#it's not your fault part one

[turtleblogatlast]

Every day I’m haunted by the fact the boys happily swim in sewer water

Even if it’s filtered somehow there’s no way it’s not still nasty 😭 Bet they can defeat any of their villains just by accidentally giving them diseases I swear

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #bless their hearts but they’re nasty #it’s funny because like #each and every one of them has moments #where they’re a typical disgusting teenage boy #and then the next they have STANDARDS #can’t blame Leo for being so determined to go to a spa #even if he nearly licked his own foot that’s prob cleaner than anything else the boys have been up to in years 💀 #thank you shelldon for all your hard work cleaning after then 🙏 #they’re all gross teenage boys!!! #even Donnie he is NO exception here #bro was DRINKING A BEVERAGE while wading through sewer water he is just as gross as his bros #bro also talks with his mouth full he is no more refined than his equally gross bros fr and I love it #but yeah no way that water isn’t disgusting even filtering it would still leave grime on the walls of the sewer for yearsss #pros of them moving into an abandoned subway system is fixing their sense of smell enough to not be as gross #100% that’s part of why they didn’t mind being so filthy pre shelldon #because I mean they were literally raised in the sewers and they’re teenage boys like that’s a double whammy #THEY ALSO DONT WEAR SHOES #the few times any of them do the shoes are discarded before heading home 💀 #I love them tho they are endearing anyhow #April’s immune system must be godlike just being around them fr #honestly no joke Mikey’s probably the cleanest of them all #just by virtue of being a chef #Leo I see as a mixture since he no doubt loves to pamper himself so he’s clean like #a percentage of time before he goes out and ruins his own hard work #Donnie is similar in that he’s just VERY SELECTIVE about what he thinks is too gross #Raph may be more on the stinky end but it’s not his fault he has his stinks and eats things of dubious origin(esp since his bros ate poison) #Donnie and Leo really have the gall to be sick about Raph eating the origami salami but they have no room to talk #all their villains are prob like please stay away from us we have salmonella now

[maxellminidisc]

It's still so wild to me that its 2024 and people still act like having a dick inheritly makes anyone with one a fucking perpetual horn dog or pervert. And the way y'all project this sentiment raging from goofy responses to sexual humor on here or worse, demonization of trans women with one (especially those that enjoy their penises) is proof of that.

Even if you want to talk about cis men and their relationship to their dicks, their dicks arent the problem. It's their misogyny, it's their entitlement to sex, other peoples bodies, the freedom they have to be sexually expressive or active without judgment, etc; its a result of misogyny and patriarchy. Your genitals themselves will never dictate shit about you all on their own, they're just an organ, like WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY IDK!!!

#like even if you want to make an argument about how men set themselves up by saying #hey if you got this part youre better than everyone else without one #that was not the fault of the mere dick's existence it was of the society that fostered #and created the system of patriarchy gender roles bioessentialism etc #anyway if i sound stupid let me know LMAO

[diesoonandsuffer]

sorry kirk and spock’s love for each other is written into the narrative. as if it’s my fault.

#since the companion video is making the rounds again #like yeah. sorry that by kirk's own definition of love he's in love with spock. sorry. #feeling like he's a part of you? check #more important than anything? well he loses his career and his ship just to bury the man. so. check #sorry that the enterprise and kirk are implied as being inherently linked. as if kirk's one true love is the ship. #and not only does he destroy that ship #but spock is 'at home nowhere except starfleet' and 'sees the enterprise as his whole world' #sorry if the vulcan who can't lie and follows rules to a t will lie and break rules for kirk. sorry. #as if any of this is my fault. #'he's trying to contact the vulcan. this species is capable of much affection. i wonder if they'll show it to us.' #sorry. as if i can do anything about that. #'you wouldn't know what to do with a genuine warm decent feeling.' 'really doctor?' 'i know. i'm worried about jim too.' #'i have been and always shall be yours.' #as if i wrote those myself. sorry. #feeling normal tonight. #kirk #spock #spirk #tos #sam's thots

[skitskatdacat63]

2024 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso

#hello here are your daily old man gifs!!! #every time im like no no i shant gif this no one will care #he always sucks me back in w his cute face #i just love his polite listening smile ITS SO CUTEEEE #this is MY race debrief #anyways about the race itself #im still a bit sad about the whole strat thing like agh idk if he could have done any better if not #but it was really so much fun to see him cut thru the pack like that at the end with fresh tires #it just felt so effortless and it was so hot. especially that part where he almost completely wiped out but saved it so easily??? #but ofc the best part was the unintentional war criminal lockup #apparently it wasnt fully his fault but nah im blaming it on him cause its so funny #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2024 chinese gp #also man aston takes so long to upload their fernando debrief vid #i wanna stay up for it cause i missed the other one and it was too far gone to gif #so i wish i could catch it but ah i gotta sleep its so late

[silverwhittlingknife]

did nobody ask you for red letter day? absurd! *I* wanna know about red letter day!

hello captain and friend anon!!! I KNOW I HAVEN'T UPDATED THIS IN SIX MILLION YEARS SO THANK YOU FOR THESE ASKS <333

okay SO the first thing is, you have to understand, my list of documents for this fic looks like this:

anyway i do love this fic even though it FIGHTS ME; it's supposed to have both Fights and Mysteries and both are hard to write 😅

anyway hmmm i'm going to cheat by including a Dick POV section that I am probably gonna end up cutting, because i like it but i also worry that it slows down the dialogue?

excerpt below the cut! the only context that you need is that Dick and Tim have been having the "should Tim call if there's danger in Gotham" argument again (Tim's position is "no"), partly because they both have genuine positions on this argument, but also because it enables them to sublimate an emotional conflict into a work conflict and thus avoid talking or thinking about their feelings, which is a shared pathology goal:

Dick would bet Tim never mouthed off to Bruce like this.  One of the many things that suck about being the knock-off Batman is that none of Dick’s orders really stick.  All of the responsibility without the authority to back it up.  At least when Dick was leading the Titans, they did what he freaking told them. …Mostly. …Okay, sometimes. The awful truth is—and he tries not to dwell on it because it’s pointless and doesn’t achieve anything, but—everything with Tim, sometimes it reminds him of the worst times with the Titans.  The same uneasy feeling of dread, like he’s grabbing for someone who’s slipping through his fingers.  Roy’s crossed arms.  The clock creeping toward midnight, staring at the champagne, knowing in his heart that Kory wasn’t coming.  After Tartarus: watching Roy walk out of the room, watching Donna follow him, staring at Vic’s back, Kory’s back, all of them walking out, and no one left but the newcomers.  When the personal is so fucked up that all you can do is double-down on the professional, and even that doesn’t help, and then— (Get a grip, Grayson.) And anyway, this isn’t like the Titans, is it?  Dick was out-of-line, there, in retrospect. He’s never been good at losing people gracefully.  Pushing Kory for marriage when she was already pulling away, trying to cling to her instead of letting her go.  Giving ultimatums after Tartarus, when he knew the team already resented his orders.  Making decisions behind Vic’s back, trying to force him to stay.  It’s an ugly bad habit, picked up from Bruce: things are slipping, and your people are mad at you, so you get scared, and then you get authoritative and controlling so you can hang onto them, except you can’t control them, so then they get even angrier and you lose them anyway.   It’s easy to see in Bruce, hard to see in himself, but he knows it’s there.  He barely managed to catch himself in time, with the Titans.   Is he doing the same thing to Tim?  Does he need to back off? But Gotham is risky.  Tim’s always been capable, obviously, but…it’s okay to be a bit authoritative, isn’t it?  Tim should call if there’s someone who looks unusually dangerous.  That’s just common sense.  Dick’s not asking for miracles, here.

#general unreliable narrator warning sdfsdfsd #dick. honey. kory needed space after being tortured + that was not your fault or the result of your choices actually #anyway i'm so torn because on the one hand i feel like this is worryingly close to info-dumping in a way i don't like #and i also worry that it's not giving enough context for someone who's not familiar with the comic references #but at the same time mmm okay this isn't the main point of this or anything #but part of what i find so appealing about the dick + tim conflict #is its potential to interact with their different types of abandonment issues #i feel like tim's abandonment issues generally have enough play in fandom that i don't have to spend a lot of time establishing them #whereas most dick-centric fics tend to focus on other aspects of his character #but dick has a lot of anxiety about losing people too #like. it's complicated bc he doesn't process it or narrate it to himself in quite the same ways that tim does #but it's very much an underlying anxiety imo

[thirdtimed]

he was only ever meant to watch

#he was never meant to be here in the first place it was a fluke in the system a mistake... #glass wall train ride timeline oblivion you were only ever meant to observe to read to watch-- not to touch. never to touch! #but you did and you damned us all because you loved this world too much and got too close and it burned and now its all gone wrong!!!!!!!!! #this world is doomed and its all your fault!!!!!!!!!! #becoming something monstrous something beyond yourself something horrible and it was all only ever because #you loved this world and its people so much you could throw up. you only ever wanted to be a part of it #to touch the grass to see its people to feel the sun to walk amongst everyone else #all a watcher ever wants is to become someone else to become someone real to become something that can be loved #the god of this world isnt the one who created it but rather the one who can manage to keep their eyes trained on it #to see every single birth and death and triumph and mistake to witness it all in its ugly bare faced truth and not look away #as the most powerless existence in the world..!!! #a storyteller confined to the whims of the story #you loved them so much youve damned them all to their deaths and theres nothing you can do #but watch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #dfssdf .df #or . df df . SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER #HAVE YOU GUYS HEARDOT THE LIFE SERIES #HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD OF OMNISICENT READERS VIEWPOINT #I. HAVE. TO . DRAW. GROKJA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[laesas]

Do you guys ever think about Ken's devastated expression when he sees Kinn alone in the parking lot? When Big, who would have followed Kinn to the ends of the earth, isn't with him?

#what I'm asking. is do you think that this is the first time he fully realises that Big might die protecting Kinn #like there are things you know logically but havent settled into your bones #i realise this is a delulu post for a ghost ship but like. #this (presumably) wasnt even Ken's fault. But Kinn was in danger. and Big took a bullet for him. Would fully have given his life for Kinn #like. do you think there was a point where Ken realises that hurting Kinn and putting him in danger could almost certainly kill Big? #the best part is that when Big dies he's not on Kinn's detail. Ken steps up as Kinn's head bodyguard and that keeps Big safe! #Big is out of the picture. Now if Vegas moves ahead with anything to do with Tawan or anything to hurt Kinn - Big is nowhere near #he's guarding the one sibling that has nothing to do with the family and doesnt even *like* his brother?? why would Big ever be involved??? #listen one thung about me is that i WILL overanalyze the stupid gay sex mafia show for crumbs of misinterpretable artistic merit 💀 #kenbig #bee.txt #kpts

[ghostgraveyard]

I feel like I need to clarify. I like the whole “The Jedi code is like an itch; their compassion leaves a trail.” thing but more as a ‘values that the best and most true Jedi hold’ and that sort of futile idealism people believe applies to the jedi as a whole.

But I hate when people take that line and use it as a reason to discount people arguing against the Jedi.

Like you need to see the difference between ideals and values vs action.

I love that u love ur jedi and what they stand for, but i need you to understand that the jedi actually SUCK and thats okay (for you to like them in spite of such). Stop trying to convince people of their goodness bc for sure, some of them are good, but that doesnt make them representative.

The jedi fell bc they were a working part of a corrupt system and u literally can’t take their responsibility for that away just bc u wunna hold their hand and giggle. Root for them but dont talk to anyone amidst your delusion where the meow meow jedi can do no wrong. Do you understand?

“Their compassion leaves a trail…its like an itch” and I would see so many people use it like “See? The jedi are peak perfection and good!” and im like, “No! They arent! Anakin’s entire origin story is a prime example as to why!”

This was unironically canon:

Anakin: tries to literally do the most for one ounce of approval

Obiwan: 😐 your desire for praise will be your undoing.

Anakin: 😦

Can you not see he is DESPERATE for something he’s done to be recognised. His inner child is begging to be seen. His outer child is doing its best to be worthy of it and every time he thinks “this is it, this time—“ he’s basically smited.

Anakin knows love and affection through the eyes of a slave. Blunt honesty and proof through care and being there (action) and staying through thick and thin. He doesn’t need you to burn down a planet because that’s HIS love language, thats how HE shows he cares, not how he needs others to show it.

Because he feels he’s not good enough—burning down a planet, in his mind, shows the people he cares for that he would do anything for them of it’s in his power to do so, and that he really means it when he says he loves them. Grand gestures are how HE shows love because he feels like anything else is as inadequate as he is

Being abandoned and never told he’s loved and cared for is a big reason his affections and attachments turn obsessive. He’s never been given anything concrete, he’s never shown that people care in a way he can understand. They think “I said hi to him and spoke up for him and trained him and gave him camaraderie—thats proof I love him” and think Anakin can properly differentiate it between duty and not.

He thinks, “my master is my master but he only cares for the Jedi and I can’t live without him but he could without me bc I’m a burden and will never be good enough or perfect like Obi-wan” bc Obi-wan isn’t honest with himself or Anakin, and you can see this etched into the very lines of his story no matter where you look.

He doesn’t say “i love you” to Anakin’s face until he’s literally chopped Anakin’s limbs off and left him to die on Mustafar, and even then it’s ambiguous. Anakin understands there is SOME sort of affection between him and Obi-wan that goes both ways but in the end, he never feels like he can truly tell Obi-wan anything without being shunned, misunderstood, or lectured, when all he needs is someone to talk to and hold close without fearing theyll leave him behind when he disappoints them.

One of the only people to ever outright tell Anakin what they feel was his mom, and she ended up dead bc Anakin was told he was being irrational about her and his visions of her death; and the fact that his mother was one of the only people to ever tell him she loved him and was proud, and that she was one of the only people who would never turn her back on him when he wasnt perfect (bc she thought he was perfect anyway. Her love for anakin was unconditional whereas everyone elses’ seemed to be very obviously conditional) and that terrified him bc following her death, the only other person left was Padmé, in their very unhealthy, very suspicious, co-dependant romance.

But even then, since she was the ONLY ONE he knew for sure how they felt, he was terrified something would happen to her and that she would leave him too—be it through death or finding someone to replace him (visions + irrationally believing she and Obi-wan were having an affair). He was obsessive and possessive and I honestly can’t blame him, especially from a psychological standpoint—and even more especially, from a child psychology standpoint. He was never given a reason or a chance to nurture any secure attachment style, especially when faced with the first 10 years of his life as a slave? Yikes.

He was obsessed with his relationships because he never had anything else to hold on to (from his perspective), and do you know who took gleeful advantage of that? Palpatine.

Anakin only wanted to be good enough, to make people proud, to give them a reason to tell him they love him. And maybe the one person he wanted to lure in the most was Obi-wan, who viciously shunned him for that, even when he would sparsely give anakin the praise he wanted so desperately

Anakin said, “I beat you! I won!” All giddy and self-assured after a spar with Obi-wan and instead of allowing that feeling of accomplishment, of the desire to make his master proud, Obi-wan just looked at him and said with shame, “Your need for praise will be your undoing,” and in the end, he wasn’t wrong. It was a self fulfilling prophecy.

Because in the end. The only person left who told Anakin he was proud was fucking slimy Palpatine, the dark lord of the goddamn sith.

Unfortunately, a lot of explicitly pro-jedi/jedi apologist fandom participants like to “interpret” the Jedi code themselves. They make these incredibly long-winded, well thought-out posts explaining the meaning and how it works in practice and how the jedi embody this—BUT they never actually consider or address the literal canon aspects. Things we actually see with our eyes: the novelisations, the games, the shows, the movies.

You’d think, therefore they must be, right? Wrong. You say this is what the Jedi are like and while that’s beautifully wonderful and I wish you were right—that’s literally not what happens. Literally not what they’re like at all. It’s actively part of the plot.

I think your interpretations of the code are great but you act like that’s the reality we’re actually living in. You act like that’s what the shows tell you, rather than just what you want to believe based on your own interpretation of the code itself (ignoring lack of congruency we sometimes see in the shows or movies).

My point is, you can love the jedi while acknowledging their VERY obvious flaws. The flaws that destroy them, corrupt them, misguide them, make them terrible people. The flaws that cannot be retconned by one writer saying “its an itch” while pretending Anakin’s “Anakin Skywalker is dead. I killed him” makes up for the horrible things Old Hermit Kenobi does with luke.

So yeah.

Lets at least be real when we’re loving who we love.

#jedi critical #a greek tragedy #im not putting too many tags here bc i dont need people up my ass when theyre just tryna look at goofy little content bites #anakin believed obiwan was the perfect jedi and also not #and yet he tried to be great like him #even when his values clashed with obiwans decisions and opinions #he believed being the perfect jedi would get him all he desired. praise #recognition. #but how can one deny fundimental parts of themself and remain at all…capable #the jedi way was not for everyone. yet the jedi wanted it to be #the believed it was personal when one could not follow the jedi way. they believed it wad your fault.

[nyxofdemons]

i think what it comes down to with shows like helluva boss and the fact that antis are allllllways complaining about it being "toxic" and "romanticizing unhealthy relationships" is that like. that's the point. like i truly don't get how you don't understand that that is the point. i like toxic romance in fiction. i like complicated messy unhealthy dynamics. i like characters who are flawed and hypocritical and bad people.

listen, there are some genuine criticisms to be made about this show, but ultimately so much of what it actually is in this fandom is just... people hating on it for being an adult show. the characters are, largely, not good people! you're not supposed to idolize and aspire to be like them! like sorry that you've only consumed escapist children's media for so long that you believe that all protagonists are supposed to be self-inserts but you are actually supposed to disagree with some of their actions and behaviors for this one. and claiming the show is "romanticizing abuse" just because it portrays an unhealthy relationship (that neither party is happy with!!!) is just. downright conservative and functionally puritan lmao

like. have you never read a whump fic. have you never watched a "dark" show. portraying unhealthy behaviors =/= condoning those behaviors in real life. i truly do not know how to make this any clearer for you

#im absolutely convinced that the venn diagram containing hb antis and people who say that huck finn condones/glorifies racism is a circle #like. do you actually need this show to hold your hand and explain which parts youre not supposed to want to enact in real life. #if you're upset that there's no scene where someone looks directly at the camera and says 'hey guys just so you know this scene is about #how this thing is Bad and Not Good; and the consequences im about to experience is to show you how it's Bad and Not Good' then #im sorry but i don't think you should be watching this show #i could get into themes of abuse in this show and that whole topic but that is. a whooooole other post i have THOUGHTS about that one #anyways. i love toxic relationships in fiction i love watching characters fall ass first into problems that are absolutely their own fault #helluva boss #mine

[dayurno]

i usually think it's bullshit when people say 'if you like x character it's because you're like them' but lately in case anyone was wondering i have been listening to videos on marxist history while single-mindedly making a self-sufficient high profit farm on stardew valley without having talked to a single romanceable character. hopefully this says nothing about me nor kevin day

#autism gang we'll blow your eardrums out #sorry ihavent been answering asks my farm you see. my farm. #the petite bourgeoisie simulator got to me #i named my chickens andrew jean and neil but lately i have not been able to afford hay for them so they hate me #because i spent all my time fishing and i left them to starve mostly #but in better news my cat is kevin and he is well loved and i never forget to pet him <3 #i love kevin and non-kevins equally #this is where kevin and i part ways because he wouldnt let jeandreil starve....... but its not my fault i ran out of grass for my silo #sad! #i need some cows next but i'm waiting for fall to come around #i'm on summer 27? so just waiting really to terraform my farm #also no one asked but im going to romance penny. kevin im also doing this for us. older women <3 #txt #kevin

[hetyra]

Kaeya’s beautiful smile to show he really does consider the winery his home and Diluc his family, and sad guilt-ridden Diluc thinking about how it’s his fault Kaeya’s never home.

#like yeah theyre both equally at fault for what happened that night #but Kaeya has done/said plenty to make it clear he wants to reconcile #Diluc is the one who keeps pushing him away #he made the same face in the darknight hero quest too #when he told Kaeya to leave and Kaeya said he was glad someone had Diluc's back #I really need these two to talk and reconcile #because I'm 99% certain Kaeya knows a lot #and he would willingly tell Diluc everything if asked #those HS letter made it clear as day how loyal Kaeya is to Diluc #altho hed probably dance around mentioning the whole curse and abyss/hilichurl being Khaenri'ahn part #that kind of fucks your world view and I can see Kaeya thinking thatd affect Diluc too negatively #ragbros #Diluc Ragnvindr #Kaeya Alberich #Genshin Impact

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

#and that you’re a terrible writer and that no one cares aaaaaaand imposter syndrome kicks in and you just feel like crap #bc all your friends have been wriying recejtky so why can’t you??? cause they’re bETTER THAN YOU #lol idk why my head is so bad today #the feelings of inferiority and emptiness and idk worthlessness are strong and i hate it but i can’t stop it #i just wanna write!!! and like what i write!!! #but i Can’t and i haven’t liked anything i’ve written in Months and ugh i hate not being able to d something i wanna do #oh and now i’m crying??? why the frick am i cRYING litetally why is typing this making me Worse #sorry guys needed to rant #the inadequacy was strong today #something something students keep telling me how much they dislike me or how i’m whiny for asking them to be respectful and like #i Know i shouldn’t compare myself to my friends but gosh it’s hard when they’re all like. so much better than me. #and i don’t have a lot of time to be on tumblr bc of work so i just feel like i’m watching everything from afar and it’s no one’s fault but #my brain’s like no one is Doing anything it’s just my brain being dumb and i can’t stand it and I want to stop feeling empty and like i’m #missing a part of myself and like the words i write don’t matter gOD why can’t i just feel happy with where i am and not care what the kids #who hate me say or realize that no one cares that i’m not on much like i’m still Here and trying to interact it’s not like everyone hates me #for being busy or for liking side characters more than the main characters and just— #sorry #that felt good actually #idk what came over me #imma just. imma shower. then maybe delete my tags #sorry if anyone got this far aT ALL grace is either asleep or trying to sleep so i don’t wanna bother them since they slept poorly last nigh #okay done now for real sorry delete tags later sorry if you saw this and how freaking messed up ky freaking brain is

[calamity-unlocked]

Henry: "You mentioned that sometimes you can love and love and love someone, and no matter what you do, they don't love you back. Well sometimes, you can love and love and love someone who isn't good to you, and no matter how bad they are, you still love them."

(Episode 13: Terry Jr. and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Dad)

The unintentional foreshadowing of this quote kills me. Was absolutely smacked in the face with dramatic irony when relistening to this episode.

Of course Henry would say this. It's such an excellent thing for him to say, because loving the world and everyone in it is the core of his character. He explicitly tells Lark and Sparrow to love everyone like they love each other, on the precipice of a major battle with someone who defined Henry's misery.

Henry loves so, so much, to the point of tearing himself apart.

Because eventually, what Henry describes to Ron, happens to him. Someone he loves with his whole soul doesn't (CAN'T) love him back anymore. Someone he loves more than anything hurts him, in more ways then one.

But never, ever, will Henry be able to stop loving his son, no matter what.

#today in 'crying over the oaks' #calamity speaks #dndads #dungeons and daddies #henry oak #lark oak #dndaddies #i think this is a big part of why the oaks are my favorites #the conlicted love and (un)deserved anger that runs through them #and how they deal with it #their family dynamic post s1 is so messed up #and no one's happy! #the world is ending but even if it wasn't they don't get that closure #instead they have to navigate around each other #mercedes and sparrow in the middle #while henry tries to reach out #and lark just tries to get away #how do you deal with loving someone who is *supposed* to love you back #but doesnt #partially through fault of your own #how do you forgive yourself? how do you forgive them? #is there even anything to forgive? is there even forgiveness? #it's such an interesting scenario #its like a redemption arc in which no one did anything wrong #(yknow except that one thing where lark did do the big oopsie) #(that was on him) #(or well not completely but im already ranting so ill save that for another time)

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

bye bela :(

#she doesnt come back in liams run sadly ;; #i can never get her approval quite high enough oops #(tbf tho im not making a Huge Effort since thats how it happened the first time and its a replay run anyways) #laya plays dragon age #liam for his part is. so so pissed rn #what the FUCK isabla what do you MEAN you need that relic??? #like. what. you would trade having one guy off your back for having THE QUNARI hunting you down???? #he is. VERY goddamn angry in that qunari compound. at isabela but also just in general at Everything #that being said he still cant bring himself to tell the arishok that isabela has the tome #in part out of spite towards the arishok but also bc he genuinely doesnt know if the relic was there and/or if bela has it now #and if it wasnt then isabela might get hunted and killed for nothing #and if she does have it? well theyre gonna find out soon enough #stop fucking acting like this is all his fault somehow #if it were for him once the qunari attack he'd frantically gather up his friends and gamlen and evacuate somewhere safe #he does NOT want to be in the arishoks line of sight when he goes on a rampage #(hah. we all know how that works out LOL)

[devoutlywished]

“CURIOSITY, SUSPICION, AND GUT FEELINGS WERE HINTING AT A VIOLENT TRUTH: SOMETHING IS WRONG IN THIS HOUSE.”

spider-man (2002) dir. sam raimi / halsey, i am not a woman i’m a god / @thewendybird on tumblr / ethel cain, sun bleached flies / kelly faircloth, something Is wrong in this house: how bluebeard became the definitive fairy tale of our era / spider-man 2 (2004) dir. sam raimi / @shokuto on tumblr / taylor swift, you’re not sorry

#harry osborn #spider-man #raimiverse #sam raimi spider man #sorry i was just thinking about how no one ever told him anything and he was completely shut out of the narrative #and how maybe if people told him the truth all of that could’ve been avoided #i’m specifically thinking about the part at peters birthday party where peter tells harry ‘i want us to be able to trust each other’ #because imagine someone saying that to you and then learning they’ve lied to you about literally everything #imagine your BEST FRIEND saying that to you #making you feel like somehow it’s your fault for not trusting them as if they aren’t lying to you the whole time #* #**

[moodr1ng]

were all for prison abolition and transformative justice until i say "the man who abused me as a young teen is not in a place where he has access to children or women so i dont want to pursue any judicial action against him, and also i understand that while the abuse he put me through was extreme and awful, he was young, traumatized, endured abused himself, and abusing multiple substances and i dont believe he is the same person he was at the time", at which point everyone looks at me with pity and concern and tells me i dont have to make excuses for him and im allowed to hate him and etc etc. like yeah i do hate him. im capable of thinking past hatred, being reasonable about the situation, and maintaining my political ideals even when it comes to things personal to me, so that when i say "everyone deserves a chance at rehabilitation" i dont conveniently make an exception for the guy who hurt me personally.. anyway.

#97 #csa tw #when i say 'he has no access to children or women' #i mean hes part of a closed-off religious community which has no access to the outside world or the internet where he groomed me originally #like hes essentially a monk. he has NO access to people he would be interested in victimizing whatsoever. #all this to say i would never fault an abuse survivor for going to the admittedly fucked up justice system for retribution or safety #but also i think there comes a point where if one professes a belief that the justice system is fundamentally broken and abusive #then yknow that belief does eventually inform whether you think that broken system should serve as your personal tool for revenge #when it comes to my situation (where the person in question is already no longer a danger to others) revenge is the only thing i would get #and i dont want revenge bc i dont believe in a justice system based on it! #my involvement is limited to periodically (every year or so) checking on the net and making sure hes not back online #it is a triggering endeavor every time to go thru his old profiles and to check on his sister and see the handful of pictures of him etc #but yknow. absent any actually ethical system of justice to address the crimes.. #just monitoring that hes still locked up in some monastery is the best i can get.