#it's Not very high. in the negatives maybe

[jrueships]

sauce trying to befriend the popular twitch streamers and gamers is giving sheltered christian kid realizes their only hopes for friendship in school are the weird white boy reddit users who think slurs are comedy, and is just excited to have 'cool' friends so they'll do or say or get into anything their friends do to sound equally as smart just to be capable of saying (lying) that they have 'friends' to their mom when she asks about their day so their family doesn't think they poured all that money into a socially inept loser. instead, they poured all that money into a socially desperate parakeet

#mannnnnnn i knew from the Moment #ad*n was bad news #AND I AINT FORGIVING OR EXCUSING SHIT ON ANYONES PART #ignorance is common bcs it's easy but easy doesnt mean end #easy readies advancement #which is harder #not everyone realizes that #they think shits so easy cus they so smart #nah bro ure just stuck #whats the real smart move is continual growing #we gotta keep learning #or at least trying #nahhh instead everybody wanna fuckin laugh #cus pausing and actually thinking is too awkward #learning is too awkward #stupidity is 'funny' #easy comedy #ugh. #ugh #man #stunted shit and stunted stuntmen #fuckin hate the kind of ppl that get rich sometime #just lets the ppl trying to get rich after them know what kinda level they need to reach & stop at as a person #it's Not very high. in the negatives maybe #fuckin hell. #chances for accountability is everywhere and theres a shortage of accountants #hope he genuinely learns smthin from this bcs he didnt mean it in a conspiring way but still thats compounding People #people are People bro #theres a lot of people in this world. theres a lot of learning #embrace it without ego

[midnightfox450]

Can I just say I love that Ayda still canonically hates her dad <3

#hate is maybe a strong word but she would have every right to #my one fear for this season is that they would be 100% reconciled so i'm glad that's not the case #as someone with very similar daddy issues i'm glad she's still allowed to feel nuanced and negative feelings about him #ayda aguefort #fantasy high spoilers #fhjy spoilers #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #d20 #fh #fhjy

[romanticatheartt]

*tiny HOFAS spoiler*

So while reading the book I came across these two paragraphs:

chapter 13 ^

chapter 81 ^

And they oddly reminded me of Feyre...

I'm not saying it means anything because I'm no theorist lol but while reading these, only Feyre came to my mind.

Cthona holding an infant while her other hand hold an orb which represents Midgard and in ACOWAR we have Feyre fixing the Cauldron which we learn it's kill switch for Prythian (even tho we knew that but now there's a story behind it) so she -and Rhys- literally saved their whole planet. In another word its holding up because of their power...

Urd holding a black metal bowl in her hands and symbols are carved all over it. Cauldron also have patterns swirl on it. Those symbols runs all over Urd's body and we have Feyre having tattoos on her arms and in ACOTAR we've seen her body being painted in patterns.

ACOTAR -> chapter 13:

ACOWAR -> chapter 76:

Now we know Feyre had their entire *world* into the palm of her hand and not universe because back then we didn't know other worlds exist as well. But again this looks like Cthona, birther of worlds, holding the Orb in one of her hands, the other holding a baby and Urd, Goddess/Fate/Mother, holding a bowl in her hands...

idk what all this means, maybe Sarah only like the aesthetic. And I think it's so far fetched to say Feyre is a goddess (or semi-goddess?)... but it's all very interesting :)

cr: paintfaery on Instagram

#my very first post #🥹 #and what better way to start? #feyre darling #english is not my first language #so forgive any grammar mistakes #idk if anyone has already pointed this out #I don't check what's going on in Feyre's tag but I know there's too much negativity for my liking #about her and other characters #and I'm not here for that... #pls don't make this about ship-war! #feyre archeron #feyre cursebreaker #high lady feyre #pro feyre #feysand #hofas spoilers #hofas #I needed to document this somewhere bc who knows maybe they mean something lol

[dad-friend]

ok listen. i know hbomberguy said he doesnt wanna become the type of youtube who spends their time doing drama videos or ruining ppl careers but like. if somebody doesnt start doing crazy detailed research on ryan hall, yall then i will

#hbomberguy #meteorology #ryan hall yall #like his info is good and he generally seems like a good gug but theres. some weird stuff #*guy #the lack of clarity regarding his education #the giveaways #the almost unnecessarily high production quality #the way his mods behave during livestreams #(theyre biased when regulating politics they link weather.gov when ppl ask for forecasts but respond negatively when other meteorologists #are mentioned/linked etc) #occasional thoughtlessness (magenta polygons instead of red are more visible but they confuse ppl and studies say theyre less effective) #the fact they he claims to live in kentucky but said the us had very calm weather while there were wildfires throughout the south&appalachi #(also i could be forgetting but if i rmember right he mentioned the drought maybe twice until he retweeted that video from james spann) #the fact that he used to review vapes #the shady sponsorships and sometimes downright untrue info regarding those #the guilt tripping asking ppl to donate #like theres def good faith interpretations available #he himself says that theyre trying to reach as many ppl as possible w warnings so they have to play the YT algorithm game #but like. some of its looking kinda weird man

[coquelicoq]

just got a biopsy to see if my [checks notes] 15-week period is because of cancer. however then my friends drove me to get chocolate and the new martha wells novel so, you know, there are pros and cons here.

#the epic highs and lows of having a uterus #highs: people buy you chocolate!! #lows: all the other stuff :( #anyway i am. a lil stressed out lol #also pretty lightheaded! i'm not really even sure why because ok so yeah i was already anemic from the 15 weeks of bleeding #plus i was anemic before that also #plus there was a lot of blood during the biopsy. but i feel like that blood was just the stuff in my uterus that'd be coming out anyway #as opposed to new blood from within my veins or something #and i'm still sick lolllll #so it's a fun time. BUT! martha wells novel! and i lent all systems red to a friend who will hopefully become obsessed with murderbot #and talk to me about it constantly! (<-my endgame at all times) #it's so funny every time i've been to the doctor they're like 'date of your last period?' and i'm like april 9th. and it is ongoing. #and then we just 😬 at each other #anyway cross your fingers for me. apparently if the biopsy comes back negative they don't have other ideas for what could be going on #not sure how to feel about that. obviously i don't want to have cancer but it's very stressful not knowing what is going on #do i just bleed forever indefinitely??? i'll be real with you lads that doesn't seem great :/ #she was like next step would be to put in a hormonal iud and i was like that is absolutely not an option that i will consider #i would sooner get a hysterectomy #so idk maybe i will get a hysterectomy! biopsy results in a week. okay. ending the tags now #if anybody wants me to trigger tag for cancer mentions let me know and i can definitely do that going forward <3

[dihalect]

i need to post about palestine on facebook but i'm fucking terrified

#i went to a very jewish college and a very decent percentage of my fb 'friends' are jewish zionists. #i don't use fb often but when i've checked recently‚ i've found a handful of pro-israel posts‚ and they've been well-received. #i have seen one person put a palestine frame on their profile picture. they got a small‚ mostly positive but some negative‚ response. #that's all the reference i have here. #and very importantly: i feel like pretty much anything i say is going to be received as goysplaining. #i think my best bet is to stay away from historical arguments (like‚ yes palestine does actually exist‚ yes it was bad to force them off of #their land in the first place‚ etc) #and also avoid my personal feelings on this re: my relationship with judaism (which is integral to the message i want to send but w/e) #and focus on israel's very obvious current indefensible actions. #however. i feel like i'm doing the movement a disservice if i don't call for a free palestine and explain what that actually means. #but doing that would increase my risk of getting dogpiled from 'high' to 'inevitable'. #and i am not articulate!!! people might try to rebut me‚ and i am very bad at debate!!!!!!! i have multiple anxiety disorders!!!!!! #and people get fired over this kind of thing. i know the chance is small‚ but i don't know if i want to risk my career over this. #my gut is telling me to wait until i'm sure. but i don't know if or when that will happen. #i want to change *someone's* mind‚ but idk if i'll even be able to do that. maybe just my uninformed hometown gentile friends'. #i want to do this before it's 'too late'. but what does 'too late' mean here? my fb friends aren't launching the missiles. #i suppose my goal is to help turn the tide of public opinion‚ in the hopes that that'll affect the politicians/corps at play here. #but maybe i'm more likely to do that by marching. making posters. talking to acquaintances. who knows what else. #just because i don't *see* those minds change doesn't mean they're not changing. maybe those minds are actually more likely to change. #txt

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

I’ll make myself tea, drink half of it, forget it, and then be less sure what i want to do when I find it again three hours later

#emma posts #it’s not warm #but I could make it warm? #am I still in the mood though? #it feels like a breakfast thing to me #when I was drinking it earlier I remembered how I used to down two cups worth of black tea with sweetener in the morning senior year #and maybe Junior year or whatever the one before it was #because I hate coffee but was barely holding on #and I’m like ‘I don’t know if it’s still a rule. but before one of my younger brothers graduated they made it so that the kids #could only drink clear liquids out of a clear bottle and I’m like. I think i would have died even faster #so many weird rules keep getting added after I’ve graduated and I’m like ‘these kids can’t have shit. huh?’ #to be fair I was also on a very high dose of an adhd medication at that time so my heart was going so fucking fast #my childhood psychiatrist seemed to live by the philosophy of ‘if it worked before and isn’t enough now just take even more’ #which probably (definitely) had a negative effect on me because of the side effects I was getting #new psychiatrist is like ‘maybe we should also consider trying other medications’ which is great. seriously #I’m not sure if my current one even existed when I was in school though #and I’m not sure it would have been enough but damn. the side effects are lesser #I’ve drank my current tea cold before. not black tea though #black tea goes cold and I’m out

[cyhaitham]

and maybe its not fair to yori or kohaku for the emotion to be love.. like idk. kohaku's view of her actions VS what those actions truly are are completely opposite

#Also i really hope im being nonstereotypical when it comes to BPD. Kohaku's is just a very extreme case+combined with other mental disorders #It might make more sense for Kohaku to have come from a home where love is distorted that way but I like her backstory? #I mean being in the spotlight and watched all the time since theyre like nobles #Being held to an extremely high standard since childhood #and nothing below those standards being accepted in any form #would have a negative mental effect on someone with BPD already right? #Hmm #im trying to think of the core reason kohakus view of love is so deluded #Like Kohaku was held up to those standards had a very uptight household no mistakes aloud #her obvious disorder was completely ignored; her mother refusing to believe her daughter was “crazy” #and this would destroy their social standing in her mind #and the whole no daughter of mine is some “psycho” type mindset #Kohaku was told to push it all down . pretend she's fine . mantain her perfect grades etc #So yknow there was obvious neglect there. rich parents. I wouldnt say kohaku was spoiled but shed always get what she wanted #So maybe that could be part of her obsession with yori? i guess? and how #a person of such lower social standing would be utterly unacceptable for kohaku to be associated with #and Yori is so unique in Kohaku's eyes- she's an angry righteous person that takes risks and doesn't care #what people think of her when public image was #taught to kohaku to be everything to their family. #so like being with someone like yori could be a sort of freedom from this life Kohaku's forced to live #like Kohaku has always been able to be herself around Yori #even when she started to get really clingy all the time yori didn't mind #and shed try to help her with her manic episodes and everything- her anxiety/paranoia etc #and when Kohaku felt like shed lose Yori (when she met Tatsuko) #she did everything she could Not to lose her. (lying&sabotaging Yori's relationship with Tatsuko) #cus she didnt want to lose the only tether she had outside of her nobility. or whatever. #... What was i talking about originally

[aurosoul]

I got some incredibly kind messages today after venting about my thoughts about quitting art this morning and I just want to say THANK YOU to the people who reached out to me and that I love you all 💖💖💖💖 ;__;

I’m definitely NOT giving up, I’ve just been really struggling with anxiety, imposter syndrome, and hinging my self-worth on my income lately and I’ve been losing sight of what brought me to art in the first place.... life remains incredibly stressful to us all, but this was a good reminder to take a breath and be gentle to myself despite everything

#incessant meowing #i don’t talk about this because i’m embarrassed by it #but due to mental illness and a history of bad living situations i’ve never been financially independent #and as i get older i’ve been putting more and more pressure on myself to finally make at least a lower middle class wage #and sometimes i wonder if i am chasing a pipe dream trying to accomplish that with art #but throughout all my life art is the only thing i can dedicate full time hours to #and i’ve considered other career paths but those require college degrees #and i barely graduated high school and then dropped out of college twice #i struggle immensely with many things like school and jobs and maintaining friendships #and art has always been my refuge where i can really shine #i have a lot of emotions tied up with the goal of making a career out of it #but to be honest i could stand to take a step back... #and maybe even pursue some therapy for the anxiety around this because it’s been tough #anyways thank you again to the anons i got #and thank you to whoever is reading this #i think it’s important to share feelings with others even if they’re negative #because we are all very human and none of us are alone

[yardsards]

i cleaned my room today and am really proud of myself :D

#eliot posts #it's not even fully clean but i folded SO MUCH laundry #and my bed is all clean and freshly made #and there's less shit on the floor #i want to move on to the living room and the entryway next #tho maybe not tonight? idk i feel like i'm getting sick w some kind of respiratory Nonsense #i spent my birthday last year sick too #but that was like really bad bedbound sick (thought it was covid but the test came back negative) #today is just scratchy throat and very mild fatigue #i dod a lot of it on the phone with an old friend i hardly talk to anymore #it was meant to be a quick chat and her introducing me to her new cat #but it ended up lasting a couple hours #just fell naturally into a long conversation like when we were close back in high school #it's always weird after talking to her cuz of how easy conversation is with her sometimes after all these years #but i have no intention of really rekindling that friendship #and i think it was good that we grew apart near the end of high school bc it was slowly transitioning from supportive to codependent #idk i just needed to feel like someone needed me and she was a flaming trainwreck #from what she said today it's a REALLY good thing we weren't friends for the year or two after graduation #but it can be nice to catch up every once in a while

[marklikely]

the framing of the critic character in the menu really pissed me off bc no offense but if i was paying 12k for a meal and you served me a broken emulsification id comment on it too

#man. she was engaging in good faith with the art of the meal the entire time and the movie is just like. lol isn't she sooo pretentious #isnt it so pretentious to engage with high art and try to read into the artistry of it. just eat a cheeseburger #god that movie thematically was so stupid. #avpost #i have watched enough food network to know that not breaking a sauce is like #its not easy but its a basic skill that a professional chef is expected to have. and youre charging thousands for this #within your own metaphor its like you can't get pissy when a critic notices your very rookie mistakes #that frankly you shouldn't be making at a high level of prestigious art. #also for me any art thats like 'look this critic character is so mean they just hurt the poor artists' will literally never play #if one honest negative review shuttered your small business restaurant then maybe you were bad at food. sorry #AND LIKE. ok i know plenty of art has been unfairly panned by critics who didnt really get it #but in my eyes when i see a piece of art complain abt critics it doesnt come across that way #its more like 'im a scam artist and i dont like that critics can call me out for making garbage and passing it off as art' #thats just always how it plays to my eyes and ears yknow #like it feels overly defensive and thin skinned like you just cant handle people not liking your creation. #so yeah. im always gonna like default to 'idk man maybe the critics had a point about you' #im also just in general like. i dont often agree with professional critics but im glad they exist. im pro critique. #which makes me biased lol

[istherewifiinhell]

i dont have close younger family nor much else experience with kids. also. i feel mostly negative about over anthropomorizing animal behaviour. but anyway. kicking a ball around with the beast in basically. a pit of dust and brambles. and yeah kicking the ball INTO the brambles. im like ohhhh yeah. ur a little kid and im getting the ball for you. Oh my god hold still just lemme get it.

#some shit #hot hot hot all da time. im so so tired all da time. but this works lol. 2 beings with bad joints kicking around a like. shin high ball. #in like..... Dusk..... #im trying to explain to him he does not have the ideal limb configuration for retriving this like. ft diameter ball from a small ditch. #nor is he wearing shoes that protect for the brambles... #just trudging around like hang on hang on im gonna get a stick #DONT. nose at it that push it further #also yes it is normally my fault its in the ditch... he cant really kick the ball very far. again. his limbs.... #he ALSO. got so so so fucking dusty. maybe ill post pics some other day #took a while to. make him. fit for indoors. again #yes i almost phrases it. negative on anthromophing animals and then like. well objectively false

[ask-bruno-and-marias-prerot]

note from mun

[giving Maria a long hat was a mistake]

#[the speech bubbles don't fit in the space between her hat and the negative space #so i have to put it very high on the canvas for it to fit #but it looks so disconnected from her and it looks odd augh #am i gonna change her design? nuh uh #maybe i'll make the canvas a bit wider for it to fit. but still] #notes from the mun

[the-kipsabian]

can i just sleep the next two and a half weeks i dont want to feel things before its london weekend and i can just focus on the positives

#anxiety is so high rn and i dont know why #but its (alongside with the current depressive episodes) affecting me physically and mentally so badly right now #i have everything taken care off i shouldnt need to do more than figure out my cat sitter stuff and check in for my flights #i could just sleep. the world doesnt need me before i can maybe see kip again. please #..also dont even get me on that depressive tangent of potentially not being able to see him cause i cant do that right now #im just so negative and im very aware of it and its eating me up im sorry #just. my brain. it hurts. im so fucking mentally exhausted i cant think #night is an absolute mess on main

[cardiac-arresting-sweetheart]

people are often so ungrateful

especially people my age like teenagers... at least i think i notice that more often. wish it were more important to people to be grateful. and respectful as well. it's not that hard...

/nbh

#azri's ramblings #like about school i think mostly #high schoolers after complaining about being able to have #what should be basic human fucking rights #among other things #also i do think people are very #disrespectful to veterans? #yeah i don't like the military as a concept and i do not like war #but jfc maybe don't be Like That #those r real people! #is this a hot take it feels like one... #Oh also context! america. #america /neg #as an american... #americans are actually so incredibly annoying #LMFAO

[courtofmuses]

Unpopular opinion, but I actually don’t like fandom based rpc positivity blogs because they always end up being a popularity contest. The same blogs get shoutouts over and over and I can imagine that makes people wonder what they’re doing wrong to NOT get a shoutout. 

I know some of y’all are gonna be like “TJ is just being emo and whiny because they never got a shoutout on it!” No. I don’t give a damn if I get shoutouts from anonymous sources on a positivity blog because 1.) I’m too old for that shit and 2.) I don’t need validation. I know I’m a good writer. 

But I still think blogs like that only end up making people feel ostracized and like they’re not good enough. In my years of experience on this hellsite and in the RPC, this is true of every fandom. Not just ST. 

Clearly, this is just my HUMBLE OPINION and it’s not meant to be a dig at anyone. I just don’t think it spreads as much positivity as people think it does. 

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ EXPERIMENT 626 SPEAKING. #negativity cw #maybe?? #i'm not trying to be negative #i just think it's very high school #it feels like the yearbook superlatives #i can already hear the counter arguments lol