#it's ok to take a break sometimes

[shibaraki]

STATUS UPDATES: GOING INTO 2024

2023 has been rough for me in all manner of ways but I will say it has been very fruitful with regards to my writing. I managed surpass my goal of 100k words, reaching an unfathomable 150k at present, and I’ve even managed to hit a big milestone when it comes to my following! I’m extremely grateful to all my readers, both those that have stuck with me and those who are new, and I wish I had adequate words to really express that. but going into 2024 I will likely be writing less frequently than I did this year. this is due to my own health, and a multitude of other problems that I can no longer keep on the back burner.

plenty of you have seen mentions of hospital visits and procedures on my blog, and while I’m not very comfortable oversharing about medical stuff I do want to be transparent about the fact that I will be posting fics less because of it. I’ve been in and out of semi hiatus for the better part of 4 months but I was always awful at sticking to it. next year I want to actually give myself grace, and take care of my body.

please do not fear!!! this resolution actually aligns perfectly with my writing goals for 2024. I want to focus on lengthening my word counts. I’d love to post fewer fics, but to have said fics be 25 to 50k respectively, rather than to post a lot of 1 to 15k fics. mostly I want to work on my own impatience when it comes to writing, and berate myself less for what I think I should be doing writing-wise. I will still be around on here, and I always want to talk with you guys (and read whenever the mood strikes!!), the biggest difference is I’ll have longer projects, and you’ll have to wait for them (though if I’m honest I will likely still post a shorter fic here and there lol).

I appreciate the patience a lot of you have already shown me this year, what with my random breaks and gaps between posting. you have all been so so kind and generous with your praise and I wouldn’t be here, writing and sharing, without that support. I love you all and wish you well going into the new year!!!!!

edited: 18/12/23

#prev tags from original post -> #if you’ve sent me an ask I’m sorry I haven’t answered yet #I am very bad at taking breaks like idk how to chill so here’s hoping this helps LMAO #how many reminders can I fit in my tags #remember to drink water and take your medication and eat when you’re hungry #remember to open your curtains and let air into your space and go outside sometimes if u can #remember to take breaks from ur screen and roll your wrists! especially if you work at a desk #stop sucking in your stomach it’s bad for you and your stomach is hot anyway why lie #remember your friends love you and keep you around bc they love you and not bc of what you do for them #nobody is mad at you and I’m happy you’re here #ok that’s all the ones off the top of my head #I’m the creature on ur shoulder whispering all this to you

[medicbrainrot]

reset my patient violence along both lines of a pathway higher

Ghost is entering the base gym at 3 AM when he hears a solid thump, followed by a grunt and swearing coming from the obstacle course area. 

"Fuck!... Fuck this…!" 

Ghost stops in his tracks, looking over the area, confused. He decides to investigate the sound, thinking either someone's in trouble, or there's someone who isn't supposed to be there. He slowly makes his way to the obstacle training course.

"What in the bloody hell was that?" He whispered to himself under his breath. 

As he approaches closer, he sees that it's Artemis, Task Force 141's medic. 

"Fuck this! How the hell am I gonna keep up with them?!" She grumbles, unaware of Ghost's presence. 

Simon freezes upon realizing who it is, the freezing overcome by surprise when he connects that it's Artemis, and that it's 3 AM. 

'What is she doing here?' He thinks to himself. He slides his mask off, waiting to see if she'll notice him standing there. 

"Arrrggghhh!" She groans as she kicks one of the obstacles. "I'm never gonna fucking get it!!" 

His lips curl into a smile, he's trying not to laugh as he's watching her. 

"Artemis?" Simon asks, trying to get her attention. Has she still not seen him? 

She turns around at the sound of her name. "Simon!... I… I didn't think anyone else would be here at this hour. What are you doing up?" Her eyes are wide, and her face flushes, mildly embarrassed at getting caught. 

He smiles, walking up to her. "I couldn't sleep. What are you doing here, anyway?" He asks as he comes to a stop in front of her. 

He's slightly curious, but he doesn't want to push her because something doesn't add up. Her eyes are wide, like she's been caught, which she has. It's 3 AM for God's sake. But, he can't make assumptions. 

"Umm…" She stutters, embarrassed at the situation. "I've been trying to work more on the obstacle course, because I feel like I can't keep up with the team on the field… I… I just need more training… But… It's embarrassing to do it when others are watching…" 

Simon's eyebrows furrow in thought. "It's barely past 3 AM, shouldn't you be sleeping? It's a good thing you're taking the initiative, but shouldn't a full night's sleep be more important? You need it if you wanna be at 100% for your duties when the time comes." He says, trying not to sound like he's talking down to her, but more like he actually cares about her well-being. He's a little worried if he's being honest. 

"Yes, but… I just… I worry about being the weak link… I know my primary job is being the team's medic, but I don't want people to have to worry about me on the field… y'know?" She tries to explain. 

Simon nods, understanding her reasoning. She doesn't want to be the weak link, and she wants to be prepared. Makes sense. Everyone has to be on the top of their game when the Task Force works together. "I see your point, but I can assure you, love, no one thinks you're the weak link. We're all a team here, we all care about each other. It's okay, we're not going to let anything happen to you, alright? That includes during missions, we'll keep you safe. I'll keep you safe." He says, trying to lift her spirits. 

"Alright," Artemis sniffles. "Sorry for bothering you." 

Simon shakes his head. "You aren't bothering me. I'm glad you care enough and are motivated enough to try. I truly appreciate it." He says, smiling softly. 

"I'd prefer it if you kept to a normal sleep schedule though. I don't want you to burn yourself out." He adds, gently taking her hand and squeezing it. He just doesn't want her to push herself too hard. 

Artemis nods, squeezing his hand back, and taking a step closer to him. 

He wraps his arms around her shoulders. She needed this, and he knew it. 

"How about you stop for tonight… You've done plenty to prove yourself, right? I mean, you've just ran the course a dozen times on your own. You're clearly prepared." He says gently. 

"How...how did you know I've run it a dozen times? How long have you been standing there?" She whispers curiously. 

His brows furrow, thinking. "I uh… I've been watching… I guess." He says, sounding rather guilty. "Only to make sure you were okay. I didn't want to interrupt. I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable.” He says, looking a bit worried.

“No, sweetheart, you never make me uncomfortable.” Artemis says, as she leans her head on Simon’s shoulder.

He chuckled softly, feeling relief at knowing that him observing her didn’t make her uncomfortable.  “Alright, well, let’s go get you some rest, yeah? You need it. That’s a lot of training.” He says, hugging her tighter.

“Okay.” She yawns.

Her yawning signals that she really is tired, and that it’s definitely a good idea for her to go sleep. Simons nods, leading them to her barracks room. 

“Did anyone notice you come out here?” He asks, holding her hand as they walked down the hall. 

“I don’t think so. I’ve…been sneaking to the training room the past couple of nights…and I don’t think anyone has noticed…” She says hesitantly.

Simon turns to her, a look of shock across his face. ‘She’s been doing this for multiple nights?!’ “You’ve been sneaking to the training room? For multiple nights?! Artemis!!” Simon whisper-yells at her, shocked that tonight wasn’t the first time she’d been doing this. 

This was incredibly unsafe to be doing, especially alone. Sleep deprivation combined with intense training could be a recipe for disaster.

“Why didn't you tell me, or anyone else?” Simon asked, notes of concern sounding in his voice.

Artemis’ eyes started to water at Simon’s raised tone. “Because I need to be better…” She says in a small voice.

He sighs, feeling mildly upset. He didn't want her to be upset. He wrapped his arms around her, trying to provide some comfort. “Oh sweetheart, you are good enough…” He says, rubbing gentle circles into her back. “But you’re pushing yourself too hard.” 

He hates seeing her cry, he hates seeing her cry and watching her feel like she isn’t worthy, even though she absolutely is.

“Come on, try to get some sleep. Later we can talk, I’ll make you hot chocolate, the way you like it, and you can tell me more about what’s worrying you. For now, try to get some rest.” He offers softly.

“Ok.” Artemis sniffles. “I’m sorry.”

“You don’t have to apologize, love. I understand.” Simon whispers, as he presses a firm kiss to her head. “You’ll be okay. I promise.”

A/N: Thanks for reading! Likes, reblogs, and feedback are appreciated!

Masterlist

#simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x reader #simon riley x oc #simon riley fluff #it's not the obstacles that are the issue #'take me back to eden' by sleep token #was the song on repeat while i wrote this #sometimes you just need someone to tell you that youre pushing yourself too hard #and that its ok to slow down and take a break #need me a freak like that #fluff #its 0730 am and i shoulda been sleeping by now #the hyperfixation is real #and its controlling my life rn #gotta love the brainrot #cod mw2

[philyaoi]

SMALL HANDS

#i think abt this interview so much #also if you saw me on twt saying i wanted to take a break from drawing clearly im a liar #no jk i do need a break my chronic arm shit has been really bad recently but sometimes i cant help it ok #daniel howell #anthony padilla #dan and phil #smosh #myart #phanart #dnpart #does smosh fanart have a tag idk... #he technically wasnt back in smosh yet but YKNOW

[phyyne]

a bit disappointed by the Ghost community right now after the Aurora and Swiss kiss, like so much hypocrisy and misogyny its incredible

clearly you guys weren't a safe place for lgbt+ people when ghouls were kissing and all, you were just fantasizing on us

i knew some of the fans were like that, but this event really shows it

#i know it's not all of the fans like i guess the majority is clearly ok #but still #i saw way too many things of that and people saying they were shocked by it and all #“separate the artist from the character!!” until suddenly you are so sad for swiss gf abt that kiss #1) his relationship is none of our business #2) he kissed orher ghouls many times and it wasn't a problem (even out of character sometimes?????) (not sure) #3) respect everyone définition of couple like its not because you think kissing is cheating its the case for everyone #4) i love Aurora and her talent is not talked enough and when we finally talk abt her its because of that 😭 #maybe i should take a little break from the fandom and go back to only listen to the music for a little #ghost #the band ghost #LA concert #LA ghost concert #Aurora Ghoulette #Swiss Ghoul

[laundrybiscuits]

Bonus for @skystamp!

WIP Weekend rules (now closed) | matchmaker fic / somewhere sometime somehow tag

Eden shrugs. “Whatever, boys are so dumb. I don’t even want a stupid boyfriend anymore.”

She hops up onto the stone wall, kicking her feet a little. “Maybe I’ll get a girlfriend instead,” she says. 

Robin’s insides are a crackling bonfire. Her bones are paper and her lungs are cedar chips. She knows, Robin thinks. She knows she knows she knows—

Eden’s looking at her sideways. “Too weird for you, Robin Buckley?”

“No!” squeaks Robin. “No, I, uh. That’s cool! I mean, I’m the weirdest girl in Hawkins, nothing’s too weird for me. Not that I think that’s—weird. I just, I—no. Nope. Nothing weird here. Absolutely no weirdness detected whatsoever.”

Eden nods. “Knew you were cool,” she says. “Don’t worry, I’m not gonna attack you with lesbian lust or anything.” She makes little monster claws and goes rawr, grinning. 

Sitting on the wall like that, she’s about the same height as Robin. All Robin would have to do is move forward, just a little. Just a step or two. A step and a half, maybe.

“Yeah, no, duh, of course,” says Robin. “I mean, I didn’t think you would.”

#just because it's you & you always leave the most amazingly thoughtful comments! #wip weekend #fic: somewhere sometime somehow #ftr this Eden would probably identify as bisexual if pressed. the lesbian lust comment is just alliterative. #(plus at the time 'lesbian' was sometimes used like 'sapphic' is today) #god. remember how these were supposed to be three sentences? yeah me neither #gonna take a break before posting the last couple mini-snippets I owe #eta: ok I decided I didn't like one of the mini-snippets I was gonna post. I've got a very busy day tmr but I'll write a new one soon.

[refugeintheunreal]

#7 billionth dungeon meshi s/i concept #flesh clay homonculous (familiar) that's puppeted remotely by a person who uses it for escapism like fleki (my parallels) #it requires a lot of energy and spells to function #so the person behind it often takes breaks and the vessel is carried around by party members sometimes as is and sometimes squashed into a #lump and remade later on #my art #ok goodnight my cat is trying to put her tongue up my nose

[tnt-zone]

I've had this song in my head for days now.

Something about it pulls at my chest and makes me want to cry but I can't. It feels familiar in an unknown way, reminding me of things I don't remember. Someone comfortingly takes me by the hand and says "your whole world is falling apart and changing, and you're going to deal with it on your own." If I could scream out any song into the darkness right now it would be this one.

But who knows how I'll feel in 5 years.

-Scary ⛈️

#scary post #night shift #song #song recs #this song is stuck in my head #this song is perfect #I know this isn't our usual content but shut up this is my blog too #sometimes you need a break from source and just be real for a second #cuz Jesus Christ the last few episodes have been taking me out #venting in the tags #I swear I'm ok #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #dndads s2 #dndads 2 #dndads scary marlowe #did fictive #did system #should I do a like weekly scary's music sharing thing? I love my music so much and I could write a book on all my music so let me know #Spotify

[honeydots]

weirdly late to post this i know but if it hasn't been clear im trying to rly limit my social media intake so im not gonna be on as much...!

#moots as always my discord is just honeydots and you're welcome to chat w me i just may take a bit to reply bc im also very busy #and i'll post my art and fics n stuff #but #i'll be real....! fandom has not been fun for me lately. #well that's not true the xnlw event was fun #but ahh. too much has been not fun to really balance it out well #i'll probably come on sometimes and maybe this'll just be a break. idk! #but ah. ahhh...... #im sad im surely missing stuff tho so if you see a particularly cute laslow tag me and i'll be happy #gjsngjsnfnsh #anyway otherwise i may also come on for my comm stuff #but ah if you've been wondering where i've been. im ok!! #and see you guys around :3 #dots on the soapbox

[theloveinc]

I love ex boyfriend bakugo so much you don't even know

actually i do know because i feel the SAME. my love for ex bakugo is unyielding. endless. forever. and i actually wrote a bunch for him a couple months ago when another anon brought it up but... got scared they'd hate what i had down so i....... put it on the shelf. i'll have to find it maybe... if ppl want.

ANYWAY... like. there is truly just no way to go wrong with him. there is just no universe where he isn't either a depressed, miserable, longing ex or an kind, gentle and regretful one (or some variation of). even when he's angry, it's mostly just at himself for being a douche who managed to lose you, and HOW CAN U NOT LOVE THAT??

it's so ironic bc he's such a prickly pear but... he just loves the hardest out of any + everyone. not that i don't imagine the others and just as caring... but for bakugo, it's almost a religious experience, you know? never a phase or an era or something he just does but a... idek. life commitment? goal? achievement? something to be maintained and treasured? all of the above. EVEN IF he's not that good at it (at first... which is debatable anyway), that's still how he feels.

so when u break up... that can't be the end of things. like really i can only imagine it happening circumstantially, cuz i genuinely think that any issues you bring up with him (aside from work maybe), he'd take BEYOND seriously.

too gruff and private? suddenly he's telling u every single emotion he has and asking if he's being too rough. too anal and uptight? suddenly the kitchen is a mess and he hasn't even noticed. hell, even too busy? he'll do his best to fit a whole evening with u in his schedule (he hates mornings more than anything but takes the ass crack of dawn shift just so u can have dinner together most night)... it's like !!!!!!! + reminds me of that post i made talking about how pro heroes are so hard to breakup with bc even when ur pointing out their flaws, they're so used to constructive criticism, they don't even notice ur being insulting LMFAO😭

that aside tho, i can never imagine a bakugo breakup!au without them... you both back together at some point. even if it's ten or fifteen years later like... he spent all that time trying to get better for u... even if he didn't think you'd really come back. (or, as i was trying to write, you breakup with him and he just... doesn't fucking believe u LMFAOOOOO and shoves his booty back into his rightful place sadjkfhakjdsf)

(and bc i have i-can-fix-him disease, i also like bakugo who went thru a traumatic breakup w/ someone who wasn't u... and then five/ten/fifteen years later, you're the one to teach him to love again. or maybe that's not that unique of me LOL).

#bakugo #anyway #this is a mess im sorry but WAHHHHHHHH ADJKFLHADSHFB. I LOVE U BAKUGO IM UR BIGGEST FAN I NEED U #whenever i read breakup angst i'm like #he broke up WITH U. we get back together <3 #and god like. reunification / older dating aus #like i sometimes i dont even imagine the dating i just imagine me telling him all his exes are sh*t (not you but imaginary ppl) #and him being like <3 #LOL I'M TOXIC #and also the other ex thing i wrote i didnt like bc it ended up being more story than thought #but it was basically abt like... u know. u break up with him over slight miscommunication #and he doesn't even realize??? he's just like ok were taking a break for a couple days lol. #and then ur like no bakugo we broke up lmfao #and he's like. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh absolutely not and calls u every day talking like ur boyfriend until u. realize #he's serious abt changing #ANYWAYYYYYY SORRY FOR THIS IF ITS NOT WHAT U WANTED BYE #caitie things #gen #anon

[comradekatara]

gonna say smth that might be controversial but ykw i need to speak my truth. ideally, for me, kataang is like. bffs to middle school boyfriend girlfriend to amicable exes to friends w benefits to coparents of 2 great kids (bumi doesn’t exist bc he’s annoying) while they’re each in different parts of the world doing their own thing but also they see each other all the time and are always hanging out and traveling and chilling together because at the end of the day they are, fundamentally, best friends who love each other more than anything, and always will be, forever. peace & love & light; mwah <33

#aang&katara #postwargaang #sorry but bumi is in the military. and that doesn’t make sense at all #anyway. they are just best friends who are in love and make out sometimes but they haven’t put a label on it since they were kids #bc they don’t need to! #just a big pronponent of ‘none of these bitches are gonna be trapped in a momogamous heterosexual union if I can help it!’ #katara has deep seated monogamous heterosexual instincts ofc #but I think she’s monogamous in like. a staccato way #she has a constant rotation of men. revolving doors if u will #aang and haru are constants #but sometimes she needs a break from guys who are kind and understanding and good for her #and she needs to date a hot piece of shit instead #and that’s valid and we support her #and sometimes aang needs to hook up w ty lees little sister and that’s also valid!!! #Free Them from the shackles of torturous monogamous unions #they’re too cool and enlightened for that. honestly #u can be in deep gorgeous cosmic love w/out being married since middle school #I promise that’s possible and ok actually #anyway. here is my fwb kataang agenda take it or leave it

[biteapple]

Had a bad day at work today ... x__x...

#Atleast I'm home now but ........ ×_× ... #Back at it again tomorrow ... and don't have a day off until next Friday... ughhhh #The long long hours are what's grinding the shit out of my psyche #I think I've worked about 90 hours without a break day insofar. My heads so fucked #I'm set to work like another 60 hours until I get a day off so like.. almost 150hrs without a day off. #It hurts a lot. I wish I could confidently get another job that doesn't suck shit like these hours do #I don't even know what that'd look like without being underpaid. My job is technically easy #It just hurts my head to have to do it for so long #It feels like either 'get paid a lot to do stupid bullshit for a lot of hours' or 'get underpaid to do less stupid bullshit for less time' #And sometimes the less stupid bullshit is harder work. Yknow what I mean #Like I'd care about it more depending on what it is. But sometimes it's even harder than what I'm doing now #I don't know though. But if I never try ill never know #But it's also like. That's a big leap to take for someone who doesn't have a safety net out here #And my problem is... I don't even know where I'd go to have that safety net. #I don't think it exists for me anymore. When I went homeless it got better and I wouldn't change it #But it also means building back everything I lost. It sometimes feels impossible even though it isnt #But .... God. I wish I just had a place I could trust fall like I want to and feel OK with if it falls through #Like I'm not going to go homeless again sorta way. Like my cats have a place to live. #I don't know what I'd do if I lost the ability to house my animals. I'd be so fucked

[iratusmus]

im a word of god hater btw its not canon unless its Present In The Text

#''ooooh but but one of the creators said on twi-'' ok ? and ? #is their twitter account going through the creation and editorial process? is it? is it really? #like nice bonus information but its at the reader's pleasure to take or leave #the only place i would not count word of god as non-canon is like #okay. sorry. its one piece time again #at the end of most chapters in one piece volumes there's a q&a section where the author answers questions #usually its really stupid and kind of crude and half the time has absolutely nothing to do with one piece #but sometimes there is actually interesting and mildly relevant info in there #and . ok because its going through the editorial process and its easily accessible and most people who read it will get it #that is not word of god thats like. basically canon #[rip to anime onlys] #but like twitter posts? lol give me a break

[cavsthighs]

always making fun of g for things i also am like/do

#haha g you cant talk coherently. dont look at me #sometimes i say things and people go blklublubhlgubh back at me to indicate. that i have said Nothing at all. #idk what everyones on about it makes perfect sense to me. meanwhile anyone says anything to me and it takes 3-5 business days to process #what the fuck they just said to me #unrelated but i cba to make a new post for this of all things. but my boy was parked in front of a location i needed to be at. today. and h #spoke to me :) and smiled and i smiled back and i feel like a little piece of boundary has been chipped away it was nice #i would actually have thought about saying something more but it was a fucking sink and i needed to focus on not breaking my back #or knocking him out with it #i always have an excuse for why i didnt start small talk with him lol #armed with them! #its ok ill get him next time. ha ha ha

[lanarchive]

top 5 mangas 🫶🏾

i fear ive only read 4….. 😭😭😭😭 BUT nonetheless they r 1. haikyuu (finished it in two days 💪) 2. case closed (detective conan aka childhood), 3. jjk (dnfed a certain arc but im being filled in by my irl friend + i keep up with the leaks), and rn im reading 4. frieren!!!

#im LOVING frieren btw….. reminds of the simple joys in life #idk why im so scared of it becoming sad….. call that jjk trauma 😹 #anyways its so simple and soothing that sometimes it makes me sad and i have to take a break #ok thats enough blabbering i love u di thank u for the question 🥹🫶🏽🫂🤍 also wouldnt say no to any of YOUR manga choices

[munch-mumbles]

ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

#for context i was working frying chicken today. ok so i arrive and literally all the chicken out expires within ten minutes of each other #meanwhile to remake everything takes about an hour 20 #tried my best to get everything out and replaced and make sure i have enough of everything and then take my break bc with chicken there are #few narrow windows to take your break in you have very little control over when it is #get back and while im getting ready for my next fry one of the assistant leaders comes back and passive aggressively asks 'everything ok?' #and when i say yeah shes starts saying how shes 'just checking' because apparently i didnt have enough chicken out for her liking and went #on about how we're in a chicken drive (I KNOW. I WORK CHICKEN SHE NEVER HAS.) #etc etc. i just say ok and she leaves #like 20 minutes later she comes fucking back to rag on me again about how i need to choose my break times better and i need to have more #chicken out there as back up (extremely difficult bc there is literally only so much room in the fryers. the batches i usually make already #nearly completely fill them up) blah blah and then when i try to explain how i WAS making pretty big batches people are just snatching them #up fast she keeps trying to walk out the door right away and keeps stopping and looking over her shoulder to just stare at me while i try t #finish my sentence #and she just. doesnt say anything in response when i do finish she just leaves #so clearly she didnt want a conversation she just wanted to rag on me #then later for cleanup the timing of everything just kept lining up inconveniently so i kept having to get in and out of raw cleaning gear #and slowing myself down and i end up having to stay almost 15 minutes late to finish cleaning #during cleaning i have to go grab a key to the back door to take out my trash and this one coworker i have was standing in the way of the #door. i say excuse me and she just stares at me and goes huh? #and i say i need a key and she barely moves out of the way without responding and she has a look like im bothering her #why are you acting like im being douchey. i just need a key. thats something she does a lot she acts like im inconveniencing her by asking #basic favors . ive stopped asking her to help me open the back door (sometimes needed if i also have raw garbage to take out and therefore #cant touch the key myself) for some reason she takes it upon herself to almost completely close the door after i walk out so when i come #back i have to awkwardly use my foot to reach around and pull the door open #ive asked her before not to do it and she just ignored me #GRAH GRAH. and then like i said in my last rb i realized while i was drivign home i forgot to wash a damn pan #im mostly worried about it because ive forgotten a couple times in the past too . in my defense its a pan i personally dont use but it just #gets left behind from first shift sometimes and then second shifters end up having to make sure its clean #im just irritateddd and im mad im worried about it all. its all little things piling up on each other #LOL I WROTE A LOT MORE BUT THE REST GOT CUT OUT IG I HIT A TAG LIMIT. tumblr voice ok dude quit your bitching !!