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drdemonprince · 2 days

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Any chance you'd expand on the hank hill trans guy post? (Sorry, best indicator I could come up with.) The concept interests me as I decidedly know my maleness, yet don't feel impeded by for the most part, any male gendered norms/boxes. I am fairly masculine, though I rarely use those kinds terms to describe myself. I have found I often do stray outside of what society pushed for me when I transitioned, yet I again do not feel it has taken from my right to maleness whatsoever. I am just me, who happens to be male. I have had friends try and suggest I am NB adjacent but I do not feel this way whatsoever. I feel more people are outliers to gender expectation than we care to admit and it's disappointing the way cis-people deny that. Hope this wasn't too long winded, I value your writing and perspective, and wanted to hear more of your thoughts on this.

Yeah, well so many things all get conflated by gender labels, and it's all so personal, you know? Masculinity does not have to mean maleness, and a person's gender identity might be a reflection of some innate quality they experience themselves as having, or a general summary of their tendencies, or their desired presentation, or their sense of affinity with other people, or an interpersonal tool, or something they just go along with because it was given to them by society, or any other number of things.

I think my recent substack piece on detransition goes into this pretty well, and I have an upcoming piece of what @pastimperfection calls "bilateral dysphoria" that comes out next week that delves into it too.

I think I mostly saw taking on a male identity as a means to an end more than any kind of innate reflection of who I was, though I did feel an affinity with effeminate men for a lot of reasons. I think I also discounted how much I have in common with my fellow nonbinary people of all stripes, because that identity became so strongly associated with being an annoying type of queer person that everybody else just wrote off as ultimately being their assigned gender at birth anyway no matter how much they protested. it doesn't help that 'nonbinary' is a catchall term for literally thousands if not millions of very distinct experiences and desires.

transitioning gave me control over how i was perceived, finally, but hormones are a throttle that only go in one very specific direction, and you don't really have all that much control over which changes kick in at which times and what people will make of you once you do start registering to them as some identity other than what you were first saddled with. it's an incredible gift to be able to toggle that throttle. but it's limited, not because medical transition isn't incredible and needed for so many, but because there is no escaping the goddamned binary cissexist logic that influences everything about how people treat you, how you navigate institutions, who finds you desirable and what they want out of you, and so much else.

if you're able to cast a lot of the external societal bullshit aside and feel strong in your maleness, maybe you're stronger than me or maybe our orientation to these things is just different, i don't know. i was never all that sensitive to feedback that i was doing the whole being-a-woman-thing all that wrong. i reveled in violating those rules to an extent. succeeding at being a woman despite my best attempts was what felt super dysphoric. and now i guess im succeeding at being a man, insofar as im always read as one, and it feels just as uncomfortable and objectifying and false. i thought that with manhood i could probably just grit my teeth and deal with it, but i'm finding that i can't.

ive always been very open that for me, gender is a thing I Do, and i guess to those who know me well it wouldnt be surprising to hear that i have gotten tired of Doing Being a Man and dont feel like playing that particular gendered game anymore. I tend to get bored of things! and find the flaws in things. and find my comfort in being fault-finding and contrarian and not being a joiner. and thats okay. i learned a lot along the way. not having to try any more is a huge relief. i can just do whatever. and know actively that people will more often than not be wrong in what they make of me.

maybe it was natural feeling for you to decidely 'know' your maleness without a care for masculine standards because that is the right identity for you! and maybe i only feel secure in the "not knowing" realm and in letting go of what people think of me or finding any kind of tidy categorization for it because that's the right spot for me. for now. until i find a new interesting way to be unhappy and striving for more and different again. :) that's just part of being alive, for me.

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miyoriia · 2 days

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Yr kindness post is so helpful it changed the way I think about being nice vs being kind

thank you, ive been thinking about being kind a lot recently even though it feels like the entire world is against kindness. its something that feels like it should be so simple but it just isnt. i know my little posts arent really much when theres so much wrong with the world but maybe a tiny little difference is enough

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the-starry-lycan · 2 days

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omg hiii i love ur aventurine art i was wondering if u could draw him in an elmo costume…its just smth ive been thinking about a lot recently

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thbk u ily keep making good art!

AAAAA thank you so much Anon! That's so sweet of you to say hehe..

I love the idea of Aventurine in a silly Elmo costume haha! The lucky Cornerstone gambler, the one and only Aventurine Of Stratagems, Ten Stonehearts...

..in an Elmo Costume.

(Maybe he lost a bet to Veritas and was made to wear it for that reason..)

#honkai star rail #honkai fanart #aventurine of stratagems #hsr aventurine #aventurine #dr. ratio #elmo sesame street #had to search what elmo looked like haha

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archivebottles · 3 months

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"You don't need to worry about me. I can take care of myself now."

#signalis #elster #isa itou #blood /#i hope i didnt overdo it with the grime...#i cant really sit on this as much as id like to bc im so busy right now but i needed to get this out of my system as fast as possible #ive been thinking about this scene a lot recently and i do just wanna say #you have no idea if you last words will really be your last words to someone..so if you can show someone you care about them while theyre #still here ok?

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taxinealkaloids · 4 months

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behold hitherto unposted htn doodles! harrow+her terrible mentor, harrow+her terrible roommate

#tlt #my art #these were unfinished which i thought was a shame so i sort slapped some colors nd background stuff on them and now here they are.#top one soooo old but i still liked it and didnt want to condemn it to a fate of sitting in my wip folder forever and ever #bottom ones are more recent; they were scattered throughout the margins of a bunch of different wips and i grouped them together #in this one canvas so i could post them cause i like em. im charmed by soup bowl harrow w/ her normal pajamas. she would probably #not wear that.#ive been thinking abt harrianthe a lot lately i want to post about them more but i can't finish anything lately #not cause im artblocked or anything i'm fine in that respect i just have no free time 💀

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optimizim · 6 months

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sitting around thinking about pretending to be human?

#invader zim #invader zim art #invader zim fandom #zim #invader zim gir #gir #iz art #iz fandom #ive been doing a lot of sitting around thinking about pretending to be human recently #it's tough work isn't it!#wish i had a little guy like gir to keep me company #i'd probably hate him though #gross little bugger #this is the spiritual successor to the breakcore post #there's probably a lot more like this to come #i just sort of like drawing zim sitting around looking forlorn #a hobby of mine

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niinnyu · 7 months

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Bonding over food, excellent.

Thank you for this @galaxynajma :D:D

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spearxwind · 3 months

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Hi this is where I talk a bunch about ocs :D

I dont have a lot of time lately to talk abt lore but i still think abt my guys whenever i have some chill time to myself, so here's some patch notes. This is also just me thinking out loud haha

CD:

ive been playing w some changes for CD and seeing if they stick :] gonna make the story slightly more complex and the sides of the conflict also different (for example I am going to make hades and talas full on enemies at first along with connon, caval and silas >:3 (and I am also making silas and his monster form two separate characters so the lion (hal) is now a mount instead))

Specifically what I've been thinking about is making Hades either a ship captain or a first mate for a rogue ship. The deal with Hades is that he comes from a renowned family from Redbridge and is a disgrace to them. In previous versions of CD they were artisans but that never rly clicked for me, and recently I have been reworking Redbridge into a naval empire to add some 🤏spice 🤏to the world, which would mean Hades' family is actually a naval captain family putting him next in line to be one of them but since his thing is being a disgrace he takes off and becomes a rogue. And instead of hating leviathans he fucking hates hunters instead. Conversely, I think with these changes Talas would also NOT be inclined to kill hunters (or at least not as often as he currently does). He'd pick fights with the naval fleet and other similar factions instead which is more like his character.

I also wanna try and bring back an older concept I had where connon's ship was able to both become fully submerged (like the subs in sunless sea where her character originated from) and this other idea I had where a ship could split in half into two smaller ships. Like if a catamaran could split into two and flank a vessel on both sides. But we'll see if I can make this work x)

Dragons (broken horizon + extinction):

I vaguely mentioned this a while ago as well but I've also been thinking abt my dragons and how I kinda want them to all be in one world/setting, which includes both my broken horizon guys (cer, jarek, octane, etc) and my extinction guys (alex, c, orion, etc) but I dont know how to deal with all of the conflicting lore and themes.

Because for extinction the big theme is there are people who can turn into dragons, and technically all of the dragons' powers are based on energy (for lore reasons). Meanwhile for my other dragons I have a few different elements or other ways of using fire (eg instead of using straight up fire/energy, my oc Jarek can breathe out gas only and ignites it with his mandibles).

I miss all my dragons a lot so I kinda wanted to make a world for them where I could have them Vibe and do different stories in so I thought about having a dragon-only universe but unfortunately Extinction has a pretty huge human element that I cant just eliminate.

It feels counterintuitive, i know the first logical choice is 'just let them be different things' but I genuinely feel like the right choice is to put them both together so the characters can interact and the whole story can be deeper because as it is both are really shallow and I would really like for them to work together so that's what I've been picking at for some months now (it's um. been real slow)

For these two stories I do have two different vibes though that I've been wondering how to weave together nicely bc they overlap for some characters. For broken horizon I had flying and aerial racing as a big theme (and some of the chars in extinction would be rly into that) and for extinction I had dragon arena fights as a big theme (and some of the characters in bh would be rly into that) both of these is another of the reasons why I wanted to put them both together bc it feels like they can fit very well I just have to find the right idea for them to click and then itll be smooth sailing -w-

I also wanted to talk abt this in hopes that talking abt all the dragons gets me to think more about them as well

I wanted to make this post bc I've been really busy lately and rly absent from here in general and I don't have as much time to draw (or even think abt ocs) anymore but I still wanted to keep posted about what's been going on in my head and hopefully get some eyes on it and maybe even some feedback if anyone is so inclined

If u read this whole thing thank u i owe you my life fr I hope u enjoyed reading abt my patch notes :D and hopefully sometime in the future I can get back to drawing concepts and stuff or maybe even writing stuff

#thunderclap #oc ramble #challenger deep #broken horizon #long post #whew this took so long to write and i dont even know if its gonna make ANY sense to anyone auuggggg #ive been thinking a lot about CD in my off time recently I want to make it GOOD i wanna make it COMPLEX i have a lotta good insp lately #so im hoping to make some good and much needed changes #and i also think abt my dragons a lot they just like. float at random in my head in cool scenes and i have no way to bring it all together #AND THAT MAKES ME MAD!!! THIS IS MY HOUSE!! I SHOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE IT FIT AUUUGGHGHHHH!!!!#i also think abt octane and alex being rivals a lot now it actually fits so much. radioactive bitches. fusion vs fission.#generation vs combustion. white and black. both still orange. please please i need this to work sooo bad #ALSO C AND ARC AND JAREK AND DIMA WOULD GET ALONG SO WELL I KNOW IT I DO AUGH

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b4kuch1n · 7 months

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crumbs in your bed

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#bakuspecial #comic #horror #cw: child abuse #cw: body horror #ask to tag #hi! hello. this is basically just a goosebump story I think. or a scary stories to tell in the dark entry #that's kinda what I aim for? along with the good ol vibe of fuan no tane #and also the like. Thing in east asian art where they make the main character a generic white person and then #every other thing about the setting is deeply recogniseably common asian shit lmao #that's entertainment for me. this came about extremely haphazardly... its why the first two pages look nothing like #the rest of it fsdjfhdsjhf. I slammed those out at a cafe like two days ago #went into this one no plan outside of a general sense of direction #I dont think Ive ever actually designed a single character in any of the short horror comics I did. like either its me or #I made someone up as I went. genuinely didnt know what the character'd look like until I sketched em #and then I kept referencing previous panels to draw em. dont know if I recommend this method #mmmm on reread not super sure if the sound effect of the bed leaving the room is clear enough... oh well there are other comics #been writing a lot about food and places recently Ive found out. oh yeah dyou know whats funny #I watched a wayner highlight vid of the kingdom heart charity stream today (I do not know anything about kingdom heart) and realized #how much of kingdom heart (at least the first one) is about like. places.#which is like. good job baku great deep read there isn't kingdom heart literally behind a door. arent there doors all over the place.#isnt the biggest symbol from that game taht EVERYONE knows about the KEYblade. for locks on door #fskdjfhdj but yeah its just. very cool to me that that game really does have iconic recogniseable sites. like the scenes are all tied to #where they happen at. and the climactic battle happens in a black void around a door. its good #good story about leaving ur home after ur friends aren't there anymore and being changed so much by what you go through that #you can no longer call where you started at home anymore. I am being conned by the music #anyways. yeah I go sleep now. powered thru the last 4 pages of this so its done and out there. hope my bed will not do this #have a good night lads! be careful of bugs

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chidoroki · 8 months

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August 22nd - Happy Birthday Emma - ft: her tvtropes

#the promised neverland #tpn manga #tpn emma #emma #my edits #i cant say a lot about our girl that i havent already said countless times before but i love her an endless amount & she still remains my #fav shonen protag to this day. she's just so perfect?? & im so insanely proud of everything she's accomplished aahh..but yeah i think i got #this idea back in march..or may? cant remember exactly but regardless i only managed to start it a couple days ago. thats how busy ive #been recently. so i wish i couldve made 'em not look so simple but whatever. obviously the photos are a reference to those that ray took. &#dunno if those cameras can capture stuff in a sepia tone but it works for her colors so here we are. all that might not make as much sense #when i do a set for anyone else or even for a different series but i dont care. this is the idea im rolling with for this birthday cycle.

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vexulii · 2 months

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In Mcsm Season 1 we can see in the very first episode “The Ocelots”. The Ocelots, as we know, are a group of builders who earned their jackets because they knew how to build (As Lukas states when Axel was trying to kick him out of the tree house). The Ocelots consist of four members: Lukas, Maya, Aiden, and Gill. Lukas is the sole leader of the group. Before the group joined building competitions for Endercon, they were a pretty average group of friends. Lukas and Aiden would typically hang out together around town before Maya and Gill joined in on their group.

They established The Ocelots when they first signed up for Endercon. They all dabbled on the name before going with Ocelots. Lukas made up the name with the help of Maya. Their first few competitions were… rough to put it easy. (They sucked SO bad… partially Gill and Aidens fault) They were uncoordinated, unprepared, and had no idea what to build. This is why Lukas became more of a leader than the others. He would prep beforehand and would constantly get everyone together to plan. He would schedule meetings and as time progressed they eventually could freehand it without any pre-planning.

When The Ocelots won their first competition for Endercon they celebrated and got the jackets they are known for wearing. After that they won almost every time they went. Sure there were some hiccups but they got the hang of it. But with every win Aiden became more aggressive, more arrogant. It made Lukas mildly upset but he thought he would eventually get over it (Obviously not LOL!!!). Lukas tried to calm Aiden down once he started being mean to other competitors but Aiden just brushed him off, not really thinking about it.

When Lukas saw Jesse, Axel, and Olivia later on it reminded him of how they used to be, always stumbling over blocks and arguing (as friends) on what to build. Lukas felt sad and almost jealous about their care-free behavior. Their group had become *very* competitive, and Lukas wasn't having as much fun as he was in the beginning. But at least Maya and Gill seemed to be having fun (Despite a majority of the time they were just bickering). When Lukas caught Aiden bullying the “Order of the Losers” for the first time he got (reasonably) mad at him. Telling him to knock it off and to stop being a jerk and just build. Lukas would continue to tell Aiden off (This is the start of Aiden wanting to ditch Lukas).

As this progresses Lukas starts to drift away from The Ocelots, only ever participating in Endercon competitions. (The start of S1 Ep1) Which Aiden hates and tries to make small talk (“Hey Lukas get a load of these losers!”)

Everything else is as followed in ep 1 >_<

List of small hcs in this…

Aiden and Lukas knew eachother as childhood friends and eventually found Maya and Gill at a social event as young teenagers.

Aiden knows how to stitch and stitched on the ocelot on their jackets (Kinda poorly but it's OK >_<)

Building competitions have more teams in them and several locations.

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comidyye · 4 months

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ART DUMP

+ comments n talkin about chars!!.. everything from father figure bob to happy fella and chucky : 3 (still.. still mostly just bob though)

whiteboard doodles/just him doodles ^

very important !!! do you understand me .. what do you think

i seriously think the cult fucked bob up real worse than he was before.. and i think him and skiddad should have interactions : 3

i dont think bob and lila were related.. but even if it wasnt likely in canon id like think he was some kind of guardian for her

CW FOR gore in this last one (its dextr portraits next to bob absolutely munching on smone + a corpse) Because i just cant stay away from draiwing fun gore apparently

+ ranting in tags !

#doodle #artists on tumblr #spooky month #spooky month fanart #bob velseb #streber #spooky month streber #skiddad #dexter erotoph #dexter doll #spooky month dexter #spooky month lila #tender treats #chucky is.. my fav slasher : 33 #i think?!?! i just rly like slashers n hes the one i kno most about but ive been branching out recently #u cn see a hellbilly bob doodle hidden in the whiteboard.. couldnt stay aaway #i realy like how i drew streber n skiddad there. streber looks so soft #i dont ship ratmeat but its neat if u do never change : 3 #ive been REAALY thinking about how the cult would mess with bob actually. a lot of ideas. will rant if asked !!#theres that doodle with streber and dex holding that rat and #theyr actualy my rarepair !!!!!! ratbat... i love them dearly..#it stirred up in mhy mind as Soon as i found out strebers fav animal is Rat (from pelo qna)#too bad they both died #cw blood #cw gore #gore #blood #bobs mug in the lazy weeknd thing says i <3 lobotomies #i have exams soon.. wish me luck : 3

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ecoamerica · 24 days

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truelyaccuracy · 5 months

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DustBunny thoughts

Okay i know that this is a small ship and i get why ppl would ship Mirko and Shigaraki but also, as someone who has re-read/re-watched the anime n manga… Shigaraki and her would not get along- lemme explain-

First of all, ppl can ship whatever they want! I just want to talk about the ship bc ive been thinking of it a lot lately

So, lets start with; Miriko would def put herself to a high standard cuz thats obv. Now, her and tomura r prob masochists and have high durability, but, she literally calls shigaraki (prob other villains too) “things” and “it”, shes the hero to dehumanize villains and shigaraki would def not like her 😔

Like shes cool and shes fast, shes actually one of the few heroes who actually do their job snd hurry to the scene, example being Hood (a nomu) vs Endeavor while other heroes (annoyingly enough) just watched from the TV

Mirko wouldn’t like Tomura either, she’d prob say shit about him (not so blatantly tho) while just referring him as a thing. Shigaraki prob expects that from heroes but godd, we know he still gets pissed off at things he says hes moved on from, and we know he gets annoyed with how heroes r towards villains, its in his whole speech during the first war. He’d just use Mirko against other heroes and herself

Idk just put miriko with hawks or smth, two toxic heroes should stay together and not degrade villains by dehumanizing them and their disabilities yknow?

I mean, they’re literally barbie and ken.

#I just had to say all this cuz ive been seeing dustbunny a lot recently #and i want them to be as heartfelt as ppl make them out to be #everytime i see them like that after kicking my legs about them i think (no way she’d do that - i wish she’d do that)#ppl can ship them im not saying to stop- im judt saying what ive been thinking of for months on end lol #someone said on twitter that ppl just want a strong woman to peg tomura #and valid #but it’d be so degrading bc of how she woulf be towards tomura #he’d hate it #he wouldn’t like anything coming from her mouth #tomura definitely hates to be degraded too #that much is obv-#bnha #mha #tomura shigaraki #mha mirko #rumi usagiyama #dustbunny #keigo takami #hawks

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sometipsygnostalgic · 8 months

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seeing u in my notes was a lot different before i read homestuck

now you know my secret - i am a homestuck blog!

one of my biggest university memories is getting absolutely blasted on morgan's spiced rum and playing mario kart 7 on my sister's 3ds during my first year in halls... i had a binge drinking habit, and i loved roxy a lot and my housemates were on my case for my drinking, so i felt i could relate to her. also she's pink and cat themed and loves the nintendos. she has it all.

#roxy lalonde #homestuck #my art #ive been thinking about the 3ds a lot recently you can thank Scott The Woz for that #ive been so fucking bored ive just binged all that guys videos #i used to be able to take half a large bottle of rum during my uni days #often drank it straight if i ran out of coke or fanta #but now im a complete lightweight!#a can of ale or a glass of wine will get me hammered #which is a good thing imo #alcohol is bad

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idiotsofoz · 4 months

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milo prettylittlelights mutuals census. feel free to elaborate in notes :3

#im just curious because ive been. thinking about myself and where i fall religion-wise a lot recently

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vixenicks · 26 days

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sorry for reblogging fugly trends from 2012 it's for my enrichment

#have i ever told u guys about my early 2010s fashion and pop culture fixation #i got a gen you ine aeropostle skirt recently ive never been happier #also gonna try and get my hands on some freshtops tanks #eventually #also their shorts though ive only found one secondhand listing in my size #i need the naked1 pallet or i'll die #its funny to me because like #yes within fashionblogging and lifestyle teen youtube girls from that era #consummerism was a massive thing (it still is but its so obvious when you look at blog archives and videos from that era)#youtubers with non disclosed sponsorships #bethany mota and amanda steele vaguely saying “this brand sent me this product to give to you guys!”#it was really just watching the birth of what we know as influencers today and its really interesting to me #theres a lack of cuts theres a lack of scripting theres long tangents #people were only just then realizing you can make money via haul videos and makeup tutorials #bethany mota had a fashion line at aeropostle purely because of her status as a youtuber #there was a big rise at the time of people being against flaunting overpriced designer during that time because of the recession #but there was still a hugggeee hold with consumerism and classism #hauls with brandy and f21 and ae like i cant afford that im sure you cant afford $600 at american eagle on a weekly basis #i have lots of thoughts idk #anyways backtracked #i think its funny because here i am talking about how horribly i need b&bw and vs pink #but like its all secondhand shit for $15 online now #nobody wants this stuff!!!!!! cycles!!! capitalism!!!! i dont know you get what i mean!!!!!!!!!!!#skyler posting

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