you fell for. And as you met his gaze, you realised all your feelings for him were gone. Every desire for him to fall for you like you had fallen for him had dissipated, because you werenโ€™t sure you had ever fallen for him. You loved his drive, maybe that was all you loved.ย 
โ€œI did.โ€
โ€œSo what changed?โ€
โ€œWhat do you think, Josh?โ€
He scoffed, dropping his gaze to the floor. โ€œOf course. Of course I canโ€™t beat him.โ€
โ€œJoshuaโ€ฆโ€
โ€œNo, just,โ€ He sighed, shuffling away from you. โ€œWhy do you always choose him?โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t, but Iโ€™m choosing him now.โ€ You told him, And you were. After twenty two days with Jeonghan, Joshua didnโ€™t feel as important to you anymore.ย 
Joshua turned to leave your apartment. โ€œJosh.โ€ He looked at you, and you met his gaze for the last time. โ€œYou should have kissed me all the years I was pining after you, not once I wasnโ€™t an option anymore. Maybe it would have been different.โ€
He left without another word, and your door shut so gently as he left.ย 
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Day 25 - Tuesday 27th November
You hadnโ€™t been blocked. You could still see the messages, you knew he was reading them, he just wouldnโ€™t respond. He wasnโ€™t picking up either.
โ€œCmon Jeonghanโ€ฆโ€ You whispered under your breath. โ€œPlease just pick up.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
You groaned at the now too familiar sound of his voicemail. Was he ever going to talk to you again?
Okay, it was kind of your fault. Had it been anyone else, this would have felt so obvious, but you were so oblivious when it came to Jeonghan, and now here you were, pining for your best friend, hoping he would finally return.ย 
โ€œHey Han,โ€ You started talking, but you had no idea what to say. The only thoughts running through your mind were please just come back to me, but you werenโ€™t sure how to say that without bursting into tears. โ€œI, uh, I really want to talk to you, please. I miss you.โ€
You hung up, only to find your fingers reaching for the contact once more.
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œHi again. I want you to know that, umm, I spoke to Wonwoo. He called me an idiot, basically.โ€ You chuckled as you recounted that morning, although you knew Jeonghan probably wouldnโ€™t be laughing as he listened. If he listened. If you two werenโ€™tโ€ฆ wherever this had led you, you know he would probably laugh at that, but he wasnโ€™t here anymore. โ€œI didnโ€™t know. I should have known, but I didnโ€™t, and I just really want to talk to you. Please.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œHey, um, I didnโ€™t like the kiss. The one with Joshua. I think I did kiss him back? But I didnโ€™t like it. I would choose our posed cafe kiss so much sooner than the one he gave me. I donโ€™t even want it. Please talk to me.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œIt was so stupid of me to be jealous of Jiwon. I know you donโ€™t like her, I just, I was so drunk and stressed out, I freaked out. It was so so stupid, and Iโ€™m sorry, but I hope you know that it was jealousy because I wanted to be in her place. God, this is so embarrassing.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI donโ€™t think I like Joshua? I know, drastic turn. I think I just looked up to him, growing up. Heโ€™s always been so out of reach and ahead of everyone else, I think I mistook it for love when it wasnโ€™t. I donโ€™t love him.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI know I fucked up. Well, Joshua fucked up most of all, but I shouldnโ€™t have run off like that. But you ran too. You didnโ€™t let me explain. And last week, you disappeared. I know you said you were busy but it felt like you were running from me? And I fucked up because I ran, so youโ€™re no better than me.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œPlease ignore what I just said. Iโ€™m not upset with you. Well, actually, I am. I think Iโ€™m mostly upset with myself? Or mostly upset with Joshua? But Iโ€™m still a little upset with you. Please can we just talk?โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œIโ€™ll leave you alone after this one, I promise. I justโ€ฆ I miss you. And I think I need an explanation, because Iโ€™ve been clueless about this for way too long.โ€
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI love you. In every sense of the word.โ€
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Day 26 - Wednesday 28th November
You felt so strange in front of Jeonghanโ€™s door. Although he spent so much time with you in your house, very rarely would you visit him in his. You and him would always blame his roommate, but truthfully you knew it wasnโ€™t that. Even though Vernon wasnโ€™t the tidiest or most respectful of privacy, you were happy when he was around. No, Jeonghanโ€™s house was a barrier between the two of you, a final wall he had placed to protect himself. And now you were destroying the that sanctity.ย 
You almost felt bad, but you were so desperate for him to talk to you again. Sure, the two of you had arguments, but nothing like this, and you werenโ€™t sure that without drastic measures, you would ever even see Jeonghan again. So here you were, your knuckles rapt against Jeonghanโ€™s door, waiting to see him.
The door swung open, but Jeonghan wasnโ€™t there. Instead stood Vernon, who looked like he had only rolled out of bed at the sound of your knocking. Honestly, had it been true, it wouldnโ€™t have surprised you, despite it being 8:30 in the evening. You had no idea what this boyโ€™s schedule was, if he even followed a set one.
โ€œOh, hey Vernon.โ€
โ€œHey Y/N.โ€™
You shuffled on your feet. You and Vernon were friends - you practically grew up together, why did this feel so awkward?
โ€œCool party, by the way.โ€ He cocked his head in confusion. โ€œSofiaโ€™s party! Two weeks ago, I know you helped her set it up. It was fun, from what I remember, Jeonghan dragged me along to it and I got very drunk very quickly.โ€ Okay, you were rambling now. That helped. โ€œSpeaking of, is he here?โ€
โ€œHe?โ€
โ€œJeonghan? Is he home?โ€
โ€œNah, heโ€™s um..โ€ Vernon trailed off, and you cringed. Clearly he had told Vernon to ward you away. โ€œHeโ€™s staying back late at work. Do you, do you want me to tell him you were here?โ€
You sighed, feeling your shoulders slump. โ€œDonโ€™t bother. Have a good evening, Hansol.โ€
โ€œSee you around Y/N.โ€
Vernon let the door shut in front of him, He hated lying, and unlike his roommate, he was absolutely terrible at it.ย 
โ€œIf Y/N comes, just tell her Iโ€™m out.โ€
Jeonghan wouldnโ€™t talk to Vernon. He barely spoke to Seungcheol, who was dropping by every night to check up on his friend. He hadnโ€™t seen him for more than a few minutes every day as he left for work and stumbled back home afterwards. All Vernon could hope for was that you solved your issues with him soon. A grumpy Jeonghan was a nightmare, a heartbroken Jeonghan was a ghost.ย 
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Day 27 - Thursday 29th November
Eunwooโ€™s office had been mostly empty for a few days now, but today he picked up the last two boxes to take to his new office, a floor above. Instead of seeing his smug face across from your office door, all you saw was a clean desk, no files or loose papers across the surface like there had been before. It felt like a cruel reminder of what you were so close to gaining. Partnership. Jeonghan. You couldnโ€™t tell which was making you more depressed currently.ย 
You barely noticed when Eunchae walked up to your office, knocking gently against your open door. โ€œYou alright, Y/N?โ€
โ€œHmm? Yeah Iโ€™m fine Eunchae. Can I help you with anything?โ€ You spoke, not lifting your head to meet her gaze. You didnโ€™t want her to see the bags that had formed under your puffy eyes. Itโ€™s hard to fall asleep these days.
โ€œI just wanted to say you should have been the next junior partner, not Eunwoo.โ€ She barely whispered, and you understood why. The office behind her was practically haunted by Eunwooโ€™s cheery spirit. โ€œHeโ€™s a good lawyer, but he barely pays attention to us and the newer lawyers. You take good care of us.โ€
You smiled at her words. โ€œThanks Eunchae.โ€
She walked in, letting the door close behind her. You had given up all pretence of following the dumb rules like commandments, and Eunchae caught on quick. โ€œThatโ€™s why youโ€™ve been so sad this week, right?โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s.. half of it. How have you noticed?โ€
She shrugged. โ€œIโ€™m smarter than they are. Whatโ€™s the other half?โ€
โ€œBoy troubles, I guess.โ€
She leaned in. โ€œIs this about your boyfriend? The one you posted on insta?โ€ You nodded, and she smiled, pleased with her detective skills. โ€œWhat happened?โ€
โ€œHe didnโ€™t tell me he liked me until too late, and now Iโ€™m realising that I like him too, but he wonโ€™t talk to me.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, why doesnโ€™t your boyfriend already know you like him?โ€
โ€œItโ€™s a long story.โ€
โ€œOkay..โ€ She trailed off. โ€œHave you told him how you really feel?โ€
โ€œYeah, but he wonโ€™t talk to me anyway.โ€ย 
โ€œTell him again.โ€ She advised. โ€œPeople are stupid, they donโ€™t believe whatโ€™s right in front of him. What have you got to lose, anyway?โ€
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Day 27 (cont.)
โ€œHey, this is Jeonghan. I canโ€™t come to the phone right nowโ€ฆโ€
โ€œI donโ€™t want to fill your inbox, so I swear, if you donโ€™t respond to this, Iโ€™ll leave you alone forever. But god Iโ€™m going to miss you if you leave. Youโ€™re such a heartbreaker, Hannie, youโ€™re about to break mine. Iโ€™m in love with you. Iโ€™m sorry it took me so long to see it. Please just, let me know if you feel the same, or if everyone was wrong. I guess if I donโ€™t hear from you again Iโ€™ve gotten my answer. I.. Goodnight, Jeonghan.โ€
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Day 28 - Friday 30th November
You hadnโ€™t heard anything from Jeonghan. All night, you stayed up, staring at your phone, hoping it would light up with a call, a text, anything. God, you would even settle for a subtweet, but nothing. When 5AM hit and the light of dawn peered in through your blinds you had given up. Jeonghan wanted nothing to do with you.ย 
You called in sick to work. It wasnโ€™t difficult, crying will make you sound all stuffy and blocked. You hoped the sniffles that slipped from your lips werenโ€™t understood as what they truly were: forming scars. Whatever, it gave you an excuse to stay in bed all day.
You kept your promise, not to bother Jeonghan again, but couldnโ€™t find it in yourself to delete conversations or photos. Your heart was shattered, and the pieces were lost deep in the text messages he sent, you couldnโ€™t delete them so easily.ย 
You made one phone call, to Wonwoo, when you woke again at 5PM.
โ€œHe hates me, Woo. I think I lost him forever.โ€
โ€œIf thatโ€™s really the case then heโ€™s an idiot. Just like you.โ€
You felt no desire to reach out to anyone else, or let anyone know you were alive. You didnโ€™t feel alive. All you wanted was to sink into your mattress and hide from the world. The blankets covering your face would have to do in the meantime. It was a weak shield, but you were hidden all the same, and thatโ€™s all you needed.
Someone came to check on you earlier, or perhaps it was just your neighbour. You heard the knocks, but pretended no one was home. They left quickly. You felt so forgettable, so discarded. What a pathetic existence.
9:21 PM flashed across your phone screen, but you didnโ€™t seem to notice it. It was silenced on your kitchen counter, far away from you, because you knew if you kept it nearby you would do something stupid. And you were careful. You needed to be even more careful than before, now that you were nursing a broken heart.ย 
When the knocks on your door sounded you hid even further away. They would go away, they all did. And the knocks did subside, replaced instead by the clink of keys. Fuck, was it your landlord? What was he doing here? The door opened, and you pulled the sheets tight over your head. Hopefully he would just leave.
You heard footsteps slowly lead to your room. Fuck, was this a home invasion? Maybe you should be more scared, but you couldnโ€™t find it in you to do anything but stay in a frozen position. Your bedroom door creaked open, and you felt your heartbeat in your eyes.
This was it. You were going to die, and you couldnโ€™t even see Jeonghan one last time before some stranger took you out in your own home. Well, the apartment you had rentedย  for years. God, you were almost thirty, and you were about to die alone in a starter apartment you never bothered to leave. Why was this world so cruel?
โ€œY/N.โ€
Fuck. It wasnโ€™t your landlord. It was Jeonghan. Somehow, when being confronted with the person youโ€™ve been trying to reach for days, your confidence disappears.
โ€œI know youโ€™re not sleeping, Y/N.โ€
Maybe if you didnโ€™t respond he would go away? Did you even want him to? Why werenโ€™t you doing anything?
โ€œI saw you left your phone in the kitchen. Youโ€™ve got a voicemail, by the way. Itโ€™s from an hour ago. Iโ€™m gonna play it for you, okay?โ€
โ€œHey Y/N. Itโ€™s me, obviously. I um, youโ€™re right. I shouldnโ€™t have run away. I was being a coward. Iโ€™ve been a coward the entire time weโ€™ve been friends, because I donโ€™t know when, but at some point I feel so hopelessly in love with you and Iโ€™ve been hiding it this entire time. Fuck, I really need to see you. Can I come over?โ€
Your protective sheets were pulled from your head, and you were met with the sight of Jeonghan, whoโ€™s eyes were as puffy as your own. He smiled down at you.
โ€œYou look like shit.โ€
โ€œSo do you.โ€
โ€œYeah, well, I was heartbroken.โ€ Jeonghan grinned as he spoke. God, he was so beautiful. โ€œI thought my best friend who Iโ€™ve loved for years didnโ€™t love me back.โ€
You sat up, reaching for Jeonghanโ€™s hand, which he gladly gave you. โ€œWhy didnโ€™t you ever tell me before now?โ€
โ€œHad to protect my fragile heart.โ€ He told you, locking into your eyes. You were frozen in place once more. You had never once thought of Jeonghan as fragile, yet here he was, baring his soul to you, like a glass canary had been placed in your hands. โ€œI was so content to just hide it all my life, watch as you fall deeper in love with Joshua, and then I discovered I really loved being your fake boyfriend. I never thought I would enjoy being a boyfriend, but something about being with you makes it so easy.โ€
All the walls you swore you would put up had been torn down by Jeonghan before you could even begin construction.
โ€œBesides, what exactly was I supposed to think when you hated our first kiss?โ€
You gasped. โ€œI didnโ€™t hate it! We both agreed it felt weird the next morning.โ€
โ€œSure, I definitely thought that, and wasnโ€™t just agreeing with you to save myself the embarrassment of rejection.โ€
You cringed as you thought of that fateful day. โ€œI donโ€™t know Hannie, when I woke up that morning things felt as if they had changed, and it scared me.โ€ You blushed, feeling regretful of your naivety. โ€œI was so scared of things changing for the worse I never considered that they could get better.โ€
Jeonghanโ€™s hand met your jaw, pulling you towards him with such a sense of nostalgia. โ€œWhat about now? Are you still scared?โ€
โ€œA little.โ€ You whispered. You didnโ€™t need to say it any louder, you knew he could hear you. โ€œBut I donโ€™t want my fears to hold me back any more.โ€
โ€œOh yeah? Show me.โ€
You rolled your eyes at Jeonghan, before doing exactly that, and capturing his lips with your own. No fireworks, no eruptions. Kissing him was the comfort you had craved for years. Jeonghan was your home.
You pulled away from him, letting your eyes flutter open. โ€œThat count as proof?โ€
He hummed. โ€œI donโ€™t know, why donโ€™t you show me again?โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re such a loser, Yoon.โ€ You teased, but did exactly as he wanted.
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Day 1 (of forever to come) - Saturday 1st December
This past month had no shortage of you waking with Jeonghan in your apartment, but this was the first time you had woken up beside him, arms tangled together. Your phone was buzzing incessantly under your pillow, and who thought it was a good idea to interrupt your sleep so early in the morning?
Oh, Wonwoo. You should probably give him peace of mind, after everything heโ€™s done for you.
โ€œHello?โ€ You spoke groggily, trying as best as you could to whisper so as to not wake Jeonghan, still asleep next to you.
โ€œY/N? Have you seen Jeonghan recently? I know you guys are fighting, but Vernon told me he left last night without saying anything and heโ€™s still not back yet, itโ€™s already 10.โ€
โ€œWow, Vernonโ€™s up early on a Saturday. Iโ€™m not even out of bed yet.โ€
Wonwoo hissed through your speakers. โ€œTake this seriously! Your best friend is missing!โ€
Jeonghan stirred, and before you could say anything, he spoke instead. โ€œY/N, tell your friend to hush, Iโ€™m trying to sleep.โ€
You stayed silent, and Wonwoo was silenced too.ย 
โ€œIs thatโ€ฆโ€
โ€œYeah, heโ€™s here with me. Heโ€™s not missing, you can tell Vernon heโ€™s alright.โ€
โ€œHoly shit! Heโ€™s in bed with you?โ€
โ€œHe stayed the nightโ€ฆโ€
โ€œGet it.โ€
โ€œShut up Wonwoo.โ€
Jeonghan reached his hand over to you. โ€œLemme talk to him.โ€ You obliged, handing the phone to him.
โ€œHey Wonwoo, no nothing happened. Well, Y/N confessed their undying feelings for me and told me how incredibly attractive and sexy I am and how Iโ€™ve ruined anyone elseโ€™s love-โ€œ
โ€œJEONGHAN!โ€
โ€œYep gotta go, bye Wonwoo!โ€
You snatched the phone from Jeonghan, only to see the call had already ended. โ€œYou snake! Stop badmouthing me to our friends!โ€
He gasped in mock offense. โ€œBad mouthing? Never! Thatโ€™s basically what happened last night, anyway.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re missing the part where you confessed first.โ€ You reminded him, pushing against his arm, but he resisted your force, instead wrapping his arms around you and holding you as you squirmed. โ€œLet go of me you weasel.โ€
โ€œWeasel? Are you gonna pay for the damages youโ€™re causing my heart?โ€ He pouted, and you wanted to badly to shove (kissโ€ฆ) that pout off his face.ย 
โ€œMore like ego.โ€
โ€œWonwoo has always known how incredibly whipped I am for you, he doesnโ€™t need a reminder.โ€ Jeonghan whispered above you. โ€œDo you?โ€
You nodded slyly. โ€œYouโ€™ve got a decade of reminders to make up for hiding this from me for so long. You better get cracking.โ€
Jeonghan leaned over to kiss your forehead. โ€œWhy rush it? Weโ€™ve got the rest of our lives, and Iโ€™m going to make sure you never forget just how much I love you.โ€
AN: i think this is the first time iโ€™ve ever written a happy ending but goddamn i love this fic
+ read the university kiss scene here!!
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[Tales from the Pack] Jeonghan: Sold (Part One)
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Characters: Jeonghan x female reader (this part has no mention of reader tho hehe sorry!!)
Genre/warnings: werewolf au, fantasy, angst, loooots of mentions of the black market/human trafficking, people in cages, just a lot of bad things happening here lmao
Word count: 1,555
Summary: If Jooyeon and Baekhyun never went snooping around the black market, they wouldโ€™ve never discovered the human trafficking ring and wanted to help. They wouldโ€™ve never discovered you inside one of the many cages full of people, and Jeonghan wouldโ€™ve never went against the alphas and demanded they help. But for you, Jeonghan would do anything, even if it means bringing back trouble from a past he never knew about.
a/n: everyone thought i gave up on tftp BUT I DIDN'T i just haven't gotten a chance to really sit down and work on anything BUT FINALLY HERE IT IS!!!! updates will be slow btw please be patient with me <3
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Wonwoo told her no. Hell, even Danbi told her no. But what were they supposed to do when Baekhyun scoffed and said, โ€œItโ€™s fine, Iโ€™ll go with her. Letโ€™s go, kid.โ€
So now they were awkwardly standing toward the edge of the market, acting like they were perusing the stands but they were actually keeping an eye out to see if Baekhyun and Jooyeon would return. It wasnโ€™t that they didnโ€™t trust Baekhyun to keep the younger girl safe, but it was that anything could happen to them where theyโ€™d gone. The black market was a lawless land.
โ€œWhatโ€™s that over there?โ€ Jooyeon had pointed out as they group got closer toward the secluded area of the market that nobody really went toward.
There was a slight disconnect between the market the pack typically browsed in, and the illegal and shady one. If one wasnโ€™t paying attention, they might wander straight into the black market โ€“ which had already happened before and was why Jooyeon became so curious in the first place โ€“ but it was clear that a lot of people didnโ€™t go over toward the black market, and a lot of things were being kept hidden for a reason.
Such as the large tent made out of tarps that was put up toward the back corner, and it had caught Jooyeonโ€™s eye since it was something different.
โ€œI donโ€™t know, but thereโ€™s a lot of sound coming from inside,โ€ Baekhyun mumbled as he tried to focus in on the tarps.
And now they were off investigating while Wonwoo and his sister worried sick over them. Wonwoo was doing his best to try and stay focused on their sounds, but it was difficult with them so far away and a lot going on between them. There were too many people and things that were starting to drown them out.
The Jeon siblings thought it was a nice coincidence that they had run into Baekhyun at the market. He said he was just wandering around, trying to find something to do to pass the time because he was bored out of his mind. But they shouldโ€™ve considered that the older wolf and the young thief wouldโ€™ve been a match made in Hell. Then again, neither sibling thought Jooyeon would want to suddenly go investigate the black market of all things.
Wonwoo spotted them first, and his head fully whipping around to watch them was what caught Danbiโ€™s attention. The pair were hurrying back toward them, Jooyeon in front even though Baekhyun was definitely faster, but he seemed to be gently pushing her to go faster. The looks on their faces said it all: they saw something they shouldnโ€™t have.
That, or, Danbi and Wonwoo also needed to run.
โ€œWe need to get to Junmyeon,โ€ Baekhyun said hurriedly before the pair were even close enough for Danbi to hear them.
But Wonwoo heard and his eyebrows furrowed, โ€œWhy, whatโ€™s wrong? What happened?โ€
โ€œIโ€™ll explain later,โ€ the older man gestured with his head for the siblings to follow before he started in the direction of his home. โ€œLetโ€™s go.โ€
But Jooyeon didnโ€™t catch the conversation and told Danbi and Wonwoo with wide eyes, โ€œThereโ€™s people in cages in there. A lot of them.โ€
โ€œAre they alive?โ€ Wonwoo questioned.
โ€œYeah,โ€ Baekhyunโ€™s short laugh was dry and void of any humor, โ€œand thatโ€™s kinda scaring me more than if they were dead.โ€
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A knock at the door. Seungcheol was already dreading it because it was a knock. It wasnโ€™t just somebody coming right in like Jooyeon and the Jeon siblings would if it was them coming home from the market. A knock meant a stranger or it meant the trio got themselves into trouble.
He recognized Junmyeonโ€™s scent, and he probably wouldโ€™ve sensed his arrival had he not been helping calm Jiwoo down after a meltdown over her toy wooden train getting stuck underneath the couch. He also sensed Jooyeon, and he could sense the siblings as well.
He let out a deep sigh as he swung open the door.
Before Junmyeon could even say anything, the younger alphaโ€™s golden eyes landed on his mate, โ€œWhat did you do?โ€
โ€œOh, donโ€™t worry,โ€ Junmyeon chuckled, โ€œBaekhyun did it, too.โ€
โ€œWe didnโ€™t do anything,โ€ Danbi assured him before breezing by him and into the house with her brother following, slightly bowing his head toward his alpha as he went.
โ€œCan we come in?โ€ Junmyeon asked, Dae by his side with you and Baekhyun standing there looking like children in trouble. โ€œThis news might beโ€ฆa lot.โ€
Seungcheol stood to the side and gestured for the quad to enter, shooting his mate a scolding look as she followed Junmyeon and Daisy into the house.ย 
โ€œI didnโ€™t even get in trouble!โ€ she huffed. โ€œWhy are you mad at me?โ€
โ€œYou were escorted home by Junmyeon. Thatโ€™s reason enough. That means something happened.โ€
โ€œSomething did happen, yes,โ€ Junmyeon confirmed as they went to sit in the living room.
Of course, hearing the commotion, the rest of the pack began to gather.
โ€œThankfully, they werenโ€™t spotted or followed,โ€ he continued.ย 
โ€œThe fact that he said that means you did something you werenโ€™t supposed to,โ€ Seungcheol pointed out to his mate.
As Junmyeon took a seat on one of the couches, he let out a sigh. Dae sat down beside him, silently waving to some of the wolves and mates as they entered, still smiling despite what Baekhyun had told their pack when they arrived at his house.
โ€œJooyeon and Baekhyun may have discovered a human trafficking ring,โ€ Junmyeon stated bluntly.
Everyone was shocked hearing that. It was the last thing they expected to hear, actually. Some let out soft gasps and others began murmuring, wondering what kind of trafficking and how they couldโ€™ve found it.
Seungcheolโ€™s eyes widened, threatening to bulge out of his head. Then his widened eyes went to Jooyeon.
โ€œWhat were you thinking?!โ€ he exclaimed. โ€œHow many times have I had to explicitly tell you not to go anywhere near the black market?! Why the hell would you go against me?! Shin Jooyeon, you couldโ€™ve been caught and thrown into it!โ€
Baekhyun held up a hand to get Seungcheol to stop yelling, โ€œTo be fair, I wasnโ€™t the best influence. She wanted to go and I said Iโ€™d go with her.โ€
โ€œAnd what, Iโ€™m supposed to tell Baekhyun no?โ€ Wonwoo asked.
โ€œHow did you discover thisโ€ฆtrafficking ring?โ€ Jihoon wondered.
โ€œI noticed this big tent made out of tarps that wasnโ€™t there before. I got curious,โ€ she shrugged. โ€œSo we snuck over and there was a little tear in one of them and Baekhyun peeked through and saw all these people in cages.โ€
โ€œThere was maybeโ€ฆabout six people to a cage? Their clothes looked dirty and they all looked like hell,โ€ Baekhyun elaborated. โ€œI think theyโ€™re just barely being kept alive. And they all have collars on.โ€
โ€œAs sad as that is,โ€ Minghao began, โ€œ...why did you come here to tell us about it?โ€
Jeonghan nodded with a shrug, โ€œRespectfully, if it doesnโ€™t have to do with us, weโ€™d rather stay away from trouble. Weโ€™ve been in enough of it.โ€
โ€œWell, thatโ€™s kind of exactly why,โ€ Junmyeon chuckled. โ€œI wanted to see if your pack would be willing to help them escape, or if we decide the situation should be left alone. Iโ€™d hate to let a bunch of innocent people go through that, but I also donโ€™t know if Iโ€™m willing to risk my packโ€™s lives for something that doesnโ€™t really involve us. Getting caught in the Capitol is even more dangerous than getting caught in any old town.โ€
โ€œEspecially in the black market,โ€ Jihoon added.
โ€œButโ€ฆโ€ Kyung paused like she knew she would get backlash for what she was about to say, โ€œcan we live with ourselves knowing thereโ€™s a human trafficking ring going on and we did nothing to stop it?โ€
โ€œNo offense, but didnโ€™t a ton of your old pack die from trying to help people?โ€ Soonyoung asked a little too bluntly, but it was apparent he wasnโ€™t purposefully trying to sound snappy.
Kyung looked at him, โ€œRemind me who helped your pack at your old house and even died for one of your brothers?โ€
Soonyoungโ€™s cheeks dusted pink as he realized how rude he sounded and he mumbled a, โ€œRight, sorryโ€ฆโ€
โ€œOkay, Kyung has a point,โ€ Seungcheol admitted. โ€œHonestlyโ€ฆIโ€™d feel really shitty if we didnโ€™t try to help.โ€
โ€œI get that, but is it even worth the risk?โ€ Jihoon asked.
โ€œMaybe we go scope it out,โ€ Hansol suggested with a shrug. โ€œSee how difficult it would be to execute a giant prison breakout. If itโ€™s too dangerous, we can sleep better at night knowing we wouldnโ€™t have been able to handle it.โ€
Seungcheol looked to the other three alphas. They all looked between each other and shrugged before looking to Junmyeon for his take.
โ€œSounds alright to me,โ€ he decided. โ€œWhen should we go?โ€
โ€œProbably as soon as possible,โ€ Jihoon guessed. โ€œWho knows how long theyโ€™ll be kept there, right? They might be getting sold one at a time or maybe somebody already bought them all and theyโ€™re there for safe keeping until they can get picked up.โ€
โ€œSo, tonight?โ€ Soonyoung asked.
Seungcheol looked back at Junmyeon, โ€œTonight?โ€
โ€œTonight works,โ€ he nodded. โ€œWeโ€™ll meet you there at midnight.โ€
ยปยปโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”-ใ€€ใ€€โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”-ยซยซ
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How To Score a Yes - YJH
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PAIRING: Yoon Jeonghan x reader SYNOPSIS: How does your suitor, Yoon Jeonghan, score a 'yes'? WORD COUNT: 891 GENRE: Fluff, university au, student-athlete! yjh, courtside reporter x basketball player CHI'S NOTE: ๐Ÿ—ฃ GO SEXY, GO SEXY, GO SEXY SEXY LOOVE! Happiest of birthdays to Jeonghan, hanniehae! ๐Ÿ’—
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You wring your fingers together, wishing you had taken the seat your fellow courtside reporter offered you. Gosh, who knew being on the sidelines was this intense? But you should know better, because, after all, this is the varsity championship basketball game.
Your knees are jelly and your gaze on the scoreboard is so intense that you can feel an impending headache. It seemed like once the opposition scores, home court would immediately follow. At this point, it resembled a game of tag. Taking a quick break from looking at the scores in fear you could pass out from the nerves, your eyes land on Jeonghan.
Sweaty and focused, he still looks handsome despite how grueling the game has been. He takes his responsibility for the team seriously, what with being the well-known and strict captain of the Roaring Tigers basketball team. He had a lot on his plate leading up to this game as itโ€™s been three years since your university was last announced as champion. Yet, heโ€™s been consistent in courting you which is why youโ€™ve made up your mind.ย 
His team just needs to win.ย 
And they do, with just a difference of two scores flickering on the scoreboard as the arena erupts in thunderous cheers and chants. Your legs have not escaped the jelly-like sensation so when you walk over once the cameraman signals you, your legs are like a baby deerโ€™s. Putting on a smile, he counts down then the red, blinking light is on. You catch Jeonghanโ€™s eye and his beautiful grin causes your heart to sing.ย 
โ€œWow, what a game! Congratulations to the Roaring Tigers who have snatched up the championship title with fervour. Also, congratulations to Team Quartz who played incredibly well. Weโ€™ll be back shortly with interviews from the players.โ€ย 
Just as the cameraman gives you a thumbs up, youโ€™re lifted off the ground from behind and spun around. You squeal which causes Jeonghan to laugh. The joy that he exudes is contagious and itโ€™s clear in his eyes how happy he is with the win. You hope you can magnify his happiness once the camera starts rolling again.
โ€œGreat work out there, captainโ€, you wiggle your eyebrows and he shakes his head as he pulls you closer to him by the waist.ย 
He shrugs, โ€œwell, itโ€™s because youโ€™re here. Youโ€™re my lucky charm, baby. What can I say?โ€
โ€œTalking up the courtside reporter so they can say good things about you on camera is a lousy moveโ€, you quip and he playfully rolls his eyes.ย 
Your eyes spot the cameraman again and you inhale deeply and why is what you want to do next more nerve-wracking than the game? It was a good thing that Jeonghan came to you first so you could interview him, otherwise, you could get cold feet.ย 
You try not to pout when you pull away from him. He winks and mouths a โ€˜you got thisโ€™ just before the red light on the camera appears.ย 
โ€œWeโ€™re back! Right now, Yoon Jeonghan is with me, who is the captain of the Roaring Tigers. How does it feel getting the championship title back after three years?โ€ย 
Jeonghan nods at your question, โ€œIt feels surreal. We practiced a lot to make this happen, so seeing it come to fruitionโ€ฆitโ€™s a great feeling.โ€ย 
โ€œI bet it is,โ€ you smile at him and huff out a breath, which is met with him tilting his head in concern.ย 
โ€œWhat was running through your mind when you shot the ball in the last five seconds of the game?โ€ย 
He pauses and purses his lips, โ€œto be honestโ€ฆnothing. I just shot it without thinking much and it actually went in.โ€ย 
โ€œWhat would run through your mind if I said yes?โ€ You swear you can see question marks floating above his head and you know he realises what you mean when his mouth drops open. Jeonghan covers his mouth in an attempt to cover his smile but his gaze tells all. The filming team gives a whoop of delight because youโ€™ve told them about this, to which theyโ€™ve eagerly agreed to do.ย 
Jeonghan pouts, โ€œBaby, donโ€™t joke around. Youโ€™re saying yes to me being your boyfriend?โ€ย 
You grin and nod at him. โ€œCongrats, captain. Youโ€™re my boyfriend, any thoughts on me saying yes?โ€ย 
Your eyes flutter close when he kisses your forehead, your heart cartwheeling because you can feel him smiling. You laugh when you spot one of the filming crew slapping the arm of the person next to them in giddiness. Jeonghan pulls you flush against him, his arm naturally finding its way around your waist as he takes the mic from you and looks into the camera.ย 
โ€œThis is the biggest win Iโ€™ve ever achieved. If youโ€™d excuse us, Iโ€™d like to take my significant other out on a da- ow!โ€ย 
Your cheeks rival the summer heat as Jeonghan playfully grimaces from the slap you delivered to his stomach. โ€œThatโ€™s all for today. Thanks for tuning in to todayโ€™s game and interviews, see you then!โ€ย 
He embraces you and you donโ€™t know how he still smells amazing despite being sweaty. Jeonghan kisses your forehead, then your cheek before whispering in your ear, โ€œI love you. Thank you for saying yes, have I mentioned that I love you"?ย 
You laugh, your chest warm with adoration, โ€œI love you, too".
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hanniedream ยท 8 months
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Fall For It.
โ†ณ Poodle.
Synopsis: Jeonghan plots and schemes to get your attention.
Characters: Yoon Jeonghan ร— Reader
Genre: Smau, Fluff?
Warnings: Jeonghan is a simp.
Part Two | Part Three | Bonus
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a/n: i want a poodle and i also want jeonghan :( also, this happened bcs @savventeen sent me a photo of fluffy jeonghan :((((( -bibi
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seungkwansphd ยท 2 years
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i think i need to shoot you
pairing: jeonghan x reader wordcount: 6.2k summary: so youโ€™ve figured out how to get along with jeonghan. so what?! everyone at the office doesnโ€™t need to know. it only gets in the way of life occasionally and itโ€™s not that bad, right? genre/themes: fluff, smut, secret relationship at work, rivals to lovers (kinda), maybe some angst? basically i love jeonghan & yn and just want them to be kinda bickering but happy.
a/n: this is the pt2 to we get along infamously. i found it a little challenging to keep their tension, so i hope it was worth the wait and that yโ€™all love it too :)
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ย ย ย  You chewed on the inside of your lip as you stared what you hoped looked like daggers at Jeonghan. He was wearing the black button down that you had gifted him last week and you were imagining how efficiently you could take it off of him, but you were also at the office so that was a nonstarter. Grumbling, you turned reluctantly to your monitor and tapped angrily at the keys.
โ€œYou okay?โ€ your coworker, Vernon, looked at you with slight concern.
โ€œIโ€™m great,โ€ you smiled at him with just your teeth and he shook his head at you, amused.
โ€œI actually thought you and Jeonghan were getting along better lately, but I guess I was wrong,โ€ Vernon mused.
โ€œVernonโ€ฆI need you to know that I would never,โ€ you placed your hand on your chest, acting aghast. โ€œTo my last breath I will curse his name.โ€ You wondered if you were overdoing it, but Vernon didnโ€™t seem the type to notice.
ย ย ย  Jeonghan looked down to hide his smile as he listened to you pretend to dislike him. It should probably bother him more, but you were going about it in such an obtuse way that he found it terribly endearing. Heโ€™d never let you know, though. No, it was much more fun to tease you about it later.
[redacted]: โ€˜are you hungry? should i grab you lunch while iโ€™m out for my client meeting?โ€™
[yn]: โ€˜plz & ty!! where are you going?โ€™
[redacted]: โ€˜iโ€™ll send you a link to the menu, just lmkโ€™
ย ย ย  You did a little happy dance in your chair as you peered at the menu on your phone screen and made your choice. You eyed Jeonghan surreptitiously as he left for his meeting, you really had done a good job with the shirt.
โ€œShould we grab lunch? I donโ€™t have another call for an hour,โ€ Vernon turned to you.
โ€œOh, I-, uh,โ€ your brain stalled as you tried to think of a reasonable response. โ€œIโ€™m not hungry. My momโ€™s bringing me lunch,โ€ you malfunctioned slightly. โ€œI mean my stomach hurts so my mom is bringing me soup.โ€
โ€œOhโ€ฆthatโ€™s nice of her,โ€ he replied, but you could clearly tell he found your response odd. He didnโ€™t press, though, and simply left to find some lunch for himself. Once he was out of sight, you rushed to text Jeonghan again.
[yn]: โ€˜nevermind, please bring me some soup insteadโ€™
โ€œClam chowder?โ€ Vernon did a double take when he saw the soup container on your desk. โ€œIs that helpful for your stomach?โ€
โ€œMhm,โ€ you had to answer simply to prevent yourself from bursting out laughing. At this rate, Vernon was going to report you to HR for being unwell.
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โ€œHow did your client meeting go?โ€ you asked Jeonghan as you chopped up onions.
โ€œGood! They said theyโ€™re happy with the progress and are considering bringing a second project to us too,โ€ he smiled, pulling pork out of the fridge. He set it down for you and moved to boil noodles for the nightโ€™s jjajangmyeon.
โ€œThatโ€™s so good, Hannie!โ€ you beamed at him.
โ€œHn,โ€ he nodded. โ€œDid you enjoy your soup?โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ you groaned, โ€œI panicked when Vernon asked about lunch so I told him my mom was bringing me soup,โ€ you laughed, still embarrassed at your inability to think on your feet.
Jeonghan burst out laughing as he finally made sense of your weird lunch order. โ€œI see,โ€ he nodded slowly, โ€œI guess thatโ€™s the downside of people at work not knowing, huh?โ€
โ€œYeah,โ€ you pursed your lips as you fried the black bean sauce in oil.
ย  Jeonghan watched as you thought, trying to read your expression. He was ready, at any time, to go to Minghao and find out what paperwork he needed to file. You werenโ€™t quite there, but that was okay. He could be patient. You were worth the wait.
โ€œMm, I overheard something interesting today,โ€ Jeonghan remarked as he helped carry dishes to the sink.
โ€œWhatโ€™s that?โ€
โ€œThis developer was telling Vernon how she would curse my name until her last breath or something like that?โ€ he raised one eyebrow at you as he caged you in against the countertop with his arms.
โ€œOh th-thatโ€™s crazy,โ€ you stuttered, flushing at his hungry gaze.
โ€œEspecially because I really havenโ€™t given you anything to curse about,โ€ he leaned forward, breath tickling your ear, โ€œNot yet at least.โ€
โ€œOh?โ€ you squeaked, โ€œPlease elaborate,โ€ you tugged at his shirt eagerly.
โ€œWith pleasure,โ€ he laughed, grasping you just under the jaw to pull you into a kiss before popping you up onto the kitchen countertop. โ€œJust so you know, youโ€™re in for a long night.โ€
โ€œWell fuck,โ€ you werenโ€™t able to stop yourself from cursing.
ย  Jeonghan ran his fingers up your inner thigh, the material of your leggings dragging just slightly at his touch. He pressed two fingers against your clit as his other hand held you open to his firm and direct pressure.
โ€œJeonghan!โ€ you gasped, head falling back, hair spreading across the kitchen countertop.
โ€œThatโ€™s good, I want you to be loud tonight. If youโ€™re going to curse my name, I want you to mean it,โ€ his lips curled up as he worked his fingertips, pressing circles into you at a medium pace. He could feel you soaking through the fabric of your leggings, which always spurred him on.
โ€œHannie,โ€ you squirmed against the countertop, simultaneously overwhelmed and wanting more. You clutched at his wrist, but he didnโ€™t relent until you were frustratingly close.
โ€œStay put,โ€ Jeonghan ordered before wandering off. You wondered what fresh hell this would be as you waited. โ€œIs this okay?โ€ he asked when he popped back in, a blindfold dangling off of his index finger.
โ€œ...yes,โ€ you nodded after blinking a few times. Jeonghan asked you to get undressed before sliding the blindfold over your eyes gently.
โ€œOkay?โ€ his gentle voice asked, to which you nodded. โ€œGood.โ€
ย ย ย  He guided you into the bedroom, laying you back gently on the bed. The cool air pebbled your nipples and the deprivation of sight made your pulse race. Jeonghan watched intently as your fingers spread across the covers, orienting yourself. He stepped out of the bedroom again as inspiration struck and you laid on the bed, listening to him shuffle around. He returned shortly and trailed the fingertips of his left hand across your skin. The pressure was quite light, almost ticklish, and made you squirm under him. If you couldโ€™ve seen him, you wouldโ€™ve seen a look of pure adoration as he watched the way your muscles jumped and twitched at his touch. He almost felt bad when he lowered the ice cube against your nipple. Almost.
โ€œHannie!โ€ you jolted, almost sitting upright as you registered the freezing sensation. โ€œFuck!โ€ your whole body clenched, hands gripping the comforter. Jeonghan grinned, holding the ice against you for just a few more seconds before pulling back.
โ€œMm, you seem to like that,โ€ Jeonghanโ€™s brows raised, seeing the way you were glistening.
ย ย ย  You nodded, ears tuned in, trying to follow his movements around the room. Somehow knowing what he had at his disposal made the anticipation even more blissfully agonizing. You gulped audibly when you heard a now familiar buzzing kick on.
โ€œHannie, Iโ€™m sorry I said what I said!โ€ you groaned, cursing your past self, knowing his penchant for torture.
โ€œAre you tapping out?โ€ Jeonghan asked, unable to read you properly with the blindfold on.
โ€œ...no,โ€ you whispered sheepishly. It was a fine line between pain and pleasure and Jeonghan had such a skill at walking it.
โ€œThatโ€™s my girl,โ€ he patted your cheek condescendingly before he placed the vibrator just off-center, lengthwise against you. Your strangled cries and the way your hips hitched stroked his ego like nothing else he could even imagine. He continued, alternating between ice cube and vibrator, until you were begging desperately.
โ€œHannie, please,โ€ you cried.
โ€œLouder.โ€
โ€œJeonghan, please!โ€ you repeated yourself, eyes squeezed shut behind the blindfold.
โ€œGo ahead,โ€ he nodded, bringing the toy to sit squarely against your now swollen clit. You let out a loud sob as your body shuddered and an orgasm rolled through you. โ€œAnother,โ€ he insisted, keeping the toy planted as you continued to squirm. โ€œHan, Han, Hannie!โ€ you gasped, clutching his forearm desperately as another and another rolled over you mercilessly.
โ€œLouder. I donโ€™t think weโ€™re done until you run out of breath,โ€ Jeonghan snickered at you.ย 
โ€œHannie, I canโ€™t, no more!!โ€ you eventually squealed, tapping insistently at his forearm with two fingers. Jeonghan nodded, recognizing your signal for release, and pulled away. He pulled off the blindfold and gathered you into his arms, spooning you from behind, and stroking your hair reassuringly.
โ€œSo good, so good. Thank you for indulging me,โ€ he murmured appreciatively against the top of your head. You relaxed, melting into him and beaming under his praise. You adored the way he took such care of you.
โ€œWhat about you?โ€ you asked, turning your face towards him and rolling your hips gently against him.
โ€œAre you sure youโ€™re up for it?โ€ he asked, knowing he had already asked for a lot.
โ€œMhm!โ€ you nodded, โ€œBut maybe instead of fucking the living shit out of me, you could be a little gentler?โ€
โ€œOf course. Iโ€™m multi talented after all,โ€ he laughed. You rolled your eyes at him as he ground himself against you. He finished undressing and pulled your back against his chest before sliding into you.
โ€œI donโ€™t think anything beats having you inside of me,โ€ you sighed dreamily, twining your fingers with his as you pushed back against him.
โ€œYouโ€™re such an angel at times,โ€ Jeonghan remarked at the way you were able to work him up so easily. With one arm wrapped around your waist, he stroked into you, deep but at a leisurely pace. The way you wrapped around him made his brain feel like a melted slushee in the best way. โ€œFucking christ,โ€ he cursed, arm tightening around you.
โ€œSo good, so good,โ€ you moaned appreciatively, โ€œWill you cum in me?โ€
โ€œI can indulge you in that,โ€ Jeonghan chuckled, trying to stay composed, but his voice cracked slightly which ruined the effect just a bit.
โ€œFill me up,โ€ you begged, โ€œDeep inside of me,โ€ you babbled, not really caring what kind of embarrassing shit came out of your mouth as long as you got what you wanted.
โ€œYou-, youโ€™re-, fuck,โ€ Jeonghan tried and failed to reprimand you before his hips bucked, shooting his load deep inside of you. You giggled, always proud when you were able to make him the one at a loss for words. He clicked his tongue at you weakly, more than spent.
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ย  ย  You blinked slowly, trying to mentally orient yourself as you woke up. Thatโ€™s right, you had stayed the night with Jeonghan, which was why everything seemed out of place. Turning, you couldnโ€™t help but grin as you saw him, still asleep to your side. He was drooling slightly, his hair was defying the laws of gravity, and you werenโ€™t sure if heโ€™d ever looked cuter than this. Glancing at the clock, you let him continue to sleep for as long as time would allow.
ย  ย  The pair of you moved through the morning with ease. Brushing your teeth side by side in the mirror, making coffee, and helping him pick out a shirt. It was a good thing you liked him so much, otherwise it wouldโ€™ve been sickening.
โ€œYouโ€™re really not going to eat?โ€ Jeonghan looked at you, almost horrified.
โ€œI donโ€™t usually get hungry until later!โ€ you waved at him, sipping your coffee.
โ€œYou should eat,โ€ he grumbled, but dropped the subject for now. Grabbing his plate, he sat down next to you, tugging your chair towards him. Grinning, you hooked your right leg over his left, enjoying the closeness. The morning had passed quickly, but you had to admit it was nice to start the day with Jeonghan.
โ€œDo you want to go to happy hour?โ€ Jeonghan asked you as you walked towards the office building together.
โ€œI was planning to, unless you had other thoughts?โ€ you nodded.
โ€œNo, just curious,โ€ he shook his head, โ€œDo you want me to fall back a bit so we can walk in separately?โ€ he offered, eyes scanning the area for coworkers.
โ€œThatโ€™s okay,โ€ you shook your head , โ€œWe can say we ran into each other on the sidewalk.โ€
โ€œOkay,โ€ he smiled at you, maintaining a professional distance as you swiped in.
โ€œMorning, dearly beloved!โ€ Minghao greeted you happily when his eyes landed on you. His eyes flitted to Jeonghan before his brows lifted just slightly.
โ€œMorning Hao,โ€ Jeonghan waved to him before everyone piled into the elevator.
โ€œEveryone coming to happy hour today?โ€ Minghao asked, observing the two of you out of the side of his eye. You tolerated an atypically small distance between yourself and Jeonghan and hadnโ€™t actively picked a fight yet. Interesting.
โ€œYes, you know Seungkwan will beat our asses if we donโ€™t,โ€ you laughed genuinely.
โ€œThis is true,โ€ Hao nodded, โ€œRide over together?โ€ he asked you as he stepped out of the elevator.
โ€œOf course!โ€ you nodded. You could feel Jeonghanโ€™s eyes on you, but you resisted the instinct to turn to him as there were still others in the elevator and walked to your cubes in silence.
ย  ย  A few hours into the day when you returned from a bathroom break, you spotted an out of place object on your desk. Cocking your head to the side, you realized it was an egg kimbap with a sticky note placed on it instructing you to โ€˜eatโ€™.
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โ€œIโ€™m-, are we late?โ€ you turned to Hao with a confused expression as you walked in on an already drunk Seungkwan singing incredibly loudly.
โ€œI-,โ€ Hao stopped in his tracks, slightly surprised, โ€œItโ€™s only six thirty.โ€
โ€œHow long have you been here?โ€ you turned to Hyemi.
โ€œSince five thirty,โ€ she flushed, โ€œItโ€™s been a lot.โ€
ย  ย  Your eyes flitted to Jeonghan, who shrugged defeatedly. He sat on the couch nursing a beer while Jae and the interns talked at him about something or the other. You could tell he needed extraditing, but werenโ€™t sure how to manage it. To top it all off, Seungkwanโ€™s voice permeated your brain and made it even harder than normal to think through it.
โ€œNarcissistic, my god I love it!~โ€
โ€œLetโ€™s get a drink and then figure out how to wrangle these cats,โ€ you laughed with Minghao before searching out some soju.
โ€œDid something happen? Or is he stressed? He is way more drunk than usual,โ€ you whispered at Hyemi as she poured shots for you and Minghao.
โ€œI think heโ€™s fighting with Seyoon?โ€ she guessed, already flushed high in her cheeks.
โ€œAh,โ€ you nodded. That made a lot more sense. Sipping quietly, you took inventory of the room. Seungkwan had momentarily surrendered the mic to someone else, Jae still clung to Jeonghan like a moss to a tree, and Hyemi wasโ€ฆmaking eyes at Changkyun? From finance? โ€œUm,โ€ you turned to Minghao, jerking your head subtly at the pair.
โ€œInteresting,โ€ his eyes lit up, โ€œVery interesting.โ€
ย ย ย  Jeonghan watched you watch the others. A big part of him wanted nothing more than to go home and take you with him, but he could already tell that you were committed to a night of being the mom friend. When your eyes finally met his briefly, his brows quirked up just slightly before anyone could notice and he delighted in the smile that lit up your face.
โ€œOkay, everyone know how theyโ€™re getting home?โ€ Minghao helped to herd the small crowd out of the establishment. A chorus of yeses rang out and he nodded, somewhat satisfied.
โ€œOkay, subway gang follow me,โ€ you announced and the interns fell in line behind you and Jeonghan like a group of ducklings. In lieu of holding hands, you hooked your pinky into his until he reached his stop.
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โ€œYoon Jeonghan,โ€ you held your left hand up in front of you, eyes wide and voice calm, as if you were negotiating a hostage situation. โ€œJeonghan, please,โ€ you implored.
โ€œIโ€™m so sorry, but I think I have to shoot you,โ€ Jeonghan grinned mischievously, his paintball gun trained carefully on you.
โ€œIโ€™ll make it worth your while if you donโ€™t,โ€ you stepped forward, tongue tracing your lips in a way that you knew your boyfriend found incredibly distracting. He didnโ€™t shoot, so you took another step and grabbed him by the tactical vest, pulling him in. He couldnโ€™t help it. Confused that you were doing this during work hours, his grip on his paintball gun slackened and his arm dropped, making him the perfect target for Hyemi to shoot in the back.
โ€œYou!โ€ he pulled back, eyes narrowed accusingly at you as he touched the neon green paint dripping down his back, โ€œOh youโ€™re done!โ€ he pointed at you with a threatening chuckle before walking towards the bleachers where the other out players were.
ย ย ย  You laughed it off, running towards Hyemi for a victorious high-five before setting off to find your next target. You scanned the bleachers and noticed that Changkyun and Mingyu were still at large. Noted.
โ€œHow did you do that?!โ€ Hyemi asked, high on the rush of taking down the Yoon Jeonghan. โ€œI thought he wouldโ€™ve shot you right away!โ€
โ€œI have my ways,โ€ you laughed, turning to her. โ€œShall we go get your man? I know you guys just recently started dating, so I donโ€™t know if you have the stomach to betray him just yet.โ€
โ€œApparently my cat, Natto, prefers him to me, so Changkyun is dead to me as of now,โ€ Hyemi turned to you. A laugh burst through your lips when you saw her deadly serious expression and you nodded firmly before setting off to find him.
โ€œOkay, letโ€™s go!โ€ you pumped your fist, breaking into a jog through the obstacle course.
ย ย ย  Jeonghan fumed on the bleachers as you and Hyemi carried out your mission. He wasnโ€™t actually mad, of course, but his competitive nature got the best of him at times. Even more than that, however, he was surprised at how attractive it was to find out that you could be just as ruthless as him when it came to games.
โ€œYa, Mingyu!โ€ he gestured to one of the junior developers when he spotted him.
โ€œYeah?โ€ the large man loped over.
โ€œYN and Hyemi are going for Changkyun, so tail them. You should be able to take one or even both of them out while theyโ€™re focused on him.โ€
โ€œI feel like Iโ€™m not allowed to take your tip since youโ€™re out,โ€ Mingyu hesitated.
โ€œDonโ€™t care. Do as I say,โ€ Jeonghan waived off his concerns and pushed him towards the field.
ย ย ย  Mingyu shrugged and crept through the course, keeping an eye out for you and Hyemi. He ducked behind some netting when he spotted you cornering Changkyun, as Jeonghan had described. Taking aim, he fired off a shot, taking you out of the game. You shook your finger at your boyfriend as you approached him on the bleachers.
โ€œWhy do I feel like you had something to do with this?โ€ you rounded upon him, suspicious.
โ€œWhatever do you mean?โ€ he asked, a picture of innocence, which more or less confirmed your original thought. You reached around him to grab a bottle of water. โ€œIโ€™m not gonna lie, that was kind of attractive,โ€ he leaned over to whisper in your ear.
โ€œYouโ€™re terrible,โ€ you flushed, stepping away from him bashfully.
โ€œNot yet, but I will be later,โ€ he whispered under his breath, eyes full of dirty promises.
ย ย ย  Reminding yourself that you were at a work event, you turned away from him for fear of overheating.
โ€œWe were right not to let YN and Jeonghan be on the same team,โ€ Vernon laughed as he grabbed a fresh water bottle. โ€œJust separately, theyโ€™re both menaces. Can you imagine their combined powers unleashed upon us?โ€
โ€œI actually think I rank YN higher on the menace list than Jeonghan right now,โ€ another one of your teammates, Miseon responded proudly to Vernon. โ€œShe did manage to coordinate Jeonghanโ€™s takedown, after all.โ€
โ€œYeah, how did you manage that, actually?โ€ Vernon wondered aloud, fixing you with a confused stare. Jeonghan had been extremely well positioned before Hyemi had managed to hit him. It didnโ€™t make a lot of sense.
โ€œKeep underestimating me, Vern,โ€ you crossed your arms as you looked on at the remaining players with interest, โ€œThatโ€™s how I like it.โ€
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โ€œHannie?โ€ you called, realizing it had been a moment since youโ€™d last had eyes on your boyfriend. Poking your head into a few rooms, you jumped slightly when Jeonghan appeared next to you, a finger gun pointed at you. You were a little confused, but played along.
โ€œCโ€™mere you traitor,โ€ he ordered with a straight face.
โ€œTraitor? We werenโ€™t on the same team!โ€
โ€œTraitor of my heart,โ€ he pulled you against his chest, acting wounded.
โ€œTch,โ€ you rolled your eyes, but allowed yourself to be folded into him.
โ€œI didnโ€™t realize you were so competitive,โ€ he looked down at you, his expression surprisingly soft and full of admiration.
โ€œYou didnโ€™t?โ€ you narrowed your eyes at him in confusion, โ€œA year and a half of working together hasnโ€™t made you realize that Iโ€™m competitive as hell?โ€
โ€œI meant more like in games,โ€ he clarified.
โ€œIf Iโ€™m being honest,โ€ you cocked your head to the side to try and organize your thoughts, โ€œItโ€™s really just something about you that brings it out of me. Iโ€™m generally quite easygoing.โ€
โ€œHn,โ€ Jeonghan blinked. He supposed it made sense, he did seem privy to a much more difficult side of you than most others were. โ€œI have an idea,โ€ his eyes lit up.
ย ย ย  Your eyes widened at him, a bit surprised at how excited he seemed.
โ€œWhat do you think about cockwarming me?โ€
โ€œOh?โ€ you blinked rapidly as you considered it. One the one hand, yes. But on the other hand, no.
โ€œIโ€™m just curious which of us will cave first,โ€ Jeonghan explained, knowing it would egg you on.
โ€œWell it wonโ€™t be me,โ€ you bluffed, โ€œSo sure!โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re sure?โ€ he smirked at you amusedly.
โ€œMore than,โ€ you rolled your eyes at him. Jeonghan scoffed. His toxic trait was that he actually liked it when you acted like this.
ย ย ย  Moving to the bedroom, you and Jeonghan decided on a TV show before climbing into bed. It took a few tries, but ultimately you decided that spooning on your side was most conducive to the task at hand. Jeonghan pulled himself flush against you, sliding between your thighs and tugging the sheet up.
โ€œNot fair!โ€ you protested as he rolled his hips and his shaft grazed you, coating himself in your wetness.
โ€œSorry, youโ€™re right,โ€ he patted your head before sliding into you, bottoming out easily. You exhaled sharply as he filled you up. Maybe your confidence had been undeserved. โ€œYou havenโ€™t watched any more of this without me, right?โ€ he asked as he pressed โ€˜playโ€™.
โ€œNo?โ€ you tried to clear your head. You felt so full.
ย  ย  Jeonghanโ€™s arm was looped around your waist and fingers laced between yours. You were surprised at how still he was able to be as you watched most of an episode. Towards the end, you started to get a little bored. Ever so slightly, you started flexing around Jeonghan. You hoped to be almost imperceptible and you thought you were achieving that until the episode ended and he put it on pause.
โ€œYouโ€™re misbehaving,โ€ his voice was gravelly as you felt him twitch inside of you.
โ€œAm I?โ€ you wondered aloud. โ€œWere there rules?โ€
โ€œNo, I guess not,โ€ he shrugged, realizing you were right, and pulled you down against his hips, hard.
โ€œHan!โ€ you scowled at him.
โ€œHm?โ€ he hummed lightly as he continued to drive into you without ever pulling out.
โ€œNot fair,โ€ you bemoaned as you realized your inner thighs were completely slick.
โ€œI donโ€™t really feel like playing fair,โ€ he tsked at you, hand moving to tease the underside of your breasts. Your nipples puckered at his touch and your mouth hung open in disbelief. Youโ€™d fucked up, truly.
ย  You folded at the waist, as if it would provide you some relief, but it didnโ€™t help even a little. Jeonghan continued to grind into you, stroking you deeply as little whimpers and cries escaped your lips.
โ€œYou could end this,โ€ he goaded you, laughing cruelly, โ€œJust be a good girl and cum for me.โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ you frowned, even though you wanted nothing more than that. You were still holding onto your stubborn pride, but your grip on it was slipping.
โ€œI can hear how wet you are. I can feel how close you are, baby,โ€ Jeonghan continued to needle at you with his words. โ€œJust cum.โ€
ย  ย  Your eyes squeezed shut as the orgasm ripped through you. A mangled cry managed to escape your throat as you clenched hard, triggering his own orgasm. If youโ€™d had the presence of mind, you would have heard him cry your name out, but you werenโ€™t exactly all there.
โ€œI really do hate you,โ€ you grumbled, after pulling yourselves together.
โ€œYouโ€™re just mad you lost,โ€ he fixed you with a shit eating grin. It was big talk for a man whose bones felt like jelly.
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โ€œHao, I genuinely need to file a formal complaint about all of these workplace bonding activities,โ€ you griped to your favorite HR manager. Today was community service day, so a group of you were headed to a local food pantry in embarrassing, matching t-shirts.
โ€œI am once again asking you to remember that that is above my pay grade.โ€
โ€œWhatโ€™s the point of being your friend if I canโ€™t use it to get the things I want?โ€ you leaned against him affectionately.
โ€œYeah, the ROI is dismal, isnโ€™t it?โ€ Minghao laughed.
โ€œOh! Actually that reminds me. I have something to ask you later, in private.โ€
ย ย ย  Minghaoโ€™s brows disappeared into his hairline, but he nodded. His curiosity burned, but the volunteer coordinator arrived to walk the group through the tasks for the day. It was a pretty straightforward boxing of groceries to be distributed later. You settled in between Seungkwan and Hao and were responsible for adding carrots. Jeonghan worked at the end of the line, next to Vernon, on the opposite side of the table.
โ€œHey yโ€™all!โ€ a new voice arrived in the room, โ€œIโ€™m Kim Yejun, the executive director here, and I wanted to stop in and thank you all for your time today! We really appreciate the extra help.โ€
ย ย ย  The group went through introductions around the table. You thought you were imagining it, but it seemed like Yejunโ€™s eyes lingered on you just slightly longer than needed. You realized Seungkwan had picked up on it too when his head turned towards you, eyes like saucers.
โ€œMay I join you?โ€ Yejun approached your table during the lunch break.
โ€œYes of course!โ€ Seungkwan nodded furiously, pushing things away dramatically to make room for the executive director.
โ€œThanks,โ€ Yejun laughed, taking a seat almost across from you. โ€œHow are you finding things today? Any questions about our organization?โ€
โ€œItโ€™s been great,โ€ you nodded at him.
โ€œI do have a question,โ€ Seungkwan raised his hand, โ€œHow did you come to be in this line of work?โ€
โ€œMe? Ah, well, actually when I was young, my family was not always food secure. We relied on food pantries, like this, and when I got older, I wanted to make sure I could give that positive experience to others as well.
โ€œThatโ€™s so admirable!โ€ Seungkwan fawned. โ€œAnd do your family and children ever come to help out as well?โ€
โ€œCh-children? Iโ€™m not married, I donโ€™t have any children,โ€ Yejun blinked.
โ€œAh, I see,โ€ Seungkwan nodded, clearly scheming.
โ€œHow about you all? Do you have families?โ€ Yejun asked, eyes meeting yours with interest.
โ€œAh, well,โ€ you stammered, not sure how to answer. You werenโ€™t single or interested in this man, but no one at the table knew that and it wasnโ€™t really the time for a big reveal.
โ€œSheโ€™s single,โ€ Seungkwan filled in the gap seamlessly.
โ€œAh,โ€ Yejun nodded, not really listening as the others shared their marital statuses with him as well.
ย ย ย  Jeonghan eavesdropped on your tableโ€™s conversation, chewing angrily. He trusted you, but that didnโ€™t make him wish that he could vaporize Kim Yejun any less.
โ€œYou okay, man?โ€ Jae noticed Jeonghanโ€™s sour mood.
โ€œYeah, just ready to be done with this,โ€ Jeonghan grumbled.
โ€œSame, this is so lame. We should go out afterwards and pick up chicks! Iโ€™m a great wingman,โ€ Jae boasted, wanting to stay in Jeonghanโ€™s good graces.
Jeonghan wanted to bang his head against the table. There was almost nothing he wanted less than that.
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[yn]: โ€˜should I still come over?โ€™
[๐Ÿฅฐ]: โ€˜pleaseโ€™
ย ย ย  You smiled, tucking the paperwork that you had gotten from Minghao into your bag. You were glad Jeonghan still wanted to see you, as he had seemed a little moody earlier. You couldnโ€™t blame him though, Seungkwan really had been pushing the YN & Yejun agenda today.
ย ย ย  Jeonghan stewed as he waited for you to arrive. The day hadnโ€™t been completely horrible, but it had certainly snapped things into perspective for him. He had genuinely been okay waiting for you to be ready to go public, but today had dislodged an ugly, jealous piece of him that he did not like at all. He wanted desperately to bring the topic up with you, but was also worried about pushing you too too far and too fast. What a dilemma.
โ€œHannie!โ€ he heard you calling as you opened the door. For a split second, he forgot everything that had been bothering him as you ran over to him excitedly. โ€œI brought you snacks!โ€
โ€œOoh!โ€ his eyes creased into a smile as you climbed onto his lap , kissing his nose sweetly. His hands naturally found their way to your hips as you tossed off your bag and settled in.
โ€œSorry about today,โ€ your lips drew into a straight line as you played with his hair.
โ€œSorry?โ€ he cocked his head to the side at you.
โ€œSeungkwan was on another level today. I donโ€™t imagine it was fun for you to see him try to set me up with Director Kim?โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ he shook his head, but the knot in his chest loosened and was replaced by relief.
โ€œActually, thatโ€™s why I was a little later than you today,โ€ you held up a finger before reaching for your bag to rifle through it. You retrieved the handful of papers and started reading from them, โ€œThere shall be no policy prohibiting peer coworkers from dating, although HR must be notified via form 0526-15,โ€ which you presented to Jeonghan with a flourish. โ€œWhat do you think? I know weโ€™ll have to give up our tough, intimidating personas, but-โ€
ย ย ย  Jeonghan cut you off with a kiss, before beaming at you. โ€œYou have no idea how ready I am to file that damn form,โ€ he enthused, almost exhilarated.
โ€œOh!?โ€ your eyes popped open, โ€œReally?โ€
โ€œYes, you dunce,โ€ he tapped you on the forehead impatiently, โ€œYouโ€™re mine, I want people to know.โ€
โ€œOh,โ€ you flushed. It wasnโ€™t like it was a total surprise, but to hear him say it so simply made your heart swell.
โ€œI also want Seungkwan to repent. Heโ€™s already a little scared of me.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re a big softy though,โ€ you giggled, kissing across his jaw contentedly. You felt Jeonghan swallow as his hands tightened around your waist.ย 
โ€œOh yeah?โ€ he queried, and you could already feel him hardening against you. You grimaced at his bad joke, but couldnโ€™t help the way your body reacted so readily to him.
โ€œI retract-, redact,โ€ you tried to say, but his hands were guiding you along his length and you lost the ability to form thought. โ€œHelp,โ€ you whimpered, clutching the front of his shirt as your clit throbbed.
ย ย ย  Jeonghan smiled. You were so responsive to him, it was one of the many things that he had come to adore about you over the past months.
โ€œPrincess canโ€™t think straight anymore?โ€ he teased, pulling your chin down to meet your eyes as he let you work your hips by yourself.
ย  You pouted, pupils dilating as your mouth fell open with little gasps and whimpers.
โ€œMy princess,โ€ he corrected himself, grinning up at you. You were so pretty when you were speechless for him.
โ€œYours,โ€ you nodded, loving this soft, possessive side of him.
โ€œTake this off for me,โ€ he tugged at your shirt lightly. You were more than happy to comply. โ€œMine, mine,โ€ he repeated as he kissed each of your palms before threading his fingers into yours. His lips sought out the sensitive skin of your breasts and nipped gently, continuing this โ€˜mineโ€™ mantra as your hands clutched his for support.
โ€œMy turn,โ€ you decided, standing up and pulling him into the bedroom. You pushed him onto the bed and helped him undress. Settling between his legs, trailed gentle kisses from his knees to his upper thighs. You could see the sinews of his muscles tense as you moved close and closer to his cock. โ€œMine,โ€ winked at him before closing your lips around the head, lapping your tongue against the underside.
โ€œOooOoh,โ€ Jeonghanโ€™s voice wavered as you massaged him. You giggled around him as you manipulated your lips up and down leisurely. You watched intently as he gripped the sheets, a sure sign that he was unraveling quickly.
โ€œYouโ€™re so cute, all worked up like that,โ€ you pulled back, teasing him slightly.
โ€œShut up,โ€ he glared at you weakly.
โ€œWill you cum in my mouth?โ€ you asked politely, hand stroking him as you waited for his answer.
โ€œThis time, yes,โ€ he nodded.
ย  Your eyes creased into happy half-moons as you worked your mouth back around him, swallowing deep. You applied a gentle pressure as you milked him, knowing it wouldnโ€™t be long.
โ€œYN,โ€ he warned, hand hitting the mattress as he tensed and unloaded. You showed him your tongue proudly before swallowing.
โ€œYou truly are filthy,โ€ he shook his head appreciatively as he pulled you against his side. There was no use denying it, it was very true.
โ€œYou like it.โ€
โ€œI love it,โ€ he corrected you without thinking.
ย ย ย  You froze for a split second, surprised to hear him use that word. Did he? Did you? You werenโ€™t sure, but the way it made you smile like a fool to hear that probably meant something, right?
โ€œWhen do you want to file that paperwork?โ€ Jeonghan asked, cutting off your mental spiral.
โ€œOh! Um, maybe tomorrow?โ€
ย ย ย  He smiled the brightest smile you thought you had ever seen on him. โ€œI canโ€™t wait until everyone knows that youโ€™re mine.โ€
ย ย ย  Damn, if that didnโ€™t make your heart swell and your pussy throb.
โ€œSay more stuff like that,โ€ you insisted, clambering on top of him. Jeonghan had to laugh, that mightโ€™ve been one of your most reasonable requests.
โ€œOh?โ€ he drawled, โ€œI canโ€™t wait to show up to happy hour with you, hold your hand in front of everyone,โ€ he nuzzled you as you played with his hair.
โ€œHold my hand? Youโ€™re gonna get us fired,โ€ you teased him playfully. It really tickled you to hear that such seemingly small things were what he looked forward to most.
โ€œI have lots of ideas that would actually result in that,โ€ Jeonghan grinned impishly up at you, his erection pressing against your inner thigh.
โ€œOf course you do,โ€ you chuckled as you lowered yourself on him. You rode him lovingly, from hilt to tip, and observed him.
He looked up at you, adoringly, hands resting loosely at your hips allowing you to set the pace.ย 
โ€œYou feel so good and you look so pretty,โ€ he pulled your forehead down to his and whispered. He looked directly into your eyes and his blown out pupils made your breath catch. You really did like him.
โ€œHannie,โ€ you whined, hand tightening at the back of his neck.
โ€œAll yours, princess. Cum on my cock for me,โ€ he whispered encouragement at you as his balls tightened.
โ€œCum with me?โ€ you asked, doing your best to hold off.
ย  ย  Jeonghan nodded, bucking his hips up into you just slightly as he complied, emptying himself into you as you came around him. You cupped his jaw and kissed him deeply before slumping over him, pulling him into an embrace.
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โ€œMinghao?โ€ you knocked on the wall of his cube as Jeonghan stood behind you.
โ€œYes?โ€ he turned, a little surprised to see the two of you there together.
โ€œWe have our form 0526-15.โ€
โ€œOh. Oh!โ€ He did a double take. โ€œI hate to have to tell you this, but we also need to follow policy. Seungkwan would be the person to process that. I can pass this along,โ€ he offered.
ย ย ย  You and Jeonghan looked at each other for a moment before shrugging. You were ready.
ย  ย  As you walked back towards the main staircase, you heard Seungkwan let out a strangled yelp after reading the paperwork.
โ€œHELP!! POLICE?!โ€
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part 3 is here, if youโ€™re so inclined!
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โ€œI donโ€™t want to not tell you that anymore.โ€
jeonghan x reader genre: fluff; angst word count: 4.1K
a/n: Hi lovelies! Here is the long overdue part 2 ofย โ€œI know, but donโ€™t say it.โ€ Itโ€™s been a few weeks since the events ofย โ€œI know, but donโ€™t say itโ€ and Jeonghan has been doing some thinking and is ready to take some action. I know 4,000 words is a bit long but I hope itโ€™s worth the read. Thanks for waiting for this, thanks for reading, and I hope you all enjoy :))ย ย 
p.s. In this fic you can decide for yourself if you want Jeonghan to be an idol or not- I mention that he travels for work and has busy schedules but I never explicitly state what he does so itโ€™s up to you! <3ย 
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Heart beating twice as fast as when you walked into the corner store, your eyes studied the brightly packaged snack foods that lined the checkout lane. You had a strategy, or a plan, rather: if you stared into the varieties of gum and treats with deep interest instead of looking forward in the direction of him then he simply wouldnโ€™t notice you.
Isnโ€™t it strange how someone can be so familiar in one environment, and with a change in setting they can suddenly become so foreign? Like seeing your teacher inside a cafรฉ when youโ€™re thirteen years old, the distance from the classroom making it feel as though youโ€™ve never actually met this person.
Inside the walls of your apartment, between your bedsheets, you knew Jeonghan very well. Deeply. Intimately. You even knew him at gatherings amongst your mutual friends. That was where you met, after all; friends of friends. As much as you wanted to know him in every environment, the nature of your relationship simply didnโ€™t allow for that. He didnโ€™t allow for that.
Just last week he watched fondly as you made grilled cheese for you both and served it on your old Mickey Mouse shaped plates, which Jeonghan didnโ€™t miss the opportunity to poke fun at. โ€œIโ€™ve had them since I was a kid, you jerk,โ€ you had defended yourself through an amused smile. And yet, spotting him two people ahead of you in the checkout line was so unfamiliar it felt as though you two could be strangers. Your heart was aching with anxiety, and perhaps with longing that you werenโ€™t ready to address. Questions ran through your mind as you scrambled to figure out how to handle the predicament, and you wished there was some sort of handbook for navigating a very public run in with your friend with benefits. What was the protocol for running into your fuck buddy out in the wild?
And why was it so nerve wracking to see him like this? Was it simply the unfamiliarity? Or was it seeing him live the life you werenโ€™t part of? Of course you knew he lived a whole life outside your apartment walls. Every time he left, he shut the door behind him, effectively shutting you out of his world. Seeing him now gave you a glimpse of that world; perfectly mundane and real. Suddenly, there he was, charming as ever as he flashed a sweet smile at the cashier. You were jealous that someone else got his public smiles.
Despite your attempt to avert your eyes in hopes he wouldnโ€™t notice you, pulling your gaze away from Jeonghan turned out to be quite the challenge. It shouldnโ€™t have been a surprise to you, considering you couldnโ€™t help but observe him as he dozed off against your pillows each night he came over. He was beautiful and enigmatic, making him an attractive and enticing mystery that you were always trying to figure out. You peered over the person in front of you and watched as he placed his card back inside the wallet sleeve. Such a mundane action but you were fascinated by the movements of his fingers. Your focus was so fixed on his hands and delicate wrists that you didnโ€™t notice Jeonghan looking down the line casually. Glancing back up at his face, you found his eyes on you as realization hit his features before you could divert your attention elsewhere. Your jaw dropped open slightly as his eyes widened with surprise. You wondered if he was also confused as to how to handle the situation.
It was him, after all, keeping you separate from these moments of his life. It was complex because he made it so. Jeonghan had been betrayed in the past, and with his frequent trips abroad for work and his busy schedules even when he was home, he was resistant to committing. Those were the excuses he used, at least. Youโ€™d be lying if you said you hadnโ€™t questioned whether he was just avoidant of committing to you, specifically.
As you both stared at each other, a small part of you hoped heโ€™d wave your way quickly before exiting the store. A bigger part of yourself called that smaller part of you a fucking liar because if he left without addressing you, youโ€™d be crushed. A faint smile appeared on his mouth as he waved cutely at you. You nodded your head at him coolly, biting back a smile that had to have been beyond obvious judging from the way he chuckled at you.
Instead of leaving the store with his single bag, he backed away without pulling his gaze from you and crossed his arms over his abdomen and justโ€ฆ waited. He waited for the person ahead of you to finish buying their items, and when it was your turn to check out, Jeonghan shrugged at you as if to say, what are the chances? And then he stepped toward you slowly, a small smile curving on his lips once more.
โ€œWell hello,โ€ he whispered to you, leaning toward your ear as though the greeting was a secret. There was an edge of familiarity in his voice, despite the unfamiliar circumstance, your clandestine affair clashing under the grocery storeโ€™s fluorescent lights.
โ€œHi,โ€ you smiled, a bit awkwardly, still unsure how to handle the situation. However, he didnโ€™t seem to carry the same nervousness, the man reaching for a couple of your bags. โ€œNo, no, thatโ€™s ok, I can carry them,โ€ you tried to refuse his help.
Jeonghan sighed before speaking your name with a smile, amusement in his breath. Smirking at him, you pulled a few of your bags off the counter. โ€œIโ€™m stronger than I look,โ€ you teased, an attempt to find some comfortability. Eyes scanning his delicate features, you found yourself suppressing your desire to kiss the man like you wanted to. Like he was very much not a stranger, because he wasnโ€™t.
โ€œYou donโ€™t look so weak,โ€ he tilted his head in a flirty manner, his eyes traveling along your stature as he flashed you a cheeky smile. It was the kind of smile that said, Iโ€™ve kissed up and down those arms, and suddenly you were transported back to being in your bed last week, the last time you saw him, when he did just that. It was before he got up to make you both grilled cheese sandwiches, and he was lying next to you, trailing his lips along your upper arm, complimenting how beautiful you were, his eyes heavy with sleep. The way he watched you made it seem as though he was lost in the memory too, and you wondered if he wanted to kiss you in this store too. This man, a non-stranger despite the unlabeled relationship, knows youโ€”even in the new setting. โ€œJust let me help anyway.โ€
โ€œFine,โ€ you relented, nervously watching him as he scooped the groceries up and you both started leaving the store. Together. โ€œSo, this is unexpected, huh?โ€
โ€œI was thinking more like a pleasant surprise,โ€ he grinned. โ€œI like seeing you out like this.โ€
Stealing a glance at him, you found him watching you with a small smile on his face as you walked down the sidewalk in the direction of your apartment. He had a key to your door, you thought. Yet you were being so awkward. โ€œWhat, at the grocery store?โ€ You asked, lifting your eyebrows in question.
โ€œOutside those four walls,โ€ he spoke quietly through a smirk. Your lips twitched slightly, despite your fight to keep the smile off your face, but you were sure he noticed anyway. There was a piece of you who found his comments so cruel, so careless, as though he was either oblivious of your feelings (which was doubtful-or really, impossible) or he simply didnโ€™t care about toying with them. He used to be cautious, watching his words, holding certain feelings back. You used to wish he would stop being so controlled, but now you were realizing that Jeonghan speaking and acting more freely was a double-edged sword. โ€œIf I had known you needed some groceries I would have picked them up on my way over.โ€
โ€œOh, so you were on your way over?โ€ You questioned with a scoff, but not without obvious amusement. โ€œThis is news to me.โ€ ย 
โ€œI could have been,โ€ he smiled mischievously. Speaking with Jeonghan sometimes was like communicating through riddles. There was often a second meaning to the things he said, and you were left trying to decipher them. โ€œOr we could have gone shopping together.โ€ So careless.
As you walked the short distance to your apartment, you allowed your mind to conjure up a scenario in which you were shopping with Jeonghan. You could picture him grabbing an extra container of ramen with the justification of, โ€œI know you get hungry late at night.โ€ Jeonghan knew these things about you.
You chose not to respond to Jeonghanโ€™s comment. The idea of doing normal mundane things with him was exciting to you, as well as painful when you remembered that the terms of your situationship didnโ€™t include picking out fruit together. You didnโ€™t want to let him in on either of those feelings.
โ€œAre you going to carry those bags all the way up to my apartment?โ€ You asked him when you arrived outside the complex.
โ€œOf course, Iโ€™m a gentleman,โ€ he told you, flashing a flirty grin.
โ€œThatโ€™s not the first word Iโ€™d use to describe you,โ€ you teased him, watching as he widened his eyes playfully.
โ€œWhoah, are you finally loosening up?โ€ He asked, his voice light with surprise as he poked fun at the tense and awkward demeanor you sported since spotting each other in the market.
โ€œNo,โ€ you said stubbornly, โ€œBut I can get this. Really,โ€ you nodded at the bags.
โ€œHey, just let me help you,โ€ he said more seriously. โ€œItโ€™s the least I can do,โ€ he added, and you felt it was another one of those double-meaning comments.
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โ€œYour key or mine?โ€ Jeonghan teased you when you approached your front door, making you shoot him a glare as the metal jingled in your hand.
โ€œThatโ€™s strictly for when I donโ€™t want to get out of bed to come let you in,โ€ you joked as you pushed your door open and stepped inside, Jeonghan giggling as he followed behind you.
Setting your gaze on him as you both kicked off your shoes, you exhaled slowly, suddenly feeling much more relaxed. As though any remaining anxiety over your surprise run in with the man melted from your frame the moment you entered the familiar space. This was how you knew Jeonghan. You knew how to handle him here.
He lifted his eyes from the floor and caught you staring at him, though before he could question you on it, you nodded at the bags in his hand. โ€œYou can just bring those in here,โ€ you told him, starting toward the kitchen.
When he set the bags down on the counter, he instantly began sifting through them, pulling out items and navigating your kitchen to put them away. The various snacks went in the cupboard next to the refrigerator, and when you opened your mouth to tell them, you quickly closed it again because he already knew. Of course he did. He knew this kitchen.
โ€œHey, you shouldnโ€™t have bought these,โ€ he held up the package of cookies before placing it into the shelf.
Smiling at it, you raised your eyebrows in an accusatory way. โ€œBut you finished them all last week.โ€
โ€œExactly,โ€ he giggled cutely. โ€œThatโ€™s why I bought them for you.โ€ Jeonghan reached into his own grocery bag and pulled out the same cookies.
โ€œOh,โ€ you grinned, walking over to him and grabbing the package out of his hands. โ€œNow we have extras.โ€ We. A slip of the tongue. But at the same time, there was a we. And it was becoming increasingly difficult to stop yourself from grouping the both of you together as a unit.
The carelessness that had developed between you both over the past several hangouts was only complicating things further, and your relief from entering the apartment started being replaced by irritation. We statements, buying snack foods for each other, flirty whispers in public, the spare apartment keys, the near confession of truth while tangled up in sheets a few weeks ago; it was all becoming too much. You wanted it all. And the more you got it, the harder it was to watch him leave again.
Jeonghan lifted his hand and settled it on your hip. The touch, despite being welcome, fuck it was so welcome, seared into your skin and shot a pain to your heart. You wanted more from him. And you didnโ€™t know how long you could keep yourself from asking for it. Once you did that, asked for it, you would either get everything youโ€™d been wanting or youโ€™d have to walk away from all of this. The course of your relationship would hit a fork, leading to two different fates.
โ€œHannie,โ€ you sighed, glancing down at his forearm, trailing your eyes toward his hand that was gripping your hip and pulling you closer. โ€œWhat are you doing in my neighborhood?โ€
โ€œI told you,โ€ he spoke gently.
โ€œYou were coming to see me?โ€ You clarified, doubtfully. โ€œBe for real.โ€
โ€œI was actually,โ€ he told you as his tone became much more earnest and serious. โ€œI wanted to talk.โ€ Your gaze scanned his features, studying, trying to figure out his expression. โ€œThe cookies were my excuse.โ€
Scoffing, you shrugged at him in frustration. At him for coming over like this. At yourself for feeling happy about it. You were annoyed by his lack of commitment because this thing between you both could be so great if only heโ€™d let it be. โ€œWhat are we doing?โ€ You asked, helpless as your shoulders slumped slightly.
โ€œWeโ€™re talking,โ€ he told you, his eyes full of emotion and concern at your crumbling stature.
โ€œNo, you know what I mean,โ€ you corrected, taking a step back so his hand fell slack against his side. โ€œLook, I know you donโ€™t trust easily, I know that commitment is scary-โ€ you paused for fear that the tears stinging your eyes would slip down your cheeks. โ€œYour hurt from the past isnโ€™t my doing.โ€
โ€œI know that,โ€ he acknowledged somberly.
โ€œBut youโ€™ve been holding it against me,โ€ you told him sadly. โ€œI know you were hurt, I know it was awful and Iโ€™m so sorry that happened to you, but youโ€™re letting someone elseโ€™s actions hurt both of us now.โ€ His ex had been unfaithful while Jeonghan was away in another country, his busy work schedules keeping him away for too long. Its effect on Jeonghan manifested in a resistance to commit, but it wasnโ€™t simply because he was scared of being hurt again. Jeonghan was away and busy more often than the average person due to the circumstances of his job, and he believed this to be a killer in relationships. During one of your first nights together, he had admitted that he didnโ€™t think it was fair for him to dedicate himself to others because his partner would ultimately deserve more than he was able to provide. โ€œI canโ€™t really give enough. And if someone is willing to tolerate my life and put up with all the time apart, then theyโ€™re probably too good for me,โ€ he had told you early on in your affair. The comment had broken your heart then, and it only became more heartbreaking the closer you got to him. He deserved someone to choose him. And you were trying to.
โ€œI know,โ€ he again accepted his fault, almost too easily. โ€œIโ€™m sorry.โ€
โ€œI know youโ€™re sorry, but I canโ€™t carry your past on my back like that anymore,โ€ you shook your head, feeling the first tear fall onto the apple of your cheek. You quickly wiped it away, watching as Jeonghan took a step forward before stopping himself. โ€œI canโ€™t. Not if youโ€™re not going to give me access to your present and future.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t want you to carry it,โ€ he shook his head, his frustration with himself coming through in the way he tensed his jaw. โ€œI-โ€ he sighed, giving up on his words as he stared at you, disappointment in himself taking over his gaze.
โ€œSeeing you today- it struck me that you have a whole life that Iโ€™m not a part of.โ€ Your bottom lip trembled as you spoke, more tears gathering on your lash line. โ€œAnd then you say that shit about going to the store together and how am I supposed to hear that and then not want it? I want the responsibilities with you, I want the routines, I want the mundane-โ€
โ€œI want it too,โ€ he blurted out, panic overtaking his features, the words knocking the air from your lungs. The reality of losing you, and of losing him came crashing into your minds, resulting in a moment of long overdue honesty. โ€œIโ€™m sorry for hurting you. Iโ€™m sorry for doing this to us for so long.โ€
Shaking your head in frustration, Jeonghan opened his mouth to speak again, desperation written in his voice and his rounded eyes. โ€œIโ€™m so sorry.โ€
โ€œWe deserve better than this,โ€ you told him sternly, a quiver in your voice. โ€œWhat she did shouldnโ€™t keep us from being happy, Hannie.โ€
Jeonghan took another step forward, tentative as he watched how you responded to him. When you didnโ€™t back away, he came a bit closer so he was standing directly in front of you within arms length.
โ€œI canโ€™t take back the way Iโ€™ve been treating you,โ€ he frowned. โ€œBut I need you to believe me when I say I want you to have my present and future.โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t say that if you donโ€™t mean it,โ€ you interrupted, giving him one last chance to back out and take it all back. You couldnโ€™t hear these words from him if they werenโ€™t sincere.
โ€œI mean it,โ€ he assured you, his eyes staring deep into yours as he tried to relay his candor. He reached his hand out for yours, waiting for an ok for him to take it. Was it ok?
โ€œWanting something and allowing yourself to have it are different things,โ€ you pointed out, Jeonghan nodding quickly as though he knew what you meant. Glancing down at his hand, you sighed before pushing yours forward slightly and letting your fingers brush against his own. He quickly wrapped your digits up with his own.
โ€œI came over here to talk to you,โ€ he circled back to the intent behind his trip to your apartment. โ€œIโ€™ve been trying to figure out what to say for the past week, or really month, and- can I just get this out?โ€ You took a beat, your eyes roaming over his face before you nodded. He sighed in relief, gathering his composure a bit by standing up taller and broadening his shoulders. โ€œI donโ€™t want you to think Iโ€™m doing this rashly. Itโ€™s not spur of the moment, Iโ€™ve been feeling this way for a long time and I apologize for the time itโ€™s taken me to get to this point,โ€ he started, your eyes pulling into a focused stare.
โ€œI love you,โ€ he said simply, his voice light but serious. Those three words, the ones you both had felt but left unspoken for far too long, sent a jolt of shock and electricity through your body. Your heart picked up speed as you stared into his pretty features, so stunning and striking. โ€œIโ€™m tired of pretending I donโ€™t, and I donโ€™t want to not tell you that anymore. That night we were in bed, a few weeks ago, I wanted to tell you so fucking bad, angel. I want to say what I feel towards you.โ€
โ€œJeonghan,โ€ you whispered, the man shaking his head.
โ€œI love you,โ€ he said again. โ€œI have for a long time.โ€ You felt another tear slide down your cheek and Jeonghan squeezed your hand in response before a humorless laugh escaped his lips. โ€œI came here intending to tell you this before any tears fell but-โ€
โ€œYou love me.โ€ You finally spoke, the air returning to your lungs. His confession wasnโ€™t news to you. You had both been in love for the better portion of your affair, but hearing the words leave his mouth marked something special. A possible new phase in your relationship. One where you both could take the risk and love each other openly, and finally commit to each other. You had met the split in the road, and he was choosing the path where a future for you and him together existed.
โ€œI love you,โ€ he said again, as though he couldnโ€™t get enough of saying it now that he finally spoke them. You wondered if the words tasted like he had been sucking on a sugar cube, coating his tongue with sweetness.
โ€œSo- wait- fuck, I-โ€ you stuttered, your thoughts floating aimlessly in your mind, being replaced with feelings of love. โ€œWhat do you want then, Jeonghan?โ€ You finally got out, searching his expression for hints that this was really happening and it wasnโ€™t some fucked up dream.
โ€œSo much,โ€ he gave a single breathy laugh, brushing his thumb over the side of your hand. โ€œBut really, so little. I want to walk through this door and be able to tell you I love you. I want to sleep in that bed with you for an entire night instead of leaving like an idiot. I want to kiss you when we leave for work in the morning. I want a little drawer in your bathroom and bedroom for my stuff, and I know you have a lot of shit but I want it anyway,โ€ he interjected, a smile finally cracking through your expression as you shook your head at him in fond disbelief. โ€œAnd I want the same for your things at my place. I want to go grocery shopping with you and I want to meet each otherโ€™s families, I want to tell our friends about us. I want to call you when Iโ€™m on the road and tell you I miss you, because I love you. And it sucks being away from the ones you love.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re rambling,โ€ you giggled, lifting your hand that wasnโ€™t held by his toward him, only to discover the cookies were still in your grasp. Rolling your eyes at the package, you set it down on the counter.
โ€œI want to eat those with you too,โ€ he added, nodding at the package as he wore a sweet smile.
โ€œAre you going to allow yourself to have these things though? Like, really?โ€ You questioned him. You wanted to believe him. And you would if he let you. Youโ€™d take his word as truth, he just had to speak them and act.
โ€œYes. I want you, and I want us together,โ€ he told you. โ€œIโ€™m in,โ€ he let out a breath of disbelief that he finally said it, and relief because he finally said it. โ€œAnd I hope you are too.โ€
โ€œOk,โ€ you simply said, hiding the absolute glee you felt in favor of seeing that glare overtake his features. You smiled at him as he shook his head playfully at you. ย 
โ€œOk?โ€ He smirked, cocking his head to the side. โ€œThatโ€™s it?โ€
โ€œWell Iโ€™m not going to deny you of what you want,โ€ you beamed, watching as Jeonghanโ€™s smirk morphed into a happy grin despite the scoff escaping his lips.
โ€œAngel, donโ€™t play with me right now.โ€
โ€œBut itโ€™s so fun,โ€ you whispered teasingly as he tugged you toward him. Your hand finally raised to cradle his jaw and guided his face to yours, kissing him hard. Youโ€™d kissed Jeonghan many times since, but this meeting was something different. Electricity zipped through your frame, making you push yourself further against him until there was no room left between you both. His lips worked against yours with fervor, his teeth nipping at your bottom lip as you moaned against his mouth. And yet, the smiles you both wore made it difficult to keep up your pace, both of you too happy to conceal it.
All too soon, he pulled away with quickened breath. ย โ€œDo you want all of that too?โ€ He whispered against your lips, both of your mouths, once again, forming into grins against each otherโ€™s.
โ€œYou know I do,โ€ you replied genuinely. โ€œI love you, Hannie.โ€
โ€œSay it again,โ€ he grinned, his lips just barely grazing over yours, his eyelids fluttering open as he pulled away to peer at your features.
Sighing jokingly, your hand slid to the back of his neck to toy with the strands of hair that rested against his skin. โ€œI love you,โ€ you told him again with a soft smile. โ€œAnd I want you, and I want us.โ€
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wonwoonlight ยท 6 months
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when you're fighting and jeonghan takes things a little too far.
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A/n: just some random words vomit. As always, idk what this is๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿป
You don't like fighting with Jeonghan because of obvious reasons. Then again, who actually likes fighting with their significant other?
But you don't like fighting with Jeonghan because it's eerie silence and cold shoulders. It's you two, the most hard headed people on the planet trying to outlast the other. It's a battle of pride and it always ends with you eventually giving in to his apology regardless of how upset you actually are.
Of course there are times when you're in the wrong. But you apologize pretty quickly when it's on you, unlike Jeonghan who deems it necessary to fight first and apologize later when you're even more upset than you initially were for obvious reasons.
You always give in because you love him and you don't like the fact that you're not talking to him.
Apparently, Jeonghan is a little too comfortable with that fact and he may have taken you a little for granted, pushing your buttons further even when you have sternly told him that you're not comfortable with the fact that he's meeting up with his ex-girlfriend that he dated for five long yearsโ€“which is more time than the entirety of the period you've known Jeonghan to begin with.
Perhaps it comes from a place of insecurity. But the ex texts him out of nowhere at one in the morning, pretty much sober from the way she has texted him, and heโ€™s ready to just okay-ed her invitation to join her in some pub because, apparently, she sounds sad and it seems like she needs someone to talk to. That he worries she might be by herself at this hour because, according to the information that you don't fucking need, she tends to be reckless at ungodly hours.
You offer to go with him, understanding where his worries might come from and is actually glad that he knows the world isn't kind to unsuspecting women, even more at these hours. A little proud also that he's trying to do something about it.
But Jeonghan, for some reason unknown to you, decides that you coming with him wouldn't be necessary. And the talk spirals much too far away to the point where he's annoyed and he's giving you an attitude about you not trusting him and et cetera et cetera.
"Fine." You give up, resigning yourself to the ugly feeling in the pit of your stomach. You can't even look at Jeonghan right now. You don't understand why the two of you are even fighting about this. Is it that important for him to go see his ex? Or are you really being as unreasonable as Jeonghan is trying to make you be? But you're upset and apparently that's not enough for Jeonghan to relent. "Whatever. Go if that's what you want."
"Whatโ€“" He doesn't even get to finish his sentence, because you already turn away to return into your shared room, not minding whatever he might have to say. You never do this, and as much as it pains him to admit that he might've taken things a little too far, he didn't realize that it is to the point where you'll retort to this.
You don't even look up when he calls you, doesn't try to listen to whatever he has to say and simply acts like he doesn't exist. You'd usually at least react to what he has to say, but right now you don't even look like you're upset, which scares him even more.
He's been on the receiving ends of your silent treatments, which he actually admits is on him, but you would usually still look at him, still look like you're listening to him. Which is how he's always been able to make you forgive him.
He knows what to do when you're annoyed, when you're sad and upset. But this?
This is a new territory that he doesn't know how to thread. He'd usually ignore you back, a little too prideful and too childish to admit that he's wrong. But he can tell that this isn't like the usual silent treatment you've given him before.
Fine. A single word that's not fine at all and still rings in his head right now because you never sound like that.
Like you're done with him.
"Baby, pleaseโ€ฆ"
You continue to ignore him, playing with your phone and obviously texting someone that he hopes isn't about him.
"I'mโ€ฆ I'm not going, okay? I'm sorry." He admits in record time. "I don't evenโ€ฆ I'm sorry. I don't want to give excuses. I've upset you and I'm sorry I didn't listen to you."
Jeonghan sees your fingers pause, which at least he presumes means you're listening to him. He kneels beside you on the bed, glad that you're not rejecting his presence. He reaches for your fingers, and you let him as he cradles them inside his palms and takes a deep breath.
"Don'tโ€ฆ" He exhales before he opens his eyes, catching yours and breathes the next words like it's a secret. "Don't let go of me?"
"What?" You ask, startled and caught off guard at the sudden change of topic. "Where did you even get the idea? Han, I'm not breaking up with you."
"You justโ€ฆ" You pull his fingers, asking him to sit next to you on the bed which he immediately complies to. He buries himself in your neck almost immediately, and suddenly it's you comforting him instead of the other way around. "You sound done with me and I can't get that out of my head."
You sigh, your fingers combing through his hair to calm him down.
"We'll talk about it later, okay?"
"I love you. You know that, right?"
"I love you too, Han."
He buries himself further into your embrace.
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tangylemonade ยท 11 months
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๐š‚๐š†๐™ด๐™ด๐šƒ
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๐™น๐šŽ๐š˜๐š—๐š๐š‘๐šŠ๐š— ๐šก ๐š๐š— ๐š›๐šŽ๐šŠ๐š๐šŽ๐š›
๐™ฒ๐š’๐š๐šŠ๐š›๐šŽ๐š๐š๐šŽ๐šœ ๐š‚๐šŽ๐š›๐š’๐šŽ๐šœ ๐š™๐š. 3
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๐™ฒ๐š’๐š๐šŠ๐š›๐šŽ๐š๐š๐šŽ๐šœ & ๐™ฒ๐š’๐š๐šŠ๐š›๐šŽ๐š๐š๐šŽ๐šœ ๐š™๐š. ๐Ÿธ
๐™ณ๐š›๐šŠ๐š‹๐š‹๐š•๐šŽ
๐Ÿท๐Ÿพ+ ๐™ผ๐™ธ๐™ฝ๐™พ๐š๐š‚ ๐™ณ๐™ฝ๐™ธ
โš ๏ธŽ๏ธŽ & โ˜๏ธŽ๏ธŽ : ๐š‚๐š–๐šž๐š ๐šŠ๐š—๐š ๐™ต๐š•๐šž๐š๐š
๐™ฒ๐š˜๐š—๐š๐šŠ๐š’๐š—๐šœ: ๐™น๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š™๐š•๐š˜๐š๐š•๐šŽ๐šœ๐šœ ๐šœ๐šŽ๐šก, ๐š›๐šŽ๐šŠ๐š๐šŽ๐š› ๐šŠ๐š—๐š ๐™น๐šŽ๐š˜๐š—๐š๐š‘๐šŠ๐š— ๐šŠ๐š›๐šŽ ๐š’๐š— ๐š•๐š˜๐šŸ๐šŽ โ™ก
๐š†๐š˜๐š›๐š ๐™ฒ๐š˜๐šž๐š—๐š: ๐™ฐ๐š‹๐š˜๐šž๐š 1๐š”
๐™ธ'๐š– ๐š™๐š›๐šŽ๐š๐š๐šข ๐šœ๐šž๐š›๐šŽ ๐š๐š‘๐š’๐šœ ๐š’๐šœ ๐š๐š— ๐š‹๐šž๐š ๐š’๐š ๐šŠ๐š—๐šข๐š๐š‘๐š’๐š—๐š ๐š’๐šœ๐š—โ€™๐š ๐š™๐š•๐šŽ๐šŠ๐šœ๐šŽ ๐š•๐šŽ๐š ๐š–๐šŽ ๐š”๐š—๐š˜๐š  ๐šŠ๐š—๐š ๐™ธโ€™๐š•๐š• ๐šœ๐šŽ๐šŽ ๐š ๐š‘๐šŠ๐š ๐™ธ ๐šŒ๐šŠ๐š— ๐š๐š˜ ๐š๐š˜ ๐š’๐š–๐š™๐š›๐š˜๐šŸ๐šŽ ๐š’๐š. ๐™ธโ€™๐š– ๐šœ๐š๐š’๐š•๐š• ๐š•๐šŽ๐šŠ๐š›๐š—๐š’๐š—๐š ๐šœ๐š˜ ๐š๐šŽ๐šŽ๐š๐š‹๐šŠ๐šŒ๐š” ๐š’๐šœ ๐šŠ๐š•๐š ๐šŠ๐šข๐šœ ๐šŠ๐š™๐š™๐š›๐šŽ๐šŒ๐š’๐šŠ๐š๐šŽ๐š. ๐Ÿค
๐™ฐ๐šœ ๐šŠ๐š•๐š ๐šŠ๐šข๐šœ, ๐š’๐š ๐šข๐š˜๐šž ๐šŽ๐š—๐š“๐š˜๐šข๐šŽ๐š ๐š™๐šŽ๐šŠ๐šœ๐šŽ ๐š๐š˜ ๐š›๐šŽ๐š‹๐š•๐š˜๐š ๐šŠ๐š—๐š ๐š•๐šŽ๐š ๐š–๐šŽ ๐š”๐š—๐š˜๐š  ๐š ๐š‘๐šŠ๐š ๐šข๐š˜๐šž ๐š๐š‘๐š˜๐šž๐š๐š‘๐š! โ˜ป
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Bliss.
Every moment has been pure bliss. On free days you would talk through the night and make love in the rays of the rising sun. Nearly sleeping through your alarm clock was the norm and the time you tried to save by showering together was spent on everything you did instead of showering.
You were a drug Jeonghan couldnโ€™t get enough of. When you went to work you would text him that you missed him. During your lunch breaks you would head to the single bathroom and facetime him.
Days when Jeonghan was busy and you would get home first were the hardest for him. The pictures youโ€™d send were pure and absolute torture. You would always shower first thing and sometimes your way of letting him know you were safe and sound at home was increasingly more insinuating pictures/videos.
Today you filmed yourself lotioning, paying close attention to all his favorite things.
Hard.
Thatโ€™s how he felt for the rest of the day. Hard, hot and restless. You owned his thoughts so much that he didnโ€™t even reach for the pack of cigarettes that were no longer in his pocket.
When he got home there was no time for words. You were already in his arms and he was already taking his serving of all that he craved. What he couldnโ€™t fit in his hands he occupied with his lips.
Jeonghan wanted to devour you. You had to fight him for a breath and even that was breaf.
Images of the sensual videos youโ€™d sent him played in his mind as he once again recounted the things he swore to do the moment he saw you.
Now you weโ€™re against the wall. His warm breath tickled agonizing shivers down your skin as you begged for him to fill you.
โ€œNot yet.โ€ Jeonghan mused. โ€œI havenโ€™t taught you enough of a lesson.โ€
You were frantically impatient. He managed to be everywhere on you and yet it wasnโ€™t enough.
More. You needed more of him.
Just as you always do.
His taste was irresistible. The way his tongue felt against yours. So so sweet.
Down on his knees his face rested between your thighs. Your clothes had long been discarded, granted there was never much to begin with, courtesy of your plan to greet him. His mouth was like fire against your core. Your desperate hands pulled at his locks of silky hair as you struggled to form even the smallest thought beyond breathless pleasure.
Endless pleasure.
Even when your leg was twitching and you were all but collapsed on the floor Jeonghan didnโ€™t stop. After all, you had a lesson to learn.
Only once you were too sensitive to do anything but cry did he pull away. You felt cold without him. He softly swiped your tears away and tenderly kissed you. His lips tasted of you.
โ€œShould we continue?โ€ He asked, his voice as soft as the kisses he brushed against your lips and tears stained cheeks.
โ€œPlease.โ€ You said hoarsely, your greedy hands reaching to feel him.
You pulled him back to you, clumsily undoing his belt with one hand while you palmed the bulge underneath his jeans with the other.
You needed more of him. Always and forever. Enough wasnโ€™t a possibility.
Once youโ€™d freed him from his constraints no time was wasted before he flipped you around, pressing you against the wall before pushing into you. Stars painted the world around you, his touches buzzed against your skin.
โ€œMhhhโ€ฆJeongโ€ฆahhโ€ฆhan.โ€
That was all you could say just as he slammed into you again, this time leaving no breath to spare.
Your face cradled in his hand as he guarded your head from the wall. With the other arm he held you impossibly close, your back pressed snugly against his chest. You felt the pounding of his heart while his rapid breathing let you know just how much he was losing himself in you. Jeonghans pace quickened as he got closer and closer.
The organism that rippled through you was of great magnitude but he still hadnโ€™t finished. As much as you hated the thought of him not finishing the overstimulation was too intense for you. Knowing your body well he knew you were truly at your limit. He pulled out and you looked at him in delirious concern. Even though you were completely spent you still wanted him to be able to have his fill.
โ€œYou're tired.โ€ He said before you could protest . He looked a little pained as his apoching orgasm slipped away.
He wasnโ€™t wrong. You couldnโ€™t take anymore but that didnโ€™t mean you couldnโ€™t give.
Without a world you dropped to your knees and pulled off the condom.
Jeonghan couldnโ€™t believe how spectacular your tongue felt against him right now. You did all the right things with your hands and mouth, never leaving anything out.
It was long before his hot seed was shooting down your throat. With full eye contact you swallowed, driving him absolutely mad.
Fuck. Whatโ€™s a guy supposed to do with a lover who could do all THAT with their mouth? Either way you two had forever to find out.
Shower, then bed.
Jeonghan layed on your stomach as you played with his hair. You loved to put little braids in his hair that he never took out until he got ready for work.
Sweet nothings were whispered.
Jeonghan would ask about your day. You would ask about his.
Some nights the talks would be serious. But tonight it was light. Light and airy like whipped cream, sweet as it too.
The way Jeonghan looked up into your eyes was his confession of love to you for the umpteenth time. Your response was always the same.
A fight of who could think of the most absurd ways to confess their love was tonight's event.
It ended in laughs and cuddles.
The night was cool and your hearts were warm.
Sweet sweet bliss.
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Hi ๐Ÿ‘‹ Could I please request prompts #31 and #37 with Jeonghan please? Perhaps an argument after late night practice, but completely up to you ๐Ÿ˜Š
of course!! ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿฝ thank you anon for submitting!!! and being honest, i had too much fun writing this, ๐Ÿ˜ญ feel free to send in another whenever you want
31: โ€œwalk out and weโ€™re doneโ€
37: โ€œiโ€™d rather stab my own heart than make you cryโ€
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WORK WITH ME- YOON JEONGHAN
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tension ran high through the house me and jeonghan recently brought as a staple that we were together, and would be until the end of time
but as of now, the anger dispersed between the two of us had us glaring at each other while not letting the other speak, i tried to let jeonghan speak his mind, but then i nipped it in the bud, the moment he spoke nonsense
jeonghan on the other hand wouldnโ€™t let me get a word in at all from the start, so were we really arguing? or was my boyfriend yelling at me for something absolutely stupid
i sighed as i propped my legs up on the couch due to jeonghan still rambling on about me and i sighed
โ€œif im such a bother then iโ€™ll just fucking leave jeonghan thatโ€™s all you had to sayโ€
i looked up at jeonghan and realized my words didnโ€™t even get through to him because of how stubborn he was not to hear me
โ€œokayโ€
i stood up off the couch and motioned my way towards the key rack that held the keys of my car and decided to stay at the dorms since they still have some of my clothes
โ€œwalk out and weโ€™re doneโ€
i stopped and closed the door but not before deeply inhaling and glaring at jeonghan due to him starting up another rant about me
i took a deep breath and didnโ€™t even notice that i was getting more and more upset as he went on
โ€œjeonghan why are you even mad at me? what did i even do?โ€
i chewed on my bottom lip and a tear slipped and touched my palm, more falling after that one and choked back a sob
โ€œi asked you to do something five hours ago and i come home and nothing is doneโ€
โ€œwell if you checked your phone you wouldโ€™ve saw my textโ€
i sniffled and told jeonghan i would cancel my own schedule in the morning and only then did he hear my sobs
โ€œy/n com-โ€
i raised my hand in the air and shook my head as i made my way to the bathroom to wash my face
โ€œiโ€™m tired jeonghan, im crying already, please stop, iโ€™m tired of this argument that wouldnโ€™t have happened if you just checked your phoneโ€
and for the first time that night jeonghan shut up
an hour passed and he still heard the sniffles of his partner and sighed knowing that he was the cause, because y/n did in fact text him
he sighed as he went to apologize and communicate with y/n because this argument was in fact on him this time
โ€œy/n baby iโ€™m sorryโ€
at the call of my name i looked up at jeonghan and nodded
โ€œiโ€™m sorry y/n and being honestโ€
jeonghan seemed to trail off as he thought of what to say next and that indicated to me that this was from his heart and not crap he came up with
โ€œiโ€™d rather stab my own heart than make you cryโ€
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thatgirl-yn ยท 1 year
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PLEASEEE write something about paris fashion week jeonghan and reader!! iโ€™d love it if they could be in a relationship but whatever you choose iโ€™ll be happy with!
Reconnected
Character: Jeonghan x reader
Genre: Fluff, bestfriend!au, model!Jeonghan x baker!reader
Word count: 970
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You are in your bakery greeting a customer when you felt your phone buzz. It was Jeonghan, your high school best friend, who messaged you saying that he is in your city, you two got separated when you went to Paris to continue pursuing your passion which is baking while he entered the modeling industry in Korea. You hadnโ€™t contacted him for a long time because both of you became so busy after graduating from high school and going your separate ways. Your journey studying and living in a foreign country wasnโ€™t easy and it was a big adjustment in your life, you have to adapt to their language, culture, and lifestyle. Nevertheless, it was still fun, you met new friends, and most importantly you established your career. Now you own a bakery in town, itโ€™s pretty popular among teens. You replied to your friend to meet you near where he is staying.
You wore a basic tee and jeans topped with a trench coat and walked to the hotel where Jeonghan is staying. You saw him waiting outside wearing a black shirt, and black jeans topped with a black coat. The wind blew his long hair gently. It was the first time you saw him after many years but damn he is still as hot as you remembered or even hotter. He looks more mature but he is so handsome with his long hair. You heaved a deep breath before you called his name in which he turned in your direction.ย 
โ€œHey y/n. I missed youโ€ he hugged you and your heart may or may not have skipped a beat.
โ€œJeonghan, long time no see. And I missed you tooโ€ you replied then smiled, happy seeing your best friend.
โ€œHow is your life here?โ€ he asked you with his usual head tilt.
โ€œItโ€™s great actually I own a bakery near here anywayโ€ฆ Welcome to Paris, so what brings you here?โ€
โ€œI was invited by SL to attend their F/W Men's Collectionโ€ he replied nonchalantly
โ€œWow, that is big! Youโ€™re a big shot now huh?โ€ he chuckled lightly โ€œEyyy, no thatโ€™s not trueโ€ he responded with his usual line, how you missed him it brings back memories of you together in high school. Truth be told, he was your first love, but you kept it inside you knowing he only sees you as his best friend or his sister. You were partners in crime, doing pranks on your classmates, sometimes cutting classes just to go to the rooftop and watch the sun setting down. You did a lot of silly things together and those were the memories you treasure the most. You didnโ€™t have the opportunity to tell him how you feel so you just left with your feelings hoping they would die down too. Seeing him now brings back everything like you are back in high school. You snapped out of your thoughts when Jeonghan called your name
โ€œY/n, come on tour me around the city, but I want to see your bakery firstโ€ on your way you two catched up and talked about your lives and you have missed being separated since high school. After you arrived at your bakery you offered him your pastries and coffee.
โ€œThis is so delicious, as expected from you, I always knew you were gonna be a great bakerโ€ you blushed a little at his compliment because it is true, ever since then you would bake for him and he always say that you are going to be a great baker.
โ€œDo you have any plans tomorrow Jeonghan?โ€ you asked the man in front of you because you know that the SL event is at the end of the week. To which he responded, โ€œNo, I donโ€™t think so, you have a plan in mind?โ€
โ€œI want to bring you to good restaurants here, your face has gotten thinner you need to eat,โ€ you said jokingly then laughed.
โ€œJust say you want a date with me, but yes letโ€™s go tomorrow.โ€ You both laughed.
You toured him around the city. It was already getting dark but you know that nightlife was just getting started. You went to a club and drank while still catching up and chatting with each other. You were getting a bit tipsy so you two decided to go home before you get lost due to your drunkness.
You arrived in front of your apartment. โ€œMy room is on the 3rd floor you want to come in?โ€ you invited him in which he accepted. You arrived at your door and you faced him wanting to say something. โ€œJeonghan you know I..โ€ you didnโ€™t get to finish your sentence because he kissed you. HE KISSED YOU! Your best friend, the man that you loved for years, Jeonghan kissed you. โ€œI know you love meโ€ he whispered your ear and it sent shivers to your spine. He knows??? โ€œhow long have you known?โ€ you asked in a small voice still shocked by what happened.
โ€œEver since we were in high schoolโ€ he smirked while still leaning on you
โ€œBut why didnโ€™t you say anythingโ€ you asked him, he knew even before you left for Paris why didnโ€™t he say anything?
โ€œI donโ€™t want to stop you from achieving your dreamsโ€ he said then brushed the hair to the back of your ears. You are freaking out inside you. โ€œand for the record, I love you tooโ€ he added before he kissed you now in a deep and intense manner. You kissed back the same intensity as his. You were running out of breath when you finished the kiss. And you realized you were still at the hallway of your floor.
โ€œLetโ€™s continue this inside shall we?โ€ you smirked at him and you shrieked when he lifted you inside.
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wonlouvre ยท 2 years
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can you make a pt.2 of friday evenings jeonghan au with angst but a happy ending??
friday evenings pt.2 | y. jh.
pairing: jeonghan x g.n. reader genre: fluff with a hint of angst warnings: reader almost cries word count: 1.3k+
๐Ÿ’Œ: i know i should post a little something for wonwooโ€™s birthday but i have been working on this for a while so here you go anon! i apologize again for taking a while. thank you for requesting! hereโ€™s the link of the first part!
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You honestly donโ€™t know where you and Jeonghan stand after your last Friday evening confession. You donโ€™t know whether this whole fake dating thing is still going on or he just kept quiet because he has nothing else to say. Other than rejecting you, perhaps. The two of you parted ways like how you used to and just continued like nothing happened. Some of your peers would believe the awkwardness was because you guys just argued and to be honest, thatโ€™s much better instead of walking on eggshells around each other.ย 
However, on this particular Friday evening, the rain is pouring and Jeonghan just dropped a warm set of clothing on your freezing lap for you to change to for obvious reasons. You got caught in the downpour and he just happened to save you.ย 
โ€œChange.โ€
Your eyes blink while your lips remain shut as you try to grasp how you even ended up in his apartment of all places. Right, his apartment is the nearest from campus and being the Yoon Jeonghan that he is, he never takes no for an answer. You donโ€™t know how you still forget.
โ€œY/N,โ€ you hear him call out, making you look up. He hasnโ€™t called your name since last week and itโ€™s kind of giving a pang in your heart. Jeonghan raises his left eyebrow and tilts his head towards the bathroom. โ€œYou have to change or else youโ€™re going to get sick.โ€
You nod silently and finally stand up from the couch. You carefully walk past him, absolutely embarrassed over the fact that you are messing the floors of his apartment by the puddle youโ€™re leaving behind. You canโ€™t believe you have clammed up against him.ย 
Once youโ€™re locked inside the bathroom, you check the time on your phone. 11:17 pm, it read and you could only sigh in defeat. You donโ€™t really want to stay here through the night, but you clearly donโ€™t have a choice when the last bus will stop by within 30 minutes and youโ€™re still here at Jeonghanโ€™s place. Looking at your reflection in the mirror, you disregard every single thought thatโ€™s worrying you and just proceed with cleaning and drying yourself up. You will deal with Jeonghan later. Or tonight. Who knows. You just want this, whatever this may be, to be over with.
But then, you remembered. Youโ€™re technically not welcome here because Jeonghan didnโ€™t even say anything else other than order you to change. He might be just waiting for the rain to stop before he tells you you could leave. You groan internally as your hand grips the doorknob before twisting it open. Maybe you should just really go and save yourself from further embarrassment.ย 
But, Jeonghan bringing an extra pillow and blanket on his couch is what greets you as you exit the bathroom.ย 
โ€œYou can sleep on my bed while I take the couch,โ€ he says and he doesnโ€™t even look at you, fluffing the pillow up as if itโ€™s some sort of a distraction. Jeonghan is smart and you are as well. Itโ€™s not that difficult to not notice him doing everything to avoid your eyes.ย 
โ€œJeonghan,โ€ you say his name with your eyes following him as he walks back to his bedroom. He doesnโ€™t look at you again and only hums. Youโ€™re going frustrated and at the same time, hurt, and itโ€™s not the best mixture of feelings ever. You feel like youโ€™re about to burst into tears.ย 
โ€œJeonghan,โ€ you call again and this time he finally looks at you. You thought you could act brave enough to confront him, but the moment you meet his eyes, you grow weak. But, you have to say something. โ€œWhat is the matter with you?โ€
Jeonghanโ€™s eyebrows visibly furrow and you canโ€™t pinpoint if heโ€™s angry or just confused. His lips are on a thin line and you take that as your cue to continue.ย 
โ€œEver since last Friday, you have been acting strange and I justโ€ฆโ€ you pause, your voice failing you. Hearing the broken crack of your voice, Jeonghan immediately takes a step forward, but you raise your hand just as quickly, making him stop from taking another step. โ€œIfโ€ฆ if you donโ€™t like me back, itโ€™s okay. Just tell me, because honestly? You, not saying anything is the worst. Itโ€™s hurting me.โ€
Now, itโ€™s your turn to avoid his gaze.ย 
Your eyes cast down on the floor and it seems like Jeonghanโ€™s silence is more than enough for you to just accept that tonight must be it. The ending of your Friday evenings.ย 
You release a defeated sigh, but unbeknownst to you, Jeonghan already took steps forward to engulf your body in his arms. His one arm is around your waist while he brought the other one up to gently caress the back of your head, catching you by surprise.ย 
Your whole body almost freezes against his touch, but once you feel his warmth, your shoulders instantly relax.ย ย 
For a moment, the two of you share a comforting silence. You didnโ€™t wrap your arms around Jeonghanโ€™s torso yet, but your nose is already snuggled against his collarbone, basking in his scent. Your favorite scent.ย 
But then again, Yoon Jeonghan wouldnโ€™t be Yoon Jeonghan without his playful remarks.ย 
โ€œYour pretty head shouldnโ€™t overthink,โ€ he whispers against the side of your head, just above your ear. His voice is teasing, making you punch his abdomen lightly. Heโ€™s faster than you though, holding your wrist and guiding them around his neck.ย 
Jeonghan smiles at you when your eyes finally meet his again. You donโ€™t smile back, your eyes searching and reading the expression of his face to see if heโ€™s really just playing with you and your feelings.ย 
He notices and he realizes heโ€™s done enough to make you worry. He bumps his forehead against yours before stealing a chaste kiss on your lips. You gasp and push a hand up against his chest.ย 
โ€œAre you being serious right now?โ€ You ask, eyes glaring at him.ย 
โ€œOkay, okay,โ€ Jeonghan says and holds you tighter, preventing you from pulling away. โ€œIโ€™m sorry.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t think thatโ€™s what I was asking for,โ€ you complain with lips pouting.ย 
โ€œI wasnโ€™t done talking,โ€ Jeonghan argues, poking his tongue out to tease you more. You roll your eyes, but wait for him nonetheless.ย 
โ€œI know thereโ€™s no excuse for being distant over the past few days, but I am really sorry, Y/N,โ€ he continues and cradles your cheek, thumb rubbing soft circles on your cheekbone. โ€œIt might sound unbelievable, but I was afraid and thought you deserve someone else. Someone who didnโ€™t ambush you to go on a fake date with.โ€
You frown. โ€œBut, I do like you.โ€
Jeonghan chuckles and nods, finding you adorable despite the crease between your eyebrows. โ€œI know, baby. I like you too.โ€
โ€œThen, whatโ€™s the problem?โ€ You ask, genuinely confused.ย 
Jeonghan shakes his head and smiles. โ€œNothing, nothing.โ€ย 
โ€œLook,โ€ you say with a short intake of breath. โ€œI really like you and Iโ€™m beyond elated you like me back. But, I donโ€™t want to force this if weโ€™re not on the same page.โ€
โ€œYouโ€™re so cute,โ€ Jeonghan groans before holding you in a bone crushing hug once again. โ€œI just told you thereโ€™s nothing wrong. Of course, Iโ€™m on the same page as you!โ€
ย โ€œThen, start acting like it!โ€ You shout back, voice muffled by his chest.ย 
Jeonghan only giggles and no matter how hard you try, you couldnโ€™t help but giggle as well. His smile is triumphant but most importantly relieved upon hearing you sounding happy again because it broke his heart to hear how sad you were earlier. He has a lot of making up to do and he promises to fulfill them one by one. Starting right now.ย 
โ€œY/N,โ€ he calls before leaning close to your face again. โ€œI really like you.โ€
โ€œJeonghan,โ€ you whisper, the tip of your nose brushing against his. โ€œI like you too. Even though you're such a pain in the ass.โ€
Jeonghan lets your insult slide and just leans down to kiss you fully.ย 
To more Friday evenings together.
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