#its so overbloated

[rosemaze-reveries]

which games do you play?

-🍁

oh this is a fun one 😳 my biggest love is identity v (womp womp) but other than that, i mainly stick to joseimuke VN-style games. i liked these the most:

Path to Nowhere

Twisted Wonderland

Yumekuro (this one is very love/hate)

Akuneko

Lovebrush Chronicles

Ken ga Toki

Reverse 1999 (recently started!!)

Black Star Theater Starless

im def a story>gameplay person so usually I speedrun the stories then drop them 💀 really not a fan of the gacha model or grindy battle games,, but it is what it is

#i play console otomes too (that's a much longer list) #me when i say im a gamer but all i do is read #IDV REALLY IS THE OUTLIER... #ive played genshin too but its dialogue is so overbloated </3 every aspect of it feels like a chore to me LOL #💌 #🍁 anon

[softerandsofter]

Good luck with munchies, kinda hope they make you overeat to the point you couchlock and pass out. Then you wake up still overbloated and still locked 😈

I am so full 😰 Its ice creams fault for being so good :(

#me #tummy

[nonuggetshere]

Hi I figured out how to take a long screenshot

Some magic system worldbuilding + some vague Sealed Flower AU ideas

Transcript under read more because its probably bulrry as shit:

I will say that, for Soul specifically

You can cast spells with empty soul reserves but you'd be basically draining your life force, which is quite painful, easily exhausting and can lead to death if overused

Mortals can cast these spells but have to go about it a different way ans have to be quite careful lest it becomes dangerous, the most common method I'd to pull soul from the environment and different living things to not injure yourself. Overbloating on soul past your natural additonal reserves, which are practically non-existent for mortals, leads to horrifying results (cough cough soul sanctum). Because of how dangerous this type of spell casting is it was banned in Hallownest. The only reliable safe way to use this spell system for mortals is if somebody is born with naturally higher soul reserves (generally happens over generations when living in an area with high soul concentration), when preforming them in a soul-rich environment like the Whtie Palace or near a higher being or god (make sure you get permission or it might go badly for you)

Higher beings generally have higher reserves than mortals, allowing them to reliably use this method of spell casting, but they still need to be careful. Fully ascended gods very rarely ran out of their soul reserves and regenerate it far easier than others, so they can very safely use this method of spell casting.

The way soul regenerates for gods stacks up, so the more soul reserves one has the faster they regenerate, while when they ran out it takes quite a while to raise back up to a level where they can safely use spells (unless they use other ways, like pulling soul from environment and different living things, which PK is very much against so. Have fun being useless for a good while, boy)

Essence works a little different and is generally safer to use, but more difficult to master and practice and less abundant than soul (in the living/waking world)

Keeping his entire physical palace in the dream realm along with himself for so many years basically very slowly drained PK's soul reserves and he finally was forced to come back to the waking world lest he just die

So he's drained completely and can't heal with a spell since he'd be just hurting himself anyway - most likely even worse than he's currently hurt. It won't stop him from trying to heal *Flower* though (he has. So many wounds on his hands and arms from them lashing out to stop him)

#thylacines can talk #faaf au #i AM SLOWLY FIGURING OUT A MAGIC SYSTEM ONE DAY I WILL POST ABOUT IT #also for faaf au i kind of interpreted higher beings as like. very powerful species but not fully ascended to godhood. have the possibility #of becoming gods but theyre not born as gods #simon don't look

[rexalogy]

old tabletop roleplaying NPC that was going to force my players together into the first magic tutorial -> detention bonding session. she would attempt to convince them to join her magic acclaimed rugby team which had been entirely deserted after a national incident from last semester that resulted in tight school restrictions and serious stigma on ether (the “magic”). she was also a competitor for an accolade position against the victim in the previous semester’s incident so she’s been really really freaked out this entire time. her inclusion was supposed to be an initial hint at the hypocrisy in the regulations - the ether has to be regulated, but it’s okay if it happens in a gladiator-like setting where young adults are at serious fatal risk?

this moment is supposed to be weird and jarring. the sort where you react with laughter before you realize that a distressed person isnt joking. initially the assumption is that she’s just like that. then there was a meant to be a realization that every student was a unique bundle of neurosis. I had to scrap this entire story because I didn’t think the method of the story’s silliness meshed well with the seriousness of its world-ending themes. in another draft, it could work. Never give me a thing to write no matter how simple. it will become so overbloated. So sorry to my players

[davekat-sucks]

That Minvol video was so good. It has everything, a character analysis of Dirk Strider and his massive flaws and self-antagonism, then not even halfway through the video jumps basically to postcanon to examine not only Dirk Strider as the main antagonist, but also as a metanarrative writer.

The way he critiques the epilogues is what I’ve always wanted, not calling out the ideas in of itself as bad, but how sloppily the epilogues can try to articulate the world and conflicts of Earth C. He can see the narrative is trying to say how people can change foe the worse and how isolation can alienate you from your friends and maybe how we need to take care of our community as our community cares for us, but that tangles with the actual setting examining the existence of canon as the fabric of reality’s existence, and how the reason these characters feel so “out of character” is a conglomerate of “it was foreshadowed” theories from HS1, the candy timeline being corrupted (even though many meat timeline characters were also OOC) and a general desire for to make social commentary or political allegory, maybe a hint of inserting headcanons with a dash of “for the sake of continuing Homestuck”

And then Minvol dunks on Homestuck^2 and James Roach’s remake, Beyond Canon. Basically Dirk sucks as a villain, gets jack shit done and has nothing compelling to say or show for his plan, no symbolism or analogy to the characters or their philosophies just silly random animals. Also more characters being really flat and stiff.

Then it’s all set up for the grand finale: Eridan’s Bizarre Adventure, or Homestuck if it had the balls to be good.

10/10 Minvol, FunkMcLovin and OptimisticDuelist weep at your creation.

The true Prince has arrived. Even the Meat timeline that was suppose to be the correct choice, it still is fucked up in its own ways. It may not have the overbloated drama and bullshit Candy has, but the mess it left behind is just as bad and will likely get just as worse when James Roach and HICU does continue it. It's sort of funny that Dirk was another self insert for Hussie and he still sucks as a villain in the sequels as said antagonist and metanarrative. They clearly wanted Ultimate Dirk to represent as the 'bad side of the fandom'. Just like how they did for Caliborn. But Ultimate Dirk doesn't even capture that kind of charm or likeability that Caliborn had. Even his beef against Ultimate Calliope is dull. I hope he can still be sane if he does continue to read or just moves on for his mental health. Until then, Mivnol is awesome and everyone should subscribe to him and check out his vids. Model by nozomii12 Throne by (ロ_ロ)ゞ Pose by etsumi-bm

#Mivnol #Homestuck #Homestuck fandom #Homestuck 2 #hs2 #homestuck^2 #homestuck2 #hs^2 #hsbc #homestuck beyond canon #Eridan Ampora #Dirk Strider #Ultimate Dirk #Andrew Hussie #WhatPumpkin #What Pumpkin #James Roach #Homestuck Independent Creative Union #HICU

[noritaro]

uh finished the first episode of Hazbin Hotel

its not that bad?? i think the hate on the show by itself is a bit overbloated, theres criticism to be made on it but yeah idk (refusing to acknowledge Vivzie herself so please dont shove mentions of her to my face i honestly dont give a fuck what you think about her no matter the opinion)

#rambles

[overobsessedfanboy23]

Go Rush's second arc is... really mid.

I initially lost interest in the show somewhere in this arc when I first watched it and on rewatch, yeah I can see exactly why.

Nothing about it is bad, it pretty solidly ranges from okay to good the entire time but nothing about it stands out to me as special. I think it's just... five or six episodes too long for how honestly quaint its conflict is until the very last episode.

Rovian and Yuna are decent characters in this arc (Yuna gets better later for me) and while I like Ranran a bit, she and every other new character introduced this arc feel ultimately pointless as they still haven't amounted to much and honestly just contribute to my feeling that Go Rush's cast is overbloated (a problem that's only gotten worse). Plus the other new characters are just kinda boring to me anyways.

Also I can't bring myself to think equip spells are in any way cool to save my life sorryyyyy.

So the whole arc ends up feeling like perfectly fine but bland soup that just takes too long to eat. It's not bad but feels like a minor slump in Go Rush's quality. Not the worst one, mind you, but still a step down from the season's first arc.

#yugioh #ygo #yugioh go rush #ygo go rush #go rush #arc 2 is so old at this point I'm putting this in the main tags #if this stuff is spoilers for you block the main go rush tags #for the season 2 arcs I'll start using spoiler tags again #cuz yeah I guess I'll review each arc as I watch them it's fun #arc reviews

[sakebytheriver]

I hate white women so much y'all 😭😭😭

Do NOT come into my house and compare the absolute artistic masterpiece that is Everything Everywhere All At Once to the corporate pinkwashed capitalist feminism that inhabits the Barbie movie

In what goddamn world are these movies comparable? Like seriously?

Stop white people from reviewing movies for the rest of time fr

Like yeah, enjoying life despite the difficulties is the core of EEAAO but to compare a movie about a middle aged immigrant mother dealing with the trials and tirbulations of leaving her home behind and building a new one while also having to navigate the nuances of the strained relationship she has with her second generation queer daughter all with the overwhelming conceit of the scifi multiverse to a movie about a blonde white lady and her blond boyfriend going on a campy adventure sure is.... an opinion.

And this isn't even to mention the production of EEAAO versus the production of Barbie. Like the absolute artistic mastery that went into the development of EEAAO that only had a tiny itty bitty team compared to the overbearingly cheap commercial cinematography of the giant overbloated billion dollar blockbuster budget of the Barbie movie. I can't, I'm sorry

I just cannot believe someone would leave the theater after watching White Feminism 101 and think, "You know what this movie reminds me of? The groundbreaking film about a family of immigrants that literally rewrote the landscape of the film industry for a whole year after its release"

Like bruh 😭😭😭

#ignore me

[twistedoverbloat]

I posted 1,444 times in 2022

That's 1,444 more posts than 2021!

1,220 posts created (84%)

224 posts reblogged (16%)

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I tagged 1,368 of my posts in 2022

Only 5% of my posts had no tags

#twisted wonderland - 1,045 posts

#twisted wonderland yuu - 917 posts

#twisted wonderland x reader - 558 posts

#dumbass speaks - 275 posts

#singer yuu - 73 posts

#cyber punk yuu - 69 posts

#florida yuu - 50 posts

#future family - 48 posts

#twisted wonderland incorrect quotes - 41 posts

#digimon yuu - 39 posts

Longest Tag: 123 characters

#i hc ruggie's grandmother would have been some type of midwife that helped most of the new mother's in the slums give birth

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Yuu not giving a fuck anymore bc they get into fights too many time so if someone's gets in their face ONE more time there bitting them and ripping off skin.

TW: BLOOD, BIT OF A NOSE BEING TEARN OFF!

So there's been this Savanaclaw wolf beastman that kept messing with you. But after getting into 10 different fights he still messed with you so you decided to give him a warning anyone would understand. ESPECIALLY Beastman from Afterglow Savahna.

Savanaclaw student: *leans in hella close, where you feel his hot ass breath* You looking for a beating perfect?

Yuu: come a lil closer..

Savanaclaw student: *does so but dosen't realize* What you gonna-

Yuu: *sinks their teeth in on their nose and is using their nails to tear at their shoulders and uniform*

The first years: *watching in horror* OMG YUU-

The dorm leaders: hOLY SHIT-

Savanaclaw student: *finally pries off Yuu with a little bit of their nose missing and a fuck ton of scratches in their shoulders and their uniform ripped to shreds* YOU- YOU FREAK!

Yuu: *spits the bit of nose they have in their face and grins a feral grin* awweee did the big dumb wolf not know this herbivore has fangs?

Savanaclaw student: FUCK YOU! YOU- YOU-

Leona: *steps between you two* Enough! *looks at his underclassmen* go to the nurse.

Savanaclaw student: *nods and rushes off*

Leona: *looks at Yuu* wtf herbivore you never told me you had fangs?

Yuu: HE asked for it. *turns to Epel who gives them a napkin and Sebek giving them a water bottle to spit out the blood* thank you. Plus I usually don't fight like that but I'm pretty sure he got the message.

Epel: HA he's lucky you didn't try to go for the throat.

Sebek: I agree. BUT THAT WAS SO FOOLISH HUMAN YOU COULD GET SOME DICEASE FROM HIM NOW!

Yuu: *shivers* EW SEBEK DONT SAY THAT!

Jack: *dosent know if he's turn on or terrified* omg you almost ripped his face off-

Grim: THATS MY HENCHMAN MAHAHAHAHA!

ADeuce: *looking at Yuu dumbfounded and agreeing not to anger you*

Ortho: I can do a quick scan too see if you got anything from him!

Yuu: aahhhh yes please and thank you.

768 notes - Posted April 5, 2022

#4

Mc being the one to take out the sword in the stone.

Like NRC goes to RSA and there's this sword in an anvil onto of a stone in the middle of the campus and some prince overbloated and Mc got separated from their friends and had to improvise since the overbloater found them first.

So they rushed to the sword they saw and everyone getting there at the last second where Mc took the sword out like a prince and pointed at the overbloater.

And everyone just stops bc there's a light coming from heaven and angels are singing-

Even the overbloater even stopped and in shock transformed back.

Mc: oh thank God I don't know how to use a sword-

RSA: ALL HAIL THE KING/QUEEN/MONARCH!

Mc: *looks at the sword then at the stone and anvil.....and it clicks its like the sword in the stone* Fuck.

Mc is then crowned the all mighty ruler above every other Monarch. And they're just sitting there like wtf do I do. Ambrose then walked I'm "Huh I knew you were destined for somethign I just didn't know what." Mc then just sits there as their friends come to them.

The first years are asking to be apart of their court. Which Yuu says yes to. The royal boys of the group are like "Holy shit I could marry them-" and the ones from lower family's are like "Ayo slide some money-" Riggie is quaking in his boots bc holy shit your loaded now-

All the overbloater feel horrible bc the one destined to rule over the lands like a true monarch is here and they almost killed them.

Crowley is having a field day with this "I knew you were a good bet to chose!" Mc orders Crowley to be banished from their Palace. Sebek and Jack are kinda like bodyguards now and yeah.

Mc: No bc fr how do I rule a country-

Leona: idk I'm the second in line so-

Malleus: *sighs* I'll help come on well start with the basic lessons from Lilia.

To me it kinda makes sense since Yuu is basically acting as all the heros when fighting the overbloats. (I also have a angst idea for when Malleus overbloats.)

So thoughts on this?

944 notes - Posted April 29, 2022

#3

Me thinking of RSA how they would see Yuu as a person in distress since their such a nice person in a Villian school. There was like 100 RSA boys.

But they don't tell Yuu they kidnap them. And Yuu punches them and runs to the Hall of Mirrors.

They rushed in Heartslabyul and Scream for Ace and Duece while Grim is setting fire to the RSA boys. Ace sees them first and jumps into action and Deuce runs in too swinging at all the boy's trying to grab Yuu.

Trey ends up hearing everything and Carter rushes to them Cater sends out a text to everyone and Riddle gets it.

In rage Riddle sends Off With Your Heads to 4 different RSA students.

Yuu continues on to Savanaclaw where Jack smells their destrest really all of the Savanaclaw boys they ended up seeing Caters text and jump into action they got 8 RSA boys and Leona was going to use Kings Roar but Yuu ran to him and told him NO-

Ruggie pickpockets all the rich boys. And made them trip and follow him. Jack ran at Yuu and booked it into the Hall and into Octavinelle.

Azul already saw the text and had Floyd and Jade ready.

He let Jack and Yuu in but when the RSA boys came they got 6 of them old was yelling leave leave shrimpy alone while Jade gave his Sadist smile.

The RSA boys screamed for help and Azul smiled at them "I can male a contract to help you~" bit non of them were willing to.

Jack continued to run away from the ones that rushed out of Octavinelle.

And now in Scarabia Yuu screamed for Jamil and Kalim.

Jamil ordered his boys to throw sand in the RSA boys they got 10 of them. Kalim a little bit mad at them for trying to take his friend made Oasis maker in then to drown them for a little. And Jamil used Snake Whisper on them to listen

Jack continued to Pomefiore where Vil was itching to show these RSA boys who is the fairest. Epel used himself as a distraction and Rook shot them down with electric arrows.

Vil gave the students gas masks and made sleeping smoke bomb to know out 20 RSA kids but Jack continued and made sure jot to breath in the gas.

Ignihyde was easy to get in and hide because of the security Idia had he saw the text and wanted to punish the normies trying to take his player two!

Ortho didn't like how his Older sibling was going to get kidnapped so he did a scan on all the RSA kids.

They got 40 of them. But Jack continued but ended up falling when Beast got him. Jack yelled for Yuu to run and they did so.

And to the final dorm Diasomnia.

The rest of the RSA boys were after them. 12 were left. Sebek and Silver got to them knocking down 6.

Then Lilia came and got 5 one got away and rushed to Yuu.

Yuu got cornered while this happened all the NRC students rushed in and to Yuu.

They saw Yuu was cornered and wad going to butt in but then some of the Defeated RSA students began to fight again.

Yuu: BACK UP!

Rando 'Prince Charming': Come fair one I can free you! *grabs their arm hard hut dosent know*

Yuu: ok then yOU ALL ASKED FOR IT *this caused some of the students to stop fighting and Look at them*

Yuy took in a big deal breath and bellowed

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1,055 notes - Posted April 8, 2022

#2

Pt 9 scammer get scammed. And a cute arson date!

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1,177 notes - Posted October 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Yuu, breaking into Diasomnia through a window, holding an orphaned baby dragon: MALLEUS I HAVE FOUND US A CHILD

Malleus: what-

Lilia: A GRANDCHILD-

Silver: oh just like father did with me-

Sebek: NO I WON'T STAND FOR THIS!!

Yuu: I found them in the forest so hurt and decided I should come here bc it imprinted on me so-

Malleus: I will be the best father there could ever be!

Lilia: *wiping a tear of joy* That's my boy!

Sebek: I SAID I WON'T- *sees the baby dragons small form and hoe cute it is* I WILL PROTECT THIS BABY WITH MY LIFE WAKA-SAMA!

1,593 notes - Posted June 9, 2022

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[petorahs]

☀️ i am so sad, i heared that they wont include anything from fes or portable, so no femc, no answer or the like. I hate it here, why this disrespect to my girl Minako i will fight somebody at atlus HQ

oh. well i will say it straight (the only thing straight about me i fear lol) but thats likely not entirely true, ☀️ anon. idk if youve seen this post but it sums it up pretty well https://www.tumblr.com/petorahs/719925542729695232

and the full article published a while later:

bad ign reporting aside, i was also pretty upset at first since no femc and the answer! but then i saw a good point someone made about the femc case:

persona 3 reload has reportedly been in development for four years. and in that four years thats standard time to build a game from the ground up, maybe even too little – anyone who's been in game dev can tell us that. p3re doesnt reuse assets, too, it's completely from scratch. so having femc isnt simply a matter of model swap. they'd also have to program the UIs and make everything pink - sure, that could be "easy", but there's also the changed social links and team dynamics (more writing to be done), weapon system and all that (more coding)? so its like... i'd be actually surprised if they managed a femc during those 4 years. its quite a lot of work to re-adapt base p3 as is i feel and modernizing it. also i feel like atlus themselves wouldnt want to do their character and her fanbase wrong so of course they wouldnt fkn slap on a few pink menus and call it a day. they surely want to rewrite the s links and everything too in accordance to her. art takes time.

(with all that being said bullying atlus for femc is warranted actually maybe then her inevitable dlc might come faster lmao )

similarly, im fine with no "the answer" now despite being its #1 defender. theyd have to completely rework the 30:2 hour grinding to story ratio which is just not sustainable on a modern gameplay perspective. that also takes time.

its why i made this post actually. i somehow trust them, and i feel like most of us can stand to chill a little and have healthier expectations. as in not overbloated and not have the bar set in hell either (altho we should also do that too)

and i know, like anyone who's played this game, it means so much to so many people. and thats why its maybe impossible to please everyone, because its so many different things: a game that saved their life, a funny goofy lighthearted one where you catch demons, the most depressing persona game ever (altho i feel like p2 would beg to differ on that one-), or for me personally, a game that just made me cry man.

and because it means so much, everyone wants to see it be the best it can be!! and that means having hamuchan. i get that all of this riot energy is out of love for the game, really. but. yeah.

a remake seems like it's "less work to do" since the foundation's "already there" and i dont know how many people worked on p3re but like. i highly doubt theyre just sitting on their asses pissing off fans on purpose lol. (or maybe they are and im just too optimistic damn 😭)

#i will say i dont appreciate the sensationalist ign journaling and silly people parroting it like. bro at least state facts lmao #'no fes content' 'zero portable content' uhmmm... ok have u played the game #doomposting. i hate the doomposting #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #aishi.txt #ans #☀️ anon #i feel like we should as a collective just have hamuko everywhere so they know #like i want femc as much as anyone else because uhm. girls are objectively better. idk why they dont capitalize on her more #and the male to female persona players ratio is near 50:50 . actually im p sure more girls play persona #so like i truly dont know whats going on in atlus' minds. but these are the same guys that wont capitalize on goro akechi so #DONT THEY KNOW. the amount of money goro akechi would simply rake in. #smh #but yea i stay hopeful haha #i just love p3 they can do it no wrong. not like this

[thelazyhermits]

Gonna ramble about TW underneath the cut.

Okay, so now that I’ve finished Book 3, I’d like to talk about what I haven’t already mentioned regarding the prologue/first three books. I’ll stick with just the prologue and Book 1 for this post and cover Books 2-3 in a separate one.

Overall, the prologue isn’t really all that different. I will say that Yuu is better at keeping an eye on Grim and keeping him from running off/shirking his duties since she’s just has those keen mom instincts that let her know when a kid’s about to do something they shouldn’t lol 😂

(Yuu is good at handling Grim since she’s good at balancing doting on him and being stern when necessary. She can’t always keep him out of trouble, but I’d say she does a really good job of reeling him in, so he doesn’t cause nearly as much trouble as he does in canon.)

Regrettably, the charred statue incident still happens since Ace/Grim wouldn’t listen to her warnings about how dangerous it could be to mix air and fire attacks together.

In regards to the chandelier incident, it still happens like in canon, because, just after Yuu had swooped Grim up into her arms to prevent him from running off and leaving the window cleaning to her and Ace, her Quirk activated, showing her a vision about the chandelier falling.

Because she’s unresponsive when she’s having a vision and has all her senses directed to what’s going on in the vision, Yuu is unable to stop Grim who takes advantage of this opportunity to escape her hold and run off. 

Rather than bother with Yuu, Ace pursues Grim and drags a protesting Deuce along for the ride. Once her vision ends, Yuu runs after the guys, hoping she can catch up with them in time to prevent them from breaking the chandelier.

Unfortunately, Yuu gets to the cafeteria just in time to see Deuce fling Ace in the air, so she’s unable to stop the events from her vision from happening, much to her great distress.

Which is why she later finds herself in the Seven Dwarf’s Mine looking for a magic stone to replace the one that got broken.

Everything from then on happens like in canon, one little difference being that Yuu is nervous about entering the mine since it’s got haunted vibes and she’s right since there are ghosts there lol

Thankfully, despite her fear of horror, Yuu is able to persevere since the ghosts look more like cartoons than what you’d see in a horror movie. However, she does get scared of the Overblot creature in the mine since it does look like a monster out of a horror movie.

However, despite her fear, when Deuce is being reckless and tries to get the magic stone, Yuu runs toward the Overblot creature and tackles Deuce out of the way of the Overblot creature’s attack, which results in her back getting grazed by its pickaxe. 

Thankfully, Yuu’s injury isn’t serious and will just result in a big bruise. Fortunately, by this point, Yuu has already met Leona/Ruggie and gotten a potion to heal her injuries that she had when she arrived in TW, so this new injury is the only one she has to currently worry about.

After Yuu drags Deuce out of the mine and orders Ace/Grim to follow her, Deuce apologizes to Yuu for his recklessness resulting in her getting hurt, which leads to her making him promise not to do something like that again.

After assuring Deuce that she doesn’t intend to give up on getting the stone, Yuu comes up with the plan of them all working together like what was done in canon, and the plan works just as it did in canon.

During this time, Yuu never once uses her Quirk, even though she had been tempted to, because this is a secret she wants to refrain from revealing unless absolutely necessary since she knows her power is abnormal in the world of TW, which might result in some problems for her if she’s not careful.

So, she contributes by coming up with the plan and guiding the guys’ movements and making suggestions for what they can do when they’re battling the Overblot monster.

It’s after the magic stone is retrieved and the Overblot monster has been defeated that the guys finally learn that Yuu is a girl because one of the guys makes a comment that makes Yuu believe they think she’s a guy, which leads to her asking if they know she’s actually a girl.

(Grim doesn’t know the truth either since he was fast asleep when Yuu got the chance to bathe and change into a nightgown she found. She also woke up before he did since she’s an early riser, so he’s just used to seeing her in the baggy clothes she came in which hide her figure.)

All of the guys are very shocked by this information. Deuce nearly passes out because he’s been talking to a girl all this time, not only that a girl that got hurt because of him. He’s considering summoning a caldron to throw onto himself 😂

Meanwhile, Yuu’s just like, “Damn. I knew I wasn’t very feminine, but I didn’t realize I looked that much like a guy.” lol

She doesn’t really mind, though. It’s just kind of a surprise for her since she’s used to guys leering at her and making perverted comments. Since that happened often in the underworld back home, she just assumed that she was feminine enough that anyone could tell she was a girl.

(And the truth is she is. She has a girlish face/voice. NRC guys are just used to seeing guys like that in Pomefiore. That’s why so many guys initially assume that Yuu is a boy. Plus, they just can’t fathom why a girl would be in what’s considered an all boys’ school lol)

Once Yuu convinces Deuce not to throw a caldron at himself, Deuce just starts bowing repeatedly and apologizing profusely since he caused her so much trouble.

Eventually, Deuce lets up when Ace makes a comment about Yuu being seemingly flat-chested, which is why he thought she was a girl. Immediately, Deuce tries to throttle Ace for being so rude, which leads to him gaining some points in Yuu’s book haha

(If Deuce hadn’t reacted before she did, Yuu would’ve gone after Ace instead, but she would’ve just started with a warning since Ace wasn’t really trying to be perverted. He was just making an observation about her chest.)

Once Deuce has calmed down, the group finally returns to NRC to deliver the magic stone to Crowley. During the walk back to NRC, a very flustered Deuce had tried to convince Yuu to allow him to carry her on his back to make amends for her injury, but she assured him that she could still walk, which the guys found impressive.

However, Deuce does insist that Yuu gets taken to the infirmary. This is how Crowley finds out that Yuu is a girl and that she got injured since Deuce immediately starts bringing up her need to go to the infirmary as soon as they return to the Mirror Chamber.

Crowley is just as surprised as the guys were about Yuu being a girl and starts lamenting over how he left a defenseless/innocent girl in that dump of a dorm.

To make amends, Crowley promises to have some renovations done to ensure Ramshackle Dorm is safe to live in. Basically, he just fixes the floor so she won’t fall through it and makes sure the plumbing, lighting, etc. works so he doesn’t really do as much as he should lol

(This all surprises Yuu since she wasn’t expecting people’s treatment of her to suddenly change upon realizing she’s a girl. TW really is different from the world she came from.)

Aside from the infirmary visit, everything goes according to canon, so Yuu ends up becoming a two-in-one student with Grim, which is not an outcome she was expecting. However, she won’t complain since being a student beats being a janitor, although she was willing to do the latter if it meant getting a roof over her head and not getting sent back to her world.

By the end of the prologue, Yuu has gotten a little attached to Ace/Deuce/Grim, Grim especially, so she finds herself hoping that she can become friends with them since she has always wanted a friend.

Which is why she is open to helping Ace out when he gets into trouble with Riddle in Book 1, so things happen like in canon when he comes over and asks to stay the night at Ramshackle. 

In regards to the sleeping arrangements, Yuu wasn’t really opposed to sharing a bed with Ace since that kind of thing doesn’t embarrass her, and she didn’t think Ace would pull anything. Even if he did, she was confident that she could take him out lol

However, despite his teasing, Ace couldn’t follow through with the idea cause he got embarrassed, so he chose to sleep on the couch, which Yuu kindly helped clean up for him.

(Deuce takes the other couch when he stays over to keep an eye on Ace later on to make sure Ace doesn’t cause Yuu any trouble. Yuu had offered her and Grim’s bed to him too, and he about near passed out from how hard he blushed when he panickily refused her offer lol 😂)

(Unlike Ace, Deuce is also kind enough to offer to help Yuu clean up the dorm when he stays the night, which leads to Ace eventually grudgingly helping as well. The ghosts also pitch in, so with everyone’s help, they’re able to get rid of all the grim/dust/cobwebs during Book 1.)

(Yuu is big on cleaning and hates leaving things untidy, so one of the first things she asked Crowley for upon moving into Ramshackle was cleaning supplies so she could work on the dorm lol)

Anyway, Yuu agrees to go with Ace to his dorm to apologize to Riddle the next day, and things turn out like in canon with her helping with the rose painting via doing it by hand, which she’s somewhat decent at doing haha

One thing I’ll add is that the whole time Cater keeps eyeing Yuu every so often, looking at her like she’s a puzzle he’s trying to solve.

When she finally questions him about it, Cater tells her not to be offended before asking if she’s a girl. He knows that there are some guys with girlish faces, but no matter how he looks at it, even with Yuu wearing her baggy clothes (since she hasn’t gotten a uniform yet), Cater’s intuition is telling him that she’s a girl, even though it seems impossible for one to be at NRC.

Yuu, of course, tells him that he’s right since she’s not trying to hide her gender. Crowley told her that it’s fine for her to reveal this information since, while it’s been populated by boys all this time, NRC is technically open to female students if they meet the requirements of this school, so there’s no rule saying she can’t be here since she’s a two-in-one student with Grim who’s providing the magical power requirement.

Cater is both relieved that he didn’t offend her and also dumbfounded that there really is a girl attending NRC lol But once he gets over that initial surprise, he’s extra friendly with her since he always like that with girls and he wants his cute new underclassman to rely on him, which just makes Ace suspicious of him/call him out for being a flirt haha

Cater still throws everyone out once he hears that Ace didn’t bring an apology tart for Riddle like in canon, but Yuu gets special treatment since he doesn’t wanna be rough with a girl. So he just politely leads Yuu out of the dorm since she doesn’t put up any resistance cause she understands where he’s coming from, although she is a little exasperated by how he tricked all of them into helping him paint the roses.

She’s exasperated and also impressed since he did it so smoothly. She didn’t realize what he was doing until he already got away with it.

When it comes time to make the marron tart, Yuu pitches in, mostly because she loves baking and has never gotten the opportunity to bake with someone else before. Helping Ace out is like a bonus lol 

(For those of y’all who are familiar with my BNHA stories, you’ll notice the way Yuu acts is slightly different from Fortune. That’s because she has the type of personality that’s affected by her surroundings/people she’s with.

Her core character hasn’t changed. However, a big difference is that she isn’t dealing with amnesia and hasn’t surrounded herself with heroes like in TABF.

Yuu is used to dealing with villainous people thanks to her time in the underworld and because of NRC’s current student body. As a result, she has adjusted herself accordingly in order to adapt and survive.

She’s still kindhearted, but she won’t allow herself to get taken advantage of. She’s willing to lend a hand, but if there are times when she can get something in exchange, she will, because being too nice will only get you killed/make you suffer.

Overall, however, I’d still say she comes across as a goody-two-shoes to most NRC students since she’s a lot nicer than the majority of them lol 

I will add that they also think she can be just as much of a villain as them when she wants to be because she does have that potential. After all, she is the one who came up with the plan that resulted in Azul’s contracts getting destroyed.)

Because she’s got a lot of baking experience, Yuu is a big help with the baking, and Trey commends her on her skills, remarking that he can tell she has done this for a while like him.

Because of her experience, Yuu doesn’t fall for Trey’s oyster sauce joke, but that was the only reason she didn’t fall for it, because she couldn’t tell that he was lying, which caught her off guard because she’s normally really good at telling when someone is lying.

For that reason, Yuu decides that Trey is someone she shouldn’t underestimate. Just because he seems friendly doesn’t mean she can let her guard down around him.

(Also, for the record, Trey & Riddle find out that Yuu is a girl from Cater. They were just as surprised as you’d expect lol But they don’t really treat her any differently because they know the truth.)

The grocery shopping scene with Deuce is also like canon. However, Deuce is a lot more awkward around Yuu here since he never knows what to say around girls.

This would be one of the underlying “conflicts” in Book 1: Deuce not knowing how to act around Yuu while Yuu just wishes he’d treat her like he did before he found out she was a girl.

(As I mentioned in a previous post, despite his awkwardness, Deuce still willingly hangs around Yuu because he wants to make sure Ace doesn’t trouble her. Plus, he does want to get along with her, even if it seems impossible because of how awkward he is around her.)

Things start to improve between them following the incident with the upperclassmen that caused the eggs Deuce/Yuu bought to break. 

In addition to assuring Deuce that even model students can get angry and that he can still become a model student despite his delinquent behavior, Yuu expresses sympathy since she too has a past that she wants to forget/move on from.

Since Deuce confided in her, Yuu wants to do the same but without telling him everything about her past since she’s afraid he’ll look at her with pity/treat her differently which she wants to avoid.

As a result, while she refrains from mentioning her years spent as a cage fighter, she admits that she’s also used to fighting people since she’s had people pick fights with her in the past in hopes of defeating her, which isn’t technically a lie, but fighting isn’t something she enjoys so she’s hoping she can finally move past that life at NRC.

This leads to Deuce coming to the conclusion that Yuu was once a delinquent like him, much to Yuu’s silent distress. However, she doesn’t correct him since she’d rather that misunderstanding than him know the truth.

Upon learning this new information about Yuu, Deuce feels a level of kinship with her since they have similar backgrounds. He also feels encouraged since, unlike him, Yuu actually acts like a model student so it gives him hope that if she can do it so can he. 

After that, Deuce has an easier time talking to Yuu. He’ll still get flustered by certain things like if they’re sitting close together or if she grabs his hand to gain his attention/lead him somewhere, but he’s at least able to hold a proper conversation with her, much to her relief.

(Since I haven’t really said much about him, I’ll throw in the Ace & Yuu dynamic here so he gets some attention.

Their relationship is pretty much like how it’s shown in canon. Ace doesn’t really treat Yuu any differently for being a girl since he knows she doesn’t expect special treatment and he doesn’t see the need for it, especially when Deuce has that already covered.

Ace really enjoys messing with her/teasing her and likes to find new ways to rile her up just to see how she’ll react. Most of her expressions are just various forms of tired exasperation since she has the patience of a saint lol

However, Ace does back off when she’s genuinely irritated because he finds an angry Yuu to be just as frightening as an angry Riddle 😂

Like in canon, despite all his teasing, Ace is loyal/protective, so if anyone other than him is messing with Yuu, he will get involved if he deems it necessary. Not just anyone can mess with her and get away with it on his watch.)

(The Yuu/Ace/Deuce relationship really is amusing since one minute the boys are causing enough mayhem to make her wanna pull her hair out, like a pair of overgrown toddlers, and in the next, they’re ready to beat up some guys just because they made some inappropriate comments about Yuu lol)

Now that that’s been addressed, I wanna mention that, after seeing it done in a fanfic, I really like the idea of Yuu having dreams related to the Disney movies and also the Overblot guys’ memories since I just really like that twist.

Ergo, in Book 1, Yuu is having dreams about scenes from Alice in Wonderland, and she’s also seeing little snippets of Riddle’s past, allowing her to see what he went through because of his mother.

(For the record, Yuu watched a lot of Disney movies growing up since she often watched TV/movies during the free time she had as a child, so she is very much familiar with the Seven Greats, and finds the fact that this world sees those “villains” as heroes very surreal lol

She keeps this info to herself, though, since she figures no one would believe her if she told them.)

Because of this, Yuu has a hard time being mad at Riddle during the unbirthday party when he gets upset about Ace breaking a rule by bringing a marron tart to the party.

Yes, she’s upset about him caring more about the rules than anything else and how he treats her friends, but at the same time, when she looks at him, all she can see is the crying boy from her last dream, which tugs at her heart since she’s so weak when it comes to children.

The main difference from canon in that scene is that, before Trey and Cater can force her and Ace/Deuce/Grim out of the party, Yuu gets involved and tells them that they don’t need an escort. They’ll leave on their own power.

So, after leveling a sharp, disappointed look at Riddle/Cater/Trey, she makes Ace/Deuce/Grim leave with her, and they reluctantly oblige since she’s wearing a face that they don’t wanna argue with lol

(She’s disappointed because her first unbirthday party, which she was kinda excited about, especially after getting such a cool suit from Cater to wear (he had asked if she wanted a dress beforehand but she said a suit was fine), was ruined, and because of how Riddle/Cater/Trey were acting.)

Later on, when her group confronts Trey, things go like they do in canon. However, there is a point where, before she parts ways with Trey, Yuu asks him if he really is okay with Riddle being as he is right now.

Does he really think Riddle is happy? Does he think Riddle will find the kind of future he wants and deserves if he continues down the path he’s currently on?

Yuu asks several questions like that before leaving Trey to think about them since right now she thinks he just needs to take a minute to really think about Riddle’s situation, what is best for Riddle, and what Trey, as Riddle’s friend, should do for Riddle. 

Yuu can’t help but meddle in this matter since she’s nosy and because she hates the thought of someone like Riddle not getting the kind of bright future he deserves after going through so much to get to where he is now. 

There’s nothing she hates more than futures getting cut short and futures that don’t reach their full potential.

The next change from canon happens that night when, in addition to seeing more about Alice in Wonderland and Riddle’s memories, Yuu’s Quirk activates and shows her a vison of Riddle Overblotting.

(Yuu occasionally has visions when she’s sleeping, which basically play out like a dream would, so sometimes she’ll have trouble figuring out if the vision was actually just a dream or a future event that’s supposed to happen.)

Because she’s been having weird dreams as of late, Yuu just chalks up what she saw as a dream rather than a vision, which she later regrets when Riddle Overblots.

The next day, Ace/Deuce challenge Riddle, and everything happens just as it does in canon.

One slight difference I would point out is that, when Riddle is later criticizing Yuu, in addition to what he says in canon, he says that it’d be useless to allow her to attend a school like NRC since there’s no way she’d be able to survive/keep up with her subpar education/upbringing.

While Yuu doesn’t really get affected by his taunts about her education/upbringing, she does involuntarily flinch at the use of the word “useless” since that’s what Mumei often used to describe her, to the point she began to believe he was right.

Thankfully, before she can get lost in her memories, she gets distracted by Ace who proceeds to punch Riddle and Deuce who grabs Yuu’s shoulders so he can position himself in between her and Riddle.

At this point, Grim’s on Yuu’s shoulder, cheering Ace on and baring his teeth at Riddle. 

Yuu is caught off guard once she realizes that the guys came to her defense. They actually got mad on her behalf, a concept that she is very unfamiliar with.

It makes her happier than words can describe since, at that moment, she really gets to experience what having friends, people who are willing to defend her, is like.

From there on, things happen like in canon, which results in Riddle’s Overblot. 

(Yuu had tried to get Ace to stop since he really didn’t need to push Riddle as far as he did, but he didn’t listen to her, much to her exasperation.)

(She also tried to run toward Ace when Riddle tried to attack him with the rose bushes, but Deuce held her back to keep her out of harm’s way.)

Thus, Yuu learns that what she saw last night was a vision rather than a dream and finds herself wishing she had given it more attention rather than immediately write it off.

Upon learning that Riddle could die if he isn’t stopped, Yuu becomes determined to save him since she can’t allow another child to lose their life. She’s seen too many kids lose their lives during her time in the underworld, and she refuses to allow it to happen again when there’s a chance she can stop it.

Fortunately, because she always clearly remembers her visions, Yuu recalls seeing part of the Riddle Overblot battle and how the key is to attack the blot creature behind him, so she knows what needs to be done.

Regrettably, only magic can defeat the creature, so Yuu can’t do anything on that end. That means all she can do is act as a decoy and use her Quirk to predict Riddle and the creature’s movements while guiding those who can fight with magic.

Originally, Yuu had planned to never use her Quirk for combat again, but she realizes it can’t be avoided, not if she wants to save Riddle.

Thankfully, Ace/Deuce/Grim are willing to fight Riddle for their own reasons, like in canon, so Yuu asks them to follow her lead. 

Upon seeing what the first years intend to do, Trey/Cater also decide to join the battle since they can’t just stand back and do nothing, and Trey wants to do whatever he can to save Riddle.

In the end, they’re divided into two teams. Ace/Deuce/Grim are the offensive team that goes after the blot creature while Yuu guides them using her Quirk and Trey and Cater help her keep Riddle distracted and watch over her in case any magic attacks happen to reach her and she’s unable to dodge in time.

The third years also try to attack the blot creature whenever they get the opportunity to do so.

Thanks to Yuu, Riddle and the blot creature’s attacks are perfectly mapped out, so it doesn’t take too long to subdue the creature and get Riddle back to normal.

(In regards to the reactions to Yuu’s power of foresight, it’s not revealed until the battle starts, so everyone is very surprised by how she’s able to completely predict Riddle and the blot creature’s movements. They definitely intend to ask lots of questions after the battle lol)

Near the end of the battle, Yuu comes up with a strategy that will allow her to get close to Riddle to deal the final blow. Since she doesn’t want Riddle to catch on, she just tells the others that, just as the guys are putting their trust in her, she’s gonna do the same with them and says Trey’s and Ace’s names specifically, which catches them by surprise.

Yuu proceeds to rush straight toward Riddle who tries to attack her with a tree. Trey immediately uses his UM to turn the tree into cards like what he did to save Ace, and Ace, upon realizing what Yuu is trying to do, quickly uses his wind magic to create a vortex of playing cards to surround Riddle with, successfully hindering his vision. 

While Riddle’s guard is down, Yuu sneaks up on him and grabs him, so she can proceed to body slam him into the ground, much to everyone’s great surprise lol

Around that same time, Ace and the others land the final blow on the blot monster, so with that, the battle finally draws to a close. 

Fortunately, because the battle doesn’t last for an extended period of time, thanks to Yuu’s foresight and Trey’s UM, the drawbacks of Yuu’s Quirk aren’t too severe. 

She ends up with a nosebleed, light sensitivity, a headache, and slight fever, but it doesn’t really affect her much cause she’s had it much worse thanks to longer fights she’s gone through. 

Once the battle is over, Yuu pulls Riddle into a bridal carry so he can be taken to the infirmary.

(Which leads to the scene I mentioned in my Riddle post where she freaks out about how light he is lol 😂)

While she’s interrogating Trey about Riddle’s eating habits, her nose starts bleeding thanks to her drawback, and Trey immediately gets into big brother mode and uses his handkerchief to stem the blood flow and has her tilt her head back.

This leads to Yuu wincing cause now she’s looking straight up toward the sun which is killing her light sensitive eyes. Noticing this, Trey questions her about it, and she explains her drawbacks to him, which makes him decide that she needs to go to the infirmary just as much as Riddle does.

After taking Riddle from Yuu and instructing her to keep his handkerchief around her nose, Trey tells Ace/Deuce/Grim to walk with Yuu since he wants her to keep her eyes closed.

After telling Cater to look after things at the dorm, the rest of the group, including Crowley, who has finished evacuating the students, head for the infirmary to get an unconscious Riddle and Yuu looked over.

Around the time they reach the infirmary, Riddle wakes up and acts similar to how he did in canon. 

The only thing different is that Yuu moves to hug him while he’s crying since she’s really weak to tears, especially when they’re on young, cute faces.

Ace complains about her coddling Riddle, and she promptly throws her shoe at his face to shut him up, making Deuce/Grim laugh at his expense.

Riddle is very surprised by the hugging and also embarrassed, but at the same time, he can’t say he hates it since her embrace feels very comforting. Plus, I imagine it’s the type of hug he always wished he could receive during his childhood.

When everyone later says their piece to Riddle, Yuu’s message is more of an  encouragement since everyone else had the reprimanding taken care of lol

She tells Riddle that his life is his to control - that what he does is up to him, not his mother. He shouldn’t base everything he does on rules. If he does, then he’ll never achieve real happiness; he’ll just end up living a life full of regrets and actions he can’t take back.

Yuu mentions that she didn’t have a lot of freedom when she was a child either, so she plans on taking full advantage of her time at NRC to live life to the fullest and she hopes that Riddle can learn to do the same since she wants him to have the kind of bright future that he deserves.

When Riddle asks her why she helped save him, Yuu tells him that, thanks to her Quirk, she always gets invested in people’s futures, and nothing makes her more sad than seeing one cut short or unfulfilled. 

She can tell that Riddle has a lot of potential, and she hates the thought of that potential going to waste. That’s why she wants him to find the best possible future for himself.

Naturally, this leads to Yuu finally revealing that she came from a different world and how she has what they would all consider to be a superpower. 

Everyone is very surprised by this and find it slightly hard to believe, but they know she’s not lying since there’s no other way to explain what she pulled off during the battle.

So, in the end, they all just accept it as the truth, and then, Ace/Deuce/Grim start pestering Yuu for more details since her world sounds really cool and they wanna know more about her and all the other superpowers she knows about.

Meanwhile, Riddle and Trey are more interested in learning about her drawbacks since they find those concerning.

And of course, Crowley just leaves once he’s sure that Riddle & Yuu are alright after they get examined since he’s just glad that everything has been peacefully resolved and he was able to avoid being majorly inconvenienced. 

Once she has gotten looked over in the infirmary and taken something to help with her headache, Yuu gets to leave the infirmary, wearing a pair of sunglasses that Deuce kindly went to Sam’s store to buy for her.

Sam, being Sam, knows who the sunglasses are for and gives them to Deuce without making Deuce pay since he intends to make Crowley pay for him cause it’s the least he could do. Sam also throws in some other items that he thinks will be useful to Yuu, all of which will be paid for by Crowley lol

Even though Trey told her to take it easy, Yuu goes back to her dorm and resumes cleaning up the place, picking up where she and the boys left off last night, since she just can’t leave it be.

Ace & Deuce saw this coming, so they went to Ramshackle with her and helped her out because Deuce wanted to lessen her load so she could rest. Ace helps because he wants them all to do something fun and the only way to do that is by hurrying up the cleaning process by helping out.

Book 1 wraps up with an unbirthday party where Riddle makes a tart for everyone like he promised which is super salty because he didn’t realize Trey was joking about the oyster sauce.

Yuu’s the type who doesn’t waste food, so she eats the tart and doesn’t complain like Ace does. Instead, she just focuses on how much more fun this party is compared to the last one.

She can only hope that any future parties she gets invited to will be just as fun.

#TABF AU #fortune in twisted wonderland #once again it got really long #sorry for my lack of self control with writing 😂

[t4tails]

I watch fairy tail, the most mid, bad fantasy anime series out there. It sucks but we all need one bad series to enjoy i guess. Theres the main ship with the 2 mcs slapped together, Natsu and Lucy. I like em apart but im neutral enough to see art or fics of em together and go, huh cute and move on.

But jesus fucking christ. I am so tired of seeing it everywhere. Its like an infection. Cant go in the character's tags because its all ship art, the creator at this point only draws those 2 characters as a pair (even on their specific character days). Any discussion or post that speaks about even one of the mcs runs the risk of either someone highjacking your post to make it about the ship or someone rolling up into your inbox to accuse you of the war crime of not supoorting the literally most popular ship in the fanon thats overbloating the whole damn tags

Im neutral but im swiftly on the path of becoming a hater.

i used to watch fairy tail as a kid (i got to like episode 200 or 300. one of those. whatevers like almost directly post magic games arc) and i didnt care about romance in it at all because they were always talking about being besties and family. the exception to this was gajeel/levy

#og post #ask #anon

[ad-cn]

It's just so funny to me how Episode I has such overbloated production and merchandising and essentially thinned out the budget for the next two movies, but it turned out to be the least memorable movie at the end.

Like you could tell they were so excited to show off the "exotic" Queen Amidala outfits they meticulously crafted, and all the funny little futuristic race car designs they made for the podrace and its racetrack, but like film itself was critically lacking in any kind of humanising story to actually make you care about all that.

#ifrit: 'i underestimated beyonce'

[ichangeintothemule]

kafka on the shore is surprisingly inconsequential for such a highly praised novel. murakami makes me believe in the conspiracy of the publishing world

#i read it in december today came across a cover on pinterest and couldn't remember a thing abt it beside him drinking a lot of milk #its a puzzle its so complex !!! and nobody can actually put together this puzzle like whats the point then??? #i watched several essays 'disecting' it and besides surface lvl observations nobody can say anything worthwhile #and i now think abt his work in a weird comparison to clarice lispector who ppl also claim a conundrum but her work truly stands out #her thoughts and images are mysterious and complex w/o the sticky film of trying too hard #to impress your own overbloated ego #but also of course the publishing conspiracy is real and the major proof is sally rooney

[telaraneas]

im still in the process of PROPERLY reading all of Detective Pony because dirk im sorry but i have adhd i cant sit through all of those words at once. its not even that the concepts are too advanced, its just that im p sure he deliberately goes out of his way to be as obtuse and pretentious as he possibly can be (which is pitch perfect characterization sndjej)

ive read it in chunks out of order by skimming and then going back and forth, which is almost definitely cheating but also the only way i can actually digest everything going on here. detective pony is a masterpiece on about 5 different levels, it captures a very specific type of metafiction silly-to-crushingly-serious rabbit hole that i have seen over and over and which i'm struck by and fascinated with each time, even the most shallow and un-self aware of these kinds of works fascinate me (...so yes including stuff like the overbloated disaster mess that are the nostalgia critic movies)

detective pony is just unironically very engaging tho no matter how deep it goes into embarrasing dialectics and struggles with the admission of responsibility about the things you create and about how the entire book IS an extension of his psyche no matter how much he frames it like a struggle against him. the whole thing reads like a microcosm of his whole mental state and especially the fact that as he says. he set out to make a birthday present for jane and ended up just making a whole thing thats about himself and his ego and his struggles with that ego and the terrifying fact that no matter how much he says hes ashamed of it and that no one should read it, he is STILL in the active process of creating it and putting his feelings out there and arguing with himself in the form of socratic dialogue and that, in the end, he DOES end up giving it to jane

and i cant stop thinking about how jane DID READ IT. like i fully 100% believe she read every word

dirk and jane have one of the most interesting relationships in homestuck i think because they honestly care about each other and can be honest with each other in a way they struggle to be with the rest of their friend group, but in a way that's BECAUSE of how emotionally detached they tend to be. like, dirk has his whole mass of issues, but jane's deal is that she tries to be very Nice and conscious of other people's feelings, but because she's, yknow, not a perfect human being, she doesn't ACTUALLY believe everything she says, and she doesn't say most of the things she thinks, because she doesn't want to hurt others and doesn't realize this, too, is a selfish impulse, maybe moreso than actually saying what she feels

i mean. jane was SO committed to only saying what she thought was the most socially nice and appropiate thing to say, that she blew her chance with jake in the dumbest way and then kept digging her hole into the depths of the earth akdnsknd and then she dug in her heels and kept being A Good Friend against her actual wishes until her passiveness turned to passive aggression and then blew up into ACTUAL AGRESSION

I think jane and dirk kind of have similar yet opposite problems in a way, where, like... dirk doesn't want to burden others with his feelings and so tries to hide behind a billion layers of detachment and masks (to the point jake spends the entire story up to entering sburb interacting with dirk without ever actually TALKING to him directly much to his frustration), but despite that stated goal, his feelings and authentic self STILL wind up as the most overtly everpresent fact of the friend group's lives, because moderation just escapes him, so it's like the faucet is at full blast of dirk all over everyone while he stares at it wondering why the fuck he's like this

and then there's jane who is like... she WANTS to connect with others. she WANTS to understand others and be understood in return. she wants to be a good friend and a presence in their lives that they find worthwile. so with her the faucet is closed completely, other than the inescapable droplets that make her support come across as transparently condescending or passive agressive when her heart just isn't in it. jane has SUCH massive trouble expressing her actual, genuine, unironic 100% from the heart Feelings And State Of Mind to other people, and yet she's so miserable when people don't automatically KNOW where she's at

so... i think dirk would write that whole thing, which is esentially a static version of AR in that it's an encapsulation of him that is very much authentically him including the parts of himself he hates the most and never wants anyone else to see, but yet he puts it out into the world ANYWAYS because he can't bring himself to ACTUALLY hide any of himself no matter how much he wants to

and jane would 1000% read the whole thing, from the goofy violent doodly beginnings to the philosophically self-destructive metafictional cathartic end, and she would read it and absorb it and gain a clearer understanding of her friend's issues and what weighs on him, and she would definitely cry while reading it and feel deeply for her friend's situation... and she wouldn't say anything about it

she wouldnt reach out to him like HEY UH ARE YOU OKAY THIS BOOK IS KIND OF UHH CONCERNING, which is ABSOLUTELY what roxy and jake would do... and in my opinion, that's probably WHY dirk went through with it and gave it to her after all that waffling back and forth. because he can't handle honest confrontation about his mental state, but on one level or another, he WANTS to be understood

so like, i think thats why jane and dirk's relationship is so interesting to me. they Understand each other and find comfort in that passive understanding. i think it's also part of why they both went steadily downhill when they... well they never fought over jake, because again these two idiots are too avoidant to have a direct confrontation about it, but they certainly let that whole situation drive a wedge between them which resulted in both of them feeling even more isolated despite roxy's desperate efforts to hold the entire disaster gang together

man.... i just think about the alpha kids a lot........

#i realized im talking about it like detective pony the fan creation is 100% canonically the full thing dirk wrote in homestuck #and frankly like. thats bc its such a perfect crystallization of his neuroses that i think it basically IS canon #even if it wasnt literally the exact same work with the same words it would absolutely go down the same route #homestuck #dirk strider #jane crocker #sushi original

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Brevity is the soul of wit, so it truly is painful when there are a million different ways you want to say the same thing, with each phrase carrying its own unique connotations, nuance, and prose that can’t be captured by the rest. And there is no singular phrase that captures all of them at once without being overbloated as hell, so you have to choose just the right word choice and microscopically agonize over each syllable, and how it’s often an either/or between things that are equally good, so it boils down to which you personally prefer, if you can even make that distinction.

#writing #ramblings