#it’ll probably go up tomorrow

[kurtsvonneslut]

i was working on cwts this morning before work and i was on a ROLL so i was thinking to myself lol maybe ill text my boss that my alarm didn’t go off and i’ll be late so i could keep writing and literally not 5 minutes later i get this text from my boss

#personal #cwts #y’all can blame kathy for the next chapter not going up this morning #it’ll probably go up tomorrow #if i have enough energy to work on it tonight that is

[etherealxwitch]

who wants to read the little steve blurb that i just wrote?

#it’ll probably go up tomorrow

[peaches2217]

Y’all know that long-ass WIP I keep talking about? The one I’ve posted a handful of snippets of but keep procrastinating on writing a proper opening?

WHO’S READY FOR THE PROLOGUE???

#it’ll probably go up tomorrow! I wanna sit on it to make sure it doesn’t need too many more revisions #I… notoriously tend to edit things AFTER posting them. so that’s inevitable #but I still try catching as much as I can prior to publication! and since this one will be multi-chapter I wanna be especially thorough

[l8tof1]

have unfortunately convinced myself that they’ll #announcelewis this week so now i can’t focus on work and keep checking twitter (derogatory)

#help. it’ll probably be november or january by the time we find out lol #but yesterday’s tweet and story were different. if it were just another rumor surely they’d just leave the story up 🧐 #and not bother apologizing for it etc #felt like someone just added the wrong publication date in their CMS #and the tweet and story were supposed to go out today or tomorrow #lewis hamilton

[littlewigglers]

Do you plan on getting any non millipede friends

I do! I’d love to get some more isopods and raise some beetles from larva again. I’d also LOVE to get back into fish keeping my faves are bettas, shrimps, corydoras and kuhli loaches! Maybe a snake or gecko further down the line? But those are what I know the least about and would be most hesitant to get as I want any creatures I get to have the best care I can give them.

I’d say the only creatures on my never list are spiders, roaches, centipede, anything else that moves overly fast or has a bad bite/is venomous/poisonous. Probably turtles too just due to their life spans.

But millipedes and isopods are what I’m able to keep right now as I’d have to get some new tanks for anything else, as well as all the research I’d need to do to be comfortable keeping them.

Oh also I do have two cats I just don’t post about them here, and I plan to possibly get a third next year but we’ll see :3

#bug babbles #I’m pretty much up to keep anything once #but I’m also very aware of myself and I get excited about new things and then often get board about 4 months later #which is when I was fine getting isopods and millipedes as I thought ‘we’ll bugs only live like a year right #so even if I lost interest I’d only need to care for them a few months more I know now that some millipedes can 10 years but that’s alright #as Millipedes have become a key interest of mine so I feel comfortable getting more long lived species and more in general #for fish it’s just the money investment of all the stuff and then the time it takes to set up a planted tank as I just love them more than #fake plants I’ve done it twice before successfully and probably failed about the last 4 times #so I’ve not gotten to the actual grtting fish part yet due to that #I know I could fork out £200 and get the tank and fish tomorrow but that’s not what I want I want a planted tank so it’ll be on going #as for why no spiders my dad used to catch them and out them in my bed as a kid for years so I just can’t handle them as an adult #he thought it was funny and would toughen me up it sadly only made me nearly cry anytime I see one now #for roaches I’m just not interested #centipedes can have a nasty bite so I’d like to avoid them and anything that moves fast reminds me of spiders so it’s a no go

[milo-is-rambling]

I have to leave the house at seven tomorrow 😭😭😭

#me when I will have to drive an hour and a half during getting to work traffic just to go be in my feelings at a hospital with strangers #it’ll probably be fine I’m just anxious cause tomorrows my first real day not just intake meeting #I’m nervous idk if I’ll be able to sleep which seems like a perfect time to try my sleep meds but I have to be fully ready to leave the #house tomorrow at seven in the morning so I don’t wanna take my sleep meds and sleep super long or wake up groggy or any of the other #potential side affects #esp with an hour and a half drive right after I get up #ughhhh gonna smoke a bowl and curl up in a ball and go to bed

[exopelagic]

okay facing consequences of my actions

#I thought I’d gotten away with it this time #okay it’s 3am and I may have discovered something that completely ruins me #everyone is asleep so I can’t tell if this is me being sleep deprived or not! #so I need to sleep now but I haven’t cleaned my code up or written my answers #I do Not have time #if I don’t sleep now I’m gonna be having a bad time tomorrow morning and I am significantly less productive rn than I could be #with other people around I kinda need that y #so I should go to bed. but also. this code needs cleaning. but also. even if I fall asleep now I’m only getting like 5 hours MAX #I need a good few hours tomorrow morning to have a shot at doing this properly #so it would be more useful to sleep now and wake up as early as possible than keep going tonight bc I’m not going to finish tonight #okay. fuck. I hate this #if I could think straight I’d be able to fix this easy which is probably a good reason to sleep #it’s just an annoying logical problem that I gotta follow through bc currently I’m stuck between three possibilities and there might be more #I have these two rasters and I gotta calculate the area overlap #the first method counts the number of presence points in each (probably) and then counts the number in overlap raster w manually set values #the second counts total predicted points and points where they’re predicted to be alone and does a calculation with that for each species #that one with all points from both species + pseudoabsence. vs method 3 which does that with just individual species coordinates #method 1&2 are now homologous now I JUST caught the logical error but method 3 is what he gave us #but actually he might have fucked up in not including pseudoabsence #i don’t know if method 3 works for two different species either honestly #it gives me results I like much more (my overlap is 100% for one of the species and that shoooouldnt rlly happen even if it’s possible) but #I think it might actually just be wrong because it can’t account for #wait so the line is taking the prediction for all coordinates for each species for each species’ initial coordinates. and not pseudoabsence #and that set of predictions for each species coordinate set is then taken and yeah it’s no longer comparable you can’t count each alone #not with two different species bc you need an overlapping dataset to do that OKAY I have solved that logical problem my initial method works #which is annoying bc the result sucks but whatever I checked the rasters and it’s actually identical so #okay now I’ve figured that out. twenty minutes later. sleep I think it’ll help most #luke.txt

[ezraphobicsoup]

^guy who takes literally any opportunity to procrastinate by organising,, and yet refuses/cannot organise his floor,,, what a sicko

#look i don’t know my head hurts and i don’t wanna use up the paracetamol i’ve got for school but i don’t wanna go downstairs #and disturb the dogs i mean i’ll see how it goes this’ll probably pass and it’ll be fine #my german folder’s so organised though it brings me such joy #still haven’t done those german speaking questions is t he issue here though #maybe i should stop like liveblogging when i’m working i dunno i dong think anyone desperately enjoys it #i mean i dunno cause i do funny text main post and just go off in the tags #and also like it doesn’t matter i can say loads of words and if people don’t care they can just. ignore it #so therefore the question is do i enjoy doing this? and the answer is well i don’t know #ok no gonna stop that there i’m getting mega introspective and that definitely doesn’t need to be here #loroeuhehh ok no i need to go to bed before like 1 tomorrows a long one #ezra’s real life rambles

[theesteemedladydebourgh]

TFTDC TFTDC TFTDC !!!!!

Omg Ange it made me smile like a loon when I saw you post today

Hope you’ve been well 💞

so guess what I fully outlined and wrote a few scenes of this afternoon 👀

(and I hope you’ve been well too, lovely! 🥰)

#I’ll post the opening scene(s) on here tomorrow once I give them an edit! #full disclosure: it will probably still be a little bit until the full chapter bc I’m going to get really busy next week #but it’ll be a long snippet to make up for that! #the first time divorcees club #funbunnypotter26

[verdemoth]

mm goin through the horrors. the horrors are bad i can’t recommend the horrors.

#my city is about to burn !! hard to say how bad it will be. but at this point damage looks likely #the fire is very unpredictable and growing and strong winds will push it this way tomorrow #my home will probably be safe. im beside the lake. it’d have to chew through the whole city to reach me #but i’m still scared for family who live closer and all the thousands of people under evacuation orders already #half the city is on evacuation alert. state of emergency declared #my province is on fire #it gets worse every year #this summer was a series of severe alerts. fiercer thunderstorms. hotter heat waves. smoke from dozens of fires #i’m not a pessimist. but at times like this. man. its hard to see a future that gets better #☹️ #i’m so. angry that it’s gotten this bad. i feel very violent abt the people who let this happen. the ones who had a say in it . #ive also been feeling extra shit physically lately and this smoke is not helping the return of my chronic cough #half of my organs are fucked up at any given time and years of seeking answers has yet to provide anything substantial #its bad. it’ll probably end up ok and many people are having it worse but fuck it’s all bad rn. #theres nothing to do about it right now. and i’ll have to try and get some sleep. too many insomnia nights recently. #just needed to yell into the void. get out some of the stress #ghhhhhhhgggghhhhh ok. gonna go find distractions until this body gets tired enough

[goldensunset]

Happy one month until tears of the kingdom 🎉

WAUGH YOU’RE RIGHT

#time is passing soso quickly… #june 2019 feels like it was only yesterday #we’ve really been waiting for this game for almost four years huh #now suddenly it’s like that’s way too soon oh man just a month #can’t believe it’s even happening feels like this was never supposed to be a real game just a myth #i’m gonna be out of school in less than a month… probably working in less than a month… #funny my brother has been saying for years now ‘once botw2 comes out i’m gonna request an entire week off of work’ LOL #imagine if i did that lol. hey i know i’ve been here for two days but it’s really important i need to play this game right now #man this summer is about to be lit… a real and interesting job… a game i’ve been waiting for for years… #i’ll be in class for the final trailer tomorrow AUGH #maybe i just shouldn’t watch it anyway. like just to avoid spoilers #i wanna go in as blind as possible actually #me from a year or so ago would’ve NEVER passed up the chance to get more info on totk but that’s bc i needed crumbs to sustain me #but now it’s like. hey it’ll be here in a month anyway and i’ve got other stuff to do in that time #same with the gameplay showcase i haven’t seen that #i’ve had all the relevant tags filtered on here for like a month ever since the art book leaked #just gonna leave ‘em on #once we get closer to the date itself i might eventually log off indefinitely #actually that’s probably gonna happen anyway #if it’s anything like last summer having a job and a game to play over the summer means i don’t need tumblr to fill my time #anyway this has been a ramble sorry #asks #rosie-kairi

[fingertipsmp3]

Playing a game called ‘how long can I put off talking about my various mental problems with a medical professional’. It’s going badly. I recommend no one play this game, 0/5 stars

#so basically i had an appointment booked tomorrow to talk about potentially getting a prescription for microgynon or similar #just to even out my cycle. but i already got a prescription from boots because i discovered that’s a thing you can do #but i was like ‘no i’ll keep the appointment and finally talk about my anxiety’ #my idea was to go in there and be like ‘so here’s the deal; i got my pills already and you should probably check my blood pressure #i’m like 99% certain it’ll be 100 over 80 as always but we should make sure it hasn’t shot up because i could like. die. #second; everybody in my life is begging me to get help for my anxiety. what do now’ #but then i thought about it and i was like…… do i really want to go to the doctor’s BEFORE WORK and also talk about all these complex issues #like i WILL cry if i talk about my mental health or lack thereof with a random stranger. i will. because it’s a humiliating conversation!! #i don’t like having it!!! there’s a reason i quit therapy 13 years ago and haven’t gone back #also i don’t want to get up that early. lately i have not been sleeping well and i need all the sleep i can get and my shift doesn’t start #til 11; which WOULD allow me to sleep in if i didn’t have a doctor’s appointment at fucking 9 #i was also thinking in my own brain like. what if i chicken out and only have them check my blood pressure (which is a pointless exercise #because it Is going to be 100 over 80 and also i could just buy a blood pressure machine and do that in my home. then they’ve put aside a 30 #minute block for someone who literally doesn’t need it. i should cancel it in case someone needs an urgent appointment #so i called them and cancelled it lol #listen. one day i will stop playing this game and just TALK to somebody. but it is not this day #i genuinely think that for the moment i can manage my anxiety with herbal remedies and meditation and just reminding myself that i am being #stupid and to shut up. like i’m fundamentally okay. i am going to work. i am functioning at work. my manager is happy with how i’m doing #and says other coworkers have told her i’m great. everyone is commenting saying i’ve lost weight and i look well #i take my little mabel for walks and i read books and enjoy my hobbies. like. i’m OKAY. #i know things could still be better but fundamentally i don’t think i have anything meaningful to tell a medical professional #like maybe everyone gets nervous and sad and feels like it’s all pointless. what do i really expect to happen #would antidepressants even help me? who can be sure. not me #tl;dr i’m FINE except when i’m not but even then i think generally i will be fine #personal

[bardockarts]

God willing, we shall have chapter eight of motley! Is Friday or Saturday a better release date?

#personal #mtow #motley’s the only wear #this is queued by the way I have no idea when it’ll go up but it’ll go !! #i will read answers tomorrow morning probably if it actually posts

[raeathnos]

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#hello hi I am so fucking burnt out 🫠 pls forgive me if I’m inactive for a bit or real fucking weird if I am here #I was supposed to have a 3 day weekend but an hour before I was done it got turned into another 6 day week soooooo 🙃 #we had terrible storms yesterday and I worked with no power and then came home to no power (it didn’t come back till 8:40pm hELP) #cat had a vet appointment which ended up being super emotionally draining and upsetting #his heart disease has worsened and he’s on more medication #and though none of these things are ever set in stone it’s looking more and more likely that he won’t live as long as a typical cat #I uh thought I was okay and then just kind of completely broke down sobbing last night #and I can’t really think too hard about it without bursting right back into tears #he’s only 6 and a half and the sweetest cat and it’s not fair #trying to stay positive but I feel so bad for him #gonna love him as much as I can for as long as he’s here which is hopefully still for a long while #it’s not a dire situation it’s just the disease progressing but like it’s still hard #dealing with too much rn #we were expecting the vet bill to be about $400 but then opted to do a few extra things and it pushed it to $750 so ouch #we’re fine we had it saved but you know how it is #he expensive but he’s worth every penny <3 #I also injured my knee so that’s fun- tore something in it I think #it’s not as bad as it was but it’s still painful and swollen and hard to bend #my dumbass is going hiking tomorrow despite this because it’s the first weekend that isn’t supposed to rain since like March #so as soon as I get out of work tomorrow I’m fucking off into the woods for a few hours to go be feral #probably bad for the knee but it’ll be good for the mental health #works only a half shiift tomorrow too and I’ll be done in the am so it should still feel like a long weekend #kinda bummed about it still tho #pls stop depending on me to pick up everyone’s slack kthnxbye #I’m so fucking tired 🫠 #on the bright side I have next weekend requested off and it’s only gonna be a 4 day work week because of the holiday #there’s a rock and mineral show here next weekend and I am very excited #gonna buy some neat rocks hopefully 👍🏻 #and assuming the weather is good next weekend and my knee doesn’t worsen I’m gonna fuck off into the woods again afterwards to be feral #gotta go rot in the woods for a bit to fix the soul; yall know how it is

[itsukicoded]

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#the thing is that i do sort of feel like a boiled frog #i feel ‘fine’ by my standards but i can’t help but wonder if im really getting worse little by little #as long as it’s not effecting my work i’ll keep ignoring it #but i keep waking up feeling nauseous my heart beating fast feeling like i was being smothered overnight #this is the fourth time in maybe six days #and im just exhausted im exhausted and i have this visceral hatred for the bird song which i used to like so much #but now it just feels like screaming from hell. i plug my ears in public. im trying to be normal #my memory is gone there’s always chunks of my day missing most time one day feels like two #there is no home when im at work there is no work when im at home the world crumbles behind me as i move forward #and my body is so weak i feel sleepy while driving i used to have the strength to push through anything #i don’t even feel depressed either i just feel nothing at all like a jar filled only with condensation #and that’s the normal stuff not even mentioning the horror cliches i keep experiencing #the figure standing and staring until i look up and their gone the person walking behind me with the knife raised to attack me and when i #turn around they’re gone. the person staring at me with a wicked face and when i look up their on their phone….well this is the normal stuff #too…..or not making eye contact with any statues just in case i provoke them holding my breath and walking quickly but that’s normal too… #but those are all internal things even the thing i feel like attached itself to me probably the same spirit that follows me up the stairs i #named it lyle but i shouldnt name them or they’ll stay #but he says doctors would get rid of him im not going to the doctor like i should #bc this is manageable but the broom in front of the door….my inner world situation is slowly trickling into my roommate’s life that’s what #i get worried about the fact that i don’t like people i don’t want friends dating is a literally chore that i can barely consider these are #normal things to her bc we both have a similar feeling but the closing doors is something she’s gotten used to #and she’s understanding abt the broom #im worried i’ll just get stranger and stranger and it’ll affect her or like i’ll start sleeping through shifts or my productivity will #decline. ppl will start saying ‘what’s wrong’ and ‘are you okay’ and it’ll drive me insane #mainly i just needed to type it i keep thinking it over and over in my head especially the figures there then aren’t #it doesn’t affect my job so much i always look directly at a customer before speaking to them just in case they disappear or aren’t really #there even if it feels like someone is standing there i always check just in case #and no one can’t really tell that i live life under a spotlight on a dark stage and have to remind myself i have life again tomorrow #idk this is the life i have so i don’t want to start thinking there’s something wrong with it #bc i will never experience someone else’s mind i think mine is just fine

[exopelagic]

i will not panic abt my exams

#it will be fine actually #I’m stressed bc they’re in. a month now like a month from today and I’ll be done #but that just means I have a whole month to be making notes I can do a lot in a month #I’m going home on Friday which is stressing me out but it’s just one week I’ll go Friday and leave Saturday/Sunday #and if I can do a handful of lectures while I’m at home that’ll be a useful step no matter what #i can probably focus on like molecular ones which are easier to structure bc I just need to pull out the mechanisms #tomorrow I just gotta read up on two topics really and then I can write the dumb mock exam which I won’t be able to do at home bc its 4 hour #I hate that we have to do that especially bc it’s got shit evil questions but whatever #and I can’t feel bad abt being slow to get back into this bc im an animal with a body and it takes a while to get back into Anything #and I’m worried abt the exam yes bc of how it went last year when I was unprepared but 1) I won’t be THAT degree of unprepared this year #2) it is unlikely that i get as insanely unlucky as I did last year #fucking hell I just. don’t think I’m made for this kinda system I can’t make myself work in it #every single term of my degree so far I’ve been fighting to keep up with everything and had no time to properly prepare for the exams #and then scraped it by working off a baseline level of being good at putting ideas together quickly and strategically working last minute #on whatever will give me the best shot at getting what I need but that’s not possible in these two exams bc I have over 100 lectures to know #I can’t do 100 lectures in a month. it’s just not possible but what I can probably do is summarise some important bits for like half of them #I think I’m bad at the whole sustained effort on a big task over a long period of time #bc this is so huge that there’s no way for me to see progress or move on to anything new bc it’s just. a stack of 100 lectures to deal with #I HOPE I’m better at dealing with project next year bc i think it’ll be more task based #and like I can watch the lectures the first time round bc there’s a set thing to do and an end point #I have genuinely no idea how to approach this in a way that will be useful achievable AND get enough done within the time I have #anyway I can’t stress abt it now bc I have to go to the shop and then home to cook. so #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #luke.txt