#jake sim x fem!oc

[blossominghunnie]

Bite Me

Jinwoo was a professional dancer that was recently hired by Hybe to be a backup dancer for Enhypen’s comeback. Everything was going smoothly until she started developing feelings for a certain member.

Will she hide them or act on them?

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Pairing: idol!Jake Sim x fem!oc

Genre: Smau + written, comedy

Warning: Swearing

Status: On hold

Taglist: Open

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Masterlist

Delulus || Twilight enthusiasts

1

2 (written)

3

4 (sms + written)

5

#bite me masterlist #blossominghunnie #jake sim x fem!reader #jake sim x reader #enhypen smau #enhypen fic #enhypen #jake sim fanfic #shim jaeyoon #engene #jake smau #jake sim x fem!oc

[belovedguk]

waiting room (teaser)

↪˚ summary: you know cutting off jungkook from your life is for the better, but your heart is not ready to leave the waiting room just yet.

↪˚ pairing: legma stud!jungkook x legma stud!fem!reader | side pairings: jungkook x legma stud!fem!oc (andi yu) + reader x comm stud!jake sim (enha)

↪˚ genres: heavy angst, romance, situationship au, filo au 🇵🇭

↪˚ warnings: this story is fiction. it does not represent the members of bangtan or any of the idols here in real life. all resemblance to real life characters, institutions, associations, places, events, among others are either purely coincidence or depicted in a fictitious manner only. there are eally no glaring warnings for this story besides depiction of toxic relationships, red flag bedista jungkook, situationships (pls don’t put yourself in this kind of relationship PLS), consumption of alcohol and use of cigarettes, ocs & jungkook are aged 24 here, age gap between reader & jake (2 years), class disparity & its implications on love and dating, and just angst angst angst. if i miss any warnings, i’ll make sure to add them once full fic is out. these are the general warnings.

↪˚ author’s note: another self-indulgent fic feat two of my fave guys rn—jungkook loml and jaeyun who’s slowly finding a home in my heart ♡ and based upon phoebe bridgers’ waiting room + all the songs in this playlist. to all the people who have been someone’s waiting room, this is for you. also animo san beda, i guess??? lmao pls do consider donating to my kofi or gcash (they’re on my pinned) <33 it’ll really help me out a lot!! lmk if you wanna be tagged by commenting below or sending me an ask (since the form on my pinned are for those who want to be on my permanent taglist). also do reblog or comment your thoughts so far :’) it’s so fun writing angst ngl

↪˚ total word count: TBA (est. 10k) | teaser word count: 1,095

↪˚ release date: within this month (april 2024)

There is only one person who calls you in the middle of the night and there is only person whose call you answer regardless how tired you are. Sitting up on your twin-sized bed, you put on your rectangular spectacles and grab the vibrating phone on your nightstand. 

“Hey,” you greet in a hoarse voice. 

“Hey, I’m outside,” Jungkook says on the other line. 

You glance at the time on your phone—2:37 am—and without thinking twice about it, you reply, “Okay. I’ll be downstairs in a bit.” 

Jungkook says okay and hangs up. You quickly make your way out of your room, grabbing your wooly hoodie hanging on your chair tucked under your desk along the way, and tiptoe to the bathroom to not wake your parents. 

After you wash your face and brush your teeth, you leave your humble abode, sucking your teeth as you open the squeaking gate. Once the gap is enough for you to slip through, you see Jungkook’s car immediately. It’s parked a couple of houses down from yours, but it stands out—not only because it’s white; it’s one of the few cars parked on your street. 

You make your way to the white Mercedes-Benz and hear the familiar click of his lock. Then, you open the door and step into his car. Immediately, you feel the chilly air, hear the soft RnB song from his stereo, and smell his pungent expensive cologne mixed with the obvious nicotine. 

“Ready?” Jungkook asks, putting his car on drive. 

You nod, putting on your seatbelt. He nods back and begins to drive. Like the other nights, the drive is filled with silence. During these minutes, you rest your head on the window, watching the establishments outside pass by and let your thoughts race. 

It’s Monday, you have a seven thirty class in a few hours, and a total of two and a half hours of sleep. Knowing what’s about to come once you arrive at the place, you’re sure you won’t be able to catch up any more after. The rational part of you knows that you shouldn’t have answered the call and ride this car, but when it comes to the man beside you, you always listen to your heart. 

You’re not exactly sure how this began. You’re not sure what to call this too. All you know is that after spending the night with Jeon Jungkook during the block after finals party back in freshman year, just talking and sometimes kissing, the two of you started something. He began messaging you, at first, using academics as an excuse to do so, but the academic chats turned into more, then the calls came. Through the night, you’d be on the call with him, talking about everything and nothing, until the both of you fell asleep and daybreak arrived.

In those moments, you fell for him—hard. But you knew better than to let those feelings grow, let alone be known. You and Jungkook couldn’t be any more different from each other. He’s worlds away from you despite the close proximity between the two of you now in his car. Besides, you knew Jungkook would never return your feelings because his heart would always belong to Andi Yu even when he’s kissing you. 

It was enough being this for him because throughout the years, it’s better to be something than nothing in his life at all.

It’s an hour later when you arrive at the bay side. After buying some snacks from the local convenience store (and a pack of Marlboro Red for Jungkook), you lead the way, as usual, to your spot with the plastic bag containing all the snacks and drinks swinging on your side. It’s quite chilly since it’s early in the morning and the water has been pulled back from the shore below. The crescent moon doesn’t cast much light, but fortunately, there are still street lamps along the bay. 

Once you’re at your usual spot, you pull yourself onto the stone wall, a smile instantly appearing on your tired face as you look at the orange lights from the lamps glisten on the water below you. Moments later, Jungkook sits beside you, letting his leg rest over the other side of the wall while you have yours crossed under you. 

“You walk so fast,” he comments as he takes the can of beer from the plastic bag. “Like you’re always running from something.” 

“I can’t help it,” you tell him. “I’ve always been a fast walker.” 

You take out the sandwich from the plastic bag along with the bottle of coffee, placing the latter beside you. The soft pop of Jungkook’s beer fills the air. 

“Did you finish reading the assigned cases for Consti?” he asks. 

You nod. “I did. Did you?” 

He shakes his head, smacking his lips after drinking his beer. “I got distracted.” 

You hum in response. “I can send you my case digests. We still have the entire day before Consti.” 

“Yeah?” Jungkook glances at you for confirmation. You nod once again. He nudges your side and you look up at him through your spectacles while taking a bite out of your pepperoni and cheese sandwich. The soft charming smile is plastered on his lips. “Thanks, Y/N.” 

Silence falls between the two of you again. You’ve finished your sandwich and are halfway to your coffee when Jungkook speaks again. 

“Andi wants to get back together,” he shares, leaning back with his arms as support. He crosses his feet below. “She messaged me a while ago, asking to meet up, and we did. Then she asked if we could try again.” 

You’ve heard of this story before. But it still doesn’t soften the blow in your heart every time that you do. You have, however, mastered the art of acting nonchalant about it. 

“That’s good, then,” you reply. “You can try again.” 

“You think so?” he asks. 

When you look over your shoulder, Jungkook is already staring at you. As always, you can’t decipher what exactly he’s feeling or thinking at the moment. His face remains passive, stoic when it comes to conversations about his on again, off again relationship with Andi. 

You give him a tight-lipped smile, nodding. “Yeah. It’s obvious you still love her and she loves you. It doesn’t have to be complicated.” 

Jungkook pokes his cheek with his tongue, nodding slowly. “I guess so. As expected, you are the smartest person I know, Lim Y/N.” 

You know this. But when it comes to Jeon Jungkook, you’re a fucking idiot.

#jungkook angst #jungkook x reader #jungkook fanfic #jungkook fics #jungkook x oc #jungkook au #jungkook filo au #bts fanfic #bts fanfiction #bts x reader #bts x oc #bts filo au #jungkook smut #jake angst #jake x reader #jake fanfic #jake fics #jaeyun angst #jaeyun x reader #jaeyun x oc #enhypen fanfiction #enhypen fics #jake filo au #enhypen filo au #an anon says this story is gonna suck so i guess that’s an additional warning ⚠️ #aika’s wips

[dollyyun]

THINK LATER (HEARTBREAKERS) SERIES

ABOUT: This is a mini-series starring Heeseung, Jay, and Jake with respective love interests. This series is heavily inspired by Tate Mcrae's beautiful masterpieces, and it is encouraged to listen to her songs as per the titles as you read the series.

PAIRING: enhypen members x main fem ocs

GENRE: 18+ (mdni), college au, enha as ice hockey players, lots of angst, possible fluff. This fic is written in third pov.

WARNINGS: violence, drama, heartbreaks, expletives, possible smuts, heavy suggestive themes, alcohol consumption, toxicity.

STATUS: coming soon

TAGLIST: [open!]

GRAVE | LHS

SYPNOSIS: for as long as she could remember, they started off being in a situationship and eventually into something more that she knew she had dug her own grave, and yet, she wanted him to see her the way she wanted. she tried relentlessly hinting to him that she wanted them to be more than what they were, but she could never be compared to her sister, whom he had genuine feelings for.

PAIRING: non!idol heeseung x fem oc

GENRE: 18+ (mdni), college au, angsts, fluff, friends with benefits, one shot au.

WARNINGS: violence, drama, heartbreaks, expletives, possible smuts, heavy suggestive themes, alcohol consumption, toxicity.

STATUS: coming soon

RUN FOR THE HILLS | PJS

SYPNOSIS: their relationship used to be stable, always filled with healthy love and a lot of trust, until it all began to go downhill. despite how everything was a chaotic mess, she still loved him dearly and would always choose him over and over. but she should’ve known that her love for him would eventually kill her on the inside because he never loved her enough.

PAIRING: non!idol jay park x fem oc

GENRE: 18+ (mdni), college au, angsts, fluff, lovers to ex lovers to lovers, one shot au.

WARNINGS: violence, drama, heartbreaks, expletives, possible smuts, heavy suggestive themes, alcohol consumption, toxicity.

STATUS: coming soon

HURT MY FEELINGS | SJY

SYPNOSIS: he was her older brother's best friend. despite growing up together as next-door neighbours, they were nowhere near friends and only communicated whenever necessary. that was until college began, where they finally became friends, and her feelings for him grew tenfold. but all hopes were lost when she found out that he had a girlfriend who was the opposite of everything she ever was.

PAIRING: non!idol jake sim x fem oc

GENRE: 18+ (mdni), college au, angsts, fluff, brother's best friend, one shot au.

WARNINGS: violence, drama, heartbreaks, expletives, possible smuts, possible cheating, alcohol consumption, toxicity.

STATUS: coming soon

#enhypen #enhypen fanfic #enhypen one shot #enhypen series #heeseung #jay #jake

[ryumantic]

❀ ༉‧₊˚. We Were In Paris

A Jake Sim SMAU

Cherry Flavoured just debuted five months ago and they’re already one of South Korea’s most successful global bands! Y/N was killing it as lead singer and guitarist. All her worries were long gone! Until now. What will happen when she finds out her short-time Paris romance is actually also a K-pop idol… who turns out to be a member in one of the biggest boy groups nationally and internationally.

PAIRING: Rockstar Fem!Reader x Idol!Jake

GENRE: smau, fluff mostly, reunion(?), invisible string energy, lowkey cracked, a bit of angst, hookup to strangers to friends to lovers HAHA

WARNINGS: kms/kys jokes (rarely though), dirty jokes, oc band, itzy’s yuna is y/n’s faceclaim, friendly bullying, a lot of panicking, lots of swearing, very shit humour tbh im sorry

Character Profiles: Phoebe’s Slaves and Twilight Wannabes

Chapter One. Rockstar Behaviour!

Chapter Two. Who’s Cherry Flavoured?

Chapter Three. ohhhhh! oh… noo!

…

#jake sim #enhypen #enhypen smau #smau #kpopsmau #kpop fic #heeseung #jay #sunghoon #sunoo #jungwon #niki #itzy yuna #itzy ryujin #xdinary heroes gaon #cravity minhee #jake smau #ryumantic

[soft-girl-musings]

20 Fanfic Questions

ty for the tag @virtie333, sorry for the delay!

How many works do you have on AO3?

7, so far!

2. What's your total AO3 words count?

17,707 (that number makes me unreasonably happy)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

currently: Moon Knight (2022) previously: The Arcana (dating sim, pre-Dorian butchering), The Hobbit franchise (I'd like to continue this one tbh!!) potentially: the Lokiverse (mans has been in too much), Spiderverse

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

An Unexpected Proposition (Kili x Fem!Reader - 43 kudos) Strawberry Cordial (Muriel x Apprentice OC - 37 kudos) Last Night (Jake Lockley x Fem!Reader - 26 kudos) Perks of Being a Wallflower (Jake Lockley x Plus Sized Fem!Reader - 17 kudos) Unfamiliar Territory (Muriel x Apprentice OC - 15 kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

ABSOLUTELY, it makes me happy to do so. I love telling writers how I feel about their works (all good things i promise). and i love when folks take the leap and share their feedback.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oh golly, technically Frankincense & Myrrh (The Arcana, Muriel x Apprentice OC). bc it's 1) unfinished and 2) will deal with a lot of the post-resurrection trauma Tamar (my Apprentice) will go through. it'll still be fluffy and more comfort than hurt if i ever get back into it, but man i really miss seeing her go through it.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

i'd have to say Perks of Being a Wallflower! no angst, just insecurity leading up to the ending lol

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I'm not popular enough to attract the haters

9. Do you write smut. If so what kind?

i don't <3

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i feel like the closest thing to a crossover i'd attempt is something in the mcu, since every major event affects everything else in some way

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

great heavens i hope not

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nah

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

not in the strictest sense of the word. but in the future, i plan on crediting the folks i share hcs and thots with, they've had a huge hand in shaping the world of my stories.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

the only thing that comes to mind is Matt Murdock x Claire Temple but i 1) have not finished Daredevil and 2) fully respect her for distancing herself from that disaster boy

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Frankincense & Myrrh - the Arcana fandom was spiraling when i entered in 2020, and while i love all the research and outlining i did for that story, it would take a lot for me to dive back into the game/lore to flesh out that story. Tamar Ufam you will always be famous to me.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i'd have to say dialogue and my attempts to make the stakes believable

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

(actually writing lol) in all seriousness, taking the time to string together the little story pearls i come up with. i burn myself out sometimes and end up not writing anything.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i enjoy seeing it! what i don't like is people going "lol no hate on my google translate spanish/whatever language" (mostly when the language is poorly applied) bc we not only have the technology/better websites to use, but real people online willing to assist with translating/contextualizing. if you're going to do it, give it its due diligence. fingers crossed i can follow my own directive on that.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Cats the Musical. I don't want to talk about it.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

published: tie between Last Night and Perks of Being A Wallflower. the first 2 fics i've published for my new fave Jake, and i see a lot of myself in Reader. these two will always be near and dear to my heart. unpublished: Relic to Relic (Loki x Fem!OC), outlining that story got me through my junior year of high school. while i'd need to rework some aspects of my OC's arc/abilities, i wouldn't mind writing for these two again.

tagging @cchickki @hon3yboy @mrs-lockley if you'd like to brag on yourselves!!

#eventually i will write a character besides jake lockley with canon lines and everything #but not this day #my works #tag game

[riikive]

IMPERFECT PERFECTIONIST ⌕ 심재윤

masterlist

pairing. sim jake x fem!oc | genre. fluffy, romance, hurt/comfort, etc. | warning. maybe, have a bit of suggestive, negative thoughts, oc being/wanting to be a perfectionist, etc. | word count. 1.0k

note. Here is a little bit of something for everyone. Two ones-hots in one day- probably won't do it a lot 😅. I hope you enjoy the oneshot! You can relate to the oc. At least I relate to her. If you can relate to her then you aren't alone. I want someone like Jake- well, today is my birthday and Jake is one of my wrecker biases. Plus I was bored too-

Taeyang was alone in her bedroom as the sun slowly rose. Her mind was somewhere else. She kept turning side to side and closing her eyes, but she couldn't sleep. It was already the next morning. Why every day? Why me? She thought to herself as she gave up on trying to sleep.

Taeyang did so badly on her final exams again. She wants to be perfect. She wants everything to be perfect. She wants to be recognized academically and physically. But no matter how hard she tries to be perfect, to meet the expectations and standards she couldn't. She felt useless and so hopeless.

Everyone will always be disappointed in her. Her parents, siblings, relatives, friends, etc. Including her boyfriend even though he told her multiple times that he wasn't. She knew deep inside she was a big disappointment, and he just dated her out of pity.

"You are a failure. Nobody truly loves you. You've never been better. Nobody cares about you. Why can't you be like her siblings?Why are you even alive? You are a big disappointment." Those words roaming inside her head.

"Why does my boyfriend love me?" She thought. She isn't that pretty or cute. She never gets perfect grades. She is just ugly and useless. He never truly loved her. "What if he left me after a while?" She shrivered and felt her heart drop from the thought of it. "He would never, right?"

She shook her head and covered her ears. Hoping those thoughts stop. "Please stop, please stop." She cried out. She hugged herself just by thinking of those horrible thoughts. She softly slapped herself. "Why are you crying? You shouldn't be crying at all." "You don't deserve to cry." She laughed at herself as tears formed and formed nonstop.

She heard the front door opening. Her boyfriend came home from a long day of work. She turned to the wall, hiding her face as she pretended to sleep. Hearing the bedroom door open and closing. Her breath hitched as she heard footsteps walking closer to her. She felt a kiss on her head before her boyfriend walked to the bathroom. Then the water started to run. She let go of her breath and wiped more of her tears.

After a good couple of minutes, she heard the bathroom closing and felt the bed sink. A warm pair of arms sneaked around her waist before he pulled her closer to him. She felt her heart beating faster as the silence filled the room.

Jaeyun noticed his lover was shaking a bit as he hugged her. He was kind of confused, so he made her face him. Even though it was dark in the room, he saw her eyes were red. He cherished her cheeks, noticing it was wet. "Love, are you awake?" She slowly opened her eyes, feeling more tears falling as she looked at her boyfriend. He felt his heart break when he saw tears falling down her cheeks.

Using his thumb to wipe her eyes, he gently smiled at her. "What is the matter, love?" He asked softly. "Jaeyun, am I good enough?" He moved her hair away from her face. "Of course you are. You always are." Taeyang chuckled. "Don't lie."

He frowned. "What makes you think like that?" Taeyang looked down and slightly bit her cheek gum before answering. "I-I." He raised his eyebrows, letting her finish her sentence. "Never mind.." He quietly sighed before grabbing her chin, making her look at him. "You are always good enough. No matter what. Nothing will change that." He firmly told her.

She avoided his eyes and sighed. "Jake, then are you disappointed in me?" He frowned. "Taeyang-ah, are your bad thoughts getting into your head again?" He asked as he gently poked her forehead. She giggled a bit before answering. "No.." He gave her a not-so-convinced look. She sighed in defense. "Maybe.."

Jaeyun took her face in his hands. "You are perfect the way you are. I love you the way you are. You don't need to get perfect grades or have a perfect body. Nobody is perfect. Everyone has flaws. I love every single part of you. Flaws or not. I will never ever leave you not in a million years." He told her in a serious tone. But she doesn't seem to believe him. Then he got an idea. "Since words don't get in your little head, I will show you which one I love." He slightly flicked her forehead. She winced from his flick and was a bit confused.

"I love this one." He kissed her forehead. "I love these." Both of her eyes. "I love this one." Her lips. "I love these." Both of her cheeks. "I love this one." Her chest. "I love this one." He pampered a lot of small kisses on her stomach. Then he kissed down both of her legs. "I love all of this." Both of her feet. "I love this one and this one." He mostly kissed anything and everything except those parts.

Taeyang felt her heart flutter and felt a little warm inside when he kissed every single part of her except them. She never expects him or anyone to do this kind of thing. She felt a little special. She laughed when he pampered her stomach because it tickled and was surprised when he kissed her feet. "Even both of my feet?"

Once he finished, he looked at her in her eyes with adoration. "Even both of your feet." He told her before gently but passionately kissing her lips. "Do you believe me now?" He asked after he broke the kiss. She thought for a second. "Maybe a little more." She smiled. He smiled back. "Then I will keep on showing you until you believe me all the way."

They cuddled each other. "I love you, my imperfect perfectionist." Taeyang blushed a little bit. "I love you too." Jaeyun looked at her and kissed her lips again, then her forehead before they fell asleep in each other's arms.

When they woke up in the morning, Jaeyun was on break from work, so he took the whole day and showered her with more love. Cook for her, feed her, help her with things, and so much more.

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#🍷 — enhypen oneshots & drabbles #enhypen #enhypen fanfic #enhypen fanfiction #enha #enhypen jake #enhypen jaeyun #jake fanfic #jake fluff #enha jaeyun #jaeyun fluff #sim jake #sim jaeyun #sim jake fluff #sim jaeyun fanfic #sim jake fanfic #enhypen fluff #kpop fanfiction #kpop #kpop male artists #kpop fanfic #kpop idol #enha fanfic #enha fics #enhypen fic #sim jaeyun fics #kpop fluff

[parkjaysprada]

𝐅𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 ▸ park jongseong

PAIRING: park jongseong x fem!oc

PROFILES: JAY & HIS PROBLEMS

Park Jay Jongseong

⤷ captain of Hybe’s dance team

⤷ fashion design major

⤷ rich. old money type of rich.

Lee Heeseung

⤷ music major

⤷ Hybe University’s ace

⤷ the eldest

Sim Jake Jaeyun

⤷ music major

⤷ member of Hybe’s dance team

⤷ golden retriever

Park Sunghoon

⤷ broadcast & entertainment major

⤷ former figure skater

⤷ the loud introvert kid

Yang Jungwon

⤷ intern member of Hybe’s dance team

⤷ Belift’s Supreme Student Government President

⤷ a cat who’s allergic to cats

a/n: i am real nervous about this smau. i am thinking about leaving wattpad for tumblr, idk.

#enhypen #enhypen x reader #enhypen social media au #enhypen smau #enhypen x oc #enhypen jay x reader #enhypen jay x oc #park jay x reader #park jongseong x reader #enhypen jay #enhypen jungwon #enhypen heeseung #enhypen jake #enhypen sunghoon #enhypen sunoo #enhypen niki #tomorrow x together #txt #le sserafim #fluff #slight angst #enemies to lovers #enhypen fanfiction

[ndrceatm]

SNOW ON THE BEACH | profiles 3

ni-ki x fem! oc

WARNINGS. none

SUMMARY. Aera finds out the exact difference between the acting and idol industry when she gets firsthand experience of being criticized for everything. Ni-ki's situation is strikingly similar and he can only hope to have the same unbothered attitude she has.

- profiles

Lee Heeseung

ENHYPEN's ace, the oldest member, [01], basketball player that never misses, is scared of heights, is friends with Jeongin, Dickies please make him your brand ambassador

Park Jay

ENHYPEN's mood maker, designated dorm chef, [02], allergic to cats 2.0, 1/3 of enha's gym rats line, carrot hater, sleeps with his eyes open

Sim Jake

ENHYPEN's icon of growth, dog lover, [02], australian, moa, very clumsy, grape soda enthusiast, math nerd, soccer player, the narrator in enha's intros & outros

Park Sunghoon

ENHYPEN's ice prince, used to be a competitive ice skater, [02], most handsome member (according to himself), no.1 mint choco hater, never let him in the kitchen

profiles 03 | prev / m.list / next

TAGLIST. open.

#enhypen #enha #ni-ki #ni-ki smau #ni-ki x oc #ni-ki x reader #nishimura riki #enhypen x oc #enhypen x reader #enhypen socmed au #enhypen social media au #enhypen smau #ni ki socmed au #enhypen drabbles

[jjunieworld]

#WIP ๛ MEET ME AT OUR SPOT ˒˒ 심재윤 subject to change and will be updated as i go!

with the news of your grandma’s health, life has you moving to your mother’s seaside hometown for the summer to your aunt’s. while there, you meet the illustrious player—jake sim—that everyone can’t seem to stop talking about. what you never expected was to gain his attention and spend the three months you’re there falling for him.

pairing ‎⸝⸝⸝ jake sim x fem!reader 𓄷 iηcℓudᥱs 𓈓 jungwon, lifeguard!jay, player!sunghoon, sunoo, and oc hana (jake’s ex)

genre﹙📓﹚⸝⸝⸝ angst, smut, fluff-ish, strangers to temporary lovers, beach au, summer fling/summer love, lifeguard!jake, blonde!jake, kindaaa slow burn, h2o jokes/references (i had to), slice of life, lifeguarding & surfing inaccuracies, reader is jungwon’s cousin

warnings ‎⸝⸝⸝ player!jake, toxic!jake (sorry!!), they’re kinda not good for each other but are at the same time, reader almost drowns twice, mentions of y/n’s dad passing (before story) and grandma’s depleting health, skinny dipping, corruption kink, virgin!reader, unprotected sex (condoms!), size kink(?), oral fixation, oral (f. rec), more tba…

∿ [ current wc: 4.4k ] ⋆ [ continue on to . . . wips , masterlist ]

taglist ‎⸝⸝⸝﹙ open! ﹚

send an ask or reply to this post if you want to be tagged when finished! minors and blank/ageless blogs will not be tagged! please have a visible age. my permanent taglist will already be tagged!

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[nikihoon]

summary ⋆ jealous that her ex boyfriend, jay, left her for someone "better", y/n goes to the one person who owes her something to make him feel the same. the one problem? that someone is park sunghoon, who just happens to be one of jay's bestfriends.

pairing ⋆ sunghoon x fem!reader

genres/tropes ⋆ social media au, fake dating au, friends to lovers, fake dating to lovers, highschool au, fluff, some angst, mutual pining

featuring ⋆ p1harmony's soul, stayc's yoon, txt's beomgyu, and an oc

warnings ⋆ cursing, cheating, some violence, underage drinking, more to be added as i write + lmk if i missed anything !

status ⋆ completed

taglist is closed.

profiles 1 | profiles 2

one: #girlboss moment

two: who tf is jisun

three: the bro code

four: terms & conditions

five: the world's best cat 🐈

six: count your days.

seven: #teamwonki

eight: premarital hand holding

nine: really really bad

ten: lover's quarrel

eleven: jake sim hate club

twelve: sunki vs the world

thirteen: redemption arc?

fourteen: bday bash part 1

fifteen: bday bash part 2

sixteen: don't ask questions

seventeen: the only exception

eighteen: he who shall not be named

nineteen: 2 soon

twenty: only real ones know

twenty one: skipped a chapter

twenty two: in love with a criminal

twenty three: THE halloween party

twenty four: insufferable

twenty five: i hate couples

twenty six: what would you do if we kissed

twenty seven: movie night

twenty eight: epilogue

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[rae-blogging]

𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙇𝙊𝙑𝙀 𝙄𝙎?

pairing: Jake Sim x fem!Reader, Sunghoon x OC

genre: Angst, Fluff, Humor

word count: 10k 

synopsis: You’ve been head over heels for Sunghoon for years now,  already aware of how doomed your story is from the start you go from pretending that you don’t believe in love to accepting it, but Jake Sim is adamant to change your mind.

warnings: Mentions of a creep being a .. creep?, reader running away from situations, slight manhandling on Sunghoon’s part (He grabs your wrist), Reader being an idiot, non religious mentions of God, fake dating is proposed but literally barely happens (Lmk if I missed something), Niki iis your brother (not a warning but yk), Yeonjun (TXT) and Yuna (ITZY) are part of the fic too and this is not proofread.

a/n: An earlier version of this fic was posted on my older blog but I ended up rewriting many bits again. Also I really love receiving feedback so please, please reblog my work if you like it.

"So, um, what is your favorite color?" You asked with a slight smile, trying to make the best of the situation (You really were going to kill Jungwon when you see him). 

There were three main dilemmas in your otherwise monotonous life a) Your inability to work/study when you should ; b) Your complete lack of romantic experience. You have -- after thorough over thinking past midnight – come to the conclusion that there’s something wrong with you. Other than the normal kind of flaws that you’re convinced everyone has, of course, like you being too lazy to get yourself a glass of water from the kitchen ( It’s not really your fault honestly, you wouldn’t be this lethargic if Niki didn’t always do your chores for you at home) and  getting anxious for no reason in particular and hyper fixating on said anxiety till neither your existence nor the topic of anxiety makes sense anymore, of course there’s also slightly worse issues with you like your tendency to cancel on your friends right before the plan is brought to life (although that doesn't work anymore and now you get dragged along anyway) or procrastinating all the time and then panicking but still procrastinating and finally, working like a madman and being disappointed if you don't score extremely well (But that's the case with most of your friends too so maybe it's not that big a deal), anyway the point is you're flawed. Quite flawed. You were still trying to figure out what exactly causes your absolute lack of romantic experience (that's how Sunoo put it nicely) or your forever disgruntled and dissatisfied state of mind because you never get any (as Jake had thoughtfully offered his version of the same). Sunoo is essentially sunshine trapped inside a 5’8 human body ( you think he’s shorter but he gets mad each time you bring it up, so you’re trying to make peace with obvious lies) and he’s probably the nicest person in your group right after Reyna. Jake, on the other hand, was probably created simply to make every minute of your existence that coincides with his, painfully exasperating. Alright, Jake wasn’t really all that bad except for his constant reminders about environmental issues, which you secretly found endearing and his unrivalled ability to score well on tests you know he hadn’t prepared for at all, he was actually cool. You’d moved past the time where you called people your ‘best friend’ but if there was one for ‘best friend + annoying idiot you randomly want to punch’ he’d definitely get it. While your friends were aware of the first two ‘problems’ the third one was something you’d have to deal with on your own. Tired of your friends’ bantering with you about your love life, you had of course indignantly insisted that you were better off single — it's so expensive being in a relationship nowadays anyway and you already spent most of your time slaving off trying to pay back your student loan before you turn 30 — of course, you just had to overdo the act and adamantly trash talk every couple which was apparently very offensive (Heesung had said that, and you usually trust his opinion), and now you were stuck at the most awkward blind date you had ever had (and that was saying something considering you had one where the person had asked you to Venmo him a 35 to buy coke). 

"Black. Like my life. Quite bleak, I know" he nodded thoughtfully to himself before you could deny it, "but I am that way you know? Mysterious. It defines me perfectly."

You bet the dude couldn’t spell mysterious.

"Yeah, of course, black is a beautiful color." You tried to sound interested, but it was getting kind of difficult with you making all the conversation and him talking about....well himself. Too much in depth, if you were being honest. 

"This one time, I met a chick in Bali and you know they’ve really sensual brea – “

Not only was Jungwon’s attempt at getting you a blind date a horrific try, but you were also now in the company of a complete pervert. Thank goodness for Choi Yeonjun, the chef of the restaurant (technically the restaurant was his father’s so maybe owner would be a better designation) and your friend (again technically he was Heesung’s friend but your group hung out at Choi’s every Friday and so you were pretty sure that he at least knew you) causing a fire alarm to go off, your date took off running, not even sparing a glance in your direction when Yeonjun started screaming ‘Fire!’, you weren’t sure if he saw your thinly veiled face of disgust or heard the man however you had no chance to ask since everyone was escorted outside almost immediately. You were certain you saw the chef wink at you though.

Anyway, getting a boyfriend was a complete failure and the worst bit? You were relieved. Because you had another person clouding your mind most days (You studied Chemistry along with English so that took up a few days too).

You had a huge crush on Sunghoon. It wouldn’t be that big of a deal really except it totally was and no way were you going to tell your friends who were positive that you hated the concept of love and despised couples that you had heart eyes for your childhood friend.. You have to give it up for yourself for managing to hide it behind faces of extreme disgust and unasked for comments on anything remotely related to love, because you’d liked the boy for quite a while now, you weren’t sure about the exact time period but it was getting really hard being around your friend without breaking down and confessing, so of course the genius you had decided to platonically cockblock yourself by a) Avoiding the poor boy and being snide if you did talk and; b) Being obnoxiously loud and proclaiming love was gross. Unfortunately for you, your friends had moved on from the cooties phase just a year or two later and now you were stuck as the grumpy, single friend who drank too much coffee and had slightly violent outbursts of consistent prodding the people sitting next to you when you got excited during a movie’s scene. Frankly (Name) I am more surprised you have friends. Two things were clear to you from the beginning of your story though: a) You liked your friend more than you should b) You were absolutely doomed from the very start.

‘”Hey!” Jake flailed his hands in the air like the idiot that he was, being greeted by you laughing and doing the same at the other end of the hallway, the students around paid no attention. You weren’t even sure if they weren’t all sleepwalking to be honest.

“How was the date?” he asked, putting an arm around your shoulder as you weaved through the zombified students.

 “He was in love, for sure,” you scoffed, “with everything that moved. Jungwon sure knows how to pick the creepiest men-”

You trailed off at the sudden shock of Jake tugging you closer to him.

He looked at you a smile, his other hand tousling his hair letting out a sheepish laugh,"What? You’d get trampled dude. You never pay any attention to your surroundings.”

You waved your hand around, eager to talk about your tumultuous evening ,“He talked about girls and their boobs and get this- sensous hips..” You raised your hands dramatically in exasperation, “Wait, was it the other way around? By the way, what happened to the save the turtle campaign? Did people even turn up? I heard there’s this dolphin-”

You turned to look at the boy beside you, raising your eyebrows when you saw him stop, jaw clenched looking unamused as you rambled on mindlessly.

“What’s wrong? Did enough people not contri-”

“Did he say something inappropriate to you?” Jake stared at you sternly, surprising you with his serious demeanor.

“Um, not really. He was just talking about some girl from Bali. I don’t know, I kinda tuned out after that.” You gripped his shoulder pulling him with you as you continued walking.

“Oh. Did he do anything el-“

“Nope. I’d slice his dick off.”

“Atta girl,” he smiled warmly, putting his arms around your shoulder again “Did you see Sunghoon yesterday?”

Sunghoon. The same friend you’d spent hours on ends playing Monopoly with, the same person who’d climbed into your room two days before your birthday to wish you when you were 12 (turns out 12 year old Sunghoon wasn’t very bright because he had thought this was the best way to wish you ahead of others), he’d brought you red roses on Valentine’s day because – ‘I do love you though! I love you the most in the world. Like right after Mom and Yeji. Oh, and Gaeul. Wait dad. But then it’s you.’ – he wanted you to know that he really did love you, the same way he loved his family or well his dog but you get the idea. You had wondered then if it was his tsundere way of asking you out. In all fairness though, you hadn’t ever been keen on actually dating your friend, you weren’t sure what people who dated were supposed to do anyway, so initially you hadn’t really minded harboring feelings for Sunghoon but your group had expanded in college, Sunoo and Yuna were your lab partners and, Reyna was on the student sports committee in college. You can’t really remember when it actually happened but you suddenly became increasingly aware of Reyna’s closeness with the boy you’d a crush on and, your desperately hidden feelings tugged painfully at the strings of your heart leaving you with no choice but to steer clear of the said boy in fear of a) You randomly confessing your thickly veiled crush and, b) Finding out/Having the same boy tell you he liked Reyna.

You wish you could at least be mad at Reyna or be able to despise her but you couldn’t. Not with how kind the girl was and how the two of you were always on the same wavelength about everything. She was your friend too, and you missed having her around. Sometimes you wondered if you should stop turning the other way when you met Sunghoon’s hurt eyes or be just as enthusiastic with your replies as Reyna was while talking to you, but then you’d see the two exchanging glances and the urge would die down immediately. You missed Sunghoon  too, of course you did. Up until middle school (before Jay, Jake and Heesung decided to enter the picture) he and Jungwon were your only friends, and the selfish part of you sometimes wanted to relive just that : Monopoly games and shaved ice and lego houses. Sometimes, when you crashed on your bed you still smiled thinking about how simple life was back then. You were getting tired of it now though, having to keep your feelings in, running from one part time job to another, lying about how you were. You were exhausted.

You were broken out of your daydream by a splash of water greeting your face, glaring at the culprit who was trying to gather rain water in his cupped hands, you let out a small smile simultaneously sighing about the open ground you’d have to run through to reach the laboratory.

“Let’s go together,” Jake laughed at your frustrated state, opening his umbrella and pulling you close as you stepped into the muddy ground, grimacing at your shoes that you’d have to clean that night.

The umbrella was too small for the two of you, both getting drenched just halfway through the premises.

“Oh come on” you sighed, tugging the boy along as you ran under the downpour. His hand clutching yours tightly as you made your way to class. The umbrella had slipped out of Jake’s hand somewhere in the middle but neither of you noticed as you took in his damp state, laughing till you saw your professor glaring at the two of you, promptly scuttling to classes after that.

“And a latte for you ma’am.” Jungwon flashed his signature smile at you, that you returned without hesitation, handing you the mug of coffee from your kitchen counter where the two of you’d spent the last 15 minutes trying to recreate TikTok coffee recipes, giving up pretty quickly in favor of the conventional latte. At least the younger boy was good at making coffee though, you couldn’t say the same for Yuna who hadn’t even tried to help you live your influencer dreams and headed straight for your hastily made bed, only to fall asleep in a few minutes. Shin Yuna was your roommate and you loved her to death but for the life of you, you couldn’t figure out how a human could sleep that much.

Jungwon glanced at your roommate, grinning slightly as he noted, “She’s out cold as usual, huh.”

You only nodded, relishing the sweet relief of caffeine on your tongue as the boy in front of flicked your forehead, “Drink slowly idiot, it’s hot.”

You gave him a sickening smile before proceeding to kick him in the shin, which led to him screaming and, consequently a pillow fight. You had to give one to Yuna though. That girl could sleep through anything.

It was only after you both sat down once the pillow fight (The pillows were thrown aside exactly 43 seconds into the fight and now you had a red handprint on your forehead and he had the prints of your nails on his face as a result) was over, that he asked you the question you were hoping to avoid.

“Did you and Sunghoon fight?” he asked with genuine curiosity, eyes averted to your cushion on his lap, as he attempted to untangle its strings.

“What? No, no, why?” you giggled unceremoniously simultaneously cursing yourself for being so obvious.

Damn you and your tendency to talk to yourself during the worst of times.

“You keeping avoiding him like the plague is why,” he looked up at you seriously.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about but we’re both busy, so it’s not that big of a deal,” you shrugged suddenly finding the carpet very interesting.

“And it has nothing to do with you crushing on Jake? Sunghoon & I are no longer your priority, huh?” he quirked an eyebrow at you.

Unfortunately for you, your brain had just decided to launch into a tirade of why Ellen DeGeneres was an A-grade jerk and you heard the question wrong.

After all your efforts to pretend you didn’t like anyone, least of all Park Sunghoon, fate finally thought enough was enough.

You knew you weren’t a good actor.

Oh God, what if Hoon saw through your act too?

Wait.

That meant everyone saw you as a pathological liar who consistently trash talked relationships but they stayed quiet because they pitied you.

This was horrible.

You’d need uproot your entire life and begin anew in Russia and go by the name of Luna because let’s be honest you have a soft spot for Luna Lovegood.

“(Name)?” Jungwon snapped his fingers in front of your face breaking you from a trance as you rushed to apologise for not telling him about your feelings earlier.

“I am sorry Wonnie, I liked him but I was so scared he’d-“

“I was just kidding can you stop looking like a-“

‘What?”

“What?!”

“You like Jake?!” This was a newer voice, and you could hear your friend scramble from the bed even as you placed your hands on your ears to minimalise some noise damage.

“Oh my God, you like Jake!”

Your social life was over and now you’d forever have to be resigned to your room where visitors would be allowed to leave flowers of token at the door at you-

“Wait what?”

“You like Jake? What the hell (Name). I was just kidding but..” Jungwon looked like a truck had run over his cacti and demanded him for compensation for damage caused to its tires.

“So, you were just pretending to like hate romance?” Yuna raised an eyebrow while Jungwon scowl in distaste.

“Yeah, (Name) not cool! I thought you were just being a dick to people and now I learn you have a schoolgirl crush?”

In Jungwon’s defense, he was not wrong.

“Oh. Um yeah. Sorry.”

“What a bummer,” Jungwon sighed as Yuna hit him over the head.

“Wait but like, why don’t you ask him out? Anyone can tell the boy likes you.”

You so hated it when your friends made sense. It was a common occurrence for people to assume you and Jake were dating because of how he doted on you, but then the boy was kind and sweet to everyone, he most definitely did not like you although it was apparent that your friends thought otherwise.

“I got rejected,” you blurted out before they could say anything else.

“What?” both cried out in unison.

Yuna stood up horrified, grasping your face in her hands, tilting it from one side to another as you blinked up unsightly.

“I’ll fight for you-“

“No, you will not.” Jungwon pulled her back before turning back to you again “Explain.”

“Um, I confessed and he said…he was busy with work.”

“I- wait what?”

“What work does Jake do?”

“That’s the weirdest rejection ever, but don’t you guys hang out all the time? Isn’t it awkward and how did you never tell us?” Yuna blurted questions after questions as Jungwon looked at you, prompting an answer.

“Oh, it’s um because, you see,” you wracked your brain for ideas “I’m hoping I still have a chance and it’s not awkward cause Jake’s nice like that.”

“With that rejection? Yeah right.” Yuna snorted, probably planning to punch Jake the next  time she saw him.

“Hey, it’s okay (Name). Things don’t always work out but it’s nice that you tried.” Jungwon tried comforting you.

“Yeah, don’t let it get to you.” Yuna smiled sweetly.

God she was scary.

You let out a sigh, if this was a book, this is exactly where the reader would close it to breathe in deeply and question why the main character was such an idiot. You really were the perfect Y/N and you were only going to prove the readers right by digging your own grave.

You knew accompanying Jake for coffee was a bad idea because a) he always ‘forgets’ his wallet and, b) you had a shift at the café in two hours and you couldn’t be bothered to spend any more time there than you necessarily had to; but you were a girl on mission today.

However, as usual, luck definitely wasn’t favoring you and right as you foot into the air conditioned place, your eyes fell on the couple sitting at the farther end of the café (your and Jake’s usual spot).

“Sung-” Jake’s excited shout died in his throat as you turned him around after an effective pinch to his arm.

“What the hell was that for?” he rubbed his arm in confusion, glancing back at the couple who were still in a world of their own.

“Let them have their privacy,” you shushed him, pushing him towards the chair and grabbing one that faced his own.

“Is it not because you can’t stand to see their mushy eyes and frivolous gestures of romance because you feel lonely and sick?” he plopped an elbow on the table, giving you an innocent smile that you returned momentarily before glaring at him.

“You are too invested in my love life Jake Sim,” you wagged a finger at him with a stern gaze, but a smile broke out on your face all the same.

“Just wanted the all clear,” he grinned, before standing up to place an order.

For some reason, your friendship with Jake was one of the few relationships that you never had to work on. It was easy for you to be able to laugh with him and listen to him talk passionately about things you previously had no knowledge about. He never demanded you give him company or spend time with him if you didn’t feel up to it, and sometimes, when you’d lay low for weeks and feel guilty for ghosting your friends, he’d drop you cheerful messages that you returned to whenever you felt upset. Jake’s presence had in a way filled the void that had been created by his friend’s absence.

“Hey, I forgot my wallet.” Jake returned to the table with a pout, and you resisted the urge to coo while somehow simultaneously managing to curse him out loud as you handed him your card.

Two things about Jake you were sure of : a) the boy was loaded, no seriously, he owned the costliest of clothes and shoes, and b) he was either the most careless person you knew or the biggest miser, and you weren’t sure what are worse.

As your thoughts began to drift again your eyes fell on Sunghoon and Reyna, and you were almost certain that you heard your heart let out a creak. Well, that or Jake dragged the chair to sit down in front of you.

“Isn’t it cute though (Name)?” Jake nudged your hand slightly, grinning at Sunghoon and Reyna. The former fiddling with his fingers, his cheeks red and eyes constantly sneaking glances at Reyna, who sweetly smiled at him.

“What?” You deadpanned, snatching up your coffee from the table.

“The way he acts around her” The boy in front of you scoffed, his eyes still twinkling. Jake suddenly seemed so annoying, you were sure it was a side effect of the stupid Elijah Sparks books he had been reading all weekend.

If there was one thing you had more than mint chocolate ice cream, it was romance books written by E. Sparks. You wouldn’t really detest him all that much if it wasn’t for his extremely exaggerated way of defining love and having the out of league guy fall for the bland girl.

“I, for one,” you emphasized pointing to yourself, “find it really cringe.”

“Cringy?” Jake looked at you with narrowed eyes, “At least use the correct word (Name).”

“Doesn’t matter,” you waved your hands around in the air in dismissing manner. “Point is,” you continued, taking your sweet time as you sipped on your coffee, “That’s weird. Seeing other people is weird. Letting one person have control over your life is weird. Emotions are weird. ”

The inner you was cringing intensely, but that’s fine (Name) you were just overcompensating to ensure you wouldn’t reveal your crush to Jake too.

“You used the word weird a lot,” Jake noted, completely ignoring everything else you said, “Aren’t you an English major?”

You mumbled an excuse incoherently, trying your best to look unsuspiciously at the boy sitting a little farther away from you, who was now laughing at something Reyna had just said. You weren’t surprised, Reyna was hilarious. You, on the other hand, had a broken sense of humor, laughing at the most inconvenient of times and over the stupidest of things but then again at least you had your own niche of people who understood your humor, all gathering in the comments under the ‘A slice of bread falling’ video that you had watched at least 19 times, on YouTube.

“So, you still don’t believe that love exists?” Jake asked with genuine curiousity.

You gave a half-hearted shrug, “Probably exists. Just don’t believe I’ll ever experience it.”

“And why not?” He played around with the metal straw in his hands (Jake was so totally a VSCO girl, it was a pity the term was no longer used)

“I’m not the main character.” You leaned back on the chair. Sunghoon was now smiling softly at her.

God, you hated cafés.

“Who do you think is?”

“I don’t know. You maybe? Reyna definitely.”

Jake stifled a laugh, “Any particular prerequisites for that, you think?”

“I don’t know man, can we just go?” You groaned, done with the conversation and the about-to-be-an-official-couple couple in front of you, completely pushing your ‘mission’ to the side. You could deal with the embarrassment of telling Jungwon and Yuna that your crush on Jake was unrequited but not with Park Sunghoon and Kim Reyna making heart eyes at each other in front of you.

“Okay how about we have a deal?” Jake sat up straight, his face serious (You think you should click a picture of it or something, but that’d ruin the moment)

“What deal?”

“Go out on three dates with someone. The same person each time obviously. If you end up not feeling anything, I’ll agree and if you don’t…”

This was your chance! You almost jumped up in your seat startling Jake.

“Okay,” you said quickly with a smile, only realizing later how suspicious that must have sounded.

Jake narrowed his eyes, “That was easy. What do you want in return?”

You placed your elbows on the table, fingers intertwined,” a) I choose who I go on the dates with, and b) you don’t ask any questions when you do me a favor.”

“What favor?” Jake’s brain was practically screaming at him to shut up but he never did listen.

“You’ve to pretend you rejected me a while ago.” you tried to keep your composure.

“No questions Jake. Also,” you smiled sweetly at him, making him groan,” You’re going with me on the three dates.”

“WHAT?”

People turned to stare at you, you kicked him lightly.

“Sorry. What?!”

Jake promptly choked on air.

Too busy trying to keep a straight face, none of you noticed your friends head out.

“You’re kidding.” Jake groaned, the tips of his ears turning red.

“Nah” you chuckled, sipping on the last bits of your coffee trying not to fawn over how cute he looked, the last thing you wanted was to boost Jake’s ego any more.

This was the second stupidest thing you’d done this week. The first of course was you running your mouth at Jungwon’s. Which is why the plan wouldn’t work but you had to try anyway. The spiderweb you spun around yourself was getting bigger and the only way out was to continue.

“You’re going out with….Jake?” Jungwon crossed his arms, narrowing his eyes at you as you tried to act unaffected, typing your draft as you nodded.

“Right after you said he rejected you?” Yuna chimed unhelpfully.

You didn’t understand why the girl was awake, it was 11 in the night and she didn’t seem sleepy at all. You had been hoping she’d be asleep.

“I knew it,” uttered the boy to your left.

Your shoulders drooped, he’d call you a pathological liar for sure now.

“I knew he probably too flustered the first time around!” he shook your shoulders violently.

Sidenote, Jungwon was probably where you got your violent tendencies from.

You weren’t sure whether to feel relieved or not, but your friends were scary for sure. A slight smile broke out on your face thinking about how right Jungwon was about Jake acting strangely when he was flustered, you had once had the prestigious opportunity of seeing him getting confessed to and Jake Sim was an adorable mess to say the least.

“Aww, you must like him a lot,” Yuna was perched on the end of your bed, “You’re smiling.”

“I, yeah, I like him a lot.” You replied with a wavering smile.

“That’s why you didn’t want to go on anymore blind dates!” he exclaimed happily

Too far.

“No, that’s cause you only have drug addicts and creeps on your list, Won.”

Before you could whine about Jungwon’s incompetency at playing Cupid, Yuna did it.

“Hey, at least I didn’t spill Sodium Hydroxide all over the table because the T.A. was too hot.”

“Excuse you? I am not the one who wears denim on denim you uncultured –“

“Um guys?” you interrupted hesitantly.

Considering the two were quarreling, they did trust your story and as reluctant as you were to bring back attention on your fake relationship, if there was going to be a massive realization of (Name) being a liar, you’d rather start here.

“Right, you and Jake.” Jungwon sat down on the bed, your eyes following every movement he made.

“We are happy for you of course (Name),” he beamed at you, opening his arms to envelope both you and Yuna into a hug (Yuna kind of snuggled in forcefully but it felt nice anyway)

“So…do the others know?” Yuna tilted her head to face you as you grimaced for what was to come.

“Not yet,” you admitted.

“Let’s have dinner at Choi’s.” she grinned, “you guys should tell the others too.”

“Only if you are okay with that,” Jungwon placed a comforting hand on your shoulder as Yuna nodded sheepishly.

You gave him a small smile, nodding softly.

“Yeah, let’s do that.”

Two down, six to go.

You could only hope all your friends were delusional idiots

You had exactly two hours before everyone headed to Choi’s and here you were, doused in flour wheezing as Jake Sim tried to make the perfect boomerang for his Instagram. This was your fault really for deciding to come over to his house where you supposed to set your stories straight so it was believable but he somehow persuaded you to help him bake a cake for your friends. It’s the first date, he had looked at you with an adorable smile. That should have been a red flag. Jake hates cooking, much less randomly making stuff for your friends to eat when you’re already heading to a restaurant but you trusted his stupid puppy dog eyes instead.

“Look here (Name),” he pointed the camera at you, beaming with happiness “Flip your hair but like real slow. One, two- (Name)!”

Here you were, two idiots doused in flour, laughing uncontrollably

No one should ever trust you with decisions, you swore as entered Choi Yeonjun’s restaurant. The place was filled with the usual chatter and comforting music, none of that helped you feel at ease though because the moment you entered you were greeted by the person you were desperately trying to get away from. At this point you weren’t sure if it was just your crush or your guilt making you do that. Whatever the reason your heart hammered in your chest as you took in the boy’s appearance. A casual white shirt and black sweatpants but he still looked like he’d stepped straight out of a loungewear magazine. You gave him a small smile, hoping he’d give you a curt greeting and head to the table, but he stayed there, eyes raking your body and then fixating on your smile as he made no attempt to return one and you felt yours droop as well.

This was getting awkward and frankly Sunghoon was tired of the silence, and completely exasperated by you.

“Why haven’t you answered any of my texts?” he asked after a short intake of breath.

Because I didn’t want to hear you talk about Reyna.

“I didn’t see your messages.” You gave a forced smile trying to move away and get to your friends’ table. You could see Heesung and Jay exchange looks and Jake getting up from his seat, but almost immediately Reyna tugged his arm, pulling him back to his seat.

Clicking your tongue in annoyance, you looked the boy in front of you with annoyance.

“Sunghoon can you please get out of my- ” your whine was cut short as he tightly grabbed your elbow, tugging you outside the restaurant.

“What the hell Sunghoon?” you exclaimed in frustration, pulling your arm away from his grip, “What’s wrong with you?”

He promptly dropped his hand to his side, face falling slightly as he saw your reddened arm.

“I am sorry.” He spoke genuinely, and you felt your anger ebb away as he gently inspected your hand.

You stared at him expectantly, already knowing what was going to come and hoping he wouldn’t say it.

“I just miss you,” he rubbed the back of your hand with his thumb, eyes almost watering.

You could taste metal on your tongue from how tight you were biting down on it.

“I don’t know what I did (Name),” his voice was a hoarse whisper now.

Your fingers clutched your dress tightly onto fists as you see a tear escape his eyes even as he turns his head to the side.

“You’ll…” the boy in front of you seemed to hesitate before he cleared his throat,” you’ll forgive me if I hurt you, won’t you? I am sorry, I am really-“

Hugging Sunghoon felt like comforting, even though you were both in tears and you could feel his shirt soak under your skin.

“You did nothing, I- I was just distracted. Sorry.” you mumble softly, nuzzling your face further in your friend’s arm, eyes averted to ground.

“It's okay, just text back every once in a while, okay? I wanted to tell you so many things,” you could feel Sunghoon smile into your skin as he heard you, “I do too.”

Your mind drifted towards Jake, the boy would be worried sick till you returned and you felt yourself letting out a smile thinking of his funny frown in spite of the previously almost morbid atmosphere.

“Is it about Jake?” you looked up at the boy, his lips quirked up in a teasing smile.

“You know?”

“You’ve been ditching me all this while to hang out with that bastard,” Sunghoon let out a chuckle, looping his arm around yours as he walked you towards the nearby park, “Of course I know.”

“Shouldn’t we go back to the otherst?” you looked at him questioningly, making no efforts to leave though.

“They can wait. Besides, I have something I want to tell you.”

None of you seemed to notice the retreating figure of Jake Sim.

“It’s my turn,” you tried pushing Sunghoon off the swing but he clung on adamantly.

You didn’t even care for the swing really. It just felt good being with him, you could almost feel the corners of your lips turning up watching him staring into the distance.

Sunsets were never your thing but Sunghoon always loved the hues of the sky around that time.

“What did you want to tell me?” your throat was choking up again, but you weren’t going to cry anymore.

You’d be a better friend. And you’d be happy for your friend.

“I really like Reyna,”

Yeah, no, fuck being a good friend.

“I..” you began but immediately stopped yourself.

You were not extraordinary at anything but being a good friend. You had your shortcomings but your friends came before anything else. You weren’t just going to hurt yourself by revealing your feelings, because you know Sunghoon like the back of your hand.

He’d give up on Reyna.

You’d break two hearts to save one.

So you nodded your head furiously, pushing his head to the front as he stared up at you in amusement, not trusting your voice till you could take in a deep breath at least.

“I know, you’re not subtle.” You chuckled.

“Really?” he looked back at you aghast, “Do you think she noticed?”

Hands fiddling with the rope of the swing you smiled softly.

“She’s not dumb Hoon.”

“Shit, what should I do?” he got up instantly.

“Tell her,” you could feel your cheeks dampen.

Thank goodness for the dark, really.

“I…what if she doesn’t?” Sunghoon seemed hesitant but you know he’d go anyway.

He gave you a small smile before patting your head softly, ”I should go, shouldn’t I?”

No, please don’t.

“Of course, dumbass.” your voice wavered slightly, but Sunghoon didn’t notice, even as he turned back a few steps out of the playground to wave at you, his back turned to you before you could return the favor.

It didn’t take very long for Sunghoon’s silhouette to disappear and suddenly, your feet were too heavy and your body too exhausted, you felt yourself crash to the ground, your hands clutched the grass tightly. Unmindful of the tears that flowed relentlessly.. The last thing you saw before you collapse were Jake Sim’s eyes staring into yours with concern.

All your friends were delusional idiots.

Except for he-who-must-not-be-named and Reyna, because they weren’t there for dinner with the rest of your group. The realization alone was enough to send a pang of hurt down your chest.

All it took was Jake kissing your cheek as he brought you back to the restaurant and your friends (save for Jungwon and Yuna who looked suspiciously smug) were convinced you were soulmates. They weren’t overtly dramatic either, other than the random gasps they’d let out each time you guys even looked at each other. Or maybe you judged too soon.

“I knew there was something going on!” Jay exclaimed when Jake held your hand in his, making Sunoo gag.

That little bastard.

“Move on, Jay.” Heesung hit Jongseong over his head, smile immediately after so he could ask the boy to pass the salt to him.

“What?” Jay distractedly passed the pepper to an annoyed Heesung instead, looking pointedly at Jungwon who seemed really immersed in his pepperoni pizza, “You guys said I was over thinking it.”

Jungwon didn’t even like pepperoni.

He pointed at you, nudging Heesung who was visibly frustrated by now, “She is the one who over thinks everything. You guys never trust me.”

This fucker.

You gave him a tight lipped smile, picking up your fork with murderous eyes not scaring him in the slightest as he smirked at your intertwined hands. Neither of you made any efforts to separate your hands though.

Not only did you have to play pretend with your freshly broken heart but you also had to watch your friends dissect said pretend relationship. It’s not like you had much of a choice though, it would be better to see a lovesick Sunghoon with fake boyfriend Jake than without him.

‘Hey, I believed you!’ Sunoo raised his hand halfway before picking up another slice of pizza “I even saw them making out in the auditorium,”

Jake’s clutch on your hand grew tighter as he choked on whatever he was eating as you glared at Sunoo. Maybe you shouldn’t feel bad about lying after all.

“I knew Jake was crushing hard dude.” Jay guffawed.

Jungwon gave Yuna condescending smile, subsequently being greeted by a kick to the shin by said girl.

Your smile wavered slightly as you saw Sunghoon and Reyna in the distance, hands intertwined, not noticing Jake’s reddened cheeks till you felt your hand being tugged upwards.

“Guys, me and (Name) should head home,” Jake stood up, looking down at you with a hesitant smile.

“Oh God, are you really going to start mak-”

“Shut up Sunoo,” the two of you muttered together, as you got up amidst the chatter of your friends, eyes meeting with Yeonjun who was dealing with a fussy customer, he gave you a small smile before turning his attention back to the man.

Your mind still hazy as Jake led you out and into his car, the ride was a silent one but your mind didn’t give you a minute of peace.

He handed you a glass of lemonade from the nearby stall, as you aimlessly swung around trying to come up with an excuse for when he’d ask you why he found you shaking and sobbing on a playground.

“Can I ask you something?” he twisted the swing towards him, as you shook your head softly.

“Alright,” he had replied complacently, “let’s talk when you want to.”

You weren’t sure if you had ever felt as empty as you did that night. You turned to the side to look at the boy beside you.

“What did you want to ask?”

“It’s fine, you don’t have to answer.” he looked at you for a second before returning his attention to the road ahead.

“You already know, don’t you?” you sighed, eyes on your lap burning looking at the boy next to you.

Jake nodded hesitantly, before veering the car towards the way home.

“I don’t want to go home,” you sat up frantically.

He slowed the car down to a stop before turning to face you.

“May I hug you?” he asked softly.

You nodded after a second of thought.

You were the kind of person who liked the idea of hugs more than hugs itself, you almost never felt the feeling of warmth envelop you like books said. Until that hug. You’ve hugged Jake before, cuddled even (He’s a very touchy person and always gets scared when you watch horror movies. It always ends up with his face buried in your hair). This hug was different though, he smelled like vanilla and you felt your burning as he rubbing soothing circles on your back. His arms around you made you feel like you were 12 again, safe from heartbreaks and growing up, drinking hot chocolate instead of coffee. Suddenly, it was too hard to keep it in. Your lashes getting heavy with the weight of tears that you were trying to hold back, throat hurting from the buried words you’d tried to choke down with smiles.

Dilemma c) The only boy you’d ever loved didn’t love you back and it hurt to admit that, so you sufficed with believing that you didn’t love. You couldn’t love.

“You know what,” you sniffled pulling Jake closer, not willing to leave his grasp just yet, “he once told me I wouldn’t end up dating anyone because he raised my standards too high. That dickhead.”

Jake couldn’t really hear a lot of what you were saying, your voice muffled by his shirt, but he knew you needed him right now, so even though he felt his breath hitch as your buried your face deeper in his neck, he stayed quiet, patting your hair softly.

“I have liked him for so long, ho- how can he just leave me and-” your voice broke into sobs again and Jake could feel his heart drop in his chest, silently cursing the boy in his mind.

Jake held nothing against Sunghoon really, except his obliviousness to your obvious feelings. He was surprised no one else had caught onto how you only ever shared your treasured pack of orange juice with him or completed his assignments with yours whenever he missed classes or despite obviously caring for Reyna, you completely avoided her whenever she was around Sunghoon.

“Even if, he doesn’t love me like that he should have- Are you crying?” your thumb swiped over his cheeks gently.

He hadn’t even realized that he was crying you mentioned it but sure enough he was sniffling a few minutes later, unsure of how appropriate it was to be crying to your crush’s sob story of her unrequited love.

“Sorry,” he rubbed his hands over his face roughly, feeling his heart lighten when he saw you smiling at him.

“Do you believe in love?” you asked him once he began driving again.

You felt lighter, like a weight had been lifted off your shoulder now that you had cried it out.

“Yeah,” he responded almost immediately.

“What’s it like?” you asked, chin buried in the crevice between your knees as you sat  on the passenger seat.

“Like coming home,” he gave you a soft smile, bringing the car to a stop in front of your apartment.

You didn’t want to be alone.

“Can you stay? Please?” you looked pleadingly at him and he gave in quickly to your surprise.

“Only if we are drinking.” he looped his arm around your shoulder.

You let out a laugh..

The next morning came like an epiphany (and a terrible hangover). Two realizations at hand a) You couldn’t go through with the fake dates. You told Jake as much, he looked up from where was what you assumed trying to make you pancakes, he didn’t look surprised at all. He simply nodded and gave you a reassuring smile, “It’s fine. I’ll tell the others we were messing around or something.”

You gave him a pained smile, unsure if the boy remembered the previous night well.

“You can just say we broke it off because we are better off as friends or something.” He suggested as you continued chucking clothes into your bag, not looking at the way his hands trembled.

He wanted to ask you if you were leaving, and if you were feeling better now, but he decided to stay quiet, he had ended up breaking his own heart while trying to fix yours.

He opted to leave after you ate the burnt pancakes together, only receiving a small smile in return when he asked if he’d see you in college on Monday.

b) You needed to leave for a little while, if only to get your thoughts straight. You had done something you shouldn’t have and now your brain was a mess.

You spent the next few minutes informing your employers that you needed to take a few days off, thankfully both were fine with it. Unfortunately you weren’t, it felt like you were running away, you tried to convince your mind uselessly but the damn thing just wouldn’t shut up till you were in your car on the way home, speakers blaring Gracie Abrams because you were too much of a coward to listen to Olivia Rodrigo. Your phone lay switched off amid your haphazardly packed clothes. You wouldn’t need it for a while.

Niki was grounded, and your phone was in your brother’s hand exactly 7 minutes after your random visit home. At least your mother was pleased to see you, although she constantly kept turning your wrists around, worrying that you hadn’t been eating well. Your dad wasn’t home and you were thankful that you didn’t have to see him because you know you’d burst into tears immediately if you did.

You didn’t like doing chores but Niki had grown more rebellious than you remembered and so it ended up being you and your mom alone in the kitchen, chopping vegetables and talking.

“He’s such a stubborn boy,” your mother complained with a smile.

You looked at her inquisitively.

“He and Yeonhee broke up,” She shook her head tiredly “He needs to understand that relationships need time and patience, but this stubborn boy.”

Your hands shivering, trying to ignore how your mother’s words had hit you like a brick.  Yeonhee was like a little sister to you, she was always over at your house, playing with Niki and pranking you when you least expected it.

“Why all of a sudden?”

“The boy won’t tell me a thing. Anyway, how have you been doing love?” your mother smiled at you before patting your cheek lovingly “Resting enough?”

“Yeah, I always rest when I should mum,” you replied inattentively, thoughts swimming in your head.

“I need to talk to Niki, mom,” you told her hurriedly placing a kiss on her cheek as you went upstairs.

“Niki!”

“The door’s opened. Come in.”

You threw yourself on the unsuspecting boy, hitting him on the head right as he relaxed into the hug.

“Ouch, what was that for?”

“How are you?”

“You.” he pushed you away by your shoulders, staring sternly at you “You heard about Yeon, didn’t you?”

“Yeah,” you pouted slightly burying your face in the pillow before facing him “Wanna talk about it? Are you okay?”

“I don’t know, mom keeps telling me I am wrong,” he scoffed, playing with the ends of his sleeves.

“You’ve known her since forever, kiddo. She’s just worried you didn’t think it through.” you tapped his knees to get him to listen.

“It’s just strange,” he whined poking your arm for no reason eliciting more prodding from you “I really care for her still but sometimes I think, I like the idea of her more. When we were friends it was so much different. It’s like I push everyone else away when I think of her, and that’s not healthy.”

Your breath hitched.

Your brother continued unaware of how guilty you felt, “It’s not like I can control my feelings you know. And I do care for her. A lot but I started doing everything the way she liked instead of what I wanted, I even fought with my friends because she wanted to spend all the time with me.”

His voice broke slightly at the end, making your heart hurt. You didn’t like seeing him this way.

“Hey, hey please don’t cry. You should just.. talk once instead of hiding away like this though, okay? I’m sure she’ll understand.”

Hypocrite, the voice in your head muttered.

You have no idea why but your inner monologue person is the meanest human you’ve ever interacted with. And it’s you! You love making yourself hurt, don’t you?

“You’re…you are doing the same thing, aren’t you?”

Niki’s voice trailed towards the end, eyes wandering towards your phone that you grabbed before he could.

“What?” you nudged him playfully “Don’t snoop around my messages, man.”

“Sorry” he muttered “Did you not tell anyone you were coming home though?”

“I- no, no I didn’t.” you corrected yourself with a sigh.

“You know it’s okay to prioritize yourself once in a while, right?”

“Yeah,” you whispered half-heartedly.

“How did you know?” you hesitantly asked your brother, who waited for you to clarify, “How did you know you just liked the idea of her and not her.”

“I-“ he cut himself off with contrite smile, “I felt the happiest around someone else.”

You looked at him with a stricken face.

“Oh, come on (Name) I am not a dick, I didn’t do anything.”

You let his previous words sink as you thought about your own situation. Was it possible that you only liked the idea of Sunghoon? It seemed that way sometimes, you’d forget all about the boy when you were with Jake, and kissing the latter had seemed so right even thought you were both way too buzzed o remember properly, just that you had melted in his arms and fallen asleep right after.

“(Name) you know I’m here for you, yeah?” He said seriously, you could only nod, wondering just how different your dynamics were as opposed to most other siblings as you walked out. Niki had always been selfless, never fighting and ready to give up his share of things if that’d make you happy.

Avoiding people and situations that made you uncomfortable had always been your way of dealing with them. Letting go of your years old friendship with Sunghoon just because you couldn’t deal with your feelings in a healthy manner and then fleeing for home when you heard Jake confess his love for you in your sleep. You wonder how many heartbreaks that humans cry over were created by them.

“Mom, I’ll go back tomorrow.”

“That soon?”

“I have…someone I need to talk to and,” your voice dipped “apologise to.”

You checked your phone on your way back, 18 missed calls from Sunghoon, 21 from Yuna, 16 from Jungwon and Jay, 14 from Heesung and Sunoo, messages from your friends flooding your phone. 1 message from Jake. Your finger hovered over his name, unsure of whether you should click it or not.  You go with the latter. You had to talk to someone first.

She looked gorgeous in the casual blue dress she’d worn. Then again, Reyna always looked stunning, she looked a little lost till she saw you waving at her. Her smile amplified as she hugged you tightly before landing a firm punch on your arm as you whined, unable to control the smile on your lips.

“You had us terrified, idiot.” she took the seat in front of yours, looking you up and down, making you laugh.

“Are you checking me out?” you asked with a smirk.

“Oh, you know it,” she returned easily.

God, you missed this. You were such an idiot.

“I am sorry.” You took in a deep breath.

“I know,” she placed her hand atop yours “It’s fine. You should take as long as you need.”

“Did you see the other guys?” you asked, hands crossed over your lap.

“Oh no. Hoon wanted to visit the park and we thought we’ll start rejoining the group dinners after a bit. You and Jake left early too, didn’t you?”

You fiddled with your fingers, “Yeah.”

“I… Can I ask you something?” you looked at her hesitantly.

“Of course” she smiled sweetly.

“Did, um, did Jake tell you why I took off randomly?”

You just couldn’t do it. You couldn’t tell your friend that you used to have a crush on your boyfriend, that would be a huge dick move, even by your standards (You’d be lying if you said telling on people during elementary and middle school wasn’t your favorite past time, you defended yourself by saying Honesty was a virtue but you were not going to follow Harishchandra’s example here even though you’d only just decided to come clean).

“Yeah, he said you guys had a quarrel and he said something that made you leave. Wouldn’t say what even though Hoon threatened him.” she grabbed the cup of coffee and doughnut that the waiter served, eating slowly before continuing “Did he say something really mean?”

You took in a deep breath.

“He said he loved me.”

Reyna stopped eating.

“Oh”

“Yeah,” you couldn’t stop the chuckle while looking at her confused face.

“Is that bad? Too soon?” she asked, leaning back in her seat.

“No, it’s just-“

“You don’t.” she finished for you.

“I am not sure.” You spoke softly, eyes fixated on the table.

You felt horrid. Is this how Sunghoon would feel had you confessed?

“I wish I did,” you spoke hurriedly before she could respond “I really do, but I, I liked someone else for a really long time and then I just realized that I maybe didn’t like him and I do like Jake but.”

You let out a groan, frustrated by the jumbled mess you were spewing.

“You know, (Name),” Reyna spoke slowly like she was talking to a child “If he really loves you, he’ll wait. He’ll wait till you are ready.”

“Jake please,” you pleaded trying to stop him from leaving the diner, aware of how shocked your friends looked but trying your best to ignore their stares.

It’d been a week since you returned, you hadn’t talked to anyone other than Reyna. Having cleared your head about everything you’d decided you’ll talk to everyone at the restaurant, apologize and ask Jake if you could talk once everyone left but he had stood up immediately as he saw you. You could hear yourself gasp at how gaunt he looked in just a week, his bright eyes looked anything but as you approached closer watching him blink at you like he’d seen a ghost, immediately the chatter of the rest of your friends dimmed as he got up and walked right past you, you grabbed his arm before he could leave.

“Please,” you had never felt this helpless.

He took his hand out of your grasp, “(Name) I really can’t talk right now, I am exhausted and.-“

“Jake, I really don’t know what to say here. Can we please not talk alone?”

“(Name) I-” his voice was cut off by Jay’s.

“(Name) you had us scared shitless, You should’ve at least replied to the messages.”

“I needed some time off guys,” you replied, eyes still stuck on Jake.

“It’s alright (Name),” Heesung assured you “Reyna told us you needed some time.”

You could see Sunghoon getting out of his chair from the corner of your eye, but for the first time in so long it didn’t matter, what he had to say could wait and the realization was accompanied by a slow burn in back of your throat.

Just how many times had you ignored or hurt Jake, too sidetracked by what you felt for Sunghoon?

Your other friends continued to talk but their voice fell on deaf ears, as you wistfully looked at Jake silently asking him for a chance.

“Okay,” he nodded at last “Let’s go.”

You didn’t know where to begin.

“We kissed.” he spoke after a moment of silence, eyes never wavering from the road he was driving on.

“We kissed and I ended up confessing, but you regretted the kiss and you didn’t like me back, so you just..left.” His voice had no emotion it, like he had been saying this line a countless number of times till the pain ebbed away and left a blank instead.

“That’s not it, I just-” you tried to collect your thoughts “I am sorry. I know I scared everyone but I felt so confused because I liked it. I liked kissing you and then when you said – I was just so unsure, I needed time to figure it out.”

“(Name) I know it was sudden and this was not how I planned on telling you, if at all and I get that you needed time but would it really hurt to at least…not leave me hanging?”

“I wasn’t thinking, Sunghoon and Reyna, and then you- you made feel like for the first time like there was…someone else I could’ve liked.”

At that, Jake’s eyes flickered to yours, still hesitant as if he couldn’t be sure if you were talking about him.

“I was just all over the place. I should’ve talked to you.” you continued regretfully, placing your head on the headrest “I hurt you, didn’t I?”

“Yes,” he replied without hesitation “but do you, do you mean what you just said?”

You nodded slowly, hands grasping your dress tightly, “I don’t think I like Hoon the way I thought I did. But I can’t be sure about my feelings, Jake, I don’t want to hurt you again.”

“(Name)” Jake’s voice was gentler this time, “What if I want to take that chance?”

You sat up straight in your seat.

“You do?”

“I will.”

You looked at him in surprise, eyes still teary as he pulled up in front of your house.

You stayed as you were for a while, before getting out of the car and turning towards the boy.

“I’ll see you soon?” you asked hesitantly as he gave a small smile and a nod.

“And hey (Name),” he called out after you, “Second date tomorrow.”

Your hands were shaking as you reached for your phone, pressing the floor number on the escalator, heart beating fast as you finally clicked the message you had been avoiding.

You asked me what love was. I didn’t know for sure then and I don’t know it for sure now but, I think it’s when the kitchen is a mess because we tried to bake a cake together but now there’s flour everywhere and our first instinct is to look at each other and laugh. Love is when I can’t fall sleep at night and look at the glow in the dark stars pasted lopsidedly on the roof and smile unconsciously remembering the shaky ladder and mumbled threats and breathy laughter. Love is when I sit still on my desk and randomly doodle your name on my books and laugh about it. Love is you holding my hand and stealing my hoodie and watching cringy rom-coms and eating half burnt pancakes because neither of us paid attention to the time but that's okay, because we are eating it together. Love is the fragrance of coffee in the air, when I get back home after a tiring day and crash onto the couch but you call to tell me about Professor Green’s horrible class policies and suddenly I’m not so tired anymore. Love is wrapping you in my arms and feeling like I'm finally home, even though I’m not sure I’ve ever been home before but that’s okay because in my dreams we always make it there, under the pouring in rain, the umbrella forgotten somewhere along the way, running and laughing and tripping over untied shoelaces, but we always make it home

 Your finger trembled as you clicked the next message from Jake

And by the way, you’ve always been the main character to me.

Goodnight (Name), I’ll see you tomorrow ❤

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[emeraldenha]

here is where you’ll find all the teasers and finished works for this collab! once again, thank you so much for all the participating writers and I hope this project can be enjoyed by all the enha readers who come across it.

happy reading!

completion status: still updating! (7/14)

➱ YANG JUNGWON

in your dreams! by @moonsluvr -> teaser

paring: yang jungwon x reader

summary: jungwon’s job is to turn people’s nightmares into dreams; you’ve got the power to turn dreams into nightmares. it’s no surprise that when you infiltrate jungwon’s dream, he makes it his mission to get revenge. except there’s one problem. he can’t exactly ruin dreams like you can, leaving him no choice but to get acquainted with you in real life. and he definitely won’t fall in love in the process… right?

➱ LEE HEESEUNG

➱ PARK JONGSEONG (JAY)

the lace of facades by @emeraldenha -> teaser

pairing: fashion major!jay x fem!fashion major!reader

summary: facade(n.) — an outward appearance that is maintained to conceal a less pleasant or creditable reality.

➱ SIM JAEYUN (JAKE)

good boy gone bad by @just-mars-writing

pairing: jake sim x oc

summary: jake writes a diary in which he explains his first heartbreak from his first love.

➱ PARK SUNGHOON

when the sun melts the ice by @giyyuzz -> teaser

pairing: figure skater!sunghoon x figure skater f!reader

summary: you hated park sunghoon, and it wasn't news that he hated you too, both of you were always at each other's necks, for you it all came down to who was better at ice skating and finding the slightest mistake to make fun of each other, but one day an accident and an injury make you change your view of him, proving that he really did have a heart after all.

park sunghoon drabble by @dazzledsohn

pairing: park sunghoon x reader

summary: a short drabble where sunghoon confesses that he does indeed know how to ice skate. 

➱ KIM SUNOO

the spy by @evangelinevolturi

pairing: detective!sunoo x culprit!reader

summary: n/a

yours truly, karma by @restlessmaknae

pairing: high school senior!sunoo x high school senior!reader

summary: you and sunoo have been enemies ever since you met each other at a debate competition in freshman year. this year, it seems like you have no choice but to compete alongside him instead of against him. and so all hell breaks loose…

➱ NISHIMURA RIKI (NI-KI)

bring it on ghost! by @rubysluvbot

pairing: ghost hunter!riki x ghost!reader

summary: riki was a normal high school student.. well with one exception, he can see ghosts so he can see you.

masterlist || announcement

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[dollyyun]

how you get the girl | jake sim

SYPNOSIS: jake sim excels in everything, be it sports, academics, or even silly little games—everything except for one─he sucks at winning over a girl's heart. he has a crush on a girl in his department, but he has no idea how to approach his crush without being weird or even get her to reciprocate his feelings. and so he implores his best friend since diapers to help him out─ the ways on how to get the girl. however, little does he know that his best friend harbours feelings that are beyond platonic for him.

PAIRING: non!idol jake x fem oc (who goes by evelyn) ft. jay, sunghoon, yunjin from le sserafim, wonyoung from ive.

GENRE: college au, fluffs, slight crack, lil angst (kinda), best friend to lovers, one shot au.

WARNINGS: drama, heartbreaks, expletives, suggestive themes, alcohol consumption.

STATUS: WIP

TAGLIST: [open! do comment below]

RUBY’S NOTE: whenever i listen to taylor’s ‘how you get the girl’ i always affiliate it with jake because he fits the song sm, and i’ve been wanting to write a cute, fluff with a tinge of angst story for jake with this song.

PREVIEW BELOW: (may or may not have to change)

Evelyn Park can't precisely recall the realisation when she knew that her feelings for her best friend were beyond platonic.

Perhaps it was when they were seventeen that he asked her out for prom, but only because he wasn’t brave enough to ask out other girls and was comfortable with her. Perhaps it was when he comforted her after she had broken up with her ex-boyfriend of two years. Or perhaps she had always harboured feelings beyond platonic for him when they were young.

But the thing is, Evelyn knows that Jake doesn’t see her as more than just a best friend. As a matter of fact, Jake relies on her and naturally expects her to be his wingman, or rather, wingwoman.

So, when Jake comes knocking on her door, where she resides in a dormitory with her two best friends, she doesn’t know what to expect and definitely doesn’t expect the words flying out of his mouth.

"I really need your help." Desperation resides in his gaze—his gaze that always sends a flutter to her heart. "Please?"

"Jake, it's nine p.m." Evelyn sighs, rubbing her tired face. She leans her hips against the door with her arms folded below her chest. "You couldn’t wait until tomorrow to ask for my help?"

"This is important. Like way important." Jake's pouty lips tempt her to kiss him, but she holds herself back. "My pride is wounded, and I've officially made an embarrassment out of myself."

Her eyes soften. "What happened?"

"I uh," Jake rubs his nape, smiling sheepishly. "I may or may not have been rejected by my crush."

There it is, the sound of her heart shattering into pieces. "Oh," is all she can afford to say.

It is no surprise that Jake is undoubtedly an attractive individual who has a charm that no one can resist. He excels in everything he does, be it sports or academics. In fact, he is every girl's dream guy. But the thing with Jake is that he has no interest in girls at all, unlike his best friends.

Only Evelyn knows the reason why he has zero interest in girls, and that specific reason is that he sucks at talking to girls. Even if he does talk to a girl, he will avoid eye contact and occasionally stutter.

"Oh? Oh?" Oblivious to Evelyn's disheartened spirit, he continues to express his aggravation. "Is that all you have to say? Don't you want to know the details? It was bad, Eve. Like, really bad. I might even have to drop out of college."

"All because you've been rejected by your crush?" She deadpans.

"I've liked her since last year, okay?" Jake grumbles. "You might know her. She's in my department."

"So why exactly do you need my help?" She frowns. "You've already been rejected by her."

"Because I want to win over her heart." Determination blazes in his eyes. "And I need your help on the ways to get my crush to reciprocate my feelings."

There is a protracted silence as he awaits her response with a glimmer of hope in his eyes. He can't seem to decipher the emotions in her eyes, but he knows for a fact that his best friend since diapers won't be able to refuse him.

"No."

The smile on his face drops. "Eve─"

But Evelyn slams the door in his face. The abrupt loudness draws attention from her roommates, whose faces are wearing facial masks and whose attires are in matching pyjama sets, as they peek their heads from the living room just to see Evelyn leaning her back against the door, looking crestfallen.

"We heard Jake's voice." Yunjin speaks up as she observes her best friend carefully. "What's wrong?"

Before Evelyn can respond, she is startled by the knocks on the door. "Come on, Eve! Help out your best friend!"

"He still hasn’t left?" Wonyoung asks in bewilderment before popping a candy into her mouth.

Evelyn closes her eyes and draws in a sharp breath, fighting an internal battle, but eventually she gives in. With a scowl, she opens the door rather aggressively, almost leading to Jake stumbling forward.

"Fine. I'll help you." She narrows her eyes at his beaming face. "But you owe me, big time."

"Thank you so much!" Jake lunges forward to pull her into a hug. The warmth and sense of security in his arms encasing her bring heat to her cheeks.

As she reciprocates the hug, taking her time to relish this moment of closeness, she knows for a fact that it is too late to take back her words, as her best friend has officially put his trust in her to help him out by teaching him the ways of how to get the girl, or rather, his soon-to-be girl.

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𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍𝒔 | chap 04

SYPNOSIS: wherein Hwang Stella's life is tangled in a predicament involving her clandestine identity as a racer, her seemingly daily life as the official heir to the Hwang Empire, and seven guys with whom she has a complex history with.

PAIRING: enhypen members x fem oc.

GENRE: 18+ (mdni), reverse harem, chaebols, semi-college & racing, eventual adulthood, non-idol au, eventual enha being f1 drivers, multiple pov (this fic is written in first pov).

WARNINGS: violence, angst, drama, fem!oc drowning.

WORD COUNT: 9k+

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STELLA: I'm ready to talk. Meet me at the park near our campus.

As I read her text, relief thaws the aggravation that feels like endless turmoil. It has almost been a month since she decided to ghost me out of nowhere. Initially, I wasn't bothered in the slightest due to how my schedules have been occupying me, preventing me from meeting her.

But as time passed, her avoidance perturbed me, especially when she ignored my calls and texts, which wasn't like her, as she usually returned them as quickly as she could, no matter how busy she could get. The perturbation eventually transitioned into vexation.

Then, at Sunghoon's party, I caught her and Heeseung being a little too friendly with each other. I knew that I didn't have the right to feel envious, but when I saw Heeseung touching her, holding her in his arms, and with her smiling and laughing with him, I couldn't contain the rage I felt.

It did feel good to be able to punch Heeseung back, but when I saw how fearful her eyes were when she looked at us, it felt as though she punched me in the gut. I never want to frighten her.

After sending her a quick 'okay', I place my phone in my pocket and make my way to the students' parking lot. As I'm about to arrive at the entrance, I spot Jake, who is leaning his back against the wall while typing on his phone.

Not only has Stella been avoiding me, but Jake as well. After the incident at the party with the truth unravelled, Jake didn't say anything to anyone, leaving Sunghoon's place in silence. I tried calling and texting, but he's just the same as Stella.

I walk towards him with the intention of confronting him. He can't avoid me forever. Heck, I feel bitter and slightly hurt because of the way he is.

"Jake."

He looks up from his phone, and his once blank face morphs into something that I've never seen him looking at me before. Resentment.

Instead of responding, he attempts to walk away, turning his back on me, but I'm not having any of that.

"Sim Jaeyun, you can't avoid me forever."

He stops and turns around to meet my eyes. His gaze burns through me as though I'm his enemy.

"We need to talk." I tell him firmly.

"Oh, do we?" Jake scoffs. "I didn't think that we needed to talk after the revelation at Sunghoon's."

Annoyance sparks within me from his sarcasm. "I don't understand you. Why should it matter to you what Stella and I were doing? She's not your business anymore."

"It matters because I thought you were my best pal." Jake grits his teeth while he clenches a fist. "I didn't expect my best pal to betray me by going after my ex."

"It's been months, Jake! Months!" Thankfully, there are not many students in the vicinity. "I thought you'd finally moved on! You're even dating her sister, for fuck's sake!"

I step forward, glowering at him. "I didn't want to tell you this, but ever since you've been dating Rena, you've changed. I chose to be on your side because we grew up together and you're my best friend."

An inexplicable emotion flickers in his eye. "You don't even know half of the things I've gone through." He says with such hatred. "You don't even know what I had to sacrifice."

Despite how he's speaking to me with such hatred, I can't help but feel that there is also despair. He's hiding something.

"What are you hiding, Jake?" I ask as the prior indignation diminishes. "You know you can trust me. We've known each other since forever."

There it is, the cold, resentful facade he puts up is beginning to crack. My gut is telling me that whatever happened or whatever he has been hiding from us weighs heavier than he can carry.

"You wouldn't understand."

"Then help me understand." I sigh. "What are you hiding? Why do you seem so afraid to tell me?"

"Forget it. What's done is done."

Before he can turn around, I tell him something that I know he needs to hear. "You still love Stella."

With the way he visibly flinches, I already know the answer, despite how my heart feels a sting.

"Admit it, Jake." My voice sounds unyielding. "You still love Stella, but you're a fucking idiot because right now, you're with the wrong Hwang."

Jake turns his back on me while I manage to catch his hand, forming a fist once more. "Like I said, Jay, what's done is done."

"Jake! You coward! I wasn't finished!" I call out after him as he keeps walking until he disappears from my sight.

Because of him, the curiosity that sparks within me becomes tenfold. I don't care if he's still mad at me or hates me, but I will get to the bottom of this. 

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

I park my silver Aston Martin DB12 Volante by the curb and switch off the ignition. As I step out, I spot Stella seated on one of the playground swings. Her lilac waves look beautiful, suiting her overall countenance. Even though most perceives of her as someone who is cruel and heartless, I know for a fact that they're wrong.

Stella is anything but cruel and heartless. Sure, her icy demeanour probably makes other people to be wary of her and her reputation as the Hwang heir, but honestly, I don't see her the way they all do. 

Yeah, we were friends with benefits, but she sure was a good friend to me. At times, I found myself opening up to her and sharing things that I didn't share with the guys. I like the way she thinks uniquely, the way she understands me as I too, am the official heir. 

"Stella." I greet her, standing next to her as I tower over her figure.

"Jay." Her voice sounds different to how she would usually speak to me. I ignore the pinch in my heart.

"I'm sorry for what happened at Sunghoon's party." I start off, clearly aware of my deplorable behaviour. "I'm sorry for what I said. I was pissed-off and went over my head with how I acted towards you and Heeseung."

Stella looks up at me, confusion resides in her gaze. "That's the thing, Jay. I don't understand why you were mad."

She's right. But I can't let her know the reason behind my anger.

"I was a fool. I thought you had replaced me with Heeseung." I mutter.

"Even if I had, why should it matter to you? We're nothing but friends."

"Because it's obvious that Heeseung and I don't get along well." It's such a lame excuse, but I'm desperate enough to tell her white lies.

She frowns. "So if Heeseung and I were friends, which we already are, you'd disapprove? I can't believe how possessive you are."

My fingers run through my hair in frustration. "Stella─"

"Anyway, you wanted to know why I ghosted you, right?" She cuts me off, her tone sounds sharp like a knife. "I didn't know how to tell you at the point of time and I couldn't bring myself to face you."

"Tell me what?"

She inhales sharply, her eye contact remains unwavering. "That I'm done being your fuck buddy. It was great while it lasted, but it's time we put an end to it."

I don't fucking care that she doesn't want to sleep with me anymore, but why does it feel like she's also putting an end to our friendship?

"Okay." My voice comes out soft. "If that's what you want, then we'll stop."

"And," She continues, though she seems hesitant. "I don't think we can be friends anymore."

My heart feels as though it has shattered into pieces. "What? But why?"

Stella shakes her head and slowly rises from the swing. She turns her back on me. "I already gave you the answers you seek."

I grab her wrist before she can even walk away. "Don't be like this, Stella." I sound desperate, but I no longer give a fuck about it. "You didn't even tell me why you wanted to end it all yet. Don't leave me hanging again."

She whips her head around, startling me with the anger in her eyes. "What about you? You left me hanging too. You ignored my texts and calls too while you were out with other girls."

"That wasn't true!" I protest. "I was busy with the amount of workload! You know it yourself, being the official heir! And about the other girls, they were just my parents' good business friends' daughters!"

The anger slowly diminishes before looks of despair and heartbreak shine in her eyes. "You want to know the real reason why I want to cut ties with you?" She chuckles sadly. "Because I broke the agreement."

The sound of my heart pounding seems to be getting loud in my ears. "What do you mean?"

"I grew feelings for you, Jay." Her lips quiver. "Feelings that are beyond platonic."

My grip on her wrist slowly loosens. "Stella─"

She snatches her wrist from my loosen grasp. Though there are no tears in her eyes, she looks crushed. "I still do, but I'm trying to get rid of my feelings for you. I know that you will never reciprocate what I feel for you, so please, allow me to do you a favour by cutting ties with you."

It feels like I've been paralysed, unable to move or speak out any words. Most of all, my heart is screaming at me, begging me not to let her disappear from my grasps.

"I have my own baggage to deal with, so please understand that I'm also doing you a favour because I'm a complicated mess. Always was." Sentimentality shines in her eyes as she looks at me for the last time. "I won't take our friendship and the moments we had for granted. So, goodbye, Jay."

I don't know how long I've been standing here since she left the park, but soon, my knees feel like giving up. She was just a friend, a great friend who understood me the way no one did, but why do I feel as though my soul has been crushed and my heart has been ripped off my chest?

Instead of heading to the mansion, I find myself driving to the skating park that I used to go to with my uncle, my brother, and Jaeyun. After what happened with Jay, I need to clear my mind. Surprisingly, I didn't shed a tear, despite how my heart was hurting.

Deep down, I know that I can never blame Jay. It's all on me. Yes, I do have feelings for Jay, but at the same time, my heart can't seem to let go of Jaeyun. To make things even more complex, my encounters and interactions with Jungwon and Heeseung have begun to stir something in me.

And so, I decided that it was for the best for Jay to not be tied to someone like me. Someone who doesn't know who or what she wants. Someone who is desperate for some validation and affection. Someone who easily falls in love.

As I shut the driver's door, I begin to make my way towards the park while my hand searches for a familiar box inside my pocket. Bringing it out, I look down. My hand is shaky as I take out one stick. After lighting it up, I bring it up to my lips before inhaling the toxic substances.

I know I promised myself that I'd try to quit, but just for tonight, I need something to ease me.

As I look up, my heart stops beating momentarily while I halt my steps. Only a few feet away from me is the person I never expected to come here.

The stick settles between my fingers as I lower it. I can't seem to look away from his eyes, even though the intensity of his gaze alone is enough to cause my state of mind to shamble.

For a moment, I almost want to run into his arms—his arms that used to be a place where I could find comfort, his arms that used to feel like a blanket of security.

I swallow down the lump of sadness, forcing myself to maintain my icy demeanour. "What are you doing here?" I ask harshly, though I hope that he won't detect the shakiness.

"None of your business." The coldness in his voice feels as though a knife has cut my heart open. There is no longer the warmth and affection he used to convey to me. His eyes look down at the burning stick between my fingers. "Since when did you smoke?"

"None of your business." I counter coldly before attempting to walk past him. "You should leave."

I hear him scoff. "You don't get to tell me what to do. This is a free zone."

"Oh, really? Do you bring Rena here often too?" I grit my teeth as I halt my steps. "Do you teach her how to skate like you did with me?"

"Don't bring Rena into the conversation."

I spin around, seething with anger amidst the despair. I look at him dead in the eyes. "Protective of your sweet little girlfriend now? How honourable." My tongue tastes like poison as I speak. "Tell me, is it fun dating your ex's sister? Oh, and does she know how much of a coward you are?"

Jake remains silent, though the coldness in his gaze doesn't melt. I continue to speak, expressing all the pent-up emotions I've been keeping since the day he left and broke my heart.

"It wasn't long after our breakup before you started dating Rena. And while we're at it, it wasn't even a mutual breakup!" As I raise my voice, my throat starts to burn, as does the back of my eyes, burning with the incoming waterworks. "You gave me cold shoulders and started being indifferent before you decided to break up by sending me a text, like a coward!"

By now, tears have erupted as they roll down my cheeks while my body trembles with so many emotions. "I tried calling you after you sent that text, but you didn't answer. You know what's worse? When I called you, it was when I needed you the most." I choke on a sob, the betrayal feels fresh as day one. "And now you're dating my bitch of a sister? How cruel can you get?!"

"Don't speak of her that way." Though he sounds stern, I can almost discern how weak his voice sounds.

With my index finger, I jab it at where my heart is. "It fucking hurt when I found out you were dating her. You have no idea how much you broke my heart when you decided to get together with the girl who used to make my life a living hell!"

Droplets of rain start pouring down, but I don't have the heart to care that my clothes will soon be damp. A sob leaves my lips as I pathetically wipe my tears with the back of my hand. "How could you do this to me, Jaeyun? I gave you my all, and I loved you more than anything." I still do.

The whole time, he remains silent, and I can't make out the expression on his face. My body trembles as I continue to pour my heart out. "All those moments you spent with me, the words you spoke to me, how you used to tell me I was your only girl—you can't tell me that they were fake."

I blink my eyes, finally being able to look at his face a little clearer despite the rain. Strands of his hair stick to his forehead, and his clothes are as damp as mine. His gaze remains unwavering on mine, but his hand forms a fist.

"Maybe I'm just a good actor." He clenches his jaw. "It looks like they worked, considering how you've fallen for them."

"Screw you!" I scream at him. "You don't just do that to someone with whom you've been together for three fucking years! You know what? I don't care anymore! Fuck you and your girlfriend!" My chest heaves heavily while my throat begins to hurt. I look at him for the last time. "I can't believe I ever loved you."

I turn my back on him and briskly walk away from him. I wipe my tears again, but it seems that every time I do, the tears come running down my cheeks again. I don't know how long I've been walking in the rain, but as I bring the cigarette stick to my lips, frustration ignites in me as the stick has dissipated. Soon, the frustration turns into despair once more. I halt my steps before I crouch down, and I begin to bawl my eyes out with ugly sobs leaving my lips.

A part of me expects Jaeyun to follow me and hug me from the back, but it doesn't happen. Once again, he left me here in the cold, just like that day. I should've known better that Jaeyun is no longer the Jaeyun I once knew. Jaeyun, whom I used to be able to call mine.

I just keep crying in the heavy rain, pouring my heart out and all the pent-up emotions. It is all so fucking complicated, and yet I'm the one who complicates things. It frustrates yet astounds me that my heart harbours feelings for more than one person.

Two heartbreaks in one night. That's a new record.

"You know what's worse? When I called you, it was when I needed you the most."

"How could you do this to me, Jaeyun? I gave you my all, and I loved you more than anything."

No matter how hard I tried to bury the memory with her two nights ago, they always managed to resurface in my mind. It even emerged in my sleep, as if it were haunting me. Of course, it did. I hurt the only girl who ever loved me sincerely.

The familiar sound of a bell chime brings my attention to the bunch of kids running and walking towards the school gate, making their way to the respective cars that are waiting for them, while some can be seen hugging their parents and guardians.

I lean my back against my red Audi SQ8 Sportback e-tron car with my arms crossed over my chest, waiting for a certain munchkin with two-tied ponytails.

"Jakey Oppa!"

There she is, with a beaming smile plastered on her face, as she comes running towards me gleefully. As I lean away from my car, she arrives just in time to throw her limbs around my figure, her head reaching near my waist.

A breathy chuckle leaves my lips as I rub her head affectionately. "It looks like someone is happier than usual. How was school, kiddo?"

I assist her, opening the passenger seat for her as she happily enters. I quickly make my way over to the driver's. After I enter, I start the ignition while she buckles herself up with the seatbelt.

"School was fun! I got an A for math!" She gives me a crooked smile, and her eyes sparkle with hope. "Do you think Mom will be happy?"

In response, I offer her a deceptive smile before returning my gaze to the road as I drive us out of the school compound. "I'm sure she will be."

I don't want to give her any hope, considering our good for nothing mother will never give a damn about any of her children unless it's in her best interest. Plus, my little sister has a sensitive heart.

Meet Charlotte Sim, my only little sister, who is turning nine this year. She can be mischievous like any other kid her age, but at times, she often surprises me with how mature she thinks and acts. I do admit that she can be wiser than I could ever be.

"Anyway, Oppa, you wanted to know why I'm happier than usual?" She asks rhetorically while I merely hum in response, too busy focusing on the road that is busier than usual. "Because that Unnie isn't here, finally."

My eyebrows jump up in surprise at her statement. "That Unnie has a name, Char."

"I don't care, and I don't like her!" From my peripheral vision, I notice Charlotte huffing as she crosses her arms.

"Why don't you like her?" I muse. I am not entirely surprised by her proclamation. It's been so blatantly clear with the way Charlotte acts around Rena.

"Because she called you Jakey, and I'm the only one who is allowed to call you that, and she's annoying with how she keeps following you like a lost puppy." Charlotte pauses before the tone of her voice sounds dispirited. "Most of all, she's not Stella Unnie."

Instantly, my grip on the steering wheel tightens. Charlotte's last statement feels like a punch to the gut.

When Stella first met Charlotte, Charlotte liked her instantly, despite how awkward Stella was with kids. Eventually, the two got closer and became inseparable anytime I brought Charlotte along with us. They were practically like sisters. Whenever Char got hurt or cried, she came running to Stella instead of me. I often joked with them about how we could adopt Char and live far away from everyone here.

Melancholy brims in my eyes, but I suck it all up. What's done is done. Let the past stay in the past.

Don't fool yourself, Jake. You're still stuck in that restaurant with her, and you know it.

The restaurant where I brought her for our first anniversary. It was just a simple dinner, yet it was a memorable one. I remember how beautiful she looked in a white dress and the way her eyes shone with love when she gazed at me under the resplendent artificial lights. After that dinner, we headed for an ice cream parlour and walked on the pavement under the moonlight with our hands intertwined.

Fuck, yeah, I'm still stuck in that restaurant.

"Jakey?" Char's timid voice pulls me back to reality while her hand tugs at the sleeve of my coat. I take a glance at her, and I am taken aback to see the guilt in her eyes.

She must've been wondering why I went quiet for the entire ride. I didn't even realise that we had already arrived in the familiar garage of Sim's mansion.

"Are you mad at me?" Her lips quiver in sadness.

"No, baby, I promise I'm not mad at you." I sigh, reaching out to pat her head gently. "I was just thinking."

I help her unbuckle her seatbelt and carry her pink bag before exiting the car. She settles herself next to me, holding my hand as we make our way into the mansion.

"I miss Stella Unnie so much." Char mumbles while my stomach twists in guilt. "No one could ever replace her."

"You can try to like Rena." I don't even know why I fucking insist. I glance down at her and give her a faint smile. "I'm sure she's not that bad."

"I told you so many times, Oppa, that I would never ever like Rena!" Char's outburst doesn't deter me. She releases my hand and looks at me with disbelief while her eyes turn glossy. "Because of her, we lost Stella Unnie! I lost my favourite Unnie!"

I must've underestimated Char's attachment to Stella. The commotion seems to be garnering attention, with some of the helpers glancing our way. Alas, the person whom I don't wish to see appears.

"What's with all the yelling?" My mother, Rhea Sim, donning a smart casual fit, walks towards us with a disapproving glare. "Charlotte Sim, that is not the way to act as a proper lady."

"It's your fault too, Oppa!" Char ignores our mother as she yells at me once more before storming off towards the stairs.

Rhea turns to me with a bizarre look. "Explain." She demands.

"Nothing. She's just throwing a tantrum. It's natural for a child to behave that way." I keep my tone as curt as possible, bending down to place Char's bag on the floor.

"Jake─"

"I won't be able to fetch Char for at least two weeks." I cut her off sharply, wanting to get this over with, because the longer Rhea is in my vicinity, the more my hatred for her grows. "I'll be busy with a workload of assignments and some racing."

My parents are aware of me being a racer, and they support me despite how some may regard racing as preposterous in our high-class society. Luckily, I don't give a fuck about what others think.

I hear my Rhea sigh in frustration. "How long are you going to stay mad at me?"

My jaw feels tight. "Longer than you actually think."

"Jake, it's been months. I can't possibly comprehend how it still affects you." Rhea says abrasively. "I see you're doing just fine dating Rena. Besides, I'd rather you date her than that girl."

"It's called putting up a fucking act, mother." The venomous tone in my voice causes her to flinch visibly. "Remember, mother, that you're the reason why I'm in this complex shit."

Rhea attempts to calm me down by cautiously placing her hand on my shoulder. "It's for the greater cause."

I scoff loudly and jerk away from her touch. "You mean, it's for your cause. You're so selfish. You already knew how happy and in love I was with Stella, and I even had the intention to marry her as soon as we graduate from college, but you just had to be a terrible mom."

Rhea gasps, hurt is visible on her face. "Sim Jaeyun! How could you be so hateful towards your own mother?"

"I hated you the moment you forced me to date Hwang Rena." My eyes are burning with such fervent loathing. "I hated you the moment you made me abandon the only love of my life."

"But─"

"But nothing!" I snarl at her. "The moment you accepted Hwang Jihyun's partnership in collaborating with your business in exchange for my breaking up with Stella, I knew that my happiness has never mattered to you!"

Rhea masks her sadness with the usual coldness, staring at me sharply. "Say what you want. My collaboration is already going smoothly with Jihyun's. So don't you dare break up with Rena and run back to that girl."

"That girl has a name. Hwang Stella." I turn my back on her, but not before glancing at her with a smirk. "Oh, and mother? I've been known to break rules. So you may never know what happens next."

"Sim Jaeyun!" By the time Rhea shouts my name in sheer rage, I'm already outside of the mansion and have made my way back to the garage.

Thankfully, I've been living alone in an apartment since I started college. I imagine if I were still living here, I'd probably kill myself off due to Rhea's controlling and manipulating tendencies.

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

I knew that I had to unwind after what happened. So I decided to head to the arena with the intention of driving for as many laps as my Chevrolet Corvette Stingray, which is in a gorgeous red, could handle.

I don't know how long I've been speeding on the track until I decide that it's time to take a little break. However, as I'm about to pull up at my usual station, I spot Sunghoon at his. The guy appears to have been watching me with his back leaning against the hood of his car and his arms crossed.

I don't know what compels me to stop near his station, but as soon as I do, I roll down the window. His eyes meet mine while his lips turn into a smirk.

"What are you doing here?" I ask with a frown. I thought I would have this place all to myself since it's a Thursday night.

"Why can't I be here? I own this place─"

"You mean your uncle owns this place?"

Sunghoon rolls his eyes at my remark. "Let me guess. You're currently unwinding because something got you all worked up."

I blink my eyes, feeling surprised. "How did you know?"

"Because you're my best─" Sunghoon pauses and looks away from my gaze briefly before clearing his throat awkwardly. "I mean, I've known you for three years. Whenever something happened or got you worked up, you often decided to unwind by racing on these tracks."

I surprise myself as a chuckle leaves my lips. "And you're still as observant. But yeah, I've got too worked up."

Sunghoon purses his lips, seeming to be contemplating, because he leans away from his car and walks towards me. "Since we're the only ones here and my curiosity is annoying me, just pretend that we're still friends."

I exit the car, following Sunghoon, before we choose to sit on the ground. "So, what happened?" He asks.

I heave a deep sigh before hanging my head low. "I don't know where to start."

"Well, you can start off by telling me whatever the fuck happened months ago." Sunghoon suggests, unfiltered as always. "You do realise that you're the reason why the dynamic of our overall friendship was affected?"

"Says you." I retort. "You and Jay were fighting as well."

"Yeah, but not as bad as you and Heeseung were." Sunghoon narrows his eyes at me. "Tell me the damn truth, Jake."

As I look at him, nostalgia sets in. I am reminded of the past, where Sunghoon and I often shared things, even the stupid ones, and yet we enjoyed each other's company. My heart is beginning to sting a little.

"I fucked things up with Stella, as you obviously know." I begin to unravel bits by bits. "My breaking up with her was the root cause of the way I acted and behaved months ago."

"I kind of got a feeling, but I still don't get the part where you were in a brawl with Heeseung at the period where you started acting like an asshole."

Fortunately, I'm used to Sunghoon's unfiltered mouth. I raise my head and stare straight ahead. "Rena told me about how Heeseung had a crush on Stella and had been eyeing her for a long time." I rub my face. "At that point, my life was in shambles. I wasn't in the right state of mind. When I saw Heeseung, I confronted him about it. Before I knew it, I punched him first."

"You're a fucking idiot, Sim." Sunghoon shakes his head. "You should've known not to start a fight. Especially not with Heeseung. He may be a nerd, but his violence is not to be messed with. The guy's a beast!"

I nod my head in agreement. Out of the seven of us, Heeseung's violence is the worst. Once, he had gotten some guy into a coma, because apparently, that guy had sexually assaulted Lee Aera.

"Then I started to date Rena." I state the obvious. "But I had no choice."

"There's always a choice, Sim." Sunghoon sighs. "You just have to be brave enough to make that choice. What happened to the rule-breaker I knew?"

I look at him, my eyes hardening. "Because if I didn't date Rena, my business in racing would've been jeopardised."

Sunghoon furrows his eyebrows in confusion. "Elaborate."

"The only reason I was allowed to race in the first place was because my mother approved, as long as I heeded her decree." I ruffle my tousled hair in frustration. "Apparently, Hwang Jihyun had a business proposal for collaborating with my mother's business, but in exchange, I broke up with Stella and dated Rena instead."

"As much as I hate Stella, that is so fucked up." Sunghoon rubs his temple while I'm going to pretend that I didn't hear that. "But I have to give credit to you. You made dating with Rena seem so easy. You really fooled me."

"The longer I'm with Rena, I'm afraid that I might snap sooner than expected." I sigh, feeling despondent. My eyes blur with the tears I haven't realised have appeared while my heart clenches in despair. "I still love Stella. You should've seen her the other night when I accidentally stumbled upon her."

Only God knows how badly I wanted to chase after her, hold her again, and deliver my heartfelt apologies.

Sunghoon looks at me with an indecipherable emotion. "I honestly don't know how to comfort you, but I know for a fact that you're a rule-breaker. Always have been." He hesitates, but eventually he places his hand on my shoulder, giving it a firm squeeze. "So buck up and fucking break those rules. You have my support."

I blink away the tears, and my lips break into a grin. "You're right. I can't be weak and compliant forever." To safeguard my venture in motorsports and elude my mother's clutches, I must devise a strategy.

Sunghoon mirrors my grin. "That's the spirit. But it does beg the question: Why did Hwang Jihyun want you to break up with her beloved daughter?"

I shrug my shoulders, though I'm curious as well. "I have no clue. Maybe I wasn't good enough for Stella? I mean, considering she's the official heir and an important figure. You do know that the Hwangs are the most dominant in our society."

Sunghoon snorts as he rolls his eyes. "Hence, the more reason I should hate the Hwangs. Anyway, since you're the only one here, let's have a race."

He rises from the ground before extending his hand towards me, which I gladly accept. I'm uncertain of what tonight says about Sunghoon and me. Like, have we reconciled? Are we friends again? Or are we going to continue being enemies?

But one thing is for sure: I'm glad to have talked to Sunghoon and to race with him, because deep down, I know that I've missed him.

I don't know what awaits me, but I know for a fact that I've just dug my own grave─though not completely─the moment I foolishly suggested that I was willing whatever it took for as long as he kept my identity a secret.

Earlier, I had received a text from Sunoo ordering me to fetch him at his place and to wait for him in the parking lot. Initially, I was confused and annoyed because who the hell did he think he was? Then, realisation hit me when I recalled a certain memory.

Once again, fuck me and my mouth.

"You took forever to get here." Sunoo complains as soon as he gets into my car, inviting himself to the passenger seat.

I glance down at my watch, and my lips downturn into a frown before I look at him deadpan. "Oh, accept my humble apologies for being two minutes late, your highness."

Sunoo gives me a side-eye. "Sarcasm won't do you good."

I merely brush off his remark, driving us out of the parking lot. "So where exactly do you want to go, and why am I your chauffeur when you can obviously drive?"

"Because I obviously ordered you to?" Sunoo adjusts his hair as he checks himself on his phone's camera. "And also because driving is hard work."

I heave a sigh, trying my best to simmer my annoyance. "But why me? You have other friends, don't you?"

"Aera is busy, and so are the others. Sunghoon was available, but he hung up the call as soon as I asked him if he could drive me to the mall. So that leaves you as my last option."

"Geez. I'm honoured." I grumble. I had no idea that Sunoo would turn out to be such a princess.

"Don't get all attitude on me. Remember that you were the one who suggested that I could ask you to do anything as long as I kept your secret."

"Regrettably."

I hear Sunoo sigh in annoyance. "Look, Aera clearly has taken a huge liking to you while you seem to get along well with Jungwon, Riki, and Heeseung. Maybe I can try to like you if you choose not to be insufferable."

I gasp loudly, turning my head to look at him with such offence. "I'm insufferable?! You're practically acting like a spoiled brat princess!"

To my great astonishment, his fingers grab my chin and force me to look straight ahead, back on the road. "Eyes on the road. I don't want any accidents to happen and potentially ruin my face."

I inhale a deep breath, struggling to remain calm while my grip on the steering wheel tightens. Good Lord, I hope I can last this dreadful day with Sunoo.

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

Not only does he make me drive around wherever he likes, but apparently he also makes me carry the stuff he bought. He even asks for my opinions on certain items that catch his attention, but he always ends up choosing different ones.

"Pick up the pace, Stella! We don't have all day!" Sunoo calls out to me, walking further and further from me while I am left struggling with the weight of these shopping bags, which slows me down.

If he tells me that again one more time, I'm going to explode. I'm most certain he's not oblivious to the fact that I'm physically struggling, especially with the way he appears to be annoyingly delighted. Plus, I'm exhausted and hungry, which is not a great combo.

"Kim Sunoo!" A disgruntled grunt leaves my lips as soon as I manage to catch up to him. He abruptly stops before turning around, but I'm too caught up in my head with the ways to kill a man in his sleep, which caused me to bump into his solid figure at the same time when he turned around.

"Woah!" I expected to fall, but what I didn't expect was when he managed to catch me swiftly. His arms swiftly wrap around my waist, preventing me from falling back, though I'm surprised by the fact that he does it without breaking a sweat despite the additional weight on me due to the shopping bags.

"Tsk, clumsy as always." Sunoo says with a slight smirk, staring down at me. But at the moment he raises his hand, I instinctively close my eyes without realising I have also visibly flinched. There is a brief pause before I feel his finger gently tap on my nose.

I open my eyes and blink them, confused, while he gazes at me with something that is beyond my ability to decipher. "Clumsy, what did you think I was about to do?"

"Um," Nervousness seeps from me as I answer him awkwardly. "I-I thought─"

He raises his eyebrow at me in an oddly attractive way. "You thought I was going to kiss you?"

My eyes widen while my breath gets stuck in my throat as he closes the gap between our faces. His smirk seems to widen upon seeing how reactive I am being. "I would've kissed you if we weren't in the eyes of the public."

He steadies me before letting go of me, while I am still feeling flustered by what happened. "Sunoo!"

He grins boyishly at me. "What?"

"You can't just say that to me!" I ignore the way my cheeks have been feeling hot.

"I can say whatever I want. Unfortunately, given how you were cursing me─"

"H-How did you even know?!"

Mischievousness gleams in his eyes. "I know everything, darling. Besides, you weren't exactly being discreet."

I give him a scowl. "Then you must've known that I'm feeling hungry."

"That's why I brought you here." He gestures to the restaurant, a few metres away from us. "Oh, and I wasn't done with what I was saying." He steps a little closer to me. "Given how you were cursing me, I guess your privilege of being able to kiss me has been stripped off."

My jaw goes unhinged, and my mind goes haywire upon hearing his statement. "Are you mad?! Why would I ever want to kiss you?!"

"You should really stop being dramatic, Darling." He sighs, walking around me before I feel his hands on my shoulders, pushing me in the direction of the restaurant.

The blush on my cheeks remains the whole time. One minute he acts as if I'm his arch-enemy, and the next, he teases and flirts with me. Kim Sunoo is beyond predictable. What a sly fox indeed.

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

"Hey, Stella?"

"Yes, princess?" I answer with a sly grin, my eyes not leaving the sight of the road as I drive Sunoo home.

After we ate our early dinner, Sunoo wanted to drag me to the karaoke, but upon seeing how evidently spent I was, I guess he felt a tad bad before deciding to end the day. Though I did notice how slightly despondent he looked.

"First of all, never call me that again." He snaps at me as I stifle laughter. "Second of all, I want you to go with me to this pool party on Saturday night, which will be hosted by a good friend of mine whom you probably don't know. Aera won't be going, but the others guys are."

I groan loudly. "I can't comprehend how you guys seem to party at least twice in two weeks. The other party at Sunghoon's was enough to drain me."

"The more reason why I should drag you with me to any social events." From the corner of my eyes, he can be seen smiling at me with his pearly white teeth. "If you want to be in our inner circle, you have to learn how to be sociable."

"I hate people." I admit blatantly. "Plus, I don't intend to be part of your inner circle."

"Too late, darling. You've already been one the moment you caught Aera's attention." He goes silent for a moment. "Besides, you also seem to be the centre of attention now."

Intrigued, I raise my eyebrow. "What do you mean?"

"Like how Heeseung and Jay fought because of you? How Jake was the root cause of our separation, but only after he broke up with you." Sunoo rambles. "Then there's Sunghoon, who completely despises your guts. Meanwhile, Ni-Ki and Jungwon seem to care a great deal about you."

I pull over as soon as I reach the familiar parking lot. "I really don't think that I'm the centre of attention."

"Oh, you definitely are, my dear." Sunoo shocks me when he gently tilts my chin to face him. A smirk tugs at his pretty pink lips. "You've already caught my attention, and I don't intend to let you stray from me."

"I don't get you, Sunoo." I mutter, feeling breathless by the second. "I thought you didn't like me. Hence, the reason you've been trying to torture me the whole day we were together."

"Then I suggest you stop assuming how I feel for you from now on." He grabs my hand, gently pulling it towards his lips, before he kisses the tips of my fingers softly while my heart seems to be pounding loudly in my ears.

He flutters his eyes, meeting my gaze. "Thank you for today. I look forward to our next hangout." He gives me a smile—a genuine smile. "Have a good night, darling."

Even as he leaves, I am still here in the parking lot, wondering what the hell just happened in a span of a day. He even told me that he looked forward to our next hangout. I didn't even know there would be another hangout.

"Do not be swayed, Hwang Stella." My palms hit my cheeks softly as I smack them. "He probably has a hidden agenda."

Oh, definitely. I didn't miss the way he looked at me. But my heart doesn't seem to stop racing until after I leave his compound.

Do you know what I love most about being a Chaebol? It's the fact that I get to flaunt my wealth whenever I want to and that many adventures await me.

However, being a Chaebol means that either everyone likes you or hates you. I've been called names by those who detest me, but conceited is what I hear often. If being proud of the abundance of wealth that runs in my family and the fact that everyone in my entire family has worked hard to get to where we are now means I'm being fucking conceited, then I don't give a damn what others throw labels at me.

My parents frequently shower me and my three older siblings with equal love and devotion, despite their hectic schedules, as my father is the CEO of a prevailing business in the automotive industry across SoKor, and my mother is the CEO of a renowned five-star hotel that is currently expanding its business throughout SoKor.

Though it is readily apparent that my siblings and I are prosperous, we have never taken our wealth or what we have for granted.

My three older siblings, consisting of my eldest brother and followed by my twin sisters, have long since graduated from the same university I'm enrolling in, and they are currently pursuing different paths. My elder brother is currently living his finest life in the US, working as a high paying doctor. As for my twin sisters, one of them is a model, while the other is a lawyer.

Then that leaves me─the youngest in the family. Even now, I have no idea what I truly want after finishing university. My siblings have reassured me that I do not need to fret over what I want to accomplish, but this does not alleviate the burden I impose on myself. I have thoughts about becoming a permanent racer, but irresolution always seems to muddle my judgement.

I love my siblings, but at the same time, I envy them. They knew what they wanted when they were around my current age. What's worse is the fact that my father intends to make me the official heir, even though I have no desire for it.

I want something more. Something that never fails to enthral me.

In the meantime, I can decisively affirm that racing is my focal point. I was first introduced to racing by my uncle, Park Junho. He taught me how to drive instead of my father. He used to be an esteemed racer in Seoul, but soon retired due to some health conditions. Growing up, I watched his racing content on screen and even attended his competitions, competing against his competitors. From there, my interest in racing grew tenfold, which led to where I am now.

I am thankful that my parents support me and what I do, despite the fact that my mother patently disapproves that I enjoy this dangerous motorsport. My father, on the other hand, approves for as long as I will serve my duties and responsibilities once I become the official heir.

I really do love my parents, but sometimes they are the reason why I'm fucking mental. It is unfair how my siblings manage to escape from all of this while I can't. Even when I was young, my parents frequently compared me to any other kid who surpassed me, especially Hwang Stella.

For some reason, my parents detest the Hwangs, just as other Chaebols do. Throughout preschool until high school, Stella and I managed to be classmates without fail. Whenever Stella scored the highest or won in competitions, my parents would compare me to her, though they did it in a gentle-parenting way.

Hence, I've grown to hate Stella. I hate how she always used to outwit me in every way. While she was number one, I would always be below her. 

So to see the sight of Stella with Sunoo by her side as they enter the party's compound greatly irks me, because first of all, since when did Sunoo and her decide to be all friendly to each other?

My eyes remain fixed on them as I toss my head to the back, and the liquor trickles down my throat as it burns. I crush the red cup in my grasp before throwing it aside.

I hate it. I hate that some of my friends seem to be involving themselves with her. If she hadn't been with Jake in the first place, then Jake wouldn't be the way he is. If she hadn't been the reason why Heeseung and Jay fought, then Jay and Jake would've still been on talking terms.

Speaking of Jake, I guess we are slowly amending the broken fences between us, even though we haven't exactly talked it out. I am quite pleased that he has unblocked me after the talk we had, for which I'm grateful.

After having enough of staring at Sunoo and Stella being awfully close, my eyes shift elsewhere. I haven't seen Jake, Jay, or Ni-Ki anywhere. Heeseung and I arrived here at the same time, but he is currently somewhere in the mansion, probably smooching other girls or finally losing his virginity. I swear, my cousin is the opposite of what everyone else perceives of him. As for Jungwon, I saw him mingling with some guys in our batch in the backyard where the swimming pool is.

Just as I'm about to get up from the couch, a girl covered in a mere bikini appears in front of me. "Sunghoon! I've been looking everywhere for you!" She greets me cheerily.

Instead of looking at how blatantly provocative her body is, given how the other guys who are passing by us whistle and check her out, I keep my eyes trained on her face while a frown tugs at my lips. "Uh, do I know you?"

Disbelief is written across her face before her red lips form into a pout. "How could you forget me so easily? We slept together once last year."

Oh. While I do remember her, I can't say the same about her name or which department she's from. I rub my temple. This is the consequence of fucking around with girls who only wanted me for my money, looks, or just needed me to satisfy their needs.

It was fun in the beginning. I didn't want to look for anything serious, and some of those girls were willing to help me with my relief. I didn't care about love or committing myself to a serious relationship. But after I entered my senior year, it wasn't fun anymore. The sex I had was all boring and monotonous. From then on, no one could ever satisfy me the way I wanted.

"Do you want to head upstairs or something?" She asks, and the suggestiveness in her seductive gaze alone makes it obvious what she is planning.

In response, I offer her a terse smile before rising from the couch. "You're not my type."

I hear her gasp audibly as I walk past her, heading straight for Heeseung as soon as I spot him descending the stairs.

"Where the hell did you go?" I ask in annoyance while he quirks an eyebrow. "I need your help. Pretend that you're talking and walking me out."

"I am talking to you." Heeseung muses as I grab his hand, dragging him with me amidst the crowd of people. Geez, and here I thought they would be at the pool, where I could hear the booming music.

I shoot him a brief scowl. "Just help a bro out."

"Okay, fine." Heeseung chuckles. "What happened this time?"

"Some girl bothered me." I answer shortly as we finally step outside. A groan leaves my lips as I rub my face. "This marks the third time that has happened this week! Now I'm regretting what a major fuckboy I was before."

Heeseung pats my shoulder as though in an attempt to comfort me. "There, there. Those are just the consequences of your actions. That's all."

"Ass!" I shove him, though it is meant to be playful. "Anyway, what were you doing upstairs?"

"I was catching up with my old classmates." Heeseung leans his back against the wall and proceeds to take out a familiar small box. "Why? You thought I was with some girl?"

"Obviously." I gesture to Heeseung for one stick, and he begrudgingly gives me one. "You really need to get laid."

"Why do you seem so insistent about me losing my virginity?" He asks after inhaling the substance and blowing out smoke.

I mirror his action, leaning my back against the wall. "Don't you have needs? As in sexual urges?"

He casts a side glance at me. "Of course I do. But unlike you, I have them under control."

"But watching porn isn't the same as the real thing." I counter. "Plus, you have girls lined up, and yet you don't bother to get to know at least one. How are you going to be in a relationship, your first ever at that, if you continue to avoid them girls?"

Heeseung chuckles dryly. "You really want to know the real reason why I'm not interested in relationships? It's because I only have eyes for─"

The commotion that happens abruptly catches our attention. We hear clamouring that is coming from the backyard. Some of the people who are loitering in the same area as us begin to make their way to the backyard. Nosy bunch.

"Huh. I wonder what happened." Heeseung murmurs.

"Just another typical college fight that broke out." I plainly say. "I mean, what's a party without a fight happening, right?"

Just then, two guys walk past us, and what comes out of their mouths sparks curiosity within me. "I can't believe this is the first time that two girls are in a fight!"

"Who?" I accidentally blurt out to them, causing their heads to whip at me.

The two guys exchange glances. "Word has it, the Hwang sisters are having a fight by the pool."

In our university, there are only two Hwangs we all know.

Without a word, Heeseung starts to make his way alongside everyone else. As my curiosity grows, I can't help but follow suit. To see the Hwang sisters fight is something I need to witness at least once in my life.

"Heeseung!" I finally manage to catch up to him. "Dude! What got you to walk so damn fast?"

Heeseung ignores me as he is too distracted by what is happening, prompting me to look at the scene. The clamour around me seems to be getting louder while some are chanting 'fight!'. Fucking hell, there are some who even record the whole thing.

Just as I return my gaze to the Hwang sisters, my eyes widen when Rena pushes Stella hard, resulting in the latter falling into the pool with a loud splash. Laughter of enjoyment erupts around me, but I'm the only one who knows that this is no amusing matter. I hear the sound of my pulse drumming loudly and a certain memory that flashes itself in my mind, as though to taunt me again and reignite the guilt.

Fuck this and my better instinct.

"Sunghoon!"

Earlier

I should've known that this pool party was hosted by one of Rena's friends. The moment Sunoo parted ways with me, some of the females I recognise as Rena's friends, or rather associates, began to deliver impolite words to me, while others gave me stinky eyes.

What's worse is the fact that I somehow manage to end up by the pool, where the main party is. My eyes spot Rena, who is approaching me. I turn my back on her, having no intention to deal with her, but two of her minions grab me by my arms and forcefully drag me until they shove me to the ground.

Alas, the attention from the people by the pool has diverted to me. My hands form into fists as I hear the familiar sound of Rena's heels approaching me.

"Get up." Rena demands, but I rise back on my feet on my own accord. Rena's eyes pierce into mine. "You shouldn't have come here, but I guess that just made my job easier."

I sigh and roll my eyes. "What do you want now?"

"Tonight, I want you dead." She is practically fuming. "You fucked things up between me and Jake."

My face contorts into confusion despite the anger that simmers within me. "I'm the one who fucked things between the two of you?" I ask incredulously. This bitch is unbelievable.

"You did something to him, which is why he has begun to ignore me and refuses to listen to me." She steps closer. "How could you do this to your sister?! Stealing my boyfriend from me?!"

I can already feel the disgusted gaze from the people by the pool and in our vicinity, but I am too furious to focus on them. The fucking audacity of her?

I close my eyes and sigh as I rub my temple. "Listen, Rena, I don't know where you got the notion that I stole him or were just blatantly making assumptions, but I don't fucking care about you or your boyfriend." I hiss. "You can gladly have him."

Rena takes me by surprise at the moment she slaps me, turning my head sideways. "Don't act so smart with your mouth. I know for a fact that you still love him while, at the same time, you're whoring around with his friends."

Of course, she would want the people here to spread words about me being the evil one. Well, since I've been painted as the evil sister, why don't I act like it?

I raise my hand and slap her twice as hard, drawing gasps around me. I smirk, taking pleasure in seeing the humiliation on her face. "You'd do well to remember who you're talking to next time, Hwang Rena." My voice sounds unyielding cold, causing the others to flinch visibly. "Oh, and as for your clearly unstable relationship with Jake, have you ever thought that maybe he has finally fallen out of love for you?"

"Shut up! Shut the fuck up!" Rena lashes out as my words clearly begin to affect her. "Your existence alone is a mistake! You shouldn't have been born!"

The next moment I'm standing by the pool, and the next, I find myself falling into the pool as Rena had pushed me harder than I expected. When realisation hits me at the same time the water does, I know that I'm fucked because I don't know how to swim.

I try to swim back up, but I fail miserably. Panic and anxiety fill my chest as it hurts. I cough, needing air, but instead my lungs continue to fill with water. The pool is deeper than I thought, causing more panic within me. I feel myself getting pulled down further and further.

Black dots fill my vision while consciousness is leaving my body. I flutter my eyes close, accepting this cruel fate. As darkness begins to engulf me whole, I feel hands on my body, but the darkness has already welcomed me into its arms.

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