Hello again scarian nation i was admittedly a little shy about posting this but i come to yall with offerings of gay kisses<3
For context this is for @sparxwrites who wrote the FANTASTIC series there's something wrong with the boatem hole which is the universe where this snippet technically takes place. This can be understood more or less without the context i think but it pairs best with reading Found first :] enjoy!!
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"Do you trust me?" Scar asks, sudden and easy as breathing.
Grian's shoulders hunch. "As much as I trust anyone, I suppose," he says, but that's not quite true. Scar is Scar, and everyone else is... he trusts them, of course he trusts them, but Scar is different. Scar is special. A tier above the rest. "I do," he amends, "trust you. You're very trustworthy, Scar, even though you swindle me half the time."
Scar doesn't rise to the lighthearted invitation to banter. His eyes are void-dark, pupils swirling with stars-- slowly, so slow Grian can track each individual movement, he reaches up to the space right above Grian's head, hovering both hands there.
Grian blinks, and his vision doubles, triples, multiplies by numbers he cannot name until he's dizzy with it, drunken reeling at the surge of multifaceted points of view. From the corner of his vision he spots his wings puffing, mantling-- eyespots blinking, glowing soft and lilac in the shadows of the Swaggon.
Scar's hands drop, grazing over Grian's ears-- he shivers-- before gently plucking at the straps of Grian's face mask.
Alarm thrills through Grian's stomach. "Scar, what are you doing."
"You said you trust me, right?" Scar replies.
"I--" Grian's throat closes. "Well I-- Scar, I didn't think that meant--"
"So trust me." Scar's voice is a murmur, low and melodical. He peels away Grian's face mask, slow enough that Grian could stop him if he wanted to.
He doesn't.
The face mask drops between them with a leaden rustle. Grian shivers again; this strange vulnerability Scar is asking of him leaves him raw, exposed-- his soft underbelly, for all the world to see.
Except it isn't the whole world. It's just Scar.
Maybe that's the same difference.
If Scar notices how Grian trembles, he doesn't comment on it. Just rests his hands at the nape of Grian's neck, curling his fingers into the short hair there. Flexing them, thumb brushing against the shell of Grian's ear in absent sweeps.
Scar grins, then, a crooked little quirk of his lips. "Still trust me?" he asks.
The words have been stolen off his tongue. Breathless, Grian can only nod his head in one sharp, staccato burst.
"Good," Scar says, quiet into the fragile space between them, and slides his hands forward to cup Grian's jaw. Gentle and slow, coaxing him closer, tilting his head up and at an angle as Scar leans down--
Scar's lips press against his own, somewhat chapped, warm all over, and Grian's breath shudders to a jagged halt in his chest.
It's a firm, confident slide of lips over his; Scar angles his head, nudging Grian with one hand, and blindly Grian follows. Parts his lips in a soundless, shaky exhale, drinking in the warmth surrounding him as his eyes flutter shut. His wings fall limp at his back, dragging on the floorboards-- he's not sure what to do with them, or his arms for that matter. Hesitant, he wraps his hands around Scar's biceps, holding on for dear life as Scar pulls him even closer, tilting his head further and deepening the kiss. Teeth flash over Grian's bottom lip-- the barest of pinpricks in between the molasses rising up to muddy his thoughts.
Grian sucks in a sharp breath through his nose, even as Scar runs one hand through his hair, weaving his fingers through the strands. For this small eternity, rationality doesn't exist; what he's left with is the tingle of his lips, the calculated capture of his cupid's bow, the mindful scrape of Scar's blunt nails against the side of his neck. Grian shudders, flutters his hand to rest on Scar's cheek, and lets himself drift.
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okay, so.
if i knew any better ways of wording this, that's how i'd write it, but it is what it is.
hi. i'm one of those people who uses tumblr as an escape. i get it— i know some of y'all gotta spread the word about the shit goin on in the world, and i can respect that.
but for some, like myself, it gets to be too much. i've had... stuff going on at home where political / world events stuff was metaphorically rammed down my throat at every instance, and it makes it more difficult for me to handle seeing that sort of content than it ever has. i know this stuff is important. i know you want the word to be spread. i know you're frustrated and tired and angry.
i get it. believe me, i do.
but some people, like myself, simply do not have the energy for these things. yes, you've probably seen me reblogging posts about the SAG-AFTRA strike stuff. things like that which, while smaller, are also very important. those were things i found i had energy for.
things that are Big world events, that involve things like politics and war, however? i can't handle it.
so.... what i'm kindly asking is, if you want to reblog those posts, that's fine. but please, do me a small favour and tag those posts. add something like natty don't look or world events or something along those lines.
thankyou.
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i just played the game 'leave house' by AYolland and it really captures how i felt in my memories. rambling about it below (spoilers under the cut, its like a 5-10 minute play and its free, definitely recommend playing it yourself. warning for themes of unreality and depersonalization under the cut and in the game itself, though)
i am in a house. i want to leave the house, but i can't yet. i go room to room. the house is not large, yet it is infinite. there are some rooms i cannot enter, they scare me. i can go in the bathroom, it gives me a bad feeling. i leave. i am uneasy.
something happens, something changes, but i do not realize it yet. i get stuck. i try to escape, but i cannot. monotony. i try everything, i try to remember patterns. none of it works. i end up in the same place. the music is overwhelming. i am desperate. i stop looking for patterns, i just walk endlessly.
i am in a new room. i am confused, it happened so suddenly. i stop for a moment. i do not want to go in the bathroom. i go in anyways. there is a person, they fill me with dread. it speaks to me. everything collapses in on itself. the world ends. i can see, but i cannot see at the same time. there are walls were there should be none, and nothingness where there should be walls. the house is infinite, more than before.
i am nothing but a jumble of noise and colors and the need to get out, to find something i cannot name. i should not exist, but i do. i drag my body through nonexistent hallways, crawling on walls and gliding across the floor. my body is heavy, yet lighter than air. i worm through tunnels and empty space.
finally, i am out of the bathroom. i have escaped hell. i go down the stairs immediately. i do not care about anything else except the feeling of relief. of freedom. nothing else matters. i am so happy. i fall into the living room. i get stuck again. i fall into despair. everything is a blur. i run out the front door. euphoria. i sprint down the driveway as fast as my distorted limbs can allow, not once looking back. i am free.
i am in a house.
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-i cannot for the LIFE of me explain what i experience in a way that makes sense, but i CAN find other things that capture the feeling and explain why i relate to those things. this game was so, so close in terms of the vibe and theme. the only differences were that the torres house was one story, and it had more open space. i also didn't encounter cesar in the bathroom, i usually saw him in hallways or from doorways because i never entered the same room as him. same for ms. torres.
-that house scared me. i never felt safe in it, even as an alternate. always looking over my shoulder. never staying in one place. even with the giddiness i knew something was wrong, and i wanted to get out of that house as soon as i could. which required killing cesar. i'm not actually sure whether or not i killed either of them, i don't remember it. but i was so desperate and hellbent to kill him that i probably did.
anyways. 10/10 game. it freaked me out because it hit very close to home, and usually i am not affected by creepy shit at all. odd mixture of comfortingly familiar and anxiety-inducing.
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